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ava$
07-25-2014, 07:02 AM
i confess ( and it takes a lot to confess this), that the money at my club is so bad lately, i've started to allow things i'm really not that comfortable with..nothing big, but just little things that i've let slip now and then, and are now getting to me. but honestly money is so bad there its like pulling teeth to make 300. maybe its a sign i should either take a break or try and find a new club ( ha, yeah right. not unless i wanna drive 2 hours). with some of the losers that come in, it wouldn't matter if you are helen of troy with a silver tongue and top-notch hustling skills..these guys are so cheap and nasty. blaaaa
Ugh, girl, thats horrible, I feel for you and have been to clubs like that, I say move if you can and until then yea, drive two hours, it sucks bad but if money could double/triple and you keep your sanity its more than worth it, just my 2 cents!

ava$
07-25-2014, 07:18 AM
I confess, I have not been going into work at all like I normally do this month and haunt even made enough to pay my bills!(had to go into savings :( ). I only work 3 days/week cause there the only days you can make $$ at my club and one of them hasn't even been good anymore but this month instead of working 12 days/month I will only work like 7 cuz of the weekend of the 4th, had to take off for finding a house(my lease is up at end of month) and now moving day, uggghhh one thing after another and I am so stressed I just want to cry! I need to be saving for my business I want/need to open this spring and its just not happening, I need more ways to make money, I think of caming but then I hear those girls say they don't make much and IDK, I don't know much about it… On top of it all, I am in school which will be ending at the end of august and will have to pay 2800$ upon exiting. I will be debt free but still I haunt gotten to save what I need and it just sucks, I fear that my attitude of needing money is showing to the customers at work and causing me to make less money as a result :( Just sad...

Elektra Luxx
07-25-2014, 11:49 AM
BTW never have done a sleep show before either.

I never knew a sleep show existed. Do you pretend or are you really asleep?

Kellydancer
07-25-2014, 11:31 PM
I confess that I have been following Audrey K's postings with interest. The world of escorting fascinates me and though I would never do it myself (no courage and not interested in doing so now)at one point the idea of getting paid to have sex with rich men is a fantasy. I've always been curious about the world and what escort think about when they are with the clients.

DonaDiabla
07-26-2014, 12:57 AM
Venting about cheap girls in second life:

I confess I dislike cheap ass bitches that escort in second life clubs. Tons of them are industry girls! :( They are messing it up for the rest of us by selling themselves for 50 cents or less.Cheap hoes! I understand if you are just playing the game but some of us are making a great living on second life. Geez, just charge more than 50 cents per hour at least :) It only effects me when cheapos and creeps think that they can talk to me for 5 dollars an hour. RANT OVER :)

Issabelle
07-26-2014, 12:34 PM
I confess that I'm jealous of one of my best friends, but not in the normal 'what she has materially' way. She's very Catholic, saving herself for marriage, has been seeing our mutual friend for two years, and is firm in both her political and moral beliefs. I wish I could be that good, conservative, sweet, soft-spoken woman who attracts nice men. I wish I was still insecure about my body. I wish I saw myself as someone who could attract and keep a nice man. I wish I could be a stay at home mom with 6 kids and act like a trophy wife (she wants that)! I wish I knew how to suck up my feelings and indignation and work in low end jobs and pull myself up the ladder the way she has. And I really, really wish men saw me as something other than a sex object the way they do her. She's so intrinsically good that no one treats her like a whore for their taking. Me though? I'm pretty, headstrong, swear, and do whatever the fuck I want in actions, words, and dress. I'm a sex object. She's a person. I hate saying it, but I feel like her life is a lot more fulfilling than mine.

I wish I could be satisfied with that, but I never will be and I give up a lot to be the woman I am.

audrey_k
07-26-2014, 01:16 PM
I've begun to have an 'affair' I guess with one of my clients this past week and I feel so shitty about it.

I saw him last Sunday and we had an amazing time, we went over and I didn't even realize it. We kept texting back and forth every single day for hours and then on Wednesday he booked another session, we went over again... then on Thursday I just really wanted to see him so he came over and we went out for drinks and then came back my place and ended up having sex (he had asked me if it was 'professional or personal' before coming over and I told him I wasn't going to charge him, I honestly didn't want him to give me any money).

