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Elektra Luxx
06-24-2015, 09:28 AM
I really want to suntan - naked - or at least topless. My tatas want to see some sunlight.
Suntanning naked is the best. There are no nude beaches in Texas, but you can getaway with it if you're discreet. I always park away from teens and families. I can park half a mile away from people hoping to get little privacy and it NEVER FAILS some family will park within 100 feet of me. Why!!! You've got the entire Gulf Coast and you setup camp next to me!!! It's always a Dad and the little kids interrupting me. The Mom is tanning (sometimes topless) and relaxing.
charlie61
06-24-2015, 10:19 AM
I regret getting rid of my old stripper outfits. Even the ones I never wore. Wish I'd kept them for fun and sentimental value instead of selling them.
kaninchen
06-24-2015, 04:31 PM
Every morning when I wake up and remember that I'm single, I am so incredibly glad. I love it. I'm like, up to my eyeballs in dick and opportunity! This is awesome!
:propeller :propeller :propeller
simone87
06-24-2015, 04:53 PM
It is also possible she might have anorexia or bulimia... Do you see any strange behavior? Can you get her to consult a mental health professional?
i sure hope not. she lives with my other sister across the country right now, but she came down for a visit recently. so far i dont think she's being unhealthy ( physically) but it could quickly get that way
Prettyglitter
06-24-2015, 05:00 PM
Every morning when I wake up and remember that I'm single, I am so incredibly glad. I love it. I'm like, up to my eyeballs in dick and opportunity! This is awesome!
:propeller :propeller :propeller
I'm so damn jealous.
Prettyglitter
06-24-2015, 05:01 PM
My confession is I'm so jealous of people that just do what they want and don't worry about others. Im tired of hiding my dancing from people yet I would hate to do with the stigma. I guess you can't have it all.
charlie61
06-24-2015, 05:11 PM
I confess that I tried to lighten my hair from a dark brown to a light brown, and it all went horribly wrong. So I just dyed it back to its original color. Now I have slightly damaged hair, $60 less in my pocket, and my hair looks the same as it did when I started. But I'm back in brunette-land and happy to be here with my locks in tact and relatively healthy.
Oh well. It was kind of a bucket-list item for me, and I learned my lesson. I'll confidently cut my own hair and dye my own hair (brown) for the rest of my life, but y'all, bleach is NO FUCKING JOKE. That shit is not for amateurs. I had this moment when I was watching my roots turn neon orange where I was like "Oh, my hair is actually a really fucking huge part of my job...and it could all fall out right now. Huh."
If you have long hair and no experience with lightening hair, go to a salon to get it done. I don't care if you've successfully dyed your hair brown for the last ten years. Lightening is a whole different ball game.
Genoveve
06-24-2015, 05:23 PM
I really want to suntan - naked - or at least topless. My tatas want to see some sunlight.
Same. I love laying out and I hate tan lines. It sucks because I actually live somewhere where I could lay outside with privacy now but I was just put on retinol and have to avoid the sun.
Aurora_Sunset
06-24-2015, 06:23 PM
I'm actually pissed at one of my friends for encouraging me to pursue a guy a couple years ago. I had a crush on him but had asked him to hang out several times to him saying he was busy and never following up on it, so I said ok he's not interested and was going to move on. Then this guy friend asked if I was into anyone and when I told him the situation, he practically harassed me into asking him out again. Fed me all this shit about how I'm "intimidatingly attractive" and he was sure the guy liked me and was just shy (not like he knew him, though...). He bugged me every time I saw him for the next 2 weeks about asking the guy out and made me promise to do it.
So I did, I've slept with him a few times, but I was right. He's not into me more than that, and because of finally hanging out with him and sleeping with him, I've seen his douchey, selfish horny typical guy side. It makes me mad because he was the last guy I had a thing for in my mind before I became incapable of even considering men these days. I wish he could've just stayed a fantasy. I'd be so much happier having daydreams about a guy I knew I'd never get with than know the reality of him not being any different from anyone else. I'm PISSED that I feel like my friend took that small joy of fantasy away from me. And I'm especially mad that I feel like he did it just cuz he wanted to get over his own feelings for me so he was trying to "take me off the market." Thanks for fucking up what was working for me for your own selfish reasons, dick...
