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Aniela
04-21-2015, 10:14 PM
Started my job search in earnest today. I am mainly looking at a few particular retail/sales positions bc they have really good commission deals, & even better medical/dental benefits, but I am afraid the ppl looking at my resumé will decide I'm overqualified & reject me.

I confess I am deeply frustrated that I can't fall back onto dancing right now bc my feet are still healing, I think it would be 6mo easy b4 I can go back to dancing. I also want to go for a ramp position at the airport (talk abt going back to basics) but for the same reason I am holding off on it, I don't want to impede my healing.

I know this last one is really putting the cart ahead of the horse at this point, but I'm putting it out there anyway: the thought of foot surgery has me really uneasy bc I don't want anything getting further in the way of my ability to work.

Tsepmet1
04-22-2015, 07:07 AM
Had another nervous breakdown yesterday. Definitely saw this one coming, so I contacted my doctor to refill all my meds.

I'm back on them now and dealing with the side effects. I'm shaky and nauseous. Ugh.


PSA: If you deal with mental illness, PLEASE stay on your meds. Even if you think that you feel better.

baer45
04-22-2015, 08:12 AM
I had a lady boner for this guy.

MyButter
04-22-2015, 08:45 AM
^ he's beautiful! I especially love his hair!

kaninchen
04-22-2015, 10:00 AM
^ Yeeeessss to hot stoner Jesus!

Vyanka
04-22-2015, 02:18 PM
He's perfect.

baer45
04-22-2015, 04:48 PM
^ Yeeeessss to hot stoner Jesus!


He's perfect.


^ he's beautiful! I especially love his hair!


oh Jesus!

charlie61
04-22-2015, 05:11 PM
All right, girlies, take your lady boners right on over to Picture Post! Back to confessions!

cherryblossomsinspring
04-22-2015, 05:28 PM
I have a sugar daddy and for someone that hasn't had sex in just under 5 years I actually look forward to fucking. Geeze he's so good in bed! Plus today is allowance week #2 $1,000k! I feel terrible because I absolutely hate camming right now. When those fuckers talk to me for a few minutes I'm think damn wish next week would cuuuuum sooner so I can actually have some mind blowing orgasms. Also just to add I never expected to meet anyone off of those sites especially a guy that's like "ooh it's ok if you don't want to do oral". It's like yaaaaaah 3k allowance with a week off, fine dining, cozy 5 start hotels that he books and did I mention orgasms? I'm a greysexual you would think the sex part was my least favorite but he has such lovely thick fingers! Plus I love his beard. He was going to shave and his trainer was like "she likes it so don't remove it from your face". His trainer is a good man... a good man indeed:) lol

Ohh and he's the best cuddler and smells so good! We spent all night watching the Walking Dead and having orgasms and stuffing our face with the yummy goodness for the hotel restaurant.

Love My Sugar Daddy! Who knew it could be this fun?!

It's so difficult to log into cam sites now. I even despise my fucking skype. I'm thinking hurry up bitch and get to the point. Plus I barely get off on cam because guys are so fucking cheap!

One guy keeps trying to get me to update my fucking amazon. No bitch I'm not dildoing myself for some fucking laundry detergent! I can't even believe these guys ask me "why are you single" durp. Like what the fuck am I going to do with someone that wants to talk me to death for $15 my cut ? Gross.

I'm seeing my Sugar D tonight... uggg more orgasms and dinner time:) I'm still full from the previous night since apparently it takes my body forever to digest now!

xStacey
04-22-2015, 06:21 PM
I started reading books on personal growth and achievement (not usually what I read). It must be working already, I just dragged my lazy ass to the gym after weeks of inactivity lol

miss.a.p1600
04-22-2015, 06:41 PM
So my manager calls me to the office to try and get to know me - wtf?!? I hate when they do this. He asks for my number and I get all excited on the inside like yes the moment I've been waiting for! Then I realize he just wants to fill the roster for this slow ass shift that I'd rather walk over hot coals after foot surgery than come in early and work a dead shift.

Ugh! What a pussy teaser.

OliveJardin
04-22-2015, 10:29 PM
I confess that when I sneeze I can feel my implants jiggle-it's so weird!

tempest666
04-22-2015, 11:19 PM
All these posts about buttplugs and fisting make my arsehole very scared.

culitos
04-23-2015, 01:13 AM
Thinking about becoming a cam model more and more. I haven't been to work in a month, and honestly I don't think I can keep making stripping my primary source of income much longer without me losing my mind.

amberlly
04-23-2015, 05:44 AM
I need a new dirty text buddy. Ugh my last one dropped off the face of the earth.

kaninchen
04-23-2015, 09:02 AM
I love my boyfriend but I also really love having my place to myself. When he's not here I'm a little embarrassed over the things I appreciate, like, "Ooh, now I can finally use my bedside table!"