I am SO FUCKING ATTRACTED TO THIS MAN IT'S RIDICULOUS. The sex is AMAZING, I have never had sex with someone like this before, and even though we seriously could not be on opposite ends of the spectrum when it comes to personal beliefs, somehow we just have this really amazing connection and can sit there and talk for hours (we talked for four and a half hours on Thursday).

The part I feel like shit about is that he's married, and not only is he married, but he has a three month old son. His wife sounds like a very conservative Irish lady who's a bit sexually closed off, they don't seem to have much of a sexual connection at all. He's told me he would never leave his wife but he's been unhappy with her for a long time. She's been in Ireland all week and he flew up to see her this morning but has been texting me still all day... I don't know what's going to happen when she comes back to town. I know this can't go anywhere, but I'm just so fiercely attracted to him I can't help it, even though my brain is telling me this is the worst idea in the world.... but then another part of me is like, wait, isn't this the perfect set-up? I can't have a real relationship because who wants to be with someone who sleeps with 10 different men every week, and he can't make me feel bad about it because he's cheating on his wife?

AngelMari
07-27-2014, 02:45 PM
I never knew a sleep show existed. Do you pretend or are you really asleep?
I suppose you would just turn on the cam and sleep. It's a voyuer thing. I saw a lady who did it back in the day, who knows how much she'd make but you know there's always a client who likes something you could never even think to come up with.

audrey_k
07-27-2014, 03:59 PM
Requests from my clients are annoying the fuck out of me...

-clothing requests-- I don't mind when someone asks something like "please wear stockings" "black lingerie" or even when they're a little more creative with "summer dress" "cutoff shorts and a bikini" but when they ask me to dress up as a schoolgirl I just want to groan! I hate that outfit, I don't feel sexy in it, it creeps me out a little bit, I get bored of having to wear it once a day, and it's so fucking hot I don't want to have to have that much clothing on!

-shower-- I hate this one the most and usually just say no unless they want to book 2 hours.. I don't understand what's so sexy about taking a shower with me? I don't think they get it's not the same for girls, I can't just wash my hair and then go to my next appointment-- I had to take my extensions out, blow dry them, blow dry my hair, curl it, straighten my bangs-- that's an hour and a half minimum, if not 2! And it's always the guys that want to book one hour in the afternoon. Afternoons are so busy that half the time I'm lying down with a growling stomach while some guy is going down on me because I don't have time to eat in-between my appointments and you want me to put an hour and a half of my time aside to re-do my hair because why?

kaninchen
07-28-2014, 01:27 PM
I was up all night with, like, the worst fucking cramps of my life. I basically feel hungover now. I had a paper due today but I didn't even go to class because I don't give a fuck. I'm not getting out of bed until I feel better.

ScarletKitten
07-28-2014, 02:18 PM
I confess that stripping has affected my sexuality. It takes alot to get me aroused now. Am I jaded, or just going through a phase?

MyButter
07-28-2014, 07:49 PM
I was just psychoanalyzed via phone for the last hour because I was trying to explain to my dad that college is not a sensible endeavor for me, given my 'immoral' background. He finds this reasoning unacceptable since, and I quote, "Most of the women I went to graduate school with were strippers!"
----and it just makes me facepalm every time because he has no clue how much shit has changed.

audrey_k
07-31-2014, 06:16 PM
I've begun to have an 'affair' I guess with one of my clients this past week and I feel so shitty about it.

I saw him last Sunday and we had an amazing time, we went over and I didn't even realize it. We kept texting back and forth every single day for hours and then on Wednesday he booked another session, we went over again... then on Thursday I just really wanted to see him so he came over and we went out for drinks and then came back my place and ended up having sex (he had asked me if it was 'professional or personal' before coming over and I told him I wasn't going to charge him, I honestly didn't want him to give me any money).

