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Likethis
07-13-2015, 12:54 PM
I want to be able to speak 5 languages by the time I'm 30 (got a couple years left), I don't necessarily have to be completely fluent in all of them just at a decent level, but I'm so lazy and lacking motivation and energy these days I doubt I'll make it.
I'm on language number 3 now, still on a beginners level, and when I'm not avoiding studying it I keep making stupid mistakes.
kaninchen
07-13-2015, 02:06 PM
I want to be able to speak 5 languages by the time I'm 30 (got a couple years left), I don't necessarily have to be completely fluent in all of them just at a decent level, but I'm so lazy and lacking motivation and energy these days I doubt I'll make it.
I'm on language number 3 now, still on a beginners level, and when I'm not avoiding studying it I keep making stupid mistakes.
Try passively practicing? I find it's really helpful to put on a movie, radio station, or podcast in whatever your target language is while you're doing other activities (cleaning the house, working out, whatever). Just parrot back the phrases and words you catch and don't focus on translating or understanding every word. It's ridiculously easy and is much more similar to how children learn their native language than like, studying from a boring-ass book. It's a great way to enhance fluency.
xStacey
07-13-2015, 06:45 PM
I am excited to return to school at the end of August! Been almost 3 months doing sex work full-time and starting to get bored.
amberlly
07-13-2015, 08:03 PM
I don't like having ppl stay. I don't need a witness to my daily life and rituals.
MyButter
07-13-2015, 09:08 PM
It's so hard to watch my parents get older. I feel like I'm in denial about how old they actually are now:(
SnuffleUffleGrass
07-14-2015, 05:58 AM
Oh God ladies I can't even..............I do confess I facebook spied on an ex's fb and what I saw made me both sick and relieved. This ex runs the same game on everyone in his life. Now as a grown adult I see he is a standard DSM nutcase. But he's very charming and smooth so he gets away with his BS with some people. Thank God I am not one of them.
Cashmere Star
07-14-2015, 10:34 AM
Even when I am going to be sitting in front of the computer all day I still spray perfume on to feel pretty lol
Photoshoot today! I am so excited! In two hours... :D
This ex runs the same game on everyone in his life. Now as a grown adult I see he is a standard DSM nutcase. But he's very charming and smooth so he gets away with his BS with some people. Thank God I am not one of them.
Ew! Good riddance. :(
BarbieNYC
07-14-2015, 11:38 AM
My little pitbull passed away today from cancer. :'(
My boyfriend took her to put her to sleep. The doctors said there was no way of saving her and even with the low chance of saving her with surgery, her life expectancy after was only going to be for a couple more months
My heart is so broken. I am on the other end of the us and I couldn't say bye to her. My poor little angel. I have been bawling my eyes out and I can't even be mad at my bf for not taking her to the vet sooner because there was really nothing they coud do. At least she is not suffering anymore. Rest in peace little one. I love you with all my heart and I will see you in heaven one day.
Selina M
07-14-2015, 11:42 AM
Confession 1): I decided I didn't want to deal with HR Guy so I just didn't return his calls. I know that's hella immature, but ffs. I don't need to explain myself. I resigned. It's in writing, in 2 emails. I don't care if you technically did not accept it or release me. I do not have a certification you can go after, so *sticks tongue out* I will wallow in my immaturity happily!
Related Vent: I just dumped all my emails regarding this stuff into a folder, to A) get them out of my sight and forget about it, and B) keep them in case they want to attempt to enforce their "liquidated damages" bullshit. I hope they don't, bc I don't wanna deal with it, but I don't think they have a leg to stand on in court... I quit a month before school even started, they SAVE money hiring a substitute if they need to, they have not put any $$ into me, and I have documentation about my unforeseen circumstances (some family health stuff happened, and now I have to be available during the day to help take care of my dad). I would be extremely surprised if any court didn't rule it was merely a penalty, which is illegal.
Confession 2): I think I needed to go through this stint of attempting to get a 'professional' adult vanilla job, in order to really appreciate sex work. Last night it was uber dead and I only made $55, but I was grateful to have made that and for literally every aspect of the job. I don't think I've ever fully appreciated dancing and it's possibilities as a springboard.
