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Selina M
07-08-2015, 01:44 PM
Well I finally made the decision to not take that job. I hit 'send' on the resignation email and almost had a panic attack.

I hope they don't give me the "you signed a contract" line and try to haul me in front of the school board and all that shit. There's a clause about $2500 in 'damages' for breaching a contract and cost of finding a replacement, but I really don't think that would hold up in court given that it's a month before school starts... unfortunately the wording is vague about effectiveness... says I have to have certification to be employed, and that must be done by the date of 'commencement' on 7/20, so I assume that could be taken to apply to the whole contract as not being effective until 7/20?

It just wasn't worth it to go through all the BS and cost of certification for something I'm not sure I want to do for a long time. I feel free and relieved again, and like "Alright! Let's go pack the stripper bag for tomorrow night!"

carmen_b
07-08-2015, 01:52 PM
I HATE fighting with my partner during travel ! This is so WEIRD! I can't really identify much that even went wrong other than he didn't have much positive to say about the trip 6-7 days ago ( when I was in excitement mode ) and then I was stressed 2-3 days ago ( getting things ready to leave ). It's created this Bizarre " the other person isn't grateful " energy and I just want to bust THROUGH that by ANY means necessary !
Why couldn't we just have had the excitement and stress line up !
Bring on the booze and weed ( if needed ) - Ha!

culitos
07-08-2015, 03:40 PM
I know this is bad to say, but I wish something bad would happen to my boyfriends female friend. She's exactly what's wrong with civilian women.

BarbieNYC
07-08-2015, 04:58 PM
Boyfriend is doing a shit job of keeping things together bsck in ny.

The dog is sick and starving, the house is disgusting, and I can't do nothing about it because my ass is all the way on the west coast. He's too clueless to even boil chicken and potatos for her. And the dishes are still there from when I lrft two weeks ago!

I don't even want to call him my bf anymore. I just cant believe he cant keep together a house and a dog. I just feel so hopeless. I cant sleep thinking about how she is stuck sick in that dirty studio and hasnt even gotten a bath. Sleeping in dirty sheets and blankets. I feel like it's so inhumane. My cleaning lady is busy working she wont b available until monday. I really am praying my little dog gets better. My heart is so sad right now.

The neighbors offered to help look after her but my idiot bf is too embarassed at the state of the apartment to let them in. I dont understand how it got t that state. It was spotless when I left.

whirlerz
07-08-2015, 05:11 PM
Aww, your poor lil' baby! Can you convince him to let the neighbors take of her? Maybe, if he doesn't want to let them in, he can take the dog to them? Aww. Hope she gets better soon, Hugs.

HoolaTwister
07-08-2015, 06:17 PM
Boyfriend is doing a shit job of keeping things together bsck in ny.

The dog is sick and starving, the house is disgusting, and I can't do nothing about it because my ass is all the way on the west coast. He's too clueless to even boil chicken and potatos for her. And the dishes are still there from when I lrft two weeks ago!

I don't even want to call him my bf anymore. I just cant believe he cant keep together a house and a dog. I just feel so hopeless. I cant sleep thinking about how she is stuck sick in that dirty studio and hasnt even gotten a bath. Sleeping in dirty sheets and blankets. I feel like it's so inhumane. My cleaning lady is busy working she wont b available until monday. I really am praying my little dog gets better. My heart is so sad right now.

The neighbors offered to help look after her but my idiot bf is too embarassed at the state of the apartment to let them in. I dont understand how it got t that state. It was spotless when I left.

In Tina Fay's wise words: "That's a deal breaker ladies!" Ugh. Him not taking care of your pup should be the last straw :/ poor puppy and poor you! I can't imagine how stressed you are.

xStacey
07-08-2015, 08:14 PM
... The date went really well at the beginning but ended really awkwardly. Not sure I'll see him again. Don't wanna talk about it right now.

tuesdaymarie
07-09-2015, 12:10 AM
My ex from a long fucking time ago emailed me. He has tried to get in touch a few times before, but I've been ignoring him for over four years now. I honestly can't guess why he would email me after four years of no contact on my side. I replied because I am tired of him popping up out of the blue. I just want him to say whatever it is he has been wanting to say for the last four years, so that I can say kcoolthx, and he can get on with his life. Like, what is the fucking point? Guilt because he was shitty to me? I don't even care anymore. I was a stupid kid then, and that relationship taught me a damn good lesson about men and life in general. I feel like I'm getting a little Christina Aguilera over here, but it honestly made me a lot wiser and stronger and thicker skinned, so I'm good, bro.

