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chanzep
12-04-2014, 07:28 PM
I think you should try to dance when your there, dancing in the US is great, you gotta try with your new boobs.

whirlerz
12-04-2014, 07:36 PM
I've been online for hoursss, trying to find dancer shoes @ a decent price & everything's sold out

lynn2009
12-04-2014, 07:38 PM
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amberlly
12-05-2014, 12:52 AM
@Audrey - could you just speak to your old club? Your new assets and time would likely heal any wounds.

I left a place on bad terms and they took me back no issues a year later.

I have been eating way cleaner lately but I still struggle with the urge daily to eat processed junk. I sometimes go to the shops to stare at the specials and rationalise why I can't just buy and hoard it all.

SweetJulia
12-05-2014, 09:30 AM
I've been spending like 300 a week shopping and feel guilty, even though I make really good money.

audrey_k
12-05-2014, 11:47 AM
^I always seem to spend more money when I'm not working? It's like I'm bored and doing nothing so... why not spend money, but when I'm working I'm too busy to spend it. I blew my weekly budget on an impulse buy from ASOS and Topshop... I feel like I should send it back so I have more money for xmas gifts.

I also asked my bf today if he could ever seen himself in the USA cause this weather is killing me. Miami sounds so good right now.

wednesday86
12-05-2014, 03:45 PM
I have begun looking at financing options for a mini tummy tuck..I don't think my "mummy tummy" is going anywhere. It's not too bad, just a little pooch and literally the only thing I don't like about my body. I don't care about having big boobs and my stretch marks and scars don't bother me. I am so white they're barely visible anyway. Last night a customer tried to embarrass me about my csection scar and I just shrugged it off like "yeah, I have a baby...and?" The joke's on him. He's fat, hairy, ugly and went home Alone! haha

amberlly
12-05-2014, 10:14 PM
Ugh I am looking at tummy lipo. I have fat on my tummy that won't budge despite diet, exercise and weight loss.

I had a client do the same thing - he told me I looked pregnant. I don't!!! Ugly fuck. Its their way of saying I like you. Social retards.

audrey_k
12-06-2014, 08:57 AM
I confess I feel a bit bad now for disliking my bf's female friend so much. She came over last night and I actually had a really good time with her and ended up talking to her for a couple hours while he sat in the corner. I feel much better now that I've spent significant time alone with her. I just wish we had done this sooner, it would have saved so many arguments.

DonaDiabla
12-07-2014, 04:50 AM
I am having dreams about licking chocolate off Josh Hutcherson's body. Damn you, Hunger Games :)

SimoneGray
12-07-2014, 05:01 AM
I confess I have been way off my game of late. I use tiredness as an excuse not to work and have let my eating go to shit :( its horrible. I need that spark back so that I can get back to making good money.

amberlly
12-07-2014, 05:15 AM
I have an exam tomorrow. I have been stressing over it for a month. I hate academia.

SamanthaSugar
12-08-2014, 12:57 AM
Even though I'm the one that wanted out of the relationship I miss my ex terribly ��.
I seem to just not have chemistry with anyone that I have dated and I'm starting to feel hopeless that I'll never find that spark again. I yearn to have that feeling so bad again, I want to be excited about someone.

Aniela
12-08-2014, 07:42 AM
I woke up this morning feeling depressed, & that 'Say smtg I'm giving up on you' song stuck in my head. I usually have one or two random earworms going first thing every morning but this is really bothering me. I think it's bc I am pretty close to finishing my ex's xmas quilt but afraid he will reject it & me along w/ it.

Tsepmet1
12-08-2014, 07:52 AM
I found a beautiful apartment. Loft bedroom, exposed brick, 18ft ceilings, huge southern facing windows, a water view. I love it, my husband loves it, it's in a great neighborhood... Then we saw the rent price.

We both looked at each other with the realization that this is why we're poor. LOL

LaurenAus
12-08-2014, 08:06 AM
getting a rhinoplasty at the end of the month. SOoo excited--I've only been wanting this since I was 14. Preops in two days :D

michele11
12-08-2014, 08:27 AM
I woke up this morning feeling depressed, & that 'Say smtg I'm giving up on you' song stuck in my head. I usually have one or two random earworms going first thing every morning but this is really bothering me. I think it's bc I am pretty close to finishing my ex's xmas quilt but afraid he will reject it & me along w/ it.