And then logically I know it's stupid to blame him.... But I'm going to anyway.
xStacey
06-24-2015, 06:55 PM
Ho Tactics is a goldmine.
KikiGem
06-24-2015, 11:37 PM
Does anyone else feel this way? It seems like all the people my age are all about "positive vibes" and have super happy whimsical lives and lots of places to go and people to see, and they are in happy little relationships. And I feel like a jaded bitch who's been stuck in the same place for a year and a half with no love in my life, just heartbreak after heartbreak.
I'm working on it though. Someday I'll be that happy, loved and loving person. Someday.
zoezoebelle
06-25-2015, 01:06 AM
I met a former male stripper last night at a bar. It was really cool. I got pretty drunk and kept calling him my spirit animal. xD We kept messing around and even ended up doing some floor work at the end of the night haha. I ended up crashing with him and he rubbed my back and we cuddled, nothing else. I felt really guilty after, but I think I really needed to be held by someone not intimidating for once. It made me realise that people in the sex industry are often much more compassionate and empathetic than most.
SimoneGray
06-25-2015, 08:56 AM
I confess I want to do something really crazy with my hair colour wise...like dye it lilac or something silly. The urge is literally overwhelming.
sweetcrush
06-25-2015, 10:52 AM
I confess that I want to again leave my relationship to go back to the single life and trying to dance. I just know he won't accept it. It's like a bug that won't go away. I just want to take off,travel and try to make a better living for myself. I'm already tired of my vanilla job.
Prettyglitter
06-25-2015, 11:05 AM
I confess that I want to again leave my relationship to go back to the single life and trying to dance. I just know he won't accept it. It's like a bug that won't go away. I just want to take off,travel and try to make a better living for myself. I'm already tired of my vanilla job.
Same boat.
sweetcrush
06-25-2015, 11:59 AM
Same boat.
Good to hear there's a similar feeling out there.....
wednesday86
06-25-2015, 12:09 PM
Lately I have been having really bad paranoia if I don't get enough sleep. Last night I couldn't fall asleep and was running on 4 hours for the last day...I was convinced that someone was trying to break into my house (this is a very safe neighborhood; there's no reason for me to think that.) I had my bedroom door locked and I was hiding under the covers freaking out. I think I need to go to the doctor and get something to help me sleep and chill the fuck out....my new stripper schedule has me all fucked up. I work until 2 or 4am and still wake up at 8am. ugh
kaninchen
06-25-2015, 01:09 PM
I know this is going to sound like a bizarro humblebrag, but excessive compliments make me really nervous. Lately everyone has been all into my hair. This dude I slept with was like running his hands through it during sex and saying, "Even your hair is beautiful!" and this other guy asked me if he could just play with my "liquid sunshine dream hair" whenever he sees me. THEN today I was at the doctor and the CNA was talking about it while taking my blood pressure and finally later I was at an antique store and the old ladies there were gushing over it too.
It just makes me really worried that something will happen to it and then I'll be a hideous withered hag without it. Ugh, I'm so weird. Shit stresses me out too easily.
baer45
06-25-2015, 01:10 PM
Why am I the "Miss bad choices" when I am eductated, have decent bank balance, cars, jewlery, other investments?
zoezoebelle
06-25-2015, 01:13 PM
I confess I want to do something really crazy with my hair colour wise...like dye it lilac or something silly. The urge is literally overwhelming.
I get that all the time! I've never done it though, because I know that the next day I'd hate it.
SimoneGray
06-25-2015, 01:42 PM
^^ I kinda wanna do it either platinum or white so that I can put a myriad of colours over it and not get bored like that...because I do get bored easily.
kaninchen
06-25-2015, 03:31 PM
OMG just got a message on OkCupid "your blond hair is sexy" STAHHP
... I should probably make a No-Filter Neurotic Ramblings thread for stuff like this.
HoolaTwister
06-25-2015, 03:37 PM
I know this is going to sound like a bizarro humblebrag, but excessive compliments make me really nervous. Lately everyone has been all into my hair. This dude I slept with was like running his hands through it during sex and saying, "Even your hair is beautiful!" and this other guy asked me if he could just play with my "liquid sunshine dream hair" whenever he sees me. THEN today I was at the doctor and the CNA was talking about it while taking my blood pressure and finally later I was at an antique store and the old ladies there were gushing over it too.
