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lynn2009
12-24-2014, 07:13 PM
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Aniela
12-25-2014, 07:21 PM
I think the four dislocations I've had over the yrs did more dmg to my head than to my joints. We had Cornish hens for Xmas dinner & I was having sympathy pains for my little chicken as I twisted its limbs to take it apart :weeping: it was damn delicious tho …

SnuffleUffleGrass
12-26-2014, 11:48 AM
Due to some recent upheaval in my boyfriend's occupation (oil industry)....I might be returning to dancing. The weird part is, I hope it doesn't happen, but if his career is impacted badly by the oil market....he will need me to make almost as much as he does if we are to marry.

I know he doesn't want me to be a stripper anymore but I also know he doesn't want to retire in a trailer park in a rural state in the top half of the lower 48.

He's too sweet, he gave me 100 bucks to go shopping with but I'm going to put it away for now. Who knows how this new year is gonna go....

Tsepmet1
12-26-2014, 11:55 AM
Due to some recent upheaval in my boyfriend's occupation (oil industry)....I might be returning to dancing. The weird part is, I hope it doesn't happen, but if his career is impacted badly by the oil market....he will need me to make almost as much as he does if we are to marry.

I know he doesn't want me to be a stripper anymore but I also know he doesn't want to retire in a trailer park in a rural state in the top half of the lower 48.

He's too sweet, he gave me 100 bucks to go shopping with but I'm going to put it away for now. Who knows how this new year is gonna go....


I am in a very similar situation. My husband's company recently filed for bankruptcy. I began camming so that no matter where we need to go or what we need to do, I have a plan A (dancing) and a plan B (camming).

If for some reason he can't find a new job (if that's the way things end up, with him being laid off), then he will be camming with me and doing my marketing while he finds a new gig.

Hopefully it doesn't end up that way and he keeps his job, but always make sure that your bases are covered.

ava$
12-26-2014, 12:44 PM
My mum confronted me, finally, about getting my boobs done-- and it was such a surreal conversation. She got extremely sad and offended that I didn't think she would approve, and then the conversations turned to me explaining the difference between fillers and botox and why fillers would be a better solution for her problem, and telling her the quote she got from a plastic surgeon was ridiculous.

I feel perhaps I should have given her more credit, she has definitely become more open-minded, less judgmental, and less rigid over the last 5 years (though not enough to be anywhere near OK with stripping or escorting). And it's not something I could really hide from her for the rest of my life. But I seriously was not expecting this reaction whatsoever.

Me and my mom had the same conversation, and I didn't tell her cause I thought she wouldn't approve either, she knew I worked in a strip club but told her I waitressed. lol. Come to find out my mom got her boobs done 20 years ago!lol. And I never knew, I had always wondered how I had her body everywhere but her boobs, now I know..

ava$
12-26-2014, 12:44 PM
My mum confronted me, finally, about getting my boobs done-- and it was such a surreal conversation. She got extremely sad and offended that I didn't think she would approve, and then the conversations turned to me explaining the difference between fillers and botox and why fillers would be a better solution for her problem, and telling her the quote she got from a plastic surgeon was ridiculous.

I feel perhaps I should have given her more credit, she has definitely become more open-minded, less judgmental, and less rigid over the last 5 years (though not enough to be anywhere near OK with stripping or escorting). And it's not something I could really hide from her for the rest of my life. But I seriously was not expecting this reaction whatsoever.

Me and my mom had the same conversation, and I didn't tell her cause I thought she wouldn't approve either, she knew I worked in a strip club but told her I waitressed. lol. Come to find out my mom got her boobs done 20 years ago!lol. And I never knew, I had always wondered how I had her body everywhere but her boobs, now I know..

SweetJulia
12-26-2014, 12:50 PM
I decided not to work today cuz I have watery eyes. Seriously.

Selina M
12-26-2014, 07:47 PM
I took 8 days off from work, starting last Friday, when I had only intended to take 6 and start this past Tuesday (so I could still catch the good pre-Christmas tippers)... so I was already exasperated at myself for that... but now I think vacation time just made me lazy and depressed.

