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pixierocksonthepole
07-18-2010, 03:20 PM
I'm currently being accused of something I didn't do to my male friend. His girlfriend is accusing other girls of saying things to him and while I cannot speak for the others I can speak for me. I'm irritated by it and I have a feeling she is going to make some bullshit up. I'm sure she has good intentions with him but she is going about it all wrong accusing his closest friends of shit they didn't do. She already threatened another girl and I'm waiting to get the same thing because the second I do...I'm pressing charges. I'm not putting up with it. And to be honest I don't care if she is pregnant and gets in trouble for it. I did nothing wrong. And I refuse to be made a fool of because of her own insecurities.

mandy216
07-18-2010, 04:52 PM
My family spread my mothers ashes in the lake today and i feel guilty because I felt nothing but mild relief that this whole ordeal is over. I feel guilty because most people would miss their mom and I just feel like a giant weight has been lifted off me.

Harleigh HellKat
07-19-2010, 11:25 AM
My confession of the day: I don't like working out around other people. I literally almost can't do it. Why? Because I was made fun of all through high school/elementary for being awkward or running funny or being bad at sports. I literally STILL have issues from playground bullies. Bullies are the reason I dropped out of high school. I seriously have very little memories of high school because I blocked everything out. The fact that I can act on camera or dance on stage is a miracle... add to that the fact that my mom thought modeling was perverted and evil and threw away my modeling outfits, and the fact that I had an abusive ex who was so jealous of my modeling he literally made me destroy my portfolio, and I'm lucky to be a model/dancer at all.

Pure
07-19-2010, 11:39 AM
Money is tight in my household right now and we are basically forgoing all of the pleasures we used to enjoy. Yesterday I got fed up and before work I stopped into a high end restaurant I've never been too and treAted my self to a dinner of Chilean sea bass and rock shrimp risotto with a glass of reisling. My bill with tip and tax was 70$. My husband was at home eating hot dogs for dinner. I felt really bad.... Thank goodness I had a good night last night, I would have felt even worse

Harleigh HellKat
07-19-2010, 11:43 AM
Sometimes I do things like this... I'd go crazy if I didn't treat myself every now and then. Most of the time it's hot dogs and mac n cheese for us, but if I do a shoot or something and I have extra money I'm treating myself to one nice thing.

pixierocksonthepole
07-19-2010, 12:45 PM
I love watching from the front row when Karma smacks people in the face. As I witnessed today. Love it. That's what you get for treating my husband and I like dirt and acting like you are better than everyone else. Got what you deserved.

Kellydancer
07-19-2010, 02:02 PM
I started going to church again as a way to show God that I am serious about what I promised: that if I get a decent job and the one I love I'll attend church more frequently. I promised God (or rather St Jude since it's easier to pray to saints) that if I marry the man I love we'll get married in a Catholic ceremony and that if I receive a job I'll make a charitable donation (I said animal rescue groups but could be anything). Church is making me feel better but so far neither has come true. I am fearful that in fact neither wish will come true and it'll question my beliefs. Of course it also begs the question of why does bad things happen to good people? I am a good person, always there to help people and people like me. My mother says to give it time, both might happen in a few weeks, but what if they never do? What if I never marry him or get a decent job, then what? I don't want to be an unemployed spinster and that is my biggest fear. Spinsters tend to be butt ugly women who couldn't get anyone and I don't want to be in that category. Jobwise, I know the economy is bad, but I am seeing people unemployed shorter than me getting jobs.

sananeko
07-19-2010, 08:12 PM
I want a snake.. I have no idea why this has come up again but I really want a freaking snake.. I just love how they move, color, and strength. I know my family would hate to have one but I know its going to be a while before I get one. I might scratch that.. having a snake means no thief/s will come into my room. I'm starting to want the snake more...

_Avery_
07-19-2010, 08:40 PM
Delete.

Harleigh HellKat
07-19-2010, 08:43 PM
I frequently type out what I really wanna say and then delete it.

I lay in bed at night and plan my outfit for the next day.

I lay in bed at night and think about stuff I need to do. It drives me nuts. Then in the morning I completely forget what I couldn't stop thinking about.

