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miss.a.p1600
06-01-2015, 11:31 AM
I don't get jealous often but I can't believe Kim kardashian is having another baby. *sigh* I really want another baby before my eggs shrivel up and die.

wednesday86
06-01-2015, 11:40 AM
I don't get jealous often but I can't believe Kim kardashian is having another baby. *sigh* I really want another baby before my eggs shrivel up and die.

You can borrow mine! He's been driving me nuts!! The Terrible Twos are in full force.

I confess that I am moving 1 week ahead of my husband and baby, so I will have a full week by myself at my new house...and I honestly cannot WAIT! I know I"ll miss them after 2 days and start crying, but right now the idea of having a whole week completely alone sounds amazing.

MyButter
06-01-2015, 03:59 PM
Every time I listen to the "That's a Moray" parody song I burst into an uncontrollable fit of laughter.

charlie61
06-01-2015, 06:59 PM
I cannot wait until the day when Holly Madison writes an autobiography. She better do it!!

Selina M
06-01-2015, 07:17 PM
I attempted to go to a job interview today... unexpected traffic made me 10 minutes late... I made it an excuse to call it a sign from the universe and bailed out on the interview.
Let's be real, I don't think I want to work anywhere that has a "district screening interview" before they'll even let principals see your application. It was the highest paying district in town, because it's full of ghetto, "dangerous minds" type kids. Half the schools have metal detectors. I'd want to kill someone sitting in the traffic to get downtown every morning. Not worth it, considering I have another interview with an actual principal at the 2nd highest paying district tomorrow.

OliveJardin
06-02-2015, 09:05 AM
I confess that, lately, when customers ask me "Why do you do this?" I have been replying, "So that my cat can have a better life!" ::).

xStacey
06-02-2015, 09:44 AM
I am so excited for my day off tomorrow to try out the high protein smoothies and yummy food recipes I found online!

miss.a.p1600
06-02-2015, 10:13 AM
I confess that, lately, when customers ask me "Why do you do this?" I have been replying, "So that my cat can have a better life!" ::).

Lol. I bet they weren't expecting that answer. I'm sure there are strip clubbers who are also cat lovers who can feel you though.

I am excited about going back to the club for a shift. I hope it's good money and worth my time.

kaninchen
06-02-2015, 05:50 PM
I cannot wait until the day when Holly Madison writes an autobiography. She better do it!!

I'm slightly disappointed because I mis-read this as her having already written an autobiography which you couldn't wait to read. I want to read it, too! Ugh, publish it already, Holly!

Selina M
06-02-2015, 05:58 PM
I feel like Jekyll and Hyde sometimes.

I'm either "Jekyll", where I'm super positive: really likable, my instincts of what to say to people are on point, might give the homeless guy $$, can buy into socially-normal things like caring about your appearance, want to volunteer somewhere to help people, Law of Attraction, true love exists, etc..... Or else I'm "Hyde": hermit INTJ-mastermind-elitist, I refer to "people" in my head like they're a separate species and think how much I hate them/how fucked the world is/bunch of damn sheep, won't give the homeless guy $$ because he'll spend it on crack like a stupid junkie, we're all gonna die alone so screw "love" since it's all chemical reactions anyway... Gah. I'm a crazy person.

Glamourmilf
06-02-2015, 06:01 PM
I feel like Jekyll and Hyde sometimes.

I'm either "Jekyll", where I'm super positive: really likable, my instincts of what to say to people are on point, might give the homeless guy $$, can buy into socially-normal things like caring about your appearance, want to volunteer somewhere to help people, Law of Attraction, true love exists, etc..... Or else I'm "Hyde": hermit INTJ-mastermind-elitist, I refer to "people" in my head like they're a separate species and think how much I hate them/how fucked the world is/bunch of damn sheep, won't give the homeless guy $$ because he'll spend it on crack like a stupid junkie, we're all gonna die alone so screw "love" since it's all chemical reactions anyway... Gah. I'm a crazy person.
I know right? I always blame 'hormones'.

Selina M
06-02-2015, 06:18 PM
I know right? I always blame 'hormones'.

