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Vyanka
06-27-2014, 05:56 AM
I sorry that you and your family are going through such a difficult time. Cancer runs in my family. I've have two aunt's in remission and are doing well. So there is hope. I just felt like I needed to say something. I not a very good Christian, but will pray for your family.

Thank you for the wishes. It's my sister's BF who has it. Not my sister(Gid forbid).

I just hate seeing her broken down over him. He's in our prayers.

lynn2009
06-29-2014, 01:32 PM
I spend entirely too much time searching for real estate on the internet that I cannot afford >.<

ScarletKitten
06-30-2014, 03:39 AM
Damn fkn cancer. My younger sister's BF has an aggressive cancer and I can't stand seeing my sibling suffering like this. :-(

What kind of cancer is it? There are cures/natural treatments for cancers. Mushrooms such as Turkey Tail, Maitake, Shiitake, and others are super-powerful and have been PROVEN to cure cancer. Stay away from hospital treatment, human-made pharmaceuticals, and especially chemotherapy. Please tell your sister about the cancer-fighting mushrooms. Going vegan helps fight cancer as well.

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/paul-stamets/mushrooms-cancer_b_1560691.html

http://www.hostdefense.com/products/mushroom-capsules/item/mycommunity

Here is Paul Stamets's TED talk video about Turkey Tail mushrooms curing cancer:


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mWT09ZDqFlE

(Note that this was about breast cancer, but the studies have found that these mushrooms cure most or all types of cancers, because they boost the immune system like nothing else on planet Earth!)

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Vyanka
06-30-2014, 08:46 AM
What kind of cancer is it? There are cures/natural treatments for cancers. Mushrooms such as Turkey Tail, Maitake, Shiitake, and others are super-powerful and have been PROVEN to cure cancer. Stay away from hospital treatment, human-made pharmaceuticals, and especially chemotherapy. Please tell your sister about the cancer-fighting mushrooms. Going vegan helps fight cancer as well.

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/paul-stamets/mushrooms-cancer_b_1560691.html

http://www.hostdefense.com/products/mushroom-capsules/item/mycommunity

Here is Paul Stamets's TED talk video about Turkey Tail mushrooms curing cancer:


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mWT09ZDqFlE

(Note that this was about breast cancer, but the studies have found that these mushrooms cure most or all types of cancers, because they boost the immune system like nothing else on planet Earth!)

Thank You SK.. any info I can get I send it to her, so she can tell him.

He has Leukemia. It's the second time he gets it. The first time was about 3 or 4 years ago. My sister tells me he's like "eh" about it. That he just wants to pass away, bc he cringes of the ideas of hellish treatment again. :(

I've sent my sister some holistic stories to send him, but it's like he doesn't care. From what she told me. Sadly. :(

kaninchen
06-30-2014, 11:27 AM
I had Petit Écoliers and a leftover fontina, spinach, and basil grilled cheese for breakfast. Mondays have been my IDGAF food day lately.

SweetJulia
07-02-2014, 10:01 AM
I fucked a 26 year old last year. I'm 45., Waste of time. Know I have this 25 year old following me around like a puppy dog when I'm in town but last year ( I stayed at the hotel he work) he blew me off. He came into my work by himself 3 times telling me he was waiting for me. Lol. I'm turned off now. He came up when I was with a customer telling him how he met me . The custie asked if I fucked him. Lmao! And we made fun of him and now I;m kind of turned of by him. And he's fucken hot mix of james franco and the dude that was married to reece wiherspoon( forget his name), Though he's actually hotter.

Sorry :( Mine's been pretty good so far.

Savannah Lee
07-03-2014, 11:03 PM
I just went out on a date with a 45 year old and had an amazing time. I told him I was 28 ( I'm really 23) The fucked up part is that I really had a great time with him and he wants to see me again....

whirlerz
07-04-2014, 07:25 AM
I spend entirely too much time searching for real estate on the internet that I cannot afford >.<

Why not? (do that I mean) LOA:)

audrey_k
07-04-2014, 01:33 PM
I've had the worst day ever. I've been crying and drinking all evening, I'm too drunk at the moment to even make it on the tube so I'm stuck at my incall place for a bit. All I want to do is get back on a place to America right now.

