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SimoneGray
03-15-2015, 11:29 AM
I confess that I am starting to feel soft toward the notion of love again. For 3 years I have been a stone cold bitch and now I am melting. It is doing my money hustle no favours at all. Damn.
Elektra Luxx
03-15-2015, 01:57 PM
Last night I was reviewing the local market, something I haven't done in couple of years. I tried to do an honest comparison of rates, services, image and I concluded that I'm overpriced. Anyway it doesn't matter that much, I'm thinking about taking a break from sex work for couple of weeks and see how I feel after that.
Confession: I don't feel like being kind, patient and accommodating with someone that I don't have any feelings for and even the money is not an incentive. Right now, the thought of being with someone other than my bf is kind of creeping me out.
Selina M
03-15-2015, 02:26 PM
^ Psh if people are paying your rates, that's smart business... don't lower your rate just because other girls aren't able to command the same amount!
I think a lot of why there are $10 dances, $100/hr escorts, are because girls aren't confident enough to ask for a higher amount.
charlie61
03-15-2015, 02:35 PM
^ Psh if people are paying your rates, that's smart business... don't lower your rate just because other girls aren't able to command the same amount!
I think a lot of why there are $10 dances, $100/hr escorts, are because girls aren't confident enough to ask for a higher amount.
Unfortunately, I think it has more to do with escorting being a flooded industry, which makes it a buyer's market (supply / demand). A topic for another thread, of course. But hell yeah, keep the regulars who are willing to pay higher prices, EL!
Selina M
03-15-2015, 03:08 PM
^ That too... but I think just because it's flooded, it shouldn't result in a price drop. I wish people would think of other ways to increase business without undercutting and driving the market down. It's just hurting everyone in the end.
/threadjack
simone87
03-15-2015, 07:36 PM
the past few days i've felt like I'm going to crack, all sorts of unresolved shit like past abuse from early childhood, abusive relationships, just all sorts of painful memories..its all just coming to a head and i really wish i could see a therapist or just somebody i could talk to about all this shit. its way too heavy to dump on a friend or even my boyfriend i feel. *sigh* wish i had insurance right now
xStacey
03-15-2015, 07:57 PM
the past few days i've felt like I'm going to crack, all sorts of unresolved shit like past abuse from early childhood, abusive relationships, just all sorts of painful memories..its all just coming to a head and i really wish i could see a therapist or just somebody i could talk to about all this shit. its way too heavy to dump on a friend or even my boyfriend i feel. *sigh* wish i had insurance right now
This might sound cheesy but I find writing in a diary really helps... Write your feelings and thoughts in it just to get them out, and don't go back to read what you wrote.
Elektra Luxx
03-15-2015, 07:59 PM
the past few days i've felt like I'm going to crack, all sorts of unresolved shit like past abuse from early childhood, abusive relationships, just all sorts of painful memories..its all just coming to a head and i really wish i could see a therapist or just somebody i could talk to about all this shit. its way too heavy to dump on a friend or even my boyfriend i feel. *sigh* wish i had insurance right now
In my city, there is a university that accepts walk-in to their Counselling/Therapy Departments so that graduate students can get practice hours to get their degree. Professors are overseeing them and they have a sliding pay scale. I know one girl who only had to pay $5.00/hr. and was seeing someone once a week. Maybe there is something like that in your city? Just a thought. Sending hugs and good wishes your way.
audrey_k
03-16-2015, 04:46 AM
Confession: I don't feel like being kind, patient and accommodating with someone that I don't have any feelings for and even the money is not an incentive. Right now, the thought of being with someone other than my bf is kind of creeping me out.
This is exactly what happened to me when things became serious with my boyfriend. I just could not deal with being with other men and had absolutely no motivation to work. Not that I would trade him for all the money in the world, but sometimes I do feel slightly resentful when I look at my bank account. So, just my two cents, make sure your relationship is definitely going somewhere before you flush your client base down the toilet. I refused to give up escorting until he asked me to move in with him. I don't regret it because he's the first man I've ever been with that I can see myself marrying, but if I didn't feel that way and had quit... I'd really regret it.
My confession is, I have absolutely no motivation to apply for jobs today and after making the ridiculous trek to get my phone back am going to spend the day cleaning my flat, watching TV, and making dinner. I feel like I have become a complete and utter housewife and it sucks, I don't know why so many girls are dying to become housewives.
Elektra Luxx
03-16-2015, 11:30 AM
This is exactly what happened to me when things became serious with my boyfriend. I just could not deal with being with other men and had absolutely no motivation to work. Not that I would trade him for all the money in the world, but sometimes I do feel slightly resentful when I look at my bank account. So, just my two cents, make sure your relationship is definitely going somewhere before you flush your client base down the toilet. I refused to give up escorting until he asked me to move in with him. I don't regret it because he's the first man I've ever been with that I can see myself marrying, but if I didn't feel that way and had quit... I'd really regret it.
