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charlie61
06-11-2015, 06:52 PM
I went on a date with a guy, 27 years old, cute, goofy, liked him. Thought we were having fun.When we were eating I offered to pay out of politeness and he said "I'll getcha next time." I confess I'm more than a little put off by the fact that he actually let me pay especially for both of us and especially since this was the first date. AND he picked the restaurant. Yea scratch what I said before I'm extremely put off. Never mind feminism or whatever that was just really bad manners.

Oh and the other guy I'm talking to... Takes him almost a full day to reply. He did this twice before I figured it out as a game. Too cool to text me back same day? Yeah sure whatever buddy..

A good "feminism test" is to ask yourself if you would've reacted the same way had your date been female. IMO, he handled that rudely. He should've at least said something like "Are you sure? I picked the restaurant - I'm happy to pay." And then you could've either assured him that you'd like to pay or acquiesced to let him pay. There are a ton of other ways he could have responded that would've been polite while also giving you the opening to go ahead and pay. Not to mention, he was being super presumptuous by assuming there'd be a second date. Icky.

And I think going Dutch has to be the least sexy way to end a date!! So that would've been an equally lame option IMO.

xStacey
06-11-2015, 07:13 PM
I am waiting for someone to contact me. It's been 2 weeks and a half why hasn't he contacted me yet... Grrr

He seemed so into me and really wanted to see me OTC. I was hesitant on taking up on his offer until I discovered who he is, I want to hustle him to be my first SD lol. I kinda regret not accepting to see him OTC when he invited me exactly 2 weeks and a half ago, he still came to see me at the club. I hope he hasn't lost interest, I know he travels a lot and said he will contact me when he gets back, he repeated it more than once.

I have his phone number but I don't want to text him, I'd rather he text me first since he's not a reg I've known for years, I don't want to be annoying. The wait is long, honestly I've never been that excited about seeing a customer again lol.

amberlly
06-11-2015, 07:56 PM
My hair looks shit. UGH

KikiGem
06-11-2015, 08:17 PM
A good "feminism test" is to ask yourself if you would've reacted the same way had your date been female. IMO, he handled that rudely. He should've at least said something like "Are you sure? I picked the restaurant - I'm happy to pay." And then you could've either assured him that you'd like to pay or acquiesced to let him pay. There are a ton of other ways he could have responded that would've been polite while also giving you the opening to go ahead and pay. Not to mention, he was being super presumptuous by assuming there'd be a second date. Icky.

And I think going Dutch has to be the least sexy way to end a date!! So that would've been an equally lame option IMO.

The thing is I don't even subscribe to the ideas of modern feminism. I guess I only said that because I'm supposed to be cool with picking up the check on the first date, when I'm not. I guess that's my second confession lol! He should've paid. I went out of my way to be ladylike he should have been a gentleman. Now I just think he's a bum who let's his dates pay for him. Double standard? Oh well! I've gotta live with worse ones than this so I enjoy the ones that work in my favor.

MyButter
06-11-2015, 08:43 PM
I took my computer to the um, computer doctor guy today... and I'm mildly worried that he's going to secretly judge me for my creepy porn:/

wednesday86
06-11-2015, 08:57 PM
I went on a date with a guy, 27 years old, cute, goofy, liked him. Thought we were having fun.When we were eating I offered to pay out of politeness and he said "I'll getcha next time." I confess I'm more than a little put off by the fact that he actually let me pay especially for both of us and especially since this was the first date. AND he picked the restaurant. Yea scratch what I said before I'm extremely put off. Never mind feminism or whatever that was just really bad manners.

Oh and the other guy I'm talking to... Takes him almost a full day to reply. He did this twice before I figured it out as a game. Too cool to text me back same day? Yeah sure whatever buddy..