Cashmere Star
07-09-2015, 05:12 AM
omg I had an epiphany: all I draw is people banging eachother. THE THIRST IS REAL

kaninchen
07-09-2015, 10:14 AM
The Salvation Army came way earlier than I expected this morning to pick up my old furniture. I'm vaguely embarrassed that they saw me in my pajamas, covered in self-tanner grime, with stripper stuff all over the house, although I'm sure they couldn't give a fuck. On the bright side, though -- the tax deduction from the donation is worth way more than the offer the antiques dealer made me! Wheee!

xStacey
07-09-2015, 10:19 AM
What a shitty week.

baer45
07-09-2015, 10:35 AM
I tend to see the new client who has protential to become a regular no more than twice a week. Afterall, we all get tired or bored sooner or later. This Chinese client calls me every other day for an appointment. As much as I don't want to push him away( He's also good looking), I need to find a way to tell him to slow down.

Aurora_Sunset
07-09-2015, 11:12 AM
Nothing makes me feel like less of an adult than walking into several other people's apartments and realizing we all own the exact same lamp from K-mart.

ETA: I literally just saw another neighbor bringing the same damn K-mart lamp into their apartment a couple hours after posting this... -_-

Elektra Luxx
07-09-2015, 11:58 AM
Today is my mom's birthday and I haven't even got a present or even a card. She says she loves and appreciates everything she gets, but I can see her micro-expressions that really show she didn't like something. She is really hard to shop for.

Confession: I really hate these occasions of the year (Birthdays, Christmas, weddings etc.) where you are expected to shop for gifts for other people and if you don't get them a gift you are made to feel like a pariah. If it were possible I would make a contract with everyone saying "You don't have to ever get me a gift for any occasion and I won't get you a give either unless we really want to and we are completely fine about it either way. I still love you, you still love me". That would relieve a lot of stress, but the economy would probably go into a tailspin because of the lack of guilt buying.

wednesday86
07-09-2015, 01:16 PM
I'm starting to suspect that a "dancer" and a "customer" on this forum are actually the same person...and this person really needs to take a creative writing course because their fiction sucks.

tuesdaymarie
07-09-2015, 01:19 PM
^Oh my god, yes. And I HATE cards! My boyfriend's family once gave me leopard print pajamas and Bath and Body Works stuff. The pajamas were pants and long sleeves, neither of which I can tolerate while sleeping, and the bath stuff had ingredients that I can't tolerate. It just illustrated how poorly we knew each other.




The ex emailed me saying he thinks he deserves cancer for all of the shit he did to me and how he hates himself and thinks about it all the time. That honestly makes me feel... sad? I don't know. I don't want someone to have those extreme negative feelings surrounding me. I tried to tell him I'm okay and have forgiven him, but I get the impression that that won't change his mind. I mean, he wasn't a good guy, especially to me, but I don't want him to spend the rest of his life hating himself over me. That shit's a downer.

HoolaTwister
07-09-2015, 01:36 PM
Yes on the gifts thing!! I stress out about getting the perfect gift and then get something that's totally not me. Last year I sent a really cool package to my friend, it included a roll on perfume she wanted, original poster for her favorite film (I had to hunt this down and it was $$$$$$$), diptyque candle, a YSL lipstick and compact. All things she mentioned she wanted. What did I get from her? A lip balm. It was organic but. It was a lip balm.

I confess I'm being super duper lazy today. I never have a dirty sink in the dish but today it's filled. Taking my sweet time to do anything!

Selina M
07-09-2015, 02:15 PM
I REALLY hate calling people on the phone. I tried to email the HR director and he just told me to call him. WHY WHY WHY. I get all afraid I'll say the wrong thing, so I literally wrote a Word doc of notes for when he calls back.

Edit: I just found the policy manual and am pretty sure my lack of certification makes this all null and void. I kind of want to just email and be like "Look dude I don't wanna talk about it, I'm not coming to work, PS I'm not certified and here's the page in the manual that says that renders the offer of employment null and void. Bye."

I KNEW there was a reason in my gut that I didn't start the cert process.

