Log in

View Full Version : Confessions Thread!



Pages : 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 27 28 29 30 31 32 33 34 35 36 37 38 39 40 41 42 43 44 45 46 47 48 49 50 51 52 53 54 55 56 57 58 59 60 61 62 63 64 65 66 67 68 69 70 71 72 73 74 75 76 77 78 79 80 81 82 83 84 85 86 87 88 89 90 91 92 93 94 95 96 97 98 99 100 101 102 103 104 105 106 107 108 109 110 111 112 113 114 115 116 117 118 119 120 121 122 123 124 125 126 127 128 129 130 131 132 133 134 135 136 137 138 139 140 [141] 142 143 144 145 146 147 148 149 150 151 152 153 154 155 156 157 158 159 160 161 162 163 164 165 166 167 168 169 170 171 172 173 174 175 176 177 178 179 180 181 182 183 184 185 186 187 188 189 190 191 192 193 194 195 196 197 198 199 200 201 202 203 204 205 206 207 208 209 210 211 212 213 214 215 216 217 218 219 220 221 222 223 224 225 226 227 228 229 230 231 232 233 234 235 236 237 238 239 240 241 242 243 244 245 246 247 248 249 250 251 252 253 254 255 256 257 258 259 260 261 262 263 264 265 266 267 268 269 270 271 272 273 274 275 276 277 278 279 280 281 282 283 284 285 286 287 288 289 290 291 292 293 294 295 296 297 298 299 300 301 302 303 304 305 306 307 308 309 310 311 312 313 314 315 316 317 318 319 320 321 322 323 324 325 326 327 328 329 330 331 332 333 334 335 336 337 338 339 340 341 342 343 344 345 346 347 348 349 350 351 352 353 354 355 356 357 358 359 360 361 362 363 364 365 366 367 368 369 370 371 372 373 374 375 376 377 378 379 380 381 382 383 384 385 386 387 388 389 390 391 392 393 394 395 396 397 398 399 400 401 402 403 404 405 406 407 408 409 410 411 412 413 414 415 416 417 418 419 420 421 422 423 424 425 426

Selina M
03-04-2015, 04:26 PM
Totally bought 5 pints of Ben and Jerrys last night... have eaten basically nothing else since. I regret nothing. It was on sale for $2.88 each!!

Tsepmet1
03-04-2015, 08:58 PM
I hit the halfway point in my orthodontic treatment today. :)

amberlly
03-05-2015, 03:18 AM
I was in class and listening to the expected salary for grads in my degree of 30K for the first 5 years. Work really long hours and its super competitive to get in.

LOL its all good - I'll just take my clothes off.

Then get some low key vanilla job as a cover - foot in the real world. Aka to remind me why I take my clothes off in the first place.

SnuffleUffleGrass
03-05-2015, 07:15 AM
I was in class and listening to the expected salary for grads in my degree of 30K for the first 5 years. Work really long hours and its super competitive to get in.

LOL its all good - I'll just take my clothes off.

Then get some low key vanilla job as a cover - foot in the real world. Aka to remind me why I take my clothes off in the first place.

So true...It's amazing what people want you to do for some crap straight jobs. Makes stripping look like a walk in the park most of the time

SimoneGray
03-05-2015, 07:45 AM
The apartment building that I rent in got lost, due to foreclosure. I got served with a month's notice on Monday. In a mad race to get enough money to pay for a deposit by mid month. Also found out that in the past my creepy ass landlord has had surveillance equipment in my apt and the girl next door to me. So basically for the last year he has seen me camming. He chose to attack me about this on Monday as well, so essentially I lost my home and anonymity in one day. I feel dirty and violated because of the spying. Who the actual fuck does that? Worst part is that he obviously had it all taken down a while ago because the police swept the place and found nothing, so now anything I say will be heresay...March has not gotten off to a rocking start.

wednesday86
03-05-2015, 09:15 AM
I am suddenly/weirdly starting to miss dancing. I started looking into my etsy shop and realized how much crap I would have to sell to make as much $$ as I want. Ughhhhh so much work for so little return..........and my niche market is flooded already..........I think I'm alright with the pole until I graduate. Or maybe my husband will actually get a good job and support my ass until I'm done with school. One can always dream.

