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audrey_k
01-01-2015, 04:02 PM
^just looked it up, I hadn't heard of it. It looks cool I'm just not very knowledge of the brands. Will definitely give it a go when I get back! I usually just end up going to Selfridges because they sell some of the brands I know.
SnuffleUffleGrass
01-01-2015, 04:19 PM
Shrooms, Shrooms, SHROOMS! DO THEM!!! hahaha...I'm the devil, sorry. But, no, seriously, give them a try. If only ONCE. You owe it to yourself. It is an incredible experience. Just PLEASE do your research beforehand. And shrooms actually HELP people with mental illnesses, under the right circumstances.
I totally agree. I actually hooked up a badly PTSD stricken war veteran with shrooms & he had a good trip. The only thing really stopping me is my strong genetic tendency towards mental illness. I am afraid of messing up my brain to the point where "the spiders come out" and I lose my fragile grasp on being able to work a normal job and act like a normal person. One of my parents is severely mentally ill so the stats back me up on erring on the side of caution with drugs.
Oddly enough I was drugged against my will in 2002 (some jerk put E laced with meth in my drink) and it wasn't a bad experience per se other than the vomiting and feeling cold, but I felt terrible for 3 days after, like I had been thrown out of a 2nd story window.
sonora
01-02-2015, 09:27 AM
Confession: My ex is a runner. When we were still married, every time he used to go for a run, I would have a fantasy that he dropped dead of a heart attack and his mother would knock on my door to tell me that my husband was dead. My reply was always, "I am so sorry for your loss"
LMAO!!! I don't even care why you felt this way (I am sure you had your reasons), but your post was just too funny!
wednesday86
01-02-2015, 11:32 AM
My confession: I am sick of getting tattooed. I think i'm getting too old for it. I have to go in today to get a big unfinished piece hopefully FINISHED. This will be my 3rd session and I just want it to be over with already. The artist is doing it at a discounted price but I just hate sitting there for hours....I don't deal well with the pain anymore...it just feels like a waste of time and money...If he doesn't finish it today I'm gonna be pissed. After this I have one more I want on my other arm that shouldn't take more than 1session..After that I'm done with this shit. I used to want to be tattooed all over but it's a pain in the ass.
Tsepmet1
01-02-2015, 12:34 PM
I want my husband to get laid off so that he spends more time at home and so we can move somewhere warm.
I'm fucking selfish and I know it.
JessaJade
01-02-2015, 01:06 PM
I can't seem to stop eating.
kaninchen
01-02-2015, 01:53 PM
I have over 8 hours from right now to be ready for work "on time" but I just know I'm still going to be late.
lol1337a
01-02-2015, 02:01 PM
Jumping on the shrooms bandwagon, lol.
Not advising you one way or another, but yeah, shrooms seem to be regarded as the most emotional hallucinogen so the 'spiders'/fears/anxieties might come out at a high dose or a bad setting. But a small dose in a safe, clean, pretty indoor environment or ideally wilderness with a loved one can be a good way to work through those issues. There's usually not a hangover, and some people actually feel an afterglow. Sometimes that afterglow lasts a long fucking time, years even, which is why people recommend it. Mine's gone away since I last used them a couple years ago, but it was definitely worth it for me. The only times I've heard of people suffering bad hangovers are those who took senseless combinations (shrooms and coke, wtf!) or latent schizophrenics.
lol1337a
01-02-2015, 02:11 PM
Confession: I'm getting over being sick (first hives then laryngitis/cold crap) and planned on this being my get well, go back to work day. I think I'm gonna nap and see where it takes me. If I wake up before 9 great, if not, whatever. I can still barely talk but I still feel like a big baby for not committing.
Also, I think I'm gonna cheese binge before my nap. MMMM
ScarletKitten
01-02-2015, 06:20 PM
I confess the only reason I'm still alive is because of shrooms. I miss them, and I cannot wait to do them again. Hopefully soon!
charlie61
01-03-2015, 12:01 AM
Confession: one of my worst memories of my life was the time I took shrooms (right dose, right setting, right people). Drugs aren't for everyone!
