View Full Version : Anxiety / Panic Recovery and Support
TigersMilk
02-11-2008, 07:51 PM
What do you guys say to your friends about your anxiety?
TigersMilk
02-12-2008, 10:00 AM
*RANT*
I hate you anxiety! I hate that you dictate my life. I hate that you won't let me sleep or stay asleep. I hate that you paralyze me in the morning. I hate that I fear you all the time. I hate that you tell me how many people I can hang out with. I hate that you make me cry uncontrollably. I hate that you hide me away. I hate you so damn much. Go the fuck away.
veronicavale
02-13-2008, 05:31 PM
I want to sleep, too. Just through the night. Just once.
cameron_keys
02-13-2008, 05:44 PM
Why does the worst shit seem to happen when I'm ALREADY stressed to the max?? It's almost as if fate is deliberately trying to push me over the edge.....
veronicavale
02-15-2008, 10:31 PM
I wonder if my antibiotics are giving me more anxiety, because I definitely felt more of it today. And how come I couldn't sleep last night, was tired all day, but now it's 11:30 at night and I'm not in bed? Just curious. And frustrated.
Darcy Foxx
02-19-2008, 08:34 AM
*sigh*
been doing so well.
but tonight it got to me. no idea why. started having chest pains and getting dizzy and got that intense fear of having a heart attack.
why is it that my anxiety seems to flare up whenever my life is going well? i don't understand it. i struggled with severe body dysmorphic disorder for months, and when it finally started getting better and i entered into a new relationship and was genuinely really happy, i had my first ever anxiety attack. now, i'm feeling mentally stable for the first time in months... i have no upsetting attachments to boys i can't have, i'm about to start uni and i'm really excited, i'm making new friends, having regular good drama-free casual sex with a really nice guy... and i get smacked with another severe attack.
WHY DOES IT HAPPEN LIKE THIS!??! :(
Lysondra
02-19-2008, 03:18 PM
I forgot my pills for two days.
I was on the floor crying again about my miserable life.
Good to know.
jaizaine
02-20-2008, 08:27 AM
For any of you who have been on SSRI's for a prolonged period of time and are having panic attacks please get your medication/dosage checked.
My psychiatrist changed my dosage to an extra 50 mg and i have not felt this good for months.
Having sessions with my psychiatrist is causing me a bit of anxiety tho. He keeps wanting to talk about anxiety provoking issues. When I leave I feel worse.
britt244
02-21-2008, 10:17 AM
What do you guys say to your friends about your anxiety?
i dont describe it well with words. ive told them i feel closed in, but i didnt get to that without telling them "i feel.. like this.." and shaking my hands around fast and tight a ton of times. haha.. that doesnt make sense to describe it. but you might know what i mean. and then i tell them it makes me feel like im going at full speed and i cant calm down.
im really, really scared to take medication. ive wanted it for so long and now im scared. im having anxiety over THAT now. im scared i'll get addicted to something. i'm scared i'll gain weight. i'm scared of lots of things. crap.
NinaDaisy
02-21-2008, 12:54 PM
*sigh*
been doing so well.
but tonight it got to me. no idea why. started having chest pains and getting dizzy and got that intense fear of having a heart attack.
why is it that my anxiety seems to flare up whenever my life is going well? i don't understand it. i struggled with severe body dysmorphic disorder for months, and when it finally started getting better and i entered into a new relationship and was genuinely really happy, i had my first ever anxiety attack. now, i'm feeling mentally stable for the first time in months... i have no upsetting attachments to boys i can't have, i'm about to start uni and i'm really excited, i'm making new friends, having regular good drama-free casual sex with a really nice guy... and i get smacked with another severe attack.
WHY DOES IT HAPPEN LIKE THIS!??! :(
Because for people who are used to feeling depressed and anxious, it's common to wait for the other shoe to drop when things really are going well. This is something that I only recently managed to deal with, and it's a huge problem for my last boyfriend.
For the time being, make an effort to focus on the moment and how much better things are right now. I know it's much easier said than done, but you can retrain your brain to have fewer obsessive thoughts. It won't make the problem go away, but it's worth a shot.
Glad to hear things are going well for you though. Please try to enjoy it. :)
britt244
02-21-2008, 07:38 PM
i just want a fucking happy pill that will make everything better. is that too much to ask? i really, really want my pills to work. REALLY.
i really wanted ativan to be it for me. i DO NOT want something to take daily. i cant do jitters, or anything. that will make me worse. i dont want to start it because then when does it end? never?
if the ativan doesnt do it, i guess i'll switch to xanax. or maybe he just prescribed me too low of a dose. .5mg. that seems small.
veronicavale
02-22-2008, 07:22 AM
Because for people who are used to feeling depressed and anxious, it's common to wait for the other shoe to drop when things really are going well. This is something that I only recently managed to deal with, and it's a huge problem for my last boyfriend.
