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Selina M
05-11-2015, 08:19 PM
I feel like death warmed over, there is pretty much nothing that sounds decent for dinner in the house right now... so I just told bf to bring me steak and lobster back from his work.

This is hilarious to me because I always see people getting stuff to go from there, and I think "must be nice to have enough money that 'takeout' consists of a steak" and find it absurd. I'm totally not like that. Takeout is cheap Chinese or pizza. But here I am lounging in bed, like "can you bring me a sirloin, medium rare, and one of those lobster tails in that seasoning".

charlie61
05-11-2015, 10:06 PM
I confess that I just ordered from Yandy for the first time, and I'm super impressed. I ordered my things at 4 pm on Friday, used their free shipping option (the slowest one), and received my stuff today (Monday). Yeaaaah, that's pretty awesome!

Aniela
05-12-2015, 03:02 AM
I SO need to be put on closing shift at work. Fk this 0530 shit. Hoping that after I get back from my friend's wedding nxt wk they will move me to nite shift, since they put me on for a few nite shifts at the end of this wk.

BarbieNYC
05-12-2015, 05:40 AM
I confess I tested out my new pheromone perfume on my ex.

After my first night went well at work with it, I wanted to see if it affected how my ex treated me. So we met up in the city. I didn't put on any perfume, just the pheromone oil and omg I didn't want to believe it but what a huge difference!

It was like when we first started dating. he was super affectionate, really sweet, and caring and just so different from the depressed, aloof guy he turned into towards the end of the relationship. I'm so confused. And he kept saying I smelled so good LOL

Funny story about why I decided to try pheromones.

a couple of shifts ago an old coworker from my first new York club showed up to work at my current club. It was so fun catching up. Anyways we got on the topic of this dancer who was a top earner. It seemed like she could go up to any guy and get dances. and her dances were super clean. Practically air dances. We just didn't understand it because she had such a strong b.o. like an armpit. this girl was a sweetheart but anytime I lent her clothes I just told her to keep it. Her smell lingered on me when she hugged me. All the girls talked shit about her odor.

And then it clicked that she probably smelled like sex to these men. Like her smell probably appealed to their primal instincts. So I remembered pheromones and picked some up but never bothered to use it until my last shift and my last shift went very well. So I figured why not see how it affects the ex and well there are the results. Lol

ava$
05-12-2015, 08:12 AM
^^Where do u get pheromone perfume? I wanna try this..

Aurora_Sunset
05-12-2015, 08:37 AM
I have an expensive vet appointment to pay for later today, and know that I will probably get shitty and expensive news about my car any minute now - and I still dropped a ton of money on Amazon just now.... I suck at budgeting lately.

hf487
05-12-2015, 08:44 AM
im addicted to Pinterest- Ive made three bomb ass meals from recipes on there in the last 2 days! Its so Awesomeee! Yum

michele11
05-12-2015, 09:16 AM
I confess I tested out my new pheromone perfume on my ex.

After my first night went well at work with it, I wanted to see if it affected how my ex treated me. So we met up in the city. I didn't put on any perfume, just the pheromone oil and omg I didn't want to believe it but what a huge difference!

It was like when we first started dating. he was super affectionate, really sweet, and caring and just so different from the depressed, aloof guy he turned into towards the end of the relationship. I'm so confused. And he kept saying I smelled so good LOL

Funny story about why I decided to try pheromones.

a couple of shifts ago an old coworker from my first new York club showed up to work at my current club. It was so fun catching up. Anyways we got on the topic of this dancer who was a top earner. It seemed like she could go up to any guy and get dances. and her dances were super clean. Practically air dances. We just didn't understand it because she had such a strong b.o. like an armpit. this girl was a sweetheart but anytime I lent her clothes I just told her to keep it. Her smell lingered on me when she hugged me. All the girls talked shit about her odor.