If we ever move in together for real, we're gonna need a big place. I'm too introverted. I need like an entire wing of a home to myself.

zoezoebelle
04-23-2015, 10:31 AM
I hate wearing makeup and I hate the color pink. But my body type and voice scream "cute little doll" to everyone, so I have to put on this cute, innocent little girl persona with an all pink outfit and doll makeup. I kind of wish I could capitalise on something other than the "barely legal" look.

kaninchen
04-23-2015, 10:44 AM
I'm supposed to be at school right now, but I'm cutting my first class in favor of watching a tom cat hunt and eat a lizard in my back yard. I have a perfect view from my kitchen window.

Nature is fascinating.

Elektra Luxx
04-23-2015, 11:25 AM
I love my boyfriend but I also really love having my place to myself.

I gave my bf a free pass tonight to do anything he wants to do by himself. Hang with friends, go to strip club, greco-roman wrestling whatever. I doing stuff with the family tonight anyway and plus I need a night to myself.

Aurora_Sunset
04-23-2015, 11:32 AM
Totally just adopted an adorable 3-legged manx cat from the shelter even though I should be saving my money - not adding more monthly expenses... oops...

I lasted almost 5 months volunteering at the shelter before taking someone home - I'm pretty proud of that!

SimoneGray
04-23-2015, 01:02 PM
www.glitterheels.com is officially my new obsession. I confess that I have spent an hour cutting down my grocery bill so that I can buy shoes from them next week.

wednesday86
04-23-2015, 01:09 PM
when I'm working in the club I rarely get jealous of the top earning dancers but I get SUPER JEALOUS of the wealthy men and couples I meet-especially the younger ones around my age. I don't even care about cars, mansions or designer stuff. They just seem so at ease because they never worry about money.

MyButter
04-23-2015, 01:47 PM
I get SUPER JEALOUS of the wealthy men and couples I meet-especially the younger ones around my age. I don't even care about cars, mansions or designer stuff. They just seem so at ease because they never worry about money.

^This is how I feel about rich California Indians. I'm beyond jealous of them.
My tribes: impoverished subsistence communities that live in tin shacks.
Pechenga and Aguas Calientes: $20,000-50,000 a month.

I remember my Pechanga classmates being absolutely horrified when they learned I wasn't getting a $200,000 check upon graduation. God, it makes me so sad/mad.

kaninchen
04-23-2015, 02:38 PM
I gave my bf a free pass tonight to do anything he wants to do by himself. Hang with friends, go to strip club, greco-roman wrestling whatever. I doing stuff with the family tonight anyway and plus I need a night to myself.

OMG dying at "greco-roman wrestling." Hahaha!

zoezoebelle
04-23-2015, 02:38 PM
Three months ago, I was sitting in my car after my second ever shift shouting, "I am never ever doing this again! I can't do it. I won't go back! This is the worst job ever." I had a breakdown and disappeared from work for a month and tried to apply to other jobs. But after going back and working again for a while, I'm starting to actually enjoy my job. I feel like it's making me more confident, bold and assertive. When I take away the taboo of it and the sense of shame, and just be myself, I realise that I can get a lot out of the work even beyond money. Sometimes when I'm grinding up against customers now I actually orgasm myself. I'm not afraid of them anymore, and I've learned how to control them with my eyes more so than my hands. I got used to the high contact of my current location and it doesn't worry me anymore, because I understand my limits.

I think I'm a sex worker. I'm actually considering taking this a step further and taking "side commissions" with a few trusted people when I have free time. I never would have thought that I'd do this before... but it makes sense. Sex has always been my life. Ever since I hit puberty I've been fascinated by it, read books on the topic, experimented with friends, etc. Even as a little kid I used to create elaborate scenarios with my dolls and their love affairs. I love fucking and love intimacy and don't judge based on people's appearance. And even with this job, and with my long history of sexual trauma, I feel completely at peace with myself. I walk through the park, draw in my sketchbook, sip at a cup of tea, watch the wind blow... Somehow I've transitioned from being terrified and ashamed to being at home in my own skin for once. It's like I've taken back control of something important which was stolen from me years ago.

lynn2009
04-23-2015, 04:17 PM
I feel so bad for the intern at my day job. She's so crazy smart and I'm afraid it's taking her longer than it should to find full-time work because she's a black woman.

