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PookaShell
12-08-2007, 02:50 AM
I've gotten free starbucks twice this week just for being a cuteypooka. *giggles*
Djoser
12-08-2007, 03:30 AM
WTF? 'Cutey' is an understatement, judging by this latest avatar pic, Pooka. No wonder you get free coffee. Now it's time to broaden your horizons, like maybe go for free gold, jewelry, etc.
OK, enough of this, my confession is I am a total slob and I need help. I have what could be the ultimate bachelor pad in Key West, but it's a disaster area right now. I am so tired from work the last thing I want to do is clean. All I do on my days off is recover, fuck cleaning. But it's getting embarassing.
PookaShell
12-08-2007, 03:58 AM
Okay - my turn again.
I totally look like a hippie right now. I'm sitting outside a coffee shop chain smoking and wearing an american flag bandana over my long messy hair and an oversized faded old Jimi Hendrix t-shirt and chopped up old jeans and boots and an oversized purse with pictures of leaves all over it. I need a cardboard sign that says peace or something. I look lame.
P.s. This is my favorite outfit.
PookaShell
12-08-2007, 04:02 AM
P.S. My friends parents are coming to move out my stuff at 10 am and its 5 am now and instead of packing Im...yeah. Sittin drinking coffee and sw-ing. But..but I did get all of my bedroom packed! heh...I think Im just gonna chunk the rest of my stuff haha.
LilyLove
12-08-2007, 05:01 AM
^ When I'm moving I get a thrill from leaving my stuff I don't want outside next to the dumpster for other people to take if they want it. I love going back outside 8 hours later and seeing most of it gone. Then I re-claim the rest and take it to the Goodwill.
You should do it!
I also own a lovely set of dessert plates, a potholder with some cheesy saying on it, 4 dining room chairs, and an oak dresser, only missing one drawer.
I found them all by the dumpster after people ditched them there when they were moving. *feels proud*
Scarlett.Oz
12-08-2007, 07:06 AM
I need to know everything and I hate it.
I know I'm making it hard for my ex to get over me by calling him all the time but I like talking to him cos I'm lonely, this makes me feel selfish.
I'm terrified of people thinking I'm lying so I over justify everything I say or do which makes me seem like I'm lying. I also get scared of people thinking I'm stealing from them and always keep my hands visible when I'm in stores which tends to make me look sus. I also refuse to go into a store if i have something i bought from there or something they sell there cos I think they'll accuse me of stealing it.
My ex-husband still makes me feel funny, like heart racing and queasy and hella nervous which is silly cos I don't love him anymore and he is an arsehole to me, maybe this is why. I really want to be friends with him anyway.
I can't stand it when people don't like me.
I have imaginary arguments in my head cos I'm too chicken shit to actually yell at people, I just want to be everybody's friend.
I like to be seen as the peacemaker but I've been in quite a few punch ups.
I get really sad when other couples break up or fight.
Sometimes I freak out and think that nobody likes me and I have no friends.
Sometimes I pretend that my hearing/vision is worse than it is cos I can't be bothered listening/reading something.
Last week I abused laxatives 3 days in a row and lost 3 pounds. Now I feel really guilty but I want to do it again.
I sometimes feel like my posts are too long and someone will get cross with me.
XXXS
Scarlett.Oz
12-08-2007, 07:22 AM
Oh, and i'd totally hit that too ^^^
Picaresque
12-08-2007, 01:52 PM
I'm drinking my way out of debt.
I can't successfully dance when I'm this far in debt. It paralyzes me; all I can think about at work is how much money I need to make just to break even and get out of this. As a result work is never fun or productive nowadays. Customers are like dogs--they smell fear and desperation. Which is oozing out of my every pore now b/c I owe so much money. Whenever some dumbfuck gets only one $15 topless dance I want to punch him in the face, b/c how the fuck is $15 at a time going to add up to almost $4k anytime soon? I can't even walk up to anyone and say hello without totally panicking and freezing up and looking stupid and awkward. Because all I can think about at work is "omg I NEED this money". And we all know that when you NEED it, you can't make it to save your life. When life is good and you have enough money already, then you're relaxed and more money comes as easily as water. :-\
So, I drink vodka. And then I become the happy, fun, outgoing, carefree, sexy, demanding, confident stripper that I used to be, right up until this debt shit happened.
