Log in

View Full Version : Rant - Vent - POST IT HERE



Pages : 1 2 3 4 5 6 [7] 8 9 10 11 12

Hello_Kitty27
07-10-2008, 03:07 PM
he shouldnt have stopped me.


shut UP. >:( >:( >:(

it makes me really sad that you would say that.

hey, i just saw this ....:hug:.....hope you're OK CK.

CKXXX
07-10-2008, 03:08 PM
shut UP. >:( >:( >:(

it makes me really sad that you would say that.
Yeah well...the harder I try to fix things the more fucked up they get. I just dont see the point in bothering anymore. People hate me, fate obviously hates me....I dont know what I've done to deserve this but I guess I did something.

Sophia_Ashley
07-10-2008, 03:24 PM
^ not to be an asshole but I mean this with all care.

Quit dwelling on the bad shit and start concentrating on the good. You are only making matters worse for yourself and things won't get better if your mindset is in the shitter.

You can want things to be better all you'd like, but you have to will them to. Otherwise it's not going to happen. Shit isn't magically going to fix itself. And you can't do ANYTHING about what has already been done. You can only worry about today and tomorrow.

Constantly thinking about suicide and anger means you aren't living a life, you are just existing in it.

And it's not about "deserving" with all do respect. Stop wallowing in misery and making excuses because it'll get you now where and start living your life. And yes it is that simple.

now hugs.

britt244
07-10-2008, 03:26 PM
ck i pmed you. but in short - it would be selfish to leave your husband behind to deal with everything on his own, PLUS dealing with the fact that you were gone. and youre not a selfish person. so quit thinking that way.

CKXXX
07-10-2008, 03:34 PM
Stop wallowing in misery and making excuses because it'll get you now where and start living your life. And yes it is that simple.
.

You are right 100%. My husband keeps telling me this. I feel like I am being lazy because I'm not accIomplishing anything,but I'm so overwhelmed right now I dont even know where to start.

Dont worry everyone..I'm not going to do anything. I was just venting. Everything is just building up right now and I needed to get it out. Thats all,I promise.I didnt even think anyone would have a clue what I meant.If I did,I wouldnt have posted it.

Dixie_Vancouver
07-10-2008, 03:55 PM
Take care, CK. :grouphug:

I know it's beating a dead horse and seemingly fighting a pointless battle, but I'm so sick of people being judgemental towards the sex trade and assuming they know things that they don't know. :banghead:

Cherry Valence
07-10-2008, 03:56 PM
Boyfriends just get in the way of everything sometimes...

Cherry Valence
07-10-2008, 03:58 PM
And I'm also pretty sure I'm losing my goddamn mind. I don't know what version of myself to be anymore, I've changed a lot and I'm giving less of a fuck. I haven't eaten all day and it's late. That's probably why I'm having trouble forming thoughts. Again, I've put too much on my plate.

Peanut_Butter
07-10-2008, 05:57 PM
so miserable. every second of every day. it's even in my dreams. I dream all night of peple weeping. that's when I actually manage to sleep, which isnt often. my average is about 2-3 hours a night anymore.

TheTempest
07-10-2008, 06:09 PM
I can't stop crying. I want to serious just not wake up and I KNOW it's because of my medication issues but I just still want to hurt myself.

I'm looking forward to not feeling anything again when the medication kicks back in.

RoseLeigh
07-10-2008, 06:44 PM
Wow. SW's a mess. *hugs everyone*

Now my vent: I do not need you to drive up here to bring me my towel and bath stuff I left at your house. I do not want to talk. I know you're going to anyway, but DON'T!

Hello_Kitty27
07-10-2008, 07:54 PM
I am such a fucking idiot sometimes. I seriously can not even believe myself right now. What the hell am I doing?!

(and no, this is nothing to do w/ my recent "fool me once" thread....thank god that whole thing is over....but I'm still an idiot!)

ever7
07-10-2008, 08:47 PM
f*** F*** f*ckety FUCKFUCKFUCK ahahahaha.
AHAHAHAHHAHAH
ahahahbahahhaahAHAHHAHAGHAHHRANT IMA SO FREAKING ANGRY


breathe........ahhhhhh..

im angry, more with myself. why cant i find a nice guy. why cant i find a less expensive =warmer place to live with parking. why am i not making anymore money.

im am also miserable. and i keep picking and having guys in my life who emotionally and monitarally drain me and i cant cut the cord because i think i need to get something out of them too, or that there must be something good in them somewhere. when i really want to tell the how i feel that they are a piece of crap and selfish.

wow. thanks for letting me get that out:(

Peanut_Butter
07-10-2008, 10:42 PM
Wow. SW's a mess. *hugs everyone*


we are a sad bunch right now, aren't we?