SnuffleUffleGrass
03-05-2015, 09:20 AM
The apartment building that I rent in got lost, due to foreclosure. I got served with a month's notice on Monday. In a mad race to get enough money to pay for a deposit by mid month. Also found out that in the past my creepy ass landlord has had surveillance equipment in my apt and the girl next door to me. So basically for the last year he has seen me camming. He chose to attack me about this on Monday as well, so essentially I lost my home and anonymity in one day. I feel dirty and violated because of the spying. Who the actual fuck does that? Worst part is that he obviously had it all taken down a while ago because the police swept the place and found nothing, so now anything I say will be heresay...March has not gotten off to a rocking start.

Ugh I went through a similar horrifying and humiliating experience with my landlord and his son. (It was at a small complex too.) My advice, once you feel you can safely and anonymously speak out about his illegal immoral activities, do so. Honestly though if this idiot lost his apartment complex to foreclosure he might not have any more good name to smear- people like that tend to have a pattern of lawbreaking and violating against many people all at once.

SimoneGray
03-05-2015, 09:37 AM
^^ I feel like you're right, and I will eventually, but right now, even though I have til month end, I just wanna leave now and never come back. I've started couch surfing already and only come back there at night to pack my shit bit by bit and put it in storage etc. I can't deal with how this is making me feel at the moment and I need to keep focused to make enough to pay for my new place, so I will speak out a bit later in the month I think.

Aurora_Sunset
03-05-2015, 09:53 AM
The apartment building that I rent in got lost, due to foreclosure. I got served with a month's notice on Monday. In a mad race to get enough money to pay for a deposit by mid month. Also found out that in the past my creepy ass landlord has had surveillance equipment in my apt and the girl next door to me. So basically for the last year he has seen me camming. He chose to attack me about this on Monday as well, so essentially I lost my home and anonymity in one day. I feel dirty and violated because of the spying. Who the actual fuck does that? Worst part is that he obviously had it all taken down a while ago because the police swept the place and found nothing, so now anything I say will be heresay...March has not gotten off to a rocking start.

That is so awful! What a fucking creep! I'm so sorry this happened. I can only imagine how you feel.

xStacey
03-05-2015, 11:16 AM
I am so horny today

ScarletKitten
03-05-2015, 11:28 AM
I bite my tongue on this site a lot.

Don't, girl! Speak your mind! As women, we are trained since birth to bite our tongues. I say, fuck that! Speak that beautiful mind of yours baby girl!

So my confession today: the thought of death is somewhat comforting to me. I know this is really morbid, but I'm glad this life doesn't last forever. There is some kind of macabre, bittersweet comfort in knowing that death is the final end (not really, we go back to the universal mind or reincarnate or something along those lines.) But all these struggles, all this chaos, all this mass suffering and confusion.....it all goes back in the box one day.

ScarletKitten
03-05-2015, 11:37 AM
Oh, and I think I'm becoming a lesbian. I am finding myself becoming more and more enthralled with women and more and more disgusted with men. I just love women so much- we are amazing creatures!!! I am dying for some feminine companionship. I also want a witch circle or sisterhood in my life. Anyone want to join me in a psychonautic sisterhood of sorts? I should probably start a separate thread for this...

Aurora_Sunset
03-05-2015, 02:24 PM
I am so goddam horny lately, it's driving me insane. Even masturbating isn't really doing me any favors, and I know it's because it's more loneliness from not having a sexual partner I actually like and am attracted to in months. Escorting doesn't help with jack.

But the worst part is, I can't bring myself to do anything about it. Physically, I want to have sex with someone my age who I know is technically good in bed. I have a neighbor who I've slept with a few times who I know would happily let me come over to hook up if I texted him - hell, if I even just showed up. But mentally/emotionally, I have a severe aversion to casual sex these days.

I've hit this point where mentally, I am so irritated and disgusted by this idea of male entitlement to free, NSA sex or sexuality, that, even if I'm doing it for myself, I feel like giving anyone - especially the cocky douches in my age group - free, casual sex is like me rewarding them for their bullshit and giving them a "win." It makes me feel icky, and I know I'll go home the next day regretting it and feeling gross.

How completely odd that it's the idea of casual, free, technically "good" sex with attractive men my own age that disgusts me, and not the concept of earning money off of having professional, unfulfilling sex with old, gross dudes...

