View Full Version : My dysfunctions. What are yours?
Arianna419
06-12-2010, 01:19 PM
I love these, its making me feel much better to know other people have some weird tendencies too.
1. I'm really jealous. I've also contemplated putting one of those computer monitors to watch my boyfriend's activities, but they're damn expensive! lol. I get pissed when the history is cleared. I always want to know who hes talking to on the phone (I do this with everyone though). The thing is, he's never cheated. I just worry. And he knows that I would not hesitate for a minute to injure him severely if he did.
2. I am too easy on my son (he's almost 3). Because of my job and wacky sleeping patterns, I don't get to spend as much time with him as I used to. I'm becoming too lenient on him and I worry that he is becoming really spoiled. If we go to the store, I buy him a toy. When I pick him up from school, I have gummi bears and bug juice waiting for him. If he wants to stay up later to watch a movie, I let him.
3. I twirl my hair so much that it annoys people. I chew on the ends of my hair, right around my face. The chewing really needs to stop, because it breaks off. I've developed a bit of a mullet because of it and when hairdressers notice, I tell them I had a really bad haircut before. I switch hairdressers everytime I get my hair done because of this. I also put extensions in, but only on the sides of my head and cut them to fit the rest of my hair.
4. I have a weak personality sometimes. I can express my opinion, but when I am faced with a severe amount of pressure or confrontation, I get nervous and play it off by being super nice, rather than firmly standing up for myself. This is a pain in the ass with customers. I wish I had the balls to say "fuck you" and walk out of a VIP. Instead I giggle, dodge hands, tell them no-no, ask them nicely to stop, whatever, until our time is up.
5. I grew up in a very white (mostly german) area and was one of the only girls in elementary school that had dark hair. I also have a pretty fair amount of body hair and was teased about my leg hair when I was a kid. In response to this, I shave literally everywhere except my eyebrows, lashes, and head. Even if I notice some hairs on my finger, I will shave them off. If I could bathe in nair up to my chin, I would.
6. I need an abnormal amount of sleep. Always have. I'm not lazy, I don't have anything medically wrong with me. But in order for me to have energy and look and feel normal, I need AT LEAST 9 hours. After a night of working, I usually get 10 or 11. It drives my boyfriend crazy because he doesn't need a lot of sleep and he doesn't work crazy stripper hours.
7. I know that I have the capacity to be a very "successful" anorexic. Both of my sisters have had eating disorders, and whenever I diet, I tend to go overboard. Part of me is somewhat proud of this and part of me is scared of it.
8. I don't really like anyone in my family very much. There I said it. They are judgmental and downright mean. I am constantly the one that is picked on, regardless of what other issues are going on in their lives. (Example, my sister is an alcoholic and has been in rehab twice. She's obviously drinking again. But what is picked apart at family dinner? Where I'm going to graduate school. It's like its easier to attack the normal one than address the bigger, scarier issues everyone else has. I get it. But I'm tired of being used as a way to avoid the elephants in the room).
9. My sister criticizes my parenting. And I really resent her for it. She is 8 years older than me and doesn't have children. Yes, my son adores her. No, that doesn't mean she would be a better mother for him than me.
10. My favorite reason I love stripping? The outfits. I was never allowed to dress provacatively as a teenager, or spend money on clothes. I buy new things, or make new things all the time and am constantly on the lookout for anything to wear to work. I plan a different "look" everynight and everything co-ordinates. I can be punky one night, pin-up the next, innocent girl, ect. I get complimented every single night and have a reputation in the DR as "best dressed." It sounds conceited, but I love it.
princessjas
06-12-2010, 01:56 PM
This makes me feel MUCH more normal!!
Mine:
1. I'm a clean freak. A little clutter doesn't bother me, but dirt freaks me out! (Tho this is just good common sense more than dysfunction imo)
2. Commitment phobe in a huuuuge way.
3. Basically I'm a perfectionist about everything. I HAVE to have straight A's, I'm very scheduled and organized, etc.
4. I think I may be a nymphomaniac and no I'm not even slightly kidding. I'd have sex 10X a day if my body would cooporate.
