View Full Version : Confessions Thread!
charlie61
06-06-2014, 02:14 PM
I hate it when threads on here start out as interesting and fun, and people make lots of good points, but then the thread starts to get bogged down with long, drawn-out posts expressing obscure or repetitive opinions. And instead of unsubscribing from them, you keep opening them up because you just can't help yourself, and the threads keep reappearing on your thread list, and the cycle continues...
Vackra
06-07-2014, 02:42 PM
My husband left yesterday for the next 12 weeks, and although I cried when I dropped him off last night, I woke up this morning feeling great and made a huge list of things to accomplish in his absence. I love him with all my heart, but I really enjoy the time apart we get... gives us time to appreciate each other and makes everything feel new again.
Aniela
06-07-2014, 04:35 PM
May get sm chortles for this one but I am putting it out there anyway. Don't judge me ... !
I <3 birds like nobody's business, & often whistle or cluck at them. I am very childish like that.
I long since grew out of the 'run into the middle of a flock to scatter them' thing, but in light of the UCSB & 'How men label themselves a problem' threads, today I found myself wondering if the birds find my behaviour invasive …
ScarletKitten
06-07-2014, 04:58 PM
^^Aniela, I love birds too! Have you seen the documentary "Winged Migration"? It's so relaxing and tranquil to watch... :)
I don't think the birds mind you at all, considering how vile most of the human race is in comparison.
My confession for the day: Despite much effort to erase these conflicting feelings, I'm still in love with my husband's brother. :(
Vackra
06-07-2014, 05:12 PM
May get sm chortles for this one but I am putting it out there anyway. Don't judge me ... !
I <3 birds like nobody's business, & often whistle or cluck at them. I am very childish like that.
I long since grew out of the 'run into the middle of a flock to scatter them' thing, but in light of the UCSB & 'How men label themselves a problem' threads, today I found myself wondering if the birds find my behaviour invasive …
Oh gosh I love the little sparrows that dust bathe in the summer and are always outside looking for crumbs on restaurant patios. Every time I see them I squeal LOOK AT THE TINY BABY BIRDIES!! So I'm right there with you.
sexsells
06-09-2014, 05:32 PM
I've been insanely horny all day.
Vackra
06-10-2014, 08:02 PM
I've been insanely horny all day.
Ugh my husband is away for three months and I am about to descend into this hell.
OliveJardin
06-11-2014, 06:03 PM
I confess that I'm burnt out, again.
I got my drink spiked the other day, was really sick and need a break (it was the 2nd time this year, at this club. I KNOW I should be more careful and NOT leave it within reach while I'm not facing the customer. This creepy guy kept insisting I "drink with him" during a lp and asking to literally photograph/draw me saying, "How about now? Can I draw you now" over and over again, every 10 mins :)) ).
Even though I work alone, I confess that I am SO thankful to work with my supportive friend-if she wasn't there, I wouldn't want to drag myself into the club tonight (this isn't like me btw). It's nice to have someone to talk to before work and to debrief with afterwards-it really seems to be keeping me sane.
audrey_k
06-11-2014, 06:46 PM
I feel really lonely... it's been over a year since I had a relationship that lasted more than 4 months, and I am so sick of dating guys who turn out to be complete and utter wastes of time. I thought by the time I was getting to 25 I would at least be in a serious relationship, if engaged... and I am SO far away from either of those things. It makes me sad sometimes to see happy couples and then I feel like a horrible person for being jealous.
Kellydancer
06-11-2014, 11:31 PM
Audrey I can relate. I thought by now I'd be married like everyone else but nope still single. It gets so frustrating because it's to the point where people don't even say "don't worry you'll find someone" but rather "some people enjoy being single". I know people I know have given up on me ever getting married and I worry about this. It's something I am super sensitive about and will burst into tears about it. Last Saturday I went to a comedy night and the one comedian started talking about being 44 when he got married and I was silently applauding an older married guy until he mentioned his wife was much younger and that he was happy he waited so he could marry a younger woman. I literally started bawling because it's not something I find funny and why older women are still the brunt of jokes when most other groups aren't depresses me. Then there are the guys people try to match me up with, talk about scraping the bottom of the barrel. Online was just as bad and my mom keeps trying to get me to renew my Match membership but I know what will happen is the men I don't want will be the ones to contact me. This happened last time and it's no compliment getting messages from either mentally ill or challenged or men old enough to be my dad (or even my grandpa). I can't even attend weddings anymore because of this, especially if the bride and groom are much younger. I end up being a bitch so why attend?