Vyanka
07-14-2015, 12:28 PM
My little pitbull passed away today from cancer. :'(
My boyfriend took her to put her to sleep. The doctors said there was no way of saving her and even with the low chance of saving her with surgery, her life expectancy after was only going to be for a couple more months
My heart is so broken. I am on the other end of the us and I couldn't say bye to her. My poor little angel. I have been bawling my eyes out and I can't even be mad at my bf for not taking her to the vet sooner because there was really nothing they coud do. At least she is not suffering anymore. Rest in peace little one. I love you with all my heart and I will see you in heaven one day.
:( .......
Vyanka
07-14-2015, 12:37 PM
I want to do lip injection so bad, but then i see the girls in my club with duck/hotdog bun lips. I don't like that projection look. Want more of a bit natural fullness.
Likethis
07-14-2015, 12:41 PM
A friend asked if she could borrow money a while ago and I said something like "unfortunately I don't have enough money right now" but actually I have money.
I just don't want to give it to her, partly because I have plans in my own life that will require money and partly because lately I've felt like she only contacts me when she needs help (money). I have enough problems as is - I can't look after her, I just can't. She hasn't contacted me since I said no, it's been weeks now... It makes me a bit worried for her but tbh I still don't regret saying no.
Maybe I have some issues with people asking to borrow money from me because of an ex, he used to ask for money quite often and eventually he took a larger sum of money from me without asking, he just assumed he could do that and said he would pay me back but of course he did not. I was so shocked when I found out my money was gone and that he'd taken it. Yeah I'm quite happy we're not in a relationship anymore. I visited him last year, just as a friend, and I could barely believe it when he asked to borrow money from me again.
Glamourmilf
07-14-2015, 12:42 PM
My little pitbull passed away today from cancer. :'(
My boyfriend took her to put her to sleep. The doctors said there was no way of saving her and even with the low chance of saving her with surgery, her life expectancy after was only going to be for a couple more months
My heart is so broken. I am on the other end of the us and I couldn't say bye to her. My poor little angel. I have been bawling my eyes out and I can't even be mad at my bf for not taking her to the vet sooner because there was really nothing they coud do. At least she is not suffering anymore. Rest in peace little one. I love you with all my heart and I will see you in heaven one day.
I'm so very sorry. It's crushing when our little fur baby dies. I compare the grief to nothing I've ever experienced, it goes that deep.. Huge hugs.:'(
whirlerz
07-14-2015, 01:07 PM
My deepest sympathy, Barbie, aww.
lynn2009
07-14-2015, 01:10 PM
My little pitbull passed away today from cancer. :'(
My boyfriend took her to put her to sleep. The doctors said there was no way of saving her and even with the low chance of saving her with surgery, her life expectancy after was only going to be for a couple more months
My heart is so broken. I am on the other end of the us and I couldn't say bye to her. My poor little angel. I have been bawling my eyes out and I can't even be mad at my bf for not taking her to the vet sooner because there was really nothing they coud do. At least she is not suffering anymore. Rest in peace little one. I love you with all my heart and I will see you in heaven one day.
I am so, so sorry. I almost cried reading this. Having to put pets down is absolutely heart breaking.
Selina M
07-14-2015, 01:40 PM
:( My sympathies also... Letting pets go is so terribly hard.
xStacey
07-14-2015, 02:16 PM
Feeling down :(...
Elektra Luxx
07-14-2015, 02:17 PM
My little pitbull passed away today from cancer. :'(
My boyfriend took her to put her to sleep. The doctors said there was no way of saving her and even with the low chance of saving her with surgery, her life expectancy after was only going to be for a couple more months
My heart is so broken. I am on the other end of the us and I couldn't say bye to her. My poor little angel. I have been bawling my eyes out and I can't even be mad at my bf for not taking her to the vet sooner because there was really nothing they coud do. At least she is not suffering anymore. Rest in peace little one. I love you with all my heart and I will see you in heaven one day.
I'm so so very sorry this happened to you. I wish there was something I could do to take your pain away. I think it's best to cry and think about all the cute little things your little angel did and then cry some more. Sending hugs and good thoughts to you. Allow yourself to grieve and take as much time as you need, you will feel better when you are ready.