5. Hellaciously kinky. Vanilla sex bores the crap outta me. Yawn!
6. Former anorexic/bulimic with MAJOR body image issues.
7. Obsessive about working out and basically anything that maintains my looks.
8. Have difficulty expressing my emotions at times.
There is probably more, but this is all I can come up with at the moment! ;D
GlitterBexie
06-12-2010, 03:44 PM
I pick at my lips and tear the skin off them as an anxiety control.
Im incredibly self conscious and uber aware of my bodily flaws (this has gotten so much worse since ive not danced) Doesnt help that i see my bf as a complete adonis and am therefore working on the basis of need to please/be acceptable at all times
Obsessive about food/eating
Desperate to please others combined with a desire to not give a flying banana about what they think.
Worrier to the point of neurotic.
Inferiority complex. My mother calls this my Second-Best Syndrome! Cause i will virtually always assume i am second best to anyone else.
Crikey, reading that...i need to work on my self-esteem a little maybe..
Collegegirl
06-12-2010, 07:24 PM
Ill just be honest... I'm extremely lazy in every aspect of my life, I am pretty much my own enemy, I'm a drug addict, I abuse laxatives so I can binge eat, I dont keep up with my medications, I dont return phone calls, I care way to much about what others think of me. I only allow myself to be a good parent and dog owner, not the best. I cheated my way through college....
I'm prob the worst person in the world :/
Collegegirl
06-12-2010, 07:33 PM
2. I am too easy on my son (he's almost 3). Because of my job and wacky sleeping patterns, I don't get to spend as much time with him as I used to. I'm becoming too lenient on him and I worry that he is becoming really spoiled. If we go to the store, I buy him a toy. When I pick him up from school, I have gummi bears and bug juice waiting for him. If he wants to stay up later to watch a movie, I let him.
Oh wow that describes my relationship with my 5 year old to a T
DirtyLittleSecret
06-12-2010, 07:58 PM
Electrum, we are very much alike for my list would be the same as yours!
1) I am a professional skin picker. I do it when i'm bored, anxious, tired or even when i don't even relies it. My bf yells at me all the time for it. But it makes me do it more. I spend 15min at night after washing my face just popping and picking crap i think shouldn't be on my skin. If i don't i get anxiety and do it as i fall asleep. I aim for my neck and face more then my arms (although guilty as well).
2) I crave pot. Ever since i started doing it i've become addicted. To the point where i consider doing it behind my bf back (he hates it). I'm bipolar, although not diagnosed by a doctor or treated, and it's definitely self-medication to me since i finally feel "inside" my body vs feeling outside of it. I crave that feeling and pot gives it to me.
3) I constantly worry how i look to others. I need to feel attractive or i become paranoid and depressed. I seek attention in ways that are self harming and if caught they would also ruin a good part of my life. (Manic phase really sets this part of me out of control.
4) I can go through a day and eat only one meal. Then i worry that i look sickly and eat more then my body can handle. I am skinny by genetic but i feel very uncomfortable about it.
5) I fear death to the point of panic attacks. I also fear thunder, especially at night since i think they are bombs going off to end the world. I have vivid dreams of the "end of the world" and tornadoes that freak me out to the point of insomnia.
6) I have only been faithful 2 out of the 7yrs of my current relationship. I have slept with everyone of his friends and i don't feel one ounce of guilt and feel i can't stop.
7) I have a feeling that I self-sabotage myself a lot, but I'm not sure why or how to stop. <<---same!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
8 ) I never feel inside my body. Like i'm some other person who invaded this body, got stuck and can't get out. I jump personalities and feel unable to connect with the world.
:-[
jadelady
06-12-2010, 10:11 PM
I'd just like to tell everyone that you're beautiful beings who have a bright shining love inside of you, ready to be felt by yourself and the world. :) Also, you're the artist of your life! Take the reins, ladies!!