This topic makes me wonder about my faith in God and there are times I seriously consider leaving church because of it.
Elektra Luxx
06-12-2014, 06:57 AM
Last night I called my ex to come over and watch Netflix. Code for "I'm fucking horny and I need you". He did and we did. I'm glad he didn't spend the night, I was mad at myself because he's a good guy and I broke up with him because I'm fucked up. I hate that about myself.
whirlerz
06-12-2014, 07:42 AM
Years ago, my ex. got sent to rehab by his co.'s HR dept..only not for alcohol. There's a place called Cottonwood in AZ & he said they helped him deal with being verbally/physically abused by having him take a plastic baseball bat & beat on a pillow..
I think I may need to do that.
charlie61
06-12-2014, 11:23 AM
I feel really lonely... it's been over a year since I had a relationship that lasted more than 4 months, and I am so sick of dating guys who turn out to be complete and utter wastes of time. I thought by the time I was getting to 25 I would at least be in a serious relationship, if engaged... and I am SO far away from either of those things. It makes me sad sometimes to see happy couples and then I feel like a horrible person for being jealous.
It seems like your focus in life right now is on working. You work like 5+ days a week, right? Girl, you hardly have time to take care of yourself, much less a relationship! Go easy on yourself. You just moved to a new country, you're still working on building up funds, and you have plenty of changes planned for your future, too. When you're ready to find someone and make the time for it, I'm sure it will happen for you.
Spinnerette
06-12-2014, 05:48 PM
I confess that even though I'm starting to find my rhythm with big-box/freechat sites again, I'm still scared as shit to log on most days. Just thinking about all the hours I've wasted dancing and talking to a silent room and receiving 0% engagement sends me into a panic. It's not even about perceived rejection (I'm too hardened to take a cheapos cheapness personally anymore). I have a bit too much riding on my ability to succeed at this at this time and it's easier not to log in and orchestrate my failure that way than to try and not only end up failing anyway, but be sore/tired for it (faking extroversion is exhausting).
And I'm sure the super vets are looking at this and scoffing about me being a weak bitch. Ah well.
lynn2009
06-13-2014, 06:02 PM
......
whirlerz
06-14-2014, 12:46 AM
Ok, so this guy I have a semi-crush on is working now, dying to walk in & say hi, buuuut..:-[
Elektra Luxx
06-14-2014, 12:50 PM
Ok, so this guy I have a semi-crush on is working now, dying to walk in & say hi, buuuut..:-[
I think you should just do it. Feel him out to find out if he interested also. Easier said than done, but you should go for it.
LexyNYC
06-14-2014, 01:45 PM
My inbox is full of girls asking me "where can I work in NY and make money".
Don't they realize that I'm in NY and if I knew where there was money to be made, I would be working there and wouldn't be inviting others to come and take some of the money that I want to leave with? This is partially the reason why I hardly come on this forum. Girls want to be hand fed information from their competition.
If you want to know how a certain club is, go there and work.
Vackra
06-14-2014, 02:16 PM
I hate my best friends wife. He and I have been friends for 9 years, never been ANYTHING between us. Yet even though I am also married, she acts very jealous and won't let him travel to visit me alone. So basically if I want to see him, I have to spend time with both of them, and it sucks. She is very young, but very heavy and I think this has a lot to do with it.
michele11
06-14-2014, 04:10 PM
My inbox is full of girls asking me "where can I work in NY and make money".
Don't they realize that I'm in NY and if I knew where there was money to be made, I would be working there and wouldn't be inviting others to come and take some of the money that I want to leave with? This is partially the reason why I hardly come on this forum. Girls want to be hand fed information from their competition.
If you want to know how a certain club is, go there and work.