And then it clicked that she probably smelled like sex to these men. Like her smell probably appealed to their primal instincts. So I remembered pheromones and picked some up but never bothered to use it until my last shift and my last shift went very well. So I figured why not see how it affects the ex and well there are the results. Lol

Haha. I confess that last part made me crack up.

BarbieNYC
05-12-2015, 10:03 AM
^^Ava I bought it from Pleasure Chest in Manhattan. I'm sure a lot of sex stores sell pheromone perfume or pheromone oil. The pheromone oil I use is called Pure Instinct and it's pretty popular. It was $12. They had a pheromone perfume for $170. I forgot the name but woof smelled like bad B.O. and heavy perfume. But apparently that one was the most effective. I couldn't stomach the smell though. Might've been better suited for a man.

The pheromone oil I bought is light and makes you smell like you just got out of the shower. I put it on my wrists, behind my ears, and on my collar bone and rub it in. A little goes a long way. Then you can just leave it like that but I still like to spray my perfume on top of it. It makes it last longer.

I wore it to the vet today because the vet can be kind of a dick to me but he's a great vet. He ended up being so nice and being much more pleasant than the last visit.

BarbieNYC
05-12-2015, 10:10 AM
Aurora I feel your pain on the vet. I went in for just a follow up and ended up leaving $350 out. Ugh the vet straight hustled me. He didn't tell me the labwork was that much money. If he was a stripper he would've taken me in the back for one lap dance and just kept going without checking in and gotten 30 dances out of me. Lmao. I'm not even mad, just annoyed.

And Michelle yes the way that girl made money was a mystery. She was such a sweet girl but pretty plain looking and overweight. We all loved her. She just smelled so bad. And she could get anyone in the back. Even guys that were only into spinners or asian girls or whatever. She just had something magnetic about her. and she wasn't a shark or aggressive. Sweetest girl ever. And super clean in the back. A mystery that will never be solved loll.

michele11
05-12-2015, 10:22 AM
^ i wonder if it works on pets?

BarbieNYC
05-12-2015, 10:34 AM
^^ my rescue dog sniffed me for a little bit but now she's back to caring less about me. Lol

OliveJardin
05-12-2015, 11:17 AM
I confess that I am not a leper! I was recently fired from my stuffy, profitable, upscale club and worked at dive club-it was completely soul destroying (i.e. I cancelled my last shift there, due to the horror, and spent the next few days watching Friends re-runs with my cat...I didn't/couldn't even shower or barely eat). I confess that, at that point, I was making plans to move interstate!

Tonight-I got hired at another upscale club and it was wonderful. I have put my moving plans on hold!

SnuffleUffleGrass
05-12-2015, 12:29 PM
I confess that I am not a leper! I was recently fired from my stuffy, profitable, upscale club and worked at dive club-it was completely soul destroying (i.e. I cancelled my last shift there, due to the horror, and spent the next few days watching Friends re-runs with my cat...I didn't/couldn't even shower or barely eat). I confess that, at that point, I was making plans to move interstate!

Tonight-I got hired at another upscale club and it was wonderful. I have put my moving plans on hold!

Happy to hear it, some clubs can be soul crushing

SimoneGray
05-12-2015, 12:38 PM
A girl I went to high school with died today. She and I were never that close, but she contracted leukemia when she was in 9th grade and fought through it so bravely throughout high school. She finished high school and went to college for a bit before relapsing this year and finally passing today.

I confess that her grace through her fight was one of the most inspiring things about her and I drew so much from that even though as I said we were never really close. I feel an overwhelming sadness that she's gone because in the last couple of years I was actively rooting for her to get better, as were many people from our high school. I just wanted her to be able to enjoy life and not worry about all the other stuff. I am sad that she won't be able to now, but I also know that her last two weeks on Earth were really good ones. RIP you strong, sweet girl. I never thought I'd feel like this about someone I didn't really know that well.

kaninchen
05-12-2015, 01:07 PM
I have to write a paper for my French class about the financial benefits of working abroad and I'm writing about various SW members (anonymously, of course) as examples. LOL college is ridiculous.

baer45
05-12-2015, 06:03 PM
The mice trap caught a mouse. I just put the sticky pad with little mouse on it to the middle of street. It's going to be messy but I ain't killing anything today.

lynn2009
05-12-2015, 06:19 PM
The mice trap caught a mouse. I just put the sticky pad with little mouse on it to the middle of street. It's going to be messy but I ain't killing anything today.

