LilyLove
05-13-2008, 09:47 PM
No, we do. A lot of us have anxiety problems. That's not an excuse for what you're doing, and you know this. That's why you started this thread and why you wan't us to flame you and why you keep throwing out hints about how truly fucked this situation is. You need to be told that what you're doing is completely over the line.
Binging on pills is not OK. Pills and alcohol is how people die. Relationship partners who provide us with narcotics are called enablers, and it is a shitty thing to be.
You want to hit bottom really hard. You want something so fucked and horrible to happen to you that the people around you will see how much trouble you're in and tell you it's OK to stop.
Listen. You CAN stop right now, if you want to. If you want the people around you to know how much you hurt, tell them, and it's OK to scream it as long as you don't hurt anybody and don't say anything you don't mean.
Because you think you'll wake up in a hospital bed with everybody around you telling you their sorry, but you might equally well wind up dead. And yeah, everybody will be sad for a while, but they'll also think you're a dumb-ass after a while they'll go out for pizza and you won't be able to go because you'll be fucking dead.
I say this out of love, and because I know what it's like.
Yup.
It makes me so sad to see you like this Joplin and I strongly encourage to keep looking until you find the help you need. Also, this boyfriend of yours is in denial. Enabling you does not equal love.
Finally, you and I both know that this isn't about the camera. The stolen camera was maybe something solid for you to focus on as fucked up in your life. So you're fixating on the camera. You have a lot going on inside of you that desperately needs to be addressed.
Binging on pills is not OK. Pills and alcohol is how people die. Relationship partners who provide us with narcotics are called enablers, and it is a shitty thing to be.
You want to hit bottom really hard. You want something so fucked and horrible to happen to you that the people around you will see how much trouble you're in and tell you it's OK to stop.
Listen. You CAN stop right now, if you want to. If you want the people around you to know how much you hurt, tell them, and it's OK to scream it as long as you don't hurt anybody and don't say anything you don't mean.
Because you think you'll wake up in a hospital bed with everybody around you telling you their sorry, but you might equally well wind up dead. And yeah, everybody will be sad for a while, but they'll also think you're a dumb-ass after a while they'll go out for pizza and you won't be able to go because you'll be fucking dead.
I say this out of love, and because I know what it's like.
Yup.
It makes me so sad to see you like this Joplin and I strongly encourage to keep looking until you find the help you need. Also, this boyfriend of yours is in denial. Enabling you does not equal love.
Finally, you and I both know that this isn't about the camera. The stolen camera was maybe something solid for you to focus on as fucked up in your life. So you're fixating on the camera. You have a lot going on inside of you that desperately needs to be addressed.