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mediocrity
07-08-2010, 09:39 PM
^^ You got it charlie. In New Orleans, there is QUITE a bit more of this than I have ever been exposed to, the whole "having a baby every two years to stay on welfare" the sense of entitlement, the harassing me when I leave my house to walk a BLOCK by myself in full daylight (and I don't live in a bad neighbourhood.), hanging out on their porches all day ( and night for that matter- I'm like WTF do you DO with all your time?)! They don't take care of these kids, they're always running around in the street, snot hanging down their faces while these moms sit on the porch on the phone all afternoon. Not that the fathers are any better, but I never see them except for at night, and my husband doesn't even like me going to the dumpster alone at night. I've never seen so many trashy people in my life. I'm not one to be easily intimidated, but I am definitely intimidated here. Every other person I want to scream "GET A JOB AND WASH YOUR HAIR, GODDAMN!"
Ugh. Rant over.
Kellydancer
07-08-2010, 09:51 PM
These are exactly the types that made me so anti welfare. I've seen so many who blame others for their actions (one woman even said that if welfare paid for birth control she'd have less than her 9 kids). I know in another thread several told me I was judgemental for having serious issues with welfare and this is EXACTLY why. I feel for those poor through no fault. Those who have no motivation to make a better life can kiss my ass.
MsChaos
07-09-2010, 02:22 AM
All I could think about tonight was that its my exes birthday. And how I was totally looking forward to spending it with him. And how numb I'm becoming in terms of relationships. I just cant look at guys the same anymore.
malayataylor
07-09-2010, 07:38 AM
I think they're referring to that "I was raised on Welfare" attitude that (let's face it) some poor people do have--a certain laziness. It's usually hard to tell the difference between 'honestly' poor families and those who are taking advantage of the system.
OMG Yes! I honestly think 95% of the time it's just pure laziness. I also cannot stand people that feel they can't better themselves because they grew up in a poor home. It's so urking. It's like damn get off the couch and get a fucking job and stop making excuses.
Where I'm from there is no welfare, no credit, if you asked for a loan in Nigeria the bank tellers will laugh at you. I think a lot of people here (not mentioning race) don't take advantage of what america has to offer like free education. They rather sit at home in their trailers and blame "the man" for their troubles.
So yes It's one thing to be poor but lazy people drive me nuts. It's like WHAT? WHY ARE YOU HERE?!?
jennsweet
07-09-2010, 07:52 AM
will you be giving up the pussy? i bet he's hoping so after spending a grand on u!
pixierocksonthepole
07-09-2010, 07:59 AM
^NOOOOOOOO !!!
He is mighty attractive though.
Definitely NOT happening the first time we meet (over the 3 days) or even awhile after that (if ever). We've already discussed our expectations, so it's all good.
I got my first ever sugardaddy to give me $1,250 and the most I did was hug him and I saw him twice. First time was dinner. Second time was coffee + shopping. Then I decided he was too old and it was creepy, so I just stopped emailing him (Our only form of communication since I never even gave him my cell #.) I told him that I didn't feel comfortable giving my cell # until we meet in person. And even then... he never asked so I never gave it. I'm evil.
Evil?...Or smart? ;)
Spankie55
07-09-2010, 08:06 AM
Speaking of welfare. Going to the welfare office makes me angry. I needed medicade while I was preggers. There was a boy there,about 16-Born here. His mother needed him to translate because she doesn't speak a lick of english. Um-she's obviously been here for atleast 16 years. What the fuck? Don't give illegal immigrants benefits. End of rant.
pixierocksonthepole
07-09-2010, 10:29 AM
^^^ both!!! :D
and that is sexy }:D
xoAnnaBanana
07-09-2010, 10:41 AM
^^^ :flirt:
_Avery_
07-09-2010, 11:32 AM
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prettysammie
07-09-2010, 11:50 AM
These are exactly the types that made me so anti welfare. I've seen so many who blame others for their actions (one woman even said that if welfare paid for birth control she'd have less than her 9 kids). I know in another thread several told me I was judgemental for having serious issues with welfare and this is EXACTLY why. I feel for those poor through no fault. Those who have no motivation to make a better life can kiss my ass.
I totally agree. My mom had me when she was really young and basically raised me herself. She had every excuse in the world to just be a mother of 5 at 20 and living on welfare. But she got her GED, a decent job, and made sure I went to college.
I have all kinds of issues with her for other reasons, but I also love and respect her more than anything.
Harleigh HellKat
07-09-2010, 11:59 AM
I think I'm going to finish the rest of my sake for no reason. It's five o'clock somewhere.