I am SO FUCKING ATTRACTED TO THIS MAN IT'S RIDICULOUS. The sex is AMAZING, I have never had sex with someone like this before, and even though we seriously could not be on opposite ends of the spectrum when it comes to personal beliefs, somehow we just have this really amazing connection and can sit there and talk for hours (we talked for four and a half hours on Thursday).

The part I feel like shit about is that he's married, and not only is he married, but he has a three month old son. His wife sounds like a very conservative Irish lady who's a bit sexually closed off, they don't seem to have much of a sexual connection at all. He's told me he would never leave his wife but he's been unhappy with her for a long time. She's been in Ireland all week and he flew up to see her this morning but has been texting me still all day... I don't know what's going to happen when she comes back to town. I know this can't go anywhere, but I'm just so fiercely attracted to him I can't help it, even though my brain is telling me this is the worst idea in the world.... but then another part of me is like, wait, isn't this the perfect set-up? I can't have a real relationship because who wants to be with someone who sleeps with 10 different men every week, and he can't make me feel bad about it because he's cheating on his wife?

Definitely have moved into full-on-affair zone with this guy. Have been seeing him twice a week for two weeks now and we text all day, every day.

What scares me a little bit is that even though I feel guilty about it, I don't feel anywhere near as guilty as I feel like I should.

SimoneGray
07-31-2014, 06:28 PM
Confession: I became seriously attracted to a cam customer. His mind mostly, not anything else. He's recently stopped coming to cam as he'd like to live life in the real world and I totally get that. I feel like such an idiot though for having let that happen. I know I'll be over it by next week, but fuck, I feel like those idiotic insecure girls who go mushy just because a man was nice to them. Sigh.

Aniela
07-31-2014, 07:06 PM
My bf told me last winter that when his brother came to visit over the summer, they spent most of the visit stoned. He was taking this risk while having a flight job that randomly drug tests, & AFAIK he does nothing to try to flush out his system.

He knows this would be a dealbreaker for me in a relationship.

His brother is visiting him this wk (so he says) & I have not heard from him at all since a couple txts that dried up on Tuesday, he has not called & he is not answering my calls. He has admitted in the past that he has ignored my calls when he was drunk or high, bc in his own words, in that mindset he just couldn't find it in him to care. He has been completely ignoring me lately & I am at the point where if he doesn't shape the fk up then not only will our romantic relationship be shot, our friendship of almost 6 yrs will not be salvageable. I would not put it past him to be smoking pot again. If he tells me that's what he has been up to, I will be so tempted to call his job & tell them to drug test him, knowing exactly what will happen.

ava$
08-01-2014, 10:31 AM
I confess that stripping has affected my sexuality. It takes alot to get me aroused now. Am I jaded, or just going through a phase?

I feel the same way, and have for a while now : /

ava$
08-01-2014, 10:32 AM
I confess that stripping has affected my sexuality. It takes alot to get me aroused now. Am I jaded, or just going through a phase?

I feel the same way, and have for a while now : /

charlie61
08-01-2014, 01:06 PM
I confess I feel like I haven't accomplished anything in life. I regret the path in life I've chosen. I seriously doubt I'd be able to land anything other than a bartending job at this point, since I've primarily worked at clubs that paid me so a background check would be covered in stripperiness.

I know you probably aren't looking for advice, but I can't help it! Have you considered getting a license in massage therapy (http://www.bls.gov/ooh/healthcare/massage-therapists.htm)? Many schools offer day and night classes, and depending on whether you go to school full- or part-time, you can get your license in 6-12 months. The course load is very doable. Most LMTs work part time, so it's a good job for both mothers and for those looking to supplement income with a job such as dancing or bartending. It's a tipping industry, too, which is nice for retired dancers who are used to working for tips! I don't think you'd have any problems clearing a background check, as long as you don't have any prostitution-related charges on your record.

Another option would be to look into getting some sort of certificate through a community college. I would check out some of the programs offer by local community colleges - they tend to be very affordable (ours is $90/credit). Perhaps consider becoming a dental hygienist or radiology technician or similar.