It just makes me really worried that something will happen to it and then I'll be a hideous withered hag without it. Ugh, I'm so weird. Shit stresses me out too easily.
I get this too!! My Dr said it was part of my OCD :/
kaninchen
06-25-2015, 04:02 PM
I get this too!! My Dr said it was part of my OCD :/
OMG, you know... That's probably exactly what it is for me, too. Ugh, whenever I feel like I have a handle on OCD, it finds a new way to sneak up on me.
Thanks for sharing this.
ScarletKitten
06-25-2015, 04:16 PM
Does anyone else feel this way? It seems like all the people my age are all about "positive vibes" and have super happy whimsical lives and lots of places to go and people to see, and they are in happy little relationships. And I feel like a jaded bitch who's been stuck in the same place for a year and a half with no love in my life, just heartbreak after heartbreak.
I'm working on it though. Someday I'll be that happy, loved and loving person. Someday.
Read the book "Excuse Me, Your Life is Waiting" by Lynn Grabhorn. This book is changing my life.
simone87
06-25-2015, 04:47 PM
i've always have an authority problem but now i'm starting to see that the minute i get into a new setting or social group, whoever is the "boss" or "clique leader" or "the most popular one"..i just automatically cannot stand them and have my back up like "fuck you if you think i'm going to kiss your ass like everyone else you're dead wrong". they could be a totally nice person ( altho that is very rare, most of them are so full of themselves they are about to burst) but its like i have this built up resentment.
SnuffleUffleGrass
06-25-2015, 08:17 PM
I know this is going to sound like a bizarro humblebrag, but excessive compliments make me really nervous. Lately everyone has been all into my hair. This dude I slept with was like running his hands through it during sex and saying, "Even your hair is beautiful!" and this other guy asked me if he could just play with my "liquid sunshine dream hair" whenever he sees me. THEN today I was at the doctor and the CNA was talking about it while taking my blood pressure and finally later I was at an antique store and the old ladies there were gushing over it too.
It just makes me really worried that something will happen to it and then I'll be a hideous withered hag without it. Ugh, I'm so weird. Shit stresses me out too easily.
My advice, enjoy it while you can. I am aging now & it's tough to think about the days when my looks will be faded. I was very dismissive of compliments when I was younger b/c I was cynical. But in truth beauty opens so many doors.
ScarletKitten
06-25-2015, 09:57 PM
^^Real beauty never fades. Confidence and inner light take a person very far in life. Physical looks only carry you so far, even in this industry.
In regards to accepting compliments, you have to truly love yourself to feel like you deserve praise. When you finally learn to accept that praise, your energy signature (vibration) rises, and you in turn attract even more positivity, love, abundance, and praise. <3
My confession: I had a really wild, yet beautiful and amazing dream about a certain cam girl last night. I'm not even sure if she is on this forum or not (I used to watch her on SM to get ideas) but wow....this dream was just amazing. We laughed, kissed, had so much fun. She even showed me a bunch of cash she had laying around her house. I didn't feel any jealously nor did I want to take it from her, I just felt positive feelings like happiness for her that she was successful and happy, and it was almost like she was showing me that abundance is so very possible, I just have to "dive in" with acceptance and love, holding back nothing, and having no fear. Oh, and how lovely she was. And that kiss....wow. One of my favorite dreams I've ever had. :heartbeat :lovestruc :wizard:
zoezoebelle
06-25-2015, 11:01 PM
I'm developing the weirdest love/hate relationship with one of my regulars. Lately it's like I'm using him to distract me from my actual relationship. He's so evil, but sometimes... sometimes there's so much shit in my life that I really want to feel pain. Tonight I asked him to spank me, and as I anticipated he smacked my ass so hard I yelped in pain. Then he choked me a bit. I hate that I'm seeking that kind of thing because I know my boyfriend would never do it. I feel like I keep taking out my anxiety and frustration on random men just to test myself, to see if maybe I'll abandon my guy and revert back to recklessness, or find someone younger. But no matter how many men surround me, he still stands out from the rest a mile away. I've never loved someone like this. It scares me so much that I'm really close to completely sabotaging this relationship. What is wrong with me?
xStacey
06-26-2015, 09:41 AM
After reading an advice suggesting that women should look their best at all time when they leave the door because opportunity could hit you at any time, anywhere, I thought I must start applying it. Just woke up, I don't work today and really don't feel like spending more than 5 minutes getting ready. I am so lazy I just want to put on a tee-shirt, jeans (in the winter it would have been sweatpants lol), glasses, my hair in a bun, no make-up and leave to do errands. I really admire women who make the effort to look gorgeous every day.
baer45
06-26-2015, 09:53 AM
Sometimes I just drive to costco for the food samples at lunch...