That sounds horrific
:/

The mouse will likely have a heart attack before getting run over.

kaninchen
05-12-2015, 07:59 PM
The mice trap caught a mouse. I just put the sticky pad with little mouse on it to the middle of street. It's going to be messy but I ain't killing anything today.

Won't the sticky pad stick to someone's tires though?

ScarletKitten
05-12-2015, 11:16 PM
^^Poor mouse. :(

My confession: I miss my bro in law. He is completely insane, but damnit I miss talking to him. He had some interesting things to say. But he is schizophrenic and has borderline personality disorder. Not a good combo at all. But I still love him and care about him, despite the fact that he went off on me for literally NO reason whatsoever. But we have this psychic connection....and the past is kinda fucked up because I had some feelings for him. I don't have those same feelings anymore, I love my bf/husband to death, but I know I will always care about his brother. I just wish he could get some mental health help. I know, I'm one to talk, I'm insane too. But I can't help but feel compassion for those who are suffering. Also, my bf's son who is autistic is being bullied in school and I'm pissed about that and want to do something about it.

I care more about my bf's family more than my own damn family.

zoezoebelle
05-13-2015, 06:19 AM
I am possibly the least reliable employee ever. xD Sometimes I'll come in and my manager says, "Hey, glad you showed up." But he's literally never reprimanded me for it, except once for not calling in. I make so much money that they have to just suck it up, even when I come in two hours late most shifts and take off more than half of them.

xStacey
05-13-2015, 06:37 AM
I registered for a four-week mindfulness meditation activity offered by my school, the first class starts this afternoon. Hopefully it won't be too boring.

xStacey
05-13-2015, 10:19 AM
I have to sell some stuff (worth around $500-1000 each, otherwise I wouldn't even bother) and I really don't feel like taking pictures of the items, posting them online, writing a description, replying to e-mails & phone calls and then meeting the buyers in person. Ugh, I cannot just throw them away (designer coats, bags, electronic stuff) but I don't want them sitting around in my apartment anymore.

SimoneGray
05-13-2015, 11:12 AM
^^ Why don't you just hold a SW sale? hehe

I confess that I am super in the mood for a nice sweet pie, tart or flan...even though I am doing my level best to eat well.

baer45
05-13-2015, 12:14 PM
I recognize a previous customer on TV as a respectable business man today. He looks a lot older.

xStacey
05-13-2015, 01:05 PM
I recognize a previous customer on TV as a respectable business man today. He looks a lot older.

I had a long-term regular who went on a reality show to find love and since he hasn't returned to see me at the club :( He used to visit every other week lol

baer45
05-13-2015, 01:46 PM
I had a long-term regular who went on a reality show to find love and since he hasn't returned to see me at the club :( He used to visit every other week lol

Well, I met him from my other line of work. :)

KariSwitch
05-13-2015, 02:28 PM
I almost "died" last Saturday. Went to a friends b-day party and ran into a guy that I had danced for a few nights before. Was so afraid he was going to say something, but he didn't. Most people don't know that I dance. I talked with him briefly, and he said that I looked familiar, but couldn't place me - told him that I danced for him a few days ago and he turned bright red. He was funny and apologized profusely. He even bought me and my gf a drink. Just as our drinks came, over came his his wife (who was supermodel hot). I'm thinking how the hell am I getting out of this. She looked mad or so I thought. She just introduced herself, complained about her heels, and ask how we knew each other. He said that he ran into me when he was out with the boys the other night and how it was funny that we had a good friend in common. She said to make sure that he bought me a few drinks for having to put of with his friends. I don't think she knew about the strip club but it was just one of those times where my heart was kinda in my throat.

