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SweetJulia
04-05-2015, 05:34 PM
I'm so glad Easter is almost over. Also, I'm bored out of my mind and watching an Intervention marathon.

Elektra Luxx
04-05-2015, 09:33 PM
My bf and his ex were together 3 years. They broke up almost a year ago. She broke up with him so she could fuck around and his family still accepts her. I don't get it.

ScarletKitten
04-05-2015, 09:45 PM
^^Oh god, that is so annoying. I would straight-up ask her, "what do you want? why are you buzzing around here? I'm with him now. Are you pregnant? Do you want money? Do you want his dick? WHY THE FUCK YOU BUZZING AROUND HERE like a fucking gnat, woman?!" lol

xStacey
04-05-2015, 09:46 PM
I've been out of the vanilla world for the past two years. I just read an article about a minimum wage increase of 30 cents and how people work 35 hrs a week to make around 18k per year in my area.:eek:

Last year was the least I ever worked, only 1 day per week for 11 months and 3-4 days per week for 1 month, I was in school for 10 months. It was the year I made the least but still much more than 18k... Wow I'm so glad I'm not working a min wage job even though these days I'm fed up with sex work.

whirlerz
04-05-2015, 09:53 PM
Today's Hugh Hefner's 90th birthday..I watch Girls Next Door all the time on my phone, so they were talking about going to a chocolate shop that makes anything of chocolate, & they got their parts made out of chocolate for him for his special day.::)
Yeah I know, it's super cheesy. I also like Holly's World, but you tube just has clips of it. It's kind of an escape, I don't really like a lot of shows

Elektra Luxx
04-05-2015, 10:41 PM
^^Oh god, that is so annoying. I would straight-up ask her, "what do you want? why are you buzzing around here? I'm with him now. Are you pregnant? Do you want money? Do you want his dick? WHY THE FUCK YOU BUZZING AROUND HERE like a fucking gnat, woman?!" lol

She's buzzing around him again because now she knows how fucking hard it is to find someone that isn't a total asshole and that she fucked up when she broke up with him. She finds out that he has someone and she decides to visit his ex's family. When she knows he's going to be there. Who does that shit!!! Well she had a good guy, but she fucked up. Tough shit. He's with someone and we're happy. She has a lot of fucking nerve coming back. She needs to back the fuck off.

SweetJulia
04-05-2015, 10:50 PM
I love when people ask me when I'll be on cam right after I make a shitload of money. I'm in polite a mood to actually reply, but I have no idea. My asshole hurts.

amberlly
04-06-2015, 06:15 AM
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charlie61
04-06-2015, 01:21 PM
^^Oh god, that is so annoying. I would straight-up ask her, "what do you want? why are you buzzing around here? I'm with him now. Are you pregnant? Do you want money? Do you want his dick? WHY THE FUCK YOU BUZZING AROUND HERE like a fucking gnat, woman?!" lol

Doesn't seem like her fault. Sounds like a boundary issue that the boyfriend or his parents need to correct. It's weird that she is still so friendly with all of them, but it's the responsibility of the family to redefine that relationship.

SnuffleUffleGrass
04-06-2015, 02:33 PM
She's buzzing around him again because now she knows how fucking hard it is to find someone that isn't a total asshole and that she fucked up when she broke up with him. She finds out that he has someone and she decides to visit his ex's family. When she knows he's going to be there. Who does that shit!!! Well she had a good guy, but she fucked up. Tough shit. He's with someone and we're happy. She has a lot of fucking nerve coming back. She needs to back the fuck off.

