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michele11
08-26-2014, 06:09 PM
Well when she takes over an entire thread about things other people don't want to hear about( adultry, fucking a married man while his little baby is upstairs contant stuff about escorting( there's thread for this) and other people don't want to post here anymore it's become an issue.
michele11
08-26-2014, 06:11 PM
If you could really care less, you wouldn't have posted all this crap abt her situation. If she wanted to hear our thoughts on the subject she would have probably made her own thread asking for them.
This thread is for venting confessions, not judgment. Wanna vent your judgments? Start your own bloody thread venting abt how all the girls who do shit you don't approve of are idiots & how your life is sooooooooooo many leagues above everybody else's for whatever reason. Otherwise, piss off. Your shit may not stink but your attitude on this board does, frequently.
I think your the one with the attitude problem. What constructive stuff do you all post here? OH yeah ,hmm.
Aniela
08-26-2014, 06:32 PM
I think your the one with the attitude problem. What constructive stuff do you all post here? OH yeah ,hmm.
This thread is a vent, not a fix, & there is certainly nothing constructive abt blasting sm1 else's vent just to make yourself feel good.
charlie61
08-26-2014, 06:54 PM
We're moving on. Notifying the mod of this board to clean it up. Anyone who continues this argument will receive infractions.
simone87
08-26-2014, 07:25 PM
anyways, keep getting nightmares that i have only an hour left of work and i only have 100 bucks..wake up sweaty with anxiety. hate dreams about work!!
lynn2009
08-26-2014, 07:32 PM
anyways, keep getting nightmares that i have only an hour left of work and i only have 100 bucks..wake up with sweaty with anxiety. hate dreams about work!!
I don't know if it would work for you or if you already use sleep aids but whenever I take zquil or melotonin I have dreamless sleep and it's awesome.
kaninchen
08-26-2014, 08:16 PM
I'm at Barnes and Noble and the cashier at the cafe was out of singles. Well, obviously, this young lady right here was in line and just happened to have dozens of them! I exchanged $40 of them and a lady asked if I had anymore; we traded for a $10.
Then she told me that her kids just loooove playing with singles, and asked if I just always carried lots of ones with me. I smiled and answered that yes, I do, sometimes they can be very helpful!
LOL her kids are going to be playing with my stage tips. I feel a little odd about it but I suppose one can never be too sure about the origins of any money.
Aurora_Sunset
08-27-2014, 03:39 PM
An old ex came into town last night. He really treated me like shit in the past, especially after we broke up, but then he moved to Denmark and I was finally able to be like "whatever, I'm not going to worry about him anymore." I even blew him off for 2 years when he would try to contact me on facebook. I finally got to a point of still being angry about the past, but accepting it, proud of myself for staying away from contact for so long, and then saw that he was engaged and felt genuinely happy because it seemed like he was happy and it was a good relationship, and I felt like I could move on.
He started messaging me a couple months ago, saying he was visiting town and really missed me and wanted to see me. I figured it would be ok since I felt I had moved on and he was engaged. He's a totally different person now. We had some great conversation, talked a lot about the past, and he was very aware of how he had treated me and felt horrible about it and apologized profusely. He also told me that he's breaking off the engagement.
I only got to spend a few hours with him, and now I've been crying off and on all day thinking about him. I always feel like I never get enough time with him. I have such a good time, but it's only for a few hours, and when we part ways, I can still think of a million things I wanted to talk to him about. Which is made worse by the fact that it's always months to years between seeing him. So all I could think today was that I missed him already, and it would probably be a year before I get to see him again... and even then, it'll probably just be for a few hours again.
And after last night, I had to come face to face with the fact that I never truly got over him. I was ok as long as I could vilify him and he seemed completely unattainable with a fiance. Now that he's so different and was treating me really well and apologizing and having real conversations with me, I can't be mad anymore. Now I have to actually miss him again, and see that side of him that I fell in love with in the first place. And that makes me have to think about the fact that I know I'll never have him again. I'll never even get to spend more than a few hours a year with him.
I've been crazy about guys before, really hurt when they left, and still eventually been able to get over them and go back and be good friends with them without any complications. But with him, it's been 7 years and all I can do after I see him and then watch him walk out the door again is cry. I hate it. I just want to not be in love with him anymore.
