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Harleigh HellKat
08-11-2010, 11:33 AM
The thought of asking guys for dances starting tomorrow turns my stomach. The Charlotte scene is so saturated but I need income til my clips4sale/southern charms is up and running. I will probably hit up a dive bar so at least I can do whatever the fuck I want and wear what I want.
carmen_b
08-11-2010, 12:59 PM
^ I'm embarrassed to report that on my last couple shifts .... I aimed to make half of what I normally would ( simply because I couldn't STAND the thought of asking asking asking asking ). For some reason .... I used to have the THICKEST skin about this ( I've worked in sales for 10 years ) and now lately it's affecting me? ;(
I mean ... it's really affecting me. On a trip into WalMart, I heard the voice of a black man go " Is it Free " ( I guess talking about something in the store obviously ), but it flooded me with sickness about hearing similar statements in the club. I almost threw up on the floor - my stomach literally turned and I knew a dancer break was in order.
carmen_b
08-11-2010, 01:04 PM
My confession:
My relationship is over. I feel it. I mean, even my own dreams are screaming GET OUT OF IT! But i need to write things down and figure out how i can tell him and most of all how to "start over". It would be easy if i was without a kid but with a kid it makes it even harder. Ugh. I'm scared but it has to be done. I can't live another day unhappy.
I finally got the balls about 8 months ago .......... worth it , WORTH IT , worth it. It's worth being lonely for, worth being scared , ect. Do it if you know you are done.
Harleigh HellKat
08-11-2010, 01:35 PM
Yeah it's just too hard to sell dances here. This is literally the worst city/state I've ever worked in. As soon as I can afford it I'm going on tour.
_Avery_
08-11-2010, 02:30 PM
^^ that is definitely one of the hardest things ever. Seeing someone you love (or like) love (or like) someone else. :(
I'm sorry. *hugs*
malayataylor
08-11-2010, 03:46 PM
I just got back from what was supposed to be lunch OFF THE CLOCK with a client of mine. It turned out to be a 4 hour happy session. Caught me off guard because I wasn't expecting to make any money today being I took a day off. $1,200 RICHER!
It was funny how he introduced the idea of having sex after lunch .. he was like "Ummm I didn't' think I'd want to do this but ummm.... sooo ... what are you doing today?" with a really embarrassed look on his face ha!I started lolin because I thought the whole point of us meeting was just to try some Jamaican food together.. eh however, I had a blast and of course money extra cash does NOT hurt! I guess I'm gonna take MORE days off and just chillax with mini-me!
^Thanks for the support. Really! :)
I feel better about it now. I thought I was totally over him but I guess not. This really put things into perspective for me.
*Sigh*
You know you are over a guy when you hear his name and it evokes no emotional response. You just do you, and after a while you'll laugh at yourself for ever stressing about him.
AudrinaN
08-11-2010, 04:18 PM
was that a "confession" ? ^
:)
jennsweet
08-11-2010, 04:48 PM
My confession for today...
It felt like my heart dropped into my stomach when I thought my ex was dating someone new already.
:(
He's not. But still.
he's still in your heart like BIG time then... IMO
Harleigh HellKat
08-11-2010, 07:46 PM
@Malaya, isn't Jamaican food great? Miami has the best. Oh btw I'll be in town this weekend, I'ma text you!
Hmmm guess I don't really have any good confessions right now. Meh!!
malayataylor
08-11-2010, 08:50 PM
@Malaya, isn't Jamaican food great? Miami has the best. Oh btw I'll be in town this weekend, I'ma text you!
Hmmm guess I don't really have any good confessions right now. Meh!!
I'm pretty much free all week. Text me when you have free time, I wanna meet you!
Yes Jamaican food is the bomb! lol
Harleigh HellKat
08-11-2010, 08:55 PM
K it'll probably be later this weekend... I gotta earn some goin' out monies lol. I'm glad to be back at work, but it's definitely temporary. I don't think dancing is for me anymore.
On the bright side... I should have a clips4sale store up an runnin by next month! Woooo!!
malayataylor
08-11-2010, 09:03 PM
K it'll probably be later this weekend... I gotta earn some goin' out monies lol. I'm glad to be back at work, but it's definitely temporary. I don't think dancing is for me anymore.