_Avery_
07-09-2010, 12:09 PM
I'm eating my son's gummy Flintstone vitamins.
I can't help it, they taste really, really good.
Harleigh HellKat
07-09-2010, 12:56 PM
^I just had stir fry AND cereal and milk. Also, pink sparkling sake=win.
It's like pink champagne. But with sake. Yum.
^^^ :flirt:
Anddd I have another confession-- Tomorrow morning I'm meeting for coffee and shopping with another potential SD. He is travelling from about 70 miles away and claims that I can spend a little more than $500.
So now I've got 3 potential SD's !!! -- 1 tomorrow morning for coffee + shopping (Fat/married), 1 on Tuesday for coffee + shopping (Fat/married), 1 at the end of this month for 3 days at the hotel, sightseeing, shopping, dinners, museums, clubs, amusement park, etc (Divorced/attractive).
I'm happy but not holding my breath. If these work out then, yay! And I will update if things don't fall through with these men. :D
P.S. don't worry, I'm being safe, only meeting them at public places for now and I'm having my friend hang around the area with another friend of ours.
Where in the hell do you find these guys?...CUZ I WANT ONE! (or 3, lol)
charlie61
07-09-2010, 07:09 PM
1) Get on SD search site
2) Filter the hell out of any and all responses you get
mediocrity
07-10-2010, 09:09 AM
Dear Neighbours Upstairs; STOP RUNNING A FUCKING DAYCARE OUT OF YOUR HOUSE. I have called the office three times on you, I've gone over there personally and you look at me like I have eight heads. You tell my husband "They just chil'ren, we cain't control them", we've called the cops on you three times. YOU CAN NOT BE AWAKE 5AM TO 1AM EVERY DAY. I am at my wits end. Now shut up before I get medieval.
I AM GOING TO LOSE MY SHIT AND SAY SOMETHING I REGRET. I've been up since YESTERDAY with this low expectation having bullshit. I HATE THOSE LOW RENT MOTHERFUCKERS GAHHH!
Harleigh HellKat
07-10-2010, 10:50 AM
OMFG that sucks. And yes, they CAN control them. It's called discipline. GAHHHH!!
People that think they have no control over their kids don't deserve to have them. Sounds like she needs her sex organs ripped out so she doesn't spawn any more hellions.
_Avery_
07-10-2010, 01:17 PM
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MsChaos
07-10-2010, 01:34 PM
My confession for today is that I have no back bone.
"No" is so hard for me to say. Because of my inability to say no, I am constantly doing things I don't want to do.
I've loaned out 3 outfits this week. Do I have them back yet? No.
I don't know why it's hard to give someone their outfit back at the end of the shift.
It's my fault though. I should know better. I've loaned outfits out before in the past and have never seen them again.
I don't know why I'm so eager to please everyone. I have no one to blame but myself.
Havent loaned out outfits tho, but I'm the same way. I dont like being hated by people I have to see often.. Tension sucks.
MsChaos
07-10-2010, 01:35 PM
I really wanna kill the girl my ex is seeing. She wont leave me alone on social nets. I already blocked her, now shes raiding my formspring.
I'd love to punch her in the throat.
BlackoutBetty
07-10-2010, 01:43 PM
I willed my friend to breakup with his boyfriend so that me and my man could have a threesome with him.
_Avery_
07-10-2010, 03:42 PM
I have one more for the day...
I ran across a video I did for a site back when I was 18. (I actually did a few videos for sites back then...)
anyway, I'm glad I don't look sick anymore like I did back then.
It actually grossed me out.
Even though I may not be a stick anymore, I'm healthy. I'm 5'10, 137lbs.
I could tone up....yeah, I could, but I'm okay.
In a way, it was actually a good thing running across that video, it actually helped me feel better about my body right now.
sananeko
07-10-2010, 07:57 PM
Why am I always under the impression you don't dance in a club yet? Or am I living in an alternate universe?
Cause I'm at a gay club having a good time.. not working.. I act differently when I'm working.
Kellydancer
07-12-2010, 06:47 PM
Here's my confession: I am about to blow. As many know, I've been in a rocky relationship with a guy I love (former regular). We started going together in January, he told me he didn't want a relationship and we didn't speak until May, then in May he told me all these things that happened to him (getting screwed over by a woman). I just called him to see if he wanted to come over this weekend, and he said he's at Disney World. Ok, I get he can't come over, it's just the way he spoke to me, like he didn't want to hear from me. I know he was with his mother and that he doesn't want her to know his business (she's pressuring him to marry), it's just I wonder where our relationship is heading. I love him, but need him to be a boyfriend or nothing at all. I have enough guy friends, I don't want one who's attracted to me and whom I am attracted to. Some people have said to just dump him, but I love him and feel he's the one. Besides, just try finding a never married nerdy guy with no kids who's in his 40's who shares my morals. They are very hard to find.