Meee too! I did that today, bahaha. It's usually stress compounded with PMS, and I end up either screaming about something or crying in the fetal position in bed. Fiance looks at me like I'm crazy and I always remind him that HIS hormones stay at one level, MINE change throughout the month... ladies react to stress differently and we can't help it. There is scientific proof that we are chemically made crazy... but we're not 'crazy'.

kaninchen
06-02-2015, 06:31 PM
I confess that I have already put into motion my plans to seduce my sexy French classmate. His accent is to die for. He's totes flirting with me and wants to work out together to "reduce stress" for upcoming finals week. I love these easy young college boys! :devil: :devil: :devil: :devil:

*prances away, scheming lustfully*

xStacey
06-02-2015, 09:42 PM
Stripping 36 hours is way too much. I'm always so exhausted after my double shifts, can't believe I was thinking of working 42 hours (three twelve-hours shifts and one 6 hours shift) earlier this summer.

charlie61
06-02-2015, 10:06 PM
Stripping 36 hours is way too much. I'm always so exhausted after my double shifts, can't believe I was thinking of working 42 hours (three twelve-hours shifts and one 6 hours shift) earlier this summer.

::recoils, horrified::

You...do...what???!!! I can barely keep my little buns in the club for five hours at a time...

Bridget Gives
06-02-2015, 10:09 PM
I am a beauty queen who does PSO and Camming....boy if they only knew...... LOL

xStacey
06-02-2015, 10:10 PM
::recoils, horrified::

You...do...what???!!! I can barely keep my little buns in the club for five hours at a time...

Yeah I am really starting to think I work too much... I always come back home feeling sick, wanting to throw up, stomach pain, nausea... :/ not to mention my legs and calves are killing me lol

Bridget Gives
06-02-2015, 10:10 PM
Stripping 36 hours is way too much. I'm always so exhausted after my double shifts, can't believe I was thinking of working 42 hours (three twelve-hours shifts and one 6 hours shift) earlier this summer.

Ahh how I remember these days...only I did them on game days...usually when the yankees or red sox came to town...wore my ass out but totally worth it.....and the firemans conventions.....holy fucking hell of hotness

ScarletKitten
06-02-2015, 10:57 PM
I feel like Jekyll and Hyde sometimes.

I'm either "Jekyll", where I'm super positive: really likable, my instincts of what to say to people are on point, might give the homeless guy $$, can buy into socially-normal things like caring about your appearance, want to volunteer somewhere to help people, Law of Attraction, true love exists, etc..... Or else I'm "Hyde": hermit INTJ-mastermind-elitist, I refer to "people" in my head like they're a separate species and think how much I hate them/how fucked the world is/bunch of damn sheep, won't give the homeless guy $$ because he'll spend it on crack like a stupid junkie, we're all gonna die alone so screw "love" since it's all chemical reactions anyway... Gah. I'm a crazy person.

OMG, are you me? Everything you wrote is so me, down to the last word.

Okay, here's my crazy confession...

I wish I had a girlfriend. I love my man so much. But I feel like the side of me that wants a female lover/companion can't take it anymore. I'm obsessed with love, I want more of it, I feel too much, my heart's too big. I feel unsatisfied, broken-hearted.....not sure how to put it into words. Maybe I'm just super lonely. I'm like obsessed with emotions now. I don't know what to do with myself. I'm making no sense right now either.

zoezoebelle
06-02-2015, 11:22 PM
I confess that I enjoy getting sexual favors at work sometimes. ._. Tonight I didn't, because I'd just recently had sex before work. But some nights when I come in horny it's so hard not to let them play with me. Maybe I'm just a terrible opportunist. When I first started doing this, intimate sexual things like touching my nipples freaked me out. But I'm becoming so used to it in this high contact club that I'm starting to just take what orgasms I can get and not worry about it. Maybe I am just the same as the girls who have to work high. Sex has always been my drug of choice.

xStacey
06-03-2015, 08:18 AM
I hate going to the tailor. I always wait for the clothes I need to get tailored pile up before going. I hate taking the bus to go there, don't like the staff at the shop I go to they're snobby and arrogant but they do a good job, trying the clothes on and having someone take measurements so close to me, it always takes forever, then waiting a week to come pick up my stuff, sometimes they cut too little and I have to leave my stuff and wait another week, do another trip... I hate how the men stare and take all their time while taking my measurements, telling me to do a 360...

miss.a.p1600
06-03-2015, 12:00 PM
I confess that I enjoy getting sexual favors at work sometimes. ._. Tonight I didn't, because I'd just recently had sex before work. But some nights when I come in horny it's so hard not to let them play with me. Maybe I'm just a terrible opportunist. When I first started doing this, intimate sexual things like touching my nipples freaked me out. But I'm becoming so used to it in this high contact club that I'm starting to just take what orgasms I can get and not worry about it. Maybe I am just the same as the girls who have to work high. Sex has always been my drug of choice.

