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michele11
05-04-2015, 10:44 PM
Another wack job newbie started 4 threads asking where to make money. I give her advise and she gets all offended and calls me sugar. Lmao. Does she lnow who she's talking to I just made more in 3 times in 3 weeks what she claims to make in a month but yeah I don't know anything. let her work on her pole skills so she can go to Vegas. Lamo. 18 yr old know it all.

michele11
05-04-2015, 10:45 PM
Omg I need sleep.

michele11
05-04-2015, 10:53 PM
I give up. I cant help stupid. Every month someone starts a thread " What's the best money making club"? Where can I make 1000 a night". Um like it's a simple answer. Not everyone has the potntial ad if that pisses me off when I say that and then they say they make it at their club then please tell me why they are asking?!?

michele11
05-04-2015, 10:54 PM
Them off. Gosh. I need to just go to bed.

amberlly
05-05-2015, 01:32 AM
@Michelle11 plz write an ebook w your advice. For smart ppl. Not everyone can be a top earner but anyone can improve.

I have to wait till tomorrow to watch my favorite soap opera

SweetJulia
05-05-2015, 04:52 AM
It was really dumb to drink, causing me to be too hung over to take what I do for depression. I ended up with just under two grand in less than 24 hours, my personal best, and still couldn't stop snapping at people and crying. Here's another confession, I've lost twenty pounds in a month, am down from a d to an a to a small b cup, and look and feel like shit. Happy fucking Tuesday :)

Elektra Luxx
05-05-2015, 05:31 AM
Every single day something new goes wrong in my life. I can't catch a break. Nothing goes right for me and EVERYTHING goes wrong. People keep saying I should look at things as a roadblock. I can't. Not when my entire life is a road block.

I try to be optimistic and keep a positive attitude but all that does is disappoint me that much more when everything falls apart. Every time I was waiting in the subway stations and saw the train pulling up I fantasized about jumping in front of it. I hope I have the balls to actually do it soon. I think I'm almost there. I can't deal with a life where everything goes wrong all the time.

I'm sorry you feel this way. I can completely sympathize. If your feeing this way, you need to find someone you can talk to about the things happenning in your life. It doesn't have to be a professional, just someone. Please PM me if you need to talk.

SimoneGray
05-05-2015, 05:52 AM
I confess that I had a sex dream about a friend of mine that I am somewhat attracted to. I kinda got over it in real life until this dream..he was such a damn good kisser and now all I can think about is going there, even though I don't think he would ever want me in that way and I don't want to ruin our friendship over a one night stand, but man oh man...he is super sexy to me now.

michele11
05-05-2015, 08:31 AM
@Michelle11 plz write an ebook w your advice. For smart ppl. Not everyone can be a top earner but anyone can improve.

I have to wait till tomorrow to watch my favorite soap opera

I'm going to start doing like a live version of dancer wealth at clubs and training girls when I have time and they would need to work where I work. I may do a book if I ever have the time:)

whirlerz
05-05-2015, 08:38 AM
I'm going to start doing like a live version of dancer wealth at clubs and training girls when I have time and they would need to work where I work. I may do a book if I ever have the time:)

Sounds gr8 :)

miss.a.p1600
05-05-2015, 08:46 AM
I'm hungry and I don't feel like cooking or driving to get food. I wish I could have fresh organic groceries delivered. *sigh* guess I'll have to go forage for food before I die of starvation.

I'm also on a money high from yesterday and hope to keep the momentum going.

OliveJardin
05-05-2015, 08:49 AM
Every single day something new goes wrong in my life. I can't catch a break...

I try to be optimistic and keep a positive attitude but all that does is disappoint me that much more when everything falls apart. Every time I was waiting in the subway stations and saw the train pulling up I fantasized about jumping in front of it.

^Beautiful, I am so sorry you feel this way and wanted to say hang in there. I confess that I can relate and that I had a similar experience recently, a bus zoomed towards me and I actually thought about stepping in front of it. I know I wouldn't have, but to have considered it in that split second scared me.