I would never offer to pay on the first date. I like being the woman. If a man actually let me pay? Nope never talking to him again. I really hope you don't keep seeing him after this! Yuck.

kaninchen
06-11-2015, 09:24 PM
Holy motherfucking Jesus y'all, I just had the best sex of my LIFE with Sexy French Classmate. I had no idea a 24 year old could be so skilled. And his cock was so FAT! And he talked dirty in French! I'm basically still having orgasms now, it was so good.

omfg omfg omfg

zoezoebelle
06-11-2015, 10:18 PM
I seem to have a new regular who's quite famous. I actually recognised his voice from somewhere, and I ended up spending way too much time researching him when I got home haha. Turns out he ran for political office not long ago and there was some scandal, and I really really want to ask him if it was a conspiracy (not like I'd get a true answer if it was I guess). The guy is pretty fucking weird though. I'm starting to become extremely amused and excited by all the famous/important people who have crushes on me. ^_^

SamanthaSugar
06-11-2015, 10:58 PM
Actually just a couple of months ago I had a date with this cheap skate and when the check came I asked him how much I owed out of politeness and he said to just throw in $40 which I did. After giving him the $ I told him that I needed to go to the restroom but instead of going to the restroom I ran out of the restaurant leaving him there. I was so completey turned off I just couldn't stomach being with him for one second longer. By the way, I'm a chronic date ditcher, I know it's immature but if I'm not liking how the night is going I have this compulsion to just split.

amberlly
06-12-2015, 01:19 AM
^^^lol!!! That's hilarious. That guy deserved to be ditched.

DonaDiabla
06-12-2015, 07:18 AM
My confession is that I need a vacation from sex work and psychic work!! I just need a few days in order to clear my head and take care of myself. Then I can be happy with my work!! :)

SnuffleUffleGrass
06-12-2015, 12:18 PM
I confess I'm starting to loathe one of my managers. On the bright side stripping made me ENJOY being disliked, so I'm not freaking over it.

What sucks is I can tell we could be friends in any other setting...but the demands of our workplace mean we are just going to have conflict.

Bluhhhh

xStacey
06-12-2015, 12:36 PM
Actually just a couple of months ago I had a date with this cheap skate and when the check came I asked him how much I owed out of politeness and he said to just throw in $40 which I did. After giving him the $ I told him that I needed to go to the restroom but instead of going to the restroom I ran out of the restaurant leaving him there. I was so completey turned off I just couldn't stomach being with him for one second longer. By the way, I'm a chronic date ditcher, I know it's immature but if I'm not liking how the night is going I have this compulsion to just split.

I have to start doing this, will probably make dating more fun. I always hate going on dates because often I find myself wasting hours of my precious time.

xStacey
06-12-2015, 12:54 PM
OMG he texted me!!!!!

whirlerz
06-12-2015, 01:05 PM
I still haven't seen my cute guy I like here in motel hell..not sure how much longer I can take it here, see my post in Feeling Pissy..
Soon they'll be banging on my door to come in & clean & I gotta step out, even though I was out over 4 hrs..
I also want to try on some cute things I dragged over frm my storage, for the Chicago Sex Exxpo tonight, it's free admission for ladies.

Aurora_Sunset
06-12-2015, 02:09 PM
I told a friend that I'd wait to watch season 3 of Orange is the New Black with her since she no longer has Netflix - but I'm totally watching it today. I couldn't wait!!

charlie61
06-12-2015, 03:07 PM
Got to dance for an adorable, dapper, Thai trans man last night. So respectful! So much fun!

AlenaRoza
06-12-2015, 03:40 PM
Um, I don't feel like a real human being anymore and it's scaring me. I have a panic attack everyday and if you've had one you know how terrifying it is. Nothing looks real, you're numb, you lose focus and I feel like I'm being ripped out of this dimension. Pardon the dramatics but it's true.


I'm obsessive and compulsive about things. One day my teeth are falling out, the next I swear I'm going blind. People saying "relax, deep breaths" makes it worse. I can tell myself it's stupid and to stop but I don't actually believe it for some reason. Worst part is crazy runs in my family big time. And I mean mental hospital crazy. Never thought I'd experience anything like this. I know medication would help. Therapy maybe. I just can't bring myself to do it.

When the attacks happen, it's for no reason. Middle of the day, chillin out and then it hits. Washes over me and my heart drops and I feel tingly. It takes me a few seconds to process what someone says to me. Derealization is the absolute worst. When that happens my body, although numb, goes on auto pilot while my brain sails away and I just feel like a shell. My aunt had it bad. She describes is as feeling like a dream but it's a nightmare.

