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charlie61
10-02-2014, 07:25 PM
One shift is a really small sample size.
AAAAAH, right?? But in the past I've only succeeded in getting myself into the club for one shift. So that's my goal for now. It also helps that I don't need the money..
KikiGem
10-02-2014, 07:47 PM
In high school I so desperately wanted to be in the party scene, do every drug imaginable and just be high all the time. However, I was never cool enough to get invited to those things. So my youth was misspent getting high in the shower by myself off the weed that my 32 year old loser boyfriend gave me, then listening to Slightly Stoopid on youtube.
Now, I have friends that are all about that, and they're like 'let's drink! let's do this molly! let's get some acid! woo!' and I'm all like, fuck no. What if that shit permanently fucks up my brain? It's amazing how much my priorities have changed in just a few short years.
Everything I ever wanted, I can now have. And I want nothing to do with it.
KikiGem
10-02-2014, 08:21 PM
I took my brother out to dinner a few nights ago. My brother is different, some people say on the autism spectrum however I'm not sold on that theory yet. He wears pajama pants, and t-shirts. He sticks out, and to the average passer-by I'm sure he looks strange.
Well, we passed by a group of 4 teens, two guys, two girls. He got to the table before me, and I heard one of the little cunts laugh and I instinctively felt it was at him. I hoped he didn't hear, but he did.
He's a tough and confident kid, he didn't let it show that it bothered him, and maybe it really didn't. But it made me furious. I wanted to say something, but my brother didn't want me to, so I didn't.
I just hope that she does that to the wrong person someday, and gets her ass beat. Just enough to teach her that you can't fucking treat people that way. It'll catch up with her someday.
whirlerz
10-02-2014, 08:44 PM
I took my brother out to dinner a few nights ago. My brother is different, some people say on the autism spectrum however I'm not sold on that theory yet. He wears pajama pants, and t-shirts. He sticks out, and to the average passer-by I'm sure he looks strange.
Well, we passed by a group of 4 teens, two guys, two girls. He got to the table before me, and I heard one of the little cunts laugh and I instinctively felt it was at him. I hoped he didn't hear, but he did.
He's a tough and confident kid, he didn't let it show that it bothered him, and maybe it really didn't. But it made me furious. I wanted to say something, but my brother didn't want me to, so I didn't.
I just hope that she does that to the wrong person someday, and gets her ass beat. Just enough to teach her that you can't fucking treat people that way. It'll catch up with her someday.
This reminds me of an incident I had @ a mall..
I was in a store, 2 young girls were near me, discussing another girl from school, making fun of her. Then they saw me, & started making fun of me.
No biggie, but they left the store, so did I..somehow I ended up where they did, @ least 3 places..freaked them the fuck out, they stfu & left, their eyes bulging..
Best part was, I honestly did not try to do anything, it just happened naturally.
simone87
10-02-2014, 10:39 PM
i confess that i'm really angry with my "best friend". i've always been there for her, for 6 years now. sometimes staying up til 4 am over some crises or another, but i can't even talk to her about the smallest things that have been happening in my life because every time i get on the phone its just " ME ME ME I I I my shitbag cheating boyfriend did this or that, i'm pissed about this or that, me me me me". and never even takes a breath to ask how i am or really listens so i've given up trying. and that's when she actually calls, its usually just when she's bored on break. if her piece-of-dog-shit boyfriend deciders to call or visit our plans are automatically cancelled, and she doesn't bother talk to me at all. i'm going through a really rough time right now in my life, and i actually need a real friend right now, and i'm getting to the point where i just want to dodge her calls because i don't have the energy to be her crutch whenever she snaps her fingers.
lynn2009
10-03-2014, 10:52 AM
I said "happy yom Kippur" to a coworker today, then afterward thought to Google the holiday, turns out its atonement for your sins, oops...
wednesday86
10-03-2014, 01:07 PM
My regular didn't show up last night, which made me a little sad, for both financial and emotional reasons. He hasn't emailed me either, which makes me wonder if he's just lost interest. If so, it's probably for the best since my husband is now barely speaking to me.