I literally did NOTHING productive (aside from adopting another dog and wrapping gifts) and overcompensated for being mentally bored by agonizing about stupid shit; I think I spent about 4 hours one day online just looking at apartments, and planning how to do absurd things like move to the rural town that's 40 miles away from my club.
I'm actually very relieved to be going back to work tomorrow for a few hours.

I don't think I can ever retire :o

SweetJulia
12-26-2014, 08:48 PM
^I've been like that, too. My confession: I'm bribing people to go to a cat show with me next month.

audrey_k
12-26-2014, 11:29 PM
I am so fucking antisocial. It's Friday night and I'm only in town for another week or so and instead of hanging out with friends or my family I honestly just wanted to lie in bed and watch TV. A

And I wish my boyfriend would wake the fuck up so we can FaceTime and I can go to bed. I am such an old lady but if it wasn't for the fact I promised him we'd speak tonight I would have been in bed at 9:30.

Aniela
12-27-2014, 09:09 AM
I had a dream this morning abt my recent ex. We were meeting (in the dream) for the first time since the breakup & while I was certainly tense & suspicious, we were cordial … until he came out & admitted that he had in fact cheated on me & only waited until a wk after our LDR started to do it. I flipped my shit of course.

I realise it's just a dream, & pretty sure it's rooted in my fears that he did in fact cheat on me. When he gave me his list of reasons (in a RL convo) why he didn't cheat on me, nowhere did he mention thinking of me, or how I might feel abt it. I am afraid he has already moved on bc I wouldn't tôlerate his drug use, lies etc & bc he implied that most of the last 6yrs we have known each other he was just stringing me along, even when we weren't romantically involved.

Knowing all this ^^^^ doesn't make the dream hurt any less, & I just feel like shit ever since waking up from it.

michele11
12-27-2014, 11:34 AM
^I've been like that, too. My confession: I'm bribing people to go to a cat show with me next month.

I'll be at the one in Jacksonville the end of Jan.

Aniela
12-27-2014, 11:55 AM
Well, I have fucking Rats … I've seen them several times running around the prop. @ nite, & I'm sure all the renovating has stirred them up … I can tell the mgt, but most likely they won't care

Call the local health dept if mgmt ignores it?

Vyanka
12-27-2014, 04:06 PM
Whirlez, get a cat. Rats hate the smell of cat piss. They'll fuck off. Plus a kitty can catch them for you. ;)

SweetJulia
12-27-2014, 06:13 PM
@Whirelez I'd loan you a cat if you were closer.

LaurenAus
12-27-2014, 11:05 PM
lol whirlerz did he avoid the dining area so he wouldn't have to buy dinner?

in other news...soooo ready for the big reveal of my nose underneath this cast next week

OliveJardin
12-28-2014, 05:25 AM
^I've been like that, too. My confession: I'm bribing people to go to a cat show with me next month.

^Haha, that's amazing! You shouldn't need bribes, it would be fun.

charlie61
12-28-2014, 03:11 PM
lol whirlerz did he avoid the dining area so he wouldn't have to buy dinner?

in other news...soooo ready for the big reveal of my nose underneath this cast next week

Mentally prepare yourself for lots of pimples and plenty of swelling! Don't freak out! :hug:

KikiGem
12-29-2014, 12:21 AM
I never buy ranch dressing, sugar, coffee creamer or hand wipes because I get them free from places like McDonald's, Chick-fil-a and Starbucks. But I don't use these things that much so it's not that bad.

*she tells herself to justify her life of crime*

Tsepmet1
12-29-2014, 05:56 AM
I think that I need to put camming on hold and go on a strip trip. I need some cash right now, and camming just isn't cutting it. There's no way in hell I'm stepping foot back into one of the ratchet Baltimore clubs.

Aniela
12-29-2014, 08:45 AM
I need to call my vanilla job in VA for my final W2. This is the job that my now-ex helped me get hired at. I got on well enough w/ the HR lady, & she knew Ex & I were close but respected our privacy. I have been putting off the W2 request for two reasons -- first is the holiday. 2nd is the fact that I have been so angry abt the breakup & everything leading up to it (his lies, excessive drinking, pot, etc) that if the opportunity presents itself to slip it into the convo w/ the HR lady, I want to tell her to drug-test him.