I hear songs in my head constantly when I lay down. It's really bad when I get depression. I was going to start a thread about it but was embarassed. Is this something that happens? I'm sure he'll be happy you took the time to make him a gift but I don't know him like you do but he's an ass if he doesn't appreciate that because it takes a lot of time and thought more so than just buying him something.:)

ava$
12-08-2014, 02:41 PM
I am trying to quit taking aderall so much, I usually take it daily except weekends when I work so I get lots done, today I took none and I just don't have any direction. LIke I just don't know how to take care of life and do the things that need to get done without it. UGH, really annoying!

michele11
12-08-2014, 03:39 PM
I am trying to quit taking aderall so much, I usually take it daily except weekends when I work so I get lots done, today I took none and I just don't have any direction. LIke I just don't know how to take care of life and do the things that need to get done without it. UGH, really annoying!

We are so sisters from another mother. lol.

SnuffleUffleGrass
12-08-2014, 03:53 PM
I woke up this morning feeling depressed, & that 'Say smtg I'm giving up on you' song stuck in my head. I usually have one or two random earworms going first thing every morning but this is really bothering me. I think it's bc I am pretty close to finishing my ex's xmas quilt but afraid he will reject it & me along w/ it.

My brain works like this too- all my life I have had perfect recall of songs that randomly start playing in my head. Not a really useful thing but it makes life pleasant.

My confession- for the past few weeks I've been debating whether I should finally finish a University degree or just forge ahead into self-employment ventures with 100 percent of my energy. I hate to say it but the student loan debacle has given me so little confidence in blowing a load of money on a degree. ugh.

audrey_k
12-08-2014, 05:47 PM
My boyfriend and I just had our first huge fight.

Am really not happy with him right now and the way things have been the past few weeks for a number of different issues. I love him but he is frustrating the hell out of me right now. I am happier being with him in a lot of ways but I'm really starting to miss some of the things that went along with my job.

charlie61
12-08-2014, 07:04 PM
My brain works like this too- all my life I have had perfect recall of songs that randomly start playing in my head. Not a really useful thing but it makes life pleasant.

My confession- for the past few weeks I've been debating whether I should finally finish a University degree or just forge ahead into self-employment ventures with 100 percent of my energy. I hate to say it but the student loan debacle has given me so little confidence in blowing a load of money on a degree. ugh.

I found some threads that might be useful to you. Or they might not (it sounds like you aren't thinking about staying in the sex industry - you'll be starting a business?). But they might be useful for other people, too. :)

https://www.stripperweb.com/forum/showthread.php?192291-School-or-Stripping
https://www.stripperweb.com/forum/showthread.php?173441-Wasting-my-college-degree
https://www.stripperweb.com/forum/showthread.php?195778-Is-a-college-degree-worth-the-cost
https://www.stripperweb.com/forum/showthread.php?174454-career-stripping-vs-finishing-college
https://www.stripperweb.com/forum/showthread.php?159358-The-Stripping-School-Support-Thread

amberlly
12-09-2014, 04:49 AM
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Elektra Luxx
12-09-2014, 07:44 AM
I am trying to quit taking aderall so much, I usually take it daily except weekends when I work so I get lots done, today I took none and I just don't have any direction. LIke I just don't know how to take care of life and do the things that need to get done without it. UGH, really annoying!

I have ADD and I can't function without Vyvanse (it works like Adderall) and when it starts wearing off I take a 10 mg d-amphetamine. Without them i'm unfocused, unmotivated and my life is a general mess. Why do you feel the need to quit Adderall? When I started elementary school, I remember not being able to concentrate long enough to read or do homework. My parents took me to a doctor and I was diagnosed with ADD. After I began taking meds, I was a better student.

ava$
12-09-2014, 09:58 AM
I have ADD and I can't function without Vyvanse (it works like Adderall) and when it starts wearing off I take a 10 mg d-amphetamine. Without them i'm unfocused, unmotivated and my life is a general mess. Why do you feel the need to quit Adderall? When I started elementary school, I remember not being able to concentrate long enough to read or do homework. My parents took me to a doctor and I was diagnosed with ADD. After I began taking meds, I was a better student.