My van is fucked up and broke down on the way home from work at 2am. I got an oil change on Monday and it's been acting weird ever since. I was going to get us an appt. for marriage counseling but now I need to see how much repairs will be on this damn thing first.
misssincere
10-03-2014, 03:10 PM
I miss my ex boyfriend. A lot. He hurt me in a billion ways and wasnt always great but we had the same dreams and good times.. It doesn't help that my current boyfriend is being really fuckn lazy lately and I'm putting in all the work. I had to log off of fb for fear of writing my ex. Ugh
lynn2009
10-04-2014, 07:28 AM
AAAAAH, right?? But in the past I've only succeeded in getting myself into the club for one shift. So that's my goal for now. It also helps that I don't need the money..
If you don't mind the asking, how did it go?
fishielicious
10-04-2014, 07:20 PM
Confession: I just dyed my hair today and am horrified because it came out MUCH more purple than I like. I am usually more of a coppery red, and bought a dye that described itself as auburn (because I couldn't find the dye I usually use), and it almost looks like I just dumped purple kool-aid on my head. I was already have some trouble with my confidence because I pretty much haven't been able to go anywhere this week due to a nasty infection on my knee, and I feel like I've just been sitting here stewing in my gross knee and eating more than I should. So I was hoping dying my hair would give me a boost, but it's done the exact opposite. And I'm like, Fuck, I can't go in to work like this. All my regulars think I'm a natural red head.
With this, my knee, school, my computer's broken power source, and a recent minor car accident, I feel like nothing is going right recently. Even the things I do to make myself feel better--like this dye job--just backfire on me. I feel so unattractive with my fucking purple hair right now.
Selina M
10-04-2014, 07:31 PM
I'm planning on working a shift in a club this week for the first time in over a year. If I make more in that shift than what I make in a couple of shifts at my day job (massage), I'm planning on quitting.
And I'm FREAKING OUUUUUUT!!! This job really fucked me up emotionally the last time I did it consistently. I am...afraid. Yep. I am actually afraid. :-[
You can do it!!!
If you're still where I think you are... I'm curious to know how it goes :)
whirlerz
10-04-2014, 07:52 PM
Yeah. Which brings me to, I need to get my butt out & audition, myself, soon. My damn TEETH are co$ting the fuck outta me. :(
lovelydancer
10-05-2014, 04:29 AM
A guy I worked with closely at my last vanilla job came into the club tonight. I think we realized who the other was at the same time (I recognized his face but couldn't pinpoint how...until I did). What made it worse was he sees me onstage, sits down at the stage, stares hardcore, tips nothing then acts awkward as hell. But then states at me the remaining 2 hours of the night from a seat he ended up taking at the bar.
I'm not gonna lie, I'm embarassed by the whole thing. Whenever I've taken small breaks from dancing to do vanilla work, I was always professional and careful not to get "outed". I'm just hoping he doesn't say anything, as I really don't want a circus of past coworkers coming in to make a spectacle of what their previous boss does for work. I would hope he wouldn't say anything...but most of the people at that job were really childish and cruel to me so I wouldn't put it past them.
lynn2009
10-05-2014, 06:01 AM
A guy I worked with closely at my last vanilla job came into the club tonight. I think we realized who the other was at the same time (I recognized his face but couldn't pinpoint how...until I did). What made it worse was he sees me onstage, sits down at the stage, stares hardcore, tips nothing then acts awkward as hell. But then states at me the remaining 2 hours of the night from a seat he ended up taking at the bar.
I'm not gonna lie, I'm embarassed by the whole thing. Whenever I've taken small breaks from dancing to do vanilla work, I was always professional and careful not to get "outed". I'm just hoping he doesn't say anything, as I really don't want a circus of past coworkers coming in to make a spectacle of what their previous boss does for work. I would hope he wouldn't say anything...but most of the people at that job were really childish and cruel to me so I wouldn't put it past them.
You'd like to think people would be too respectful fit that shit but if not couldn't you get them escorted out?
lovelydancer
10-05-2014, 11:25 AM
^ Thinking about it now (totally sober, I wrote my post when I was still kinda drunk), in order to "out" me the guy would have to out himself first that he was there also. I like my club mainly because I make money most nights and I feel safe there, but to the public it's an old hole in the wall with a reputation. At this point he can out himself, it'll make him look worse than me. Plus my Manager is pretty nice to me, so more than likely of old coworkers did show up to try and make my life hell he would make them leave.
