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Aniela
01-06-2014, 01:53 AM
I will just say that I have no problem w/ religious leanings in general, but I am finding certain religious ppl & their high-horsed 'my body is a temple' attitudes very frustrating lately.
SweetJulia
01-06-2014, 02:19 PM
I have way too many purses. Bought a few new ones today and will probably do the same thing tomorrow.
michele11
01-06-2014, 05:05 PM
I have way too many purses. Bought a few new ones today and will probably do the same thing tomorrow.
Haha! That's all I've been doing for the last 6 weeks I've been off. I have a jimmy choo that got a hole and bought a beautiful Gucci I think might be a really good fake( I don't know Gucci well and their the most replicated bag next to Louis). The assholes at Gucci wouldn't help and purse forum hasn't gotten to me. The lady's been selling on ebay 9 years with 100 positive feedback. She's letting me return but I've got 3 I'm buying now. Lol. I need to get back to work!
SweetJulia
01-07-2014, 08:19 PM
I've never been a great cook, but I've concluded that I gave myself food poisoning by eating my own cooking. Would have gotten take out, but it's freezing and the door to my building was frozen shut and the guy wouldn't have been able to get in. I love Cleveland in the winter.
chanzep
01-09-2014, 08:48 PM
So I met a rich dude on Sat at a private member club, my friends sister knows him and said he was really cool, I have been busy went to text him yesterday and released I did not store his number in the phone!, I have a stupid habit of doing that when I drink, I met a HOT guy from NY when working in the US earlier this year and did the same thing and was so pissed the next day!, this guy was HOT all the girls were like you got the hottie to spend! and let me boss him around in V.I.P.
Argh I wonder if my friends sister has the rich dudes number.
The new bouncer at work is also eye candy, would never go there tho.
michele11
01-10-2014, 03:56 PM
Why do I think the grass in greener with hair dressers. My sister and her friend got their hair done by this guy( her friends hair is just like mine but blonder like I want). So I go to this guy(who gossiped about people I know from other hair salons) did a shit job on my hair and was twice as much as the girl I go to! I wanted it fucken blonder where my chunks are well he made them thinner(I should of known something was wrong when he rinsed me and was like "oh I'm gonna get a toner") No one puts toner in unless it's brassy and they didn't lift it enough! And there's nothing I can do because I have to much breakage to fuck with it! Ugh! I hope once I wash it a few times it looks more like it should because I'm going to work in an area known for big boob blondes making the most. Now I look like I have dark hair with beige in it!
Vackra
01-10-2014, 04:11 PM
My husband is better looking than I am, and some times it scares me.
michele11
01-10-2014, 05:07 PM
Ok , I am obsessing over my hair. I keep staring in the mirror and I think he used a cool toner? I've never known if I favor cool or warms tones so that's all confusing but I've noticed when some people color my hair my eyes look greener but every fucken flaw stands out. That's cooler tones right? Now I gotta go audition with more darker hair and more visible facial flaws( I thik I see more forehead wrinkles)great!
whirlerz
01-10-2014, 07:18 PM
Depends on your skin tone..you might have to wear more makeup, but you knew that. Not trying to be mean either! :)
Sometimes if I use a 'blonde shampoo' it helps a little bit..or whatever color you need..how about a color gloss?
chanzep
01-10-2014, 10:24 PM
Maybe get a golden shampoo or colour, when in the US earlier this year this guy fucked up my hair then I complained went back and then this girl dyed my hair a weird dirty pond colour, In the end I used clarifying shampoo a few times took me a week to get most of the colour out, then I went and got a nice golden blonde from dark n lovely put it on my hair but did not add the bleach, it turned out way better than the stupid hairdressers. I also had to deep condition alot.
chanzep
01-10-2014, 10:28 PM
When I want to eat at night, I look at food blogs like food porn!.
smeca
01-11-2014, 07:18 AM
I've either forgotten one person that I've slept with, or I've been miscounting by one for years. Seriously, who was it?!
Edit- remembered as I posted. (So disappointing, no wonder I forgot).
michele11
01-11-2014, 12:22 PM
Maybe get a golden shampoo or colour, when in the US earlier this year this guy fucked up my hair then I complained went back and then this girl dyed my hair a weird dirty pond colour, In the end I used clarifying shampoo a few times took me a week to get most of the colour out, then I went and got a nice golden blonde from dark n lovely put it on my hair but did not add the bleach, it turned out way better than the stupid hairdressers. I also had to deep condition alot.