Ugh, needed to get that off my chest.
SkyeSabrina
08-27-2014, 03:59 PM
I'm skipping out on work tonight because it's my two year anniversary and I'd rather have pizza sex than dance onstage for an empty club. And because pizza. And sex. :P
Also, I can't believe I just now started reading through this thread. Lol
MiraMichele
08-27-2014, 04:39 PM
I posted an ad to meet other men while I'm still with my current piece of shit guy that I can't stand. I'm talking to a completely gorgeous guy now that I met online and I'm probably going to meet him in person soon and fuck him and I will enjoy it. The main reason I posted the ad I posted was to meet people and get out of the house but if I meet a hot guy and we have chemistry then I have no fucks to give and I will have an amazing time with him.
whirlerz
08-27-2014, 04:40 PM
OOoh, Good luck MM! I have a date this Fri @ noon! Yes, dying to get outta the house too!
MiraMichele
08-27-2014, 04:44 PM
Thanks Whirlez, good luck to you also dear!
michele11
08-27-2014, 06:44 PM
An old ex came into town last night. He really treated me like shit in the past, especially after we broke up, but then he moved to Denmark and I was finally able to be like "whatever, I'm not going to worry about him anymore." I even blew him off for 2 years when he would try to contact me on facebook. I finally got to a point of still being angry about the past, but accepting it, proud of myself for staying away from contact for so long, and then saw that he was engaged and felt genuinely happy because it seemed like he was happy and it was a good relationship, and I felt like I could move on.
He started messaging me a couple months ago, saying he was visiting town and really missed me and wanted to see me. I figured it would be ok since I felt I had moved on and he was engaged. He's a totally different person now. We had some great conversation, talked a lot about the past, and he was very aware of how he had treated me and felt horrible about it and apologized profusely. He also told me that he's breaking off the engagement.
I only got to spend a few hours with him, and now I've been crying off and on all day thinking about him. I always feel like I never get enough time with him. I have such a good time, but it's only for a few hours, and when we part ways, I can still think of a million things I wanted to talk to him about. Which is made worse by the fact that it's always months to years between seeing him. So all I could think today was that I missed him already, and it would probably be a year before I get to see him again... and even then, it'll probably just be for a few hours again.
And after last night, I had to come face to face with the fact that I never truly got over him. I was ok as long as I could vilify him and he seemed completely unattainable with a fiance. Now that he's so different and was treating me really well and apologizing and having real conversations with me, I can't be mad anymore. Now I have to actually miss him again, and see that side of him that I fell in love with in the first place. And that makes me have to think about the fact that I know I'll never have him again. I'll never even get to spend more than a few hours a year with him.
I've been crazy about guys before, really hurt when they left, and still eventually been able to get over them and go back and be good friends with them without any complications. But with him, it's been 7 years and all I can do after I see him and then watch him walk out the door again is cry. I hate it. I just want to not be in love with him anymore.
Ugh, needed to get that off my chest. Your story made me teary eyed. Why don't you tell him? Maybe he feels the same way and that's why he broke off the engagement? YOU never know and you only live once and at least you would know and you have nothing to lose.
LaurenAus
08-27-2014, 07:04 PM
just got the chills after reading Aurora's post because I have a guy like that in my life. I'll see him for a few hours once a year and it kills me because as much as I try to ignore the longing that I have for him I can't seem to meet another guy I have that same chemistry with...and therefore can't completely get over him. I feel like the only choice I have is to accept something I have no control over and it really really sucks.
DonaDiabla
08-28-2014, 12:50 AM
I must confess....I love my perverse Italian Second Life's and Niteflirt's client imagination. He is quite perverse and he always challenges my mind. Mainly, he has taking nude photos of himself wearing a metal skull mask and sending them to my Niteflirt account. He is the perfect client for me because I just have to laugh while he does stupid crap :)
MiraMichele
08-28-2014, 08:32 AM
I must confess....I love my perverse Italian Second Life's and Niteflirt's client imagination. He is quite perverse and he always challenges my mind. Mainly, he has taking nude photos of himself wearing a metal skull mask and sending them to my Niteflirt account. He is the perfect client for me because I just have to laugh while he does stupid crap :)
Reading your post made me want to sign back on SL, it's been a couple months but I need to get my butt back on there and promote my Skype shows, I can make so much extra there if I put effort in. I just know I get waaay too addicted and I'll never sign into Streamate lol. Need computer powerful enough for the encoder and SL, does that exist?