I think in the moment I was embarassed, only because I didn't want anyone from my past vanilla careers to ever find out that not only I dance, but dance at a club with a reputation. They aren't in the business and wouldn't understand. But now that I'm thinking more clearly this AM, I'm trying to remember to tell myself that it doesn't matter what anyone thinks about me (besides my boyfriend and cat, lol) because it's my life. Only I need to understand the choices I've made. Plus my body is in pretty good shape right now, lol. Let haters hate. :)
AspiringCamGirl
10-05-2014, 12:31 PM
I want to thank this post a hundred times!! SPOT ON! :)
^I think it's almost impossible to find a man who's OK with escorting. I mean, stripping is one thing, but knowing that your girlfriend is sleeping with other men-- I'm sure there are some men out there who are perfectly OK with it and see the difference, but I think that's rare. But I'm too honest, I would never be able to date someone and not tell them what I do. I think it is probably better to wait longer but that wasn't really an option in this instance. Mine was fine with it in the beginning, he was even my safe call on a couple occasions when the girl I normally use wasn't available, and I would tell him funny stories about weirdo who tried to book me, but now he's changed his tune. I have to admit though, I'm a really boring and conventional person who believes in monogamy... when I'm with someone I really like, I don't want to be with anyone else. I wish I wasn't so old-fashioned honestly, I'm the weirdest escort ever, lol. And yeah, it's work, but it's a lot more personal than giving a lap dance. I really don't want to go back to work and if I had another financial option I would take it, and the only thing that's changed since I took time off is my relationship with him, so I feel like that must be it.
I don't think you're obligated to tell anyone that you were an escort if you quit and meet someone later, it's none of their damn business. I mean, unless it affects your relationship with them, there's no need to disclose that information if you're not comfortable. When I took my break from stripping I dated two guys, the first knew, I never told the second because it honestly never came up in conversation, I wasn't like creating elaborate stories and lying or anything, I just think it's a job and I also didn't tell him that I was a barista in high school or that I worked in the book store in college, like who cares? Escorting is hard because I don't think people realize how detached you can become from a client when you're sleeping with them, people just don't get it until they've done it.
SimoneGray
10-05-2014, 12:51 PM
Where to begin. Ok, well recently I opened up my life so to speak and said "hey, I think I'm ok to start interacting with guys again etc in the context of relationships and dating etc". I didn't really broadcast this fact, but somehow a friend of mine who has had feelings for me all year found out and asked me out again. The reason that I said no the first time is that I do not like him that way and I know that he is not the type that I want. Anyway, this time it caught me so off guard I ended up saying that he could maybe try at some point and I would see how things go. Fuck me. Totally wrong answer and now I feel like the worst person in the world because I know that I will never ever want more than friendship from him.
I confess that I have no idea what to tell him, or how to handle the fact that one of my other friends has set up another guy to come to a party on sat that we are all going to be at, that I am actually very keen to meet. I just feel like the worst person in the world right now and it is stressing me out big time, because intentionally hurting people is not something I like doing, but I am literally not sure how to deal with this.
smeca
10-05-2014, 01:16 PM
I crashed in bed with a new friend after a big night, we fucked, and i'm not even sure i feel particularly bad he has a gf :/ I blame the sex dream I had about us right before we woke up.
Also embarrassed because I was all unshaven and wearing ugly knickers lol
charlie61
10-05-2014, 01:17 PM
If you don't mind the asking, how did it go?
I have a habit of going in to work once a year. I work a few hours, make good money, come home super sore, and never return for a second shift. Bizarre.
You can do it!!!
If you're still where I think you are... I'm curious to know how it goes :)
I've decided to keep the day job no matter what (I only work 11 hours/week anyway) just because I feel much happier and safer knowing that I have some guaranteed income. We'll see if I make it in this week! I'm kind of a priss when it comes to dancing in this city due to the whole high-contact-low-dance-price thing, so who knows. We're moving to the Portland area fairly soon...can't wait!
simone87
10-05-2014, 11:30 PM
bad, bad weekend but the highlight of my night was accidentally farting right in a customer's face!! so embarrassing but i couldn't stop giggling about it. you'd think it would have turned him off..but nope! he ended up dropping $250 right there. either he was able to look past it or had a fart fetish..