Ive never heard of that medication but Ive tried straterra and ritalin, the straterra made my stomach hurt and I couldn't concentrate and the ritalin just made me stare at a wall really unfocused so the adderall was the only thing I could take and it made me able to concentrate and get good grades as a kid and now as an adult I keep my life together while on it but I just don't want to need pills. I feel like something in it has got to be unhealthy cause its not a natural substance or anything so I just wanted to not need it is all. I see I do need it tho if I plan to get anything done on a daily basis. The d-amphetamine is adderall, right? Maybe I should try this vyvanse stuff, does it give u any bad side effects? Adderall makes me grit my teeth too much and makes me irritated if I take too much and its wearing off, I hate those side effects. Otherwise its great cause I don't wanna eat and can get stuff done.

ava$
12-09-2014, 09:59 AM
I have ADD and I can't function without Vyvanse (it works like Adderall) and when it starts wearing off I take a 10 mg d-amphetamine. Without them i'm unfocused, unmotivated and my life is a general mess. Why do you feel the need to quit Adderall? When I started elementary school, I remember not being able to concentrate long enough to read or do homework. My parents took me to a doctor and I was diagnosed with ADD. After I began taking meds, I was a better student.

Ive never heard of that medication but Ive tried straterra and ritalin, the straterra made my stomach hurt and I couldn't concentrate and the ritalin just made me stare at a wall really unfocused so the adderall was the only thing I could take and it made me able to concentrate and get good grades as a kid and now as an adult I keep my life together while on it but I just don't want to need pills. I feel like something in it has got to be unhealthy cause its not a natural substance or anything so I just wanted to not need it is all. I see I do need it tho if I plan to get anything done on a daily basis. The d-amphetamine is adderall, right? Maybe I should try this vyvanse stuff, does it give u any bad side effects? Adderall makes me grit my teeth too much and makes me irritated if I take too much and its wearing off, I hate those side effects. Otherwise its great cause I don't wanna eat and can get stuff done.

michele11
12-09-2014, 10:49 AM
^ Yep. My gf said she took adderall for 2 years and it aged her 10 years. It's an amphetamine and super hard on your body. I have to take it when I work( that's the only time i take it except after i get home because I can't get up) and I take it for 8 days and it takes me a month to feel normal after. Your body , also builds such a high tollerance to it. Even if I take 7 weeks off and I take it 2 days it doesn't work as well.

michele11
12-09-2014, 10:58 AM
I hid all my extension hair and that fucker ( my kitten) found some and he's running around with it. I admit, I've now become obsessed with getting more Persians. I love him but he is too self reliant and aloof. I miss my little blue girl. I was up til 5 looking at persians and I see 3 black and white bicolors that look just like one I had years ago. I call the lady and they are the line of my balck and white and blue. My old breeder died( I knew it, I had a feeling). I spoke to her 6 months before she died right after my blue girl died. Her cats are sooo sweet. so I know if i get one it will be more like the persians i'm use to. 900. I just spent 800 on my boy and 600 in shots and neutering. I'm also looking at another one. Their like 2 hour drive so I better make sure I'm not just obsessing and really want another.

ava$
12-09-2014, 11:00 AM
^^ I feel like it might age u, IDK I been on it since I was 13 and Ive read different things some say it ages u and some say it anti ages u cause ur skin cells shed faster. I have no idea what it really does, I just assume it can be good cause its not natural is all. It would be nice not to need it but I so do, lol.

Elektra Luxx
12-09-2014, 03:10 PM
Ive never heard of that medication but Ive tried straterra and ritalin, the straterra made my stomach hurt and I couldn't concentrate and the ritalin just made me stare at a wall really unfocused so the adderall was the only thing I could take and it made me able to concentrate and get good grades as a kid and now as an adult I keep my life together while on it but I just don't want to need pills. I feel like something in it has got to be unhealthy cause its not a natural substance or anything so I just wanted to not need it is all. I see I do need it tho if I plan to get anything done on a daily basis. The d-amphetamine is adderall, right? Maybe I should try this vyvanse stuff, does it give u any bad side effects? Adderall makes me grit my teeth too much and makes me irritated if I take too much and its wearing off, I hate those side effects. Otherwise its great cause I don't wanna eat and can get stuff done.

I didn't find anything about Adderall aging a person, but I guess it might make some people feel that way. Here are some articles.