I can totally relate. I've been celebate for a while and I don't date cause I don't want to waste my time getting rejected by guys who can't handle dating someone in adult industry :( but then when I go to the club to work it's pretty much the only male interaction I get. Sometimes the guy is so hot, sometimes I'm just really horny and when I'm dancing my lady parts get excited. I have a regular who i don't mind grinding up on lol. I usually come to my senses before I can get an orgasm. That plus I don't think I can close my eyes or fully relax in the club.

Elektra Luxx
06-03-2015, 12:19 PM
I confess that I enjoy getting sexual favors at work sometimes....I'm starting to just take what orgasms I can get and not worry about it. Maybe I am just the same as the girls who have to work high. Sex has always been my drug of choice.

It really is my drug of choice. The euphoria I get from a good, hard orgasm is something I crave. Something I need. After that my day seems to go much better. If a client can make me come all the better. I'm very vocal, arch my back, go into spasms when I cum, the clients love it and lose it themselves. So when I have a real orgasm with client it's that an automatic repeat client. Making serious money while cumming, not too many people can say they make a living like that. I'm getting fucking horny just posting this.

miss.a.p1600
06-03-2015, 12:29 PM
It really is my drug of choice. The euphoria I get from a good, hard orgasm is something I crave. Something I need. After that my day seems to go much better. If a client can make me come all the better. I'm very vocal, arch my back, go into spasms when I cum, the clients love it and lose it themselves. So when I have a real orgasm with client it's that an automatic repeat client. Making serious money while cumming, not too many people can say they make a living like that. I'm getting fucking horny just posting this.

Nice! I wish I could have orgasms like that with a man. maybe one day in the near future. If I did I'd totally be capitalizing on that! But until then my drug of choice is mj. I can get similar euphoria and feel really good like I do after orgasms. If I have neither I am one irritable impatient b*tch.

I hope I have a good club experience today.

xStacey
06-03-2015, 05:17 PM
I love grocery shopping! I spent over an hour today at the grocery store lol

Aurora_Sunset
06-03-2015, 06:15 PM
I really miss my friend. He stopped talking to me back in February. He'd had a thing for me for a long time, asked me out a couple times, and seemed to not handle his feelings well after a few drinks. He finally decided he needed space from me to get over it and try dating other women. Which he is now. I just saw the "facebook official" post a few days ago.

I get where he's coming from - it is tough to continue being friends with someone that you have stronger feelings for, and I can respect the need for distance to get over someone. But it really really sucked for me to lose him as a friend. He was a great friend. He's a great guy. I'm glad he moved on and found someone - truly. Seeing the post didn't make me jealous or anything, it just made me sad that he had to cut me out of his life in order to do that. He even knew all about another guy friend doing the exact same thing to me and sympathized and told me how shitty that was when I talked about how much it hurt me and made me feel bad. And then he did it to me too...

Regardless, I'm still really happy to see he's moved on and found someone, because he's a very sweet and attentive person and he's obviously a "relationship guy." Our mutual friends would harp on me all the time about what a great guy he is and how he would make a great boyfriend. But I just never saw him that way, and couldn't picture trying to make it work when I knew I wasn't as into him as he was me. But we were still really good friends. We talked about things that I wouldn't talk about with anyone else. We could hang out and do nerdy things that I don't do with any of my other friends. The week he cut me off, I was going through some really rough stuff with an old friend of mine that he knew all about and was the only person I would have hung out with and talked all about with him - and I couldn't talk to him. It hurt.

Honestly, I have sat around so many nights and asked myself what the fuck was wrong with me that I wasn't attracted to him. Part of me feels like a moron that really fucked up. But I guess if you don't feel it, you don't feel it.

But I still really miss my friend... I don't think he even realizes how much it hurt me. I had a dream about him last night - about seeing him again and telling him how much I missed him. And it just made me cry after I woke up.

simone87
06-03-2015, 06:27 PM
i just had the realization today that i really have 0 actual friends..i have a few sort of friends that only talk to me when they are bored/have nothing better to do, or need something from me, but real "best friend"..some other woman i can pour my heart out to and tell everything and go shopping with and just connect with. I'm just going through this major depression right now about it, but i guess at least i have family and a boyfriend i can talk to so maybe i shouldn't complain. people just suck.