MyButter
05-05-2015, 09:21 AM
We went out to this fancy shmancy seafood restaurant last night, and I must confess that my waitress had the sweetest little butt. It was small, but deliciously plump. She was maybe a size 2, so it was like BAM on her frame.

le sigh, I don't know why I am such a perverted old man on the inside. I try not to be.

Aurora_Sunset
05-05-2015, 07:10 PM
I just wanted one day - ONE day within the surrounding 3 weeks - that was just about me and getting my shit done and caught up on. I started the day off so well and feeling so good. And I stupidly didn't turn off my phone, had people blow me up about shit that I don't care about, and then just spent the last hour listening to one of my friends try to justify her affair with a married guy. I was SO CLOSE to completing my to-do list. And now I no longer have the mental wherewithal to do the last, most important thing. I'm lying on the couch and just feel like crying. Which is stupid. But, christ almighty - could I not just have ONE day where it's not about everybody's else's bullshit?

amberlly
05-05-2015, 08:30 PM
I spent dinner faking enthusiasm over random shit. The other person can't wait to catch up again. I'm just tired

buttonpop
05-05-2015, 08:41 PM
im lonely. i only truly care about two people in this whole city, and i dont want to meet new people because im moving soon. i'm pretty much only still living in this city to work and save $ for my move, but i can't motivate myself to go to work when all i want to do is curl up with somebody and cuddle.

my best friend was supposed to visit me this weekend, and looking forward to that has kept me going this month. but he had to cancel. i was so sad on the phone i could barely talk.

i can't wait to get out of this town and meet new friends and start my new life in my new city this fall. however i am also scared for this summer because i plan on travel dancing but i'm so damn lonely i dont know what i'm gonna do in the midwest by myself.


i might blow off work tonight to hang with this guy who likes me, but i can't help but feel like im using him because i'm just lonely and horny. :(

xStacey
05-05-2015, 08:59 PM
My dad is one of the most irresponsible person I know. He's impulsive, cannot plan, doesn't have any long-term goals. He's either abusing alcohol or other substances, gambling or spending money (often other people's money) on things he cannot afford, like a brand new $30 000 car when he cannot even pay for gas or insurance.

He's been working for the same company ever since he immigrated to Canada. He's not very resourceful, he's been unsatisfied with his working conditions, cut hours but he never tried to find another job, he doesn't even know how to write a resume. He's easily angry, often gets into fights with his coworkers, physically assault people he doesn't like at work. He was often suspended but today he was fired from his job after meeting the director. I heard the news through my mom, my dad refuses to tell her why he was fired.

I am so mad because I've worked so hard to put myself through school, get good grades, pay for my apartment, my bills all by myself without any help or ever asking my parents for anything. Why can't they even take care of themselves? They're approaching 60, still live in the same shitty apartment located at the ghetto I had left years ago, they have no savings. I know it won't be long before my parents contact me to ask for my help and some money because my mom only earns $200 working 6 days per week and at $800 per month, that is NOT enough to pay for rent, bills, food and the car my dad couldn't afford. We don't really have any family so the responsibility will fall on me, I am so frustrated I was planning on saving as much as possible over this summer so I wouldn't have to work next year when I start law school.

xStacey
05-05-2015, 09:27 PM
This is making me even more upset about those girls at work who keep bragging about their rich parents. Why am I not a highborn ? Lol

amberlly
05-06-2015, 05:16 AM
Sometimes I only really like my family and our pets.

OliveJardin
05-06-2015, 10:41 AM
I confess that I wish I knew "International No Diet Day" was yesterday. My friend was talking about food all night and I was so good that all I "ate" when I got home was a cup of tea...in retrospect I should have drowned my sorrows in a plate of something delicious! I also confess that I have nothing "delicious" in my house right now, not even peanut butter :(.

BarbieNYC
05-06-2015, 10:48 AM
Cinco de mayo sucked!!!