I hope I am over reacting.
Glamgirl
07-14-2010, 12:37 PM
I have mega bad period pains and im due on any second :( I think im going to have some microwave pop corn and wine, i dont care about healthy eating when i feel this bad.
pixierocksonthepole
07-14-2010, 12:57 PM
I confess that lately I have become rather irritable and been putting up with much less bullshit than usual. No I can't explain why, and honestly I don't want to know. I just want it to go away. So...if I say something and I'm coming off a little too harsh...take no offense, it's nothing personal.
prettysammie
07-14-2010, 04:39 PM
My confession is I'm crushing on a guy that I totally shouldn't be, and that seems to be totally uninterested in me, which is only making me lust after him more. He's 36, older than my mom, happily married, and is the funniest and most interesting guy I've ever met. He used to be a regular where I waitressed, and also goes to the bank where I work. I also started running into him at my gym.
Why is it that one of the few older guys I meet who isn't a total creepy perv is also the only decent married man I've ever met? I'm not a home wrecker and I've never chased after a married guy before. But I'm totally dressing up now to go to the gym because I'm hoping I'll see him, and I'm dressing up more for work because I'm hoping he'll come in. It's totally pathetic.
prettysammie
07-14-2010, 10:33 PM
I just ate a giant bowl of ice cream with home made hot fudge while watching So You Think You Can Dance. I feel better
Firewall
07-15-2010, 12:40 PM
@prettysammie: I know! Them not being interested totally makes it more exciting. With guys at the club it's hard to tell if they aren't interested or are just trying to keep their cool. My fav regular never shows any hints of being into me ... aside from his pants, which lets me know he at least likes it ... and doesn't even like to hug! Totally makes me more into him. :D *guilty*
Spankie55
07-15-2010, 09:01 PM
I wanna punch my roommate (Boyfriend's Brother) In the fucking mouth. He's a slob,and does it intentionally now to piss me off. He stole $30 from my man last night and denies it but who the fuck else could have taken it? And I found my fucking dirty panties hidden in his room. He's a sick fucking pervert. I wan't to slap him so fucking hard.
charlie61
07-15-2010, 09:31 PM
After going months without picking, I picked tonight. I confessed it all to my boyfriend, and he's going to help me stop again. I just feel like shit. Relapsing on OCD blows. It makes me feel insane, out of control. :(
princessjas
07-16-2010, 11:51 AM
I am so ashamed of myself. I know alcoholism runs in my family. Both sides. I had a major drinking problem in college, even though I denied it. When I left college I quit but was smart enough to tell my ex that I couldn't have alcohol in the house. He agreed and things were fine for years. We would even go out and have drinks once every year or so and I never had any difficulty with overindulging. Nada zilch, everything seemed fine. It even got to the point that we would keep some wine or a few beers in the house and I never even thought of touching it unless M suggested wine with dinner or something. We had a bottle of Kahlua that sat under the cabinet for like 2 yrs and I never went near it. I thought I was over it.
Fast forward 10 yrs. My marriage fell apart a few years ago and I started drinking wine a few nights a week. Then I switched to vodka (same buzz less calories). Well, this kept escalating till I knew I had to stop. (I won't even publicly admit how much I was drinking but suffice it to say it was enough to kill most grown men twice my size.) After several failed attempts I seem to have managed to stop, and atm can't imagine WHY the fuck I'd ever want to drink anyway....but bejeezus do I feel awful! I feel like I've had a weeklong hangover. Sick to my stomach, shaking on and off, exhausted, at first I was sweating but that seems to have passed, I'm dizzy as fuck too. Arrrghh, this just BLOWS!!! The worst part is I did it to my damn self! Annnnnd I knew better. Yesterday I could barely get off the couch for several hours. It took a few days for me to even realize what was up. I'm not in full blown DT's from the info I can find, but a lesser form of alcohol withdrawl (probably due to being partly sober during school last year.)
Major FAIL!
_Avery_
07-16-2010, 02:01 PM
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Kellydancer
07-16-2010, 02:04 PM
I am about to hit someone. I am dealing with a guy who has issues. Ok, that is another topic. However, my point is that I'm still not committed to him so I can date others (not sleep with others though because I love the guy). So anyway a relative asked if I'd go out on a date with a guyfriend. Did I mention she's trying to match me up with him and did I mention he has three kids? Yeah everything I don't want in a guy. Then there was another guy who asked me out and HE has kids (I declined). I tell these people I would NEVER date a guy with kids, and in 90% of all cases never date a divorced man either. Do I have a sign stating "only dads"? Ugh I hate this. People don't respect my views on this and it's annoying. If one more person tells me I am being "shallow", or I should "lower my standards", I will scream. Not one of these people ever match me up with never married guys not looking for sex. It's only these guys or (not so much common now) guys who only want sex.