Selina M
04-23-2015, 04:28 PM
Me, boyfriend, our friend and her family, and my mom all have a betting pool going, on when our recently-married Mormon friend (who is adamant they are not having kids soon) gets knocked up. We all said "No, you're Mormon, you'll get pressured into creating a new member of the church and being a stay at home mom". Everyone is guessing what month she'll announce it in. $10 buy in.

Slightly fucked up but honestly, it was either that or the "When she confesses she wants a divorce" pool... cause none of us have any faith in her marriage either. We're all going to hell.

Aniela
04-23-2015, 07:20 PM
I went out for drinks w/ a friend of mine tonite. When I rang him from boot a few wks ago he told me 'Oh btw just got engaged' Congrats, etc. We went outside after a while so he could get a smoke & he said 'Wait, b4 I light up, can I -- ' & moved in & tried to kiss me. Holy fkng shit NO! Just no.

So now I know he's apparently got the hots for me, is totally cool w/ fooling around on his SO when there's 'trouble in paradise' (his words not mine) :banghead: last time I saw him was a couple nites b4 I left for boot & he was a total gentleman, but he said tonite that that nite was a 'turning point' bc he didn't think he'd ever see me again. He didn't overstep again after I made it clear I wasn't having it, but now I'm stuck wondering if I really want to continue a friendship w/ a person who would be so admittedly disrespectful.

Serena-Shields
04-23-2015, 09:16 PM
My mom just got a Rottweiler puppy for her boyfriend. Since she paid for him in advance, she couldn't give him back after he went to rehab so he's living with me and my brother right now. I know it's bad but I'm secretly hoping she'll never take him back. She wants us to keep him for a while, not indefinitely, but I'm hoping that they'll realize that they are NOT cut out to have a dog and just leave him here. I love him to death, but I'm not paying the 900$ she said she would charge me if I wanted to buy him and I'm also not keen on her taking him back to her boyfriend, who isn't good with dogs. I don't trust him after he started throwing firecrackers at my dogs every time they did something bad.

EDIT: Now she's considering selling him so that she can pay to leave and move in with her boyfriend. She's had him a week. Jesus Christ. My mother, ladies and gentlemen. Queen of recklessness.

wednesday86
04-23-2015, 09:43 PM
my confession: I don't think I can ever go back to dancing at this point...I want the money, but every time I think about actually doing it, I start to panic and want to puke. I wish I could get over it. I just feel like I'm beyond burned out to the point of no return. I'm having issues and ptsd from it I didn't even know about that's starting to surface. It's weird because I don't remember feeling like this WHILE I was in the middle of it..but now that I quit, I'm like "How did I do it for so long? How did I even manage in the first place?" Good lord

xStacey
04-23-2015, 09:56 PM
It's nice being a female... We get to follow porn stars on Instagram, like and comment their pictures without people thinking we're creeps ;D

Elektra Luxx
04-23-2015, 10:48 PM
I'm going out of town with the bf this weekend. So I'm spending time with my parents tonight and I mention it to them and my Dad starts giving me the 3rd degree. Where are you going? Where are you staying? I imagine I would be the same with my kids too. You never stop being a parent.

zoezoebelle
04-23-2015, 10:55 PM
my confession: I don't think I can ever go back to dancing at this point...I want the money, but every time I think about actually doing it, I start to panic and want to puke. I wish I could get over it. I just feel like I'm beyond burned out to the point of no return. I'm having issues and ptsd from it I didn't even know about that's starting to surface. It's weird because I don't remember feeling like this WHILE I was in the middle of it..but now that I quit, I'm like "How did I do it for so long? How did I even manage in the first place?" Good lord

Please find a good therapist for yourself. Whether or not you go back to dancing is beside the point, but your mental health is paramount. I've been in therapy for many years now, since I was a teen, and it's helped me recover from a lot of PTSD. Having someone you trust, who is paid to listen to you and support you, who won't judge or ignore you, is invaluable. No matter what you've done, your therapist won't call the police or make any record of it or tell anyone. It's so helpful when you need to feel safe again. My heart goes out to you.

tempest666
04-23-2015, 10:56 PM
I'm scouring Etsy for a fully functional light saber buttplug. ::)

Aurora_Sunset
04-24-2015, 08:14 AM
I feel like I need to start appreciating my money more. I remember my very first day stripping - day shift - made 80 bucks. I remember counting it over and over and over again with my mind BLOWN that I could make that much money in 5 hours! lol obviously it got better. For maybe a month or 2, I would count my money several times when I got home - knew exactly how much I made down to the dollar. Eventually it became "old," and I would just come home, toss the wad of money on my desk, and pass out without even knowing how much I really made until the next day.