I propose tequilla and movie night. We need like, a girls only huge ass sleepover where we watch sad movies and cry into our ice cream or something. then have a buncha girly sex to make it all beter.

RoseLeigh
07-11-2008, 12:45 AM
we are a sad bunch right now, aren't we?

I propose tequilla and movie night. We need like, a girls only huge ass sleepover where we watch sad movies and cry into our ice cream or something. then have a buncha girly sex to make it all beter.

Party at my new apartment? (When I find one!)

$$$magnet
07-11-2008, 12:54 AM
Dear Douchebag with Over-inflated Ego,

FUCK YOU for abusing the most awesome, beautiful woman I know!
- NO, she is not a whore for taking her clothes off to pay for her education... While you, BTW, sit on you ass with barely a GED.
- NO, you are not allowed to hit her whenever you feel like it and to use your personal insecurities for justification (and YES, you should be castrated for such pathetic actions, you wimp)
-and YES, I will chop off those pathetic little things hanging betweeen your legs that you call balls if you ever go near her again.

GROW THE FUCK UP!!!!

Lysondra
07-11-2008, 08:48 AM
4444444444444444444444444444444444444t h

is my cat's rant

GoldCoastGirl
07-11-2008, 01:21 PM
* Fuck you myspace!!!!

I just posted a really wonderful insightful blog about something I really wanted to blog about... and I got that blasted error message when I went to post it.. and because I'm using my boyfriend's stupid fucking HP with Vista ... yeah.. error message and it doesn't save the blog!!!

Not like my darling MacBook. I could've gone back and tried again for some reason I don't have that problem (the loosing of all the blog when I hit "back") ... so on top of a FUCK YOU MYSPACE... I want to say FUCK YOU VISTA !!!!!

Oh and fuck you to my boyfriend (said with love) as all his early morning starts for work have made sure that I'm up now. ;D I have been awake since 4am-ish and now it is 6.30am. I'm not going to feel tired for another half hour by which time him and his kids will be up. ARGH.

(yes I stayed overnight at his place .. and he has his kids for the weekend.. I like his kids so that isn't a big deal to me...)

:( Oh. Also. FUCK YOU QANTAS for your airfares to Emerald. I could go to Perth or overseas and back again for the same price for a ONE WAY airfare from Brisbane to Emerald. FUCK! So now I have to leave on MONDAY because I will need to go to Rockhampton and catch a bus (boo!!) to Emerald!!! It also means that I have to stay overnight in Emerald to leave on FRIDAY (which means it will hinder my chances for work that day). FUCK YOU QANTAS!




and SW is not a mess. This is the rant thread. It isn't mean to be all sunshine and moonbeams and happiness. It is place for people to feel safe enough to let loose about whatever in their life. I know I just need this thread at times (and don't care for any responses.. and sometimes prefer people to NOT respond as I am just ranting).

Sophia_Ashley
07-11-2008, 01:39 PM
dude wht is with people and the need and want to be "pity me" not the "I'm having a rough time" but "please feel sorry for me because I MUST be the only one that's been through anything ever ever" shit.

WHY REHASH SHIT TO EVOKE ATTENTION!!!

Anyways.

Wickedwyrm
07-12-2008, 01:50 PM
Rant & Vent thread...

Anyway, I have fixed alot or in process right now, so I have less.

Damn, my turning 30 on wednesday and likely being alone and having no plans during it.

Also, Fuck you, you fucking fucks, I don't have the money to pay you, so you can stop harrasing me, if I could afford a lawyer, I would have you served for harrasment. (debt collectors)

Lonesome, that too.

LadyLuck
07-12-2008, 01:51 PM
Arg!!! Wtf is with people getting nasty when trying to help them with something that they ASKED for help with in the first place.

I swear sometimes I think more undeserved shit hits the fan when trying to be nice to people than if I were to be as nasty to them as they are towards me.

*deep breath* I will not be a b*tch just b/c other people are one. I am better than that *deep breath*

britt244
07-12-2008, 02:40 PM
::)

people.