Also, I feel like a huge dumbass. My mom just sighed and was like "Well you got yourself in a pickle. Don't sign contracts." -_-

wednesday86
07-09-2015, 04:26 PM
I have all these ideas for ebooks/blogs/vlogs centered around my experiences stripping and applying what I've learned in real life situations. I have one ebook almost finished and more ideas every day....I'm torn on whether or not to keep them anonymous or go public on the internet as a dancer and link the books back to my blog, etc. Then all my family will most likely find out. I'm slightly concerned how it would affect me if I stay in school and pursue a career in academia, although honestly I don't think it will matter that much. I have no interest in teaching little kids. I'd just like to research and teach on a collegiate level someday.

tuesdaymarie
07-09-2015, 05:13 PM
...I am considering going in for a consultation to see if tip refinement would be right for my nose. I don't think I need full a full nose job, but it would be nice to fix the tip juuuust a little bit. I just want my face to look how it does when I do my makeup with a contoured nose and slightly overlined lips.

whirlerz
07-09-2015, 05:16 PM
... The date went really well at the beginning but ended really awkwardly. Not sure I'll see him again. Don't wanna talk about it right now.

Kinda sounds like mine, but mine was sooo lame..:(

lynn2009
07-09-2015, 05:18 PM
I was able to catch up with some old friends a few days ago and I was especially glad to see someone of the big brother/mentor type. I guess he picked up on my doom and gloom because after about an hour he asked if I was happy and I couldn't even bullshit an appropriate answer for him all I said was that I don't think it matters anymore.

amberlly
07-09-2015, 07:16 PM
I hate hearing about my friends sex lives. They think its hot and experimental. Ehh I'd rather talk to a co-worker. Its so much less about bragging and just a conversation.

OliveJardin
07-09-2015, 07:21 PM
I confess that I CAN'T stop daydreaming about my cute doctor-I feel like such a creep:-[!

It's frustrating that the only guys I'm interested in, are not interested in dating a "stripper" (I'm generalizing). I confess that I refuse to "settle" for another flaky Musician or bartender (no offence to anyone in these roles, but I have had the pleasure of dating a string of idiots, so I'm biased) and I also refuse to date a "good on paper" guy until I finish dancing (it just seems to end in the "me or the pole!" ultimatum when it gets serious, IME) ....luckily, I have a cat 8)! I love that furry little bastard.

ScarletKitten
07-09-2015, 10:02 PM
Sometimes I make stupid little posts on here just so I can delete them. Every time I feel like I'm being too much of a bitch, I have to recheck myself and be like "no, this post won't do any good. delete it!" I only want to share positivity with the world. But damn sometimes I get the urge to go all bitch-fest. Gotta keep myself in line (high vibrations & positivity most of the time!) lol then some dumbass male poster on here has to troll us and then my bitchiness comes back full-force. hahahaha. I have zero patience and tolerance for males now, like 99% of the time.

Cashmere Star
07-09-2015, 10:31 PM
My life is getting so much better, but I am still crossing my fingers. When people here ask me why I came here from LA, I don't know what to tell them that would make sense. I just visited, looked down at the snow at my feet, into the crisp wilderness, and began crying. This should've been my life. Life could be better. Life will be better.

I love my new town, it's the happiest I've been. I even do so much better in the clubs than back in LA. The new housemates I live with are like a family to me, it's strange how people you barely know can care about you more than your own bloodkin. Because of this I am going to cut the umbilical cord with my family as soon as possible. I don't want my parents finding out my new location and fucking with me and the people around me ever again.

I decided to be a sugar baby, and I am getting all my ducks in a row. I just booked a photoshoot session so I can get good photos to put online. I'll file a DBA (doing business as), get rid of my current phone for a new one, and get rid of my current car. I am trying to ditch my current phone and car because they're under my dad's name and they can be used as leverage in the ongoing power struggle between me and my wealthy family who has done a lot of crazy shit to me. My relationship with my dad has degenerated into a arrangement-like situation anyway, so might as well find a better "daddy" who won't be as controlling and abusive, yet more generous. I really wouldn't mind dating high-profile older men and getting money for it at the same time. I actually look forward to spending time with them, and if I don't, I can always find new people to hustle. It's always a plus for me when I make someone happy without compromising myself.