Spinnerette
07-04-2014, 01:57 PM
I used to feel really bad when I would piss my husband off, but now whenever he gets upset at something I've done? I'm just like "good". Tired of feeling cowed for no damn reason. Like the fight du jour is because he told me to beware of SD ads that read like they're just looking for sex and I'm like, "You know I've been in the industry for over 8 years, right?" and he says he's just saying some things for the sake of conversation so I tell him if he doesn't have anything USEFUL to contribute, that perhaps it's better that he doesn't speak. So now he's mad, but for real? Don't talk just to talk. We've known each other for 7 years, he doesn't have to do that silence filling shit with me for the sake of looking "engaged". I HAVE a brain, goddammit.

Elektra Luxx
07-04-2014, 03:42 PM
I just went out on a date with a 45 year old and had an amazing time. I told him I was 28 ( I'm really 23) The fucked up part is that I really had a great time with him and he wants to see me again....

You had an amazing time and he wants to see you again, that's a good thing. The age thing is just a small white lie that people on dates will say sometimes. I'm 21 and have dated 40 year old guys. IMHO, guys that age love dating girls our age.

whirlerz
07-04-2014, 04:40 PM
I've had the worst day ever. I've been crying and drinking all evening, I'm too drunk at the moment to even make it on the tube so I'm stuck at my incall place for a bit. All I want to do is get back on a place to America right now.

Aww, I'm so sorry Hun..:( I had a rotten day as well, mostly yesterday but some carried over onto today..
Me:
I went to talk to mgr @ my storage place (pls see, "feeling pissy...") & he basically smiled>:( while I described my next door 'neighbor' storage guy totally verbally abused me (& to the point where I described him as verbally agressive wanting to call police)?
I did nothing wrong, some old man screaming @ me & being a big baby about wanting to use the cart I was sitting on, when he could've walked 10 ft to get another one??
Mon. I'm calling the corporate office, not that it'll do any good::) but just to let them know they (personnel) don't have to talk to me that way..

simone87
07-04-2014, 06:49 PM
I've had the worst day ever. I've been crying and drinking all evening, I'm too drunk at the moment to even make it on the tube so I'm stuck at my incall place for a bit. All I want to do is get back on a place to America right now.

i wish i had the guts to move to a foreign country all alone, i would have been crying my first night out of anxiety! you have lady balls

domina
07-05-2014, 03:40 AM
i unfollowed and unfriended a bunch of people on FB this month. I figure that if its the same ones making posts that annoy me, they should just go.
Sometimes I wonder if they noticed.

TashaToday
07-05-2014, 04:07 PM
Today I started playing Second Life. And boy, am I hooked! Right off the bat, I have a guy giving me $$ so I can buy outfits and is helping me learn how to do everything. I was a huge gamer in my youth, and it's so exciting to be excited about something again. It's been a long time since I felt a relaxed giddiness about a game.

kaninchen
07-06-2014, 03:40 AM
I met the hottest motherfucker at work tonight. He was brought in with a bachelor party. He's German and French and fluent in both, and looks like Gabriel Aubry with huge muscles! And he just graduated from law school. Agghhhh! OMG he was too cute.

I told him I needed someone to practice my French with, so he needed to give me his e-mail address. He did. He's the first legitimately smoking hot guy I've ever met in the club. I know acting on customer crushes is frowned upon, but I really can't care because he is SO HOT. OMG!

Vyanka
07-07-2014, 06:11 AM
I seriously cannot be around negative ppl. It drains me and gets in a horrible mood.

I spent the wknd with negative ppl talking horrible shit about others, complaining about petty dumb shit, lack of empathy, etc.

Ugh!

I need a detox from toxic folks.

MyButter
07-07-2014, 07:56 AM
For the last couple of months, I've been hating all of my clothes...but I also hate shopping for clothes, so I'm in an eternal rut---nooooooooo!

charlie61
07-08-2014, 02:30 PM
For the last couple of months, I've been hating all of my clothes...but I also hate shopping for clothes, so I'm in an eternal rut---nooooooooo!