GoldCoastGirl
07-12-2008, 04:15 PM
I'm NOT having a great start to the day today. Bleh. :(

Sophia_Ashley
07-12-2008, 04:25 PM
I don't want my company tonight. I know I constructed the entire hang out and all that crap. But Im kinda in the poor house, I'm sooo sleepy (no caffiene for me today) and this means I have to go scour the bathroom...again. I'm so paranoid that someone will come over and see a hair or something. I freak out about this more than I should.

I know I'll have fun. I'm just very reclusive lately

Lysondra
07-12-2008, 04:46 PM
I DIDUN GET LINCOON LOGGIES FOR MY BIRFDAY

I upset.

:cry:

indianprincess
07-13-2008, 12:04 AM
ARGH! I.AM.SO.GASSY!
It's just sitting there. And I don't want to push it, because I really don't feel like dealing with that potential mess.

Is there a gassy mood?

Lysondra
07-13-2008, 12:48 AM
I'm always amazed at how much M screws up the same things. :/ For fuck's sake.

Sophia_Ashley
07-13-2008, 12:55 AM
Ive been on here all day, rotating out to get food..turn the channel and amazingly shower and do my hair. This is the worst 2 week lupus flare ever. I hope to god my entire life with this fucking miserable disease isn't like this! I have to go to work tomorrow. I'm 4K in debt for this month alone. I need to earn it this week. All of it.

And just to bitch about the shit for a minute because I refuse to let on to Chris how bad it's been. My migraines are still making me vomit and nothing is helping it. I have the flare rash..across my nose and cheeks..and my shoulders. I look like I've had too much sun. And my right thigh in the front is BURNING. a weird horrible burn.
I keep getting dizzy and by all means I'm eating. And my poor feet, they are like ice. I have 3 pairs of socks on. one pair of american aparel thigh highs, then their thigh high socks and those fuzzy ones you get at the dollar stores on top of it. Yet I can't feel my fucking toes. It's not as bad as it's been. Where I've had to heat up a rice bag and cry while I warmed my toes.

I miss my cat. I miss my boyfriend.

I'm very lonely and being isolated and ill isn't helping matters. I have 19 dollars to my name. Tomorrow I have to go earn money and I'm scared because I'm outta the motion of stripping since I've had 45 days off.

I really really realy don't want to have lupus. I know no one wants it. but like for real. I'm done. this shit sucks dick. I'm taking nothing for it other than vitamins .I actually went off of my xanax on purpose.

Bah!

Ladytramp
07-13-2008, 01:26 AM
It's ridiculous, no one will insure me and I'm relatively healthy and young.

What's more ridiculous than that? In my latest rejection letter they didn't say shit about the tachycardia or the anemia, nope, I was rejected due to my history of depression and anxiety.

Well, fuck YOU, you greedycorporateselloutfuckwadassmunching medical review "doctor." I hope you get fired for taking bribes or whatever and then can't get insurance for your fucking family because of your history of being a fat, impotent douchebag.

Whew, feel a little better now.

TigersMilk
07-13-2008, 02:48 PM
Fuck you capital one! You're getting your money back as soon as the check arrives. No more you fucking me with your high interest. Then I'm going to close my account. Mwahahaha fuck you...fuck you in the ass crapital one!
http://emonizer.googlepages.com/thefinger29.gif (http://emoticonizer.info)

carmen_b
07-13-2008, 03:04 PM
I am chasing after a renter after owning a rental property for only 6 months. This girl owes me $700 and I think she thinks she is going to get away with it ... and it's not going to happen. After making threats about collection agencies and threats about small claims ... I now have to get the papers and get going on it. It's a pain in the ass.

I also reduced her rent because she was supposed to add me onto her flight benefits .... and of course she didn't. For months ,she had to issue me buddy passes to fly. She was supposed to add me on as her buddy ( meaning I could take an open seat without a pass ).

It's been 5 weeks. She could have worked 14 night shifts waitressing at a chain restaurant to pay this off ( only $50 a night ). She's too much of a fat ass to dance ... so that's out. I'll take some comfort there ... lol.

And ...... that's not the only person I'm chasing for money ( the others are not rental related ).

What a good time to find the rant thread !

Lysondra
07-14-2008, 06:05 AM
ARRRGGHHH! Our playstation laser is breaking and it needs replaced but we have it modded so we can't get it replaced anywhere conventional and the only unconventinal place went out of business!!!