Some people are bald-faced opportunists & don't care how lame they look when they come around to "get" something out of someone.

xStacey
04-06-2015, 05:09 PM
I am so glad the guy i'm dating understands when I tell him I need some me time alone. I see him tomorrow, and this afternoon he texted me wanting to see me tonight too. I told him I worked all week-end, was a little tired being around people and wanted to spend some time by myself today. He did not start whining like my previous bfs and was totally okay with it! :)

charlie61
04-06-2015, 05:48 PM
I'm thinking I might start cutting my own hair. It's long enough that even if I fuck it up a little bit, it either wouldn't be noticeable, or would still be long enough that I could go get it corrected. I just never go in to get a haircut because I fucking hate the whole process, and I resent paying $40+ for it (not including tip, of course), so I get it done every year or so (yes, really). I waited 1.5 years the last time I got it cut...and I would've gone longer if my partner hadn't gotten me a gift card! Even after a six-inch cut, I still had mermaid hair, and I'm getting sick of it.

This is what I've been looking at: http://www.refinery29.com/how-to-cut-your-own-hair

xStacey
04-06-2015, 05:51 PM
I'm thinking I might start cutting my own hair. It's long enough that even if I fuck it up a little bit, it either wouldn't be noticeable, or would still be long enough that I could go get it corrected. I just never go in to get a haircut because I fucking hate the whole process, and I resent paying $40+ for it (not including tip, of course), so I get it done every year or so (yes, really). I waited 1.5 years the last time I got it cut...and I would've gone longer if my partner hadn't gotten me a gift card! Even after a six-inch cut, I still had mermaid hair, and I'm getting sick of it.

This is what I've been looking at: http://www.refinery29.com/how-to-cut-your-own-hair

Ooo i'd love to see a picture of your hair :)

xStacey
04-06-2015, 06:18 PM
Looks so long and voluminous! I am jealous

whirlerz
04-06-2015, 06:20 PM
Hey Charlie! Gorj!^
Ok, I cut my own hair..I am the same way, + I also need to color (my natural color's horrendous & grays). Today I went to a new stylist, I loved her color,
but she told me my hair's shorter in the back? Idk.
Anyway, the 2 methods I know of: you part hair down the middle, gather it all in a low ponytail @ nape of your neck, then secure all the way down (about 2" apart) with tiny rubber bands (I use those ones from Sally's, their mini size for woman of color kid's hair). I usually snip 1 - 2" off, depending.
The other method (I did this once, I might've done it wrong) says to gather/secure hair @ the top of head, put 1 rubber band/ponytail thing around it, pull it straight & trim.
I also cut my hair around the 1st waxing quarter of the moon. :)

charlie61
04-06-2015, 06:20 PM
Ooo i'd love to see a picture of your hair :)

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Back to others' confessions!

Elektra Luxx
04-06-2015, 06:21 PM
Doesn't seem like her fault. Sounds like a boundary issue that the boyfriend or his parents need to correct. It's weird that she is still so friendly with all of them, but it's the responsibility of the family to redefine that relationship.

No, it's my fault. Her parents are friends with his parents. She and the bf have known each other for many years. She goes to school out of town. She broke up with him because she said long distance relationships are too hard. (Code for, I met someone here and I want to fuck around without any guilt). Their breakup was very hard for him. He didn't expect it. He told me about it when I first started talking to him, but I never bought her up again, but from what he told me she sounded like a royal bitch. He's very nice person and he doesn't see the bad in people. That's one of the things I love about him.

I'm staying at my grandparents house for a couple of days and I turned off my phone.

BarbieNYC
04-06-2015, 07:50 PM
I still keep getting messages from newbs with one post asking me to help them find a club in ny or what clubs I work at. Only responded to one who bothered to write out a message explaining some stuff but still annoying. Wish I had never put NYC in my username. Ugh just leave me alone.

My bf and I are on the verge of breaking up. He went to go stay at his moms for a couple of days. I'm sad but enjoying the time alone. Watching a bunch of kids movies on Netflix. James and the giant peach is so sad. Also kids movies are so cool to watch as an adult.

Also I have a family member visiting from la who brought her friend with her. They asked to stay with me the last two days of their trip (I guess Manhattan hotel costs during the week are pretty high) so I spent all day cleaning and took off work only for her to text me saying they got a hotel because her friend didn't realize I live so far from the main part of Manhattan. WTF I live 16min from times square on a non ghetto train with reception. It takes me 8min to get to midtown Manhattan.