No kidding! I'm exactly like this as well. It sucks when I can't even enjoy my wonderful life.
veronicavale
03-09-2008, 03:50 PM
I think my celexa/buspar combo is working, which is good. I'd say I'm about 70% depression free and about 50% anxiety free. I like to quantify things :) I think my daily mood is much more stable, and I'm way less anxious when driving and at work. And I haven't been on the buspar very long (about a week) so it will only continue to improve. The talk therapy is helping me deal with the complex relationship my mom and I had before she died, so that's good. I just feel pretty positive about my progress to this point, and I wanted to share.
britt244
03-09-2008, 03:58 PM
^ i'm happy for you :)
britt244
03-09-2008, 08:15 PM
night time and the dark make me have serious anxiety. i don't like it. i imagine things and even though i clearly can see they arent there, they make my chest feel tight.
veronicavale
03-10-2008, 10:08 AM
^^I'm still scared to go into the basement at night...don't know why...it just freaks me out.
cameron_keys
03-10-2008, 10:11 AM
Ok so I've been one big panic attack since yesterday over this biopsy thing. I'm literally twitching I'm so on edge, I feel like I'm going to throw up and my heart is going a mile a minute. And no damn drugs work on me so I just have to deal with it..this fucking sucks
I might ask my doctor to up my dosage of Effexor. I've been a lot better since taking it regularly again, but I still have to take my Klonopin everyday for my panic attacks. I just want the panic attacks to go away forever and just be normal again! :'(
Katrine
03-12-2008, 12:12 PM
I've been having major panic and anxiety the last few days coupled with the depression. The only time I'm happy is w my boyfriend and we're drinking. I can't rely on alcohol to calm my nerves though, as it makes everything worse the next day.
I don't take anti-anxiety meds but Ambien does help as it causes a hypnotic state and amnesia, then sleep. Unfortunately no one should take it unless they are about to go to bed, it causes crazy shit to happen if you aren't in a safe place. So I don't think its a good pill for most of you who suffer.
But yeah, I'm in bad shape. And its getting worse, I have to have a talk with my boyfriend that might destroy everything. I don't know what to do.
ColetteCalahan
03-12-2008, 04:44 PM
shit, i should have been posting in here from the beginning. i have been an anxious mess. i have a midterm today and i can't focus at all. i haven't been on anything in years and i'm scared. life's a rollercoaster and i need it to be calm....
TheSexKitten
03-12-2008, 05:13 PM
I'm feeling really anxious. About everything. Sometimes I get scared that my bf will hate me when I open the door to come home, and the thought of taxes and bills and savings and debt is piling up, and the thought of work is just.... *shudder*... stressful.
I've been snapping at my boyfriend randomly. I've been trying to do more cooking and tidying, and I'm supersensitive right now to how much he helps me with the chores because I'm doing most of them.
britt244
03-12-2008, 10:52 PM
i'm starting to get anxious about money. for some reason i'm feeling lazy at work and not caring about trying guys. i have no reason, really, to be anxious about it, because i could take the whole month off work and be fine. but tonight i started to feel a little nervous because it was another bad one. and i cant figure out why i stop trying, my manager pointed out to me on saturday that i gave up on the night, and he didn't know why because i'm not one of those girls that needs somebody to crack the whip and remind them to work.
:-\
xanax makes me feel goooood, though. but i can almost feel the twinge in my chest trying to break through.. i freak out about night and stuff, like i said, and i just came home and i need a shower.. its weird because i know the feeling should be there, and i still have the thoughts. like when something is on the tip of your tongue.. i feel like my anxiety is sitting right under the surface.
Katrine
03-13-2008, 09:49 AM
Mmmmmm, xanax. I need a xanax holiday. Shit makes me retarded though.
britt244
03-13-2008, 01:05 PM
i'm liking it sooo much better than the ativan. though i dont know if i could take it and continue to go about my day. i've only taken it twice, at night, when i was tired anyway.
TheSexKitten
03-13-2008, 02:52 PM
ahahaha.
So in Ab. Psych. we studied the effect of stress on physiological disorders. As part of the lesson, the professor gave everyone a life-stress inventory that lists life changes (mainly neg, some pos), and anything that's happened within the past year, you have to add up.