I guess maybe I should talk to someone. It's taken away most of my motivation though

baer45
06-12-2015, 05:14 PM
I just turned down one of my regular. I told him I am sick but I really just wanted to watch "Orange is the new black" all night. I guess I should post this in the excuse thread.

PS. Gosh I just saw the thread above. Don't we all love this show?

kaninchen
06-12-2015, 05:48 PM
I feel like I should preemptively apologize to my fellow dancers. I'm pretty sure that when I go back to work I'm gonna be guilty of a major don't -- I'm probably going to be picking up a ton of dudes from the club. I'm sooorrrrryyyy! But I hate hate hate being alone and I'm super horny and my classmate is going back to France and I know I'm gonna meet some sexy one-night-stand material at work.

Aaggghhh! I feel like a sinkhole echoing with neediness and longing. But I sure as fuck am glad to be away from my ex-boyfriend.

Prettyglitter
06-12-2015, 05:53 PM
I guess I have a lot of confessions today...

I confess that I'm super awkward about writing a paper about the meanings/experiences of black womanhood because my professor is herself a black woman. I couldn't NOT address the topic, and I think it's really interesting and I'm enjoying my research, but I keep feeling like I'm going to do something wrong and offend her. Should I write Black instead of black?! Is it okay for me to talk about the strong black woman stereotype?! Is it weird to be white and talk about "white supremacist society"? Is my whole thesis super-wrong??

I'm being eaten alive by my own awkwardness!
I don't think it's wrong at all. It seems like interesting and unxpected and she may really enjoy it. I don't know about the Black or black thing. In fact given the whole Rachel thing going on this may be a really good topic.

whirlerz
06-12-2015, 08:11 PM
So yeah, it's 10pm, the Sexxpo convention closes @ 12mid so..prob not goin' :( & tonite was the only free night. Sooo tired, they cleaned my rm, I got to lie down for an hr big freakin' deal..they won't hire enough cleaning staff, so had to wait even though I was out half the day, they didn't start cleaning til 4pm
I did my paid survey, dropped off some library books, checked my po box & donated some clothes to Goodwill.
So yea I'm a boring bitch
I hate this motel. Thank you

baer45
06-12-2015, 08:39 PM
After 3 episodes, I have to say, Piper is such a manipulative bitch. She lies not because it;s better than the truth. She lies because she did something bad. Alex, I found her really sexy. I am straight but I would give her a go. hmm....

charlie61
06-12-2015, 08:51 PM
I pre-ordered Holly Madison's book. Exciting!!

charlie61
06-12-2015, 08:56 PM
I confess that I cannot STAND Orange is the New Black's theme song (or whatever that's called). It's fucking stress-inducing. At least they put it at the beginning so you can skip through it easily.

miss.a.p1600
06-12-2015, 09:11 PM
Got kind of excited to see the flash of lebron James dick lol! I had to check the slow motion version to get a better glimpse. And it looks like he manscapes down there definite plus. I believe he is in a monogamous marriage but if it was open, I'd totally bounce up on that.

If you're curious see for yourself https://vine.co/v/eOxhPrMhvP1 }:D

Aniela
06-13-2015, 03:22 AM
I am depressed as fk lately. Hate my damn retail job, where I get 1 hr split into three breaks to sit down the entire 8.5 hrs bc 'the company thinks it looks bad to have employees sitting while they work, when there is no obvious injury' my feet are fkng broken. Feel like I keep regressing back to retail bc everything else I've tried doesn't work out -- always back to square one. For the life of me, can't figure out why Ex's cousin still talks to me -- God knows what Ex has told him since Ex outed me as a dancer specifically bc he had no respect for me. Cousin can't fk me since we live six states apart so I can't see any other possible angle but I am afraid to come out & ask abt it & lose whatever this is w/ him. Been having nightmares too, last nite abt my brother trying to force me into an incestuous smtg or other, two nites ago abt being raped by my other friend's brother & him refusing to believe me bc the brother reached him first & lied to him. Just want to sleepsleepsleepsleepsleep

ETA: as much as I would like to go back to dancing part time, if I could find the right club -- if I'm being completely honest I question whether I could handle it. Just the anxiety of walking down a sidewalk w/ ppl on it … my hatred for ppl in general has only gotten worse over the last couple yrs. I am afraid that going back to dancing could seriously fk me up even worse.

