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tuesdaymarie
09-21-2014, 06:54 PM
^Oh wow. Reminds me of the last time I had food poisoning. I thought I was going to die too. I actually reached the conclusion that my "essence" had died, and I was only a representation of my former self. A very sick representation. Get your fluids and a bottle of pepto!
Congratulations on your almost-engagement (I don't know what else to call it)! I'm sorry you're worried about the families' reactions, though. I hope everything goes better than expected, but hey, if you're both okay, it's not like you have to have a traditional wedding or even marriage to have a successful relationship. It just depends on what you need to be happy.
Thanks! I really want to go to another country to elope/have an extended honeymoon. I want to get dressed up and do artistic photographs to commemorate, then have a big reception when we return as a compromise. My boyfriend originally agreed about this, but then every now and then he mentions that his grandmother would murder him in his sleep if she didn't get to see him get married--even though she's not my biggest fan. His mother's side is Cuban and very traditional, and as he's the first-born male of his generation, it's supposedly a really big deal. I guess I have this constant fear that he's going to cave on all of their demands, and I'm going to end up with a ridiculously expensive wedding that I'm miserable at, then a lifetime of family barbecues in the 'burbs. I confessed this fear to him while we were on a cruise (that we were forced to go on with his family...), and I told him that if it came down to that, I'd end up going Virginia Woolf on him with a coat full of rocks. Dramatic? Maybe. But it's how I felt by the end of that fucking cruise.
Aniela
09-21-2014, 09:30 PM
As I have mentioned my bf's sister is expecting twins. Between the upcoming birth & the fact that the 'kids' question has come up between us a few times, I have been wondering if a time will come when I should tell him abt my abortion, which I had almost a yr b4 we met. He knows I have been pregnant twice & that the first ended in a miscarriage but I have nvr discussed the second, which ended w/ the abortion. The problem I am having is that he outed me as a dancer to his family, w/o asking me first, bc in his words 'It doesn't matter bc they won't judge you for it' It took a near screaming match to make him understand how violated I felt by that action. After that, I don't feel like I can trust him to keep quiet abt this.
michele11
09-22-2014, 07:32 AM
I definitely feel you on the just wanting to be alone without people bothering you thing. My roommate is very friendly and social, and she always wants to talk to me about life when we're home at the same time and tries to get me to go out with her and do things. I'm just like, "Sorry I'm really busy with netflix right now." Is your sister also a dancer, or does she just come to your club when you're working as a customer? My roommate also keeps saying she's going to come into my club to audition and I really hope she doesn't expect me to vouch for her use me as a reference or anything because I'm not putting my good relationship with management on the line for her. She is pretty out of shape, so I don't even know that she'd get hired, and I'm confident that if she does manage to work a shift, she will hate it and probably never leave the dressing room. She really needs people to like her and she will not take rejection well.
Yeah. She's danced on and off for years. She's an addict and bipolar. So she changes her mind every minute. Yeah I've taken her on several trips and it doesn't work out. Not being mean but she is not as polished as me and she'll just leave if she wants and I travel and have good reputation at all my clubs. She keeps bugging me to come back to M.B and she got fired because she left. But she knows ( from me talking) they take you back, especially if you throw money. But yeah I don't need the stress.
wednesday86
09-22-2014, 07:46 AM
I'm being a bad mom today and letting my son watch tv...but I am just so damn tired....got home at 4am and got up with him at 7am. I've been trying to talk my husband into quitting his job and just being a SAHD so that I can dance full time and SLEEP!!!!!! Dancing at night and waking up early with the baby is KILLING ME.
audrey_k
09-22-2014, 09:31 AM
As I have mentioned my bf's sister is expecting twins. Between the upcoming birth & the fact that the 'kids' question has come up between us a few times, I have been wondering if a time will come when I should tell him abt my abortion, which I had almost a yr b4 we met. He knows I have been pregnant twice & that the first ended in a miscarriage but I have nvr discussed the second, which ended w/ the abortion. The problem I am having is that he outed me as a dancer to his family, w/o asking me first, bc in his words 'It doesn't matter bc they won't judge you for it' It took a near screaming match to make him understand how violated I felt by that action. After that, I don't feel like I can trust him to keep quiet abt this.