michele11
06-03-2015, 07:47 PM
My ex and I have been talking a bit lately and I can't believe I haven't screamed and hung up on him. He still begs me back. he said after we talked 2 nights ago he dreamt about me all night. We talked about my new kittens and the Persian we had when we were together and he started crying. I felt so bad but weird. He said he couldn't say goodbye to her when he left because she was under the bed ns started crying. He treated me like a queen but I don't think I'm meant to really be with anyone. I'm not tolerable of anyone or anything.

kaninchen
06-03-2015, 08:29 PM
I planned to break up with my boyfriend tonight, but I've been so anxious about it all day that I could puke. He's gonna be home soon. I can't believe I'm finally going to be free of him. Secretly, I think what I'm most afraid of is that he'll just say, "Fine, I never loved you anyway," or something, and I'll feel like all the hurt was for nothing. Fuck! It's so hard to stay strong and just do it. It's embarrassing how much I'm going to miss him when he treated me so fucking awfully. I'm ashamed to admit that I've even hoped, just a little, that he'll see I'm serious now and that he'll change. He won't. Oh well. No looking back.

amberlly
06-04-2015, 12:01 AM
I refused to get on a bus because the driver looked like one of those really handsy nightmare customers. I was convinced I would somehow end up murdered.

I told a friend at a work. She agreed I made the right decision. The bus was packed. Oh well - plenty of other buses

zoezoebelle
06-04-2015, 06:00 AM
This relationship is stressing me out. It's giving me serious burnout at work, partly because I feel guilty making him jealous and partly because touching other people fucks with my head. I'm senselessly worrying about the future, and already worrying about how traumatic it might be for both of us when we inevitably break up. Part of me just wants to end it for no damn reason, just to be single and not think about this. But that's insane. I've been happier than ever before since meeting him. I found someone I connect with on every level, who inspires and excites and spoils me all the time, who could even take care of me. And I want to throw it all away and be single again because I'm that afraid of getting close to someone. My heart just can't take this constant roller coaster that is dating. I don't have a family or even close friends that I can easily fall back on.

ScarletKitten
06-04-2015, 07:15 AM
^Let go of fear. Embrace love. :) I feel you on the burnout though. It's tough dancing when you're in love. When I danced, I would imagine a fortress around my heart to protect myself. Have strict boundaries and stick with them while working.

I want to try another club soon. Where did I put my lady balls?

michele11
06-04-2015, 08:24 AM
I hate being an adult! I wish I could be a kid again. Maybe I'll run away....

wednesday86
06-04-2015, 09:55 AM
I confess that I relate so much to Sheldon Cooper's character in the Big Bang Theory. I've just learned how to act in social situations and usually know when to keep my mouth shut. I even hate driving. I'll literally wait for my husband to get home and drive me to Target for one thing so I don't have to drive down the street.

baer45
06-04-2015, 12:32 PM
My ex still text me but he really sounds like an idiot. Like "hey, what's up with you? Blablabla"...For the past one and half years I was hoping he could find a job but he didn't . As soon as I dumped him, he found a quantitative analyst position . How did that happen? Go figure.

HoolaTwister
06-04-2015, 12:50 PM
I confess I really don't have any real friends, no girlfriends at all. They all come to me when they are freaking out about a guy, stresses out, need advice. I literally wrote a novel the other day to my friend who was having a rough time! I have done this many, many times. I pick up the phone at 3am when they call all hysterical because they are having a fight with their significant other. When I have an issue? They are never there for me, it's this half assed two sentence "advice" and then they change the subject. It's like I only attract total nutcases. And I want to just stop, I want to stop being so available and "an ear to talk to" because for one they don't deserve it and two, I have my own issues to deal with but I do it anyway. How to stop??

Oh and I have this crazy desire to please them too. I went out and bought my friend a REALLY cool present and shipped it to her just because I know she's broke right now and depressed and I wanted to cheer her up. Never in a million years has a girlfriend done that for me and now I feel like a fool.

Aurora_Sunset
06-04-2015, 02:01 PM
I honestly have no fucking skills. People ask or talk about what they're going to do when they get out of sex work or ask me what I'd like to do in the next few years/what my passions are, and I'm just like durrrrr.... It feels like everyone has something, even if it's just a hobby, that they can say "Well, I'm really good at _____" and I have NOTHING. I'm not creative - I don't draw or paint, do any kind of art, sing or play any instruments. It's been years since I've done any kind of dance consistently enough that I'd call myself good at it or even remember much of the basics. I've lost most of the only foreign language I ever learned. I can barely cook. I don't even know the fucking ins and outs of Microsoft Office: ask me to make an Excel spreadsheet and I'll look you like you're crazy. I can't even say I'm good at video games or some shit like that. I used to write pretty funny fiction and good poetry when I was in high school - I still look back on it and laugh and marvel at how good I was, but I cannot write like that anymore. I've tried to get back into and it's just not there.