I'm Mexican and from los Angeles so Cinco de mayo is a big deal to me. And in astoria there were tons of people at the overpriced, upscale, crappy Mexican spots getting drunk but I wanted to go to like a festival or like a party area with real Mexican bars and dance all night.

So hit up my ex and we went out to his old Mexican neighborhood which is Jackson heights. And it was deeeeaaad in the whole area. The bars there are usually packed. Astoria had more going on. what a disappointment. I had two coronas and went home.

Sometimes I really miss cali

xStacey
05-06-2015, 03:14 PM
The sales man I bought my new laptop from was so hot.

michele11
05-06-2015, 03:50 PM
This is making me even more upset about those girls at work who keep bragging about their rich parents. Why am I not a highborn ? Lol

Be glad you don't. Everyome I know who did grew up to be a loser because of ther parent they have zero work ethic. I knw it's a reality show but watch southern charm sometime. The one guy has a law degree( bought by his parents) and refuses to work or talke the bar just parties. All the men are pathetic on ther because they come from money.

xStacey
05-06-2015, 04:41 PM
Be glad you don't. Everyome I know who did grew up to be a loser because of ther parent they have zero work ethic. I knw it's a reality show but watch southern charm sometime. The one guy has a law degree( bought by his parents) and refuses to work or talke the bar just parties. All the men are pathetic on ther because they come from money.

My ex parents are very wealthy and he dropped out of school after his first semester in college to become a painter lol (I don't know of many painters who drive the latest BMW)... at least his younger brother is in medical school. I know not all rich kids are spoiled brats, some of them take the opportunities offered by their parents to pursue a higher education, make use of their families connections... But yeah I probably wouldn't have been as hard working if I had it easy.

It's so annoying because at the current upscle club where I work there's a lot of girls who come from a good background with well-off parents and they really love to brag about it. They're so proud to say they only do the bare minimum at school when their parents are paying all the tuition fees, their car, apartment, bills, expensive vacation, they're not even dancing to become financially independent. The reason they decided to do sex work was so they could buy designer purses because their parents don't give them allowance for such futilities!! Another one was telling everyone that her parents are university professors, they give her everything that she wants, take her on shopping sprees, she's 22 and hasn't even completed high school.

Oh and one gal even bragged once about how her dad bought her breast implants at 17 for her and all her sisters ::).

michele11
05-06-2015, 05:58 PM
^ You are better than those girls and are working hard. Don't worry about them they will never accomplish anything more than likely. Most are probably lying too. Most girls who have really wealthy parents don't become entertiners.

charlie61
05-06-2015, 06:29 PM
I'm going to start issuing infractions to repeat threadjack offenders. We all get distracted sometimes! But this particular thread seems more prone to deviation than others, and there's a clear difference between a couple of people commenting on something briefly and moving on vs. threadjacks.

No, I'm not PMSing.

Onward with confessions! :)

zoezoebelle
05-06-2015, 07:01 PM
I tell myself that I'm starting to love this job, that it's brought so much adventure and opportunity to my life. But I think that's the optimist trying to convince the rest of me to accept my situation. There's a strong dichotomy between the part of me that's becoming addicted to the fast money, power play and sexual outlet, versus the part of me that feels like a sentient blowup doll and wishes I could live a normal life. I keep breaking more and more of my personal boundaries with this job, slowly but surely. What will be left of me in a year or two? Perhaps I'm still discovering what it is I want out of this work, and perhaps I will simply hit a point of balance between money and personal space. I hope so.

Elektra Luxx
05-06-2015, 07:19 PM
I tell myself that I'm starting to love this job, that it's brought so much adventure and opportunity to my life. But I think that's the optimist trying to convince the rest of me to accept my situation. There's a strong dichotomy between the part of me that's becoming addicted to the fast money, power play and sexual outlet, versus the part of me that feels like a sentient blowup doll and wishes I could live a normal life. I keep breaking more and more of my personal boundaries with this job, slowly but surely. What will be left of me in a year or two? Perhaps I'm still discovering what it is I want out of this work, and perhaps I will simply hit a point of balance between money and personal space. I hope so.