lynn2009
08-28-2014, 05:59 PM
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michele11
08-28-2014, 08:58 PM
I swear I hate my sister so fucking much!!!!!!! The one who just bought a car with an insurance payout she never paid into, didn't pay her own school loans for years, my parents dumped TENS OF THOUSANDS into a wedding where she married for TEN months, and didn't pay for her own first car to start with calls ME entitled because if I ever moved back home I want her bedroom or our other sisters bedroom which are so much bigger and nicer than mine (which is in the unheated basement btw), if I was living there fulltime again. I only had to start exhausting myself moonlighting last year because my parents didn't give me shit, on top of never getting a real apartment, buying all my groceries from aldi with all these ghetto ass people using food stamps, I could seriously cry it is so frustrating. whenever she is a bitch to me it is my fault for antagonizing her and whenever I am a bitch to her (which is never for years now because I don't initiate contact w/ her) it is also my fault.
Don't feel bad I have a sister like this. She might see this( she's a member here but I doubt it since her lazy ass hasn't danced in forever). She's bipolar and got a LOT of money I feel should of been mine too! She paid 40,000 cash for a car and she doesn't even work. Oh she was going to go with me on a work trip but 800 was too much to spend to go make money but 40,000 on a car was ok. Then she says she won't go after she bought a ticket because I was nice and said she could pay me back after she made money because I said she needed to get filler and some botox. My mom always sticks up for her and gets mad because I don't take her on work trips. Every time I do there's an issue, I"m no babysitter. Ugh! then she'll be like bitch I don't want anything to do with you , then call 3 hours later, rambling on. Sorry. Just wanted yoy to know you're not alone.
michele11
08-28-2014, 09:03 PM
Oh and lol. mine will say she cries when she watches the Kardashians because she wishes we were like that. But she doesn't bother being a sister, so.
whirlerz
08-29-2014, 12:59 AM
My sib caused major damage in the fam. Whenever asked, I say I'm an only child.
Anyway, I am rethinking my date tomorrow, it's early now but I'm not sure.
TransdimensionalPrincess
08-29-2014, 11:06 AM
Fuck sisters, I have to agree to that. I am not on speaking terms with either of mine!
sexsells
08-31-2014, 07:13 AM
I am a stripper zombie all I do is sleep, study, work, repeat. Im in paris and I'm super lucky if I manage to do anything cool more than twice a week! Whats the point me being here if I can't enjoy Paris (though admittedly its my third time here and once I didn't work but still!!!)!
Aurora_Sunset
08-31-2014, 02:32 PM
Your story made me teary eyed. Why don't you tell him? Maybe he feels the same way and that's why he broke off the engagement? YOU never know and you only live once and at least you would know and you have nothing to lose.
Thank you. But... I've put myself out there to him plenty of times over the years. At this point, I feel like he knows damn well he could probably come back and ask to start anew and I wouldn't reject the idea. If he hasn't said anything to that extent, I think bringing it up again would just sound pathetic and put him off of thinking we could even continue as friends. The past few months of chatting online with him as a real friend have been too good to just muck that up with a confession that I know will go nowhere.
just got the chills after reading Aurora's post because I have a guy like that in my life. I'll see him for a few hours once a year and it kills me because as much as I try to ignore the longing that I have for him I can't seem to meet another guy I have that same chemistry with...and therefore can't completely get over him. I feel like the only choice I have is to accept something I have no control over and it really really sucks.
I feel for you. I was super emotional when I wrote that and needed to get it off my chest. I seem to "get over" the initial horrible feelings quicker and quicker, but it's like a reset button every time I actually see him, no matter how many years have passed. It's so frustrating, but I know that I can't control it, and I know to just keep living my life in the meantime. Sometimes the bad feelings just have a perfect breeding ground for sneaking up on you for a minute, especially since I thought I had finally found my footing with him and now he's changed his behavior so much. :-\ *sigh* But the behavior change is a good thing - I just keep telling myself that.