Aslinn
01-03-2015, 12:50 AM
I keep fb stalking my boyfriends rebound during a month long break we had. She's short and chubby and 18. Literally all she does is smoke weed. I'm weirdly obsessed with her life. Right after we reconciled she got into a relationship that she post about constantly and apparently there engaged. I found out on Christmas that it was her and not someone else I suspected, I kinda snoop ed threw his phone and apparently in the beginning of November she was saying I love you to him he didn't return it but jesus he never stopped talking to me, we did stop sleeping together for a few weeks but I was still in the picture I just can't imagine wtf was he doing that she was on that level. Idk I guess finding out the timeline is helping me cope because I don't want to keep pressuring him for details when I was the one who dumped him.
Selina M
01-03-2015, 11:08 AM
Boyfriend and I are trying to move next month, and I'm weirdly nervous about it. It's mostly money related; this happens every time I take on any sort of additional bill.
Right now we have a very cheap place since we have a roommate, but it's just too crowded for me with the people plus animals, and I hate living in the city. The location serves me absolutely no purpose since I'm done with school. We found a REALLY nice apartment with huge floor plans that's way way out east of here, that would allow all 3 of our animals, plus his shitty credit and misdemeanors. While it's HELLA close to middle of nowhere, it's still right on the bus that's a straight shot to school for him, and he can transfer his restaurant job to the location that's like 4 miles away. I can move my horse out to one of the stables that has a rodeo arena and trails right into the gorgeous mountains. I can fit a pole in the den. There's even a country dance bar in walking distance. The place was like finding a golden needle in a haystack.
The rent would only be $50-$100 more each depending on which floor plan we get, and maybe another $50 in utilities, and then my horse would be another $150ish. That's NOTHING. I could pay that in one extra shift, even if it's a slow one. I have a pretty sizable savings account as well, that's got probably 7 months of expenses including fun money. But me being a worrier, it's like "BUT WHAT IF", and I think I just always have to worry about something not going well.
I guess if you're a little nervous, that's probably a hint to just take the leap though!
lol1337a
01-03-2015, 11:21 PM
Right charlie, definitely not for everyone! Buttt to be obnoxious, everyone has a different best/worst scenario on anything. Some of my worst memories were hallucinogen oriented. Turns out I need a higher dose than most people, and the ability to go deep into wilderness all alone. Put me in a house party with my SO/BFFS on less than an eighth and I have panic attacks. Coming up and never getting there while hanging out in an apartment is my personal hell sort of (I've got some demons).
Never worth sifting these factors through unless you feel a calling to the thing, obviously.
Confession: I'm in a one person apartment with my SO's much older siblings on my first 'sibling weekend' invite. So there's five people here total. They don't know me and they're all asleep or trying to. I have five hours of awake to go, and my keyboard is sooo loud and I'm still typing. No one said anything so it's okay!? :/
xStacey
01-04-2015, 12:54 AM
I've been seeing the same guy for 9 months now and the sex sucks.
He doesn't kiss passionately or with tongue. The foreplay is boring, he never initiates oral sex, in 9 months he's eaten me out first twice!! And when he finally eats me out it's not that great either, he just doesn't seem that into it. I stopped giving him blowjobs so now he doesn't eat me out at all. All we do is intercourse, it's boring and he takes too long to come, he wants to please me but I just want him to come damnit!
I tried telling him what I like, he would do it the next time we see each other but then he never does it again unless I remind him. I feel like I am forcing him to do things he doesn't want to do so I just stopped after the third time.
He rarely plays with my breasts. I spent $9000 on my BA, have DD's and they're super soft. Guys I've been with in the past were crazy about them. But with him, I have to tell him to grab my tits, which he ends up doing reluctantly and never does it again.
He's a nice guy though. :/
lol1337a
01-04-2015, 11:41 AM
Last night I drank way more and earlier than normal because of a party. Then everyone went to sleep and it was just me, internet, and a bottle of my favorite bourbon for five hours.
I spent every fucking minute word vomiting on SW and reddit. Thanks for the party guys! Sorry if you couldn't avoid reading my posts!