Yes, I know exactly what will happen if he pees positive, it will destroy his aviation career. He has already destroyed his military career bc he got caught, bc he 'nvr thinks abt consequences'. His idea of taking responsibility is saying 'Yeah, I fkd up. So?' He has lied to me, destroyed a 6yr relationship & very likely cheated on me(implied that the only reason he hadn't cheated on me was bc it was inconvenient for him)& this is pretty much purely vindictive. I have been so angry over this whole situation that I feel like I just want to watch him self-destruct.

If I suggest to his employer that he needs to be drug-tested, the consequences of a positive test will be irreversible, & even a negative test will result in a major affect to his standing w/ the company. He will also likely connect it to me, but Idk how much I care abt that at this point. I think the only thing stopping me so far is that a tiny part of me is still hoping that he is getting the counselling the military is offering during his out-processing & that he will turn his shit around.

whirlerz
12-29-2014, 08:47 AM
I think that I need to put camming on hold and go on a strip trip. I need some cash right now, and camming just isn't cutting it. There's no way in hell I'm stepping foot back into one of the ratchet Baltimore clubs.

This^. Only fill in Balt. w/Chicago, & doing a 'local' but not too close str. trip. :)

michele11
12-29-2014, 10:06 AM
I was having a sexy dream and woke up and my kitten was doing happy cats on my cooch/:O. I think that's why I was having sexy dream. Haha. I've never had a cat do happy cats. Well my one did ocasionally. Haha.

SnuffleUffleGrass
12-29-2014, 11:41 AM
I need to call my vanilla job in VA for my final W2. This is the job that my now-ex helped me get hired at. I got on well enough w/ the HR lady, & she knew Ex & I were close but respected our privacy. I have been putting off the W2 request for two reasons -- first is the holiday. 2nd is the fact that I have been so angry abt the breakup & everything leading up to it (his lies, excessive drinking, pot, etc) that if the opportunity presents itself to slip it into the convo w/ the HR lady, I want to tell her to drug-test him.

Yes, I know exactly what will happen if he pees positive, it will destroy his aviation career. He has already destroyed his military career bc he got caught, bc he 'nvr thinks abt consequences'. His idea of taking responsibility is saying 'Yeah, I fkd up. So?' He has lied to me, destroyed a 6yr relationship & very likely cheated on me(implied that the only reason he hadn't cheated on me was bc it was inconvenient for him)& this is pretty much purely vindictive. I have been so angry over this whole situation that I feel like I just want to watch him self-destruct.

If I suggest to his employer that he needs to be drug-tested, the consequences of a positive test will be irreversible, & even a negative test will result in a major affect to his standing w/ the company. He will also likely connect it to me, but Idk how much I care abt that at this point. I think the only thing stopping me so far is that a tiny part of me is still hoping that he is getting the counselling the military is offering during his out-processing & that he will turn his shit around.

Go ahead and turn him in.

My confession- I enjoy wasting time to much these days, I hardly did anything at work today and now I am home, goofing off on the Internet. No wonder I am currently 15 lbs overweight, I am a lazyass

OliveJardin
12-29-2014, 06:42 PM
I confess that I HATE customers massaging my back, neck etc-it erks me and always has.

Lately, in response to "I want to touch you, can I touch you blah blah grovel, grovel, blah. But the last girl..." I've been replying with, "Of course, but the only way you can touch me...is if you want to give me a back massage;)". I just thought this was a cheeky, positive way of saying no (it's good to give people a "yes", along with a "no", apparently)...well, the joke is on me for being a smart arse because every customer has automatically started actually massaging my back :(. Oh well.

KikiGem
12-29-2014, 07:59 PM
Another story that leads to a confession (sorry ladies :/) Feel free to skip, I write here because I really have no one to turn/talk to right now.