So now I have to buy a new playstation2 and get it remodded... and that'll cost like $300. :censored: A repair would normally cost $80 max.

I wanna play all my American games and my burned games. How else am I gonna get illegal copies of every game I rent? HUH?! HUH?!

MrChristopher
07-14-2008, 02:27 PM
Medical bills are fucking ridiculous. Insurance rates for my family for a plan that is even slightly worth having are fucking ridiculous. Live in a decent house, or get insurance? Feed my family, or get insurance? Way to go, America. ARGH.

CKXXX
07-14-2008, 02:43 PM
FuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFuckFu ckFuckFuckFuckFuck

WHY do I have to be a scatterbrain and lose important shit??? Now I have to look like an ass to get a new one. FUCK

TigersMilk
07-14-2008, 04:53 PM
I am absolutely disgusted by the minors that are messaging me and writing me inappropriate sexual things on myspace. Damnit those kids parents do your job! Monitor your kids web activity.

Flaka
07-14-2008, 09:11 PM
^i feel you on that one TM! I'm so sick of myspace kids!

Hello_Kitty27
07-14-2008, 09:31 PM
I am really fucking pissed and disappointed at people. I'm sick of it all and would like nothing more than to fling my phone at someone's head. For real.

And I'm really sick of not sleeping. I think it's stress. Due to people being idiots.

Damnit. I am so done.

Peanut_Butter
07-14-2008, 11:40 PM
I'm ready to quit school. I only have 2.5 more weeks to go and I have nearly a perfect A in the class..but I can neve rsleep at night. I'm so fuckign tired of being a zombie. Half of it is due to stress, the other half of it is my body just not being programmed to go to sleep at 10pm and wake up at 4am. I cannot fall asleep before 2am. So I am getting 2-3 hours of sleep a night. On weekends, I study for tests and go to the strip club. Nevr time to catch up and sleep in. Even if I did have time..I just cant sleep anymore for longer han a few hours. I worry to much abotu bills and moving. The rent was due on the 1st, it's the 14th, we were served the 5 day evictionnotice on the 5th...borrowed time now. I have t hide my car in the garage and peek out before I leave to make sure a tow truck isnt waiting outsde for me. COnstant stress. Then my boyfriend nagging me that I have to go to work 3 days ths week to try and pay these bills..I do not functino under stress. I shut down. just the thought of needing to work or lose everythign makes me shut down and unable to actually go to work. he says do what you have to do. if I go in, I will not make money. I know this. it happens in the past, many times. I cannot do it. even thinkign about the weekend comming is stressing me out so bad I have smoked 4 packs of ciggs today. that I cant afford. And my boyfriend is bitchign about my vacation comming up when I finish school and that I cant go if the bills arent paid..valid point. but my friend already bought my nonrefundable ticket. i cant screw him over. so I need to get these bills paid before i go. but I cant function with this stress. Im already concidering sayign fuck it to chool. I cant handle pressure!! I lost all my coping ability when i got depressed and started having anxiety attacks last year. I completly lost coping ability.
fuck. I wanna jump off a bridge. I really cant handle pressure from everywhere. IM tired of beign so tired. i just want to sleep peacefully.

Lysondra
07-14-2008, 11:44 PM
YEARGHHH!! The entire Brisbane communications system had a meltdown today. Not a single person's mobile nor internet worked all day. I couldn't even call people or check online to see if they were okay.

it's shocking how important that stuff is when you lose it all.

VegasPrincess
07-15-2008, 12:56 AM
Dude, fucking guys that call me for phone sex....PLEASE TALK!!! PLEASE!!!

Mr very nice Southern Gentleman who just called me, I certainly DO appreciate the 25 dollars from your call and you being on line for half hour with me. That said PLEASE!! Talk!! Do you have any idea how hard it is to describe fucking you and giving you a blow job without you saying A WORD? It's really hard! Several times I thought perhaps you had hung up or there was some weird phone error, but when I asked you "do you like that Daddy" you assured me you did. And you were very polite when we hung up, and I do hope you call me back. BUT PLEASE TALK. PLEASE. PLEASE. I know you're paying for my service and it ain't cheap, but PLEASE, talk. Makes life easier on me you know ? That is all.

Hello_Kitty27
07-15-2008, 06:56 AM
Are you fucking kidding me?!!!? My fucking TV just completely broke. I just spent about 80 million dollars on a mini-vacation, and another 80 million on much-needed clothes and beauty products. This could NOT have come at a worse time.