Now I usually don't really remember people that much from the strip club, but he was a totally hottie, just the right amount of muscles, and one of the most respectful guys I've danced for in a while. He was apprehensive about getting dances, but his friends bought him three dances with me. As soon as he sat down, he just placed his hands next to himself, and never once tried to cop a feel. I didn't have to dance defensively... I actually said something to him about thanks for not groping me, and he said "it's just about respect; isn't it?". And he tipped nicely afterwards - why can't all dances be like that!!!!

whirlerz
05-13-2015, 04:20 PM
I have to sell some stuff (worth around $500-1000 each, otherwise I wouldn't even bother) and I really don't feel like taking pictures of the items, posting them online, writing a description, replying to e-mails & phone calls and then meeting the buyers in person. Ugh, I cannot just throw them away (designer coats, bags, electronic stuff) but I don't want them sitting around in my apartment anymore.

Seriously, post in the "For Sale/Wanted" sec. :)

Me: Weird drunk guy outside my door, yelling @ his wife on the phone :(

charlie61
05-13-2015, 04:49 PM
I confess that I had a horrible attitude about paying for insurance monthly until I found a decent, low-cost option (~$200/month) on ehealthinsurance.com (https://www.ehealthinsurance.com/ifp-client/index.html). I thought I was just going to have to buy catastrophic insurance (pay insurance companies $400+/month for insurance that is completely useless unless I get my leg chopped off). But the option I found lets me go in to see a doctor once a year for preventive care (free!), has a low copay for additional office and specialty visits, and has a fairly low deductible in case anything terrible were to happen (~$1500). In other words, I'd actually be able to use my insurance if I needed it! Wow, what a concept!

So my confession is that I'm feeling just slightly less jaded about having to have insurance. :)

kaninchen
05-13-2015, 05:10 PM
I just mistook a shadowy rumple in my sheets for my phone and actually reached for it.

lynn2009
05-13-2015, 05:30 PM
I confess that I had a horrible attitude about paying for insurance monthly until I found a decent, low-cost option (~$200/month) on ehealthinsurance.com (https://www.ehealthinsurance.com/ifp-client/index.html). I thought I was just going to have to buy catastrophic insurance (pay insurance companies $400+/month for insurance that is completely useless unless I get my leg chopped off). But the option I found lets me go in to see a doctor once a year for preventive care (free!), has a low copay for additional office and specialty visits, and has a fairly low deductible in case anything terrible were to happen (~$1500). In other words, I'd actually be able to use my insurance if I needed it! Wow, what a concept!

So my confession is that I'm feeling just slightly less jaded about having to have insurance. :)

That's a great deal

MyButter
05-13-2015, 06:02 PM
I spend an embarrassing amount of time abusing the shit out of the search function on here.

It's funny to me that the newbies can't seem to locate it, and here I am doing random searches on words like "platypus".

Aurora_Sunset
05-13-2015, 06:58 PM
I refuse to get rid of several VHS tapes and my ancient VCR for sentimental reasons.

whirlerz
05-13-2015, 07:05 PM
I know! ^ I'm glad u said that, I've a tv/vcr combo, & a decent collection of vcr's, they're dirt cheap now.

KikiGem
05-13-2015, 07:50 PM
An ex flame of mine ( who I just found out had a gf) disrespected me in the grossest way possible. I don't want to go into details the nasty things he said.
He deals, so I reported him to the DEA, local police and through an anonymous tip line, who will send a report of their own. I'm positive he will get busted in the very near future. You deserve it you misogynistic, low-life, narcissistic bastard. Hope you get everything that's coming to you.
Tl; dr don't disrespect a crazy angry bitch. Men everywhere, heed this advice.

charlie61
05-13-2015, 09:09 PM
I confess that I recently tried Lexapro (stopped due to side effects). But anyway, I tried running some searches on "delayed menstruation + antidepressants," and I couldn't find any studies on the topic. Both antidepressants I've tried (Wellbutrin and Lexapro) have delayed my periods, and it seems to be a fairly common 'side effect.' It just blew my fucking mind that something so obvious and important hasn't been studied extensively. I find lots of forum posts on the topic (anecdotal), and I found an article or two that mentioned this 'side effect,' but no formal studies. I can't find anything that tells me why it happens physiologically, and that freaks me out.