That's exact situation that's getting me all conflicted inside. I do know that I don't feel up to seeing anybody right now, but I do know that I don't want to flush my hard earned client base down the toilet either.
I really do like spending time with bf, but he's really taking up a lot of my time. I think we are moving a little too fast, my fault I know, because I was in such a needy place. I'm not sure where things are going, but things are going good and I need to make him understand right now (today, before things get too far) that I really like being a couple, but that we still need to be own person too. I think that's an important part of a healthy relationship. I may be single again by this evening.
BarbieNYC
03-16-2015, 12:11 PM
Annoyed with all the newbies with not even two posts on stripperweb pming me and asking what clubs I work at and where I think they should go in new york.
Why the fuck does everyone want to move out here? Our clubs close at 4am and my rent is so fucking expensive I cant even enjoy manhattan. I'd rather live somewhere where my rent and utilities arent $2000 every month and fly to ny to enjoy it.
zoezoebelle
03-16-2015, 12:38 PM
Annoyed with all the newbies with not even two posts on stripperweb pming me and asking what clubs I work at and where I think they should go in new york.
Why the fuck does everyone want to move out here? Our clubs close at 4am and my rent is so fucking expensive I cant even enjoy manhattan. I'd rather live somewhere where my rent and utilities arent $2000 every month and fly to ny to enjoy it.
Haha they're crazy. I'm living very comfortably in Delaware working basically a few days a month. My first reaction to the job was like, "Hey, I should move to San Francisco and strip there!" Then I realised I could live almost anywhere else and save up enough to retire early. I'm only a 2 hour drive from NYC anyway.
whirlerz
03-16-2015, 12:56 PM
Well, I went to this take out place that I get lunch from, & as I'm slowly driving thru this parking lot, I accidently cut some guy off. I immediately stopped, back up & put my hand up. like sorry, & saying it too.
He drives by me, gives me a look of disgust, & I roll down window & scream, "SORRY"! Jeesh..btw ASSHOLE I'm still behind on sleep frm the other ASSHOLES that kept me up most of early am Sat.
Spinnerette
03-16-2015, 02:24 PM
I confess that I am truly garbage at being an adult. Like 110% worthless. I used to be better at doing things (all the things) without having to have someone hold my hand and now it's like...I'm paralyzed with fear whenever it comes to having to make a decision on my own and I seize up and start panicking. Because the whole of my life at current has me convinced I don't know how to make good choices. How pathetic.
(baby steps)
zoezoebelle
03-16-2015, 09:32 PM
Absinthe is my new favorite thing. :3 Spent last night drinking absinthe and making music with a naval captain and his friend, then fell asleep in his bed. He was (mostly) a gentleman despite my own horniness and then took me out to lunch today. I love life.
Selina M
03-17-2015, 04:55 PM
Confession: I am an overachiever that does not cope well with failure.
I've realized a lot of my recent burnout with dancing is due to this. It's been really shitty at my club lately (like, girls leaving with $150 after 8 hours on Friday night shitty). When I wasn't able to crack my goal for several days at a time, I started saying "Fuck this" and not caring, not approaching anyone who hadn't tipped me on stage, and setting a STUPID low minimum goal... like numbers newbie dancers would be happy with.
I expect so much out of myself, that I don't like to fail, and when I do my coping mechanism is to stop trying and/or lower my goals. Ugh.
lynn2009
03-17-2015, 06:36 PM
I'm probably way more excited about having discovered Trader Joes than I need to be.
carmen_b
03-17-2015, 08:11 PM
I turned down all st party's party invites for an afternoon nap / then head to garden about sunset! I need me time! I've been traveling in proximity with others / my SO for 9 days! There will be other party days but a quiet day for me today. :)
xStacey
03-18-2015, 08:20 PM
... The guy I'm dating is spending quite a lot of time with his gay friend lately. He sees him more often than he sees me in a week (but I am the one who limits our encounters to once per week), his friend is always sleeping over at his place and since the guy I'm dating doesn't have a couch, they share the same bed every time. I don't know what to think.
Vyanka
03-18-2015, 08:27 PM
... The guy I'm dating is spending quite a lot of time with his gay friend lately. He sees him more often than he sees me in a week (but I am the one who limits our encounters to once per week), his friend is always sleeping over at his place and since the guy I'm dating doesn't have a couch, they share the same bed every time. I don't know what to think.
Oh girl, that would make me wonder too!
The latest penis I'm playing with, I wonder if he's bisexual too. He has a pearl earring in one ear. I said to my gf, "I fucked a guy with a pearl earring!"... I wanna ask too.
xStacey
03-18-2015, 08:34 PM
Oh girl, that would make me wonder too!