I'm leaving this club at the end of the month; I've got 6 more shifts here. I'm determined I'm not going to drink at my next club at all.
phillyvixen
12-08-2007, 05:15 PM
Lately sometimes i imagine doing violent things to strangers who piss me off.
I never have and never will actually physically harm someone, i have never even been in a fight... but these mean thoughts keep popping in my head.
The incredibly rude lady at walmart telling me i was going to hell because i didn't take her bible book really made me want to hurt her tonight. I imagined taking the scissors off the counter and stabbing her in the eye. Sometimes i also imagine just ramming my car into the back of the car in front of me driving SOOO SLOW. I sound so psycho. I should probably delete this.
I am such a peaceful easy going person. Where is this rage coming from?
FrustratedBunny
12-08-2007, 06:02 PM
I am so lazy lately. All I want to do is keep sleeping.
ArmySGT.
12-08-2007, 06:09 PM
^ When I'm moving I get a thrill from leaving my stuff I don't want outside next to the dumpster for other people to take if they want it. I love going back outside 8 hours later and seeing most of it gone. Then I re-claim the rest and take it to the Goodwill.
You should do it!
I also own a lovely set of dessert plates, a potholder with some cheesy saying on it, 4 dining room chairs, and an oak dresser, only missing one drawer.
I found them all by the dumpster after people ditched them there when they were moving. *feels proud*
The days before Freecycle... *sigh*
I have gone to the landfill tossed out my trash and brought back things I could fix.
I am to jaded to give homeless young people money.
I am afraid .......... I miss the thrill of being shot at and missed............
PuertoRicanPinup
12-08-2007, 06:22 PM
I'm messy and lazy. My car hasn't been cleaned on the inside for months! I have lived with my bf since summertime, and I still have plastic bags in my car filled with random shit that I haven't brought into the house. I feel like I should just throw everything that's in the bags away, I obviously don't *need* anything that's in there if I haven't even bothered to take it out of my car. I think there's a perfume bottle that may have broken, my car smells like a perfume I used to wear.
teeth_of_the_hydra
12-08-2007, 06:56 PM
I wish I was witty enough to be quoted. Too bad I'm not Guybrush Threepwood.
How appropriate. You fight like a cow.
aussiebelle
12-08-2007, 10:23 PM
I've been really sad and depressed lately.
AlexxaHex
12-09-2007, 01:36 AM
Yes, it would be worth it, but I don't know how to change. Like, where do I start? I have a close friend who's a gay male... I've known him since childhood and I love him like a brother and I'm cool with him. Yet, I've been friends with him since before this phobia developed, and it doesn't seem to give me any perspective.
This stems from the fact that everyone I know who has been diagnosed with HIV is a gay male. While I'm sure that at some point in my life I encountered someone who was positive and was not a gay male, I didn't know it. And I'm terrified of infectious disease in general, and AIDS in particular because it's both terminal and deeply stigmatized.
Another awful part of this confession is: one of the reasons why I didn't feel ready to go to grad school this semester was that the discipline I'd like to study (Public Health) necessarily deals with the HIV pandemic. And... I didn't know if I could handle hearing about it so much. Just how so many people are suffering, dying every day, and it's so hopeless, and I'm so frightened by this hopelessness, by the contagion of it: one misstep and the sand in your hourglass pours faster; one more and so does someone else's.
Anyway, any advice you could give me on dealing would be helpful. I wasn't sure if you were being serious about there being a lot of gay guys in strip clubs... in my part of FL, there aren't, at least not conspicuously. But my home club is in a really redneck part of town.