On the bright side... I should have a clips4sale store up an runnin by next month! Woooo!!
Looking forward to it. Good for you for finding what you're good at and sticking with it.
I'd love to have a C4S but I'm too mfing lazy.
alexa111
08-11-2010, 09:34 PM
I confess that I consumed 8 hotdogs in 2 days. That CAN'T be good for my cholestorol!!
_Avery_
08-12-2010, 12:56 AM
Delete.
Zinaida
08-12-2010, 01:11 AM
was that a "confession" ? ^
:)
^Was that? /:O
was that a "confession" ? ^
:)
Who are you, the "post police"?
Glamgirl
08-12-2010, 04:11 AM
I have been eating junk late at night, i know its bad and it doesnt help with my weightloss but i cant help it :(
malayataylor
08-12-2010, 04:27 AM
.. I really miss my mom..
pixierocksonthepole
08-12-2010, 09:56 AM
I didn't get a chance to work out yesterday because I was out applying at salons out in BFE from my home. And today I feel like by not working out yesterday...I undid all the work all put into it. o_0 I was doing great. And I won't be able to this weekend, as I will not be home. Granted I will be walking around Chicago all day tomorrow which is a great workout, it isn't all I needed it to be. Ugh, I need to get a gym membership badly. I can spend all day there no problem.
AudrinaN
08-12-2010, 10:01 AM
Who are you, the "post police"?
Was just bein smart ass with Malaya.Not that serious. Excuse me, other people.
_Avery_
08-13-2010, 10:36 AM
Delete.
Harleigh HellKat
08-13-2010, 11:46 AM
I'm sore. My knees are bruised. I STILL have no money. I hate stripping.
EDIT: I hate stripping in NORTH CAROLINA. I kinda hate this state anyway. How is it possible that I made more money wearing pasties and dancing on a stage than I do here with grimy ass customers who want to touch for 10 fucking dollars UGHHHHH!!!
charlie61
08-13-2010, 12:23 PM
I just left my club, and I think I'm going to report it anonymously to the police for drugs/underage drinking/prostitution (behaviors).
Kellydancer
08-13-2010, 12:26 PM
Confession: I wish my uncle's girlfriend would die.
It's not as evil as it sounds. My uncle has had his live in girlfriend for almost 10 years. He refuses to get married again because he got screwed over royally by his ex wife so I can see why marriage is a definite no for him. Anyway, he's been with her over 10 years and a few years ago she developed skin cancer. Because she had no insurance she kept putting it off. Skin cancer is easy to cure if caught early but she let it go.
Fast forward to now. The doctors told her she only has a few weeks left. She's spending the days sleeping because it's all she can do. She can't eat by herself (tube), nor can she dress herself of go to the bathroom. She's a vegetable and can't do anything. It's terrible seeing her suffer like this because we all love her as a family member. I just wish she could be out of her suffering. My uncle is also suffering bad because not only is he worried about her, he's worried about my grandparents (his parents) because they are failing, though I think they'll be around another year or two. Too much stress for anyone to handle.
She's only 45.
jennsweet
08-13-2010, 02:28 PM
I just left my club, and I think I'm going to report it anonymously to the police for drugs/underage drinking/prostitution (behaviors).
do it! wth~ house fees are a bitch and i don't think my club deserves MY money. fuck them like they fuck you. (and then later maybe ill tell you how i really feel:)
malayataylor
08-13-2010, 02:30 PM
Getting ready to meet Harleigh and I'm friggin excited!!!!!!!!! :-)
Kellydancer
08-13-2010, 03:06 PM
Getting ready to meet Harleigh and I'm friggin excited!!!!!!!!! :-)
That sounds cool. Harleigh is really cool.
charlie61
08-13-2010, 03:22 PM
do it! wth~ house fees are a bitch and i don't think my club deserves MY money. fuck them like they fuck you. (and then later maybe ill tell you how i really feel:)
Totally. I found another club, so I have nothing invested in this place. I'm pissed because it actually used to be the perfect option for me. Close to my house, non-smoking, no-contact, no druggies, etc.