Ugh, same. I abhor shopping. My wardrobe is literally 90% yoga pants and tank tops...

simone87
07-08-2014, 02:51 PM
I seriously cannot be around negative ppl. It drains me and gets in a horrible mood.

I spent the wknd with negative ppl talking horrible shit about others, complaining about petty dumb shit, lack of empathy, etc.

Ugh!

I need a detox from toxic folks.

i feel the exact same way!! its almost like people are drawn to me so they can unload all their negative crap, and it affects the listener so much..its like now we are burdened with it all, put me in a bad mood all day long. especially when the only reason they talk to you is to complain and bitch

OliveJardin
07-08-2014, 06:01 PM
I'm not looking forward to my boyfriend swapping his day job for night shifts-I REALLY enjoy having the day to myself :(.

SexedUpCat
07-08-2014, 09:48 PM
Someone I was really close to died this past Sunday. I promised her I'd fly to see her one last time at least before she passed, but I never did...I feel horrible.

OliveJardin
07-09-2014, 12:55 AM
Someone I was really close to died this past Sunday. I promised her I'd fly to see her one last time at least before she passed, but I never did...I feel horrible.

This happened to me earlier this year and it's hard. But don't feel bad, I am sure she knew she was in your thoughts and heart. It's one of those things that you cannot predict, so don't beat yourself up over it. I'm sorry for your loss x

audrey_k
07-09-2014, 05:42 PM
i wish i had the guts to move to a foreign country all alone, i would have been crying my first night out of anxiety! you have lady balls

Thanks, I don't know why I have been some homesick lately. I think now that I'm pretty settled financially and not so stressed about money and getting everything together it's start to hit me how much I miss everyone back home! Stress is a good distraction!

The week was also lousy with time wasters and no-shows, I ended up making more than my goal but that was only because I worked 6 days instead of 5 and basically organized a gang-bang for myself on Sunday, I think I did 6 hours of appointments or something crazy like that.

charlie61
07-10-2014, 10:43 AM
The week was also lousy with time wasters and no-shows, I ended up making more than my goal but that was only because I worked 6 days instead of 5 and basically organized a gang-bang for myself on Sunday, I think I did 6 hours of appointments or something crazy like that.

This made me laugh. Get it gurl!!

Aniela
07-10-2014, 03:32 PM
I cooked up an idea for a project the other day -- I want to make a tshirt quilt for my bf. Got the tshirts today, yaaaaaay! …now just trying to get my shit together.

Problem is, I know nothing abt quilting. While I am ok w/ that, since it will be a good learning experience, on top of managing the 'learning as I go along' my imagination has really been taking off & I am starting to think I may be getting a bit over-ambitious here.

I know, I know -- one thing at a time -- I just have A BUNCH of ideas on how I want to put this thing together & really need to not let myself get overwhelmed b4 I even get started.

audrey_k
07-10-2014, 05:20 PM
I am so drunk right now! I can barely type... I did a couple tonight and I will NEVER do that again, christ, they were fun but dealing with all their politics and relationship issues I should have charged double. The wife was sweet but she as SO insecure about me, I had to basically shit all over her husband to make her feel OK and then he was getting annoyed at me. And they kept wanting to extend extend extend... the only way I could get through it was to get wasted, and at four hours I said sorry, enough is enough. I want to go home...

Aniela
07-15-2014, 05:45 PM
I guess this is a confession of having become totally jaded.

Tonite during dinner, 'I'll nvr break your heart' by the Backstreet Boys came on. When they got to the line that goes 'I deserve a try honey' the first thing that came to my mind was the recent street-harassment threads. Even tho I am pretty sure that song wasn't written from such a male-entitlement angle, the thought & the fact that I had that thought put such a bad taste in my mouth.

Savannah Lee
07-15-2014, 08:49 PM
I broke down and cried today. It's been about two months since my ex and I broke up, I just can't believe it happened still. Not a day goes by that I don't think of him. I wish he would just call and say we made a mistake.