I can't stand this stupid fucking small town and miss so much the "city life".
. :D

I can relate to these things. I have racing thoughts at night and find it hard to go to sleep before a big event or after a night at the strip club. So I'm often really tired when I have events to go to. :(

I can't stand the small town either, it really wears on me.

charlie61
07-19-2010, 08:48 PM
I hate living next door to our landlords.



We live above our landlords. >:( NEVER. AGAIN.

Harleigh HellKat
07-19-2010, 08:50 PM
Ooooh yeah upstairs from landlords=not fun I'm sure. They probably know every time you guys have a party/get together, or hell open the fridge! You can hear everything in a downstairs apt!

charlie61
07-19-2010, 08:54 PM
Ooooh yeah upstairs from landlords=not fun I'm sure. They probably know every time you guys have a party/get together, or hell open the fridge! You can hear everything in a downstairs apt!

Actually, they're the annoying ones! They've been doing construction on various parts of their/our apartment since we moved in. Yeah, electricians coming in at 7:00 am, workers busting through our walls to install a washer/dryer (that they ultimately decided to wait for the next tenants until they actually put the appliances in), etc.. etc. HELL.

Harleigh HellKat
07-19-2010, 08:56 PM
Well, that must suck!

carmen_b
07-19-2010, 11:31 PM
I confess that my hot fire fighter didn't schedule any weekends with me in July ( he has a kid, weekends require scheduling ) . I freaked out and he saw my dark side. I was just so hurt ( I was on a stripper trip and so very lonely, simply having something planned would have been nice even if it was weeks away ) . Anyway ... that whole " actions speak louder than words " thing ... I'm taking it seriously. I see I'm not a priority and have not called or anything. But ... I'm back to square one and spending my evenings alone sucks. I'm not sure if he meant to upset me .... but he expected me to just be put in a Tuesday - Friday 4p.m. - Midnight time slot with no time to go anywhere or do any over night trips or anything ? Someone tell me I'm not the asshole here and I did the right thing by moving on. July has 5 weekends for fucks sake.

I will also confess that I regret not getting the English guys number. 6'5'' and a hot english accent ? And he lives in my city ? I'm not sure what he was doing at this strip club in the middle of no where .... but yeah ... now I'm wishing I had that number.

fantasiarene
07-20-2010, 03:26 AM
I know I keep putting confessions out but I don't really have a best friend to talk to at the moment so here goes. I messaged the guy I've been datings brother on facebook. I asked his brother what my guy was like when he was younger and how my guy treated his exes. The reply I got back was asking if my account had been compromised and that he didn't know how or if he should reply to me.

Oh the other confession is I'm scared shitless to try and check out another club. I've gained weight so I'm afraid that they won't want me because of it. I'm working out but I'm having a hard time losing weight. I work at a black club and am one of maybe 6 white girls there. I don't make money there. I hate being the only white dancer. Waitressing there i don't make money either so I'm not a happy camper.

_Avery_
07-20-2010, 03:28 PM
I am the WORST cook ever! lmfao!
It's funny now, but I really just almost made my house catch on fire cooking burgers! omg....I need a personal chef..lol

_Avery_
07-20-2010, 03:29 PM
Delete.

_Avery_
07-20-2010, 03:30 PM
We live above our landlords. >:( NEVER. AGAIN.

OKAY! That is DEFINITELY worse than living next door! I'm sorry.

carmen_b
07-20-2010, 03:37 PM
Man. ... everyone is mad at me. My best friend is so hurt that I didn't agree to go on a cruise with her in Oct. I was already planning to go to Brazil with another friend . I don't know what to do ! I didn't give the Brazil trip a firm RSVP , so I could do this cruise, but I feel like she's baiting me into it ! I'm sort of scared that I'm not a "cruise " person and that I feel trapped doing such a packaged thing . I'm supposed to be paying off my credit card and the cruise is going to be like $300-$400 more than Brazil. She's been my friend for 10 years so I feel like I should just do it to make her happy BUT she has also proven DIFFICULT to travel with. She was a BITCH in Vegas a few months ago and I think I'm still mad about it. I don't want dramaz. I suppose I had made peace with the fact that we used to be excellent travel friends and now we are not excellent travel friends.