I feel like I'm really going off the deep end lately.

xStacey
03-05-2015, 03:00 PM
I am so goddam horny lately, it's driving me insane. Even masturbating isn't really doing me any favors, and I know it's because it's more loneliness from not having a sexual partner I actually like and am attracted to in months. Escorting doesn't help with jack.

But the worst part is, I can't bring myself to do anything about it. Physically, I want to have sex with someone my age who I know is technically good in bed. I have a neighbor who I've slept with a few times who I know would happily let me come over to hook up if I texted him - hell, if I even just showed up. But mentally/emotionally, I have a severe aversion to casual sex these days.

I've hit this point where mentally, I am so irritated and disgusted by this idea of male entitlement to free, NSA sex or sexuality, that, even if I'm doing it for myself, I feel like giving anyone - especially the cocky douches in my age group - free, casual sex is like me rewarding them for their bullshit and giving them a "win." It makes me feel icky, and I know I'll go home the next day regretting it and feeling gross.

How completely odd that it's the idea of casual, free, technically "good" sex with attractive men my own age that disgusts me, and not the concept of earning money off of having professional, unfulfilling sex with old, gross dudes...

I feel like I'm really going off the deep end lately.

I totally understand that feeling...

xStacey
03-05-2015, 03:17 PM
I used to have quite a lot of casual sex but ever since I started working in the adult industry, I just can't get around the idea of sleeping with a random dude anymore. Even if sometimes I really just want to go out and have a one night stand with a sexy stranger, I just can't.

I'm registered on Adult Friend Finder and have like 996 unread messages LOL. Every time I think about meeting someone and start exchanging numbers, I always end up backing out. I'm only keeping my profile up because it's a paying site but they keep giving me free membership every month because my profile is popular lol.

simone87
03-05-2015, 04:02 PM
idk what has gotten into me..i woke up today thinking about that old 1994 movie "black beauty" i used to love when i was ilk 5 or 6. i haven't seen or thought about that movie in over 20 years! but i was crying BUCKETS of tears just thinking about it , i had snot running down my face. i'm renting it right now, and i'm sure i'll make myself dehydrated tonight crying even more!
oh PMS, how i love you...

ScarletKitten
03-05-2015, 08:15 PM
^^OMG, I love that movie! So beautiful and heartbreaking! That movie made me really love horses when I was really young.

wednesday86
03-05-2015, 09:35 PM
Don't, girl! Speak your mind! As women, we are trained since birth to bite our tongues. I say, fuck that! Speak that beautiful mind of yours baby girl!

So my confession today: the thought of death is somewhat comforting to me. I know this is really morbid, but I'm glad this life doesn't last forever. There is some kind of macabre, bittersweet comfort in knowing that death is the final end (not really, we go back to the universal mind or reincarnate or something along those lines.) But all these struggles, all this chaos, all this mass suffering and confusion.....it all goes back in the box one day.

I also find comfort in death and it encourages me to go after dreams I've been putting off for years. I keep reminding myself "all paths lead to the same destination." Telling myself that helps when I start to second guess myself or start to think about "playing it safe." I'm trying to not worry so much about money and little things that won't matter in the end. A lot of old people in my family have been dying off this last year and every time someone dies, it makes me wonder if they did everything they wanted to do, and it makes me a little braver.

my confession: I haven't slept in 2 days...no idea why...maybe lack of work/exercise? so apologies for any crazy ramblings.

xStacey
03-06-2015, 01:02 AM
... When I was 18-20 I would dress up all the time, hair extensions, heavy eye make up, revealing clothes, high heels and was told I looked like a slut. Now I'm a little older and decided to tone down, realized I didn't have to show off my 34DD's all the time (on a 5'2 and 105 lbs frame). I no longer wear extensions outside of work, my make-up is kept at minimal and I dress more conservatively but still sexy... It still shows my figure without being so "in your face".

I was shocked earlier this week when a girl told me I look like an innocent student who's always at the library... And even more today, since it's the second time in the same week, a guy told me I look like a prude who probably hasn't slept with many guys. :eek:

miss.a.p1600
03-06-2015, 01:27 AM
I can't stand my child's father.