Drugs.com - Adderall
http://www.drugs.com/cdi/adderall.html

Adderall Withdrawal Symptoms: How Long Do They Last?
http://mentalhealthdaily.com/2014/05/01/adderall-withdrawal-symptoms-how-long-do-they-last/

10 Best Adderall Alternatives: Natural Remedies For ADHD
http://mentalhealthdaily.com/2014/03/22/10-best-adderall-alternatives-natural-remedies-for-adhd/

michele11
12-09-2014, 05:08 PM
^Yeah my gf said it dried her out bad? It does make you have dry mouth and can rot your teeth. I know it isn't the same as street meth but that ages the fuck outta people. I haven't noticed it age me but I think anti depressants did.

ava$
12-09-2014, 05:30 PM
^yep it does dry your mouth a lot.

whirlerz
12-09-2014, 05:37 PM
Well, I think a lot of meds dry you out, I know Benedryl does, but that's part of what it's supposed to do I guess..

I bought dark choc. mint marshmallows, & I have them out in my car so I won't eat them all..
Now I want some salty snacks but don't have any.

Aniela
12-09-2014, 06:29 PM
I bought dark choc. mint marshmallows, & I have them out in my car so I won't eat them all...

Ugh you are SO lucky I am on the east coast & don't know where you live, or I would :magnify: you down & hold you up for those yummylicious dark choc mint marshmallows!! :drool:

whirlerz
12-09-2014, 06:36 PM
Do you've Trader Joe's? That's where I got 'em :)..they have non-mint ones too!

Laylalust
12-09-2014, 08:00 PM
I love my bf and he is really good to me but some days...a lot of days I miss living alone SO much. I miss having my own place, I miss having it just be my stuff everywhere, I miss decorating without his crap that is of a different taste from mine. I mean, yes, I enjoy Nirvana as much as the next guy but is it necessary to have a large matted print of Kurt Cobain with angel wings? And why is it so hard to just hang up the hand towel in the bathroom after washing your hands instead of just dropping it on the counter? Do you HAVE to ask me about what I want for dinner every single day? I don't know! I don't care! Can I just not eat? Is that an option? Because I don't want fucking fast food or deli food or whatever the hell for the gazillionth time, which is making me cling to these extra six pounds. Does our entire existence HAVE to revolve around smoking bowls every spare moment? I'm tired of being in a fog all of the time, which is making me unproductive and depressed. It would be a lot easier to not do it if it wasn't around me all the damn time. And can we go one day without him losing his temper over every tiny irritation? It's exhausting to be around and I'm always tense, waiting for him to scream at the computer or his phone or technology in general or other drivers, etc. Ugh. I just need some space. He's been great to me, so I don't know why I'm complaining so hard but I think we spend too much time together and I need to separate a little bit. I wish I could move away.

michele11
12-09-2014, 08:21 PM
^ I use to love Fannie mays mint melt aways.

charlie61
12-09-2014, 08:35 PM
I confess that I'm scared about my move to the PNW. However, the one thing I'm more scared of than moving, is getting stuck where I am. I refuse to stagnate! :)

"...we're all motivated by two fears: the fear of failure and the fear of insignificance. We must consciously choose to fear insignificance more. Because only when we become terrified of wasting our potential and squandering our dreams - more terrified than we are of depleting our savings, say, or having to go without premium cable - will we dare to leave unfulfilling jobs and live boldly...You were meant to live a significant life." -Ben Arment in Dream Year

ScarletKitten
12-09-2014, 08:53 PM
^^Charlie, you are like my savior. That was EXACTLY what I needed to read. I'm scared to go audition at a new club tomorrow, but I'm completely broke, so I MUST go tomorrow. And tomorrow is my birthday, too. So I'll be a new girl at a new club on my birthday, and I'm nervous, but I need to be more fearful of stagnation than of being in a new environment. Thank you for posting that! You're an angel. :angel:

Elektra Luxx
12-09-2014, 11:10 PM
I bought an mini RC quadcopter for my brother from Amazon for $30 for Christmas. It's so cute and cool,I bought one for me too, but I will probably gift it also.

Ninelives
12-09-2014, 11:52 PM
^Yeah my gf said it dried her out bad? It does make you have dry mouth and can rot your teeth. I know it isn't the same as street meth but that ages the fuck outta people. I haven't noticed it age me but I think anti depressants did.