I literally have n.o.t.h.i.n.g. in my arsenal that I could even impress people with a "hidden talent" - let alone think I could make money off of any sort of skill. Like, I know just enough about life to get through my day as a competent adult and that's about the only thing I'm good for. It makes me feel like a loser and terrified of where I'm gonna end up.

wednesday86
06-04-2015, 02:43 PM
^You're a good writer. You could definitely get a blog following going on imo ;)

wednesday86
06-04-2015, 02:50 PM
I don't know why but sometimes I have this strong urge to live like the Amish...no modern technology whatsoever. Just farming and living off the land. Growing my own food, churning my own butter. No TV, no internet, no phones, no fast food. Sounds amazing actually.

Elektra Luxx
06-04-2015, 03:07 PM
I honestly have no fucking skills. People ask or talk about what they're going to do when they get out of sex work or ask me what I'd like to do in the next few years/what my passions are, and I'm just like durrrrr.... It feels like everyone has something, even if it's just a hobby, that they can say "Well, I'm really good at _____" and I have NOTHING. I'm not creative - I don't draw or paint, do any kind of art, sing or play any instruments. It's been years since I've done any kind of dance consistently enough that I'd call myself good at it or even remember much of the basics. I've lost most of the only foreign language I ever learned. I can barely cook. I don't even know the fucking ins and outs of Microsoft Office: ask me to make an Excel spreadsheet and I'll look you like you're crazy. I can't even say I'm good at video games or some shit like that. I used to write pretty funny fiction and good poetry when I was in high school - I still look back on it and laugh and marvel at how good I was, but I cannot write like that anymore. I've tried to get back into and it's just not there.

I literally have n.o.t.h.i.n.g. in my arsenal that I could even impress people with a "hidden talent" - let alone think I could make money off of any sort of skill. Like, I know just enough about life to get through my day as a competent adult and that's about the only thing I'm good for. It makes me feel like a loser and terrified of where I'm gonna end up.

NOT TRUE AT ALL!!! You touched on writing skills a little. I was just thinking again today, that your writing is really good. Me and you are in the same line of work and you can express what I'm trying to say in an eloquent and articulate way. I wish I had a smidgen of your writing skills. I can remember a few of your posts where I just said "exactly ". And that's just something obvious.

Oh by the way, the first line in this post threw me off for a sec. "I honestly have no fucking skills" and I'm thinking "she has fucking skills, that's what she does for a living". Then l'm like wait that's not... Like my sisters say "a hello, earth to Ava. Your so dumb sometimes".

baer45
06-04-2015, 05:08 PM
When I was in school I was too poor, and I started working as a stripper to support myself. then I turned myself into stripper/escort after I graduated. I do have a master degree if you believe me. Several my clients wanted to hire me but I'd still like to live the way I am right now. I would be able to retire from sex work before 35. After that...haven't thought much about it yet. get married?

zoezoebelle
06-04-2015, 06:15 PM
I honestly have no fucking skills. People ask or talk about what they're going to do when they get out of sex work or ask me what I'd like to do in the next few years/what my passions are, and I'm just like durrrrr.... It feels like everyone has something, even if it's just a hobby, that they can say "Well, I'm really good at _____" and I have NOTHING. I'm not creative - I don't draw or paint, do any kind of art, sing or play any instruments. It's been years since I've done any kind of dance consistently enough that I'd call myself good at it or even remember much of the basics. I've lost most of the only foreign language I ever learned. I can barely cook. I don't even know the fucking ins and outs of Microsoft Office: ask me to make an Excel spreadsheet and I'll look you like you're crazy. I can't even say I'm good at video games or some shit like that. I used to write pretty funny fiction and good poetry when I was in high school - I still look back on it and laugh and marvel at how good I was, but I cannot write like that anymore. I've tried to get back into and it's just not there.

I literally have n.o.t.h.i.n.g. in my arsenal that I could even impress people with a "hidden talent" - let alone think I could make money off of any sort of skill. Like, I know just enough about life to get through my day as a competent adult and that's about the only thing I'm good for. It makes me feel like a loser and terrified of where I'm gonna end up.