Harleigh HellKat
07-20-2010, 04:05 PM
^me too.

Jessie_tinydancer
07-20-2010, 06:02 PM
^awww your confession made me cry. I think I must be hormonal. But I agree too bad that feeling couldnt last forever.

malayataylor
07-20-2010, 11:32 PM
My confession for today: I had an appointment at 9:30 and was literally an hour late (long story) For some reason, I had so much going on in my head that I wouldn't stop thinking and this caused me to be late and also move very slow.

I left for the appointment AT 9:30 and half way there my GPS started acting funny on me. I called a very good friend of mine that gave me info on hotel mind you she's all the way in Florida (sw member) Yes I am very lucky to have her as a friend.

Well I got to my appointment and HE was very happy to see me. We hugged, Kissed, Talked about ME and then... I fell asleep. I was SO tired that I actually fell asleep during an appointment. I woke up two hours later (No joke). When I woke up he was staring at me. I asked him "what time is it?" He told me and I was mortified I felt so bad. I offered to stay an additional hour to make it up to him but he said "xxxx I've seen you 7 times before and you've never disappointed me and you didn't disappoint me today, It was a pleasure watching you sleep. I know you're a single mom and it's tough it's ok" I looked at him like "huh?" He handed me 1000 (was only supposed to be a one hour call $400) and told me he'd like to see me again when he's in town next week. I STILL FELT LIKE SHIT. I don't know what to think.

This guy was my first client ever when I started off as an independent. For him to say that tonight left me a bit confused but made me feel very special. This is one fuck up on my part that will never happen again. The mistake I made was not getting any rest before this appointment. I have learned my lesson and from now on will stick to more daytime requests (which is usually when I have most of my appointments). I still can't believe myself. Little Ms Perfectionist fucked up.

Harleigh HellKat
07-21-2010, 06:34 AM
Awww but hey, you're client sounds like a sweetheart! Bright side!

J.D.
07-21-2010, 07:12 AM
One of my friends was telling me yesterday how she gave her boyfriend a "clown smile". She said he went down on her during her period and came up looking like a clown smiling, looked like red paint all around his mouth. Sick!

Harleigh HellKat
07-21-2010, 07:16 AM
BLECK!!! Well, there goes my breakfast hahaha.

pixierocksonthepole
07-21-2010, 07:19 AM
While I'm aware that happens ^^^ I wouldn't want my friend to tell me the details lol. period or not really.

jennsweet
07-21-2010, 07:23 AM
thats fuckin gross...

malayataylor
07-21-2010, 07:48 AM
OMG was she happy about it or what? THAT'S FRIKKING GROSSSS


Awww but hey, you're client sounds like a sweetheart! Bright side!

He is. He's 72 and married. I was lucky it was him and not someone else I could have gotten a bad review.. ha! Then there goes my rep.. Dodged a bullet on that one.

jadenraine
07-21-2010, 07:55 AM
i feel too fat for everything and im hella jealous of petite girls i feel like if i was 100 pounds instead of 160 id make more money camming and i feel too fat to audition at a strip club even thought i really want to. also my husband is the sweetest kindest sexiest man alive but sometimes i wonder if im sexually attracted to him anymore because i think about cheating on him constantly and its an incredibly hot idea to me.

malayataylor
07-21-2010, 08:03 AM
i feel too fat for everything and im hella jealous of petite girls i feel like if i was 100 pounds instead of 160 id make more money camming and i feel too fat to audition at a strip club even thought i really want to. also my husband is the sweetest kindest sexiest man alive but sometimes i wonder if im sexually attracted to him anymore because i think about cheating on him constantly and its an incredibly hot idea to me.
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Hun 160 is not fat. Forget what anyone tells you. Go tone up if you're not already (I didn't say lose weight) and go audition at the club. I know bbws that bank dancing. Being skinny dosen't guarantee you more money. I say Go for it but Please don't cheat on your husband. Sounds like yall just need to talk :) He sounds like a sweet guy, I wish I had a hubby *sigh*

JayFo1987
07-21-2010, 10:17 AM
Sometimes I wish this person I work with would fall off the pole and die...just die.

jennsweet
07-21-2010, 01:32 PM
i feel too fat for everything and im hella jealous of petite girls i feel like if i was 100 pounds instead of 160 id make more money camming and i feel too fat to audition at a strip club even thought i really want to. also my husband is the sweetest kindest sexiest man alive but sometimes i wonder if im sexually attracted to him anymore because i think about cheating on him constantly and its an incredibly hot idea to me.

you only live once... i say do what you want!