Personally, I think you are only bound to tell your SO things about your past that affect them... if you have infertility problems as a result of the abortion, then you should be clear about it, as that would affect his desire to have a family. But I don't think you need to dredge up every horrible, unpleasant experience/thing you did in the past just to be 'honest' with someone. It's none of their business and I don't think most people want to know all that crap anyway. I certainly wouldn't think my SO's ex girlfriend having an abortion was anything he needed to tell me or, quite frankly, something I would even care about. But that's just my view.
Aniela
09-22-2014, 09:59 AM
Personally, I think you are only bound to tell your SO things about your past that affect them... if you have infertility problems as a result of the abortion, then you should be clear about it, as that would affect his desire to have a family. But I don't think you need to dredge up every horrible, unpleasant experience/thing you did in the past just to be 'honest' with someone. It's none of their business and I don't think most people want to know all that crap anyway. I certainly wouldn't think my SO's ex girlfriend having an abortion was anything he needed to tell me or, quite frankly, something I would even care about. But that's just my view.
AFAIK there's no fertility problems resulting from it but interacting w/ babies in particular is one of those things that sets me off. I would not want my reluctance to interact w/ them to be viewed as malicious, that's all. The one time that I was on the verge of telling him (bc it was sm what relevant to the conversation) he shut me down b4 I could come out & say it so maybe he suspects, Idk.
Selina M
09-22-2014, 10:13 AM
^ Agreed. The only reason I know some horrible fucked up things from my SO's past are because they came up otherwise in some context... he didn't make a big point to dredge them up and do the "I have to tell you this" bit.
Your abortion, I might only bring up say if you got pregnant and were discussing the options... and only then because it may affect your choice presently... or if you were having PTSD flashbacks or something that had to be explained. But there's no real reason to drag it up now, especially if you don't trust him. If he's run his mouth off about you being a dancer I would not be surprised if he took the same "They don't care" stance to mention any other secrets of yours.
Aniela
09-22-2014, 10:34 AM
... or if you were having PTSD flashbacks or something that had to be explained. But there's no real reason to drag it up now, especially if you don't trust him. If he's run his mouth off about you being a dancer I would not be surprised if he took the same "They don't care" stance to mention any other secrets of yours.
Yes I was thinking if it did have to be brought up it would be bc I am trying to say 'Don't take it personally that I don't want to be around the babies' I have trouble being around my own niece & nephew, or even hearing babies crying on TV. Even tho I am not swimming in tears over it anymore pretty much anything baby related still makes me at best really uncomfy.
But he was also saying sm shady-sounding things on the phone the other nite & it's now been a wk since we talked (seems he is back to not returning my calls :banghead: ) … given my rapidly decreasing patience w/ his shenanigans I am probably worrying abt nothing bc I won't be meeting his family.
wednesday86
09-22-2014, 11:43 AM
Just had the worst conversation ever with my in laws' family who are visiting from Florida:
They ask me about my parents....They died.
Brothers or sisters?........I had a brother but he died.
They ask me about college....I didn't finish.
Are you going to finish?....I don't know.
So where do you work?.......Uh, a bar? Yeah, a bar.
What do you do there?......Ummmmmmm, bartend?
Where is it?.......Chicago Heights.
Oh! We have a house out there! What's it called?........I need to go to the bathroom. Excuse me.
Ugh, torture. Absolute torture. My life sounds so damn depressing from the outside looking in.