Glamourmilf
06-13-2015, 02:00 PM
I am depressed as fk lately. Hate my damn retail job, where I get 1 hr split into three breaks to sit down the entire 8.5 hrs bc 'the company thinks it looks bad to have employees sitting while they work, when there is no obvious injury' my feet are fkng broken. Feel like I keep regressing back to retail bc everything else I've tried doesn't work out -- always back to square one. For the life of me, can't figure out why Ex's cousin still talks to me -- God knows what Ex has told him since Ex outed me as a
dancer specifically bc he had no respect for me. Cousin can't fk me since we live six states apart so I can't see any other possible angle but I am afraid to come out & ask abt it & lose whatever this is w/ him. Been having nightmares too, last nite abt my brother trying to force me into an incestuous smtg or other, two nites ago abt being raped by my other friend's brother & him refusing to believe me bc the brother reached him first & lied to him. Just want to sleepsleepsleepsleepsleep

ETA: as much as I would like to go back to dancing part time, if I could find the right club -- if I'm being completely honest I question whether I could handle it. Just the anxiety of walking down a sidewalk w/ ppl on it … my hatred for ppl in general has only gotten worse over the last couple yrs. I am afraid that going back to dancing could seriously fk me up even worse.

Have You ever cammed? Would that, or clips be a way out for You?

kaninchen
06-13-2015, 02:25 PM
I don't think it's wrong at all. It seems like interesting and unxpected and she may really enjoy it. I don't know about the Black or black thing. In fact given the whole Rachel thing going on this may be a really good topic.

(sorry for threadjacking charlie I promise I'll drop this subject after this last post!)

The Rachel Dolezhal thing is insane! Although I'm kinda embarrassed by my post now -- I was just getting OCD anxiety and didn't realize it until after the fact. It's not like I was writing "As a white woman, I am especially qualified to discuss the experience of black womanhood. Thus in this essay, I will illuminate key experiences of their lives blah blah"

Basically, we had to write an argumentative essay about a book involving black women's experiences, and I wound up writing that a particular book uses the themes of disordered eating and mother-daughter bonds to challenge the stereotype of the strong black woman. I was just citing articles and tying together stuff from the book. Really NBD typical college stuff. I wish I weren't such an OCD weirdo who gets worked up over the most ridiculous bullshit! *facepalm*

Selina M
06-13-2015, 02:51 PM
After 3 episodes, I have to say, Piper is such a manipulative bitch. She lies not because it;s better than the truth. She lies because she did something bad. Alex, I found her really sexy. I am straight but I would give her a go. hmm....

I am SO over Piper/Alex. I wish they would end their stupid storyline. It's so dysfunctional and just the same shit over and over. I'm only 3 episodes in and I'm rooting for one or both of them to get sent to max.

baer45
06-13-2015, 03:07 PM
I am SO over Piper/Alex. I wish they would end their stupid storyline. It's so dysfunctional and just the same shit over and over. I'm only 3 episodes in and I'm rooting for one or both of them to get sent to max.

Yes, their relationship was toxic from the begining. Alex used Piper as a mule for drugs. The writer is trying to drag their relationship as long as they can but the truth is, there are far more interesting relationship/people in this show. I just finished the whole season, no spoiler for you.

baer45
06-13-2015, 03:08 PM
I am SO over Piper/Alex. I wish they would end their stupid storyline. It's so dysfunctional and just the same shit over and over. I'm only 3 episodes in and I'm rooting for one or both of them to get sent to max.

Yes, their relationship was toxic from the begining. Alex used Piper as a mule for drugs. The writer is trying to drag their relationship as long as they can but the truth is, there are far more interesting relationship/people in this show. I just finished the whole season, no spoiler for you.

Aniela
06-13-2015, 03:29 PM
Have You ever cammed? Would that, or clips be a way out for You?

I am not only supremely tech-tarded (browsed thru sm instructional CC threads out of curiosity & my head just wants to explode lol) but I much prefer the relative anonymity & immediate payout of dancing. Nothing against camming at all, I just don't think it would be for me, esp since there's no covering-up or bs'ing a camming trail.