_Avery_
07-21-2010, 03:40 PM
I can not stand the fucking porn ads on stripclublist. I hate going to that site, but yet, I still do. I TRY not to look at the ads, but OMFG...that sadistic anal ad...AHHH! :(

mandy216
07-21-2010, 05:04 PM
I'm normally totally loyal to the boyfriend but I met a girl last weekend i totally couldn't resist and made out with her like a horny highschooler in the bathroom of the bar we were at. i feel bad..and yet i think im gonna call her. i don't know, i mean he'd be pissed but it's an itch he just can't scratch.

_Avery_
07-21-2010, 05:10 PM
Sometimes I wish this person I work with would fall off the pole and die...just die.

:rotfl::rotfl:

Jessie_tinydancer
07-21-2010, 06:40 PM
Im soooo lazy. That is all.

Harleigh HellKat
07-21-2010, 08:38 PM
Today's confession... hmmm let's see. Oh! I changed my status on Model Mayhem and OMP to 'paid shoots only'!! From now on I'll only be doing TF work with selected photogs!

It's a big step for me... I'm glad that one of my fave photogs suggested it. I was going to do it soon anyway but I'm glad he feels my portfolio is ready for paying shoots.

charlie61
07-21-2010, 09:08 PM
^ Congrats girl! From what I've seen of your photos, you look like you've been pulling in the $$$ for years!

jennsweet
07-21-2010, 10:04 PM
I wish relationships would feel like they were in the beginning, all the time. :(

I loved the way my guy used to look at me... like he was infatuated and would literally do anything for me. And that he didn't care what others thought about us. And loved so deeply and so freely without anything to disillusion him about us.

*Sigh*
me and my baby still have this... and i cherish it. after almost 6 years he can still tell me (sincerely) how beautiful i am and how he still feels the love/lust for me. the sex just keeps getting better and i SO know he's the one:)

pixierocksonthepole
07-22-2010, 04:57 AM
Sometimes I wonder why the hell I had crushes on the idiots I crushed on back in high school/middle school. What the fuck was I thinking? o.0

J.D.
07-22-2010, 06:18 AM
I really can't stand that member on here, ********, the one who supposedly likes financial domination. He was sending me money via PayPal, and first of all A. he's a cheap bastard who only sends $50 or $100 at a time, and B. he's a psycho nut job who one minute loves me, and the next blocks me and tells me really mean things. I just sent him an email telling him to fuck off and to never contact me again. Can you imagine finding out your BF is sending girls money online and into male chastity belts? He lives with his girlfriend and she has no idea. Not to mention he's one of the ugliest people I've ever seen, seriously he looks like a fetal pig. He tries to talk about his dick size with me, and I honestly gag and want to throw up. He's the epitome of guys I hate.

malayataylor
07-22-2010, 06:20 AM
^ L M F A O... J.D you are really a mess girl! I feel you! I had a guy send me $350 one time and went psycho on me talking about he can't do this again and how I just want him for his money. WTF? duhhhhhhh! It's called Financial Slavery! ugh!

malayataylor
07-22-2010, 06:26 AM
My confession today : I have 2 one hour appointments today totalling in $800 and I'm not going to go. I just don't feel like being bothered today. I just want to stay home with my daughter and enjoy my home today and that's what I'm going to do. Being in the business I am in I get to pick and choose when I want to work and whom I want to see and I rarely do that because I'm such a greedy bitch but today oh no I am staying home and just going to enjoy life. Fuck the money as a matter of fact I'm taking the rest of the week off.

My second confession: I have a great paying job but I think I'm starting to get bored with it I want a change.. I think I want to give dancing a try again. Not necessarily for the money because from what I hear dancers don't make shit nowadays but for the social interaction. I really need to start mingling and meeting people. I also want more girlfriends. I have like 3 I love em but damn I could use more friends!

