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Elektra Luxx
06-14-2015, 08:10 PM
Sexy French Classmate is coming over tomorrow night and I'm having a mini-crisis! I've literally NEVER had a guy over to my apartment before. Or any friends, either. I mean, my ex-boyfriend obviously came over, but he was an asshole and brought beer for himself so he doesn't count. My sister came by one time to drop stuff off.

What do you do when people come over to your house??? I don't know about this entertaining shit! Ahhhh!

Just some quick ideas, have some wine maybe some candles to set a mood. Plan on watching some Netflix on the couch. I don't think you'll be watching Netflix too long.

Elektra Luxx
06-14-2015, 08:17 PM
(yay, epigenetics!)

I had to look up epigenetics, but now that I know what it is...YAY!!!!

charlie61
06-14-2015, 09:00 PM
I had to look up epigenetics, but now that I know what it is...YAY!!!!

Basically, I inherited a scarcity complex due to my mother's childhood. She grew up in a severely abusive and neglectful situation, and despite the fact that I had everything I could possibly need while growing up, plus a loving family, I ended up with this issue (there's no other possible explanation for why I have always been so concerned about money and resources, even before I could fully understand those concepts...I was the child who hated Christmas because my parents would spend money on me, which gave me tons of anxiety.). Crazy stuff!

baer45
06-14-2015, 09:03 PM
Tonight's Game of Thrones walk of shame made me felt sick. People were brutal and evil.

Elektra Luxx
06-14-2015, 09:35 PM
Basically, I inherited a scarcity complex due to my mother's childhood. She grew up in a severely abusive and neglectful situation, and despite the fact that I had everything I could possibly need while growing up, plus a loving family, I ended up with this issue (there's no other possible explanation for why I have always been so concerned about money and resources, even before I could fully understand those concepts...I was the child who hated Christmas because my parents would spend money on me, which gave me tons of anxiety.). Crazy stuff!

That's very sad Charlie. I wasn't trying to make light of your situation. Truly sorry.

charlie61
06-14-2015, 09:44 PM
That's very sad Charlie. I wasn't trying to make light of your situation. Truly sorry.

No, no, it's not sad, and I know you weren't making fun! We all have our limitations. It's really not a huge deal...just something I'm aware of that's kinda interesting from a genetics standpoint! :)

charlie61
06-14-2015, 10:03 PM
Back to confessions!

I confess that I'm five episodes into OITNB S3, and there's still no discernible plot line. It's like the writers assumed that the audience would be happy with 100% anecdotes about each of the prisoners and forgot that they need to have something to tie all of it together. It almost feels like a skit-driven show now. And seriously...could Piper and Alex possibly be a more irrelevant story line?! Their 'relationship' feels so forced in this season...very gratuitous (let's give the LGBT community what they want, folks!), insubstantial, and petty. Ugh. Not into it.

wednesday86
06-14-2015, 10:05 PM
my husband has still not moved to my town but he visits every few days, fucks my brains out and then takes me shopping. He's become like my sugar daddy, except instead of buying me clothes and purses, he buys me kitchen appliances, throw pillows and stuff for the house (which is what I really want.) He feels really guilty that he hasn't moved here yet but honestly I don't mind this arrangement. lol!

lynn2009
06-15-2015, 01:16 AM
I slept like 12 hours...4pm to 4am waking up every few hours to talk to someone in gchat with about three sentences and then falling asleep again before my brain could even register waking up.

amberlly
06-15-2015, 05:26 AM
Avoiding everyone.

Aurora_Sunset
06-15-2015, 07:35 AM
Back to confessions!

I confess that I'm five episodes into OITNB S3, and there's still no discernible plot line. It's like the writers assumed that the audience would be happy with 100% anecdotes about each of the prisoners and forgot that they need to have something to tie all of it together. It almost feels like a skit-driven show now. And seriously...could Piper and Alex possibly be a more irrelevant story line?! Their 'relationship' feels so forced in this season...very gratuitous (let's give the LGBT community what they want, folks!), insubstantial, and petty. Ugh. Not into it.