I feel like if this were a male issue, it would've been studied before, and that pisses me off.

zoezoebelle
05-14-2015, 07:08 AM
I feel like a bad, dangerous person, because everyone keeps falling madly in love with me and having their heart broken. Last night he said, "I love you" and stared into my eyes, and I basically said, "How old are your kids?" I watched the fantasy break in his eyes. The worst part is, I want to say it. I still do. I've never felt this strongly about another human being in my life. But I can't hurt his family. His daughter is older than I am. She'd never look at him the same way.

The 50 year old has been canceling meetings and risking his rapport with family and friends just to sweep me off my feet, and I have to be the one to crush his dreams with my totally stoic face. I wish I were someone else right now. I wish I could be that selfish bitch who runs away with him. I wish I could say it.

Aurora_Sunset
05-14-2015, 10:22 AM
There's a tumblr about sex workers that I used to love. They posted questions/responses, and sometimes serious links to news articles/resources/informative websites and blogs, but they also did a lot of "memes" and quote pictures that resonated with me and made me laugh. They used to update them all the time.

In the past year, they stopped doing the pictures and pretty much only post serious stuff, generally about the same project/website/organization over and over again, and only update every 3-5 months.... It really makes me sad. I guess the owners have other things going on, and I get it that they wanted to post more about things that matter, but those "fun" little pictures are what drew me to it because they were a stress-reliever.

Every time I think about the site and check up on it and see it hasn't been updated, or if it has, it's something that's already been posted before about a website, I get kinda upset.

Selina M
05-14-2015, 10:34 AM
Ok, didn't want to make a whole separate 'look-at-me' thread, but totally have to share with you gals... I got engaged last night :D

(And now I REALLY am not sure how I feel about continuing to dance full time. Now I don't even feel like a stripper anymore, like the era has definitely ended. BUT I don't want to try dealing with $100/night waiting tables to pay all the bills. There, now this is a confession).

SimoneGray
05-14-2015, 10:49 AM
^^ congratulations!!! That is wonderful :)

I confess that I wish I could fix computers. Mine is fucking out and I have too much incriminating material on it from camming to take it into a shop.

OliveJardin
05-14-2015, 10:49 AM
I confess that I had a dream last night that I went to a play with a friend and we met two, cute, well to do, professional guys...it seemed so real, and I can still see their faces (I don't usually remember my dreams, let alone details). Needless to say, I woke up spooning my cat, which is fine, but I'm I was disappointed for a moment-I'm not going to lie.

OliveJardin
05-14-2015, 10:52 AM
Ok, didn't want to make a whole separate 'look-at-me' thread, but totally have to share with you gals... I got engaged last night :D

Congratulations!

kaninchen
05-14-2015, 10:57 AM
I feel like if this were a male issue, it would've been studied before, and that pisses me off.

Related: I confess (heh) that I have no idea if this is actually true, but I read somewhere that pharmaceutical companies once researched male hormonal birth control. I guess they inhibited sperm production? Okay, I don't remember the precise mechanism of action, but it was as effective as HBC is for women. Unfortunately, there were side effects.

You know, like weight gain, headaches, nausea, moodiness, acne.