Now the girls constantly smoke downstairs, snort cocaine, shoot up on oxycontin (!!!), and contact levels are out of control. Management will hire anyone now (despite the fact that it's an employer's market). We have a bunch of 18 year old cokeheads dancing. The bartenders and owners feed the underage girls alcohol (in front of everyone at the bar, not even under the table). The girls are mouthing guys' dicks through their pants, etc. I know that's not bad compared to what a lot of clubs are going through now, but I am very, very bitter about this.
I was always afraid that the police would raid this club while I was working. Now I may just be bitter enough to facilitate that.
DirtyLittleSecret
08-13-2010, 03:54 PM
Confession:
My curiosity in the whole camming world is back again. But i can't bring myself to do it. I literally get like panic anxiety just browsing the sites you gals work for. No clue why! You girls are gorgeous and i like totally think what you do kicks ass....why can't i just do it! I mean, i talk to guys all the damn time for fun on other sites so its not like i'm shy about myself or being flirty/sexy. Its just a weird "wall" by brain has. I get like woozy and stuff at the thought. WTF! I got a cam and i barely ever used it cause i get that same feeling of anxiety when i do.
I am a perfectionist though so i think part of it is comparing/judging myself and over thinking things. Ugh. I wish i had the balls you girls have instead of me lurking like a chicken.
Jessie_tinydancer
08-14-2010, 05:05 AM
I drunkies and I only had 1.5 glasses of wine... thank you breast augmentation recovery for bringing my alcohol tolerance back down to 1... weeee
malayataylor
08-14-2010, 10:14 AM
Shopping for a wedding dress....
wonder why *shrugs* :)
_Avery_
08-14-2010, 10:16 AM
Confession:
My curiosity in the whole camming world is back again. But i can't bring myself to do it. I literally get like panic anxiety just browsing the sites you gals work for. No clue why! You girls are gorgeous and i like totally think what you do kicks ass....why can't i just do it! I mean, i talk to guys all the damn time for fun on other sites so its not like i'm shy about myself or being flirty/sexy. Its just a weird "wall" by brain has. I get like woozy and stuff at the thought. WTF! I got a cam and i barely ever used it cause i get that same feeling of anxiety when i do.
I am a perfectionist though so i think part of it is comparing/judging myself and over thinking things. Ugh. I wish i had the balls you girls have instead of me lurking like a chicken.
Go for it!
The great thing about camming is the guys come to YOU! You don't really have to worry about rejection because these guys sought you out. There are millions of cam girls, but these guys come to YOUR room for a reason. Because they like YOU!
In the club, you don't really know who's gonna like you. Camming though, whoever is in your room or whoever you're talking to, has an interest in you. So you don't really have to worry about rejection as much. :)
Just take it in baby steps. Log on for 15 minutes. See what happens. Then keep staying longer and longer. You can do it! ;D
_Avery_
08-14-2010, 10:34 AM
My confession:
I spent about $75 on new dresses these past few days.
Which is a lot of money for me.
HOWEVER, it's nice to actually make money for once. It's nice to go to work now and not leave owing. Gotta spend money to make money, right?
We're gonna go get a new big screen or lap top. I'm thinking big screen. ;D
I think me getting a DUI was, in a weird way, the best thing to happen. Got me out of a shit club, made me start drinking MUCH less (except for Thursday...which, even then, I didn't drink as much as I use to) and start focusing on money.
I know a bad night is going to happen. I just wanna ride this good feeling of good nights as long as possible..lol. :)
Even though I want to work tonight, kinda glad I have it off. I am fucking SORE! It's a good pain though! LOL. :D
jennsweet
08-14-2010, 10:34 AM
^just curious avery... what do you make in week more/less just from camming? u can PM me if you dont want that info posted
_Avery_
08-14-2010, 10:36 AM
Shopping for a wedding dress....
wonder why *shrugs* :)
Really?!!
You're getting married? What thread did I miss?? lol
_Avery_
08-14-2010, 10:38 AM
Delete.
malayataylor
08-14-2010, 10:47 AM
Really?!!
You're getting married? What thread did I miss?? lol
I honestly don't know what's going on. He said "get 3 of your friends together, I'll pay for their travel and hotel stay at the Biltmore estates. I have a surprise for you" He also sent me $1500 to buy a "dress". Mind you he's out of the country right now and will be back Monday morning (
I just found out 30 minutes ago. That's why I didn't write about it. :) LOL!