Yeah that's what I need. I was looking at it and comparing to my clip ins and it's just super cool. If I put gold and wash it a few times that should help. It looks super bland. It's light but too cool it almost looks grey. It would of been fine I bet if he didn't put the fucken toner and I won't be washing it again before I leave since I wash it and straighten it everyday when I work, I only wash it every 5 days or so at home. Ugh. He doesn't answer at the salon today either...
michele11
01-11-2014, 12:25 PM
^ Oh duh and what's the name of the stuff that adds some gold?
whirlerz
01-11-2014, 05:07 PM
Sounds like she added color only (not peroxide). You can get tinted gloss John Frieda has it & prob. other brands too. That's the one I have. I use & like Matrix blond shampoo/conditioner, JF has those too.
charlie61
01-12-2014, 05:51 PM
Back to confessions! Body Business is a great place for hair discussions. :)
Aniela
01-16-2014, 07:08 AM
This is smtg that is very difficult for me to get out, but here it is.
I don't think I can forgive my family for how they handled my little boy's health. It was a lot of 'It's not that bad' kind of attitude. I got the phone call that he had passed & was promised they would hold the funeral til I could get home, & they went back on that promise. Not only that but as my brother later told me, 'It was decided that it would be better if you weren't there, b/c we weren't sure how well you would handle it.' He basically implied that they thought I was mentally unstable & they didn't want to deal w/ me flipping my shit. BUT, he was honoured w/ a terrific send-off! Classy memorial; champagne toast & all, so look on the bright side!
I feel like I fked up just as much as they did. I don't feel like I can ever forgive them, & or that I can forgive myself for trusting them w/ him.
Tourdefranzia
01-16-2014, 03:05 PM
I wish I could stop smoking weed. I mean, I can stop when I run out, but if I have some, not a day goes by where I stay totally sober. I also wish I could stop eating sugary foods. I suspect the two are related.
Selina M
01-17-2014, 02:56 PM
The first homework from my physics class has got me kicking things and almost in tears... because I cannot do conversions to save my life. Something about them just doesn't click. Every time I've had a teacher explain anything to me, my eyes glaze over 20 seconds in and I forget what they told me as soon as we try a different problem, so I have to sit and struggle on my own. I'm afraid I'm going to fail the class because I can do the major equations but can't change Euros per liter to $$ per gallon...
Spinnerette
01-17-2014, 06:30 PM
I confess that I have no idea what it means that the person I've been obsessing over not sending me a text sends me a text and suddenly I couldn't care less. It's been like 2 weeks since I got it. :/ I have a lame excuse on deck if I change my mind and DO want to respond (with a window of expiration for when it would be valid), but I'm considering letting continue to go unanswered and moving on.
I don't know, has anyone else experienced this (as in an instant 180 in interest for no reason other than the possibility of rejection being rescinded)? It makes me feel really fucking juvenile.
Selina M
01-17-2014, 07:26 PM
I dunno what it is either, but I do it too. I have dude friends I find attractive that I will be all pissy about not having texted in a week, and then once they do I'm like "Oh good" in a satisfied way... but I don't bust my ass to answer it and will often let it sit for a few hours.
I think it's just an ego thing. I like knowing I've crossed their mind.