These days, I can make 1000 in a 4 hour appointment, take the envelope without even counting it because it's a regular I trust, put in my purse and by the time I get home, I basically forget it's even in there. I don't remember "Oh yeah, I should actually count that" until the next afternoon when I'm preparing my purse to go somewhere. That's terrible! I want that "money high" and excitement back. I want to appreciate it to that extent again. I don't want to get so spoiled by it that I stop appreciating it.

Money really is like a drug... 80 in 5 hours used to ramp me up for days, bragging about it over and over... - now 1000 in 4 hours is like "Oh wait, yeah, I worked last night.... meh." How sad... I think I might put myself on a "minimum wage detox" next month to get my perspective straight again.

Elektra Luxx
04-24-2015, 09:14 AM
I picked up a really good looking guy last night and he spent the night.

No, it's not that. I have the day off so my little brother stayed over. I love that kid.

BarbieNYC
04-24-2015, 12:40 PM
I need to go back to taking ballet classes. With my depression and long break from the gym I've gained back a lot of the weight i'VE lost. My ass looks great but I have a tummy again. I'm so disappointed with myself. And the idea of going to the gym makes me sad as the ex and I used to work out at the same gym together.

I was in the best shape of my life when I was an intensive ballet dancer. And I was truly happy. I live in ny with so many famous dance centers how could I not take advantage of it. And I walk by one of the most famous ones every day on my way to work in times square.

My ex is trying to work things out. I am trying to be strong but I'm really thinking about working it out. He's been trying to get himself out of his depression, going to the gym everyday and is going to start a great full time job on Monday. I was so sick this past week and he's been there for me. He says he wants to take care of me and doesn't want me to struggle anymore. I'm so confused.

michele11
04-24-2015, 01:33 PM
Fucken drunk asshole last night! I take him to the ATM which took forever because he was drunk only for him to say " no I'm not doing anything! I had to give him the money because he thought it didn't come out. I could of took it and said oh it didn't work right. But, I am not like that. I kept trying to get him to give me one of the hundreds. He gives me a twenty. I said karma will get you asshole! maybe he got a dui when he left!

HoolaTwister
04-24-2015, 02:33 PM
I confess that I'm suffering from crippling depression. I'm just going though the motions of life. I go to work, I come home, go to sleep, get up, get ready for work, rinse and repeat. I have no energy at all. The only reason why I'm still making it to work is if I didn't, I'd starve on the streets. Things were so bad but my ex really made things even worse. I think I have PTSD. I just pretend everything is ok. I do things for others and help out and honestly, these people aren't even my friends. I'm so done with it. I can't go on anti depressants anymore because they make me SO anxious and truly make thing even worse. I've tried them all, they just don't agree with me. Waiting to see a new therapist, the office has to call me to set up an appointment, hopefully soon. I just don't how to function in this world. A lot of really scary things happened to me growing up, very dysfunctional home life and all those typical things. I feel like someone broke me as a child and no one bothered to glue me back together.

charlie61
04-24-2015, 02:41 PM
I think I'm a sex worker. I'm actually considering taking this a step further and taking "side commissions" with a few trusted people when I have free time. I never would have thought that I'd do this before... but it makes sense. Sex has always been my life. Ever since I hit puberty I've been fascinated by it, read books on the topic, experimented with friends, etc. Even as a little kid I used to create elaborate scenarios with my dolls and their love affairs. I love fucking and love intimacy and don't judge based on people's appearance. And even with this job, and with my long history of sexual trauma, I feel completely at peace with myself. I walk through the park, draw in my sketchbook, sip at a cup of tea, watch the wind blow... Somehow I've transitioned from being terrified and ashamed to being at home in my own skin for once. It's like I've taken back control of something important which was stolen from me years ago.