I get like 5 pm a week. It is annoying but if they're a contributing member I help then out.
chanzep
06-14-2014, 08:30 PM
^ I get alot too, I give girls info aand there like where you at!? like what? do you know how hard it is to make money in the UK regulary, I don't mind helping some people that help too, but some girls are just lazy and don't want to try themselves, I can't count the number of shit clubs I tried here 1 in 10 might be ok.
chanzep
06-14-2014, 08:33 PM
I have been eating alot after work lately and it has to stop, I had the worst trapped wind today was last night, it was really painful.
Aniela
06-15-2014, 02:13 PM
I have been spending a ridiculous amt of time in my room the last couple days. Part of it is just my perpetually fked-up sleep schedule, but I have realised that a good part of it is just. Not. Wanting. To deal. W/ my landlords. They really only pop downstairs for laundry but if I am in sight then I have to be nice & chat & I just really can't fking stomach it right now. Have not worked since the bf got back from infantry (& he left again three days ago) & at this point I don't give any fks abt what they might think I am doing abt work. Going to tell them tomor that I am moving out on Sat.
audrey_k
06-15-2014, 04:18 PM
^ I get alot too, I give girls info aand there like where you at!? like what? do you know how hard it is to make money in the UK regulary, I don't mind helping some people that help too, but some girls are just lazy and don't want to try themselves, I can't count the number of shit clubs I tried here 1 in 10 might be ok.
I get a lot of them too from girls in LA... now that I don't live there I'm much nicer about giving out info! lol. But I guess I'm a sucker for girls new to the city, if it hadn't been for three or 4 very kind ladies on this forum (*ahem* PinkiePie, Chanzep, Shanna, and a few others who's usernames are long and complicated) who basically told me everything there is to know about dancing in the UK, then I would have been so utterly fucked and overwhelmed and lost when I got here!
lynn2009
06-15-2014, 10:36 PM
I have been having issues w/ my parents lately, didn't call my dad to wish happy father's day today
tuesdaymarie
06-16-2014, 11:35 AM
I am a crazy cat lady. I am leaving for a week and a half this summer, and I have three cat sitters lined up to spend extra time with my cats. One of them is terrified of strangers, so I have a rotation of three close friends he's not afraid of coming in to sit on the couch and watch Netflix with him...
SweetJulia
06-16-2014, 11:43 AM
^^^^^Me, too-I have four cats :)
Anyway, I feel like hot shit cuz I've been fucking a younger guy. That is all :)
charlie61
06-16-2014, 02:42 PM
^^^^^Me, too-I have four cats :)
Anyway, I feel like hot shit cuz I've been fucking a younger guy. That is all :)
How much younger?! Hot! :-*
SweetJulia
06-16-2014, 03:35 PM
How much younger?! Hot! :-*
He's 25 and I turned 29 in March :)
smeca
06-17-2014, 08:08 AM
I had a cry-wank this morning, it was weird.
Aniela
06-17-2014, 11:06 AM
I DO NOT want to go up to my sister's for dinner tonite. She can be so obnoxious on a good day, just gave birth a few days ago so I am pretty sure wîll be a wreck, & I am tired & stressed from moving & relationship bs. Totally want to call out w/ a stress-induced tummyache that would be the perfect excuse to not make that hr+ drive each way but my dad is expecting me to be there. Fk every1 else bc I don't want to disappoint him, but goddamn I just want to cancel & go back to sleep :banghead:
charlie61
06-17-2014, 04:37 PM
I had a cry-wank this morning, it was weird.
I'm not sure if those are better or worse than boredom wanks...especially bad if you spend the whole time thinking about the news / weather / groceries and then realize suddenly that you've had an orgasm.
jadey23
06-17-2014, 11:45 PM
I just had a one night stand with this absolutely incredible Englishman after an 8 month dry spell. Holy smokes. The chemistry was great. That being said, I know I'll never see that one again and I'm back home aka the land of no D. I kind of wish it hadn't been so good because then I wouldn't be pining over it now.
Aniela
06-18-2014, 05:50 PM
*sigh* if only I could get paid for procrastinating. I am truly ashamed of myself.
I am only just getting started putting my shit in order to move on Sat, & the main motivator right now is my guy's surprise coming-back tomor nite b4 his reserve wk end. I cooked like a wk's worth of food for him & put it in the freezer, & made a list of all the stuff I need to get done, but so far that's it.