SweetJulia
01-18-2014, 07:42 AM
I completely stood up a photographer for a paid photo shoot yesterday. I just had the sickest feeling of dread about him, even though he didn't do anything creepy. Yet. Every time I've ignored this feeling before, I've found myself in physical danger, got shorted money, or ended up with a stalker. I feel really guilty about this :(
ExoticBeauty4U
01-18-2014, 10:23 AM
Sooo I have absolutely no interest in sex, cuddling, kissing, anyone constantly being too close to me or in "my space" etc. Infact it annoys me and kind of disgusts me. I cant sleep well unless I have the bed all to myself. At first I thought this was a phase but its been like this past couple of years and im really content/happy without it. Im in a relationship and he keeps asking me for sex bc i cant even pretend anymore (ill just lay there half bored or fall asleep during the act), well one night my SO said thats he going to cheat since im not fulfilling his needs and i told him go ahead. Is it bad I was secretly hoping he would do this so he can leave me alone. This is not normal right? And its not just him, I have no desire to be with anyone, even if Idris Elba or Channing Tatum were in front of me butt naked. Im not sure if its the industry taking its toll or just me... truth be told Ive never had a high sex drive but i at least somewhat liked i it think O_O
Spinnerette
01-18-2014, 10:37 AM
Yeah it's def an ego thing on my end too. I'm finding that I'm getting a lot of joy out telling people "no" in instances where they think I have no choice but to say "yes". It's really satisfying to me. And I suppose an ignored text is my roundabout way of asserting dominance (since they refuse to see me as their equal, I shall stand above them) in a situation where they thought they were in control of our "relationship" and could call the shots. I get that enough at my jobs. I don't need it when I'm just trying to have a bit of NSA fun. This is an example of how men actually sabotage these sort of arrangements with their need to conquer, but that's a rant for another time.
Hmm, I was hesitant about posting that here, but it's really helped me work through it and realize it has to do with my need for control. I always have to be in control or at least feel like I am. Got it. Thanks for the reply, Selina M. :)
Spinnerette
01-18-2014, 10:44 AM
I completely stood up a photographer for a paid photo shoot yesterday. I just had the sickest feeling of dread about him, even though he didn't do anything creepy. Yet. Every time I've ignored this feeling before, I've found myself in physical danger, got shorted money, or ended up with a stalker. I feel really guilty about this :(
NOOOOOOO don't feel bad! If there's one thing I've learned (the extremely hard way) in my short life, it's ALWAYS trust your gut. If you didn't have a good feeling about the guy, there was a reason for that and you don't need to feel guilty about prioritizing your safety over his time. You don't owe him anything. Even if by some fluke of a false alarm (I doubt it) he was harmless and trustworthy, better safe than sorry. Always go with your instincts. Always.
michele11
01-18-2014, 04:15 PM
Sooo I have absolutely no interest in sex, cuddling, kissing, anyone constantly being too close to me or in "my space" etc. Infact it annoys me and kind of disgusts me. I cant sleep well unless I have the bed all to myself. At first I thought this was a phase but its been like this past couple of years and im really content/happy without it. Im in a relationship and he keeps asking me for sex bc i cant even pretend anymore (ill just lay there half bored or fall asleep during the act), well one night my SO said thats he going to cheat since im not fulfilling his needs and i told him go ahead. Is it bad I was secretly hoping he would do this so he can leave me alone. This is not normal right? And its not just him, I have no desire to be with anyone, even if Idris Elba or Channing Tatum were in front of me butt naked. Im not sure if its the industry taking its toll or just me... truth be told Ive never had a high sex drive but i at least somewhat liked i it think O_O
I do like sex but I will not sleep in the same bed with anyone. I also hate to cuddle. My ex , at the end slept in the cats room. We broke up 4 years ago and he still wants to come back and sleep in there. Lol. Maybe you've never had satisfying sex? I don't know your history. Maybe talk to a sex therapist. You should at least enjoy that in life!
charlie61
01-18-2014, 06:31 PM
Sooo I have absolutely no interest in sex, cuddling, kissing, anyone constantly being too close to me or in "my space" etc. Infact it annoys me and kind of disgusts me. I cant sleep well unless I have the bed all to myself. At first I thought this was a phase but its been like this past couple of years and im really content/happy without it. Im in a relationship and he keeps asking me for sex bc i cant even pretend anymore (ill just lay there half bored or fall asleep during the act), well one night my SO said thats he going to cheat since im not fulfilling his needs and i told him go ahead. Is it bad I was secretly hoping he would do this so he can leave me alone. This is not normal right? And its not just him, I have no desire to be with anyone, even if Idris Elba or Channing Tatum were in front of me butt naked. Im not sure if its the industry taking its toll or just me... truth be told Ive never had a high sex drive but i at least somewhat liked i it think O_O
We have a few threads on here about asexuality (I'm asexual). You may want to check them out to see if you can relate to any of the posts in them. :)
Advanced searching: https://www.stripperweb.com/forum/search.php
Asexual thread: https://www.stripperweb.com/forum/showthread.php?138780-Asexuality
AVEN forums: http://www.asexuality.org/en/
Selina M
01-18-2014, 10:53 PM
Sooo I have absolutely no interest in sex, cuddling, kissing, anyone constantly being too close to me or in "my space" etc. Infact it annoys me and kind of disgusts me. I cant sleep well unless I have the bed all to myself. At first I thought this was a phase but its been like this past couple of years and im really content/happy without it. Im in a relationship and he keeps asking me for sex bc i cant even pretend anymore (ill just lay there half bored or fall asleep during the act), well one night my SO said thats he going to cheat since im not fulfilling his needs and i told him go ahead. Is it bad I was secretly hoping he would do this so he can leave me alone. This is not normal right? And its not just him, I have no desire to be with anyone, even if Idris Elba or Channing Tatum were in front of me butt naked. Im not sure if its the industry taking its toll or just me... truth be told Ive never had a high sex drive but i at least somewhat liked i it think O_O
Apparently I relate to everyone in this thread today!