DancingDaisy
06-13-2010, 07:01 AM
1. Ever since I had an acciendent while cooking on the stove (a pan of grease turned over on my hand), I cant even boil water without having a panic attack.
2.Im a loner, I can go for days-weeks without talking to anyone
3.I cant stand when someone puts their hand on me and rubs or pats me
4.I always check my fly after I get out of the car :)
5.I can sleep up to 12 hours straight
6.I dance alot when Im alone-even in the shower
7.I like to pop pimples, even on other people
glitzy
06-13-2010, 11:51 AM
Are all strippers skin-pickers? So weird!!!
I feel like I'm the only one who does it but then I come onto this thread and almost everyone else does it.
stripperchic
06-15-2010, 12:41 PM
Great thread.....
ok.......
1) I am a list fanatic. And again re-write lists. Before my recent holiday I had seperate lists for my SO and I, and everytime I bought something new ie toiletries/clothes I just wrote a new list as the item normally needed to be further up the list around similar items ie toiletries, electricals etc
2) I am a complete hypochondriac. I google any illness, symptoms and immediately worry the worst.
3) I get apprehensive about going home to see my family. And I have no idea why.
4) I am rather jealous when it come to my other half. It bothers me because he is so lax with information. If I come home from anight out I'm like hey babe, me and the girls went here - then oh my god this place was rammed, and so n so's bar was pretty expensive in prices. He comes home, I ask how hs night has been, he replies ' yeah good thanks baby' and thats it. I have to ASK for info, he doesn't offer it!
5) Driving with more thanone other passanger in the car bothers me. Especially during rush hour. It makes my palms sweat.
6) If I havent been to the gym by 3pm - I don't go at all. In my head I feel working out later doesnt do anything (even though I know it does) I just love etting it done early and freak out if it gets late in the day and I havent been.
7) I cant have just 1-2 glasses of wine. To me its all or nothing. Lets either get absolutely smashed or, if not, don't bother with a glass of wine at all. Waste of calories.
8 ) My sleep pattern can be messed up after just one night of bad sleep. Yet takes a full week to get back on track?!?!
9) I'm very defensive. Of everything.
10) I'm too nice to people and for ease of life just agree with people. which ends up in me not enjoying things a fair amount of the time.
Kisca
09-26-2010, 03:25 PM
1. I have oily skin on my face.. and this causes me to use my nails to "strach" the oil and any pimples off my faces. I do this everyday cause I feel like the oil on my face and hate it.
2. I bite inside my lips/cheeks and cause blood, bite marks, and cranker sores. I dont mind ant of those except for cranker sores.. I actually enjoy doing this since it puts me into a blank/thinking zone where Im not bothered.
3. I can go for a week(s) without talking/going out really - Im a loner and I enjoy my own time. I dont like how some people see me as "cold, self-centered" or too busy or such when I sometimes just want to be on my own at times.. and I see nothing wrong with it. I am anti-social sometimes too.. dont like big groups or very loud people, I dont know when to say to them. I can be outgoing but its only when its with a closer circle than people I just met.
4. I NEED all the doors and curtains closed when I am sleeping. There cant be any light going through the curtains and the door has to be fully shut or else I will have trouble sleeping. By doing this, I feel like I am in a seruce "square" and I am safer. I also like facing the wall when sleeping.. another reason for me feeling safer somehow.
5. I have to go to bed after 12am... If its before then its only called a nap in my terms. If i go to bed earlier I feel like I wasted my day. Even if I have to wait up at 6am like I used to for school.. I would still go to bed after 12.. more like 2-3 am because I didnt want the day wasted... Naps saved me during those times.
6. I always get scary thoughts of crashing in my car. A lot of times when Im driving and holding onto the brake cause I have to stop behind a car - I am looking into that bummer and thinking I am going to crash into it.. and see the crash in my head.