Aniela
07-14-2015, 02:48 PM
Probably just paid a bit more than I should have for my trip up north, but after playing around w/ prices/destinations/hotels for abt 3hrs last nite, then another 2+hrs this afternoon once I finally got the confirmation from work that I could take that wkend off ... fk it. :shrug: Probably could have done better but still think I got a pretty decent deal.
HoolaTwister
07-14-2015, 03:38 PM
My little pitbull passed away today from cancer. :'(
My boyfriend took her to put her to sleep. The doctors said there was no way of saving her and even with the low chance of saving her with surgery, her life expectancy after was only going to be for a couple more months
My heart is so broken. I am on the other end of the us and I couldn't say bye to her. My poor little angel. I have been bawling my eyes out and I can't even be mad at my bf for not taking her to the vet sooner because there was really nothing they coud do. At least she is not suffering anymore. Rest in peace little one. I love you with all my heart and I will see you in heaven one day.
So sorry! I'm sending you good vibes xxxxxx
charlie61
07-14-2015, 03:54 PM
::almost accidentally clicks on a strip-club junkie thread::
::recoils, horrified:: Oh thank god. That was a close one.
lynn2009
07-14-2015, 04:00 PM
::almost accidentally clicks on a strip-club junkie thread::
::recoils, horrified:: Oh thank god. That was a close one.
oh gosh this makes me feel terrible...I peruse tuscl a couple of times a week. it's like when you can't help but look at a car accident.
ImmoralAllure
07-14-2015, 04:49 PM
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lynn2009
07-14-2015, 05:14 PM
I can't get waxed right now and I can't do brows properly to save my life so my solution to this point has been to know that I'm over plucking then fill in with a brush and brown eye shadow. Idk why this is so much easier than creating a nice shape w/ plucking to start with but it is.
A friend sent me a tutorial and looks easy enough but I am nervous to try. Have to pick up cuticle scissors.
lynn2009
07-14-2015, 06:51 PM
I am being like a high schooler with the boy. A few weeks ago I randomly asked what song I should listen to on gchat and he sent "Scrapping up the Pieces" which I thought was a little odd and tonight out of nowhere he sent me a link to "The Show" by Lenka on youtube. We really need to talk about this omg...and earlier he texted if I wanted him to pick up any groceries for Saturday while he was out lol. And he's been waiting up until 3am for me on Friday and Saturday nights to get back to his place from work, and then waiting even longer for me to get my shower and get ready for bed. It's so sweet.
SnuffleUffleGrass
07-14-2015, 07:25 PM
My deepest condolences Barbie.
My confession- I'm on the downward slide of my diet (aka it will be easy to shed the rest of the weight) and I'm not that thrilled. I wish I could stay pudgy but everything is better if I am thinner. Meh
miss1dancypants
07-15-2015, 12:08 AM
I have probably been on stripper Web for 10 hours today..... (all spread out)
OliveJardin
07-15-2015, 03:26 AM
I confess that I have finally, finally let go of the resentment I had for my ex and I have more importantly forgiven myself for allowing myself to be taken advantage of etc etc. I struggled with the guilt and anger for months and it ate away at me, made me negative and toxic. Then, a few days ago I just kind of made peace with it and it dissolved. I feel like I let the sun back into my life and it's freeing. End hippy rant lol.
SimoneGray
07-15-2015, 04:10 AM
I confess that on some days I just want to throw all my belongings into my car and move to a tiny cottage on the coast and live simply. Then on other days I am so happy to be in the big city. This war between these two desires is literally never ending in me and I have no idea what to do to calm it down, because I know that I wouldn't be entirely happy with either situation being a permanent one.
SnuffleUffleGrass
07-15-2015, 07:02 AM
I confess that I have finally, finally let go of the resentment I had for my ex and I have more importantly forgiven myself for allowing myself to be taken advantage of etc etc. I struggled with the guilt and anger for months and it ate away at me, made me negative and toxic. Then, a few days ago I just kind of made peace with it and it dissolved. I feel like I let the sun back into my life and it's freeing. End hippy rant lol.