I went to dinner with my dad tonight, fully expecting it to be nice. I started telling him about my argument with my landlord and he jumped down my throat, saying that the problem is probably not her, it's me, and I'm overreacting, and that a relationship needs give and take. I'm not gonna write anymore about her though, I've said a lot about it, and I defended my position. But as I learned tonight, he is so disgusted with me he doesn't really care what I have to say.

My dad proceeded to unload his anger and frustration with me about all things past and present. I tried to offer a few rebuttals, but he said he didn't want to argue, and refused to let me speak.

During his 'rant' he brought up my sexual abuse past as ammunition; his disgust with me at the fact that I sell videos on C4S; and concluded that he thinks I am 'extremely mentally ill.'

Apparently, the purpose of this dinner was to let me know that I am welcome to move back home if I want to. But when I talked to my mom just yesterday, she said that she didn't think that was a good idea anymore. So today I met with a potential roommate I met online. I told my dad that, he said "Well I hope this guy's not a serial rapist, not that you would mind given your history, your porn business, and all the people that have been fucking you since you were 10."

I have several confessions that relate to this, that I will never tell them.
1) I'm no fun to be around anymore. I know I'm a depressed, pissed-off bitch- I'm withdrawing from everyone, not just family, because I don't want to subject people to me. Also, I need to protect myself from others right now too.
2) I want to 'break up' with my family. If it was just my parents I would, but my brother is only 15 and I don't want to lose him. Honestly, I don't want to lose any of them. But I think the damage between us is irreparable.
3) A few weeks ago, I think I completely lost touch with reality. I realized this when I looked through my journal and it was filled with pages about killing myself by covering myself with a blanket and going to sleep in the middle of a highway. I don't remember writing that. I don't remember anything from the first two weeks of this month.

SweetJulia
12-29-2014, 08:00 PM
I look at my ex's FB once a week to watch him progressively get balder and balder in pics :D

Vyanka
12-29-2014, 08:18 PM
I look at my ex's FB once a week to watch him progressively get balder and balder in pics :D

Ha. I do the same. Thank God we broke up. I like long haired men.

ava$
12-30-2014, 07:28 AM
I need to lose 10 lbs but the holidays r making it so damn hard. Every week there has been a new event, week b4 christmas I had to go outta town(which makes it hard to workout, etc), week of christmas theres all those parties=drunk=hungover and no workouts, now my girlfriend is coming in town and shell want to get drunk plus new years of corse you have to….So again slacking on my workouts, it never ends and I have to audition in the middle of january, um thats only like 2 weeks away, y the hell did I schedule this trip at the time I did, makes no damn since.. I knew about the holidays, should've given myself more time, plus I saw on price line, the package I booked has gone down 500$ since I booked it, really?

ScarletKitten
12-30-2014, 08:23 AM
KikiGem, I didn't want to quote you just in case you didn't want to be quoted. I sent you a PM. :hug:

amberlly
12-30-2014, 02:04 PM
Last day at my vanilla job that I hate. Soo pleased!

audrey_k
12-30-2014, 02:18 PM
My best friend of almost two decades is being such a utter bitch and she has started acting like this the last couple years we've been friends, so this isn't new behavior. I was really hoping I would see her when she got back and she'd have matured in the year since I saw her, but I feel like I am a completely different person since I left last year and she hasn't changed one bit. We've been friends for so long that I've always felt like she was my closest friend and I could never end a friendship with her, we've known each other longer than I've known any of my other friends and gone through so much together, but when I look at her behavior now, I'm just like what am I holding on to? Can I count on her? No. Does she make an effort to preserve and maintain our friendship? No. Do I feel comfortable enough around her to disclose things like sex work without being judged? Nope. Definitely nope as I still feel the judgment come up every time we talk about me being a stripper in the past. I'm nervous to even tell her about my boob job because we have a mutual friend who got hers done and loves them, and my best friend constantly makes comments about how no guy she dates is ever going to want to take her home to meet his mother and guys only like her for one thing and that's why she can't get a boyfriend, etc. All my other friends already know and were totally supportive about it.