simone87
09-22-2014, 01:12 PM
I feel like such a horrible person but I am considering getting rid of my kitten... he is SO damn cute and sweet and I've wanted a cat more than anything for months now, but this is more work than I thought I was signing up for. I've had cats my whole life and what I love about them is that they're independent-- I could never handle all the attention and work a dog demands which is why I have serious doubts as to my ability to ever have children. But this cat is like the NEEDIEST cat I have ever had in my life. He has so much fucking energy he just flies around the room, he can't be calm and just sit and be petted, he wants to play ALL the time and by that, he wants to bite and scratch-- he's not doing it in a malicious, want to hurt you way, he's just playing. And if he isn't with me, or I'm ignoring him, he will just MEOW MEOW MEOW. Like for HOURS. I have no idea how his lungs haven't given out, but I put him in the bathroom for an hour and he literally did not stop the entire time. He now has an entire flat to run around in-- two fucking floors!-- and all he wants to do it jump around my bed and drive me crazy. I love him and he's adorable but this is just too much. And I'm seriously worried about maybe getting noise complaints from my neighbors for the meowing or my clients getting super annoyed about it when they start coming by in a couple weeks.
my cat is the same way. he is a very needy feline..when he was a kitten he would meow incessantly at my door til i came out, but after a few months he snapped out of it..he still wants cuddles whenever i come home, but don't worry i think your kitty will absolutely calm down in a bit!
Selina M
09-22-2014, 02:33 PM
I can't wait for winter so I can wear boots and long coats and the dumbass guys at my school stop hitting on me. It's still over 100 degrees here so I have to wear shorts/tank tops, and that just encourages the idiots.
I really have no interest in being polite to anything with a dick outside of work.
audrey_k
09-22-2014, 03:32 PM
I am spending SO much time alone in my flat I feel like I am ABSOLUTELY going fucking crazy. I just keep obsessing and flipping over the same shit in my head! And after saying something really sweet of his own volition that basically meant "we are in a real relationship" I fucking FLEW off the handle at him tonight. And I can't even tell if I had any right to do that because my emotions are SO up and down today, I don't know if I took this too personally or if he really was being a dick. Like I was watching TV and crying at the dumbest, cheesiest shit and then flying around the flat so happy a few hours later. I know I'm exhausted, physically still not 100%, and probably very, very hungry as I've barely eaten in two days as I have a stomach ache (all side effects from coming off that lovely pain medication) but I've felt so stir crazy and nuts. I WANT TO GO BACK TO WORK AND HAVE A LIFE!
I feel like such a little girl but I'm so glad my mom is coming to visit, really not looking forward to the lecture on the new boobs and her overly inquisitive questions about what I do for a living and how on Earth I can afford a one bedroom flat in an expensive part of very central London, but I haven't seen her in 7 months now and I really miss her.
But honestly I do really wish that men would just fucking THINK before they say and do things sometimes... no matter what age or occupation any guy has had that I've dated, I feel like they just say and do shit without thinking about it and I'm dealing with a child. Like I'm never NOT the smartest or most mature person in the room, even with my almost 65 year old father. I know I am WAY over on the analytical/obsessive end of the spectrum, but seriously, it's not that hard to THINK before you say shit. THINK ABOUT HOW THE OTHER PERSON IS GOING TO RESPOND BEFORE YOU SAY/DO IT.
whirlerz
09-22-2014, 03:50 PM
I can't wait for winter so I can wear boots and long coats and the dumbass guys at my school stop hitting on me. It's still over 100 degrees here so I have to wear shorts/tank tops, and that just encourages the idiots.
I really have no interest in being polite to anything with a dick outside of work.
Ooh, I'm so using this as a siggy!;D
Selina M
09-22-2014, 04:50 PM
^ Ahaha! I feel so special, my first sig :D
whirlerz
09-22-2014, 06:31 PM
I got my book, "The Price" The Rise & Fall of NY's #1 Escort (it's also a hardcover ed. which I didn't realize)..I have library books I s/be reading 1st, since they must be returned soon. But. I can't put it down!
Also, makes me wanna escort.
Also, I want my damn Tom Ford Extreme mascara that I had to order from NM! Was kinda thinking maybe of cancelling it, & getting the mini Benefit one, they're easier for a lefty to use.
lynn2009
09-22-2014, 10:15 PM
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misssincere
09-23-2014, 12:10 AM
I have a horrible case of baby fever
chanzep
09-23-2014, 08:48 AM
I could really stay in my bed for weeks, I have no desire to go back to work right now, sadly my bank account has other ideas.
sexsells
09-24-2014, 03:44 AM
I'm sad, the guy I was seeing didn't work out though I had a feeling it never was going to, I was just trying to enjoy it and have some happiness in my life. I guess I'll be going home for a while now… round three to Europe next year methinks.
wednesday86
09-24-2014, 01:39 PM
I got my hair done yesterday by a friend and she did a good job...but it wasn't the big dramatic change I was hoping for. She just did a better version of the hairstyle I already had, brightened my color and added blonde highlights. I kind of want to go blonde all over. I haven't been blonde since I was a toddler but my friend says it would look good on me..Wondering if it would increase $$?