Anything in the health field is a good way to go right now (unless you get some really obscure specialty that doesn't have a high need). The Bureau of Labor & Statistics is a good resource for researching salaries and whatnot: http://www.bls.gov/

simone87
08-01-2014, 01:14 PM
My bf told me last winter that when his brother came to visit over the summer, they spent most of the visit stoned. He was taking this risk while having a flight job that randomly drug tests, & AFAIK he does nothing to try to flush out his system.

He knows this would be a dealbreaker for me in a relationship.

His brother is visiting him this wk (so he says) & I have not heard from him at all since a couple txts that dried up on Tuesday, he has not called & he is not answering my calls. He has admitted in the past that he has ignored my calls when he was drunk or high, bc in his own words, in that mindset he just couldn't find it in him to care. He has been completely ignoring me lately & I am at the point where if he doesn't shape the fk up then not only will our romantic relationship be shot, our friendship of almost 6 yrs will not be salvageable. I would not put it past him to be smoking pot again. If he tells me that's what he has been up to, I will be so tempted to call his job & tell them to drug test him, knowing exactly what will happen.

ugh, and pot is like the worst with having it stay in your system ( at least for me anyways), not that i have anything against pot or enjoying it , but i can see your frustration when it could ruin his career.

MyButter
08-01-2014, 03:29 PM
Thank you for the information, Charlie! I appreciate it tremendously!

Kellydancer
08-02-2014, 09:20 PM
I know you probably aren't looking for advice, but I can't help it! Have you considered getting a license in ? Many schools offer day and night classes, and depending on whether you go to school full- or part-time, you can get your license in 6-12 months. The course load is very doable. Most LMTs work part time, so it's a good job for both mothers and for those looking to supplement income with a job such as dancing or bartending. It's a tipping industry, too, which is nice for retired dancers who are used to working for tips! I don't think you'd have any problems clearing a background check, as long as you don't have any prostitution-related charges on your record.

Another option would be to look into getting some sort of certificate through a community college. I would check out some of the programs offer by local community colleges - they tend to be very affordable (ours is $90/credit). Perhaps consider becoming a dental hygienist or radiology technician or similar.

Anything in the health field is a good way to go right now (unless you get some really obscure specialty that doesn't have a high need). The Bureau of Labor & Statistics is a good resource for researching salaries and whatnot:

Oddly I am considering going for this myself. A college near me has a year long program and there are many scholarships. I always see ads for massage therapy and there are so many places one can work, like gyms, hospitals, beauty salons etc.

Aslinn
08-03-2014, 09:53 AM
I fell for the guy I been seeing the past few months. I will never tell him how I feel, as soon as I show affection to anyone I really feel like they get bored. Im so worried I'm going to ruin it and I seriously don't want to stop spending almost every night next to him, I don't want to lose our Monday date nights and I certainly don't want to lose the crazy sex we have. I just hope I don't screw it up and he doesn't screw me over because he excepts everything about me even my neediness and crazy neurotic tendencies.

LexyNYC
08-03-2014, 02:06 PM
I'm about to go to this hole in the wall club about 20 minutes from my house. House fee before 9 is $150, after 9 is $200, after 10 is $250. I think those amounts are bat shit insane but I'm going to pay the $150 because 1. I think I will make at least $1000 and 2. it's an investment into meeting a local man.

Desperate times call for desperate measures. I would like some company other than my cats. Please baby Jesus let there be an attractive man at this club with no offspring and a car nicer than mine so we can live happily ever after.

athenalovelace
08-05-2014, 11:39 AM
The people I'm staying with a driving me insane. They keep the house at 68, their 6 dogs won't shut up (they're wonderful individually but together...), and I've been going crazy not being able to get on cam/phone since I'm just crashing on their couch until my other job picks up and I can afford to move out. The urge to just go psycho is rising.

audrey_k
08-06-2014, 08:53 AM
Definitely have moved into full-on-affair zone with this guy. Have been seeing him twice a week for two weeks now and we text all day, every day.

What scares me a little bit is that even though I feel guilty about it, I don't feel anywhere near as guilty as I feel like I should.