The latest penis I'm playing with, I wonder if he's bisexual too. He has a pearl earring in one ear. I said to my gf, "I fucked a guy with a pearl earring!"... I wanna ask too.
Another model? :P
His friend is really good looking too mhmm... He said they only play video games and then sleep but I wonder why his friend doesn't simply return home after they're done instead lol. Supposedly the guy already has a boyfriend.
Vyanka
03-18-2015, 08:38 PM
Another model? :P
His friend is really good looking too mhmm... He said they only play video games and then sleep but I wonder why his friend doesn't simply return home after they're done instead lol
No. Same guy. I'm not tired of him yet. Lol
Do you plan on asking him some how? I'm really curious about my guy too. That earring. Lol. He's so sexy, I over looked it.
xStacey
03-18-2015, 08:46 PM
No. Same guy. I'm not tired of him yet. Lol
Do you plan on asking him some how? I'm really curious about my guy too. That earring. Lol. He's so sexy, I over looked it.
I did and he said there is nothing between them, I believe him but I still can't help but wonder sometimes... Haha
Maybe your guy simply likes to accessorize...
Vyanka
03-18-2015, 08:49 PM
I did and he said there is nothing between them, I believe him but I still can't help but wonder sometimes... Haha
Maybe your guy simply likes to accessorize...
I hear you!
Yes. He does wear nice metal accessories, minus that pearl.
charlie61
03-18-2015, 09:00 PM
When half of the page is about one topic, it's time to start a separate thread! :)
xStacey
03-18-2015, 09:05 PM
The straight guys that I know would never hang a with a gay guy like that. Of course I'm speaking in general, I don't know the specifics. But in my experiences, if you suspect someone is cheating then they are probably cheating. Don't hate me for saying.
We're actually not exclusive, we're very open about who we sleep with... Although he asked me recently if I wanted to be exclusive and he stopped seeing other girls. I am just being curious lol
4everresolutions
03-18-2015, 10:36 PM
Another model? :P
His friend is really good looking too mhmm... He said they only play video games and then sleep but I wonder why his friend doesn't simply return home after they're done instead lol. Supposedly the guy already has a boyfriend.
Man, this has my girly bits going. I don't know if I'd be suspicious in your position or if I'd wanna join in on their slumber party. See what happens....
OliveJardin
03-18-2015, 10:47 PM
In a post-op pain killer induced burst of energy I ordered "supplies" (all my friend's fave foods) online for when my friend comes to stay with me...what I thought was a great deal on organic pasta sauce...was actually discounted organic baby food lol ::).
amberlly
03-19-2015, 04:29 AM
Sometimes at work I get a run of bookings with really hot guys my age. It always amuses me coz they are people I would be interested in if I had met them in real life. But the reality is totally different. I rarely go clubbing, most of my friends are girls and if random hot guys started approaching me I'd be suspicious. Or shy or whatever the opposite of I am at work.
No wonder im single. Ugh - im impossible.
xStacey
03-19-2015, 07:35 AM
Omg the guy I'm dating just told me his gay friend suggested we go on a double date with him and his boyfriend. Maybe they're not having sex afterall...
michele11
03-19-2015, 02:38 PM
Confession: I am an overachiever that does not cope well with failure.
I've realized a lot of my recent burnout with dancing is due to this. It's been really shitty at my club lately (like, girls leaving with $150 after 8 hours on Friday night shitty). When I wasn't able to crack my goal for several days at a time, I started saying "Fuck this" and not caring, not approaching anyone who hadn't tipped me on stage, and setting a STUPID low minimum goal... like numbers newbie dancers would be happy with.
I expect so much out of myself, that I don't like to fail, and when I do my coping mechanism is to stop trying and/or lower my goals. Ugh.
I know you are comfortable at your club but maybe try another one?:)
zoezoebelle
03-19-2015, 03:28 PM
The straight guys that I know would never hang a with a gay guy like that. Of course I'm speaking in general, I don't know the specifics. But in my experiences, if you suspect someone is cheating then they are probably cheating. Don't hate me for saying.
Haha my (very straight) ex was like that. He was a massive attention whore, and kept all these gay guy friends around just for the attention. I'm pretty positive he never slept with any of them, by the way they talked. They were all just pining after him like sad puppies. He used to sleep over at their houses and vice versa and get high together, and laugh about how they all had a crush on him.
amberlly
03-19-2015, 03:57 PM
At work we have a couple of guys who visit from the nursing home. They tell us horror stories of the women they live with trying to hit on them.