Other confession -- still flirting w/ Ex's Cousin via txt/phone calls & when I said he would have to meet me in SCarolina if we were going to get together, he replied 'mmmm let's buy a ticket' I am still convinced he is just full of it & having sm fun at my expense -- two nites ago he selfied me a goodnite kiss -- but I am abt to hop on CheapOAir.com to browse flight prices … purely for S's&G's, of course.

michele11
06-13-2015, 04:26 PM
I feel like I'm too classy for clubs anymore! I wear beautiful custom made gowns and the rest of the girls walk around with their tits out. Like 30 minutes after your off stage put your fucken top back on! And have some respect and not let guys feel you up at the stage for a dollar. Ugh!!!

lynn2009
06-13-2015, 05:14 PM
And have some respect and not let guys feel you up at the stage for a dollar. Ugh!!!

Yaaaa

charlie61
06-13-2015, 06:08 PM
I'm not hooked on season 3 of OITNB yet, and I'm a few episodes in..

Aurora_Sunset
06-13-2015, 06:38 PM
I feel like I have a lot of friends who are insecure, fearful, lazy, and just generally make terrible decisions, and yet, by sheer luck, they end up with great things. I feel like a bad person thinking this way, but sometimes I get angry about it. It's not that I don't want them to have good lives - money, nice places to live, good boyfriends - but it would be nice to see them attain these things by some sort of conscious effort to make good choices and turn their lives around - not by pure luck at the end of a string of bad, immature, short-sighted behaviors and choices. I get irritated that they're never forced to learn a lesson and have to actually turn their shit around and become responsible adults. It's like, where's the justice in that??

lynn2009
06-13-2015, 08:19 PM
I'm not hooked on season 3 of OITNB yet, and I'm a few episodes in..

I watched about half the first episode and turned it off.

zoezoebelle
06-13-2015, 08:52 PM
I feel like I have a lot of friends who are insecure, fearful, lazy, and just generally make terrible decisions, and yet, by sheer luck, they end up with great things. I feel like a bad person thinking this way, but sometimes I get angry about it. It's not that I don't want them to have good lives - money, nice places to live, good boyfriends - but it would be nice to see them attain these things by some sort of conscious effort to make good choices and turn their lives around - not by pure luck at the end of a string of bad, immature, short-sighted behaviors and choices. I get irritated that they're never forced to learn a lesson and have to actually turn their shit around and become responsible adults. It's like, where's the justice in that??

It won't last for them. People who don't learn how to make good decisions will meet their downfall, whether it's in two months or twenty years. Eventually it will catch up with them.

If it makes you feel better, God gave me a whole lot of bad luck, an absolutely terrible childhood and very little family support, and I made my own luck in the end. It took quite a few years of working my ass off while seeing no results, but finally I'm in a stable place with a pretty happy life and a future to look forward to. I tried to finish college, and I kept getting sick, so I did an 8-month unpaid internship and that got me literally nothing, then I did all these startups which all crashed, I kept trying to work normal jobs and getting too sick, I tried to move to another country and couldn't get a visa, started my own business and couldn't make enough money, tried to make things work with my boyfriend and found out he was an alcoholic. At any point in my life I could have given up. I had literally hundreds of opportunities to be a gold digger. I could have done drugs with any number of contacts/friends, could have become a scam artist in my industry and sold pre-made websites to old people for $5000 each, etc. Instead I decided to keep taking responsibility for my own shit and become a stripper. Now I have money in the bank, I'm renting a nice room in the city, I've built a circle of friends, and I'm dating an amazing and compassionate guy who happens to be very rich. Planning to learn computer coding, while doing some volunteer work for a friend that might get me some great publicity. I've never been happier in my life.