You always seemed so philosophical and gifted in writing to me. And I assume that having been in this industry, you have both people skills and sales skills. You would be perfect as a PR representative or customer representative for any company, or a grant writer. If you're any good at organising things you could do event planning. And there are plenty of things you can learn how to do, like learning Microsoft Office (try youtube for tutorials), or learning database software, computer programming, etc. I know it isn't the best economy for finding jobs without experience. Still, perhaps you could try a temp agency and end up learning a few new trades as you work. Or you could take adult learning classes. Maybe even start out as a sales representative on the floor, like in a car dealership or selling those bamboo pillows or something. If you're good at it, you can make a decent living doing that.

baer45
06-04-2015, 06:37 PM
For real, Spreadsheets, excels, it's really easy to learn. If there is not much VBA in it, you can learn whatever you needed for the office work in a week with a dummy book. People skill is the hardest skill of all. If you can handle people, you won't have trouble to find a place to work.

xStacey
06-04-2015, 07:43 PM
The first 6 weeks stripping full-time have been great but I don't think I can keep up with working 4 days a week for the next 3 months. It's so depressing. I want to try working part-time at an upscale restaurant or hotel but I don't have the relevant job experience and I am not willing to start at the bottom waitressing at shitty little restaurants for less than minimum wage per hour :(

Maybe I just need to tough it out as I will be working in my field of study soon (hopefully)...

zoezoebelle
06-04-2015, 08:41 PM
The first 6 weeks stripping full-time have been great but I don't think I can keep up with working 4 days a week for the next 3 months. It's so depressing. I want to try working part-time at an upscale restaurant or hotel but I don't have the relevant job experience and I am not willing to start at the bottom waitressing at shitty little restaurants for less than minimum wage per hour :(

Maybe I just need to tough it out as I will be working in my field of study soon (hopefully)...

What is your field? Maybe you could try to find something to do part-time from home, or at least start a blog or some fun side project. I'm currently working on a marketing plan for a kickstarter for my friend's business. Not getting paid or anything, but it's been really nice to work on something from my field again and it might look good in a portfolio.

Selina M
06-04-2015, 08:53 PM
If you can handle people, you won't have trouble to find a place to work.

Seriously. I get all kinds of vanilla jobs, because I know how to appear as what they want, and what to say at the right times... and getting male interviewers doesn't hurt either. People like likable people, and they'll overlook more qualified people sometimes if they like you!

anacol
06-05-2015, 02:37 AM
I confess I really don't have any real friends, no girlfriends at all. They all come to me when they are freaking out about a guy, stresses out, need advice. I literally wrote a novel the other day to my friend who was having a rough time! I have done this many, many times. I pick up the phone at 3am when they call all hysterical because they are having a fight with their significant other. When I have an issue? They are never there for me, it's this half assed two sentence "advice" and then they change the subject. It's like I only attract total nutcases. And I want to just stop, I want to stop being so available and "an ear to talk to" because for one they don't deserve it and two, I have my own issues to deal with but I do it anyway. How to stop??

Oh and I have this crazy desire to please them too. I went out and bought my friend a REALLY cool present and shipped it to her just because I know she's broke right now and depressed and I wanted to cheer her up. Never in a million years has a girlfriend done that for me and now I feel like a fool.

Sounds like a page from my book! Always being the only one there for everyone but no ones ever there for me nor does anyone ever stop to think about what I may need from friends. But not anymore!! I've tossed most of everyone out the door. My ear to listen and shoulder lean on and cry isn't so available anymore for people to use at their disposal!

michele11
06-05-2015, 09:46 AM
Some people here are way too sensitive and out to get them. I guess I won't google shit and try to be helpful anymore and news flash....I've been around here 12 years and never put anyone on ignore. If people you don't know IRL bother you that much maybe the internet isn't for you. I disagree with some posters sometime in the same note it doesn't ruin my life I move on. Jeesh.

simone87
06-05-2015, 12:09 PM
i'm actually watching the old early 90s beverly hills 90210..yeah pretty embarrassing haha. but it cracks me up SO bad when they start in on "the economy is really bad right now brenda, not a lot of jobs available" i just wanna pat them on their little feathery, crunchy-from-hairspray 90s heads and say " oh you aint seen nothin yet. enjoy the best economy the US has probably ever known".

iamthefox
06-05-2015, 12:20 PM
I've been working at high-contact clubs the past couple months and I've been having nightmares where I cheat on my partner. It's been really fucking with my head, and I feel guilty for the shit coming out of my subconscious. I hope that a change of scenery and a reasonably candid discussion will set things right.