At the end of the day, I really would be happy just to be on good terms with him instead of the old feelings of being used, and to see him happy, whether that involves romantic involvement with me or not. I am truly grateful for the apology and conversation and forgiveness that I found. I just have to reign in my less-than-stellar emotions in weak moments.
audrey_k
08-31-2014, 05:33 PM
My flatmate is being super nice to me since I got back, she shocked when she saw me but she's been helping me with food, picking things up and putting them away, etc. But with her past behavior I have a really hard time just believing she's doing it out of the goodness of her heart as she's just so fucking two-faced.
kaninchen
08-31-2014, 08:26 PM
I've been in bed reading and watching movies for the past few days like an introverted weirdo. I finally made myself leave the house today to see an OTC regular who pays ridic $$$ to have me read Playboy to him. When it was over I came directly home and got right back in bed.
I'm not sure if I'm being overly self-indulgent or if I'm just depressed! My club's manager has been pestering me to come in all week but I just can't handle the thought of hustling huge noisy crowds.
SweetJulia
09-01-2014, 12:18 PM
All the fights people I'm close with are having with their siblings are making me appreciate being an only child.
Aslinn
09-01-2014, 11:17 PM
I'm finally buckling down and I'm setting up my 20's to make my money. No more blowing money or blowing off work and definitely no more cutting myself off from the sex industry for relationships. I have to many short term and long term goals to keep screwing around.
SweetJulia
09-02-2014, 08:20 AM
^^^^Stick to it, cuz I'll be 30 in six months and don't have nearly what I've wanted to accomplished.
wednesday86
09-03-2014, 07:39 AM
Lately I've really been wanting to move back to my old town. I live in a dirty, crowded Chicago suburb. I thought it would be fun to live close to Chicago but we hardly ever go to the city and it's expensive as fuck to do anything. There's so much traffic and people are SO RUDE! I've been looking at homes to rent and here, it's $2k+ a month to live in a decent house that's not in the ghetto. I could rent a beautiful 3bd with a big yard in my old town for under $1200 a month. I know it'll be hard to get my husband on board because his family is here, but it sucks here. We've been struggling ever since I moved out here and we literally cannot make it on our own. I wish I could convince him to do cam work with me. We're a very attractive interracial! couple and I know we could make good $ if he would go for it and leave his shitty job. I just want to live in a cute house and get a dog. It's never going to happen here.
chanzep
09-03-2014, 09:05 AM
I am looking for a new place to live I hate my flatmates, they are sly and think they own the place.
simone87
09-03-2014, 11:18 AM
i haven't had an orgasm for a week and a half, getting REALLY grumpy..my bf is being a little bitch lately, he'll either fall asleep or just brush me off, its so insulting. last night i was so angry and frustrated i almost cried. idk how to talk to him about it without getting worked up, i just can't bring myself to bring it up, but its getting quite old. feels horrible when you go to work and have guys pay you just to see you naked, yet your own boyfriend won't even fuck you when you try and initiate sex.
wednesday86
09-03-2014, 11:59 AM
i haven't had an orgasm for a week and a half, getting REALLY grumpy..my bf is being a little bitch lately, he'll either fall asleep or just brush me off, its so insulting. last night i was so angry and frustrated i almost cried. idk how to talk to him about it without getting worked up, i just can't bring myself to bring it up, but its getting quite old. feels horrible when you go to work and have guys pay you just to see you naked, yet your own boyfriend won't even fuck you when you try and initiate sex.
Girl I went through this exact same thing last month with my husband! I got so pissed so I told him "Since you don't seem to care about pleasuring me, I'll just take care of myself. I think we should take a break from sex for a while since we're not on the same page." I just used my vibrator as needed and I would tell him about it every time, which made him jealous and horny, but I would reject him every time he initiated I rejected him for about two weeks before I let him fuck me again. Now he KNOWS better than to turn me away. Even if he isn't horny, he'll still get me off in other ways. You just need to train him. :)
kaninchen
09-03-2014, 12:12 PM
I've been so incredibly lazy this past week, doing little more than loafing around my apartment and putting on makeup, going shopping (not spending too much $$ though!) and having endless coffee and wine dates with friends. I think I deserve it after putting in so much effort at school and at work all year, plus enduring a relationship that was really dramatic and draining.