But I TOTALLY feel close to the same. I'm in a long term relationship and while I love him, I have zero desire to have sex most of the time. It sucks for him and I do things out of guilt that he's not getting any.
I thought back and realized that even though I would constantly try to get my boyfriends turned on (ie, grabbing their dick to wake them up) , it wasn't anything to do with sex... it was that I wanted their attention and affirmation that they found me attractive. Otherwise, I would have sex to make one happy, not because I wanted it.
I think a big part is that sex is a) messy b) requires energy and I am a lazy fuck c) tends to take a lot of time... every time he starts something, it's like "Dammit this is going to kill a whole fucking hour" I feel so guilty for having that mindset but what can you do?
OliveJardin
01-19-2014, 08:01 PM
I must confess that I had to laugh when I found out that my tuition fees are due on Valentine's Day...how romantic ::). I bet that's the ONLY thing I get for Valentine's day too!
michele11
01-20-2014, 07:39 AM
Omg! My ex fiancé will not leave me alone. We saw each other last month and he calls almost daily. He said I'm coming back in aug. I was like what? He said yeah and your gonna let me in. I said you sure?!? Come from conn and I guess you might be staying with your uncle( he lives here). He just text me" send me a pic of your pretty face". He called 3 times yesterday and , sometimes I do talk but I didn't feel like it. He messaged me the pother day at like 2pm "this is the time od day we use to make love". I kinda like the fact that after 4years he still really loves me and tells me I'm the most beautiful woman and no one compares but I treated him horribly when we were together and lost respect for him years ago...
Morrigan
01-20-2014, 10:48 AM
I catch myself....no matter where I am now people watching and this little monologue voice in my head goes " possible cam-girl, SHOULD be a cam-girl, psssh, shes been camming for years, will most likely be a cam girl in a year or so" and so on. pretty sure my spouse is doing the same. XD
bpink
01-20-2014, 10:59 AM
I catch myself....no matter where I am now people watching and this little monologue voice in my head goes " possible cam-girl, SHOULD be a cam-girl, psssh, shes been camming for years, will most likely be a cam girl in a year or so" and so on. pretty sure my spouse is doing the same. XD
O my goshness!! I do it ALL the time...same w/ my fans...im like "he's looking at me weird...yep he's seen THIS" LMAO
Morrigan
01-20-2014, 11:09 AM
bwahaahahahaaa, Yeah in the mix I also size up some of the guys and wonder if they are custy's too
charlie61
01-20-2014, 02:58 PM
We have a few threads on here about asexuality (I'm asexual). You may want to check them out to see if you can relate to any of the posts in them. :)
Advanced searching: https://www.stripperweb.com/forum/search.php
Asexual thread: https://www.stripperweb.com/forum/showthread.php?138780-Asexuality
AVEN forums: http://www.asexuality.org/en/
Apparently I relate to everyone in this thread today!
But I TOTALLY feel close to the same. I'm in a long term relationship and while I love him, I have zero desire to have sex most of the time. It sucks for him and I do things out of guilt that he's not getting any.
I thought back and realized that even though I would constantly try to get my boyfriends turned on (ie, grabbing their dick to wake them up) , it wasn't anything to do with sex... it was that I wanted their attention and affirmation that they found me attractive. Otherwise, I would have sex to make one happy, not because I wanted it.