If I were you, I'd absolutely be escorting. Ice that shit up, girl! Just be careful - don't take less money simply because you enjoy the sex - charge what you feel you're worth.

charlie61
04-24-2015, 02:45 PM
I confess that I'm insecure about my stage shows since I've been back. I always look very confident and work the slow-and-sexy thing up there, but inside, I'm like, what the fuck am I doing up here? It's just been so long since I last danced...I've forgotten most of my moves! All of the other girls do fancy tricks on the railings that really get the crowd engaged in their shows, and I'm just up there sauntering around, walking around the pole... :P

BarbieNYC
04-24-2015, 04:28 PM
I confess that I'm insecure about my stage shows since I've been back. I always look very confident and work the slow-and-sexy thing up there, but inside, I'm like, what the fuck am I doing up here? It's just been so long since I last danced...I've forgotten most of my moves! All of the other girls do fancy tricks on the railings that really get the crowd engaged in their shows, and I'm just up there sauntering around, walking around the pole... :P

Is it just me or does it feel like stage shows are getting more and more demanding for less money?

At least in urban clubs I remember all I had to do was some basic ass clapping and booty popping/individal cheek twerking to get rained on. Now it's a whole fiasco to get even $20 showered on. Now urban clubs have always been known for their amazing stage shows but usually theyre followed by lots of money being thrown into the air. Now it's popcorn dollars and guys throw $4 like theyre a freaking boss in a rap video it's so pathetic.

This doesnt really apply to big urban clubs where people know what to do. But in the smaller clubs ive noticed this trend and do not like it one bit. If im twerking upside down and flipping into a split I expect some money. Ive stopped doing my fun stage shows because it's just been sad.

Ok back to confessions.

I'm getting really fucking sick of taking public transit. I left early to catch my bus but my train to times square was delayed, then I missed the bus by a minute, then I was able to catch another bus that would drop me a $5 cab ride away from the club. And I should already be at work by now but nope im gonna be 5 minutes late and pay a late fee. Ugh

I know to be early is to be on time, to be on time is to be late, and to be late is to be dead but what the fuck?! I left early! How much earlier do I have to leave to be on time? An hour?!

whirlerz
04-24-2015, 04:43 PM
What're 'popcorn dollas'?

Hoola, hon, hope you can get better, Sweetie!

Now, my confession..driving bk today I spotted an ex fwb..he has a certain vanity plate. I followed him a bit (he drives reeeallly fast!) caught up w/him pulled up to a red light , but he took off making a right, & I kept straight.

Eh, probl for the best.

BarbieNYC
04-24-2015, 04:51 PM
Popcorn dollars are when they ball up the singles and shoot them like basketballs to try and hit u. Pain in the ass to find them and undo them, but the only thing I like about them is the idiots throwing them dont really keep track of how much theyre throwing so it adds up. Still a pain though id much rather get rained on

Tsepmet1
04-24-2015, 05:00 PM
Holy fucking shit. Sertraline is causing me to become sexually aroused every time I yawn. It is apparently a known side effect in about 5% of patients.

"Yawngasm" FTW.

whirlerz
04-24-2015, 05:04 PM
My other Confession is, I hid some $, & couldn't find it. We're talking like a couple hrs. later, lmao. Finally I did, that's like the 3rd time! :(

lynn2009
04-24-2015, 05:12 PM
Holy fucking shit. Sertraline is causing me to become sexually aroused every time I yawn. It is apparently a known side effect in about 5% of patients.

"Yawngasm" FTW.

Omg, that shit kills my sex drive like nothing else.

Aniela
04-24-2015, 06:57 PM
My best friend from uni & I go back over 10yrs now & he knows me better than probably any1. We have periods where we don't talk much, just bc we are both busy, him esp w/ work & a fiancée. But it's been ages since he called, & while I def get 'having a full plate' it feels like I'm usually the one to make the effort to call. After the nasty things my ex said b4 I left for bootcamp -- 'I'm not saying I dated you out of pity, but you were stuck stripping, couldn't hold a normal job & still grieving over your dead ex & your dead little boy' -- basically saying he had no respect for me & just dated me as a charity case -- my ex knew me almost as well, & it's made me fear deep down if my best friend has really just been distancing himself for the same reasons, & I'm afraid to pick up the phone.

Aurora_Sunset
04-24-2015, 09:16 PM
Was walking in front of a couple tonight when the girl had a hypoglycemic episode and collapsed and the guy yelled at us to call 911. Coinky-dink - the paramedic that showed up and checked her was my sexy neighbor that I have a thing for. Super hot to see him in action, even if it was only checking blood sugar and asking questions.

(The girl is ok :))

Aurora_Sunset
04-24-2015, 09:26 PM
My other Confession is, I hid some $, & couldn't find it. We're talking like a couple hrs. later, lmao. Finally I did, that's like the 3rd time! :(

Also - I do this allll the time lol

I live alone in the back of a safe neighborhood and have deadbolts. I don't know who I think I need to hide money from.