He conned me into sleeping with him. He's an egotistical douchebag that uses any opportunity to verbally and emotionally abuse me just because i refused to have an abortion and made him pay child support.

I can't take it anymore. He is like a fungus that won't go away. I can't wait till my kid turns 18 I'll change my number and address and throw the biggest party money can buy. Then I'll never deal with this jackass again.

charlie61
03-06-2015, 04:00 PM
Seems like 90% of all websites these days are completely unusable. You click on an article you want to read, and 25 ads pop up, you can't even find the "next" button on the slideshow you're reading, and when you finally find it, the page takes a full minute to load the next page because it has to display a hundred different things along with the article, an ad floats in front of the text as you scroll down, suddenly the page starts streaming audio from a video that just finished loading...

Seriously, the vast majority of the time, I give up and stop reading.

michele11
03-06-2015, 04:13 PM
I wish I would of trusted my instincts and not started lexapro this close to a trip. I don't feel myself. Usually even if I don't I can still feel normal for work and be my normal hustling self but i don't feel I am. I don't feel like going.

Selina M
03-06-2015, 05:16 PM
I'm starting to get nauseated at the very sight of the customers in my club.

Tsepmet1
03-06-2015, 07:37 PM
I'm supposed to be on a diet and I just ordered a pizza.

My confession is that I love my thunder-thighs and booty. I'm so tired of being put down over my weight. I look hot!

ScarletKitten
03-06-2015, 07:39 PM
^^Giiiirrrrrl, work it! I love thunder thighs and a fat ass too, and so do like 85% of guys, whether they choose to admit it or not. Enjoy your pizza!!! xoxo

SnuffleUffleGrass
03-06-2015, 09:15 PM
So my confession today: the thought of death is somewhat comforting to me. I know this is really morbid, but I'm glad this life doesn't last forever. There is some kind of macabre, bittersweet comfort in knowing that death is the final end (not really, we go back to the universal mind or reincarnate or something along those lines.) But all these struggles, all this chaos, all this mass suffering and confusion.....it all goes back in the box one day.

Coincidentally, I was thinking about a "Twilight Zone" episode that addresses this topic. Don't wanna spoil it but the episode points out some of the little-thought of aspects of why dying at the end of your life cycle is perfectly ok.

My confession- I am a bit pudgy again. Looks like I will be running every morning now. Bleh!!!! Don't regret the food baby tho lol

lynn2009
03-07-2015, 06:43 AM
Coincidentally, I was thinking about a "Twilight Zone" episode that addresses this topic. Don't wanna spoil it but the episode points out some of the little-thought of aspects of why dying at the end of your life cycle is perfectly ok.


what's the episode?

Elektra Luxx
03-07-2015, 01:35 PM
Confession, I love waking up hugging a man and with my legs intertwined with his.

MyButter
03-07-2015, 01:48 PM
Ohhhh lordy...

Sometimes you've just gotta do a series of heavy sighs because you can't even.

michele11
03-07-2015, 03:00 PM
I'm supposed to be on a diet and I just ordered a pizza.

My confession is that I love my thunder-thighs and booty. I'm so tired of being put down over my weight. I look hot!

I just ordered one too and a ham sandwich. Lol. Because I didn't feel like going to get bottled water and i'm out.

SnuffleUffleGrass
03-07-2015, 03:05 PM
what's the episode?

It's either an episode from the 1980s reboot of "Twilight Zone" or is from the Twilight Zone movie...please forgive my bad memory but I saw this over a decade ago.

A lot of "vampire" genre books and movie address the drawbacks of eternal life.

lynn2009
03-07-2015, 03:29 PM
^thanks.

Confession: my mom keeps blowing up my phone lately but I keep hoping it's this guy who has been really mia lately...

whirlerz
03-07-2015, 04:06 PM
I prided myself on eating a nice salad for lunch, a vegetarian dinner, then blowing it w/dark choc. covered marshmallows. :(

michele11
03-07-2015, 04:16 PM
I hate getting ready! I wish i could hire someone to do my hair , makeup and wash me. lol. I'm sitting here just because the ritual is so tedious. freaken 2 hour ordeal.