J.D.
07-22-2010, 06:31 AM
^ L M F A O... J.D you are really a mess girl! I feel you! I had a guy send me $350 one time and went psycho on me talking about he can't do this again and how I just want him for his money. WTF? duhhhhhhh! It's called Financial Slavery! ugh!

It's not worth it sometimes to go round and round with these guys playing mind games. It sucks the life out of me. He is seriously disgusting, thinking about his face, and he would send me messages talking about how we would look so good together, yeah right!

malayataylor
07-22-2010, 07:05 AM
I have another confession: I'm really SICK of my sister. I've had it up to here with her.
Two months ago, She started bitching at me for being so secretive about what I did for a living. I have invited my sister to my home twice and she makes up excuses about why she can't make it. She had made it clear that she does not support what I do (She thinks I'm a dancer) meanwhile My cousin in Hawaii is a dancer and my sister pretty much praises her.. but if I do it, it's a fucking problem.

My sister lives with her boyfriend of 6 years. They live together and have a beautiful boy together (I LOOOVE my nephew and spoil him every chance I get) BUT I really believe that she's not happy and feels "stuck" being in the situation that she's in (She has expressed this to me once before). The final straw was when she yelled at me calling me "Trash" and telling me to "Fuck off" and to continue "Living my Celebrity life" and living in my "Hollywood home"??? SHE'S NEVER EVEN BEEN TO MY HOME and She going on what she heard! Those stupid comments led me to believe that she's jealous of me and I told her that I will be distancing myself from her.

After all that it took us two months to start talking again. We've been talking for not even a week now and today she writes me on facebook that she needs $150. WTF?!

I thought my money was "dirty" money and it's not good enough for her. She lives with her son's dad and I'm a single mom, I do everything myself why can't she? I'm just tired of her trying to use me! I'm so sick of it! I told her I'd think about it but the real answer is NO. I'm so sick of her!

carmen_b
07-22-2010, 03:05 PM
I slept in and then it was a clusterfuck to get out of town. Now instead of the luxurious club .... I get to work in the ugly club ( the prettier one is just too far to make it tonight ) . Oh well. I'm not feeling particularly " high end " today .... so maybe tomorrow. Once I'm officially on the road again I tend to feel better. Oh ... who am I kidding ..... I'll probably get lazy and just work the ugly non-lux club all weekend . ;(

sananeko
07-22-2010, 03:27 PM
I hate group projects.. I hate being forced into group projects.. I'm going to kick someone ass if I even get offered to do a group project..

princessjas
07-22-2010, 05:25 PM
I'm thinking of dying my hair red again. I'm soooo bored with the blonde! I'm afraid I'll haaaate it though (I was red for years though, so dunno why I'm hesitating.)

I'm also considering getting a tatoo. I've wanted a ying yang on my lower back since I was 17. As soon as I had the money saved up though, tramp stamps started popping up everywhere and I think it's lame as hell to do something that everydamn body else is doing, so I took a pass. I'd also had my navel pierced the year before and was the only person in my whole dorm that had it done, but within a year, every farkin body had it done. BOO! On one hand I think tat's are lame as hell....but that's just because nearly everyone I know with them acts like it makes then all unique and badass, when probably 90% of peeps have em. I just want it to be cute and because I love ying-yang's. Wow, the things I ponder. ;D

sananeko
07-22-2010, 07:06 PM
I'm thinking of dying my hair red again. I'm soooo bored with the blonde! I'm afraid I'll haaaate it though (I was red for years though, so dunno why I'm hesitating.)

I'm also considering getting a tatoo. I've wanted a ying yang on my lower back since I was 17. As soon as I had the money saved up though, tramp stamps started popping up everywhere and I think it's lame as hell to do something that everydamn body else is doing, so I took a pass. I'd also had my navel pierced the year before and was the only person in my whole dorm that had it done, but within a year, every farkin body had it done. BOO! On one hand I think tat's are lame as hell....but that's just because nearly everyone I know with them acts like it makes then all unique and badass, when probably 90% of peeps have em. I just want it to be cute and because I love ying-yang's. Wow, the things I ponder. ;D
I have a tattoo but I didn't get it to make myself unique, I find the body to be a blank canvas for people to make their story, not something pretty..