You summed up my issues with this season PERFECTLY! I'm 8 episodes in and it's still going nowhere fast.

miss.a.p1600
06-15-2015, 09:27 AM
Im avoiding everyone and replying to messages seriously late. I have a habit of 'disappearing'. I just drop of the face of the earth for a few weeks at a time and then reappear. I can't help it. I get stressed and need time out.

I'm totally the same way. I hate talking on the phone like I need a clear agenda of what the conversation is going to be about and a time frame. I dodge friends and family especially if I know they'll be talking about nonsense or trying to ask me questions. People have their own agenda and if it's not similar to mine they get dodged.

I also confess I have been going through some sexual phase that I can't stop thinking about being with a man for sexual pleasure. Then I realize the challenge of finding what I want and just keep things simple and easy and pleasure myself. But that only goes so far like an appetizer and I want the main course.

I also want a baby and sucks having to wait for a relationship/ marriage partner. What if it takes me a decade to find the right person? What if I find someone worth marrying but then I have to divorce? Maybe I should think more positive.

simone87
06-15-2015, 09:29 AM
yeah my bf and i have been noticing how SLOOOWWW this season is. i think one of the main differences in this season is that there is no arch nemesis ( like pensatucky and V were in the first 2) and we have no idea what's going on with pipers case now. i should probably stop i could go on and on about OITNB and this is confessions lol

baer45
06-15-2015, 10:42 AM
I just fucking hate people who steal your cart in grocery store. It happened to me twice this month. Yesterday I was at store, while I was busy trying to decide which cheese should I buy, my cart just disapeared. Yes, there was no item on the cart YET. Do you think this cart just magically pushed itself into the center of the store? Fucking cart grabber.

Prettyglitter
06-15-2015, 11:32 AM
I'm so tired of guys trying to own me. Okay maybe that's NOT what it is it just SEEMS that if you're single everyone is assuming that you're just waiting for a relationship. What if I don't want a damn relationship?? What if I'm in a relationship with myself? I just wanna have fun but every guy I give my number to is always wanting something more. And I hate when guys call me pet names when we aren't even official. Or assume because we've gone out on a date or plural that were in some kind of relationship or that I cant talk to other people. I'm just irritated by that whole set up. And right now I'm dating someone but it's driving me crazy. I hate having to answer and explain myself to ANYONR but I'm afraid if we break up that he'll find someone new and then ill realize that I lost one of the greatest guys. :(

I really really have commitment issues. Like no matter how perfect a guy is for me, I start feeling too confined by the relationship and want some kind of change. Idk why I'm like this because most other girls seem anxious to find a boyfriend.

Elektra Luxx
06-15-2015, 12:45 PM
I was looking forward to visiting my older sister in Seattle later this summer, but a change of plans. My sister's fiance works for Microsoft and he is applying for a job with Intel in Oregon. So they will be moving soon. I'll probably visit anyway, but knowing my sis I'll be helping to unpack boxes and arrange furniture. Fun, fun, fun!

Selina M
06-15-2015, 02:23 PM
Totally just had a small meltdown. I still really don't know what to do about taking vanilla job vs. continuing to dance.

HR sent me this stupid long list of shit to bring to sign paperwork, and I was just overwhelmed by it. They want my frickin' immunization records from when I was in kindergarten, ffs. It's just a bunch of crap I have to track down and basically an afternoon of running errands across town >:[ Then they wanted to run another background check on me, even though they already made me pay $60 for a state fingerprint card that IS a federal-level background check. Everything I hate about vanilla jobs, rolled up in one email: nosiness, inefficiency, time-consuming bullshit.