I knew this was a bad idea from the beginning and now it's being slammed in my face-- not even shoved, slammed-- exactly HOW bad of a fucking idea this was. I confess I am a fucking idiot and I sometimes wonder if I just want to put myself in horrible, complicated, uncomfortable, painful situations.

As is usually the case with people that I become involved with our relationship has become INCREDIBLY intense INSANELY fast, and we sat up for two hours last night as he told me how he's beginning to resent his wife because he would rather spend time with me than spend time with her and that he feels guilty for not only preferring to spend time with me but for telling me things about himself that he hasn't even told her. I have no idea why people open up to me about their deepest darkest secrets but for some reason they do, whether it's my friends, my boyfriends, or my clients. I feel like I should end things with him but I don't want to because I really like having him in my life-- this sounds fucking stupid considering I'm talking about a man who is cheating on his wife, but he is such a good, kind, caring person and I feel like I don't remember the last time I had a man like that in my life. I woke up this morning feeling like the most horrible, selfish, disgusting person on the planet.

SweetJulia
08-06-2014, 01:41 PM
I hate loaning money. I keep doing it. Who wants to take bets on when I'll get it back :(

Savannah Lee
08-06-2014, 08:08 PM
So I was over this guys place the other night having dinner and some wine, watching tv, and having good conversation. We start kissing, but he was pretty pushy. Kept trying to have me get on top of him or lift my shirt up. I wasn't really feeling it...but we just kept going at it. Started getting really intense, but I never really wanted to have sex with him. He was pretty much dry humping me in his couch, and I wasn't exactly stopping him but wasn't thrilled about it either. I ran to the bathroom to fix my makeup bc I thought we were done. I come out and he is on his couch with his fucking dick in his hand! I couldn't believe it!! Worst part is even though I wasn't really dying to fuck him, I did it anyway. He was pretty good in bed, yet I felt like I was just doing it to get him off my case. As soon as he finished I literally grabbed my clothes and left...it was just the weirdest situation. I feel like I've completely lost touch with myself and sexuality. Sex literally has no meaning to me anymore. I'm feeling really jaded and I wish I was coping with my break up better.

SweetJulia
08-06-2014, 08:18 PM
@audrey_k: don't beat yourself up too badly, I've been in the other woman position before.

audrey_k
08-07-2014, 06:03 PM
^I talked to my therapist yesterday and according to him he thinks our relationship is entirely healthy! It was the strangest thing I've ever heard, I was really expecting him to chew my head off for picking another unavailable man. He said that it sounds like their marriage is crumbling (they haven't had sex in a year and a half.... a part of me does feel shitty saying this, but what does she expect him to do?) so me beating myself up about it is silly and even if he's not available available he is emotionally available and seems to care a great deal for me. And that is might actually be a positive thing for me to be having a relationship with someone who isn't always available because it will force me to begin filling up my life with things that make me feel fulfilled instead of focusing on another person (which I do quite often).

But I went out on a date last night with another guy because I thought that would be a positive thing to do, now that I'm thinking it through yes it was stupid. He was very sweet and I like him a lot, I met him a month ago and he went away on business and just came back. A month ago I was totally into him and sad he had to leave, but now I like this married guy so much that I can't really feel anything for this new guy. I feel bad because he sent me a text after the date and I could tell that he really, really liked me.

zsigginz
08-11-2014, 12:55 AM
There's this guy that always comes into the club, recently just to see me. Whenever he's at the rack, I am a way better dancer. I guess you could say that he turns me on and makes me feel sexy, so I dance more sensually. But when he's at the club, I'll go out of my way to dance for him, and he always tips me really well. The first few times he came in, I didn't say anything to him. I just danced for him, and he enjoyed it more than any customer I've ever danced for. Cross my heart, I made this guy shake. Well, last night I was dancing for him on one of the satellite stages and got kind of winded, so I spun down the pole and announced to my customers that I was going to take a break before it was my turn to go on the big stage. He leaned in towards me and told me he would like a bed dance from me. Bed dances, for those of you who haven't worked in a club that offers them, are basically lapdances on a bed. Way more intimate and stimulating, tons of fun to do. So I accepted, and we headed back to do the dance. It was amazing, I've never been so into a dance before, and he REALLY enjoyed it. I can't help but wonder if we just have good chemistry. Some chemistry though, never felt anything like it. After the dance, I invited him out for a smoke with me, something I NEVER do with customers, and he joined me. Come to find out he doesn't even smoke, he just wanted to chat. Turns out we have a lot in common, and he's way open-minded. I'm a little different, kinda nuts in a way, and he seemed the same way. I ended up giving him my number, and we've texted a little bit. We plan to hang out at the park on Wednesday. The park because he says he literally just wants to talk with me. He's SO handsome too...ugh, so basically I feel like I have met my soulmate in a damn strip club and I have no idea what to do about it.