Aurora_Sunset
06-26-2015, 10:29 AM
Just had groceries delivered for the second week and I LOOOOOVE it! Going to the store later doesn't seem like a big deal knowing I only need 5 things instead of my massive weekly shopping list. Getting everything I need instead of putting it off, not being burned out from the long tedious trip, and actually having the energy to cook batch meals afterward is the main reason I've been so good at sticking to my diet this past week, and I feel (and look, if I do say so myself) amazing! I ain't never going back to hours-long shopping trips!
lynn2009
06-26-2015, 10:49 AM
I am actually kind of scared to work tonight. It's been so long, Wednesday was such a magic unicorn night I feel like the universe has to realign itself I'll make no money at all. Trying to calm down and talk myself into having no expectations before this becomes a self-prediction come true kind of thing (as always happens to me).
charlie61
06-26-2015, 10:53 AM
I am actually kind of scared to work tonight. It's been so long, Wednesday was such a magic unicorn night I feel like the universe has to realign itself I'll make no money at all. Trying to calm down and talk myself into having no expectations before this becomes a self-prediction come true kind of thing (as always happens to me).
That's what kept me out of dancing for four years. If you work consistently, it all evens out. Right now I'm working once a week; I'm afraid that if I skip so much as a week, I won't come back for another four years. Seriously!
Aurora_Sunset
06-26-2015, 11:14 AM
Started rewatching this show called Undergrads, and I got really really sad all of a sudden seeing the characters start college life. It took me back to that time and feeling of excitement. Like the whole world was ahead of me and I was so excited to enter this new realm. Nothing is ever going to really be or feel like that again. Sure, I could get a new job, move to a new place, get married, etc etc.... but nothing is going to be like that fresh, opportunity-packed, responsiblity-free, UNjaded, "whole new world" bubble of starting/going through college. Maaaaan.... that was such a good feeling. I wish I appreciated it more back then.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ut6YtMXjaZY
Aniela
06-26-2015, 12:33 PM
Today was my first day off in 10 days & I have spent it sleeping in, playing the Sims & eating junk. Generally unproductive mental/physical decompression. I feel bad for 'being such a slacker' today even tho I have been working hard. My nxt day off I am fully planning to exercise a bit & then work on projects that need finishing.
Genoveve
06-26-2015, 12:48 PM
After reading an advice suggesting that women should look their best at all time when they leave the door because opportunity could hit you at any time, anywhere, I thought I must start applying it. Just woke up, I don't work today and really don't feel like spending more than 5 minutes getting ready. I am so lazy I just want to put on a tee-shirt, jeans (in the winter it would have been sweatpants lol), glasses, my hair in a bun, no make-up and leave to do errands. I really admire women who make the effort to look gorgeous every day.
I confess that this is very important to me! I don't put on ten pounds of makeup and a dress to go to the grocery store(not that there's anything wrong with that) but do I make sure that I look very polished when I leave the house.
...
I also confess that I hate having people in my house so much so that I'm trying to ghetto-rig my semi-broken fridge myself because I'd love to tell my landlady that it's fixed and that I don't need the maintenance man to come out after all. :shhh:
ScarletKitten
06-26-2015, 03:09 PM
^^Haha, we ghetto-rig broken things around the apartment too, in order to avoid maintenance coming up in here. Whatever works. ;D
Glamourmilf
06-26-2015, 05:47 PM
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I also confess that I hate having people in my house so much so that I'm trying to ghetto-rig my semi-broken fridge myself because I'd love to tell my landlady that it's fixed and that I don't need the maintenance man to come out after all. :shhh:[/QUOTE]
I am the exact same way! When my old as dirt fridge was on it's leg in my last apt.I actually calle a prayer line for it to mend itself! It broke anyway, and I had the worse panic attack when maintenance had to come and replace it.