I'm glad I made good $$ at work on Friday, but it didn't help me questioning taking this job.. Especially cause it was one of those easy shifts where you make 90% of your money off 2 dudes... I went home like "What crazy person would leave a job where they make $400 sitting on their ass at the bar?" I'm not planning to teach for more than a couple years max anyway, but I have to take 'certification classes' in order to do it that are gonna cost 2 weeks of teacher pay.. I dunno... I'm just questioning if it's worth it, and if I'm going to end up with no time to myself and shooting myself in the foot as far as having time to finish med school pre-reqs.

amberlly
06-15-2015, 03:50 PM
I want to sign up for a course in something fun or a super easy part time vanilla job. Feeling bored.

Aniela
06-15-2015, 03:56 PM
Just got home from work w/ another body in my back seat. This time it's a pigeon sm guy two cars ahead of me clipped on the highway. I circled back round hoping maybe the bird just got a 'minor' ding & was still alive & able to be helped, but no. DOA. I didn't have the heart to just leave it there on the side of the road so I wrapped it in a towel & took it home. Guess it's getting a nice fleece burial shroud & sunk in my canal just like the baby doves a few wks ago :'( just gotta figure out where to stash it for the nxt few hrs bc it's almost dinnertime & I don't want it mucking up my car interior.

zoezoebelle
06-15-2015, 04:45 PM
Some girl was being a bitch to me the other night. I was chilling (with another girl) with this guy who's always around but never buys dances, all three of us laughing, when this bitch comes out of nowhere and drags me away, then yells at me about "approaching customers while another girl is talking to them." Then when I came around for tips after I was on stage, the guy she was sitting with handed her a single, so I leaned over and held my boobs together. She stared at me. Finally she said, "Look, just take it. I'm not gonna touch your tits. I'm not GAY or anything." with this nasty look on her face.

So the next time she came around for tips I was sitting with another guy (who hates this chick) and I asked him to hand me a single. She reached out for it and I waved it over her head so she couldn't catch it for a while. The guy laughed his ass off and gave me a high-five.

kaninchen
06-15-2015, 06:25 PM
Just got home from work w/ another body in my back seat. This time it's a pigeon sm guy two cars ahead of me clipped on the highway. I circled back round hoping maybe the bird just got a 'minor' ding & was still alive & able to be helped, but no. DOA. I didn't have the heart to just leave it there on the side of the road so I wrapped it in a towel & took it home. Guess it's getting a nice fleece burial shroud & sunk in my canal just like the baby doves a few wks ago :'( just gotta figure out where to stash it for the nxt few hrs bc it's almost dinnertime & I don't want it mucking up my car interior.

Thank you for doing this. Related confession: I get unnecessarily worked up over dead animals by the roadside. Seriously, it makes me cry sometimes. I feel like there's nothing more vulnerable and tragic than a small animal encountering a few thousand pounds of metal and then being left to die alone. I'm a big wimp.

ScarletKitten
06-15-2015, 06:51 PM
my confession: I don't know what snapped in me. but I've just stopped giving a fuck and I've been cutting people out of my life left and right. If they don't serve a purpose, and they annoy me or they're negative, or any small reason, I just cut them out. I've been blocking so many people on fb just because I don't like reading their posts. Even if they're longtime friends or family, idgaf. BYE!

I also deleted both my camming profiles. I didn't even really try it, but I didn't feel like it...I thought I wanted to do it, but I don't. I just don't have the energy to do things I DON'T want to do anymore.

Maybe it's because I've been reading and listening to a lot of Abraham Hicks lately, and basically if something doesn't make me feel good, I don't want anything to do with it.

Girl, I can relate to you so much. lol. I cut people out so easily too. I also deleted my SM account too because I fucking loathed camming. It really fucked with my head when I cammed for 8 hours and literally made zero. So I said fuck this, I'd rather work at a fast food joint. I felt so fake looking into the camera, trying to make some kind of connection. I felt like I was living in a fake reality, and exposing myself sexually like that was too much for me to bear. It threw me into a dark depression actually. So yeah, camming is not for everyone.

