View Full Version : Stupid Me....
Perry
06-14-2008, 11:23 PM
Honey, people who have never even MET you are quite fond of you. I think that says you kind of rock. A lot.
Flick6
06-15-2008, 12:20 AM
I dont know you that well, or any of the ppl in your life, but you (ex) bf talking shit to someone so close shes your twin and now she is hitty with you too?? Hes being a cunt. If he wants to break up with you then he should have the decency to let you have a support network!!! Not tear your whole life down. ??Thats just being emotionally abusive.
Big giant hugs. Go stay with some good people until you feel ok. x x x
UtahMike
06-15-2008, 01:15 AM
The people you know online know the real you, because online you can be yourself. Nobody knows who you really are, so you can say what you think.
So the Paige that I know onlineis one of my favorite people in the whole world, because of what she has said and what she has done. The ravishing good looks are a plus on top of that.
Anyone who does NOT appreciate you is so stupid that you should not give their opinion any value at all.
goldengrl69
06-15-2008, 03:16 AM
Babe, is Twin ur real twin? Or just a BFF or 3rd wheel (Dont mean to pry) I just hear you refference her a lot.
Cant say anything that the others havent said. I was in your position. I had a F$ck you fund. I left. But I am no better , cuz I stayed emotionally w/ him, but no longer had him supporting when I was deppressed.
Paige, take your time and reach into ur self. Please make a journal/list of why he hurts you, its OK to cry. Then list why he makes you happy-go do things you used to enjoy, even if you feel like you cant or that you wwould rather lay in bed.
Start making sure your meds and medicaid/healthinsurance are up to par. Everyday accomplish something(I know you work hard, but this is for your protection if you chose to stay or not)
No ones life is perfect. Im practicing what Im preaching to shake my own grief too.
velvet
06-15-2008, 03:35 AM
So the Twin now hates me. Fun. And her friends, who were my friends too... now hate me.
o really why is that? i think "twin" is fucking your boyfriend.
for fucks sake paige dont do this to yourself.i hate fucks that trap you and make you suffer to get out. run somehow.......
thechaosfairy
06-15-2008, 04:59 AM
Get out of that shit. Visit the SW girls you know. Go somewhere else -- anywhere else.
Anyone here got her phone number and can give her a call?
jasmine
06-15-2008, 05:46 AM
o really why is that? i think "twin" is fucking your boyfriend.
I'm thinking the same thing. He dumps Paige with no warning, then goes to her house to visit. Now the twin and all her friends are angry at Paige???? Something here just sounds wrong.
Don't let them get to you Paige. You deserve so much better than a bunch of fuckups that can't even be supportive when you need it.
Asking someone to change is one thing, demanding it, while destroying what security they have is cruel and abusive. I mean, what does this guy expect, you are already working 2 jobs, but he wants more....
PaigeDWinter
06-15-2008, 12:09 PM
My brain can't even handle male + twin right now.
PookaShell
06-15-2008, 12:37 PM
Paige? Your wife loves you.
I'll write something more sufficient in a bit.
I just wanted you to know that.
PaigeDWinter
06-15-2008, 12:39 PM
Paige? Your wife loves you.
I'll write something more sufficient in a bit.
I just wanted you to know that.
Gods I miss you. I worry when I don't hear from you for a while. :(
chevelle454
06-15-2008, 09:51 PM
my hppy dun matter. if my frnds n stuff are hppy im happy
If theyre your friends, they wont be happy unless you are, speaking as an artist, you are an artist, There is no 'an artist that you never were" you always will be. He will never hold up to you because, unlike him, you have a heart and still feel for others. So many have told me 'I'm to nice', but I learned along the way who I spend my time with and who not to waste it on. You will get through this, you are a good person with a soul to back you up, the hurting gets better, I know you may not see that now. But at least you are talking to someone, be it through SW online, bottling shit up inside will quickly destroy you.
Ohhhh the many nights I have snuggled next to my box of wine..yikkes. Paige, your not alone going through this, PM me if you want, I'll check my mail tommily AM to see if your ok. You'll get through this!!!!
:)
chevelle454
06-15-2008, 09:56 PM
yeahhhh...i already edited my message once, i totally repeated myself in it three times...im such a d:Oork, time for me to go to bedddddd!
gingerlee
06-15-2008, 11:44 PM
Awwww Paige. :hug: We love you.
PaigeDWinter
06-15-2008, 11:52 PM
Lub you guys to bits. I'm cereal. :D
He and I had a short talk. I have my week planned out to be very productive and he liked that. He agreed that, if I can become more self reliant, things between us could be fixed. That took a huge weight offa me. I don't feel as nauseated.
Bunny
06-16-2008, 12:04 AM
Oh, no, I just found this thread! Don't let this guy make you think negatively about yourself. I had a guy that I was soooo in love with totally break my heart years ago, and I felt like the whole world was going to end. And then I lost my job and it felt even worse. But it did get better. It took a while, but slowly but surely I got myself back and became a much stronger person. If he doesn't make you feel like you are the most fabulous person in the world then he's not worth your time. I know it's easy for me to say not going through what you're going through right now, but it's true. Hugs to you Paige you beautiful thing!
PaigeDWinter
06-20-2008, 10:42 PM
I think things are improving. He let me sprawl out next to him in bed and hug him.
3-Legged Man
06-21-2008, 05:50 AM
This is getting serious. You even got PookaShell to post! You have MANY MANY friends. Don't feel lonely.
I found your website years ago, before I ever heard of SW. I thought at the time "This is one solid lady, who knows what she's all about!" Then, during my time on this site, your postings have always been among the most intelligent and interesting I've seen. And the pictures you post are just outstanding. A great many people admire and look up to you.
You said you work 2-4 days a week. If you keep it up at 4, maybe you'll start to collect some extra cash to pay off that car and start on a personal savings. You can do it. We're all pulling for ya!
head turner
06-21-2008, 08:07 AM
paige- there is a good possibility that he is messing around with your twin!
You are stronger than this. :( HE DOES NOT DESERVE YOU!
MixedBabe88
06-21-2008, 12:02 PM
Like headturner and many others said, HE DOES NOT DESERVE YOU. I don't even really know you Paige, although I've been on the forum for a few + years, but this guy sounds like a fucking piece of douche. HE let YOU sprawl next to him? No, he's not God, you deserve better. He should be HAPPY HE HAS YOU. Not the other way around.
I hope you find someone a lot better and stop beating yourself up that some guy doesn't think you're the one. Fuck him. And fuck whoever twin is. Sounds like a cunt, for real. What kind of person wouldn't back their friend, sister up?