Vyanka
01-04-2015, 02:50 PM
Finally. After complaining so much about how there were no attractive guys around me, I met 2 good looking guys on NYE. One has a model look too. Please God, have big penis. The universe heard me loud and clear. Lol. Ahhhh.. off to a good year start. Now hoping work cooperates with me as well. :D
lol1337a
01-05-2015, 01:02 AM
I've posted more on SW in the last 24 hours than I think I did from 2008-2010 total. Finally empathizing with all the lovely power users more than just appreciating them from a bit of distance.
Thanks for the fun day! I should really stop before I embarrass myself.. But I learned that interacting with everyone can be more rewarding.
SweetJulia
01-05-2015, 01:23 AM
I'm sooooooooooo glad to finally have long, real hair. I spent six years in extensions. Six grand a year, tons of pain, and countless hours off application/removal I'll never get back. I seriously have nightmares about having my hair fall out/cut off. Not to ruffle any feathers, but I'm sure I wouldn't make the money I do without my trademark hair.
michele11
01-05-2015, 08:55 AM
^ I wish I was like you and could just wear my real hair. It's 21 inch long. But I feel I look way more polished with me clip ins. I couldn't work without em. I about died when i lost one( I only wear 3 pieces) good thing I had an old one in my bag.My confession. I'm nerveous I'm going somewhere I've never been. Ugh. I get nervous my first night at places I've worked for years. Ugh. Welll maybe it'll work out well and be a new place. and I've had such bad anxiety and depression now i need to go a million places today to get everything I need and I don't feel like it. I need to go to ulta, fredericks, tanning lace to get my spray tan stuff, go to dillards, fill script for adderrall which I had to go to 5 places last time because if they;re out they won't call another place and see if they have them because of the amphetimine act. Oh and go get my extensions and have them made into 3 pieces ( I hope they are here) they're suppose to come today. Ugh.
michele11
01-05-2015, 08:57 AM
oh and forgot. the vitamin store, I wish I could hire someone to do it for me.
audrey_k
01-05-2015, 04:44 PM
I seriously am so sexually frustrated right now. I've had two sex dreams in the past 3 days, both involving my boyfriend. I know he's going to be exhausted when he comes home but three weeks is too long to go without sex. He will just have to get over his fatigue from the 17 hour flight because I expect to be getting some all night. Counting down the days, 6 more to go...
lynn2009
01-05-2015, 04:57 PM
I finally lost it re: roommate I've been bitching about. Gave notice to the owner that I want out, my parents think I'm the most antisocial bitch ever and I don't care. People don't know how draining it is when someone you are NOT friends with tries to force you into being their emotional support role, not to mention after I turned him down for a date he lost his shit, straight up SCREAMED at me, called me a whore tried to get me kicked out of the apartment. Threw another screaming fit at me when I asked him to see the statements for the utility bills. For MONTHS dude kept trying to pull me into hugs and paw at my hair when I repeatedly told him to stop touching me. There's a bunch of other shit I can't even remember but this is ridiculous. This is by far the most expensive apartment I've ever had to deal with and I would just as rather live in a shithole studio by myself.
kaninchen
01-05-2015, 05:51 PM
^ That is a terrible, horrible situation that no one should have to deal with. OMG! Who hears your story and still thinks you're being irrational for wanting to move?!
amberlly
01-05-2015, 07:02 PM
MOVE. He sounds horrible. Those people usually think they are really nice too. UGH
Confession - i have hit a plateu in my weight loss and been sabotaging the entire thing. I watch myself in horror.
My mind is back now. THANK GOD.
SnuffleUffleGrass
01-05-2015, 07:15 PM
Last night I drank way more and earlier than normal because of a party. Then everyone went to sleep and it was just me, internet, and a bottle of my favorite bourbon for five hours.
I spent every fucking minute word vomiting on SW and reddit. Thanks for the party guys! Sorry if you couldn't avoid reading my posts!
lol earlier I tried to quote this and picked the wrong post. I didn't notice anything odd about the posts.
My confession today- I am really stuck on the fence about continuing my current relationship. It's ok but I really want to have my freedom back and be working as a dancer again. I don't know what to do.