I think a big part is that sex is a) messy b) requires energy and I am a lazy fuck c) tends to take a lot of time... every time he starts something, it's like "Dammit this is going to kill a whole fucking hour" I feel so guilty for having that mindset but what can you do?
Selina - I just wanted to make sure you saw this post. Figured you may have missed it since your post started a new page! :)
SweetJulia
01-21-2014, 04:06 AM
I catch myself....no matter where I am now people watching and this little monologue voice in my head goes " possible cam-girl, SHOULD be a cam-girl, psssh, shes been camming for years, will most likely be a cam girl in a year or so" and so on. pretty sure my spouse is doing the same. XD
LMAO I saw a girl at a drivethough who'd bank to the point of wallet pain.
SweetJulia
01-21-2014, 04:20 AM
NOOOOOOO don't feel bad! If there's one thing I've learned (the extremely hard way) in my short life, it's ALWAYS trust your gut. If you didn't have a good feeling about the guy, there was a reason for that and you don't need to feel guilty about prioritizing your safety over his time. You don't owe him anything. Even if by some fluke of a false alarm (I doubt it) he was harmless and trustworthy, better safe than sorry. Always go with your instincts. Always.
Ok, so just to update you guys before my latest set of confessions: This photographer REALLY disturbed me, so I looked him up on verify sites. Doesn't exist. Given his first and last names are both first names, I tried interchanging them. Guess who's a sex offender :( I knew I wasn't crazy and am so glad I listened to my gut. Spinnerette, thanks for making me feel less crazy. While I probably could have fought him off-hell, he has a foot and ten pounds on me, being in a room alone with a sex offender is a situation I never wish to find myself in. Sooo,if anyone knows a place to list grabby photographers-like where escorts report bad clients but for photographers-please let me know. Here are my latest confessions:
1-I'm late on paying rent this month due to a shoe and purse shopping spree.
2-This sounds so odd, but my grandfather makes wine and I'm currently trying to brand and market it.
3-I'm kind of ignoring the guy I'm kind of seeing because he's a minute man and I know he won't take pills to fix the problem.
4-I'm pondering setting up a separate paysite to my webcam profile, but am sort of dragging my feet because I'm scared of stalkers and worry about the security aspects of having an individual site.
That is all for now :)
OliveJardin
01-21-2014, 04:50 AM
I confess that I am thinking of buying this....to wear around the house ::)!
http://www.fantasylingerie.com.au/p/183164/sequin-lined-hoodie
http://www.fantasylingerie.com.au/p/183163/long-lace-lounge-pants
http://www.fantasylingerie.com.au/p/183160/lace-hoodie
michele11
01-21-2014, 09:13 AM
I confess I'm scared to get my boobs redone. The right ones been bottomed out for 2 years and I know I've been sick and my bodies trying to reject them for 6 years now. I'm having more pain in them and I've left them be because they still look good. But I've been off almost 2 months they are staring to look different and I know it isn't in my mind because I bend over to blow dry my hair and the right one was touching my skin? I'm afraid they won't look like they use to and I need a more invasive surgery since he has to suture the pocket and the left one has minor capsultion. Am I crazy? My mom keeps scaring me saying, they are going to get deformed and then he won't be able to fix them. I also think what if he fixes them and I don't like the look or what if it bottoms out again and I can't miss season in M.B. Now I'm scared because I'm leaving in the morning and I'm not going to want to move around and put pressure on them for fair that I'm out of town and what if something happens. Ugh!
whirlerz
01-21-2014, 10:01 AM
Well, hopefully you can have a consult done, to help you decide?
For me, I am lost right now trying to decided what to do!
Selina M
01-21-2014, 10:57 AM
. Sooo,if anyone knows a place to list grabby photographers-like where escorts report bad clients but for photographers-please let me know.
I'm so glad you got out of that shoot! Gah. I check references on my photographers but I'm always nervous when they want to shoot at a house/hotel or out in the desert... eek.
If you use Model Mayhem, I know you can report him to the mods, and you can also certainly blacklist him on your personal page. I'm not sure what the police could do, but I would definitely contact them and let them know he's in that business... he may be on probation or something and that would probably be a violation!
michele11
01-21-2014, 12:14 PM
Well, hopefully you can have a consult done, to help you decide?