Thanks for the kind words. I am really ashamed, and I appreciate doubly that you didn't make me feel worse. :hug:
I was being hardcore facetious about the gay guys in SC comment. I just think of all the times guys have insulted me and I call them gay in return, not because I think being gay is a bad thing, but because I know it bothers them. And yeah, some of them might be in the closet because they don't know how to relate to women most of the time.
Whoa - here's a trippy thought - think of all the lap dances you give and imagine that they guys are all gay! Would you still be able to do your job?
Also you should consider (not to freak you out) but many straight men who regularly pay for sex also frequent strip clubs and I'd imagine they are also at very high risk for STDs. That is actually not scientific fact but speculation based on knowing a lot of gross men custies.
But anyway, I think that for anyone to overcome their fear of something, they need to tackle it head on. First, you already know that you can't catch AIDS from touching someone, hugging them or talking to them. That is a fact. So keep that in mind. Then march right into that parade! Maybe go to the MAC counter and get a makeover from one of the artists. Head to the gym and find a workout buddy. GET THEE TO A LGBT MEETING. You yourself are half gay right? I mean, you like vagina on some level other than simple admiration from what I've read. If you need to start small rent To Wong Foo or something. Immerse yourself in gay culture, but even moreso make a gay friend. Talk to people and get to know them. They are real people. Dramatic, stylish and with good taste. I would die without gay men in my life.
BalletBaby
12-09-2007, 03:30 AM
Oh, and i'd totally hit that too ^^^
:highfive:
How appropriate. You fight like a cow.
I <3 you.
The_Oceans
12-09-2007, 06:19 AM
OK, enough of this, my confession is I am a total slob and I need help. I have what could be the ultimate bachelor pad in Key West, but it's a disaster area right now. I am so tired from work the last thing I want to do is clean. All I do on my days off is recover, fuck cleaning. But it's getting embarassing.
I am so lazy lately. All I want to do is keep sleeping.
I feel like I've found my kindred spirits...I feel exactly the same on both counts. I'm renting this awesome 3BR condo, which I've been in for almost six months, and two of the bedrooms still have packed boxes strewn about. Every weekend I mean to get organized and tidy them up, but bed always feels so warm and comfy. Heck, it's 1:15pm in the afternoon right now and I'm surprised I'm awake. I also meant to go into the office this weekend and catch up on some work...but in the words of Robert Stack in Airplane, "No dice Chicago."
I want the 19th to hurry up and get here so I can go home to the States for two weeks and not worry about work.
PookaShell
12-09-2007, 11:24 AM
I'm terrified of people thinking I'm lying so I over justify everything I say or do which makes me seem like I'm lying. I also get scared of people thinking I'm stealing from them and always keep my hands visible when I'm in stores which tends to make me look sus. I also refuse to go into a store if i have something i bought from there or something they sell there cos I think they'll accuse me of stealing it.
I have imaginary arguments in my head cos I'm too chicken shit to actually yell at people, I just want to be everybody's friend.
Sometimes I freak out and think that nobody likes me and I have no friends.
I do all of these things too! Especially the first one. It's nuts. I walk out of a store like holding my hands above my head practically and looking around whistling. It looks so suspicious. The other day I had my bag for school which is kind of big with me when I went into a bookstore and I asked the manager if I could put my bag behind the counter until I purchased my books otherwise I was going to walk around feeling like everyones watching me and my bag. She was like...uh...okay?
stellaforstars
12-09-2007, 11:26 AM
^^I do all of those things as well.
And uh...I'd really hit that too, BB. Hard.
BalletBaby
12-09-2007, 04:41 PM
And uh...I'd really hit that too, BB. Hard.
You rock.