Confession: Your post make me think that I wanted a normal life so bad I jumped at the first normal guy to showed an interest in me. Everything is good, just thinking out loud.

michele11
05-06-2015, 07:29 PM
Awe. The bathroom attendant at the club I work is the sweetest guy. he always gives me things for free. I try to give him money and he never accepts it. He tried to give me his facebook last year and I lost the info. He's so happy were friends now. He always says love ya. He just messaged me and said " luv ya have a good night". My familly doesn;t even do that. Sad huh. He kept me sane this year and I'm glad to know him. I'm a werido.

zoezoebelle
05-06-2015, 07:36 PM
^That's really sweet. I actually am kind of feeling that way about my regular right now. He's the only customer I've felt safe giving my phone number to. He just texts me very occasionally to say "hope you're doing well" or "are you coming in today?" and spends a few hundred on me each week. But all he ever wants to do is rub my back. He'll take me to the VIP for an hour or more some days and just sit there massaging all the knots out of my back, and hold me really tight. He's never tried to touch me in any inappropriate way or asked anything of me. Some days I don't feel like coming to work and he'll text me and say, "Aww, I miss you." I don't feel like I can tell him this, but he's becoming such a huge support in my life. He makes this work so much easier. Some days I'll have a crazy rough time with other customers, and then he shows up and just massages all of it away. I know someday he'll get tired of not being able to take me home, but for now he is my lifeline.

kaninchen
05-06-2015, 07:39 PM
I ordered a pizza today and ate three slices of it. I've been struggling with seriously disordered eating for, um, 16 years now. Wow. I'm really proud of myself for not bingeing and purging, which is usually what happens when I'm alone with risky food.

Go me, I guess! :boggled:

whirlerz
05-06-2015, 07:49 PM
Today I visited 'my animals' which are some elks in a large woods, & then there's a cool pet store, that has a 'mini farm' in the back with llamas, goats, chickens, & ducks in the back. They have their own little mini barn & separate fenced areas. They also have a large indoor pond w/koi, a bird, & some guinea pigs. When I had my bunnies I'd take them there, they have a Santa for Christmas & Easter Bunny for photos. It's kinda of a mini Whole Foods for pets too, they have organic feeds, special shampoos, etc.

amberlly
05-06-2015, 08:16 PM
Group projects time later today. Kill me

Vyanka
05-06-2015, 08:28 PM
FB and Instagram have a page dedicated to pictures of mixed race babies, & I'm hooked looking at beautiful exotic babies. <3 Makes me wanna have a baby. Omg, not now.

amberlly
05-06-2015, 10:05 PM
Ugly guys in my building keep trying to talk to me. Fail. Hot ppl only outside work

OliveJardin
05-07-2015, 06:26 AM
I confess that I just comfort ate at lot of cheese-it was low fat and not even good :(.

Elektra Luxx
05-07-2015, 07:20 AM
I confess that I can't stopping thinking about going back to school. I read all the posts of all these amazing ladies working hard to get their degrees and I'm thinking I want to better myself too.

SimoneGray
05-07-2015, 07:27 AM
^^ I was about to say the same thing haha. I have found a course that I wanna do and a business I wanna build. I confess that I have been fantasizing about Domino's Pizza all day...lol

Aurora_Sunset
05-07-2015, 07:59 AM
Sometimes I'm grateful for a male perspective on threads here, but 95% of the time, I wish the blues were confined to Customer Convo and their blue side where I could avoid them if I wanted to.

michele11
05-07-2015, 12:20 PM
my sister wants to stop by like why? I don't have any adderall and I can;t find my lexapro so I'm withdrawling because i have't taken it in 5 days. And She has stolen form me and i have 5000 in my purse and I dont wanna worry if i leave the front room she'll run in my room amd try to tske it or stuff. Ugh. I just wanna go back to sleep too I had maybe 3 hours of sleep a night for 6 weeks and now I have to go pick up my lexapro.