Aniela
06-15-2015, 07:05 PM
Thank you for doing this. Related confession: I get unnecessarily worked up over dead animals by the roadside. Seriously, it makes me cry sometimes. I feel like there's nothing more vulnerable and tragic than a small animal encountering a few thousand pounds of metal and then being left to die alone. I'm a big wimp.

You & me both, love! I have been thinking of this for sm time & I guess it's a combined confession+rant: I really, truly don't understand why humans get to be scraped off the road & 'disposed of humanely' but animals only deserve to get shoved off onto the shoulder. 'going back into the food chain'? I really don't buy it. I don't see what the difference is, humans & animals alike are sentient, soulled beings.

I also confess that I was happy the pigeon was dead b4 it hit the pavement -- that much was clear from the head wounds. No suffering.

ScarletKitten
06-15-2015, 07:18 PM
Thank you for doing this. Related confession: I get unnecessarily worked up over dead animals by the roadside. Seriously, it makes me cry sometimes. I feel like there's nothing more vulnerable and tragic than a small animal encountering a few thousand pounds of metal and then being left to die alone. I'm a big wimp.

Me too. It breaks my heart. I saw a dead puppy on the side of the road just the other day. I pulled over to see if it was possibly still alive. But no, it was deader than dead. I just said to myself "I'm so sorry, puppy. I hope you reincarnate into a being that has a better chance at life and is happy and healthy." Believing in reincarnation helps me cope with death.

baer45
06-15-2015, 07:47 PM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?t=21&v=0M7PuuukzxY
This video made I miss my dog so much. She was the gentlest thing ever.

Aurora_Sunset
06-15-2015, 10:04 PM
I really want to re-watch Dexter now that it's on Netflix, but I'm scared to start another long show. I keep telling myself I'll cut back on TV after I finish this or that show, but I always find something else to start.

kaninchen
06-15-2015, 10:57 PM
*cries* The dick was way too damn good again but he's going back to France tomorrow. I guess I really need some coping skills, huh?

Elektra Luxx
06-15-2015, 11:01 PM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?t=21&v=0M7PuuukzxY
This video made I miss my dog so much. She was the gentlest thing ever.

I didn't watch it right away because I knew it would make me cry and I the way I'm feeling right now it would come like a torrent and it did. I'm by myself tonight and I feel like a dumb ass crying in the dark. Still crying.

My brother does that once in a while, so I can relate.

Thank you for posting this. I love this community

Vyanka
06-16-2015, 01:20 AM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?t=21&v=0M7PuuukzxY
This video made I miss my dog so much. She was the gentlest thing ever.

That made me almost cry. Omg. I love that dog. I love my dog so much. Like if it were my child. Fuck. I know I'm going to be a mess when his day comes.

Vyanka
06-16-2015, 01:22 AM
Me too. It breaks my heart. I saw a dead puppy on the side of the road just the other day. I pulled over to see if it was possibly still alive. But no, it was deader than dead. I just said to myself "I'm so sorry, puppy. I hope you reincarnate into a being that has a better chance at life and is happy and healthy." Believing in reincarnation helps me cope with death.

Fuck, that sux. That would ruin my week. Poor baby. Rip random puppy. I have a soft spot for dogs. Grrr.

tempest666
06-16-2015, 02:14 AM
I'm watching Melrose Place.

amberlly
06-16-2015, 02:55 AM
Oh I loved Melrose place! I wish they did a second season.

My confession: I am having a life makeover. Hair being cut and colored tomorrow and clearing out bags of junk from my closets.

I wrote back to everyones messages and now to work out a healthy food plan. Ugh -I gained 8 pounds during the exam period. I have lost 2 and exercising lots. So it will come off easily!