SweetJulia
09-24-2014, 01:51 PM
I feel like such a horrible person but I am considering getting rid of my kitten... he is SO damn cute and sweet and I've wanted a cat more than anything for months now, but this is more work than I thought I was signing up for. I've had cats my whole life and what I love about them is that they're independent-- I could never handle all the attention and work a dog demands which is why I have serious doubts as to my ability to ever have children. But this cat is like the NEEDIEST cat I have ever had in my life. He has so much fucking energy he just flies around the room, he can't be calm and just sit and be petted, he wants to play ALL the time and by that, he wants to bite and scratch-- he's not doing it in a malicious, want to hurt you way, he's just playing. And if he isn't with me, or I'm ignoring him, he will just MEOW MEOW MEOW. Like for HOURS. I have no idea how his lungs haven't given out, but I put him in the bathroom for an hour and he literally did not stop the entire time. He now has an entire flat to run around in-- two fucking floors!-- and all he wants to do it jump around my bed and drive me crazy. I love him and he's adorable but this is just too much. And I'm seriously worried about maybe getting noise complaints from my neighbors for the meowing or my clients getting super annoyed about it when they start coming by in a couple weeks.
That goes away once they're 6-12 months.
audrey_k
09-24-2014, 02:50 PM
I cannot wait to have really good, hot, passionate sex tomorrow without a bra on... fucking boob job.
whirlerz
09-24-2014, 04:51 PM
I got my hair done yesterday by a friend and she did a good job...but it wasn't the big dramatic change I was hoping for. She just did a better version of the hairstyle I already had, brightened my color and added blonde highlights. I kind of want to go blonde all over. I haven't been blonde since I was a toddler but my friend says it would look good on me..Wondering if it would increase $$?
Yea.^ I got my hair done today, 'highlight touch up" 2nd time I went to this hairdresser..he did a good job..but. I want to be lighter too. I did my own base color touch ups in between, so it darkens it a bit. I also got a trim 2" which I needed.
I was going to get bangs, but he suggested not to. I was fine w/it, I don't like my hair chopped, it's curly so so I'd have to flat iron it every day, which I want to avoid.
I think I'll get clip in bangs, when I want to change.
whirlerz
09-24-2014, 04:53 PM
I got my hair done yesterday by a friend and she did a good job...but it wasn't the big dramatic change I was hoping for. She just did a better version of the hairstyle I already had, brightened my color and added blonde highlights. I kind of want to go blonde all over. I haven't been blonde since I was a toddler but my friend says it would look good on me..Wondering if it would increase $$?
Yea.^ I got my hair done today, 'highlight touch up" 2nd time I went to this hairdresser..he did a good job..but. I want to be lighter too. I did my own base color touch ups in between, so it darkens it a bit. I also got a trim 2" which I needed.
I was going to get bangs, but he suggested not to. I was fine w/it, I don't like my hair chopped, it's curly so so I'd have to flat iron it every day, which I want to avoid.
I think I'll get clip in bangs, when I want to change.
whirlerz
09-24-2014, 05:04 PM
Just had the worst conversation ever with my in laws' family who are visiting from Florida:
They ask me about my parents....They died.
Brothers or sisters?........I had a brother but he died.
They ask me about college....I didn't finish.
Are you going to finish?....I don't know.
So where do you work?.......Uh, a bar? Yeah, a bar.
What do you do there?......Ummmmmmm, bartend?
Where is it?.......Chicago Heights.
Oh! We have a house out there! What's it called?........I need to go to the bathroom. Excuse me.