AND I must must MUST get my car # 2 fixed. It failed emissions, I have no clue why, and I have to have this done by the end of the month, b/c it has to pass emissions by then.

FUCK! I am so pissed right now.

GoldCoastGirl
07-15-2008, 07:39 PM
YEARGHHH!! The entire Brisbane communications system had a meltdown today. Not a single person's mobile nor internet worked all day. I couldn't even call people or check online to see if they were okay.

it's shocking how important that stuff is when you lose it all.

I'm hearing you there! I didn't find out about the whole OPTUS IS SHUT DOWN thing until 1pm that day... by which time I had already stressed the fuck out because I couldn't make any phone calls or even sms-es here in Emerald!

Wow. Never knew how much I relied on this technology until now.

I feel blessed every day it works now.

What a case of Murphy's law! First someone cuts the main cable in all of QLD ... and the back up system had not been working (or online) for awhile either (before the cable was cut).. dear me!!

GoldCoastGirl
07-15-2008, 07:45 PM
My rant wasn't going to be about Optus.

It was this damn contract.

I just want to be home. I wish I had never bothered with this contract. Emerald is BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOORING! It's costing me $10 for 105 (approx) mins worth of service at this internet cafe. Last night wasn't lucrative. I'm "in the red" with this whole trip so far from airfare (Emerald to Brisbane at least I was lucky enough to score a 'cheap' airfare of $250), meals, internet, brisbane airport parking (as I parked my car there because i wanted to still be available for work friday so it was more convienant to do so..yet it is going to be expensive!) and sundry expenses.

Unless I make some sort of miracle money tonight and tomorrow night. I'm not coming back. Gladstone at its worst was more profitable (read PROFIT-able... I actually made great $$ after expenses) ....

Plus I do miss "my man" ... bah. This is the first time I've ever been in a relationship and "on the road"... god damn it.. I'm doing okay yet I do miss him.

I'm far from a "princess" type however this contract has so far been nothing but trouble for me. Grr.

Lysondra
07-15-2008, 07:49 PM
Yeah, I had my worries about that contract since it was so remote. The fact you had to get a six hour bus to it is what made me go...yeaaaaaahhhhnooo.

GoldCoastGirl
07-15-2008, 08:14 PM
The bus left on time just after 6pm. The accident on the way delay-ed it.. I was supposed to turn up in Emerald by 10pm. The accident made sure I turned up by 1am.

The contract might be worthwhile for those who actually know the other girl they went along with and thus can really work the whole "we are REEEEALY great friends" angle .... maybe?

I'm hoping tonight and tomorrow night will be lucrative and thus I can then say the trip is profitable and "change my tune" ;)

Tho' I'm not holding my breath.

Hello_Kitty27
07-16-2008, 12:22 PM
COCKSUCKING MOTHERFUCKING SHITFACE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have THE worst luck ever!!!!!!!!!!!! I am so beyond pissed right now and I'm supposed to be working, but I totally can not concentrate bc I am so disappointed and pissed.

Is it seriously too much to ask for one stupid thing to work out?! Fuckers.

Lexi
07-16-2008, 09:37 PM
I am just so frustrated!

WHY DID YOU DO THIS????????????????

How am I going to get a regular day job NOW???? DAMNIT!!!!!

Sophia_Ashley
07-16-2008, 09:41 PM
God damnit I knew better than to eat that yogurt.!!

Sveta
07-16-2008, 10:26 PM
Peanut Butter: nooooo! I do know how you feel, but you are not quitting school! You have 2.5 weeks and then you're FREE! No more going to the club unless you WANT to; no more pressure to be the uber-upbeat ultimate fantasy stripper when it's giving you panic attacks. 2.5 weeks is so close; you could start looking for nursing jobs now if you wanted to. Maybe you should; go check out craigslist or something and peruse the nursing job ads, maybe it will be good motivation.

Try not to think of how shitty you're feeling right now...try to focus instead on how wonderful you WILL feel in two weeks! Think about a few months from now, when you've got a degree, a nursing job, a steady pay check, your own apartment with no whiny ex nagging you...it will all be worth it. You're so close now; just hang in there a few more days.

:hug:

TigersMilk
07-17-2008, 04:28 PM
I'm watching Oprah and how this 13 year old kid got lured into internet porn by some sick pedos taking advantage of a young boy. I'd kill all the pedos of the world if I could.