Aniela
06-16-2015, 11:25 AM
I was going to take today to make sm progress on the tshirt quilt I started last summer ... instead I have been on SW & am abt to get a Sims2 fix.

kaninchen
06-16-2015, 12:21 PM
I'm beginning to really regret having spent so much time with my ex-boyfriend. I know that the past is the past and that regret, generally speaking, is useless, yet I feel that so much of that time was wasted. I wonder what I could have done in enhancing my university experience if it weren't for choosing to be with him, for example. If I hadn't always been rushing home to see him instead of joining groups and making friends...

Ugh.

charlie61
06-16-2015, 01:17 PM
I'm beginning to really regret having spent so much time with my ex-boyfriend. I know that the past is the past and that regret, generally speaking, is useless, yet I feel that so much of that time was wasted. I wonder what I could have done in enhancing my university experience if it weren't for choosing to be with him, for example. If I hadn't always been rushing home to see him instead of joining groups and making friends...

Ugh.

It's best to learn these lessons early in life so we can recognize the difference between positive and negative relationships later on - when it matters most. Now that you've been through that, you won't make the same mistake twice! (or at least, you better not! :)) And it'll be much easier to recognize a true connection when it comes your way.

wednesday86
06-16-2015, 04:13 PM
last night I was talking to a customer and the bartender about the champagne room and I literally said "The CR." They both looked at me like I was crazy. "What's a CR?" Haha, oops...too much time on SW and not IRL.

lynn2009
06-16-2015, 07:04 PM
There's one guy I really miss from my last vanilla job. A mentor/big brother thing, not a relationship thing. I texted him earlier about something random and he just got back to me saying he was thinking about me and he hoped I was doing well. I just said I was ok. I wanted to be like, can you please come to my current work tomorrow and talk wisdom to me please? I could use it.

SweetJulia
06-16-2015, 07:10 PM
I turned down guaranteed work Saturday AND today, but will get a minimum of a 250 goal tomorrow through Saturday. I feel like such a slacker, but antibiotics and the physical work have me drained.

OliveJardin
06-16-2015, 09:12 PM
I'm beginning to really regret having spent so much time with my ex-boyfriend. I know that the past is the past and that regret, generally speaking, is useless, yet I feel that so much of that time was wasted. I wonder what I could have done in enhancing my university experience if it weren't for choosing to be with him, for example. If I hadn't always been rushing home to see him instead of joining groups and making friends...

Ugh.

^*Hugs*

I can totally relate, relationships can be isolating-I don't have any friends really, because I didn't bother to make any and also ran home to be with my bf instead. It's hard to lose a chunk of time and feel like you have nothing to show for it except another life lesson.

I confess that I saw a bunch of multicolored, roaring, merry, seemingly bogan sports fans on the news and thought "Ewww, this is what I will have to deal with tonight *le sigh*!" lol.

carmen_b
06-16-2015, 10:38 PM
Man , I'm so bored. I had good luck at day job which I'm so happy about but I feel lost without a full schedule of trying to close sales.
I was thrilled to have a break this morning and now feel stressed about " wasting " the next 5-6 days.

charlie61
06-16-2015, 11:00 PM
I can't remember the last time I experienced a mood. Angry, sad, happy, whatever. When I was younger, I'd have days where I'd wake up in a good mood, or days when I'd wake up in a bad mood. But those disappeared. Now I'm always in a neutral state.

OliveJardin
06-17-2015, 02:46 AM
I confess that I have never really found Katy Perry attractive (she is a super cute, beautiful girl, who has succeeded a lot-but, I don't know, I just don't find her "hot" :/).

Aniela
06-17-2015, 03:08 AM
I agreed to take an extra shift Fri, & have been regretting it ever since I signed my name. I took it purely bc it will be 8hrs of overtime pay, but it also means my only day off was ystrdy, & it's a morning shift so an extra day of getting up at 0530.