Issabelle
07-18-2014, 11:10 AM
My boyfriend is shy--like, anxiety disorder shy--and we've totally gotten stuck in the rut of going to the bars every night to meet up. I haven't slept over with him in about two weeks. He's coming out of his shell, but sometimes I feel like he gets complacent and feel ignored even with him sitting next to me. We made more plans when we first met! I told him I really wanted to do something outside of a bar for once--movie night, dinner, anything--and he got this mildly terrified 'I'll fuck that right up' look on his face. The last time we did have dinner was my birthday. I just wanna do other things with him and I'm afraid to outright say 'I need X to be happy,' because I think he'll have a melt down. He's good to me, listens, takes me out with his friends, etc., but sometimes when I feel neglected I call my male friends/coworkers to hang out when he's said he's busy with friends in hopes of running into him and making him a bit jealous. He knows all my friends and we don't do anything at all, but last night my buddy asked what his deal was after we left for the night. Apparently, he was being all 'protective' of me (buddy's words, not mine) when he came over to say hello at the bar and sent me a semi-jealous sounding goodnight text. I feel terrible to resort to it, but sometimes that jealousy is what it takes for me to still feel 'special.'

SamanthaSugar
07-20-2014, 05:21 PM
I broke up with my boyfriend on the sole reason that I despise his family and in return it made us argue.
I'm trying to move on and date others but I compare everyone to him. Sometimes I think I really fucked up but he's told me numerous times that I'll live to regret this but I'm so stubborn
I'll never admit to him.

SamanthaSugar
07-20-2014, 05:22 PM
I broke up with my boyfriend on the sole reason that I despise his family and in return it made us argue.
I'm trying to move on and date others but I compare everyone to him. Sometimes I think I really fucked up but he's told me numerous times that I'll live to regret this but I'm so stubborn
I'll never admit to him.

Savannah Lee
07-20-2014, 09:26 PM
I slept with some guy I had been on a few dates with tn. He's the first man I've slept with after my breakup with my ex of 2.5 years. I felt absolutely nothing after sleeping with this guy. It's almost as if sex has no special meaning to me anymore

ava$
07-21-2014, 04:33 AM
^^Oh, I have been there!! I think its common especially after a breakup from a real relationship.

sexsells
07-21-2014, 07:10 AM
I am feeling so lost right now it's not even funny.

TransdimensionalPrincess
07-21-2014, 02:19 PM
I had a dream where I posted something awesome on stripperweb and got 11,000 "thanks".... yup.

DonaDiabla
07-22-2014, 06:11 AM
This is my confession of leaving the adult industry in my 30s.

I would like to keep working as sex worker until the age of 32. In the meantime, I will be drafting a master business plan for myself. I will be working as PSO, cam model, online dominatrix, virtual escort, adult content provider and sugar baby. I will try to make 10,000 a month from all of these ventures and work 40 plus hours a week. Currently, I am getting my body, mind, and spirit together for this massive venture. My goals are paying off all of my students loans and paying my own house with cash. After paying off my student loans, I will be debt free. Wish me luck :)

Aniela
07-22-2014, 01:08 PM
I seem to have developed a roaring on&off crush on my bf's cousin, & I feel guilty as hell abt it.

lynn2009
07-22-2014, 04:04 PM
I've been having a pretty shitty past couple of days & upon arriving at my building earlier I was really rude to a member of the maintenance staff and now I feel horrible about it.

lynn2009
07-22-2014, 08:14 PM
^^You could always just apologize the next time you see him!