People from LA are stupid when it comes to public transit. Whatevs. I get the apartment to myself for a couple of days.

Ugh I hate everyone.

Kellydancer
04-06-2015, 08:16 PM
My guy friend has been giving me messages. I told him I hated online dating due to immoral men and he said he loves that I have morals. His mother has been telling me we need to spend the day together. It's funny, I gave up on him and now he keeps telling me things. He just told me he thinks I am pretty and wants to marry (he didn't say to me)but wants wait for sex until marriage. Weird.

OliveJardin
04-06-2015, 10:36 PM
My ex has finally stopped contacting me asking to "catch up", which is a relief. But, I confess that I was planning to stay on good terms with him, in case I ever needed him to cat sit or help me move (he has a van). Oh well.

xStacey
04-06-2015, 11:01 PM
There are some members whose posts I really enjoy reading, thought they disappeared off SW but just noticed they post almost exclusively in the Camming section now. :( I might start peeking even though I don't cam...

miss.a.p1600
04-06-2015, 11:30 PM
I really wish I could take a break from all my adult responsibilities for a month or two or longer, travel to a new city, and start a new life

ScarletKitten
04-07-2015, 01:43 AM
I have a crush on Edward Snowden now. When I saw him on Jon Oliver's show, I had to control myself b/c my bf was sitting right there. I still blurted out how cute he was. Seriously way too adorable. I was getting naughty thoughts listening to his voice and his nerdiness turns me on. lol

I want to fuck Edward Snowden.

anacol
04-07-2015, 05:12 AM
I feel extremely optimistic and I'm praying for the best this year. And I can't wait to finally leave the industry and be able to tell you ladies goodbye and that I truly hope that your day comes where you finally got to the point in your life where everything came together and made sense and you can now be and do exactly what you want. 🙏

kaninchen
04-07-2015, 10:18 AM
I always want to dress like a femme fatale à la Claire Underwood, but what I've actually been wearing lately is daisy dukes and a sparkly hoodie. And kid's tees. ... And heart-shaped sunglasses.

Sophistication is hard.

SnuffleUffleGrass
04-07-2015, 10:20 AM
I always want to dress like a femme fatale à la Claire Underwood, but what I've actually been wearing lately is daisy dukes and a sparkly hoodie. And kid's tees. ... And heart-shaped sunglasses.

Sophistication is hard.

lol but the daisy dukes look is so fun tho

HoolaTwister
04-07-2015, 11:32 AM
I always want to dress like a femme fatale à la Claire Underwood, but what I've actually been wearing lately is daisy dukes and a sparkly hoodie. And kid's tees. ... And heart-shaped sunglasses.

Sophistication is hard.

This sounds pretty sophisticated not to mention AWESOME to me! :D

I confess that even though I might have broken up with exes and wanted nothing to do with them, Instill get jealous when they get a new girlfriend. I know that's crazy and unreasonable, but it gets to me.

HoolaTwister
04-07-2015, 11:35 AM
****edit******

miss.a.p1600
04-07-2015, 12:32 PM
I've been celibate for years (ugh yes plural) and I really want to find a wealthy insta-husband who can make me scream with pleasure on a nightly - or daily - basis and impregnate me with a cute baby.

carmen_b
04-07-2015, 01:12 PM
I'm supposed to be on the morning news soon ( day job ) and am super nervous. I actually am not wanting to go but it would be stupid to turn the invite down ( free advertising ). Don't quote please.
I'm stressing out feeling like I need spanx / new clothes.
:/

carmen_b
04-07-2015, 01:25 PM
Sometimes I feel like maybe I will leave my partner of almost 4 years. This is due to a slowing down of sexy time . On one hand ... It's not the end of the world to have slowed ( in the last few weeks ) to a couple times a week.
I'm going to deep clean our house. I think our hectic schedules have just made our lives "unhealthy"( dirty house , not enough healthy food, not enough sex ).