I mean, not only is she super fucking hot, but she's got boobs AND a cock?! You can't lose!
kaiarose
12-09-2007, 05:19 PM
I'm so immature because I find myself watching Drake and Josh on Nickelodeon. Most people prolly won't know what show that is because most people are adults!
blondi553
12-09-2007, 06:47 PM
ha ha J makes fun of me for watching that! lol ^^
stellaforstars
12-09-2007, 07:36 PM
Psst...guys...I watch Hannah Montana.
It doesn't get much worse than that, right?
lestat1
12-09-2007, 08:20 PM
^^^ Well, it's better than watching The Suite Life of Zack and Cody.
BalletBaby
12-09-2007, 08:23 PM
Psst...guys...I watch Hannah Montana.
It doesn't get much worse than that, right?
^^^ Well, it's better than watching The Suite Life of Zack and Cody.
:-X.........I was babysitting alright?!
stellaforstars
12-09-2007, 08:40 PM
^^^ Well, it's better than watching The Suite Life of Zack and Cody.
Yeah...I watch that one too.
...What can I say? The girl from High School Musical's in it! ;D
saphire123456
12-09-2007, 09:50 PM
k, here are mine:
i can't decypher song lyrics- my bf laughs at me all the time cause i never know what songs are about, but sing along anyway
i really really like painting walls and other general carpentry
every time i visit my mom, i pee on my stepdad's toothbrush
my record is a week shower free
my fav food is steak tartare-i like it when it still moos a little
SundayMorning
12-10-2007, 09:20 AM
^I make fun of The Hubby for never knowing the lyrics. I'm mean about it sometimes too.
I have your "shower boycott record" beat.
My dirty confession of the day: I make racist, fat, and disabled jokes all the time.
PookaShell
12-10-2007, 03:37 PM
I'm stuffing my face and watching Judge Judy.
I just downloaded a hannah montana and billy ray cyrus duet. Its so good, I can't help it!
:sing:Im at the starting line of the rest of my life, Im as ready as I've ever been, got the hunger and the stars in my eyes and the prize is mine to win.....
Haha.
Anyway. You guys are distracting me from judy.
BalletBaby
12-10-2007, 05:14 PM
I think billy ray cyrus is cute:-[
stellaforstars
12-10-2007, 05:15 PM
^^Me too. Why is he so handsome?!?!
Scarlett.Oz
12-10-2007, 05:20 PM
yeurch, not billy.
I'm getting more ink on wednesday and for the first time with any tattoo or piercing i've ever had (and there's a few). Maybe because it's the first time i've had colour. Hmmm.
kaiarose
12-10-2007, 05:21 PM
^^ Ya know he used to be a chippendale.
Scarlett.Oz
12-10-2007, 05:23 PM
Hey, I just looked him up and he actually looks younger than he did ten years ago, amazing what a good razor can do for a bloke. I retract my yeurch.
saphire123456
12-11-2007, 08:10 AM
omg i love judge judy
PrincessShea
12-11-2007, 11:11 AM
My dirty confession of the day: I make racist, fat, and disabled jokes all the time.
These are the best kind.
Confession: I'm starting to hate my mom. And her side of the family, for that matter. Just so much drama.
TigersMilk
12-11-2007, 11:24 AM
I still have my crossdressing teddy bear and slept with it the other night to keep the weird dreams away. It worked.
Vyanka
12-11-2007, 11:43 AM
I sometimes suck my thumb to sleep.
I always loved smelling a man's armpits, if it doesn't smell rancid of course.
I pick up my nose while driving. Hey, it's safer than being on the phone right. ;D
I self sabotage relationships. The guy I've been staring at all semester just asked me out to dinner tomarrow night, and I've already started to feel less attracted to him. I suck. It's going to be awkward tomarrow night I guess.
I have no idea what to talk about on dates. In the club I can be cool, on dates theer are a lot of awkward silences. This is why I prefer dating guy sI've been friends with forever, becaus ethen I can be goofy and lame, but, it usually ends up ruining the friendship.