The "healthy" range was <150
The "25% chance of having a stress-related medical problem" range was 150-300
And the "80% chance of having a stress-related med. problem" range was anything over 300.
I was 2nd in the class (we did an anonymous data arrangement thing), with a grand total of 547, only 2nd to the guy who likes moving around all the time who takes 21 units and works full-time.
I was cracking up every time I circled one of the things about changing jobs, having new responsibilities at work, etc, because the nature of my job now is just SO DAMN stressful in itself
I handle stress very well and always have but I think I'm in over my head. I feel like crying and yelling and screaming and hiding all at the same time
britt244
03-13-2008, 03:09 PM
^ huh. i want to do one of those. i remember doing them in school...
why do i get SO angry when i work out sometimes? sometimes i'm fine, but other times i just want to SCREAM. i start working as fast as my body can possibly go and i flip out. it isn't a fun feeling.
TheSexKitten
03-13-2008, 03:11 PM
^^^ If you want, I could type it up for you and PM it. It might be a good tool to see how many stressors you have currently affecting your life.
britt244
03-13-2008, 03:11 PM
http://www.jeassociates.com/eap/stress_inv.html
i found one online. that's the standard one, right? i got a 405. thanks for offering, though! :) a lot of it is job related...
eta: i looked at a different one that says it's created by the same people(both Holmes-Rahe), but it was kind of different. i got over 500 on that one. weird.
TheSexKitten
03-13-2008, 04:23 PM
The only thing to consider about the inventory is that it doesn't measure how an individual copes with stress, so you could be experiencing more or less based on your own psychological/genetic makeup.
Katrine
03-14-2008, 02:26 AM
This is really, really bad. I may have two change one or two major things in my life, like, tomorrow. I have to make a decision, and they will both be awful.
TigersMilk
03-14-2008, 04:39 PM
^I hope everything went well with your decisions Kat.
I'm having some anxiety today for longer than I thought. I took a nap and thought it would go away. I think it has to do with making good money tonight at my last night of work before surgery, fearing how surgery will go, hoping that I don't have panic episodes post op. A multitude of things. I can't wait to see a doc for meds. It'll be about 2 weeks from now though. I'll hold tightly on whats left of my ativan.
Been feeling really anxious the last few days. My allergies have been horrendous and my ears and eyes have been red and stinging. I hate the air here! I just want to breathe. Oh well, I shall finish eating and take my pill before I start to hyperventilate.
gingerlee
03-14-2008, 05:39 PM
Been super anxious and irritable the past 3-4 days. I can fake it at work but if I'm not there I won't leave my hotel room. Not even for food, I order room service. There's something in the pit of my stomach that keeps telling me 'something bad is going to happen. Something bad will happen if you go outside'.
It sucks balls.
britt244
03-18-2008, 05:53 PM
posted this in the random thread but i wanted to put it here, too.
i just felt super weird in the tub again. like my body was tingling on the inside, or something. and then i started getting the "ok, i have to get out NOW" feeling and i felt guilty about taking a xanax. but thats what theyre for.. they dont do much good sitting in the bottle.
but i get paranoid thinking "hmm, i wonder how long these will last me and what the dr will think about how long 20 pills lasted when i call him for a refill." ive taken 6, including tonight's, since i got them, which was 12 days ago. damn, i dont even remember taking them that often, really. maybe i counted wrong. i dont know. but its the addict in me talking, i guess, with the thoughts about maybe he'll think i'm abusing them.
and there's a nagging in the back of my head thinking maybe i AM abusing them because it isnt always an emergency when i take them. though.. how possible is it, really, to abuse .25 mg of xanax? haha.
:-\
i'm having weird feelings with the anxiety lately. last night i calmed myself down just fine. recently though, like i said, the feelings have been right under the surface, and not making their way into full blown panic attacks. that isn't any more fun, i don't think. its like, just get it over with already!
cameron_keys
03-18-2008, 06:52 PM
Well apparently my Cymbalta has been working since I went through insanely irritating withdrawl when I stopped taking it for a week. I also was pissed off and upset ALL the time and was starting fights with hubby every day..to the point I looked up flights to Portland and contemplated calling Yek to see if I could stay with her for awhile.
Back on it for a cpl days now and I feel fine. No fights, no brain zaps..I feel more normal again. Not happy for no reason..I'm still stressed, but I'm not insane anymore.