Aniela
10-06-2014, 12:46 AM
My ex called last nite & said that he is finally getting help for his problems, getting counselling thru the military b4 they discharge him. I am happy that he is going to address these things at last, & I know he won't simply recover overnite -- but I am having a hard time completely forgiving him for sm of the things he did during this months-long emotional/mental/substance-abusive bender. I want to believe it was truly the addiction & emotional distress talking, not him, but I am still losing sleep over it, & hating myself at the same time bc I remember the hurtful things I said & did when I was going thru that shit myself.
anonymous camgirl
10-06-2014, 10:45 AM
I confess!.. I do it for the MONEY!...lol
wednesday86
10-06-2014, 03:10 PM
My sister and brother in law visited this weekend from Wisconsin and while my husband was at work, I told them all about what's going on with us financially, why I've gone back to dancing, etc.
My brother in law is a tattoo artist and said that if I'm interested, and willing to move, he would take me on as an apprentice and teach me to tattoo for free if I buy my own equipment...! That has always been a secret dream of mine but I've never been brave enough to pursue it, plus most apprenticeships are $2-$5k..
SO it looks like we might be moving to Wisconsin for a while! Eeeee! My husband said he's fine with it. We're going to visit in a couple weeks so I can check out clubs and we can look at houses to rent. I'm over the moon. :)
amberlly
10-06-2014, 04:35 PM
My favorite client is a total is a bit dim with missing teeth. No fashion sense. But he openly adores me. Never pushes boundaries. Or asks for anything. Just compliments and grins. Occasional yelps of excitement. Not a huge spender but arrives when he says he will. Pays upfront. Loves the hustle and beams at every compliment. Lol I want to kidnap him
charlie61
10-06-2014, 07:35 PM
My sister and brother in law visited this weekend from Wisconsin and while my husband was at work, I told them all about what's going on with us financially, why I've gone back to dancing, etc.
My brother in law is a tattoo artist and said that if I'm interested, and willing to move, he would take me on as an apprentice and teach me to tattoo for free if I buy my own equipment...! That has always been a secret dream of mine but I've never been brave enough to pursue it, plus most apprenticeships are $2-$5k..
SO it looks like we might be moving to Wisconsin for a while! Eeeee! My husband said he's fine with it. We're going to visit in a couple weeks so I can check out clubs and we can look at houses to rent. I'm over the moon. :)
Where in WI? I lived there for the better half of a decade.
Savannah Lee
10-06-2014, 09:54 PM
Had way too much to drink this past weekend. Took this really hot French guy home with me. As were in the middle of having sex....I see a ring on his finger. Asked him and he said yes, but we didn't even stop. He the proceeded to say they have an open marriage and are swingers or some shit. I just can't believe that happened, I really need to stop drinking so much
Kellydancer
10-06-2014, 10:57 PM
My ex called last nite & said that he is finally getting help for his problems, getting counselling thru the military b4 they discharge him. I am happy that he is going to address these things at last, & I know he won't simply recover overnite -- but I am having a hard time completely forgiving him for sm of the things he did during this months-long emotional/mental/substance-abusive bender. I want to believe it was truly the addiction & emotional distress talking, not him, but I am still losing sleep over it, & hating myself at the same time bc I remember the hurtful things I said & did when I was going thru that shit myself.
Glad he is getting help. I have a friend (well, I'm in love with him but just a friend now)who needs help and I wish he would get it. He served in the army for several years. People with addictions need help, otherwise they hurt themselves and others, even if it's emotionally.
amberlly
10-07-2014, 03:54 AM
Sometimes I just want to date a big cuddly guy to drive me places and openly adore me. No brains or good looks required. Just compliment me lots and sit through movies I like.
SimoneGray
10-07-2014, 03:57 AM
^^ I confess I want this too sometimes...sigh. Ok, a lot lately. One of my GFE cam regs is like this, its been very hard for me to not latch on to him. Thankfully I haven't, but yeah, its tough out here lol
AlenaRoza
10-07-2014, 07:29 AM
Outside the club I cannot make eye contact with strangers. At all. Only a little with like cashiers maybe. I can't look at people in the grocery store, I can't look at people in other cars stopped next to me, I can't even look at people when I'm drunk at the bar. It's really no problem at work so this makes no sense.