The guy is a hottie, very very hot, but so quiet in class it makes me think he lack s social skills. See, I'm already picking him apart.
Sophia_Starina
12-11-2007, 12:23 PM
I love Judge Judy too!
Taylorlila
12-11-2007, 12:59 PM
I am terrified of Mall Santas. I can't even handle it when they wave at me.
:(
When was 13 or so my friend and I thought it would be silly to get our picture taken with Santa. Now I was a hot 13 year old (not to toot my own horn) I had big boobies too. He INSISTED we sit on his lap even though we just wanted to stand there. Then he almost touched me boob :O .
I'm messy and lazy. My car hasn't been cleaned on the inside for months! I have lived with my bf since summertime, and I still have plastic bags in my car filled with random shit that I haven't brought into the house. I feel like I should just throw everything that's in the bags away, I obviously don't *need* anything that's in there if I haven't even bothered to take it out of my car. I think there's a perfume bottle that may have broken, my car smells like a perfume I used to wear.
I'm scared to clean my car.
girlinterupted
12-11-2007, 03:33 PM
I like gay porn
I tweeze my eyebrows because I'm stressed
I'm nervous around people unless I've known them for years
I hate parties and christmas
PookaShell
12-11-2007, 03:38 PM
I have over 300 p airs of underwear.
But my socks never match and they all have cartoon characters on them.
I sing a lullaby to my kitty cat every night when we go to sleep.
And then I kiss my bear goodnight.
I still have two barbies that I like to play with - dressing them and fixing their hair, etc.
britt244
12-11-2007, 03:43 PM
i would be happy if my teacher died. ive never hated someone so much.
i hoped that i wouldnt get into my major (before i changed it) because i wanted time off to think about if it was really what i wanted to do. it wasnt. and i did get in. if i had changed my major earlier, i would've been graduated by now and never wouldve met ^ that teacher. (its her first semester)
i want to give up on school. nothing is worth this much stress, worry, anxiety, and crying. NOTHING.
bellasera
12-11-2007, 03:57 PM
When my dad when to pick up the car, I wandered around to the green room door, found the actor and we made out until my father called, worried about me. I told him I was just walking around looking for him. And I never told the actor that I was only 16.
I got all hot reading this. You are so my hero :P
I am starting to think everyone has humped their teddy bear, including me....
beauty21queen
12-11-2007, 04:22 PM
I totally want to do my bf in the butt .I also used to hump pillows when I was little and watch channel 99 all squigly because I could still see or makeout boobs or something.I stuffed my bra with socks and scarfs in 4th grade and made them super big.
PookaShell
12-11-2007, 11:05 PM
I used to crawl under the coffee table and hump the floor to get off when I was like...4 haha.
Im watching conan obrian and this animal expert guy has a two headed turtle and conan just said: "sounds like a bad idea for a sitcom, *announcer voice* one of the turtles is a neat freak, the other - a slob! And they have to share a shell..." And I proceeded to roll around the ground for an hour and a half hooting with joy at this lame joke.
stellaforstars
12-11-2007, 11:07 PM
I've never been unhappy for such a long period of time before. I'm afraid I will be unable to pull myself out of this. This is why I've always refused to fall apart in the past. I'm never taking the advice of the entire world again.
On a lighter note, I'm obsessed with checking myself out in mirrors...If there's one around, I'm bound to be staring into it.
SundayMorning
12-12-2007, 09:21 AM
I am starting to think everyone has humped their teddy bear, including me....
Nuh uhhhh! Not me!
...I humped my stuffed dog, Fluffy.
On a lighter note, I'm obsessed with checking myself out in mirrors...If there's one around, I'm bound to be staring into it.
Me toooo! Wouldn't it suck if we got vamped and suddenly didn't have a reflection anymore? Oh...I guess the whole "being an evil undead bloodsucker" part might be bad too.
stellaforstars
12-12-2007, 09:42 AM
^^Only if Buffy or Angel came after us!