The fridge in my current place stopped working also! Since the shithead woman I'm renting from did nothing about it, I had to go on yelp and find someone to fix it...I answered the door with no makeup, and sweats on..,damn it if the repair guy's son was gorgeous and so my type!
Sheeze! When I googled him after, it turns out he is well known athlete.
Genoveve
06-26-2015, 06:07 PM
I'm starting to think everyone is like this! My one friend's garbage disposal has not been working for forever and a kitchen cabinet door fell apart but she just deals with it because like us she doesn't feel like dealing with having someone come over to fix it. Her kitchen faucet is also extremely loose and needs to be held down during use LOL. My garbage disposal broke a few months ago too and I just deal with it. My landlords are really old and the thing is that when someone comes here to fix something they come over and supervise the worker and then they want to socialize with me so it turns into this huge drawn-out event and I'd just rather skip it. :meditate:
Selina M
06-26-2015, 06:58 PM
Me as well! My master bathroom toilet won't flush (broken flappy piece), the door handle to the guest bedroom is coming out, there's a stripped screw that fucks with another door lock, and a cabinet door straight broke off... We have just been dealing with it bc I can't stand having maintenance in!
Aurora_Sunset
06-26-2015, 08:18 PM
Confession: .... I wish Spongebob Squarepants was on Netflix... Omg, the fun I would have when I'm drunk
SimoneGray
06-26-2015, 08:58 PM
^^ omg haha talking of this, I share a network with a friend of mine in my apartment building so we share series and movies and for some reason he has every season of Spongebob Squarepants on the network. The fun I do have when I'm drunk....lololol.
xStacey
06-26-2015, 10:13 PM
After finishing reading Ho Tactics, I started reading Solving Single by the same author. I always thought I was beyond reading relationship advice books. It's very interesting to get a male perspective on how men think, but I don't think I want to date anymore after reading all this.
It makes me very sad going through those pages, the truth that being nice, caring and truthful doesn't work but only end up being taken advantage of. Having to put my game face on every hour at work, I just want to be able to relax and be myself outside of work. I think I'll settle for being single rather than having to play another game during my off hours.
It's really unfortunate that women have to be players if they don't want to be played.
Glamourmilf
06-26-2015, 11:40 PM
^^^I felt the same way after reading the book....well, most of the book..I haven't felt like reading the last few chapters. I thought I would get tips to get guys to pay me on cam, but it really doesn't apply.
Irl, I don't have the energy to go through all of the techniques...I tried with 2 different older wealthy guys, but I hated them both, and enjoy my solitude much more than I realized...It was just not my nature to be that deceptive.
anacol
06-27-2015, 06:44 AM
I wish people would stop asking me about this gay marriage situation. I got my own problems, and being gay isn't one of them!
simone87
06-27-2015, 07:58 AM
i'm so embarrassing that my parents are homophobing out right now..i mean i realize i was raised in the backwoods and that they acted like that back then because that's just part of redneck culture but i had thought they had matured and maybe learned to see things from a different perspective over the years. wishful thinking on my part i guess? ugh, i really hope they dont bring it up next time i see them
miss.a.p1600
06-27-2015, 08:05 AM
Yeah some jerk at the club goes on a rant about gays and then was like "you're not gay are you?" - ugggh!!! I wish I had duct tape so I wouldn't have to listen to what comes out of people's mouth.
I can't help but think the people so against gay people are deep down closet gays.
charlie61
06-27-2015, 12:04 PM
^I just say something like "::giggle:: Why do you care about that at all? In fact, ::giggle::, why are we even *talking* about this?! Let's go get me naked!" Or whatever.
Luckily I now live in a super socially liberal area, so I don't have to deal with that anymore.
I confess that I received Holly Madison's book yesterday, and I can't put it down! The book is a beautiful hardcover and like 330 pages of solid material. For $15, I'm pleased. It's well edited (no spelling errors or any such nonsense) and she doesn't wait 100 pages to get into the details!
carmen_b
06-27-2015, 12:08 PM
^ Ohhhhh tempting to order....