Omg, the mall kiosks with the salespeople.. My worst fear. I ALWAYS have my sister walk on the side closest to them and make her say "no thanks" while I look the other way. One time I was walking around with a dude (first few times we'd hung out) and we were at the mall and I could see them ready to attack so I run into forever21 (I RAN!!) acting like I might wanna shop there and walked out literally 4 seconds -not even 5- later because that store is awful, I couldn't even fake it lol, and he TOTALLY called me out on running from the kiosk people lol! I was so embarrassed. I get all flustered in those situations and temporarily lose my mind & everything kinda goes by in flashes (dramatic I know)
Besides those worst people on earth (to me), even the thought of initiating a smile to a regular old pedestrian freaks me the fuck out. I always smile back if I see you smiling at me but I just could never do it first, because the world might end if you don't smile back. Or something.
Yesterday I was having a conversation with my probation officer (more like listening) and I was looking at him directly in the EYE, and it was burning my eyes to do so, then I realized I was only staring at the one eye and freaked out thinking "omg he knows I'm only looking at the one eyeball" then my eyes darted above his head, then out the window, then painfully back at the eye.
Ugh. Lol
lol1337a
10-07-2014, 08:36 AM
Sometimes I just want to date a big cuddly guy to drive me places and openly adore me. No brains or good looks required. Just compliment me lots and sit through movies I like.
My big cuddly guy does have plenty of brains and good looks, but he adores me like that and it's the best. Bodies are never why I fall in love, but I've never felt so small and safe and precious in anyone's arms but his. I'll warn you that people can be insanely rude if you date someone who's overweight when you're not, even the last people you'd expect it of. I've told so many people off over comments like, "Wow, he's a really handsome guy, I bet there's a great body hiding under there too," "Why is he big? Is it metabolism or how much he eats?," "He's big, but he's not like, a REAL fat person!" and the worst, "What's it like fucking a guy with a belly?" Exactly the goddamn same! He's better in bed than anyone I've been with, but the belly is not what I'm noticing during sex, lol.
I let a customer get to me this weekend, he made me so made I was shaking. He tried fingering me during a lap dance and when I tried to get up and tell him no he held me there and forced his finger in me. So I had to yell for someone to help and he let me go, when he did I punched him twice and told the manager who walked by right after the punch that he tried raping me. I was literally shaking, and hate so much that a customer can get to me like that. Oh what made it even worse was the fact that he shorted me on the dances, the little fucker only gave me 50$ and owed 120! I get so freaking mad when people cross my boundaries and then short me on $$ I could literally kill them.lbvs.
Selina M
10-07-2014, 10:07 AM
Alena, I hate those kiosk people too! They are SO obnoxious. The ones here are mostly guys and they call me "sweetheart" and "hon" and I haaaaate it. They are especially bad at the "poor" mall here (which is unfortunately where I like to go because it's got 3x as many stores as the other malls). It's almost worth it to drive down to the snobby rich people's mall because not once has a kiosk dude bothered me there.
Aniela
10-07-2014, 11:13 AM
I let a customer get to me this weekend, he made me so made I was shaking. He tried fingering me during a lap dance and when I tried to get up and tell him no he held me there and forced his finger in me. So I had to yell for someone to help and he let me go, when he did I punched him twice and told the manager who walked by right after the punch that he tried raping me. I was literally shaking, and hate so much that a customer can get to me like that. Oh what made it even worse was the fact that he shorted me on the dances, the little fucker only gave me 50$ and owed 120! I get so freaking mad when people cross my boundaries and then short me on $$ I could literally kill them.lbvs.