Aurora_Sunset
01-05-2015, 07:37 PM
I am starting to get irrationally stressed and angry about my apartment being unorganized.
I moved into a new place at the end of October, with no real furniture to my name, and I was originally excited to order all new things. Almost everything I ordered online was way smaller than I thought it would be in terms of how much stuff they could accommodate. So now I have half of my stuff on shelves and stuff where it belongs and the other half just lying in piles of books, movies, knick-knacks, and random crap that needs to be put in or on something. I also don't have a couch, and I want a freakin' couch. It is making me unbelievably stressed-out every day I sit here surrounded by unorganized crap and feeling like my apartment isn't complete.
I feel so silly and stupid, and I know it will be ok soon with some new stuff I just ordered, and I know I don't need a couch right now and should save my money for other things, but holy hell, it's now been a year and a half of living in motels, with friends, and in a crappy apartment with nothing but my essentials while everything else was away in storage. And... Christ Almighty, I just fucking want to walk into a living room where all my shit is there and has a home and I feel like my fucking life is, in some way, put together - FINALLY.
It's literally to the point where I am less productive because I feel so disorganized. And I feel effing stupid telling people "Yeah, I was gonna get a bunch of stuff done today but then I got irrationally pissy and demotivated when I walked into a mountain of disorganized crap in my living room." The thing is, the disorganized crap isn't even crap I need to finish the things on my to-do list; it's just that it sucks away all my positive energy.
Typing this literally brought me to tears - which makes me feel even more stupid about how stressed I'm letting it make me.
ScarletKitten
01-05-2015, 07:44 PM
I confess I'm disappointed that Melonie was banned. I'm going to miss her. She was quite the character & knew alot about taxes and government. I'm also still sad about GlamourRouge being banned. I wish I could get into contact with her, but I have no idea how. I never communicated with her outside of SW, but I felt particularly close to her. I feel like I've lost a friend. :(
LaurenAus
01-05-2015, 11:17 PM
Maybe try messaging sammi who posts in camming connection. She should know as they are friends and sammi would stay over at her place from what i know
I confess I'm disappointed that Melonie was banned. I'm going to miss her. She was quite the character & knew alot about taxes and government. I'm also still sad about GlamourRouge being banned. I wish I could get into contact with her, but I have no idea how. I never communicated with her outside of SW, but I felt particularly close to her. I feel like I've lost a friend. :(
I confess I'm disappointed that Melonie was banned. I'm going to miss her. She was quite the character & knew alot about taxes and government. I'm also still sad about GlamourRouge being banned. I wish I could get into contact with her, but I have no idea how. I never communicated with her outside of SW, but I felt particularly close to her. I feel like I've lost a friend. :(
Why were they banned? I never knew them to post any offensive things… Melonie was banned before I believe but I think there was a mistake cause she was right back..
michele11
01-06-2015, 08:40 AM
I confess I'm disappointed that Melonie was banned. I'm going to miss her. She was quite the character & knew alot about taxes and government. I'm also still sad about GlamourRouge being banned. I wish I could get into contact with her, but I have no idea how. I never communicated with her outside of SW, but I felt particularly close to her. I feel like I've lost a friend. :(
No one will tell us if she's perma banned. Ridic. Google her name, I'm sure there's a way you can contact her. I's Melonie Charms.
michele11
01-06-2015, 08:42 AM
Why were they banned? I never knew them to post any offensive things… Melonie was banned before I believe but I think there was a mistake cause she was right back..
Your first ban is like a week or something like that.
Selina M
01-06-2015, 01:32 PM
I think Melonie is unbanned.
kaninchen
01-06-2015, 01:40 PM
I am starting to get irrationally stressed and angry about my apartment being unorganized.
I moved into a new place at the end of October, with no real furniture to my name, and I was originally excited to order all new things. Almost everything I ordered online was way smaller than I thought it would be in terms of how much stuff they could accommodate. So now I have half of my stuff on shelves and stuff where it belongs and the other half just lying in piles of books, movies, knick-knacks, and random crap that needs to be put in or on something. I also don't have a couch, and I want a freakin' couch. It is making me unbelievably stressed-out every day I sit here surrounded by unorganized crap and feeling like my apartment isn't complete.