You have to file it under the category of "life lesson." I felt the same until I accepted 1) my toxic ex treats all people in his life the way he treated me. It really was just him that was the issue. 2) Now you know what to look out for for the rest of your life.
xStacey
07-15-2015, 07:35 AM
Going to the museum this afternoon with my new sex worker friend :). It's really funny when I see her OTC, we look totally different from what we usually look like at work!
Aurora_Sunset
07-15-2015, 07:52 AM
I am so antsy this summer. Every winter, I get the strong desire to move, but I know a large part of that is just the winter blahs. Usually, when summer comes, I stay busy, the weather is nice, and I calm down. This year, it's not making me happy and content like it usually does. I just kinda hate everything and really feel like it's time to get out. Visiting a friend out of town this week and talking to her about everything, she agreed that she feels like it would be a good idea for me for to get a change of pace and fresh people around me. But I don't feel like I'll be ready to move to my next desired location by October (when my lease is up).... but if I re-sign, then do I really want to be here until NEXT October?? The thought makes me cringe.
I want to just say fuck it, pack up, and take off, ready or not. But realistically, I know moving to a new location doesn't just magically make you happier - same shit, different zip code... and putting myself into trouble financially after so much struggling and discipline the past 2 years to get back into a good position is stupid just cuz I'm restless.
Dang, I don't know what to do.
BarbieNYC
07-15-2015, 08:26 AM
Thank you to everyone for the condolensces. I am going through the stages of grief right now and I'm at anger.
I pretty much broke up with my boyfriend last night. I know it was a rash thing to do and I know my doggie was going to die anyways but I am so upset he made her last weeks of life so miserable. Instead of taking her to the vet, he went to the beach. He left her in a dirty house and didnt bathe her and left rr for hours a day. She spent weeks with her lungs building up with blood before he finally took her. I told him if she died in his care I would never speak to him again but I didnt think she actually would.
Out of all the evil things he's done to me, this is the one that truly broke my heart. I hope I am able to be strong in my decision because I always take him back, but doing this to my baby is the last straw.
He cried and he apologized to me and all this blah blah blah but the point is he let my baby suffer her last days of life. I do not want a future with someone who does that to my child.
xStacey
07-15-2015, 08:29 AM
I wonder if he deleted my number lol.
whirlerz
07-15-2015, 08:35 AM
Barbie, you did the right thing, luv..you don't need someone like that, you're so much more worthy..
My confess.: I'm really disturbed about a certain thread discussing $..that's fine, but really you gotta call someone a ___???
wednesday86
07-15-2015, 10:27 AM
I drove to Chicago to go to a renaissance faire with my husband and his friends....My confession: I kinda wish I hadn't gone and had stayed here and made $$$ instead. I thought it would be a lot of fun, but I had to deal with his annoying friends all day...Everyone kept wandering off so we spent half the time waiting around for people to meet us, or going to find them....his friends are so immature. All they wanted to do was get drunk. I have nothing in common with them. There's only one I get along with but he was wasted all day. They're in their mid 30s for gods sake. If all you care about is getting drunk then go to a bar? Why dress up and go through all this trouble just to get drunk? I barely got to do any games or shopping or anything. I wish we had just gone by ourselves or not gone at all.
miss.a.p1600
07-15-2015, 12:45 PM
My confess.: I'm really disturbed about a certain thread discussing $..that's fine, but really you gotta call someone a ___???
A thousand likes, girl!
I confess an ex from long long time ago contacted me on social media. Apologized for being a douchebag. And now.....Im confused and feeling like I need to put ho tactics in place but I don't think he has any money like he did back then. I can't entertain this dude if he is broke. Like I will need at the least some apology money / gifts. Ill have to do some digging on the state of his financial affairs.
whirlerz
07-15-2015, 03:27 PM
I drove to Chicago to go to a renaissance faire with my husband and his friends....My confession: I kinda wish I hadn't gone and had stayed here and made $$$ instead. I thought it would be a lot of fun, but I had to deal with his annoying friends all day...Everyone kept wandering off so we spent half the time waiting around for people to meet us, or going to find them....his friends are so immature. All they wanted to do was get drunk. I have nothing in common with them. There's only one I get along with but he was wasted all day. They're in their mid 30s for gods sake. If all you care about is getting drunk then go to a bar? Why dress up and go through all this trouble just to get drunk? I barely got to do any games or shopping or anything. I wish we had just gone by ourselves or not gone at all.