Ugh, torture. Absolute torture. My life sounds so damn depressing from the outside looking in.
You sound like me!^ Are you sure you're not me, lol?
charlie61
09-24-2014, 05:34 PM
It's looking like we'll be moving to Portland in six months...just because we can.
Exciting!!!
wednesday86
09-24-2014, 06:49 PM
You sound like me!^ Are you sure you're not me, lol?
Haha! I was kind of annoyed because on top of dancing full time I also take care of my 16 month old son alone every day while my husband works..THEN I go to work and dance all night. Of course the people interrogating me were professionals that hired daycares and nannies for child care...I think people like that forget how exhausting taking care of a TODDLER full time is. It's like Audrey's kitten situation on crack.
audrey_k
09-25-2014, 06:21 AM
^my kitten is so much better, I think he realized he was about to get the boot and he needed to shape up. He's still wild as fuck during the day but he seems to understand that when I turn the lights off and lay down it's time to go to sleep and be quiet, as he doesn't bother me anymore. He just lies down to the side of my boobs like they're a pillow and goes to sleep. He's going to be dissapointed when I can start sleeping on my side again! (two weeks THANK GOD)
wednesday86
09-25-2014, 07:17 AM
^Awww! He'll get better once he's neutered and grows up a little bit too. I had a wild child kitty and he calmed down a lot after he got snipped.
Last night I was up all night with my son who was sick and puking. You would think being up sick all night he would sleep in a little? Nope. We've been up since 7:30. And I work tonight...Have I mentioned that I hate my husband's schedule? We probably won't even see each other today.
MyButter
09-25-2014, 08:49 AM
My friend and I saw Dita Von Teese's Strip Strip Hooray show last Friday... and now I'm just fucking confused.
It seems so ridiculous to me that words like "classy" and "empowering" and "artistic" are associated with burlesque when (from what I saw) they were doing the same exact thing we do: taking their clothes off. The only difference I saw was that they were wearing super glittery c-cups and pasties.
...is it the millions of sparkles that make burlesque a socially acceptable "art form" ?!
whirlerz
09-25-2014, 09:17 AM
Aww. I think my neighbors are getting sick of me petting their dog..I can't help it, she's an adorable. I am so lonely, I can't to to my one friend on the phone, lest she try to take advantage of me again $-wise. I hope I can get a friend soon (preferably male) before the weather starts changing to an ice tundra.
I go for the fitting for the crown of my one tooth today
fishielicious
09-25-2014, 10:57 AM
^^Audrey, I'm so glad your kitty is calming down a little. I bet he just needs to grow up a little, and yeah, neutering should definitely help.
And ugh I was supposed to work today, but I decided to be lazy because this morning I finally moved all my stuff out of my old apartment and moving boxes and boxes of heavy books exhausted me. I still have dishes and furniture to move on Saturday, when my family can help, but everything else is out. And luckily, I don't have very much furniture. The thing that's going to be a pain is my mattress and box spring which we will have to lower out of my loft bedroom using a pulley system haha. I'm going to be living with my parents for a few weeks until my new apartment is ready in the middle of October. That is going to be a pain as far as traveling back and forth to work and school--and trying to keep all my stripper stuff safely hidden from them lol--but I'm SO glad to be out of the old apartment. It was nasty; I had to throw out so much stuff my roommate's horror of a cat pooped on or near it. I don't know how my roommate can live with it. That thing drove me out in six months. Oh well, it was time for me to get my own place, anyway. So excited to finally have space to put up my pole!