7. If I dont get to the gym before 3pm I dont go (above poster also mentioned this). I have to workout beofre 3pm or else I have other things planned.. I guess I have a problem since I already plan my day in my head even though its nothing strict.. if its after 3pm the gym is too busy, too annoying... too "mid-day" for me and I already passed my chance. Since I wake up around 11 - 12 I like to go by then after 3pm feels likes lunch time with regular 9 - 5 people and thats too late for me.
GlitterBexie
09-26-2010, 03:44 PM
as a skin picking update, i havent had false nails on for a few weeks in order to let my real nails have a breather (had falsies on for nearly two years straight)...and i have shredded my thumbs, fingers an lips...ouch! :(
angelina
09-26-2010, 05:27 PM
Oh...two years has passed since I first posted my dysfunctions down and I'm sad to say things haven't changed much. I got a bit better on a few issues but the dysfunctions still exist. *sigh*
The shopping and binging one got worse.
setian
09-27-2010, 05:49 AM
I have had a blankey since childhood and never been without one. Stems from the "if I can't see the monsters then the monsters can't see me" mindset of toddlerhood.
Today i use it to sleep an oddly enough it calms my raging anxiety.
There. I said it >shame lifting<
XAnastasiaX
10-12-2010, 01:27 PM
I have bi-polar disorder
I am a recovering annorexic/bulemic
I am into SUPER tall men preferably nerdy
I'm really goofy
I compare myself to everyone
I weigh myself twice a day.
pixierocksonthepole
10-12-2010, 01:42 PM
I have had a blankey since childhood and never been without one. Stems from the "if I can't see the monsters then the monsters can't see me" mindset of toddlerhood.
Today i use it to sleep an oddly enough it calms my raging anxiety.
There. I said it >shame lifting<
I'm the same. I still have mine. And my bear. They go with me everywhere I move to. Makes me husband laugh a little, but not in a mean way. In a more comforting way of saying "It's all right"
AngelKing
10-12-2010, 07:32 PM
I procrastinate. I looked into getting help for it, but then I procrastinated on that too.
flickad
10-15-2010, 09:45 PM
I battle tendencies with all but the second last. I'm only moderately jealous.
francinista
10-15-2010, 09:52 PM
Angelina, I agree with 2 through 5 I guess alot of us have alot more in common than we think. Francinista
jadenraine
10-16-2010, 01:24 AM
1. hypochondria.. very very bad ever since my dad died... i think i have some sort of cancer most of the time and give myself occasional panic attacks becuause of it.
2. im a shopping addict id say. clothes makeup! i think ive bought at least a grand worth of makeup over the past three years.. i inherited 30k from my dad and bought a ton of crap and went to expensive restaurants and paid peoples bills i blew through it in a single year the biggest mistake of my life..
3. i am wayyyy too generous as a friend... possibly because my parents bought me things to show affection... ive paid friends phone bills, bailed them out of jail taken them out to eat, even paid a friends gym bill... and got her oil changed... im very much a pushover which brings me to number 4
4. i am TERRIBLE at making friends i only have about 3 friends and the few friends ive had in life have walked all over me
5. im money obsessed... i was homeless for a while and as a result i put money first. i wont be homeless and hungry for love like i was before... i make lists of stuff i want all the time...
6. i have pretty bad self esteem but im always thinking of ways to be more beautiful.. like dying my hair a new color or working out im very goal obsessed... i somehow feel if i can be the most beautiful girl in the room i can have anything i want.. something i have had bashed into me by the media surely just like every other girl.
pipermonroe
10-16-2010, 10:51 PM
I have had a blankey since childhood and never been without one. Stems from the "if I can't see the monsters then the monsters can't see me" mindset of toddlerhood.
Today i use it to sleep an oddly enough it calms my raging anxiety.
There. I said it >shame lifting<
Wow, me too. That makes me feel better. Mine is a hawaiian pareau wrap thing though, not a blanket. I love it. It can be used a a wrap at the pool, sun shade, and I wear it around at home when I don't feel like putting clothes on. I fully use those reasons to justify it's importance to me. I can't sleep without it.