Next year all I want to do is casually date older rich guys, keep up my all As, work as much as I want without a man whining to me, "If you loved me you'd work at Starbucks and go into debt waaahhhh," and just generally continue on an upward trajectory of hot amazingness.
Vackra
09-03-2014, 01:59 PM
My husband is going into modelling and I am scared shitless.
Aniela
09-03-2014, 02:20 PM
I find wednesday86's pole dancer .gif mesmerising.
audrey_k
09-03-2014, 02:49 PM
i haven't had an orgasm for a week and a half, getting REALLY grumpy..my bf is being a little bitch lately, he'll either fall asleep or just brush me off, its so insulting. last night i was so angry and frustrated i almost cried. idk how to talk to him about it without getting worked up, i just can't bring myself to bring it up, but its getting quite old. feels horrible when you go to work and have guys pay you just to see you naked, yet your own boyfriend won't even fuck you when you try and initiate sex.
Does he not want to have sex at all or he just wants to have really shitty quickie sex so you can't get off? If it's the latter my ex and I went through a period of that and I just refused to have sex with him and when he got whiny I told him if he wasn't going to help me get off I wasn't going to help him get off and he could just got to the bathroom and use his hand. He complained about being tired and busy at work and I said well then let's make things easier and just not have sex so you aren't so tired. That put an end to that. If its the latter you should talk to him, when sex stops like that's it's usually a sign something is going on... and if there is a reason behind it it may make you feel better to know it's not you. If he won't open up to you about it, when he starts to want to sleep with you again (which he will cause you're hot!) turn him down a few times and when he complains, say yes bitch it sucks doesn't it? :P
I don't understand why people who are in relationships do that... I understand we all go through periods where we don't feel super sexual, but it's part of the obligation of being in a relationship to keep your partner sexually satisfied, just like it's an obligation to be emotionally supportive, and got knows sometimes we're tired and stressed and don't feel like doing that either. I had an ex who went through a period where he was super stressed and had problems getting it up but he was still willing to satisfy me and I've gone through periods where I wasn't feeling super sexual but it's not that hard to just lay there for some missionary. I feel like 75% of my escorting clients are nice guys who's wives have just become frigid. If you do something fucked up to your partner, well, you deserve to not get laid, but that's a different situation.
I may just have a very skewed idea of relationships though, who knows.
simone87
09-03-2014, 03:03 PM
^ he just won't do anything lately, which pisses me off because even when i don't particularly feel horny i'll still have sex with him and give myself a chance to get into it, i won't ever just shut him down over and over..but now i really feel like i WILL shut him down next time. sometime i feel like he gets frustrated cause i can only cum from clitoral stimulation, and that takes extra work on his part but whatever, i give him head too even with my TMJ. he hasn't said that in so many words, but i get that feeling. and yeah that's what i'm worried about, that something is wrong..we'll see what happens tonight, he did have to work this week doing some heavy lifting and plumbing but...
ScarletKitten
09-03-2014, 03:27 PM
^^You give him head even with jaw problems?? Girl, you're a trooper. I stopped giving head a long time ago. I won't give my bf head, or sex for that matter, until he finds a job or a way to make money. I am done fucking someone who has no money. I know that sounds terrible, but this industry has really changed me...
audrey_k
09-03-2014, 03:29 PM
^ he just won't do anything lately, which pisses me off because even when i don't particularly feel horny i'll still have sex with him and give myself a chance to get into it, i won't ever just shut him down over and over..but now i really feel like i WILL shut him down next time. sometime i feel like he gets frustrated cause i can only cum from clitoral stimulation, and that takes extra work on his part but whatever, i give him head too even with my TMJ. he hasn't said that in so many words, but i get that feeling. and yeah that's what i'm worried about, that something is wrong..we'll see what happens tonight, he did have to work this week doing some heavy lifting and plumbing but...
That's no excuse, even if you didn't give him head you're getting him off by fucking him so he needs to get you off as well. I can't get off from sex either, a lot of women can't, it's not your fault, you're not doing it on purpose it's your fucking anatomy. If he seriously complains about that that's ridiculous!