I also confess that I am thinking of slightly guilt-tripping my mother abt how loud she was on the phone last nite. Her hearing is really bad & I am starting to think it might be getting worse, bc even in normal convo lately she is borderline shouting. Last nite she was def shouting on the phone but I'm sure she didn't realise it. I had my door shut & my good ear covered & could still hear her like she was right nxt to the damn bed, she was so loud. I don't want to make her feel self-conscious but maybe if she does, she will actually be a bit more mindful.

amberlly
06-17-2015, 03:59 AM
.............

HoolaTwister
06-17-2015, 06:21 AM
I'm so so ANGRY at my Dr's office! I waited over two months for an appointment, which was supposed to be today, and they just cancelled on me! I'm like, "May I reschedule now please?" So they transfer me (because the lady that calls to cancel your appointment just can't take a f*cking appointment??!) And of course it's an answering machine....waiting for a call back.....I'm completely running out of my medication, I have one days left of it. What is their problem???!

whirlerz
06-17-2015, 08:57 AM
I'm so so ANGRY at my Dr's office! I waited over two months for an appointment, which was supposed to be today, and they just cancelled on me! I'm like, "May I reschedule now please?" So they transfer me (because the lady that calls to cancel your appointment just can't take a f*cking appointment??!) And of course it's an answering machine....waiting for a call back.....I'm completely running out of my medication, I have one days left of it. What is their problem???!

Aww. Can you have them call pharmacy & front you some pills til the appt.? I've done this, prev.

Me: Well, these a/holes checked in late last night, walking up & down talking LOUDLY. So ok, I figured, give them time to settle down..they were down a few rms frm me..I walked by their rm when I was getting ice, & heard them, blah, blah, blah w/beer of course. So ok, they're not by me, I'm not gonna say anything. Then this one prick decides to stand outside my DOOR, & have a cell convo, beer/cig in hand..which before that, he was walking up & down talking.
I call the front desk, I know the guy called their rm but a lot of ppl (myself incl) unplug their phones..
So when mr mouth is outside my door, I open the door, he looks @ me, & I go, "do you mind"? he says, "sure no prob" & walks like 3 ft away, which I can still hear him..
So this morn I went down & told the office again, so they put them on do not renew.

charlie61
06-17-2015, 09:45 AM
My little sister, who decided to not talk to me for five years and refuses to tell anyone why, just sent me a friend request on facebook. She also sent a message that's like "we just got a puppy - I hope you enjoy the pictures I posted!" as if the last five years never happened. I've literally been kicked off of family vacations due to her animosity towards me (again, even though she refuses to tell anyone where her issue with me comes from). I've missed countless family holidays due to this. Years of being ostracized. And now, a friend request talking about her new puppy?!

What complicates this is that I'll be seeing her at my older sister's wedding in a couple of months, and my mom's sole wish is for all of her daughters to get along. So I'm in a really uncomfortable spot where I have to allow this snake back into my life and pretend like nothing happened. Uuuugggghh... >_<

baer45
06-17-2015, 11:53 AM
I'm so so ANGRY at my Dr's office! I waited over two months for an appointment, which was supposed to be today, and they just cancelled on me! I'm like, "May I reschedule now please?" So they transfer me (because the lady that calls to cancel your appointment just can't take a f*cking appointment??!) And of course it's an answering machine....waiting for a call back.....I'm completely running out of my medication, I have one days left of it. What is their problem???!


Drive to that office and make yourself their problems. Or find another doctor.

OliveJardin
06-17-2015, 12:05 PM
...so my back has been out for almost 2 weeks and tonight at work this random guy says, "oh, you're back is out!". Well, I kind of looked at him funny and confirmed that fact...turns out the guy was actually a chiropractor and he gave me a free alignment lol...well, I confess that it seriously saved me a couple of hundred (I had been putting off going to get a referral lol). Sometimes the Universe is kind.

carmen_b
06-17-2015, 12:49 PM
Charlie : that is so ODD. Do you think it's sex work related ?