These side effects were deemed unacceptable and the idea was scrapped. Apparently, men shouldn't have to deal with such inconveniences just for family planning. Women, on the other hand... *eye roll*

Elektra Luxx
05-14-2015, 12:05 PM
I've been sinking into deep depression the last few days. I'm sad and I can't stop crying and all I want to do is sleep. I just woke up about an hour ago. The apartment is a mess, dishes in the sink, clothes and shoes everywhere, unsorted mail. I didn't work yesterday or today and not planning on going in tomorrow. Worst I've been in years. I saw my therapist yesterday and she wants to see me once a week for a awhile. The bf is running scared because he's never seen me this bad before even before we stated dating. I think he called my sisters, because they both called a little while ago to ask me how things are going. We talk maybe once a week, but in the evenings after they get off work. I have something planned with the bf this weekend and I really don't feel up to it.

SimoneGray
05-14-2015, 12:16 PM
^^ AW..hugs hun. PM me if you wanna talk, been here before plenty times.

Prettyglitter
05-14-2015, 01:06 PM
I confess that I recently tried Lexapro (stopped due to side effects). But anyway, I tried running some searches on "delayed menstruation + antidepressants," and I couldn't find any studies on the topic. Both antidepressants I've tried (Wellbutrin and Lexapro) have delayed my periods, and it seems to be a fairly common 'side effect.' It just blew my fucking mind that something so obvious and important hasn't been studied extensively. I find lots of forum posts on the topic (anecdotal), and I found an article or two that mentioned this 'side effect,' but no formal studies. I can't find anything that tells me why it happens physiologically, and that freaks me out.

I feel like if this were a male issue, it would've been studied before, and that pisses me off.
This is true. Health care really doesn't take FEMALE issues seriously.

Aurora_Sunset
05-14-2015, 01:28 PM
One of my friends has up and disappeared after a blowout with her bf following his discovery of her affair with a married dude. The last facebook message I got from her was last night and didn't say anything important, she doesn't have a phone, and she didn't show up to work today. After the past several months of her claiming that the entire reason she wouldn't leave her abusive bf or the town she was in was because she LOVED her job so much that she didn't want to quit, it's really worrisome that she just basically quit on them today... But on the other hand, she doesn't exactly have a history of good decisions, and honestly the "running off with a guy without telling anyone or having any means of communication for days at a time" thing has happened several times before.

I don't know whether to be legitimately worried, or pissed that I know she'll probably pop up in a couple days and act like everyone is "oh so silly" for being worried...

I don't want to leave her without any friends to turn to, but her shit is just getting old lately. I don't know how much more I can take.

lynn2009
05-14-2015, 03:32 PM
I really miss when I could love stripping and it didn't feel like an hours-long battle against sexual assault.

Alternatively, I am finally registered for my first graduate class which starts on Sunday. This of course makes me think about my undergraduate and when I am being completely honest with myself, I regret almost all of it. It was so expensive, my mental health issues peaked, I was too shy/scared to approach professors. I basically went to three undergraduate universities, which would it hard for anyone to feel connected to any, but especially me. It wasn't the best years of my life like everyone always says. To me it was just years. And I should have majored in something else. I only talk to two girls fairly regularly, one of whom is worse than I am. I remember at graduation having no one to line up with and then at the department celebration I remember feeling really uncomfortable and out of place, leaving after 10 minutes and being so embarrassed to have my parents see it all.

michele11
05-14-2015, 04:19 PM
Wow really. A girl who dances in a private group I'm a part of sent me a friend request on facebook. So her friend tells her she can make sooo much money working for his company I markets live and puts up a video. I knew within 2 minutes of this 40 min video it was a scheme. A MLM pyramid scheme. I google the company and my point confirmed. The guy calls me a moron and say" your a stripper. You male dollars dancing what do you know". He took the video down. He spells worse than me. I went off. He tells me ok you teach her to be stripper and make money. I said is english your first language. This girl is a sweet girl and I can see her getting ripped off in this scheme. My point when he started name calling he was a fraud. idiot. i just had to rant because she's a striper why is this giuy her friend if he's going to talk about us like that!!!