fishielicious
09-25-2014, 11:17 AM
Oh and a couple days ago I posted about how I started my period while I was having sex with this guy and was so embarrassed I just hid the evidence and fled lol. Well, he keeps texting me to ask me out again anyway, so I guess it wasn't too bad after all ::)
simone87
09-25-2014, 11:28 AM
i really don't want to go to work today, and i mean i'm really dreading it..way more than i should be. i don't understand why my club can't just do two shifts instead of one shift lasting 10 or 11 hours!! i'm sitting there falling asleep for the first 5 hours. no wonder i can't bring myself to work more than 2 or 3..grrr
ScarletKitten
09-25-2014, 03:59 PM
I confess I haven't worked in 2 weeks. I was part of the September's Work Challenge, but I fell off that wagon. I couldn't bare to admit I haven't worked in so long in that thread, because I didn't want to bring down other hard-working girls with goals. I didn't want my depression/laziness to be contagious to anyone else, so I'm posting in this thread instead. I have plenty of excuses for not working: depression, tiredness, lack of motivation, a pimple on my ass that won't heal, a bad scratch on the inside of my palm from my cat, starting my period yesterday, etc. I wanted to work today, but my period cramps were too bad and I just don't feel sexy enough. I want to work so bad, but I keep having anxiety. The last couple of times I worked, I let things happen that I shouldn't have let happen b/c I needed the money. From now on, I rather go home with less but have my sanity in tact.
fishielicious
09-25-2014, 05:05 PM
^I got embarrassed to post in the September Work Challenge thread, too, because I knew I was never going to get to 5-6 shifts a week. It just wasn't going to happen. I'm sorry you're having trouble with depression and motivation for work. I hope you get to feeling better son. And ugh, I feel you on the period starting thing. I hate working on my period; I'm always running back to the DR every time I get a little sweaty cause it makes me think I'm leaking all over some guy (TMI probably).
And that is something I have to remind myself every shift: I'd rather go home with less than go home with money but also have to have nightmares about what I let some asshole do to me. It's on a shift by shift basis whether I actually succeed in convincing myself of that.
audrey_k
09-25-2014, 05:14 PM
This might be TMI ladies, so apologies, but... I don't know what's going on with me sexually, but I'm having serious issues with my new boyfriend. I was really nervous the first time we had sex and I didn't want him to do anything to me, and since then we really haven't been able to have much sex because of my boobs. Tonight was the first night we could go back to having regular sex, and I have been SO horny all week I was SO looking forward to it. He knows I don't come from intercourse, it has to be other stuff, and it was like as soon as we started I got SO nervous... I knew he was excited to get a chance to make me come as it has bothered him it hasn't happened already, and I kept putting it off. Then we spend like an hour just making out. Then we finally got into it and he was going down on me and I told him to stop, and I almost started crying I was so worked up and anxious. We just sat for ten minutes while he calmed me down and told me to relax.
I'm completely fine with everything else, I just like am TERRIFIED to let this guy make me come... and I don't know why! My escorting clients make me come very rarely but it's not unheard of, and it's not like he's terrible in bed or something. I'm worried because one of my exs that I dated for over two years, NEVER gave me an orgasm. It didn't happen in the first six months and I think it just became a mental block at that point and could never happen, because the man really tried... I don't want to get into that situation with this guy. I just don't understand what my block is, I'm not normally shy when it comes to sex.
KikiGem
09-25-2014, 05:24 PM
I'm getting really tired of religious people. I've been surrounded by them since birth. I get so annoyed with Christians especially, because my parents are Christians (they've calmed down a lot but pretty much fucked us kids up with their over-the-top ways). I called out this one self-righteous, missionary lady on her shit over FB. I made a very logical and calm argument, and she blocked me. Usually all her friends are just singing her praises, so she couldn't stand a differing opinion. ::)
I realize that my problems with Christianity are just that: MY problems. I don't ever say anything about it, or bash them. However, this woman really needed someone to call her on the floor. Most of them are fine (I assume). it's just the ones I've known have left such a bad taste in my mouth.
There's my confession: I guess I'm a little prejudiced.
fishielicious
09-25-2014, 05:56 PM
^KikiGem, that's exactly why I'm agonizing about telling my parents how I make the bulk of my income. My family is very Catholic, and while my parents have always assured me they'll love me no matter what, and I'm very close with them, I'm terrified it'll be a different story if they know I'm a stripper. And I know sometimes there's just no reasoning with people's religion. Luckily my parents didn't force their beliefs on me, but I think it would be a hard thing for them to accept.
@Audrey... I have the problem sometimes where I just go so into my own head I can't come with a guy. Sorry you're going through that, and I hope things go better with your guy!