So glad it will be relatively quick packing bc I do not have much stuff here, & most of it nvr got unpacked in the first place since I knew this was a temporary setup.
tuesdaymarie
06-18-2014, 09:33 PM
I saw a man literally almost die today, like sat with him and shit while the ambulance came, and now I'm just drunk and really fucking sad and don't know why exactly.
Aniela
06-18-2014, 09:57 PM
I saw a man literally almost die today, like sat with him and shit while the ambulance came, and now I'm just drunk and really fucking sad and don't know why exactly.
Feeling your own mortality & the mortality of every1 you hold dear, maybe?
:hug:
lovelydancer
06-18-2014, 10:58 PM
I kinda flipped out at work tonight. Professionally I've always been a mellow, happy worker. Tomorrow was suppose to be my last day in the club world since I got a real vanilla job I start Monday and I wanted to end on a good note. Needless to say, oops. Didn't happen.
Well...everything about tonight got to me; girls acting like idiots, the rain keeping customers away, the few customers that did come in were acting like complete douchebags, no money was being made, etc. I went onstage, a guy finally came up to tip me, and literally grabbed around me with his left arm so I couldn't move for a split second, but during that split second me pinched my pussy lips with his free arm! Onstage!!! So I snapped and punched the guy square in the face. Hard. You could hear my knuckles making contact with his cheekbone. The club went silent. I walked offstage, changed, and left.
I shouldn't have let that asshole get the better of my emotions, but those punches felt really good. That'll be the last time he probably tries any dumb shit with another dancer. Not my classiest moment, but it was a satisfying one. :)
Aniela
06-18-2014, 11:45 PM
I kinda flipped out at work tonight. Professionally I've always been a mellow, happy worker. Tomorrow was suppose to be my last day in the club world since I got a real vanilla job I start Monday and I wanted to end on a good note. Needless to say, oops. Didn't happen.
Well...everything about tonight got to me; girls acting like idiots, the rain keeping customers away, the few customers that did come in were acting like complete douchebags, no money was being made, etc. I went onstage, a guy finally came up to tip me, and literally grabbed around me with his left arm so I couldn't move for a split second, but during that split second me pinched my pussy lips with his free arm! Onstage!!! So I snapped and punched the guy square in the face. Hard. You could hear my knuckles making contact with his cheekbone. The club went silent. I walked offstage, changed, and left.
I shouldn't have let that asshole get the better of my emotions, but those punches felt really good. That'll be the last time he probably tries any dumb shit with another dancer. Not my classiest moment, but it was a satisfying one. :)
I mean this in the nicest way possible, but um ... WHY in the EVERLIVING FK are you so concerned w/ behaving 'classy' toward a piece of shit customer who sexually assaulted you? Getting clocked is the LEAST of what he deserved for pulling that shit. Idc what we all say abt that 'coming w/ the territory of dancing' I am sry he ruined your nite. If you are located between VA & FL, I am moving back south this wk end -- PM me if you want me to make a pit stop & we can take care of him together }:D
PinkGeisha
06-19-2014, 12:32 AM
I mean this in the nicest way possible, but um ... WHY in the EVERLIVING FK are you so concerned w/ behaving 'classy' toward a piece of shit customer who sexually assaulted you? Getting clocked is the LEAST of what he deserved for pulling that shit. Idc what we all say abt that 'coming w/ the territory of dancing' I am sry he ruined your nite. If you are located between VA & FL, I am moving back south this wk end -- PM me if you want me to make a pit stop & we can take care of him together }:D
f*ck, if you live in the West Coast, PM me, I'll be more than happy to be your partner in crime on this side of the USA... TOTALLY uncalled for and full grounds for sexual assault + can sue!!!!
kaninchen
06-19-2014, 01:12 AM
I kinda flipped out at work tonight. Professionally I've always been a mellow, happy worker. Tomorrow was suppose to be my last day in the club world since I got a real vanilla job I start Monday and I wanted to end on a good note. Needless to say, oops. Didn't happen.
Well...everything about tonight got to me; girls acting like idiots, the rain keeping customers away, the few customers that did come in were acting like complete douchebags, no money was being made, etc. I went onstage, a guy finally came up to tip me, and literally grabbed around me with his left arm so I couldn't move for a split second, but during that split second me pinched my pussy lips with his free arm! Onstage!!! So I snapped and punched the guy square in the face. Hard. You could hear my knuckles making contact with his cheekbone. The club went silent. I walked offstage, changed, and left.