audrey_k
08-11-2014, 05:34 PM
But I went out on a date last night with another guy because I thought that would be a positive thing to do, now that I'm thinking it through yes it was stupid. He was very sweet and I like him a lot, I met him a month ago and he went away on business and just came back. A month ago I was totally into him and sad he had to leave, but now I like this married guy so much that I can't really feel anything for this new guy. I feel bad because he sent me a text after the date and I could tell that he really, really liked me.

This guy is growing on me. He barely knows me and he's helped me so much in the last few days with searching for flats, we've been talking quite a bit and he's super supportive of me being an escort and has listened to me whine and bitch about how burnt out I am-- I have to give 4 months rent up front to an agency to get a new flat, so last week, this week, and next are absolute hell for me as I'm doing a minimum of 3 appointments every single day so that I have enough for surgery, rent, and enough to live off of for 6 weeks. I never thought I would ever find someone who was secure enough to date an escort. I was really impressed that he didn't try to sleep with me at all on the first date, he was a complete gentleman, I was positive he was going to at least make an attempt, but he just put me safety in a cab at the end of the night.

I feel really lucky that two nice guys who both seem to genuinely care for me have been sent my way after 2 years of dating absolute assholes, I just don't want to give either of them up right now... I have these really intense, passionate feelings for the married guy and I feel really comfortable and safe with the other guy and am definitely developing feelings for him, they just aren't the oh-my-god-i-want-to-see-you-every-single-day-and-fuck-you-every-single-night feelings I have for the other one...

sexsells
08-11-2014, 05:49 PM
I realised this last two weeks that I am in love and that I need to see a therapist.

I met this guy the second time I was in London. We txt relentlessly every day for two months before meeting again. I wasn't interested in him until the 6th time I saw him when we kissed.

I then went to paris a few days later and thought shit i love him…no i can't. But oh I do.

He came to Paris for like 6 hours on my birthday, just so I could spend the day with someone. He made me a gf df cake and bought me roses.

I definitely love him. He's so fucking nice, I am sometimes not sure how to respond because I've never actually met a genuinely nice man before ever…TBH he seems genuine but Im so jaded I still doubt it.

I realised I need to see a therapist. Because he came over again and we were in his hotel room and we started to have sex, I wanted to but at the same time didn't because I was insanely tired, also scared because I thought it'd change the relationship and also because I haven't had sex with anyone I had actual feelings for in about a year, also because he hadn't had sex for about 4 years with his now freshly ex wife so I thought he may as well even if i wasn't keen. I cried but he was so nice about it and eventually we had sex a few times and it was so so good.

I realised that I actually have alot of issues in regards to sex due to sexual abuse with past men I had emotions for. :/ hence the need for therapy of some sort.

I'm glad I'm in Paris because I jump way too quickly into relationships. I loved him before we even had sex for instance. I just hope this works out because he's a gorgeous human. But at the same time Im jealous and feel stupid, he divorced his wife while we were txting each other. He's so fresh out of a marriage I feel I could just be a rebound, that he has lots of possibly unresolved issues that will come up soon, etc.