Yea.^ I totally LUV the Ren Faire, I almost went..that's a shame. It is a waste to just get buzzed & nothing else. I went one yr. w/a neighbor, we were having a decent time up until she saw some guy she dated w/another girl..big deal. She went into a total meltdown over it, & kinda ruined the rest of the day for me.
aaaand...I hate my hair. I did a touch up myself, it came out way dark, then I went to a salon to get highlights, & they look ok, but a deep, dark, flat base color around my face. I thought it looked ok in the salon, & it did w/all the light & mirrors, but got home & nope. :(
Also I just called the salon, they said I could come in again anytime w/in 2 wks & get it 'fixed'. Idts
SnuffleUffleGrass
07-15-2015, 03:50 PM
Thank you to everyone for the condolensces. I am going through the stages of grief right now and I'm at anger.
I pretty much broke up with my boyfriend last night. I know it was a rash thing to do and I know my doggie was going to die anyways but I am so upset he made her last weeks of life so miserable. Instead of taking her to the vet, he went to the beach. He left her in a dirty house and didnt bathe her and left rr for hours a day. She spent weeks with her lungs building up with blood before he finally took her. I told him if she died in his care I would never speak to him again but I didnt think she actually would.
Out of all the evil things he's done to me, this is the one that truly broke my heart. I hope I am able to be strong in my decision because I always take him back, but doing this to my baby is the last straw.
He cried and he apologized to me and all this blah blah blah but the point is he let my baby suffer her last days of life. I do not want a future with someone who does that to my child.
Right on.
wednesday86
07-15-2015, 04:45 PM
My confession: My husband has started talking about having another baby, so we are going to adopt a cat next week. I'm hoping that'll cool his jets for a while. It's basically the same thing except this one won't make me fat.
tuesdaymarie
07-15-2015, 10:31 PM
^Yayyy, kitties.
I think one of the reasons I am so repelled at the thought of becoming a mother is because so many parents identify themselves primarily as "so-and-so's mom." Like, I'll ask women I work with about their hobbies, and they'll respond with something like, "Oh, my son plays baseball for his school, and my daughter wants to become a model." I try to listen politely, but it just freaks me out that they immediately tell me about their kids, as though they have nothing else in their lives. Being of the childfree persuasion makes living in the south difficult. Throw the irreligion and stripping in there, and I feel like any "friend" I make here would burn me at the stake if they knew more about me.
Selina M
07-15-2015, 10:55 PM
I have a bunch of significant other drama I really wish I could vent about on here... like, I'm really close to ending the whole relationship... but every time I post a thread in Life Support it attracts people who get all high and mighty and make me wish I'd never posted it.
I don't want to talk to my friends in real life about it because if I DON'T decide to end it, and we carry on and fix shit and do get married later on, they'll all have it in the back of their heads, "Remember that time when, Oh my God i can't believe she stayed"
Ugh.
lynn2009
07-15-2015, 11:48 PM
My period started on time last week but it was very, very light. I didn't think too much of it but now it's been a full seven days of this spotting and I am beginning to be terrified that I am pregnant.
Cashmere Star
07-16-2015, 02:04 AM
The thought of being single for now is beginning to sound more appealing. I just need to get held, touched, and fucked. I'll have more time to work on my projects, myself, and not worry about hurting anyone's feelings for flirting, stripping, and having sugar daddies.
Maybe I should become an escort. Hmm. The thought of being paid to be pretty, wined and dined, and get pounded good is starting to sound appealing.
ImmoralAllure
07-16-2015, 02:44 AM
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audrey_k
07-16-2015, 06:17 AM
I have a bunch of significant other drama I really wish I could vent about on here... like, I'm really close to ending the whole relationship... but every time I post a thread in Life Support it attracts people who get all high and mighty and make me wish I'd never posted it.