I look at the close friends I've made in the last few years and I would answer differently to all those questions. I honestly just want to tell her that I'm not going to be available while I'm home and sorry cause I don't even want to get into a conversation about it, like we've discussed this on numerous occasions and I can't get it through her thick fucking skull. She's so sweet in many ways but really self-absorbed, I think coming more from being incredibly insecure that having some overblown ego, which has always sort of made me say alright it's OK then, but seriously it's not! I feel really sad right now thinking through all of this but I feel like coming home has made me really think about the fact that I'm getting older and it's time to start weeding people out unless they're really good friends.

Kellydancer
12-30-2014, 07:34 PM
Yea..whatta dope, ugh. Butt ugly, no social skills, dressed like a middle school boy (penny loafers, plaid shirt). He talked about 'getting invited' to a private party::)..he actually wanted to go sit down in the room they were setting up for a wedding, so we could 'talk'???
Uhh, no.











I'm actually bk on cam, yay.


Where did you meet him? If online, I've been there. Online attracts the worst men, at least for me. I have this male friend who is the kindest man and so shy but right now has his issues but he's so much my type. I visit him often to hang out. He's awkward which is cute. The guys I met online were usually married, users, or just wanted sex.

carmen_b
12-30-2014, 09:07 PM
Whirlerz , that made me laugh so hard.

audrey_k
12-31-2014, 02:17 AM
I had to re-neogiate my student loans and it's the first time I feel a really strong prick of regret for quitting sex work. My goal was, once my payments began, to pay everything off in one year-- that was always my justification for taking breaks from sex work during uni. Now I'm looking at the only reasonable payment option and stressing out because it's a good chunk of my monthly earnings, which are what I would have made in about 2 days of escorting, or 3 nights of stripping. A part of me is like, what the fuck am I doing what's the point? It's not like I'm moving to my dream job or something. Ugh, I feel like I don't know what's right anymore.

Tsepmet1
12-31-2014, 09:36 AM
Checked my bank account this morning and I only have $40 in my checking account. Whoops. Lol

SnuffleUffleGrass
12-31-2014, 11:34 AM
I confess that I HATE customers massaging my back, neck etc-it erks me and always has.

Lately, in response to "I want to touch you, can I touch you blah blah grovel, grovel, blah. But the last girl..." I've been replying with, "Of course, but the only way you can touch me...is if you want to give me a back massage;)". I just thought this was a cheeky, positive way of saying no (it's good to give people a "yes", along with a "no", apparently)...well, the joke is on me for being a smart arse because every customer has automatically started actually massaging my back :(. Oh well.

Guys are seriously so desperate for contact (especially with a beautiful woman) that yeah, I can see them flipping out all over that kind of thing.

On a related note, there was a chiropractor who used to hang out at one of the clubs I booked at & he would do free adjustments. I kind of regretted letting him do that though- I think he got too much of a thrill out of touching me. (aka secret wanna be Dom.)

My confession- I wanna work out at the YMCA but don't wanna pay the day pass fee. Guess I gotta work out at home, blah.

Laylalust
12-31-2014, 02:41 PM
I wish I could quit my vanilla job and just dance again. I really don't feel like dancing once a week is working so great simply because if it's a bad shift then that's my shift for the week (or whenever I decide to go in again), and it leaves a bad taste in my mouth for a long stretch of time before I can try again and do better. It kills my self-confidence and makes every time I return to the club nerve-racking. But I can't deal with the stress and unreliability of dancing being my only income so I shall continue as is, I suppose. I need to get the f out of this town and move to Portland already.

SnuffleUffleGrass
12-31-2014, 02:48 PM
I wish I could quit my vanilla job and just dance again. I really don't feel like dancing once a week is working so great simply because if it's a bad shift then that's my shift for the week (or whenever I decide to go in again), and it leaves a bad taste in my mouth for a long stretch of time before I can try again and do better. It kills my self-confidence and makes every time I return to the club nerve-racking. But I can't deal with the stress and unreliability of dancing being my only income so I shall continue as is, I suppose. I need to get the f out of this town and move to Portland already.