Elvia
07-16-2010, 02:28 PM
I wanna punch my roommate (Boyfriend's Brother) In the fucking mouth. He's a slob,and does it intentionally now to piss me off. He stole $30 from my man last night and denies it but who the fuck else could have taken it? And I found my fucking dirty panties hidden in his room. He's a sick fucking pervert. I wan't to slap him so fucking hard.
What are you still doing there, Hon? I thought you were leaving if your man didn't kick the douchebag out! stealing your dirty panties!? Come on...this is too much.
whirlerz
07-16-2010, 04:22 PM
XO Anna B: I think you're gorj! & you have a chiseled cheekbones, Luv!
**Not a stalker!
Saffron's Curse
07-16-2010, 07:46 PM
I don't really like sex that much. I just do it because I want my partners to be happy and like me. :/ The sad part is, I think I'm having pretty good sex. I just...don't care. I'd rather read a book. :/
HustletteDiva
07-16-2010, 11:29 PM
I really wanna kill the girl my ex is seeing. She wont leave me alone on social nets. I already blocked her, now shes raiding my formspring.
I'd love to punch her in the throat.
That last sentence had me LMAO, girl....lol
Jessie_tinydancer
07-17-2010, 06:11 AM
I felt jealousy today... for the first time in years. I hate it.
princessjas
07-17-2010, 08:09 AM
I felt jealousy today... for the first time in years. I hate it.
I'm so sorry. That is the worst feeling! I have it happen randomly every few years and almost always while I'm PMS'ing. Sucky, suckies. Maybe you're just hormonal. I find 99% of my weirdness happens then....and it seems to make it better when I know why I'm acting all out of character.
charlie61
07-17-2010, 08:33 AM
I don't really like sex that much. I just do it because I want my partners to be happy and like me. :/ The sad part is, I think I'm having pretty good sex. I just...don't care. I'd rather read a book. :/
You should join my li'l asexuality thread on this site. Oh, how fun it is to be an asexual in a sexual world. >:(
Ah, here it is: http://forum.stripperweb.com/showthread.php?t=138780&highlight=asexuality
Kellydancer
07-17-2010, 12:36 PM
Today I was looking up something and saw a former coworker (non dancing) is getting married. She is 28 and I am insanely jealous because I desperately want to marry. I know it's wrong to be jealous since she's wanted to marry as long as I knew her (back at 22 she was already looking for a potential husband). I think because I am so mad at my situation that it's making me mad at her. I just wish I had wanted to marry back then instead of playing the field.
pixierocksonthepole
07-17-2010, 01:21 PM
I confess today that I am addicted to the things I cannot currently afford. Don't get me wrong, I don't buy things if I can't afford them. But the drive to have certain things that eventually I will need for our own house is insanely strong. And more than half the time I'm looking I don't even realize how expensive somethings are, I just really like them. Man I cannot wait to be working again. I see the light at the end of the tunnel. And it's full of nice furniture in a comfy home for my husband and I to start our own family.
_Avery_
07-17-2010, 09:34 PM
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malayataylor
07-18-2010, 04:53 AM
I had the best sex ever last night! Just anall! My first anal experience ever and it was fucking amazing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sn: He was not gentle either.. well he was at first and then he went crazy on my booty! it hurt.... SOOO GOOD!!!!
jennsweet
07-18-2010, 08:25 AM
LOL.... i'm glad for u baby. sometimes that ass just wants to get REAMED!
Harleigh HellKat
07-18-2010, 08:31 AM
Daily confession: I flip out before photoshoots. I'm not sure why, but I'm such a perfectionist I literally obsess about everything before I go to a shoot. I pinch fat, I organize makeup, I stress about my hair extensions. If I chip my nails I'm just thrown off. It's all better when I get there, but beforehand I get so stressed. I don't stress myself out over dancing like this.. I guess it's just the permanence of it.
_Avery_
07-18-2010, 11:52 AM
Delete.
prettysammie
07-18-2010, 12:14 PM
I feel like I'm getting pimped out. It seems that everyone feels they need to introduce me to "guys I should date" that I'm starting to wonder what the hell is going on. Last night I went out with this friend of a friend and all I could think was we have nothing in common. Why did we get set up?