I think it's time to see someone ( mental health ) because I'm worried im going to just going to throw this relationship away and then regret it. But ... I DO NOT want to only have sex twice a week. DO NOT WANT.

I set up a food delivery service for us starting Monday ( healthy paleo ). If freeing up some of our time doesn't solve it, I'm only giving it 2-3 weeks ( and at least a few visits with a counseler ).

SweetJulia
04-07-2015, 05:26 PM
I have an ex fiance who broke up with me christmas eve 2011, after I got him an awesome new phone and laptop. I made a generic fb to see pics of how badly he's balding and how gross his gut is. He'd do weight training and take steroids, while fat bashing people. Newsflash: it doesn't matter how much muscle he has, if it's under layers of fat. I see the girl he's with now and it just solidifies I was too good for him. Like I told him, I'm too good for him.

Elektra Luxx
04-07-2015, 08:55 PM
After something happens that really upsets me, I takes me at least 3 days before I start feeling better about things. The bf thinks I overreact and I shouldn't be so insecure. Maybe I did overreact. Sometimes I think I'm my own worst enemy when it comes to relationships.

Confession - I don't think I'm over reacting, but I don't like being alone, I don't feel like being angry anymore, It takes too much energy to be angry and I'm very tired. I just miss the bf.

Spinnerette
04-07-2015, 11:51 PM
Ahahaha, I keep making plans to get laid and then I masturbate and come (lol) to my senses. I'm the worst.

But seriously, this is the longest I've gone without sex since my sexual debut. I deserve an award.

xStacey
04-08-2015, 05:39 AM
I am not looking for a new place to work but it really cracks me up when I check out sex work ads on craigslist for fun. Places that advertise "make $15 000 in one day!" I'd try out a place with realistic numbers even if it's on the lower side but I'd never work one day at a place promising girls they would make 15k per day constantly lol.

Elektra Luxx
04-08-2015, 08:04 AM
I'm learning that whenever I try to force something to happen in my life that I really want to happen, it always gets screws up. Things happen in life and I have very little control and I have to accept it or go crazy.

charlie61
04-08-2015, 12:26 PM
This is my favorite thread on this website, by far. And I love, love, love that it's in Ladies Only!

carmen_b
04-08-2015, 12:54 PM
The show is over ! Thank god. I didn't puke or fumble which is amazing.

Aurora_Sunset
04-08-2015, 07:50 PM
Sometimes, when I get a wine buzz on, I create online dating profiles just to mess with guys for awhile (nothing cruel or anything), and then when I sober up in the morning, I get bored and delete them.

Elektra Luxx
04-09-2015, 05:25 AM
I used my little brother for my own selfish needs. I invited him to spend the night so we could play video games, but really wanted him over because I didn't feel like kanoodling with the bf.

xStacey
04-09-2015, 03:15 PM
I want this semester to be over already. 2 more weeks until I am done with my finals.

41341

First day and last day of school lol

baer45
04-09-2015, 04:26 PM
Geezzz, you are still in school? That was like, 8 years ago for me.

BarbieNYC
04-09-2015, 06:10 PM
Boyfriend and I are pretty much broken up now. He's pretty much moved out into his family's apartment.

Very sad. Out of all the fights and everything this was the smoothest one. I just dont know how to feel. Im not crying, im not talking to him, im just very very sad...

The only thing left is his xbox. I think he left it because once he takes it, it means it's really over. I've just been watching Netflix on it for the past few days.

Ordered thai food for the first time in sooo long. Boyfriend hated thai food. Who the hell hates thai food?
Unfortunately thai food sucks in astoria. Couldnt even binge and emotionally eat the food it was so awful. And this place just opened up and has rave reviews. Wtf new york?

California>NY on thai food, sushi, and Mexican food
NY>California on pizza for reals nomnomnom

Shoulda got pizza...