Ok no speak anglais let's not jinx this!!!
I will definitely keep you updated :)
malayataylor
08-14-2010, 10:48 AM
Right now, I'm making MUCH more. I've made about $900 this week.
Even though I know some girls make that in a night, I'm really excited.
I've worked 4 days this week, and am super happy. Especially since it's been a long time since I've made money...lol
VERY proud of you $900 a week is good money camming. You'll be pulling more in! I'm sure the guys love you!
_Avery_
08-14-2010, 10:53 AM
VERY proud of you $900 a week is good money camming. You'll be pulling more in! I'm sure the guys love you!
Oh, no, I made it at the club..lol
Right now, I'm gonna use camming as my "extra money". I really should get dressed and log on today, but I'm exhausted. I think I could do good camming, just hard with my set up. Computer in the living room, my son's watching TV....I'm wondering if I SHOULD get a lap top so I can make good money too when I'm not at the club.
You can never have too much money! ;D
malayataylor
08-14-2010, 10:58 AM
Oh, no, I made it at the club..lol
Right now, I'm gonna use camming as my "extra money". I really should get dressed and log on today, but I'm exhausted. I think I could do good camming, just hard with my set up. Computer in the living room, my son's watching TV....I'm wondering if I SHOULD get a lap top so I can make good money too when I'm not at the club.
You can never have too much money! ;D
Well I have a laptop and I cam in my living room almost always (when I do cam) I've also started giving food shows in the kitchen.. HA! I make so much money when I cam from my kitchen it's ridiculous. You should most def get a laptop. That way you can do shower shows and all..
I only cam when my daughter is sleeping. I get my red bull and just cam my little heart out. Red bull does the trick for me.
Oh there is no such thing as too much money :-)
_Avery_
08-14-2010, 11:05 AM
Delete.
Harleigh HellKat
08-14-2010, 11:32 AM
Whaaaa?? Wedding Dress? I missed something lol.
My confession... I almost hit a customer last night. I had my fist raised to punch him but instead I just grabbed his face and yelled at him like a drill sergeant. He smacked my ass REALLY hard and I sooo wanted to break his face. The bouncer threw him out. Then I sold more dances to some guys at the stage because they thought it was cool that I stood up for myself. :D
malayataylor
08-14-2010, 11:39 AM
Whaaaa?? Wedding Dress? I missed something lol.
My confession... I almost hit a customer last night. I had my fist raised to punch him but instead I just grabbed his face and yelled at him like a drill sergeant. He smacked my ass REALLY hard and I sooo wanted to break his face. The bouncer threw him out. Then I sold more dances to some guys at the stage because they thought it was cool that I stood up for myself. :D
Harleigh!!!!!!!!!! how was it last night though?? besides that of course
Harleigh HellKat
08-14-2010, 11:48 AM
It was soooo dead! I'm not even joking. It actually got better after that lol!
Stupid Friday the 13th!
jennsweet
08-14-2010, 03:52 PM
Right now, I'm making MUCH more. I've made about $900 this week.
Even though I know some girls make that in a night, I'm really excited.
I've worked 4 days this week, and am super happy. Especially since it's been a long time since I've made money...lol
thanks luv... i know its personal stuff, was just curious. and $900 is a sweet weeks worth anyway:)
malayataylor
08-14-2010, 05:15 PM
I just got back from the Mall not to long ago I got the most sexiest (though very classy/airport worthy) dresses Saks fifth had. I'm picking up my boyfriend from the airport Monday morning annnnnd I'm sure his jaws are gonna drop once he sees me in the dress I'm planning to wear. I'm mad at him so no sex but ummm he's sooo gonna wanna do me.;D}:D I'm gonna tease the shit outta him! fun fun fun!
charlie61
08-14-2010, 05:47 PM
^^OOOh! Do you have a link to the dress? I wanna see!
DirtyLittleSecret
08-14-2010, 05:50 PM
^^OOOh! Do you have a link to the dress? I wanna see!
I was thinking the same thing! May we see this amazing dress?
sananeko
08-14-2010, 06:08 PM
My two cents even if its late is that if I can't put them on in 30 seconds before I walk out that door they are not for me.