GlamourRouge
09-25-2014, 06:24 PM
^my kitten is so much better, I think he realized he was about to get the boot and he needed to shape up. He's still wild as fuck during the day but he seems to understand that when I turn the lights off and lay down it's time to go to sleep and be quiet, as he doesn't bother me anymore. He just lies down to the side of my boobs like they're a pillow and goes to sleep. He's going to be dissapointed when I can start sleeping on my side again! (two weeks THANK GOD)
I think all kittens go through that. I know mine did. As a little baby, he would have a panic attack and not know what to do sometimes, but then learned that turning the light down/off means I'm going to sleep. Now that hes older he dgaf, but back then, he would sleep when I would after the first couple weeks.
I confess to just balling my eyes out, I mean balling just cause of a small fight me and my bf had. As I was balling I was like really, wtf is wrong with me then I was like ohhhh my period just started, makes since now…lol. I freakin hate periods, especially emotional ones, I feel like I just look like a fool getting so emotional for nothing.
wednesday86
09-26-2014, 07:17 AM
I am completely exhausted and can't sleep. I got home at 4am and I woke up at 8??!!!! and can't fall back asleep. WTF is wrong with me?
also can't decide if I should go into work tonight or not. Hubs has the day off tomorrow so I could sleep in...idk
whirlerz
09-26-2014, 08:03 AM
I confess to just balling my eyes out, I mean balling just cause of a small fight me and my bf had. As I was balling I was like really, wtf is wrong with me then I was like ohhhh my period just started, makes since now…lol. I freakin hate periods, especially emotional ones, I feel like I just look like a fool getting so emotional for nothing.
I hear you..^ Got emotional @ the dentist yesterday, not about the work I was having done, no small thing that was though
audrey_k
09-26-2014, 10:41 PM
I've had a couple ball-ing instances myself this week, cost of sleep deprivation.... for me it's crying at the absolute cheesiest shit on TV and I'm like OK, I need to sleep more.
Jay12
09-27-2014, 02:22 AM
A part of me feels that I should dance again, but another part of me feels too burned out to do it again successfully.
SnuffleUffleGrass
09-27-2014, 08:11 AM
I confess I woke up with back pain & it's the first time in my life I am happy I am retired from stripping. My back has reached the point of no return & no amount of money would make me go back to wearing 8 inch heels for hours at a time...
whirlerz
09-27-2014, 08:16 AM
A part of me feels that I should dance again, but another part of me feels too burned out to do it again successfully.
OMG, do I RELATE to this!!!^
chanzep
09-27-2014, 08:33 AM
Im going back to work tomorrow, I need the money but I really can't be bothered!.
Jay12
09-27-2014, 12:01 PM
I'm getting really tired of religious people. I've been surrounded by them since birth. I get so annoyed with Christians especially, because my parents are Christians (they've calmed down a lot but pretty much fucked us kids up with their over-the-top ways). I called out this one self-righteous, missionary lady on her shit over FB. I made a very logical and calm argument, and she blocked me. Usually all her friends are just singing her praises, so she couldn't stand a differing opinion. ::)
I realize that my problems with Christianity are just that: MY problems. I don't ever say anything about it, or bash them. However, this woman really needed someone to call her on the floor. Most of them are fine (I assume). it's just the ones I've known have left such a bad taste in my mouth.
There's my confession: I guess I'm a little prejudiced.
This is why I disconnected myself from my religious relatives.
fishielicious
09-27-2014, 01:42 PM
Confession: When I can't be a stripper anymore, I really just want to be a stay-at-home wife. I really don't care about finding love or having a husband and I don't really want kids or anything. I just want to fill my days with grocery shopping, cooking, cleaning, entertaining myself, taking the dog for walks, whatever the hell else. As someone who's getting a master's degree and is teaching right now, I feel like I should have better career aspirations.
I guess really what I'm saying is that once I'm too old to strip I just want to win the lottery. Or, failing that, get a sugar daddy. Luckily I've already got a potential sugar daddy lined up--I'm supposed to be going on vacation with him over winter break. Only problem is he's supporting a couple other girls at the same time. There better be enough money to go around!