Oy... I've been really anxious these past few days. I'm watching my parents dog while they are on vacation, and the dog has never been away from them for this long. He's been being BAD! Getting into the trash, constantly begging me for food when I am in the kitchen, whining, barking... he even growled at me last night and he NEVER growls! I'm so exhausted and sleep deprived. He wakes me up at all hours of the night whining. I missed a very important appointment today, because I was so tired, that I couldn't bring myself to get out of bed and get ready. It was probably better that I stayed home then go out and drive in rush hour traffic all fatigue. I hope I get good sleep tonight. Groceries are running low and I need to eat.
veronicavale
03-23-2008, 05:05 PM
I rolled last night and it was so much fun...it's been years. But today I feel anxious. Stupid serotonin.
flickad
03-24-2008, 01:54 AM
Since putting down some of my ED and OCD behaviours, I've noticed that I'm in a constant state of anxiety. I wonder how many people have anxiety issues that are masked by compulsive behaviours?
Lysondra
03-24-2008, 09:33 AM
^ I'd tell you, but I have to vacuum my floor again first.
AmazingKat
03-26-2008, 01:28 PM
I don't know if this is the right place to put this but..... I'm looking for a psychiatrist in the LA or OC area who hopefully specializes in anxiety and panic disorders. I'm not quite sure where to start. I tried the psych services at my school and since I waived the student health insurance plan (I already have private insurance but they won't take it) they aren't much help. I was hoping someone could make a suggestion or point me in the right direction. I've been trying to handle this on my own by figuring out what stresses me out and removing it but its become clear to me (and others) that the problem is much more deep rooted and is starting to really destroy my life. I've always found my best doctors by referrals from friends but I don't know anyone that see a psychiatrist.
TigersMilk
03-29-2008, 09:36 PM
At least you have private insurance. It should be alot easier for you. I know at least for every city there are psych referral lines for free so that you can find a psych. I'm sure your school should have a list of lines to call or they can give referrals.
http://therapists.psychologytoday.com/rms/prof_search.php
I've had luck with this place
http://www.find-a-therapist.com/
and here too.
britt244
03-30-2008, 01:06 AM
surprisingly, im NOT having anxiety. after work on a saturday.. thats amazing. i was in such a good mood today and then after work i had the funniest conversation with my friends. i forgot what it feels like to be in a good mood!
BrodieLux
03-30-2008, 02:50 AM
I actually left work in the middle of my shift tonight due to an anxiety attack. I am usually a hustler, but tonight I could barely get through my stage routine and couldnt ask any custies for dances. I was so freaked out. Everyone noticed. The management doesn't like to let anyone leave early, but they didn't give me any kind of disagreement at all. I think it was just obvious that I was a mess. I made like $10 for 3 hours of work. I called a good friend and he made me feel a lot better. Then I went out to see a local band and had a couple shots, and that helped, a little, and then I went to the local diner and struck up some conversations with the locals and got my mind off of things.
I think I need a new club. There's something weird about this one. The anxiety, though, is because I had sex with two bisexual men -- one very recently -- and they have both been very promiscuous, and not very safe at all, and I'm scared to death that I got something. I just have to get tested on Monday to clear my mind.
Darcy Foxx
04-01-2008, 12:46 AM
fuck
just had the worst attack i've had in MONTHS. i had the most severe vertigo imaginable, just felt like i'd come off the fucking gravatron ride at the fair. i seriously came thiiiiiis close to calling a fucking ambulance because i thought i was about to have a brain anuerism or something
fuck
TheSexKitten
04-01-2008, 08:35 PM
Eek! :hug: :( Hugs for you, Darcybear!
I've started to realize that I'm sort of an all-or-nothing type girl. I either have to be getting perfect straight A's, be skinny and pretty all the time, have a clean house, be social with all my friends, etc. OR I get frustrated and/or burnt out and just give up. It's like I can't handle the in-betweens.
BrodieLux
04-01-2008, 08:45 PM
Update: Clean bill of health. Whew. Be safe kids.
TigersMilk
04-01-2008, 09:47 PM
^^Glad that weight was lifted off your shoulders.
veronicavale
04-02-2008, 10:18 AM
I laid in bed last night forever with my heart just pounding. I finally got up and took 2 klonopin. Didn't really help. And I'm so depressed. What's wrong with me? I was doing so well... Oh, and I couldn't even bring myself to go to work last night. I'm going to try to get out of it tonight as well. I feel like such a loser when I let my anxiety/depression overtake me, but I just can't imagine going in. I feel like I'm about to have a breakdown...
i.breathe.in
08-18-2008, 11:01 AM
i havent been to work for 2 weeks. just becuase...i dunno.
britt244
08-18-2008, 01:27 PM
im having really really bad anxiety pretty much 24/7 lately. i know why and i just want it to stop.