He's probably just tired but if things haven;t gotten better in a week I would talk to him... again, it may have nothing to do with you, he may have a personal issue, and you'll feel better knowing it has noting to do with you.
wednesday86
09-03-2014, 08:48 PM
Agree with Audrey! Seriously take our advice and put him on sex probation! Or bust out a toy and tell him to use it on you until you're completely satisfied. Once you get off, then MAYBE you'll get him off...maybe. He's just gotten lazy and he needs to be put in his place.
SexedUpCat2
09-03-2014, 09:43 PM
^ he just won't do anything lately, which pisses me off because even when i don't particularly feel horny i'll still have sex with him and give myself a chance to get into it, i won't ever just shut him down over and over..but now i really feel like i WILL shut him down next time. sometime i feel like he gets frustrated cause i can only cum from clitoral stimulation, and that takes extra work on his part but whatever, i give him head too even with my TMJ. he hasn't said that in so many words, but i get that feeling. and yeah that's what i'm worried about, that something is wrong..we'll see what happens tonight, he did have to work this week doing some heavy lifting and plumbing but...
You can always turn it into some sort of role play, if you want. Take control and dominate him. It's his job to get you off, and if he's good, then *maybe* you'll reward him. ;) But, if not, I think you should talk to him flat-out about it. If he's mature enough to have sex, then he's mature enough to talk about the details which include pleasing you and where his actions are lacking at the moment.
wednesday86
09-04-2014, 05:39 AM
^Also, I think the reason men get lazy about sex in long term relationships is because they are 'hunters.' If they know they can get it whenever they want, they lose that 'thrill of the hunt' and they get spoiled. If you cut him off or switch things up, suddenly sex has become something he has to work for and he has to pursue you and earn it. It's exciting for them and they love it. Cutting my husband off was the best thing for us. He immediately went into pursuit mode and when we did have sex again it was amazing-like in the beginning of the relationship.
lynn2009
09-04-2014, 01:43 PM
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wednesday86
09-04-2014, 03:05 PM
My great grandfather died I don't really care. We weren't close and he was 95. Honestly I'm surprised he lived this long. My family is flipping out and I don't know why. He.was.ninety.five.years.old. Didn't they see it coming? I guess I'm just a little -detached- because my brother died when he was only 13. My best friend killed herself at 19. Those are real tragedies. I know, I know I'm a cold hearted bitch..but I don't want to drive 10 hours to the funeral of a guy I barely knew and haven't even spoken to in 8 years just because we happen to share some genetic material.
lol1337a
09-04-2014, 05:17 PM
Got really drunk at work last night. I didn't get in trouble and no one mentioned anything, but I'm kind of mortified anyway since I'm still new to the club. I know the best thing to do is get my ass back in there and work a bunch of soberish shifts to build up my reputation, but I'm too hungover to do that today. Ugh.
ScarletKitten
09-04-2014, 10:42 PM
I confess I am a fucking hypocrite, or I have zero willpower. I didn't go into work today. Instead, I stayed home and got high. Then, after saying I am withholding sex from my bf because he doesn't have a job, I fucking give in to his seduction - goddamn he has so much sexual power, I just couldn't resist anymore. Was the best sex I've had in months. Also, he has the biggest cock i've ever had. Sorry Simone, I hope you got laid, I feel bad saying all this now. :(
simone87
09-04-2014, 10:51 PM
^ haha i gave in too!
MyButter
09-05-2014, 04:36 AM
The empathetic reaction to the celebrity nude photo hack pisses me off because I bet if it had happened to 100 sexworkers, the general reaction would NOT be empathetic.
lynn2009
09-05-2014, 04:42 AM
The empathetic reaction to the celebrity nude photo hack pisses me off because I bet if it had happened to 100 sexworkers, the general reaction would NOT be empathetic.
Not to mention all the 'civilian' women who have no real recourse at all
MyButter
09-05-2014, 04:59 AM
Not to mention all the 'civilian' women who have no real recourse at all
Right! It happens all the time and the attitude is 'well, thats what happens when you take naked pictures'. When it happens to celebrities however, it's a crime.
It makes me so angry! Arrrrghhhh