Ten years from now, I might not have a Mercedes, but I'll have some money saved and invested and a job that I can do from home and still make good money. The girls who spend their money on cars and clothes and jewelry now are going to find that ten years from now they can't keep up with the job, and their possessions have become worthless. They won't bother to learn and so they won't have much to offer. And those men they tote around like designer bags won't be there when they're old. My aunt had the same illness I have, and she spent her 20s sailing around on rich men's yachts, snorting coke and partying. Now she lives alone in a tiny apartment with no friends, terrible health, no money and no marketable skills, and she's literally gone insane from loneliness and pain. One thing I know for sure is that I will never let myself be like her.

miss.a.p1600
06-13-2015, 11:42 PM
My lust for the manager fizzled out since he seemed too busy in the office and I hadn't worked in a while. But I secretly melted when he smiled at me a couple days ago. Then today I swear I saw his eyes glaze over my entire body in one swift motion before telling me he liked my outfit. I had to contain my excitement. What I wouldn't give to throw everything off the side of the desk and test out his p*ssy eating skills right there in the office.

SimoneGray
06-14-2015, 07:16 AM
It won't last for them. People who don't learn how to make good decisions will meet their downfall, whether it's in two months or twenty years. Eventually it will catch up with them.

If it makes you feel better, God gave me a whole lot of bad luck, an absolutely terrible childhood and very little family support, and I made my own luck in the end. It took quite a few years of working my ass off while seeing no results, but finally I'm in a stable place with a pretty happy life and a future to look forward to. I tried to finish college, and I kept getting sick, so I did an 8-month unpaid internship and that got me literally nothing, then I did all these startups which all crashed, I kept trying to work normal jobs and getting too sick, I tried to move to another country and couldn't get a visa, started my own business and couldn't make enough money, tried to make things work with my boyfriend and found out he was an alcoholic. At any point in my life I could have given up. I had literally hundreds of opportunities to be a gold digger. I could have done drugs with any number of contacts/friends, could have become a scam artist in my industry and sold pre-made websites to old people for $5000 each, etc. Instead I decided to keep taking responsibility for my own shit and become a stripper. Now I have money in the bank, I'm renting a nice room in the city, I've built a circle of friends, and I'm dating an amazing and compassionate guy who happens to be very rich. Planning to learn computer coding, while doing some volunteer work for a friend that might get me some great publicity. I've never been happier in my life.

Ten years from now, I might not have a Mercedes, but I'll have some money saved and invested and a job that I can do from home and still make good money. The girls who spend their money on cars and clothes and jewelry now are going to find that ten years from now they can't keep up with the job, and their possessions have become worthless. They won't bother to learn and so they won't have much to offer. And those men they tote around like designer bags won't be there when they're old. My aunt had the same illness I have, and she spent her 20s sailing around on rich men's yachts, snorting coke and partying. Now she lives alone in a tiny apartment with no friends, terrible health, no money and no marketable skills, and she's literally gone insane from loneliness and pain. One thing I know for sure is that I will never let myself be like her.

I was gonna post a confession but instead read this. This is so beautifully written and said. I have been struggling a lot lately and I really needed to read something like this. Thank you so so much.

Selina M
06-14-2015, 01:27 PM
I'm really on a kick with this karmic justice lately. It's like, the month of karma kicking everyone in the twat for being mean people back in the day.

In addition to fiancé's ex, my ex bff who was a manipulative cunt is apparently getting divorced (we don't know for sure, just that she changed her name on FB and her husband's says he lives in CA now). Then last night I'm on FB and this girl that was evil to me in middle school (she spread rumors that I was a lesbian and would harass me via AIM), who thought she was hot shit bc she was a runway model, and has recently decided to be nice to me because we have mutual friends who like to do group things... posts about "Ew how can people wear crop tops, sucking your stomach in all night can't be comfortable". My inner feminist got fired up at the veiled slut-shaming and decided to respond with "Excuse me, I wear them..." "How can you feel good in one after eating?" "Because I know I'm not fat? " Gee, you used to make fun of my clothes and that I 'wasn't hot enough' to wear 3 pushup bras and revealing clothes, but now you're too insecure to wear a crop top, and I'm confident as fuck and get paid to be naked. How does it feel?!

I feel like I should feel bad, or that karma is then going to kick MY ass because aren't you not supposed to feel triumphant when it comes around? Doesn't that negate the whole point of 'letting karma deal with it', the not putting bad energy out thing? But it's so nice to see people getting their comeuppance.