For me, I am lost right now trying to decided what to do!
I've already talked to my doctor 3 times. I was just there last week. I'm driving him crazy because I say the same thing every time I come in but then I don't book.
smeca
01-21-2014, 05:51 PM
I confess I need to shut up about the guy I'm texting, I'm not sure anybody wants to hear about it. I'm also surprised how quickly I am feeling ok about becoming single, and that I am even into men- I thought stripping had put me off them.
DonaDiabla
01-24-2014, 06:27 PM
I confess that I enjoy watching cam boys every night before bed:) I mean they are so hot and sexy...but they are better than finding a random hookup.
Selina M
01-30-2014, 02:54 PM
This is kinda odd but... I hate nausea/upset stomach so much that I am incredibly paranoid about food. I feel bad because I'm sure it drives my bf nuts that I'm constantly going "Are you SURE that chicken is cooked through?" and refusing to drink/eat anything past it's sell-by date... I just pushed away a taco because a piece of meat looked green, though he swears it's a green pepper cooked in... Gah.
whirlerz
01-30-2014, 03:07 PM
This is kinda odd but... I hate nausea/upset stomach so much that I am incredibly paranoid about food. I feel bad because I'm sure it drives my bf nuts that I'm constantly going "Are you SURE that chicken is cooked through?" and refusing to drink/eat anything past it's sell-by date... I just pushed away a taco because a piece of meat looked green, though he swears it's a green pepper cooked in... Gah.
No, b/c I've had food poisoning (although it was inconclusive) had to visit emergency room, & also this past month a place I was going to regularly (I also know the owner, he is very particular about the food, cleanliness, etc) I know the ppl working left my fries sitting in grease, & I got sick from that.
For me: Went to court for a parking ticket today & wanted to shove the nasty b*tch openly coughing, + cut in front of me in line.
AlenaRoza
01-30-2014, 03:16 PM
^im scared to death of puking! I fear that I won't be able to stop or I'll choke on it and die.
Anyways my confession: My OCD is terrible lately. Way past the point of just over thinking, I get so crazy and will think about the same one thing for probably 3 hours on end.
Like, my front tooth for instance. I ever so slightly chipped it on a fork eating salad. I obsessed over it, thinking.. Knowing, it was gonna fall out. I cried about it. I went to the dentist 2 months ago, did an x ray and they filed it, said it was perfectly fine and I'm STILL sitting here thinking I feel some weird sensation in it.
This runs in my family. My sister brought her problems up to me a week ago and she's totally like me in every way, but doesn't want to talk about it anymore, it's sad.
Also: I didn't stop drinking at work. Blah. I did make a pretty good cut off point though. Whatever. BLAH
Sabihah
01-30-2014, 04:31 PM
I'm still deeply, madly in love with someone who left me fifteen months ago. It was not a clean break, and it exposed weaknesses in both of us that have made it very obvious that we should not ever try again. But the love's still there, and it kills me. :(
LaurenAus
01-31-2014, 04:15 AM
I just pulled some frozen sausages out of the freezer to let them thaw, and now my fingers smell like vagina
EvelynHeartsYou
01-31-2014, 04:42 PM
A few months ago, I was at the grocery store and I saw this girl who looked familiar. After stalking her around the store a few times, I realized who she is. She's a very active poster here and is rather well known in the cam world. I didn't approach her (but later confirmed it was who I thought it was), because what if it wasn't her or what if someone overheard? Anyways, I now refuse to leave the house to go ANYWHERE without makeup, in the event I run into her. Anyone else? Pffft I don't care who sees me like I just rolled out of bed. But I can't let one of my inspirations here, see me lookin' like a schlub out there ;)
LaPatrona
01-31-2014, 10:57 PM
Confession: I haven't strip yet, and I honestly don't know if I would ever do it. Stripping could solve so many financial problems in my life, yet, I'm scare someone from my school might find out.
I've been saving money to strip in another state, but I have to stay here since I will be taking summer classes and I don't have a car. I really don't know want to do. I feel like this could change a lot of things in my life, but I don't know if it would be for better or for worst.
And the thing is, I was very determined to start, until someone made a comment that really hurt me. He said people who strip to pay for college are really desperate. And I'm indeed desperate.