SabrinaMorgan
10-19-2010, 08:03 AM
1. I'm a terrible procrastinator... part of it is from perfectionism, part of it is just procrastination, and part of it is that I have a very weird sense of time. My days and nights blur together- I'll think it's been a couple of days and realize it's been a couple of weeks, then feel guilty, then procrastinate more...
2. I fall out of touch with friends very easily. I still think of them constantly, but if I don't have anything to invite them to do or am feeling introverted I usually will forget to actually get in touch, often for months at a time. That said I tend to keep close friends for a long time.
3. I'm a night owl by nature - delayed sleep phase. Daylight usually makes me sleepy, and I feel more awake and alert at night. I can make myself do days for a a few days, even be a perky morning person, but over time I'll gradually reset to nights.
4. I like sleeping opposite of anyone else I live with so that I can be awake when it's quiet and peaceful and the energy around me feels fresh, not cluttered with thoughts and stress. That's probably why I can do days right now - partner is night shift.
5. I'm a picker too. I have small scars from those times when I just couldn't stop.
6. My sex drive has two settings: on and off. It's either raging nymphomaniac, or sublimated into my creative endeavors. When it's off it tends to leak out through my sadistic impulses... It's like I have to "feed" off of sexual energy somehow even if I'm not wanting anything near vanilla sex. Not a compulsion, just the way I am.
7. I get really specific food cravings and must sate them if at all possible. I eat out a lot.
8. Caffeine doesn't make me hyper or jittery unless I have truly inhuman doses. 1-2 cups of coffee just relaxes me and I can go to sleep immediately after. I like it but I'm not addicted, often don't have any for days or weeks at a time... I just built my tolerance at a very young age.
setian
10-21-2010, 12:17 PM
8. Caffeine doesn't make me hyper or jittery unless I have truly inhuman doses. 1-2 cups of coffee just relaxes me and I can go to sleep immediately after. I like it but I'm not addicted, often don't have any for days or weeks at a time... I just built my tolerance at a very young age.
I'm the same way. My dude always loks at me funny bc i sometimes put on a pot of coffee when I come home from work wound tighter than piano wire.
I attribute it to the "Ritalin effect", give a stimulant to the over-stimulated and they chill the fuck out..
xGigi
10-21-2010, 12:27 PM
I binge eat about once a week. it's like therapy. it used to be every day, but I gained so much weight that I had to control it.
I have an irrational fear of heights. I can't even look out the window if I'm on the second floor of a house. I literally have to blindfold myself on planes.
I'm very self destructive. I used to cut myself and do WAY too many drugs and drink to the point where I was puking my brains out but now I destroy myself by smoking, depriving myself of sleep, exercising to the point of pain, etc.
kaiarose
10-21-2010, 12:40 PM
I'm married yet enjoy attention from other men :/ I mean, FFS, I get attention all night at work!! It's the men that show me attention outside of work is what I really enjoy. I will admit, I'm very insecure, never had a father figure in my life, and I need the approval of men. :( Sad.
xGigi
10-21-2010, 12:52 PM
I CANNOT stand anyone touching my feet, armpits, or stomach. I've literally gone into screaming fits even at 20 years old from people tickling my feet/armpits and poking my stomach. not because of body issues or anything I just HATE it.
I find this thread very alarming and eye opening. I can relate to many of these posts...
angelina
03-01-2012, 11:42 AM
I hate to admit this but I realized that I too love attention from men even if I"m in a committed relationship. But I only crave it from men I'm attracted to. I read through the list of dysfunctions that were posted here and I have to add loner to this list too. The only person I feel like I need to see is my bf. I can go for weeks and months without anyone else's company. One more thing, I prefer the company of men than women. I never get into any drama with women and we get along just fine but I just enjoy the dynamic with men much more....makes me feel more protected and wanted I supposed. I had a tough childhood and I think that plays a huge part of moulding my dysfunctions.
BlkSharpie
03-01-2012, 01:03 PM
Great thread...nice to know that having issues is probably in fact "normal" even if we feel totally not.