I feel so silly and stupid, and I know it will be ok soon with some new stuff I just ordered, and I know I don't need a couch right now and should save my money for other things, but holy hell, it's now been a year and a half of living in motels, with friends, and in a crappy apartment with nothing but my essentials while everything else was away in storage. And... Christ Almighty, I just fucking want to walk into a living room where all my shit is there and has a home and I feel like my fucking life is, in some way, put together - FINALLY.
It's literally to the point where I am less productive because I feel so disorganized. And I feel effing stupid telling people "Yeah, I was gonna get a bunch of stuff done today but then I got irrationally pissy and demotivated when I walked into a mountain of disorganized crap in my living room." The thing is, the disorganized crap isn't even crap I need to finish the things on my to-do list; it's just that it sucks away all my positive energy.
Typing this literally brought me to tears - which makes me feel even more stupid about how stressed I'm letting it make me.
Do you have a large closet/spare room/any out-of-the-way space at all? I have been such a shitbag about decorating the apartment I've lived in for a year and a half, like, I literally have a stripper pole, a dozen mirrors and knickknacks and every type of exercise equipment under the sun, but I never got around to buying any storage equipment or even a damn kitchen table.
My solution has been to put all my boxes of stuff into the back corner of my office where I can't see it unless I'm directly in front of it. Every other room is neat, organized, and sparsely furnished. I totally get stressed by clutter too so I completely feel your anxiety here and I don't think you're being weird about feeling disorganized at all.
Some other storage cheats I've done in the past (I've never had a lot of furniture):
- Cram as much stuff as possible under the bed, top of the closet, or any space that can be hidden from view
- Stack similarly sized books under a window to make a little ledge, then you can put stuff on top of it
- Stack boxes of stuff and drape a sheet over it, pretend it's a table with a slipcover
- Put stuff behind doors that you don't plan on closing (like the bedroom door if you live alone)
- Turn smaller boxes sideways, stack books inside like a shelf, voila: bedside tables
Also sounds to me like you DO actually need a couch given how stressed you are about it!
lol1337a
01-06-2015, 09:57 PM
First thing I did after SK's post was check GR and Melonie's profiles. I heard GR is permabanned (so sad about that), but Melonie should be back.
Honestly, I thought about which SW members I wanted to join the Myers-Briggs thread as soon as I saw it, and they were at the top of my list, Selina! (Singling you out because I don't know who else got as into it as we did.)
Elektra Luxx
01-07-2015, 08:41 AM
I have to confess, I still have my Christmas tree up. It's my first tree on my own and I think it's decorated so pretty. I turn the tree lights on as soon as I get home from work and it lights up the whole living room. It gives off a sparkly, warm and comforting glow. I'll probably put it away this weekend.
charlie61
01-07-2015, 09:43 AM
Profound thought upon waking: should I binge watch Orange is the New Black today?
lynn2009
01-07-2015, 03:23 PM
I'm meeting someone for dinner & I didn't have time to go get ready at my apartment first so I brought everything to do it on site. I was originally going to clock out first like a good employee but my manager pissed me off so much today that I stayed clocked in while doing my hair and makeup and I'm going to sit here and stay on company time until I need to leave in another half hour.
audrey_k
01-07-2015, 03:47 PM
I made an entire batch of gingerbread cookies, decorated them with sprinkles and icing... just for me.
Tsepmet1
01-07-2015, 03:59 PM
I confess that I'm going to have to drag my ass to the Baltimore titty bar scene tonight and I'm upset about it. But I have on my full stripper face (which I haven't had on in awhile), and DAMN I look gooooood... :D
Aniela
01-07-2015, 04:40 PM
I am afraid that I have caused more trouble for my ex than I intended. I know my heart was in the right place so I don't really feel bad abt what I did, but I can't help wondering if the consequences will be too severe to be helpful. It's too late to take it back now, tho.