I shouldn't have let that asshole get the better of my emotions, but those punches felt really good. That'll be the last time he probably tries any dumb shit with another dancer. Not my classiest moment, but it was a satisfying one. :)
With all due respect, defending yourself from sexual assault is very classy! I'm kidding about it being classy, of course, but my point is that your reaction was normal and IMO, completely reasonable. You deserve applause and a hug. Sorry your last night wasn't as positive as you'd hoped.
Tourdefranzia
06-20-2014, 11:00 AM
I want to confess something, but it is too long and complicated for a forum post. Let's just say that stripping screwed up my sex life for a long time. I've managed to fix it. I wish I knew some things about myself when I first started dancing that I know now. I know where I went wrong, what beliefs I held that got me into that messed up state in the first place and how I'm good with dancing now. In fact, I've come to enjoy the blatant sexuality of the business a great deal.
Spinnerette
06-20-2014, 04:26 PM
I confess that I love being a dick so much. So so SO much. Only to people who deserve it of course.
Tourdefranzia
06-21-2014, 11:20 AM
I confess that I love being a dick so much. So so SO much. Only to people who deserve it of course.
Me too!
michele11
06-22-2014, 10:34 PM
He's 25 and I turned 29 in March :)
I fucked a 26 year old last year. I'm 45., Waste of time. Know I have this 25 year old following me around like a puppy dog when I'm in town but last year ( I stayed at the hotel he work) he blew me off. He came into my work by himself 3 times telling me he was waiting for me. Lol. I'm turned off now. He came up when I was with a customer telling him how he met me . The custie asked if I fucked him. Lmao! And we made fun of him and now I;m kind of turned of by him. And he's fucken hot mix of james franco and the dude that was married to reece wiherspoon( forget his name), Though he's actually hotter.
AlenaRoza
06-25-2014, 03:47 PM
(TMI) Seeing this new guy now. I used to hang with him a few yrs ago and we'd fool around or whatever, so I guess he's not that new, lol. Anyway I made several drunken, unprotected mistakes with him.. And I'm 100% sure I have chlam again. Started with the abdominal pain, then slowly but surely came the painful sex w/ blood and etc. (sorry lol)
I know it's not a huge deal but I'm an idiot. I knew he slept around. He really is awesome though and we have a lot of the same views on relationships and religion and such. I have an appointment soon. We're going out tonight and I really want to discuss it with him because the sex hurts but I don't want to spoil the mood (before I find out if I actually have it), OR let him know that I have had this before. We've been really good about it after those few times. Can't wait to go get my pregnancy/std check lol! I'm such a winner
simone87
06-25-2014, 04:03 PM
i confess that it kinda bugs me that my boyfriend is 12 years older than me, and has fucked way more people and really "lived" and experienced so much more than i have, and sometimes i feel like im getting the short end of the stick settling down so young! but on the other hand, i really hate the whole dating game, and i love him. its not his fault, but sometimes it just seems unfair. not sure how to feel about it
audrey_k
06-25-2014, 04:57 PM
I prefer having sex with older men... and I've had better sex with some of my escort clients than my boyfriends. I feel like that's really weird.
Aniela
06-25-2014, 06:22 PM
f*ck, if you live in the West Coast, PM me, I'll be more than happy to be your partner in crime on this side of the USA... TOTALLY uncalled for and full grounds for sexual assault + can sue!!!!
If I find myself moving back out that way will def let you know! Moving the bodies always goes so much smoother when you have the right accompli -- ahem -- I mean, transporting cargo always goes so much smoother when you have the right company :angel:
Vyanka
06-26-2014, 12:32 PM
Damn fkn cancer. My younger sister's BF has an aggressive cancer and I can't stand seeing my sibling suffering like this. :-(
Elektra Luxx
06-26-2014, 05:13 PM
Damn fkn cancer. My younger sister's BF has an aggressive cancer and I can't stand seeing my sibling suffering like this. :-(
I sorry that you and your family are going through such a difficult time. Cancer runs in my family. I've have two aunt's in remission and are doing well. So there is hope. I just felt like I needed to say something. I not a very good Christian, but will pray for your family.