"No one still understand I pay for my attention" LOL
LaurenAus
03-19-2015, 05:10 PM
just gave a difficult presentation and it went rough. Our teacher put my partner and I on the spot at the end asking us questions in front of class, grimaced at us, and gave us a crappy score compared to all the work we did. Just wanna curl up in a ball and reality tv marathon it for the rest of the night. There's no better therapy.
OliveJardin
03-19-2015, 05:41 PM
The last pair of shoes I ordered were far too wide and my recent purchase are way too tight...so, I confess that I "MacGyver'd" the crap out of them by stuffing them with socks and pens to stretch them...they look like some kind of shiny, silver voo doo doll lol.
Selina M
03-19-2015, 05:51 PM
I know you are comfortable at your club but maybe try another one?:)
I plan to on Sunday. I can't look at these same customers anymore. I wanna punch them. So sick of then all wanting to be BFFs with the dancers and expecting me to try to win them over. Hanging out all evening like its fucking Cheers.
michele11
03-20-2015, 02:32 PM
Oh girl, that would make me wonder too!
The latest penis I'm playing with, I wonder if he's bisexual too. He has a pearl earring in one ear. I said to my gf, "I fucked a guy with a pearl earring!"... I wanna ask too.
Haha. This made me lol.
SimoneGray
03-20-2015, 02:39 PM
I lay in bed last night and watched Pretty Little Liars for 7 hours or so. I don't even feel bad, it was awesome.
xStacey
03-20-2015, 06:48 PM
Finding good friends is even harder than finding a boyfriend.
SimoneGray
03-20-2015, 06:54 PM
^^ agreed 100%. SOmetimes I feel like such a loner sometimes. I never have weekend plans with anyone, I go out maybe 2x per month to do fun stuffs and I've bee single for 3 years with no prospects on the horizon. Le sigh.
xStacey
03-20-2015, 07:08 PM
^^ agreed 100%. SOmetimes I feel like such a loner sometimes. I never have weekend plans with anyone, I go out maybe 2x per month to do fun stuffs and I've bee single for 3 years with no prospects on the horizon. Le sigh.
I'm a loner too lol
I'm usually extremely busy with school and work so not having many friends never bothered me that much. I have a lighter course load this semester and thought it would be nice to have some free time. It was for a little while but now I'm bored to death. I read books I've been wanting to read for months, catched up on some tv shows, had more time for sex but I miss my busy schedule.
Now I'm sitting at home on a Friday night with nothing to do because I'm tired of being on Netflix and I don't want to see the guy I'm dating 3 days in a row. I wanna go out but I don't have any close friends anymore. Sure I could go out with some people but I don't feel like dealing with superficial and fake people so I guess I'm just gonna stay at home and wait for the time to pass.
xStacey
03-20-2015, 07:10 PM
Oh and I refreshed SW several times but there's not that many new posts :( fml
SimoneGray
03-20-2015, 07:39 PM
^^ This has been my exact struggle tonight as well.
amberlly
03-21-2015, 05:24 AM
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kaninchen
03-22-2015, 09:58 AM
I've been looking at unflattering photos of Victoria's Secret models to remind myself that nobody, not even the crème de la crème of professionally sexy ladies, looks completely perfect from every angle.
zoezoebelle
03-22-2015, 12:06 PM
I'm starting to feel this job creeping into my heart a bit, but not in the ways I expected. The groping and the vulgarity and the objectification just rolls right off of me now; it's expected and it doesn't seem to impact my friendships/relationships anymore. But the lies are what's getting to me. I feel like I'm becoming so used to smoothly and automatically lying to people that I hardly know how to tell the truth anymore. I used to be a pretty honest person. Now I lie about my job, my lifestyle, my income, etc. even to my close friends, and I'm starting to fling out little white lies whenever it's convenient.
smeca
03-22-2015, 12:53 PM
*sigh* I'm totally in love.Sometimes I want to take it further and other times i'm just happy how it is right now. I just think about him every day, and am soo into him in every way. I don't need to run off and gossip to someone the moment anything interesting happens anymore but it's nice to gush about this somewhere.
Tsepmet1
03-22-2015, 12:56 PM
I'm doing okay money-wise today, but the idiots are definitely out in full force.
Aurora_Sunset
03-22-2015, 01:50 PM
I never used to be one for tanning until I started doing it to help with my eczema. I went against my normal routine this week and got extra tan for my trip to Vegas and specifically picked a new swimsuit of a color that would look awesome against tanned skin. Not gonna lie - I just looked down at my body while lying by the pool and thought "goddammit I'm hot."
charlie61
03-22-2015, 03:03 PM
It really irks me when curious guests start threads asking about something, get loads of incredible, well-thought-out advice, and never report back in their own threads with any updates. Actually, it irks me when anyone does that! Especially when it's about a personal topic or unique situation. Like, participate in your own thread already!