I am really sry that happened to you! My last suspension from a club was bc of smtg similar. A guy held me on his lap & forced his fingers into me. I boxed his ears so hard he bled, I may have ruptured his eardrum -- & the mgr had the nerve to demand that I give him a refund bc he was a regular who spent BIG. I absolutely could have killed both of them, that's the real reason I dressed in record time & left immediately, w/o giving back the $$, bc I was in real danger of going to jail for murder. Don't hate yourself for 'letting them get to you' you're having a perfectly logical reaction to being violated! Just do what you need to do to take care of yourself. Were you at least able to get the little POS banned?
audrey_k
10-07-2014, 12:08 PM
Ever since the guy I've been dating for the last two months decided to make things official between us, he has become the model boyfriend... from spending his lunch hour going to the apple store getting a new charger for me, to being incredibly sweet 24/7, taking me wherever I want to go and paying for everything, cooking for me after I've been working all day, being OK with me escorting for one more month even though I can tell it's incredibly upsetting to him... and it makes me so nervous. I feel uncomfortable being with someone who treats me so well and is so nice, I'm not used to guys being like this, I feel like there's no way someone can possibly be this nice and I'm afraid to really become close to him in fear of him leaving, I almost prefer guys who are dicks because then if they leave I can look back on it and say "well it was for the best."
I have a really healthy view on relationships. ::)
Vyanka
10-07-2014, 01:07 PM
I let a customer get to me this weekend, he made me so made I was shaking. He tried fingering me during a lap dance and when I tried to get up and tell him no he held me there and forced his finger in me. So I had to yell for someone to help and he let me go, when he did I punched him twice and told the manager who walked by right after the punch that he tried raping me. I was literally shaking, and hate so much that a customer can get to me like that. Oh what made it even worse was the fact that he shorted me on the dances, the little fucker only gave me 50$ and owed 120! I get so freaking mad when people cross my boundaries and then short me on $$ I could literally kill them.lbvs.
I'm so sorry. That's awful!. I had a customer once try to do the same thing to me. Like he held my arm hard for me not to get away, but I did thankfully. This was out in the open main floor too! I ran to the bouncer and manager and the asshole manager gave him a warning, instead of kicking him out.
Did that asshole get kicked out? At least you punched him. I was too in shock to even punch that guy in the face.
Jay12
10-07-2014, 01:43 PM
When I go out with my kid and my husband, I feel much better about myself when I see other women with kids around the same age as my son. I'm not super model hot (I was at one point), but look quite decent compared to many: I don't have a "mommy pouch", my tits still project farther than my tummy, my stretch marks had blended with my skin, and I only have one chin. I am trying to do much better, although a myriad of mental issues and some old injuries make it hard. At least my metabolism is not horrible, and that had helped me a lot.
There are, obviously, a few who do look better but the number of those who look worse is much higher.
Sometimes I just want to date a big cuddly guy to drive me places and openly adore me. No brains or good looks required. Just compliment me lots and sit through movies I like.
You know, I should had never let go of a guy I knew who was kinda like that: was all over me, always complimented me, was eager to show his love for me everywhere. He looked quite average but was "big and cuddly".
My current man only compliments me when we're doing it and considers things like "holding hands" and "kisses on the cheeks" PDA.
wednesday86
10-07-2014, 02:00 PM
Had the most mind blowing sex with my husband last night.....twice. I was like "Oh yeah, that's why I married you!"
Needless to say, things have been better between us.
michele11
10-07-2014, 04:33 PM
:hug:
I let a customer get to me this weekend, he made me so made I was shaking. He tried fingering me during a lap dance and when I tried to get up and tell him no he held me there and forced his finger in me. So I had to yell for someone to help and he let me go, when he did I punched him twice and told the manager who walked by right after the punch that he tried raping me. I was literally shaking, and hate so much that a customer can get to me like that. Oh what made it even worse was the fact that he shorted me on the dances, the little fucker only gave me 50$ and owed 120! I get so freaking mad when people cross my boundaries and then short me on $$ I could literally kill them.lbvs.
I will come there and we can torture him! Sorry hun:hug:
I am really sry that happened to you! My last suspension from a club was bc of smtg similar. A guy held me on his lap & forced his fingers into me. I boxed his ears so hard he bled, I may have ruptured his eardrum -- & the mgr had the nerve to demand that I give him a refund bc he was a regular who spent BIG. I absolutely could have killed both of them, that's the real reason I dressed in record time & left immediately, w/o giving back the $$, bc I was in real danger of going to jail for murder. Don't hate yourself for 'letting them get to you' you're having a perfectly logical reaction to being violated! Just do what you need to do to take care of yourself. Were you at least able to get the little POS banned?