Stripping made me realize how much power I have as a woman, and it has afforded me the confidence and the time to do other things. After I make money at the club and then I hit the gym, I think I exude some sort of energy because guys look at me and smile. I am just trying to adjust to all the (positive) change, not worry so much about losing it all or being disappointed. I think of all the things I could do. I can be a goddess that men pay to spend time with, yet also be accomplished as an artist, and finally be free from my blood family's toxic grip. The very fact that these are possible, all at the proximity of my fingertips... it literally makes me tremble. I could faint, like how someone faints after winning the lottery. A housemate I live with has mentioned how pale I look. I cross my finger that my life will be so much better and I pray about it. I will try to stay grounded, practice self control, and keep drawing even though I don't get any recognition at the moment. The loneliness is eating away at me with every stroke but some day...

OliveJardin
07-10-2015, 07:55 AM
I confess that I feel so old...I'm applying heat to my back and ice to my feet at the same time!

xStacey
07-10-2015, 09:02 AM
...I am considering going in for a consultation to see if tip refinement would be right for my nose. I don't think I need full a full nose job, but it would be nice to fix the tip juuuust a little bit. I just want my face to look how it does when I do my makeup with a contoured nose and slightly overlined lips.

I want to go on a few consultations for a nose job so bad too. I'm tired of having to give myself a "nose job without surgery contouring" every single day!

Aniela
07-10-2015, 10:34 AM
I confess that I feel so old...I'm applying heat to my back and ice to my feet at the same time!

Raise your glass if you've been This Guy ^^^^ *raises water bottle since still at vanilla job* :cheers:

Or thank. I doubt you will get any judgment here Olive :)

lynn2009
07-10-2015, 12:17 PM
I am trying not to be miserable and cranky at the thought of working tonight but I am. I skipped a drs appointment so I'd be able to get there on time (guy I'm seeing asked why, I said the managers have already been unreasonable w/ me about things like this and they'd give me like an 80 dollar late fee and he was like is that even legal?? (he is a lawyer who said I need an employment lawyer, ha)). In any case I've been cranky and tired every weekend night there and still end up doing ok but god it is miserable the whole time.

xStacey
07-10-2015, 03:22 PM
I still feel so stupid about what happened on Wednesday. Things could have been very different if I wasn't so attracted to him. I always kept myself emotionally detached from customers, why didn't I this time, ugh.

tuesdaymarie
07-10-2015, 04:08 PM
I actually feel a lot better since telling my ex that he's forgiven and all that shit. I always thought "the power of forgiveness" was a load, but his apology seemed very sincere, and he expressed a lot of gratitude for me replying and being kind. I don't think it's going to change his life all on its own, but his reply seemed like a weight had been lifted at least. I would have been fine never speaking to him again, but it's a lot nicer to have been able to wish each other well than to go on with the "fuck you, and I don't care if you live or die" mentality. He was the first person I slept with, and I really did love him a lot, so it will be nice to look back 10 years from now and remember him in a more positive way than I have the last four years.

DonaDiabla
07-10-2015, 08:50 PM
My 30th birthday has been the best day of my life!!! Everything went right today :)

Vyanka
07-10-2015, 09:31 PM
My 30th birthday has been the best day of my life!!! Everything went right today :)


Happy Birthday. Welcome to the 30's :)

Prettyglitter
07-10-2015, 09:36 PM
Today is my mom's birthday and I haven't even got a present or even a card. She says she loves and appreciates everything she gets, but I can see her micro-expressions that really show she didn't like something. She is really hard to shop for.

Confession: I really hate these occasions of the year (Birthdays, Christmas, weddings etc.) where you are expected to shop for gifts for other people and if you don't get them a gift you are made to feel like a pariah. If it were possible I would make a contract with everyone saying "You don't have to ever get me a gift for any occasion and I won't get you a give either unless we really want to and we are completely fine about it either way. I still love you, you still love me". That would relieve a lot of stress, but the economy would probably go into a tailspin because of the lack of guilt buying.
OMG I feel the same way! I actually get anxious trying to buy people gifts. Plus I think our guilt buying forces us to buy a crappy gift just so we can say we got them something smh. The while gift process is stupid to me, it rarely comes from the heart. Plus I hate feeling like I have to put on a show of how happy and excited I am about the gift. Needless to say, my birthday and Christmas are very awkward days for me.