ScarletKitten
04-09-2015, 06:21 PM
^^ :hug: Barbie, I'm sorry to hear about you and your bf. That really sucks. :( Break-ups are never fun. I hope your heart can heal soon. Sending love & positive vibes your way...

baer45
04-09-2015, 09:06 PM
I broke up with my bf as well. When I first met him, he had a good job and was very ambitious. He lost his job since last June and wasn't very keen to find another one. I am mad at his attitude. Although he never used a dime of my money for living in the past a few months and he even kept paying my expense. We used to talk about I quitting the career completely, right now he just doesn't mention it anymore. Our sex life got boring and I felt less attracted to him lately. I guess the feeling is mutual. He left my apartment for two weeks now. Next time I see him, he's probably going to pick up his stuff.

BarbieNYC
04-09-2015, 09:22 PM
Thank guys. It's been rough. Baer I feel like we were dating the same guy.

I broke down. I have an important job interview in the morning and i'm trying to cry myself to sleep.

He came by today and we were gonna talk but not even 30min after him coming by, he got a frantic phone call from his family to come back home because they needed him to babysit. Since he lost his job and has been unemployed hes constantly used for babysitting his nephews. I cant compete with his needy family.

He promised he would come back tonight but as we said good bye and I watched him go, I couldnt help but feel that goodbye kiss was goinf to be the last one we were going to have. I waited up for him like a fool but he never contacted me after that. I feel so stupid.

I need to sleep and pull myself together for this interview. It's full time, close to my house, pays overtime and benefits, and now ill only have to dance friday and Saturday nights. I am going to get this job.

MyButter
04-10-2015, 04:47 AM
There's a group of girls on this other forum I've been lurking on that are the bitchiest maniacs I've ever encountered. They fucking thrive on destroying anyone who doesn't suck up to them, and resort to tearing down one another when there's not enough fresh meat coming in. Their behavior is astonishing.

They frequently post pictures, and I know it makes me sound like a horrible person... but they are some of the most unfortunate looking women I think I've ever seen, and I find that extremely satisfying.

SimoneGray
04-10-2015, 06:59 AM
I confess that I am ready to start dating again after 3 years. Pity sex work has desensitized me completely to the joys of actual sex and all the other things that other people consider to be fun. I honestly can't see how having sex can be fun. Also can't see how doing sexy things for free is viable...my mind is seriously fucked up and all I can think about when it comes to sex is how I should conserve my energy for cam time.

So, I can't have sex with someone yet I feel ready to love and care for someone...so fucked up. :(

Aurora_Sunset
04-10-2015, 07:37 AM
I confess that I am ready to start dating again after 3 years. Pity sex work has desensitized me completely to the joys of actual sex and all the other things that other people consider to be fun. I honestly can't see how having sex can be fun. Also can't see how doing sexy things for free is viable...my mind is seriously fucked up and all I can think about when it comes to sex is how I should conserve my energy for cam time.

So, I can't have sex with someone yet I feel ready to love and care for someone...so fucked up. :(

:hug: So many hugs to you! I know exactly how you feel. It does feel so fucked up, and what makes it even worse is that I have no friends who can comprehend it. It's impossible to have a conversation with non-sex workers about how you can't enjoy free sex because of your job. They just don't get it.

I actually came here to confess that I'm going into a really terrible "I hate men" spiral this week. I hate being this way, but sometimes it seems like the fuckery never ends and they're all conspiring together to get women to hate them...

BarbieNYC
04-10-2015, 08:30 AM
Job interview went amazing! I really hope I get this job. It's a lot more professional than I thought it was going to be but the benefits and pay are soo good. I really hope I get it. I will keep my fingers crossed.

Boyfriend is coming over today to talk things out. I dont know whats wrong with him. Today he texted me like nothing was out of the ordinary. Wtf. Thats not healthy.

Im running on 2 hrs of sleep. I dont wanna deal with this.

Also I need ti stop call ing him my bf and start calling him my ex.