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Harleigh HellKat
01-15-2010, 04:23 PM
This is what I did when I was in a controlling/abusive relationship. It may seem like the cowardly way out, but it worked because he couldn't stop me from leaving. I waited until he left the house, packed a suitcase, put it in my car and nt to work like normal. Only this time I just didn't come home.

Oh yeah and then when I finally got my new apartment and he kept calling and calling to beg me to come back. So one day I invite him over and make him go down on me then tell him to leave. I told him we could hang out on valentines day then I stood him up to hang out at the bar with my girlfriends and hit on hot muscular dudes. The end! ;D

I think I really understand what you are going through. I have a high IQ, and I almost had a bright modelling career ahead of me a few years ago, and I left it for this guy... he apparently thought modelling was a form of prostitution and had sever jealousy issues because OMFG someone else has seen his girlfriends tits!!

He was also on coke and I never really knew it. I knew he was a VIOLENT alcoholic but never saw the coke thing coming. I actually never even saw what the stuff looked like until like a year after we broke up, that's how drug illiterate I am. /:O Some strange chick offered me some in the bathroom at a bar I was like whoaaaaa no thanks.... anyway, off topic.

This guy wouldn't even let me drink or smoke a cigarette or follow my career modelling but he's off drinking fighting and doing hard drugs? WTF?

I'll have to admit I haven't read the whole thread bc I am getting ready for work, but I just wanted to say that I can understand how we get ourselves into these situations without knowing how bad they are, because I've been there. The best thing to do is leave and don't look back. It always helps to have a friend there to help you see what your life will be like without this guy. My friend Amy helped me out there by encouraging me to travel and be away from him so I could see why I didn't need him.

Crap, I'm off to work... If you need support you can PM me. Just remember you deserve the best life has to offer, and this guy is about as far from that as you can get.

HUGS!! kbai

Harleigh HellKat
01-15-2010, 04:39 PM
Well it's over as of 30 minutes ago. Unfortunately once again my power was taken away from me and he ended it. He thinks I was cheating on him tonight (I wasn't). I caught him out lying about where he was and he tried to turn it back on me and make out that I was the one lying.

Now he has switched his phone off and told me he will be going to a strip club and that if I try to come to his house he will make sure there are girls there so that I don't come there.

I'm really upset that I am not the one who ended it. I am also EXTREMELY ANXIOUS right now and just feel like crying at the thought of him getting lap dances at a strip club (this is how I met him, he was my customer and I guess it just hurts me for that reason).
I hate how it's so easy for men to move on and not so easy for women.

Men can just go get a dance or go fuck someone else straight away. Whereas I don't even remotely want another man to touch me.

I know this is a good thing. It's ended and really I shouldn't care how it ended but it's just another way he has shit in my face and disrespected me by making me out to be the cheating whore which I am certainly not.

FUCK HIM.

Go to work and find the hottest, sweetest guy and plop right down in his lap, flirting shamelessly. That whole 'I'm going to the strip club' crap works both ways. My boyfriend and I had a few days where we broke up and when I went to work and started flirting I felt better... and made money! I guess it came off as more genuine because I was single and almost 'on the prowl' or at least in my mind I was lol.

And you get to keep your money, woot!!

I guess it's always easy for me to move on emotionally. Or maybe I just force myself. Or maybe by the time I end things with guys I already hate them so much that I would rather them get hit by an 18-wheeler than ever see their face again.

flickad
01-26-2010, 05:44 AM
What u have described here is what I have lived with. He borrows money off everyone. He doesn't care about anything except making enough money thru selling drugs to buy the next lot. It's a vicious cycle and before I knew him I had never seen this UGLY world of drugs.

He gets angry so easily it's just ridiculous and he is so unpredictable. He is constantly saying he wants to die and is depressed and hates his life. He also tells me when he pays off his debts to other dealers he is quitting dealing and using it himself and will make a better life for himself. This is complete bull shit isn't it?

A few months ago he didn't touch drugs for a week. I put up with a week of him being highly anxious, restless, irritable and angry. Then he came thru it and he was nice. We were doing things together like going for walks and things that we usually wouldn't do.
Then came the weekend and he smoked speed again. Why? coz he was bored. COZ HE WAS FUCKING BORED!!! that's his pathetic excuse. I told him I never want anything to do with helping him thru it again.

I hate this man for everything he has put me thru and for all the lies.

Amphetamines themselves can and do cause mood swings, depression and eventually psychosis. You also really don't want to get involved in that world in any way, for career reasons as well as thanks to the nastiness that goes down. You've had a lucky escape. I hope you're doing okay <3.