ImmoralAllure
07-11-2015, 12:21 AM
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Selina M
07-11-2015, 12:27 AM
My signature is really long now and I'm sorry guys. But I'm hoping it'll keep me more motivated, knowing that all the badass hustlers on here can judge me now by my tickers :P

Aurora_Sunset
07-11-2015, 07:56 AM
I wish I had good girlfriends the way that guys have guy friends. All the guys I know have this "bro bond" with a core group of guys that they're always hanging out with, doing fun shit with, getting crazy, being ambitious, and still just generally being chill about everything. All my girl friends are either lazy, depressed, broke, constantly attached to a guy's side/whining about being single, or some combination of the above. Not that we never do anything fun and I don't love them.... but I always have to be the one who's like "Hey! Let's get out and do something besides drink wine and bitch about your bf/husband/how you want to do nothing all day but play video games but then get mad when you get fat." Which usually turns into just going to a bar and doing... basically the same thing. If I ever get them to splurge on something more active and exciting, they act put-out and bored or pissy the entire time.

I used to have one friend who was kinda cool and energetic, but she's recently devolved into a super insecure, "I always need a man and have man drama" girl as well. Wth? The woman I sometimes escort double with is cool, but has 5 kids so has to be careful with money and get a babysitter if we ever want to do anything so I can't push her on things all the time.

I hate being one of those women who's all like "I only hang out with men!" because that's not true, and I WANT to hang out with other women, but where are all the cool, ambitious women who can go an evening without obsessing about a guy's texts? Maybe it's just the area I live in.

tl;dr Basically, what I'm saying is I want other sex worker friends IRL lol

whirlerz
07-11-2015, 08:16 AM
Yea. I want a cool sex worker friend..I haz an imaginary sex worker friend. :(

amberlly
07-11-2015, 06:25 PM
I have a friend staying over. All she is does is worry and vent. Sometimes she says ridiculous things and can't be reasoned with. I just nod and agree. I'm exhausted. I don't care. If one drama is solved, she is onto the next one.

Genoveve
07-12-2015, 12:02 PM
I confess that I just ordered a slew of nostalgic Little Golden Books from Amazon.

charlie61
07-12-2015, 03:17 PM
Men say the stupidest, cheesiest shit in response to the pictures you ladies post of yourselves on here. Like seriously, just hit the thanks button, whack off, and resist the urge to reveal how ridiculous your man brain is.

Yes, I complain about this all of the time.

charlie61
07-12-2015, 04:32 PM
Do you ever come across stuff on here that you wrote years ago? Sometimes I read my own posts, and I'm like...lol wut?

SnuffleUffleGrass
07-12-2015, 05:17 PM
I confess I found out my boss is on reddit a lot too...This is so awkward. So glad I never posted pics or info that could out me on there.

xStacey
07-12-2015, 07:21 PM
I'm so fucking confused!

charlie61
07-12-2015, 07:22 PM
I'm so fucking confused!

If this is about that dude again, start a thread. We want details! :)

lynn2009
07-12-2015, 07:44 PM
Been seeing the same guy...he's gotten a lot better but we haven't had 'the talk' yet and I've been wondering where I stand with him. I told him about dancing pretty early on and while the idea didn't seem to thrill him it didn't seem to be a deal breaker either. He's very affectionate with me but I know guys who are just affection with everyone (kissing my hair, pulling me in when we cuddle, holding hands). I've been staying with him on the weekends since he lives so much closer to the club I've been at and we can already only see each other weekends anyway. I really wanted to bring up 'where are we going with this' this weekend but I'm too much of a wuss. I asked him to go to an amateur night w/ me on Thursday and he didn't want to and I was like pleaseee. And he said he thinks he'd be jealous watching me give a guy a lap dance and it's easier for dancing to only be conceptual for him. You guys, he'd get jealous! :) It's so cute. (also, yes, I corrected him on no lap dances on amateur night).

Cashmere Star
07-13-2015, 09:34 AM
<3 <3 <3

kaninchen
07-13-2015, 09:49 AM
I really need to see my optometrist to have my contact lens prescription updated. I keep checking out people who aren't at all hot because I can't see! The other day at the gym, I was totally digging what I thought was a Samira Wiley-lookalike doing dips. It turned out to just be some Indian dude. Ugh!

baer45
07-13-2015, 12:30 PM
I am so done with American express now. Cancelling all my cards and move to chase visa. American express used to be a good company, but it's been lousy and greedy for the past of a few years.