Elektra Luxx
06-14-2015, 02:30 PM
The bf and I went to a sporting event yesterday and sitting down the row from us was a group of girls. There were 6 girls and they looked like they were just out of high school. No guys, they weren't even talking to guys. The bf and his friends were talking and included me too, but I couldn't stop looking at in the group of girls direction. They were talking, laughing and having fun. They looked 18 or 19 years old. I kept thinking, I really wish I had a group of good girl friends with common interests so we could hang out. I have a lot guy friends, but even guy friends always have sex in the back of their small little minds. I had a couple of good friends in high school, but we lost touch. I've tried to make friends at work, but I always get the cold shoulder. I'm hardly ever invited to female events like bridal showers or baby showers. It hurts my feelings. I think girl friends that work in the sex industry would get me and accept me.

baer45
06-14-2015, 03:08 PM
Speaking of wedding, I went to my long time dear friend's wedding in South Africa a few years back. I paid for my ticket, hotel, gift and everything. Two years after that she called me one night and told me that she's going through a divorce. We chatted about half hour and I was not sure what I said during the conversation that offended her. She just cut me off her life completely after that. I made a few attempts to reconnect...or at least to find out / apologize for what I did wrong? Nope, she's not willing to give me a chance. This is a friend that we went to kindergarden together...I'll tell you it won't hurt my feelings if she doesn't send me an invitation for her next wedding.

MyButter
06-14-2015, 03:21 PM
I have a newfound appreciation for my aggressive dog after he made it clear he was going to maul the shit out of this guy who wouldn't leave me alone and kept trying to get way too close for comfort while I was taking him and my other dog for a walk yesterday.

simone87
06-14-2015, 06:20 PM
i'm a redhead again and i LOVE it! what is it about a new hair color that makes you feel brand new like you have a new grip on life, but i was in this huge depression and now i'm gardening, cleaning, and feeling awesome. over something shallow but whatever works!

KikiGem
06-14-2015, 07:00 PM
My mother and I just conspired to stand up a guy who's been dropping and changing plans and treating me basically like an insignificant disposable person and it hurt me so bad it triggered a crying spell before and after work yesterday.

We arranged to meet at a restaurant at 8:30. I get a text from him at 8:44. He didn't even send me a message that he was running late. I asked my mom what the next step should be. We decided that the best choice was to not reply at all. So I get a few scattered texts wondering how far away I am etc and I reply to none of them. At about 9:20 he calls. Didn't answer. Then he says that he hopes everything is OK and that he'll wait until 9:30. Final text said hope you're OK please call when you get a chance.

We were having fun with this. His fake concern- god, he might as well have asked "am I still getting laid tonight?" I knew my mom was a badass but had no idea she was so diabolical lol!

Maybe this was wrong but whatever. He needed to feel how he made me me feel- insignificant and unimportant and ignored.

wednesday86
06-14-2015, 07:12 PM
^^rofl!!! that.is.awesome!!


my confession: I don't know what snapped in me. but I've just stopped giving a fuck and I've been cutting people out of my life left and right. If they don't serve a purpose, and they annoy me or they're negative, or any small reason, I just cut them out. I've been blocking so many people on fb just because I don't like reading their posts. Even if they're longtime friends or family, idgaf. BYE!

I also deleted both my camming profiles. I didn't even really try it, but I didn't feel like it...I thought I wanted to do it, but I don't. I just don't have the energy to do things I DON'T want to do anymore.

Maybe it's because I've been reading and listening to a lot of Abraham Hicks lately, and basically if something doesn't make me feel good, I don't want anything to do with it.

charlie61
06-14-2015, 07:13 PM
I confess that I have a serious scarcity complex (yay, epigenetics!) that affects nearly everything I do and think. Awareness is the first step towards improvement. I'm much better than I used to be, but it'll be a long road to believing in abundance.

kaninchen
06-14-2015, 08:00 PM
Sexy French Classmate is coming over tomorrow night and I'm having a mini-crisis! I've literally NEVER had a guy over to my apartment before. Or any friends, either. I mean, my ex-boyfriend obviously came over, but he was an asshole and brought beer for himself so he doesn't count. My sister came by one time to drop stuff off.

What do you do when people come over to your house??? I don't know about this entertaining shit! Ahhhh!