I guess it's a case by case basis, been on it 15 years and still get mistaken for 7 years younger! I frequently get asked how my hair is so thick and healthy as well. I think sun damage and smoking ages people the most. Also if someone gets dry mouth on adderall there's a good chance they are either not drinking enough water or taking too much. Building up a tolerance is a dead giveaway that the person never had ADD in the first place and is over using it. Been on the same dosage all 15 years after I was diagnosed by two psychs extensively.

Ninelives
12-09-2014, 11:52 PM
^Yeah my gf said it dried her out bad? It does make you have dry mouth and can rot your teeth. I know it isn't the same as street meth but that ages the fuck outta people. I haven't noticed it age me but I think anti depressants did.

I guess it's a case by case basis, been on it 15 years and still get mistaken for 7 years younger! I frequently get asked how my hair is so thick and healthy as well. I think sun damage and smoking ages people the most. Also if someone gets dry mouth on adderall there's a good chance they are either not drinking enough water or taking too much. Building up a tolerance is a dead giveaway that the person never had ADD in the first place and is over using it. Been on the same dosage all 15 years after I was diagnosed by two psychs extensively.

Vackra
12-09-2014, 11:55 PM
I just had some of the best sex ever... with my own husband. I swear every time gets better and better.

amberlly
12-10-2014, 12:10 AM
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OliveJardin
12-10-2014, 12:17 AM
I hid all my extension hair and that fucker ( my kitten) found some and he's running around with it.

^I laughed out loud at that. I cleaned my locker out (moved clubs) and my kitten thought I had bought him new toys :(.

wednesday86
12-10-2014, 09:18 AM
My husband and I got in a huge fight 2 days ago and I just feel like I've lost all respect for him now. All I did was ask him to help me do laundry, since we have to go to a ghetto Laundromat and we had a ton of laundry, and it takes me forever to do alone. He threw a huge fit saying that he "never gets to just stay home and relax." ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME BITCH? He only works 3 days a week most weeks and that's ALL he does. I'm thinking about just leaving him here when I move. He's becoming useless to me.

MyButter
12-10-2014, 09:38 AM
I'm so irritated right now. I'm really sick and my best friend who is moving to Japan next month is coming up to visit me tomorrow morning and will be staying for the weekend. I know she has a bunch of fun stuff planned, and it is literally the last time I'm going to see her for at least 3 years, but I am a coughing, achy, feverish mess right now and all I want to do is sleep.

michele11
12-10-2014, 12:45 PM
I guess it's a case by case basis, been on it 15 years and still get mistaken for 7 years younger! I frequently get asked how my hair is so thick and healthy as well. I think sun damage and smoking ages people the most. Also if someone gets dry mouth on adderall there's a good chance they are either not drinking enough water or taking too much. Building up a tolerance is a dead giveaway that the person never had ADD in the first place and is over using it. Been on the same dosage all 15 years after I was diagnosed by two psychs extensively.

I'm just saying what my gf said. Personally it has not aged me. I look 20 years younger then my age. I was just saying what she said it did to her.

michele11
12-10-2014, 12:54 PM
^I laughed out loud at that. I cleaned my locker out (moved clubs) and my kitten thought I had bought him new toys :(.

My mom gets mad I don't buy my cats toys but persians are weirdos and like to play with whatever isn't a toy. I bought him four ( cheap) toys to prove a point and he doesn't play with any. I feel bad I want another because he's too aloof. My daughter and everyone is guilting me saying" you didn't even name him forever, that's probably why he doean't come to you". Yeah like cats know that. And it's not my fault the breeder said he was a girl and I didn't know he was a boy for 2 months and no names fit him. I sat and watched the videos on youtube ( the breeder I'm going to look at kittens) had up for like 2 hours. Trying to figure out ( if I get one) which one since it's a 2 hour drive and I don't wanna have to go back like I did when I got him. I went teice for 5 hours( when I picked him out). The people I could tell were like just pick one and leave all ready. I never had two. Should i really do this? And I told my daughter when she moves out she can take Milan. Idk now I feel stupid but my OCD is obssesed with Persians and getting the right one now.

michele11
12-10-2014, 06:33 PM
^ His balls hadn't dropped. He had a health cert that said girl and when I took him to the vet the first time( she took his temp in his butt) no one said a thing. the very last time I brought him the vet told me. He was embarrased too. I was calling thepoor boy shauntal for crying out loud. But after they told me I sure saw his balls. Lol.