I have a slew of dysfunctions...feeling worthless is probably my biggest one. So I always feel like I have something to prove, like I have to go over and beyond with friends, family, guys, etc to prove I have any value in their life. I will drop everything for just about anyone. But one person can cancel a lunch or something, and Ill hide out and not talk to anyone for months cause I feel like everyone has something better to do than spend time with me, and I dont want to be a burden.
Smaller ones that arent such downers :D are Im afraid of my shoelace getting untied. I have to face the doorway if Im sitting down somewhere, I find the sound of food being eaten very annoying, it grates my nerves so bad, even the sound of my own eating, seeing someone eat with thier mouth open or talk while eating turns my stomach enough that I lost my appetite for a couple of days. Um...theres more but I cant think of them right now. Im so used to me lol
I only notice the stuff I do, when someone looks at me strange and goes...well thats an interesting habit.
charlie61
03-01-2012, 06:53 PM
I'm married yet enjoy attention from other men :/ I mean, FFS, I get attention all night at work!! It's the men that show me attention outside of work is what I really enjoy. I will admit, I'm very insecure, never had a father figure in my life, and I need the approval of men. :( Sad.
I hate to admit this but I realized that I too love attention from men even if I"m in a committed relationship. But I only crave it from men I'm attracted to. I read through the list of dysfunctions that were posted here and I have to add loner to this list too. The only person I feel like I need to see is my bf. I can go for weeks and months without anyone else's company. One more thing, I prefer the company of men than women. I never get into any drama with women and we get along just fine but I just enjoy the dynamic with men much more....makes me feel more protected and wanted I supposed. I had a tough childhood and I think that plays a huge part of moulding my dysfunctions.
Wait... how is this a dysfunction??? Who DOESN'T like positive attention from other people, whether for platonic reasons, sexual reasons, or otherwise???
lifetravelergirl
03-04-2012, 01:40 AM
I feel like everything is about me. Like when a friend doesn't call me or return an email I figure it is because there is something wrong with me. I don't like talking about my life with other people because I always feel like I would be boring them or being a burden. My room is always messy. I don't take a risk until I know all the details which has probably prevented me from having a better life. I talk about too much, I explain myself too much. I seek approval when I shouldn't give a shit. I feel like a failure. I avoid relationships because I feel like I have to be in the right place before I can be in a relationship. I have been hurt a lot and I don't trust people and probably never will.
Su Su
03-04-2012, 02:19 AM
I have a phobia of toilets. Like, the opening inside the toilet where shit passes through.
I don't know whether it's from this stupid scary movie I watched when I was a kid, where there's a dead woman's head laughing from the toilet,
or when my brother and sister used to make up stories about monsters coming out of the toilet, and they would flush the toilet then lock me in it.
Obviously I know nothing would come out of the toilet, but the fear stays with me. I also think the inside of the toilet looks like a face.
Yep, I'm fucked.
charlie61
03-04-2012, 10:48 AM
^ Lol!!!
hf487
03-04-2012, 12:09 PM
1. say i dont care what people think, But alot of times i do
2. hate messes, stains, unbrushed teeth, and alot of times i already feel dirty about 2-3 hours after my shower
3. like things done my way (mostly when i clean my house)
4. feel like im never "put together" i think it has to do with me feeling dirty even when im clean, I'm a very clean person in reality
5. Very untrusting of almost everyone and there intentions
6. not alot of friends and that comes from number 5 above
7. i love being alone so that get's in the way of me being social
GlitterBexie
03-05-2012, 07:56 PM
I have a phobia of toilets. Like, the opening inside the toilet where shit passes through.
I don't know whether it's from this stupid scary movie I watched when I was a kid, where there's a dead woman's head laughing from the toilet,
or when my brother and sister used to make up stories about monsters coming out of the toilet, and they would flush the toilet then lock me in it.
Obviously I know nothing would come out of the toilet, but the fear stays with me. I also think the inside of the toilet looks like a face.
Yep, I'm fucked.