I don't want to talk to my friends in real life about it because if I DON'T decide to end it, and we carry on and fix shit and do get married later on, they'll all have it in the back of their heads, "Remember that time when, Oh my God i can't believe she stayed"
Ugh.
Feel free to send me a PM if you want to talk. I promise I won't get high and mighty. xx
I am really starting to get over my boyfriend's friends. He has more friends that anyone I have ever met and every week it's like we have tons of engagements to go to. I am not like that, I value my quiet, alone time, and sometimes it's just too much for me. We went to a barbecue last weekend and we are going to another barbecue this weekend... these things are seriously like ALL day events with tons of drinking and food, this one will start at 2pm and I know they'll be up until 5am (we're spending the night so I'll retire to our bedroom around 1am, fuck that, I can't drink for 15 hrs anyway without getting sick). I don't like the idea of going somewhere with my boyfriend and leaving without him, it just doesn't sit well with me... I feel like we should arrive and leave together. But I seem to be the only girlfriend in his groups of friends who feels that way. All the girls leave early and I'm stuck there alone with a bunch of guys as my boyfriend wants to stay to the very last second of every party we go to. I normally prefer hanging out with his guy friends anyway, but when they're all in a group like that the testosterone goes nuts and they just want to have their boy-banter, they don't want any girls around. This is also one of his groups of friends that I basically won't know anyone there, out of the twenty people there are like 4 people I've met four or five times.
I honestly don't even want to go to this event, I want to tell him that I'm not feeling well and will stay home. I love my boyfriend and when I was in LA and didn't see him for a week I missed him like crazy, but sometimes I feel like I need to have more alone time. It's not even that there's something I desperately want to do in private, I'm just an introvert and being around people for long periods of time exhausts me and make me stressed. But I feel like when you live with someone there is no such thing as 'alone time.' And when I ask him for time for myself he takes it as such a personal rejection, I feel really bad, because it's not that I don't want to be around him because he's annoying or I don't like him, I just don't want to be around ANYONE.
Also I'm at the point where I just wish NO ONE would bring up my father's death. My boyfriend's friends all feel the need to tell me they're sorry and offer some condolences or speak about their own experience, but I really don't want to hear it. I'm still at the point where I get teary-eyed and will have to hold back tears if I go into details about it, and I don't want to be like that in front of people I'm not close to. And I'm tired of getting emails and FB messages from people offering their condolences, especially the people I barely know. I don't know how to respond to it, I'm not going to open up to some stranger, and it's so empty and pointless. Before my dad died I never knew what to say to people and now that he's dead I know there is NOTHING to say when someone dies that will help, unless you are a sorcerer and can bring him back to life so that I can speak to him again, just shut your mouth and say nothing unless I speak to you about it. If I want to talk about it I will bring it up.
Danni
07-16-2015, 07:35 AM
I regret all of m tattoos. I want nothing more than to have unmarked skin. I cannot tell anyone this because I have so many and I either get the " I told you so" look or the "why on earth would you want to get rid of them?" look. I had started laser removal a few years ago but the girl that did it quit. I just now found another guy that is extremely affordable AND has the best laser. Starting again on saturday, and hopefully will be able to remove the majority of them.
Aurora_Sunset
07-16-2015, 07:56 AM
I REALLY liked the new Magic Mike movie. The first was kinda eh and brought up more "male strippers are treated so much better/more compassionately than female strippers" anger. But the new one, for all its criticism from others, I thought was really good. I liked the fact that there was no real plot. It was just a bunch of aging strippers being crazy and wanting one last hurrah, but nothing got "solved" or monumentally changed anything about their lives. I feel like that's a real story. I could relate to something like that.
wednesday86
07-16-2015, 11:46 AM
Something is telling me to go in for a double shift today....but I'm afraid my instinct is wrong and I'll get there and be super bored all day...
charlie61
07-16-2015, 04:26 PM
Y'all. I need to get back on the healthy train.
Just moved. How can one week throw off my eating and exercise schedule so drastically? And why is it so damn hard to get back to those good habits? Add on some pre-period bloating, and that's me right now. Can't even look at myself in the mirror tbh. Haha.