I'm so glad there is this thread.

whirlerz
08-11-2014, 06:57 PM
There's this guy that always comes into the club, recently just to see me. Whenever he's at the rack, I am a way better dancer. I guess you could say that he turns me on and makes me feel sexy, so I dance more sensually. But when he's at the club, I'll go out of my way to dance for him, and he always tips me really well. The first few times he came in, I didn't say anything to him. I just danced for him, and he enjoyed it more than any customer I've ever danced for. Cross my heart, I made this guy shake. Well, last night I was dancing for him on one of the satellite stages and got kind of winded, so I spun down the pole and announced to my customers that I was going to take a break before it was my turn to go on the big stage. He leaned in towards me and told me he would like a bed dance from me. Bed dances, for those of you who haven't worked in a club that offers them, are basically lapdances on a bed. Way more intimate and stimulating, tons of fun to do. So I accepted, and we headed back to do the dance. It was amazing, I've never been so into a dance before, and he REALLY enjoyed it. I can't help but wonder if we just have good chemistry. Some chemistry though, never felt anything like it. After the dance, I invited him out for a smoke with me, something I NEVER do with customers, and he joined me. Come to find out he doesn't even smoke, he just wanted to chat. Turns out we have a lot in common, and he's way open-minded. I'm a little different, kinda nuts in a way, and he seemed the same way. I ended up giving him my number, and we've texted a little bit. We plan to hang out at the park on Wednesday. The park because he says he literally just wants to talk with me. He's SO handsome too...ugh, so basically I feel like I have met my soulmate in a damn strip club and I have no idea what to do about it.

Wow, that sounds so COOL!!!

MyButter
08-11-2014, 07:13 PM
I can't believe Robin Williams is dead. I'd be so relieved if this turned out to be some sort of elaborate twisted prank :(

simone87
08-11-2014, 07:42 PM
………….

Vyanka
08-11-2014, 11:53 PM
I can't believe Robin Williams is dead. I'd be so relieved if this turned out to be some sort of elaborate twisted prank :(

I know. I can't believe it still. What a loss. :-(

lynn2009
08-12-2014, 02:47 PM
my dad sent me an email today saying hi and I love you and I ignored it

ScarletKitten
08-13-2014, 02:26 AM
I didn't go into work last night, because I was too fucking depressed over Robin Williams. I was crying all day for 2 days straight over the loss of him. He felt like the father I never had. I NEVER cried over a dead celebrity like that, EVER. I feel almost ridiculous b/c of how much it has affected me. I mean, I never even met him IRL, so why does my heart ache so badly??? I love you Robin, say hi to the universe for me.

SimoneGray
08-13-2014, 03:35 AM
^^ I kinda feel the same way i must confess...i feel like there's a void in the world now

DonaDiabla
08-13-2014, 04:40 AM
I must confess that when I was 24 years old....I slept with my tattoo artist and lived with him for awhile as his wife. He was this tough Mexican punk tattoo artist with many piercings and tattoos.We had Nevada Domestic partnership for six months but I broke it off. He had a big ass house by the train tracks and muscle car. It was about sex, tattoos, and money with us. His friends would pay me for phone sex. As a farewell gift, he tattooed my prayer for a husband tattoo. Plus he also tattooed several pray mantis tattoos as well ;) He also tattooed me while we had sex. However, I remember him every time I hear Dramarama's "Anything, Anything." He would played that all of the time every time he came home. Man, it was hell getting out of that mess but he was good to me. But I got sick of living by the damn train tracks, wearing jeans, and listening to the damn Dramarama all of the time.

Kellydancer
08-13-2014, 11:59 AM
I can't believe Robin Williams is dead. I'd be so relieved if this turned out to be some sort of elaborate twisted prank :(

His death opened up some wounds with me. Granted he was talented and I like a lot of his films but it was his suicide that did it. Last year around this time I lost a friend to suicide and I still feel the loss. We weren't long time best buds or anything like that but he was someone I enjoyed seeing at all these events at the American Legion. He was one of the people I knew I could truly trust (several let me down and I found out many were gossiping about me). When I heard someone got killed by a train I had a sinking feeling it was another friend I have been worried about but turned out to be this friend. Either way it's a loss. I worry about this other friend because he has been depressed but also because I am in love with him. I know though until he gets more help (he is getting help)getting involved is a bad idea. Oddly (or not)he was was also friends with the other friend and they were going to move in together. In a way this would have been a good idea but in a way not since both suffer from depression.