michele11
05-07-2015, 01:31 PM
Glad that's over. she's comes over all high and sorry. I don't need it. he wanders around like an idiot not making sense. I deal with that in the club. She left because I said it smelled like pot and she thought i offended her. No really she was just ignorant. I told her not to come here like that anymore and she said that's the only way she can take me. I can;t have a conveestion with people like that! why can't I have a normal sister!

lynn2009
05-07-2015, 05:34 PM
I wish I wasn't too lazy to do my makeup everyday. I look so pretty when it's done.

michele11
05-07-2015, 06:47 PM
Honestly you should not be traveling to dance if your asking an average amount girls are making in Vegas right now. Do these girls realize their are tons of clubs and 300-500 a shift. lmao. I just worked golf season with 150 girls and i couldn;t tell you what anyone was averaging there except myself and maybe the girl I went with because I was too busy. Also most girls aren't broadcasting it with 3-500 girls. Lmao.

kaninchen
05-07-2015, 07:58 PM
My boyfriend's out of town tonight, so I'm gonna smoke a TON of pot, do beauty treatments, and watch romantic movies with my cat. Mwahaha!

(Clearly my idea of a good night is rather tame...)

Elektra Luxx
05-07-2015, 08:37 PM
I went to the doctor today and I gained 5 pounds!!! The bf and I have only been seeing each other for less than 3 months and we eat out all the time. I try to eat healthy if we get fast food. We go to a burger place, no cheese, I remove the top bun, extra tomatoes, pickles, onions, lettuce, no fries, drink water. The bf orders double meat, double cheese, large fries, large soda and eats happily not worrying a smidge if he gains weight and his food looks great. So it starts, I steal one or two fries and I end up eating all of his fries. The bf says he doesn't care if I gain weight. Well I do!

Confession: I love fries, chesse, pizza, soda, fried foods, bread and butter, oh god I love hot fresh baked bread with melted butter. I wish I could eat what I like without the guilt.

xStacey
05-07-2015, 08:50 PM
I feel so stupid when I read posts I wrote years ago lol. My English was so poor at the time too, it's not perfect now but improved a lot since, thanks to Netflix, English novels and SW ;D

DonaDiabla
05-08-2015, 05:31 AM
My confession:

I want to become a cruise-ship psychic entertainer and wear huge headdresses. :)

miss.a.p1600
05-08-2015, 10:44 AM
I feel so stupid when I read posts I wrote years ago lol. My English was so poor at the time too, it's not perfect now but improved a lot since, thanks to Netflix, English novels and SW ;D

I never would have guessed English is your second language. You write very well. Better than some people who have English as their first language.

I am learning a second language. I practice on customers in the club. Surprisingly I seem to know just enough to sell dances in another language although I can't wait till I can speak and write fluently.

xStacey
05-08-2015, 11:04 AM
I never would have guessed English is your second language. You write very well. Better than some people who have English as their first language.

I am learning a second language. I practice on customers in the club. Surprisingly I seem to know just enough to sell dances in another language although I can't wait till I can speak and write fluently.

Thank you for the compliment!

My first language is French, the two languages share a lot of similarities but I still have some difficulty with verb tenses in English. Reading and watching movies in the language you're trying to learn really helps... or dating someone who's fluent in that language :P

Unfortunately I think I wrote more posts on SW than essays in English in my entire life lol. In some of my classes the mandatory textbook is written in English and all of the scientific articles from data bases, but otherwise all my assignments have to be written in French.

(Sorry for the threadjack)

kaninchen
05-08-2015, 11:34 AM
Thank you for the compliment!

My first language is French, the two languages share a lot of similarities but I still have some difficulty with verb tenses in English. Reading and watching movies in the language you're trying to learn really helps... or dating someone who's fluent in that language :P

Unfortunately I think I wrote more posts on SW than essays in English in my entire life lol. In some of my classes the mandatory textbook is written in English and all of the scientific articles from data bases, but otherwise all my assignments have to be written in French.

(Sorry for the threadjack)

I've been studying French for four years. I wish I were as proficient in French as you are in English!