I think he is banned, idk for sure as the manager (who I love, he's so nice) didn't tell me but he called the police on him and asked if I wanted to file a report.lol. I said no cause I was drunk and was making money so I didn't wanna bring more attention to my drinking so I could get a dui leaving and plus didn't want problems for the club cause I really like them. If he had actually raped me tho, I would've absolutely filed a report. Wow, u really hit him hard to make him bleed, that great!!lmao!
@michelle11, thanks <3
I am really sry that happened to you! My last suspension from a club was bc of smtg similar. A guy held me on his lap & forced his fingers into me. I boxed his ears so hard he bled, I may have ruptured his eardrum -- & the mgr had the nerve to demand that I give him a refund bc he was a regular who spent BIG. I absolutely could have killed both of them, that's the real reason I dressed in record time & left immediately, w/o giving back the $$, bc I was in real danger of going to jail for murder. Don't hate yourself for 'letting them get to you' you're having a perfectly logical reaction to being violated! Just do what you need to do to take care of yourself. Were you at least able to get the little POS banned?
I think he is banned, idk for sure as the manager (who I love, he's so nice) didn't tell me but he called the police on him and asked if I wanted to file a report.lol. I said no cause I was drunk and was making money so I didn't wanna bring more attention to my drinking so I could get a dui leaving and plus didn't want problems for the club cause I really like them. If he had actually raped me tho, I would've absolutely filed a report. Wow, u really hit him hard to make him bleed, that great!!lmao!
@michelle11, thanks <3
wednesday86
10-07-2014, 08:44 PM
Sometimes I just want to date a big cuddly guy to drive me places and openly adore me. No brains or good looks required. Just compliment me lots and sit through movies I like.
I have this (most of the time) with my husband, except that he's really cute and sexy. I need to stop taking him for granted. I'm working on it.
Kellydancer
10-07-2014, 09:24 PM
Ava, sorry to read that. I am glad you are fine. Sexual assaults suck, I had one at a club I danced at and I am still angry the owner let that shit go on.
amberlly
10-07-2014, 10:46 PM
I just want to scream. Loudly. Until I lose my voice.
Selina M
10-07-2014, 11:17 PM
Charlie, if this is too pointed, please edit :)
I confess that I think a lot of the girls on here have many of the stereotypical "stripper issues"... And then they try to project their issues onto other girls.
I'm watching yet another thread derail into this nonsense. Half the time they don't even answer the initial question or issue, they just ramble on about their own shitty story.
I'm staying out of the non-stripping forums except this thread. I'm all for blunt advice, but the nasty comments and know-it-all attitudes are just out of hand.
audrey_k
10-08-2014, 04:50 PM
I hate my job. I feel completely stressed and trapped and anxious with work right now.
charlie61
10-08-2014, 08:05 PM
Charlie, if this is too pointed, please edit :)
I hear your frustration - we've all started threads that didn't end up going where we wanted them to go. Just remember that this is a public forum where we try to avoid censoring (as moderators). If you feel that a thread you've started is being derailed, or if you feel disrespected, or if you feel like someone is trying to start drama with you, report those posts! If the posts you report aren't being removed, it's because we've decided that they should stay there.
Otherwise, just roll your eyes and move on. I do it all the time. This is a real-live shot of me reading SW on a typical day:
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Selina M
10-08-2014, 11:39 PM
Oh, it went where I wanted it to go at first. Ironically enough it was after I figured the thread had run its course that a couple posters came in and went a little nuts.
I don't bother reporting unless they are outright attacking me or something though :) I think some people forget just how rude they come off, because it is the internet, so I give them the benefit of the doubt.
SweetJulia
10-08-2014, 11:54 PM
I'm so behind on my reading for school for my less interesting class. Plus, I have to sit through four hours of it later today. Probably on no sleep and after a joint or two. This oughta be interesting....................
wednesday86
10-09-2014, 06:42 AM
My husband took me out to dinner last night. We got all dressed up and everything and I accidentally got drunk on sake. He spent all night talking about the first time we met and how beautiful I am. <3 I'm glad things are getting better between us and he's making an effort. I really hope the move to Wisconsin works out.
On the flip side I haven't heard from my regular in 3days (I messaged him last). He said he was going to come in tonight, but I'm not holding my breath. The fact that he blew me off last week was a turn off, but maybe I needed it to bring me back to reality.