Not to burst your bubble but Oregon money kind of stinks. You'd be better served roadtripping, Amtraking or flying to clubs in the Midwest. (You need to be 21 years of age to work in the better clubs, drunk Midwestern guys= more dance money.) If you're stuck in Seattle I feel your pain, it is an oppressive place for girls to dance.

Ok end threadjack. My scummy confession- off I go to hit the tanning bed so I can get a boost of energy today. A pot of coffee and chicken at lunch are doing nothing. I know I am courting cancer by doing tanning beds but I feel halfway dead with out the boost it gives...

Laylalust
12-31-2014, 03:55 PM
^Unfortunately I am in Oregon but I'm in Eugene. The earning potential down here and in Springfield isn't great and so Portland seems like the next logical step but I kind of figured $ wouldn't be good there either. At least there are more options for clubs though. Traveling out of state would definitely be a better idea.

ok, end threadjack again! :)

SnuffleUffleGrass
12-31-2014, 08:41 PM
OK awesome funny confession time- I didn't end up going tanning- I got called into work. Like the Responsible Bear I am now...I went to work..

I am getting drunk now & expect to be up for the turn of the new year.

OK I also have to confess- after a lifetime of Straight Edge type living (only trying marijuana) I am so temped at this point in life to do LSD or shrooms. However I won't due to my genetic tendency for mental illness, I won't do it. Knowing myself I would run off into the snow outside and die like Jack Nickelson in "The Shining." I also fear due to the level of emotional turmoil in the last 8 years of my life, I might end up crying like a maniac during a trip and getting committed to the nuthouse. Don't want that.

So no tripping for me. I wish I could let loose and blast rails and eat molly. Not gonna happen. But anyhow life is good and I am happy.

audrey_k
12-31-2014, 11:15 PM
I've spent a ridiculous amount of money on beauty products since I got home... but the stuff in London just isn't as good. I've spent near $500 on hair extensions and shampoo/conditioner for them from Sally's, but the hair extensions I've bought in the the UK seriously SUCK and the store I love in LA can't ship them to me in London, and Sally's won't ship to the UK. I have a shopping list of about $200 worth of make up products to buy from Sephora and MAC, MAC stuff is cheaper here and we don't have Sephora in the UK.

When I was dancing and escorting I used to blow so much money on nails, hair, beauty products, tanning, skincare, whatever-- and always justified it as a work expense. Now that I'm not doing sex work it's the one thing I just can't downsize on-- expensive lingerie, shopping sprees, jewlery, handbags, that's all fine with my to drop, I've even accepted my ability to travel is going to seriously decrease which was hard but doable... but spending money on looking good I just cannot let go of and I feel so horrible guilty spending money like this but can't stop! I've just told myself 80% of my January earnings go straight into my savings account, no matter what.

SnuffleUffleGrass
01-01-2015, 09:41 AM
I've spent a ridiculous amount of money on beauty products since I got home... but the stuff in London just isn't as good. I've spent near $500 on hair extensions and shampoo/conditioner for them from Sally's, but the hair extensions I've bought in the the UK seriously SUCK and the store I love in LA can't ship them to me in London, and Sally's won't ship to the UK. I have a shopping list of about $200 worth of make up products to buy from Sephora and MAC, MAC stuff is cheaper here and we don't have Sephora in the UK.

This is fascinating to me since I assumed that women in the UK have more delicate skin they have better beauty products.

ScarletKitten
01-01-2015, 11:09 AM
OK I also have to confess- after a lifetime of Straight Edge type living (only trying marijuana) I am so temped at this point in life to do LSD or shrooms. However I won't due to my genetic tendency for mental illness, I won't do it. Knowing myself I would run off into the snow outside and die like Jack Nickelson in "The Shining." I also fear due to the level of emotional turmoil in the last 8 years of my life, I might end up crying like a maniac during a trip and getting committed to the nuthouse. Don't want that.

So no tripping for me. I wish I could let loose and blast rails and eat molly. Not gonna happen. But anyhow life is good and I am happy.