Its ok, i live in the UK, a country where it is HIGHLY unlikey that anything will ever be in my toilet that hasnt been put there by a human, but still, every time, icheck, under the seat, around the rim etc, and a lot of the time, i will hover, even on my own toilet, just in case something should ever swim up the u-bend and bite me on the ass... so you're not completely alone!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wIBQO6zrOjY <---It could happen!!
MyButter
03-07-2012, 04:53 PM
-I would rather work on somebody else's problems than my own.
-Running away from my problems has always been easier than addressing them.
-When somebody compliments me, I feel that they are only doing so because they want something (i.e. money) from me.
-I come from a tribe where eye contact is considered a major sign of disrespect, so it is something that I still sruggle with to this day. I can and will do it, especially if the situation calls for it but it is something that is such a challenge for me.
-I feel as if I put people under a microscope and notice their flaws and imperfections first and foremost. It bothers me that I do this because I don't consider myself perfect, so I don't understand why I scrutinize others so much? Also, because I am this way I assume that everyone else in the world is at least equally as judgemental as I am, so in turn this makes me very insecure.
sweetheart18
03-22-2012, 07:54 AM
i cannot for the life of me quit biting my nails. im so insecure. i bite so short and just wear fakes for work but I wish I could quit... I have since I was little.
sometimes when I do/say something I know is mean I get defensive and madder at that person.
I cut my legs and accidentally did again 4 ish months ago and have been so awkward around my BF.
I pull at split ends and play with them for hours. sometimes I get a pair of scissors and cut them off one by one for 4 or more hours. It calms me down.
i slept with my stuffed animal frog until I was 19. i still do when I'm depressed.
when I go to walmart i panic when I recognize people from the club or highschool I hate being in my hometown- i can't escape ohio :( im so awkward around men when not at the club and take their every move into account like they all have motives or something? I'm in my head too much.
CheekyCharlie
04-14-2012, 08:38 PM
I am agoraphobic & in particular have a massive fear of road crossings. I don't like the thought of controlling the cars, even if I haven't pressed the button or whatever. I *can* go out & feel relatively normal if I have my boyfriend with me, but if I am with pretty much anyone else I have panic attacks & start freaking out. There doesn't appear to be any reason for this. I have been to see two different psychotherapist on separate occasions about it, but it doesn't seem to help. They both told me to just 'face my fears', but I can be such a negative person I convince myself that I can't do it & as a result I miss out on a lot of things & don't have many friends anymore.
I eat far too much. My boyfriend eats a LOT (he's naturally very skinny:( )and I feel we have to have the same size portions. I am always telling myself I am fat and disgusting, and I will try to do something about it for a few days, then I get back into old habits. I am obsessed with food and I am always thinking of my next meal.
I worry people think I am boring and uncool.
I have been dancing for nearly 6 years now and I feel like I NEED to get out of the industry, so I get depressed that I am not doing something productive with my life. Although I am trying to work on that.
Strange writing all that down, it normally just goes through my head several times a day!!
lokikola
04-15-2012, 12:38 AM
I'm disorganized.
camille27
04-15-2012, 12:52 PM
i think i am better than everyone else and cannot manage to look for evidence to convince me otherwise. does that count?
_Avery_
04-15-2012, 04:00 PM
I like to clean...wayyy too much.
Clean and organize.
Even when I get to work, first thing I do is organize everything, have everything facing forward...or else my night will be fucked up.
Kinda OCD.
charlie61
04-15-2012, 04:08 PM
I have obsessive thoughts. But I like them. I call it "riding my mental merry-go-round." I'll just think / talk about the same thing repeatedly (if it's something I find interesting), analyzing it from different angles, etc. I'm so lucky to be with someone who enjoys jumping on the ride with me! :)
I feel like everything is about me. Like when a friend doesn't call me or return an email I figure it is because there is something wrong with me. I don't like talking about my life with other people because I always feel like I would be boring them or being a burden.
This is called egocentric or egocentrism. Not to be confused with egotistical.... totally different.