TransdimensionalPrincess
08-13-2014, 04:33 PM
I must confess that when I was 24 years old....I slept with my tattoo artist and lived with him for awhile as his wife. He was this tough Mexican punk tattoo artist with many piercings and tattoos.We had Nevada Domestic partnership for six months but I broke it off. He had a big ass house by the train tracks and muscle car. It was about sex, tattoos, and money with us. His friends would pay me for phone sex. As a farewell gift, he tattooed my prayer for a husband tattoo. Plus he also tattooed several pray mantis tattoos as well ;) He also tattooed me while we had sex. However, I remember him every time I hear Dramarama's "Anything, Anything." He would played that all of the time every time he came home. Man, it was hell getting out of that mess but he was good to me. But I got sick of living by the damn train tracks, wearing jeans, and listening to the damn Dramarama all of the time.

Tattooed during sex? yes please!
(and I love praying mantises, do you have any pics?)

Vyanka
08-13-2014, 05:01 PM
I didn't go into work last night, because I was too fucking depressed over Robin Williams. I was crying all day for 2 days straight over the loss of him. He felt like the father I never had. I NEVER cried over a dead celebrity like that, EVER. I feel almost ridiculous b/c of how much it has affected me. I mean, I never even met him IRL, so why does my heart ache so badly??? I love you Robin, say hi to the universe for me.

Same here. I don’t cry for celebs either, except Paul Walker. I've been crying at every tribute & story I see.

I said the same thing about him too. He was like a sweet and funny father figure. It's sad as fuck bc he was obviously one of those genuinely good ppl in the world. You could just sense it. May he R.I.P. :(

audrey_k
08-13-2014, 05:09 PM
I think the Robin Williams thing is partly really depressing because of the way he died. If he had died of a heart attack in his bed I wouldn't have been so sad, the fact that he was obviously so deeply depressed but spent so much time bringing light into the world with his films is really tragic.

MyButter
08-13-2014, 05:20 PM
^ So true. The way he died is absolutely heart breaking. I couldn't get past the 'details' of his death without tearing up. I feel like even an overdose would be easier to come to terms with.

AngelMari
08-13-2014, 05:24 PM
I hate loaning money. I keep doing it. Who wants to take bets on when I'll get it back :(

I never loan money. At this point you're giving it to them. It's better to look at it that way; as a gift. Cause you'll never get it back.

audrey_k
08-13-2014, 05:46 PM
My vagina and I are at war... for two days it's like, what the fuck are you doing to me?! And I'm like suck it up for another 13 days so we can move out of this shithole flat with horrible flatmates and no space and move into our own nice flat in West London...

I feel like I'm not gonna make it up, but I don't really have a choice at this point since the agency accepted my offer-- which on the one hand I'm absolutely thrilled about because this is going to be my first nice, grown up flat in a nice, yuppie area-- but on the other hand so fucking stressed about making enough money before the 26th....

DonaDiabla
08-13-2014, 09:47 PM
I need to take some pictures ;)



Tattooed during sex? yes please!
(and I love praying mantises, do you have any pics?)

kaninchen
08-14-2014, 01:44 PM
I've been sexting (well really just flirt-texting, nothing explicit) off and on with a cute smarmy jerk I met at work for the past week. He stopped texting me. I'm actually SAD about it.

I'm so bored by being constantly occupied with school and work. I'm lonely because my boyfriend and I never see each other due to having opposite schedules. Bored + lonely = super vulnerable UGH. I want to text this guy so badly. It's seriously taking every single fiber of my self-control to not make an utter fool of myself right now!

ETA: very important update: he just texted me!!!!!! He was only busy. I need a life so bad OMFG

Vackra
08-14-2014, 08:15 PM
I was going to go to work tonight, but my friend called me from overseas and is having me tie up a loose end for her... at 4am. Right when I'd be getting home.

Needless to say I am more than a little annoyed with her.