Vyanka
03-07-2015, 06:22 PM
Confession and tmi: I just had sex with the fattest penis in my whole life, by an Italian fashion model. ♡Omg. Like a coca cola can. It hurts! ! I couldn't. Lol

charlie61
03-07-2015, 11:49 PM
It took me a few episodes to get into Scandal on Netflix, but I'm glad I gave it a chance. The whole black-female-lead-on-mainstream-television thing pulled me in initially. Worth a look if you haven't checked it out!

LaurenAus
03-08-2015, 12:41 AM
Vyanka you seem to have impeccable taste in men

Just found a roach in my studio...just...great.

whirlerz
03-08-2015, 12:46 AM
Ugh^. Do you have baking soda, or boric acid? Put it down around where you saw it, & kitchen/bathroom

Me I'm so irritated I can't set my phone's time right now..

xStacey
03-08-2015, 03:31 AM
I am so fed up with this job but it's hard to leave the money

amberlly
03-08-2015, 03:38 AM
I have six months left of school. I can't wait to be finished forever.. I hate this shit

Vyanka
03-08-2015, 10:20 AM
Vyanka you seem to have impeccable taste in men

Just found a roach in my studio...just...great.


Hehe. I noticed, after complaining that there weren't any good looking men around... The last 3 I've hooked up with have been walking sex ads. Models too. Yum.

Edit - agree with Whirlz. Baking soda kills roaches. Spread some behind the stove and fridge, and other hard to reach areas. Also, put aluminum foil inside your cabinets.They hate aluminum. It's work but worth it.

simone87
03-08-2015, 01:04 PM
giving up on fighting my natural thick curly hair. doing coconut hair masks, getting the dead ends trimmed and layered, picking up leave-in conditioner and retiring my flat iron. i'm just going to make the most of it from now on and learn to love it because i'm pretty sure its about to get a LOT healthier and happier..i'm just sick of trying to make it something its not

miss.a.p1600
03-08-2015, 03:17 PM
giving up on fighting my natural thick curly hair. doing coconut hair masks, getting the dead ends trimmed and layered, picking up leave-in conditioner and retiring my flat iron. i'm just going to make the most of it from now on and learn to love it because i'm pretty sure its about to get a LOT healthier and happier..i'm just sick of trying to make it something its not

I did the same thing a few years ago after constantly getting chemical burns even from 'gentle' kid relaxers. why fight nature gotta just roll with it instead.

And coconut oil is some good stuff for beating frizz and deep conditioning

miss.a.p1600
03-08-2015, 03:21 PM
I spend waaaay too much time reading and replying to posts on Stripperweb. I need an SW intervention lol!

charlie61
03-08-2015, 04:49 PM
giving up on fighting my natural thick curly hair. doing coconut hair masks, getting the dead ends trimmed and layered, picking up leave-in conditioner and retiring my flat iron. i'm just going to make the most of it from now on and learn to love it because i'm pretty sure its about to get a LOT healthier and happier..i'm just sick of trying to make it something its not

Sometimes I feel like I'm the only female alive who hasn't figured out how to style her hair.

whirlerz
03-08-2015, 05:02 PM
Tomorrow's my Dr. appt. Not looking forward to it. :(

lynn2009
03-08-2015, 09:11 PM
Does anyone else ever read through old gchats and text message threads knowing that it is going to be completely depressing and keep you obsessed with the past but you can't help it at all...

SweetJulia
03-09-2015, 01:58 AM
I haven't washed my hair in way longer than I care to admit, but it looks so shiny when it's filthy.

Issabelle
03-09-2015, 02:42 AM
My boy friend only pays attention to me when he feels like it lately. When he is interested, he goes all 'I miss seeing you' BS when I refuse plans made at midnight. Last night, I gave him the cold shoulder as punishment. He spent the rest of the night at the other end of the bar I was sitting at with our friends and pretended he had no clue I was mad. As a result, I had one too many drinks, drove home, and--having found a small area on the edge of my cell phone screen shattered--proceeded to smash the screen into my sink until inoperable. Best part? He still hasn't found the balls to talk to me. And I thought I was impossible....

amberlly
03-09-2015, 03:26 AM
One of my regulars told me that he knows the "real" me and how much closer we are than any of the other customers.. That I see him coz I really like him and can't help myself.

And people think I have issues...fml - self delusion much