40130

Shrooms, Shrooms, SHROOMS! DO THEM!!! hahaha...I'm the devil, sorry. But, no, seriously, give them a try. If only ONCE. You owe it to yourself. It is an incredible experience. Just PLEASE do your research beforehand. And shrooms actually HELP people with mental illnesses, under the right circumstances. Seriously. I'm probably going to get flamed for this, or voted off the island, but I am tired of this tragic suppression and demonization of natural sacred substances. It's your fucking birth right. We have the right to explore our own consciousness. They changed my life for the better. I can't even explain. Let go of fear, my friend. Life is beautiful. We are supposed to be consuming psychedelics in their natural form as a human species. We evolved because of psychedelic plants and mushrooms. Follow your heart. Jump in with no fear. Peace & love. Watch & learn...


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3uqBGTnUukg

(This comment is in no way meant to be political. If the mods have a problem with my comment, they can take it down. But if we wish to live in a free world that believes in justice, then live and let live.)

simone87
01-01-2015, 12:05 PM
i was so depressed this morning i couldn't get out of bed because it was the 2015 lol..i need to snap out of this. i have this HUGE fear of getting older, and the years progressing.

whirlerz
01-01-2015, 12:19 PM
i was so depressed this morning i couldn't get out of bed because it was the 2015 lol..i need to snap out of this. i have this HUGE fear of getting older, and the years progressing.

Aww. Hugs to you dear..as least you're not as old as I am!

My confession: I'm sooo sick of not doing mch..I actually went out last nite, had a decent time. Saw a band for free @ a little bar near home. :)

Aniela
01-01-2015, 01:33 PM
I discovered ystrdy that my ex's pattern of lying to me extends back almost the entire time we have known each other. 6yrs of lies. He literally couldn't even apologise w/o lying, & trying to make me feel like it's all my fault he can't be honest w/ me. I am both infuriated & devastated, he was one of my longest & (I thought) most solid friendships -- one of the few ppl I truly trusted would nvr lie to me. Now I do not want to talk to any1 at all, or try to make any new friends, nothing feels solid anymore.

simone87
01-01-2015, 03:40 PM
^ omg how did you find that out??

audrey_k
01-01-2015, 03:47 PM
This is fascinating to me since I assumed that women in the UK have more delicate skin they have better beauty products.

I don't think it's better beauty products, I think it's healthier foods. GMOs are against the law in the UK and there are also tons of laws regarding preservatives and other chemicals American food is filled with. When you buy juice in the UK the ingredients list says "oranges." Even when I see something that says "100% oranges" in the US there's usually about 5 other ingredients I can't pronounce.

I've found a few beauty product lines I like in the UK-- Indeed is great and MUA has awesome super cheap products-- but not much. With the exchange rate everything is 1.55x more expensive than it is in the US, and we do not have Sephora, so it's tempting to go on a make up shopping spree here... I do love the MAC store at Selfridges though, some of the girls that work there are awesome and more knowledge than the ones I've had near where I lived in LA.

What really drives me nuts thought is the hair extensions. First off I've only found one place in London to buy them that had a decent selection (and I've done online research and asked a bunch of strippers) and their hair is shit-- they claim it's real but it's either 50% synthetic or has a ridiculous amount of chemicals in it because I often buy super ashy blonde extensions and dye them a different color to have a perfect color match, and I have never had an issue with the hair I've bought in LA, but even my hair stylist couldn't get the ones I bought in the UK to take color (so that was a wasted $200....). So I end up having to buy online which I hate because you never know if the color match is the best possible. I also love super fine highlights that just blend perfectly, so that's what I look for in a hair dresser-- and it's really annoying to spend a ton of money on that and sit at the salon for 3 hours, just to have to buy chunky highlighted hair extensions that blend horribly. I just love the ones I bought from The Hair Shop in LA, the hair is such good quality and the extensions are so fine you honestly can't tell that it's not my hair at all. But I think I'm just spoiled since LA must be the hair extension capital... sorry for the rant!

JessaJade
01-01-2015, 03:54 PM
^I believe Space NK is similar to Sephora, if you weren't aware of it.