Maybe if I see him again tomorrow. I haven't seen him before, I think he was here w/ the crew trying to fix whatever the hell is wrong w/ the hot water (which they did not fix, in the 6+ hours they had both hot and cold water turned off for)

Aslinn
07-23-2014, 02:34 AM
I'm once again going to have to cut a friend loose. on several separate occasions she has decided to give me unsolicited advice which is ridiculous because I'm the one with my own apartment and vehicle. Yesterday she would not leave me alone about having multiple sex partners and how wrong that is and how I should get tested and 6 Ada Yada because me and my boy toy who I have been only sleeping with decided to stop using condoms. it's my vagina like honestly I'm an adult who knows how to take care of my health. the crazy thing is I'd understand if she was older maybe write it off as thinking she had prior knowledge but she's 23 and I'm 22. Usually after the first altercation I would give some forgiveness but I know the signs of a judgmental person by now and the fact she has something negative to say about everything in my life which she's been a part of gor a month when I have said nothing about her obviously fucked up life is just bullshit.

audrey_k
07-23-2014, 10:55 AM
I don't know what's wrong with me but I have been SO depressed the last few days. I feel like I'm about to burst into tears every five minutes.

I think I am just feeling SO lonely, which is weird since I spend all day talking to my clients.

Selina M
07-23-2014, 12:21 PM
^ Yeah but they're not your friends necessarily :/ You can work with people all day and still be lonely. PM me if you ever want to talk :)

audrey_k
07-24-2014, 07:22 PM
I went to get a kebab and had my headphones, some guy grabbed my ass and when I turned around and started yelling at him he told me to suck his dick... I walked quickly down the street and called the police cause I thought he might go after someone else, and he started running towards me, I was on the phone with the police and was screaming at him to get away and he started running. They got there a couple minutes later and we drove around for 40 minutes and could not find... they were really nice, but then once they wanted to take me info down for what I do for a living, I really didn't know what to say! Uhm, yes, I'm a prostitute.. exactly what every police officer wants to hear...

I've been crying and crying for the last twenty minutes since we got back, I don't know if I'm upset about this or something else...

chanzep
07-24-2014, 07:52 PM
Omg Im so sorry that happened to you that is terrible, Why did they ask you about your job though? that has nothing to do with it, I would of just said Im not working at the moment and exploring London as your American, I would of probably cried too if this happened to me alone in another country. Hope you feel better.

audrey_k
07-24-2014, 08:06 PM
It was just like basic questions, what do you live, what's your phone number, what's your job-- I said I was self-employed as a dancer sounds a little bit better than escort!

I seriously wanted to kick that guy in the fucking balls so hard but was afraid it would make the situation worse....

OliveJardin
07-24-2014, 10:50 PM
There is a REALLY large girl at my new gym who literally walks around, sits on/stands next to and doesn't use any of the equipment. I confess that I don't understand why anyone would waste money on a gym membership, actually go to the gym, but not do anything there. It's not like she even goes there to socialise, she is always by herself and doesn't do any group classes etc.

I confess that I feel like it's great that she's trying to make a healthy change, but I feel sorry for her because she doesn't know how. The gym staff have tried to help/teach her things, involve and encourage her too. But when she walks in, they get that look (they don't direct it at her though) like we do when a non-spending regular comes in lol ::).

simone87
07-25-2014, 12:18 AM
i confess ( and it takes a lot to confess this), that the money at my club is so bad lately, i've started to allow things i'm really not that comfortable with..nothing big, but just little things that i've let slip now and then, and are now getting to me. but honestly money is so bad there its like pulling teeth to make 300. maybe its a sign i should either take a break or try and find a new club ( ha, yeah right. not unless i wanna drive 2 hours). with some of the losers that come in, it wouldn't matter if you are helen of troy with a silver tongue and top-notch hustling skills..these guys are so cheap and nasty. blaaaa

AngelMari
07-25-2014, 12:27 AM
IDK if it's just me but I'll wake up in the middle of the night thinking that I'm on cam and clients are watching me. Freak out because I don't have any lights on and they can't see me. Think to myself oh sh*t did I kick the covers off? Did they see me buck naked? Is my makeup on? FU*K!!!!!

>>>Fully wake up ...realize the computer is downstairs and it's just a nightmare. Watch cartoons to fall asleep. BTW never have done a sleep show before either.

MyButter
07-25-2014, 06:00 AM
I confess I feel like I haven't accomplished anything in life. I regret the path in life I've chosen. I seriously doubt I'd be able to land anything other than a bartending job at this point, since I've primarily worked at clubs that paid me so a background check would be covered in stripperiness.