SweetJulia
01-07-2015, 06:00 PM
I am afraid that I have caused more trouble for my ex than I intended. I know my heart was in the right place so I don't really feel bad abt what I did, but I can't help wondering if the consequences will be too severe to be helpful. It's too late to take it back now, tho.
I've been following the story. You didn't go too far, you were just speeding his karma along.
SweetJulia
01-07-2015, 06:01 PM
I am afraid that I have caused more trouble for my ex than I intended. I know my heart was in the right place so I don't really feel bad abt what I did, but I can't help wondering if the consequences will be too severe to be helpful. It's too late to take it back now, tho.
I've been following the story. You didn't go too far, you were just speeding his karma along.
Aniela
01-07-2015, 06:45 PM
I've been following the story. You didn't go too far, you were just speeding his karma along.
Thnx for the reassurance, I appreciate it. I'm not looking to simply get him fired, but I am afraid that's what will end up happening. If they just fire him(for that or if they find another reason bc of it) w/o giving him the opportunity to own up & get help then that would pretty much defeat my purpose in ratting him out, if that makes sense. I don't think I did the wrong thing exactly, I guess I am just antsy bc there's nothing more I can do & the results are out of my control.
/end_threadjack
Tsepmet1
01-07-2015, 07:37 PM
I confess that I'm in full makeup and sitting on my couch doing nothing. Fail.
charlie61
01-07-2015, 08:03 PM
I confess that I'm in full makeup and sitting on my couch doing nothing. Fail.
At least take some sexy selfies and get some use outta that makeup! You never know when you'll need sexy selfies..
kaninchen
01-07-2015, 08:29 PM
^ Yes! Girl, it's selfie time!
I'm hanging out at my parents' house, watching Downton Abbey with my mom... and doing a bunch of shopping on Yandy. }:D }:D I'm getting a ton of new stockings and thongs! Does anyone else get kinda buzzed when they shop for work clothes? I totally get a rush when I think about how cute I'll look and all the money I'll make!
Tsepmet1
01-07-2015, 09:14 PM
^^ I was sure to send out some snapchats and stuff. Can't let good makeup go to waste! :)
xStacey
01-07-2015, 09:31 PM
I hate when some customers start to think our "relationship" is more than just a business transaction. I gave some of my regulars my second number to keep in touch and let them know when I will be working because I've been taking a lot of time off lately, changing up my schedule and will be taking 4-5 months off starting next week.
There is one guy who comes every two weeks, he's nice, not grabby at all, likes to chat so he's easy money except he never tips. He first only texted me to let me know when he will come visit but now, he keeps texting me everyday to let me know that his flight was delayed, that apparently the weather's not nice in my hometown, that he wants to make a snowman, to ask me if I know what happened in France lately. I am not your friend!!! I don't reply unless he wants to schedule an hour to come visit me at the club, but he just keeps sending those messages like I care. Maybe if he tipped I wouldn't mind sending a few messages back and forth but not worth it.
Elektra Luxx
01-08-2015, 09:48 AM
I hate when some customers start to think our "relationship" is more than just a business transaction.
There is one guy who comes every two weeks, he's nice, not grabby at all, likes to chat so he's easy money except he never tips. He first only texted me to let me know when he will come visit but now, he keeps texting me everyday to let me know that his flight was delayed, that apparently the weather's not nice in my hometown, that he wants to make a snowman, to ask me if I know what happened in France lately. I am not your friend!!! I don't reply unless he wants to schedule an hour to come visit me at the club, but he just keeps sending those messages like I care. Maybe if he tipped I wouldn't mind sending a few messages back and forth but not worth it.
(Your post sounds like a rant, so I'm just answering with stuff you know already from my limited experience)
I have the same thing happening with a few of my regulars and I feel the same way sometimes. You really don't have to care, but these guys are starving for attention from a pretty, young girl (not being conceded, but referring to all the girls working it in this forum). I see it as just part of the job, about the keeping up GFE fantasy, I play along and send an occasional text, it makes their day right now and because it really "pays off" in the long term. I've worked some guys by sending "How are things going?", "looking forward to seeing you" or "I was just thinking of you" texts and it has sometimes meant gifts or better tips.