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charlie61
07-16-2015, 04:42 PM
We just moved, our stuff is strewn everywhere in our new apartment, and I'm impersonating an actual piece of shit on the couch rather than attempting to put our place back together. Oversized t shirt, yoga pants covered in cat fur and lint, belly pooched out.

Meanwhile, my amazing partner is running around, setting up our internet, switching our electric over, and generally just being freakishly productive.

Yep. This is happening.

lynn2009
07-16-2015, 04:48 PM
I've had 2.5 weeks to do this stupid take home test for my class and I only began it last night and I'm trying to finish most of it in a hurry tonight since I am busy for a lot of tomorrow and Saturday. And it's not even hard, I just so do not want to do it whineeee

kaninchen
07-16-2015, 06:28 PM
I'm oddly turned on right now after reading some burger recipes. Wtf is my deal? At least I have a date in an hour...

simone87
07-16-2015, 06:36 PM
………….

absolutelyadorable
07-16-2015, 07:38 PM
Sooooo things are a bit overwhelming with school, running my house, business with the bf, vanilla freelancing gig, and PSO. Like omg Scotty BEAM ME TF UP. I signed up for all this so I kinda have to just put on my big girl pants and make shit happen. Mind you, I don't even have kids, nor does my bf live with me so wtf is WRONG with me!

I feel like a failure, my house is a mess, and everything is just insane. Sheesh.

BarbieNYC
07-16-2015, 07:42 PM
You guys have been more supportive and comforting than my friends and family in real life. Everyone is acting like my dog didnt die traumatically.

Other than a half assed im sorry, no one's bothered to check on me. Had a supposed best friend hit me up to tell me how great her new club is and she completely forgot I told her my dog died earlier.

My mom is upset with me for not being too happy on our vegas trip.

I havent had time to grieve

I miss my baby so much. My heart aches.

lynn2009
07-16-2015, 07:49 PM
Sooooo things are a bit overwhelming with school, running my house, business with the bf, vanilla freelancing gig, and PSO. Like omg Scotty BEAM ME TF UP. I signed up for all this so I kinda have to just put on my big girl pants and make shit happen. Mind you, I don't even have kids, nor does my bf live with me so wtf is WRONG with me!

I feel like a failure, my house is a mess, and everything is just insane. Sheesh.

This is totally me lately! I live by myself but between only one class, day job, night job and boyfriend-ish I feel completely overwhelmed. My apartment is a disaster, I've been passing out at night, being exhausted all day, eating out mostly and feel completely overwhelmed. I don't know how anyone ever has kids.

wednesday86
07-16-2015, 08:50 PM
I should have stayed home, leveled up on WoW and stuffed myself with Chinese food....it would have been a more productive day than going to work. What a waste.

ImmoralAllure
07-16-2015, 09:25 PM
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absolutelyadorable
07-16-2015, 09:57 PM
Barbie I'm so sorry for your loss :(
Pets are part of the family, and there have been times when my cat was the only one in my corner. Sending prayers and big hugs your way bb

Glamourmilf
07-16-2015, 10:48 PM
You guys have been more supportive and comforting than my friends and family in real life. Everyone is acting like my dog didnt die traumatically.

Other than a half assed im sorry, no one's bothered to check on me. Had a supposed best friend hit me up to tell me how great her new club is and she completely forgot I told her my dog died earlier.

My mom is upset with me for not being too happy on our vegas trip.

I havent had time to grieve

I miss my baby so much. My heart aches.

I can totally relate. When my beloved Maltese died, I was shocked when friends would say..."Why are you so upset? It's just a dog. Just get another one." I couldn't believe how heartless they all were.
Then, when my Dad died on my birthday, some said "Well, he was really old, wasnt he?"
Since then, I have lost 3 more fur babies.....I keep it to myself. It hurts too much to have to deal with people and their callousness.

Glamourmilf
07-16-2015, 10:50 PM
You guys have been more supportive and comforting than my friends and family in real life. Everyone is acting like my dog didnt die traumatically.

Other than a half assed im sorry, no one's bothered to check on me. Had a supposed best friend hit me up to tell me how great her new club is and she completely forgot I told her my dog died earlier.

My mom is upset with me for not being too happy on our vegas trip.

I havent had time to grieve

I miss my baby so much. My heart aches.

I can totally relate. When my beloved Maltese died, I was shocked when friends would say..."Why are you so upset? It's just a dog. Just get another one." I couldn't believe how heartless they all were.
Then, when my Dad died on my birthday, some said "Well, he was really old, wasnt he?"
Since then, I have lost 3 more fur babies.....I kept it all to myself, because it hurt so bad, that I just couldn't deal with callous people and their hurtful remarks on top of my intense grief.

tuesdaymarie
07-16-2015, 11:07 PM
Best wishes, Barbie. I was devastated when my mother euthanized our family's German shepherd last month without telling me or letting me see him first. I have hardly spoken to her since. I cannot stand the thought of going down there to visit and not throwing his toy for him. I feel so guilty that I did not take him from her and try surgery. I cried for hours when I found out. My sister couldn't give a damn and informed me that I have "no emotions" because I don't feel "guilty" enough to go see my mother with her. And my boyfriend's family thinks I overreacted--they dislike animals and often make jokes about killing my pets. I didn't want my boyfriend to tell them what happened because I know they don't give a fuck, but he did. People fucking suck, and I like every animal I've ever met more than people who think animal lives don't matter.





I have given myself a headache trying to make a decision regarding plastic surgery. I wish I weren't such an obsessive perfectionist. A psychiatrist told me several years ago that I am bipolar. There are times when I think she was totally off... and then I get hypomanic. I used to be very self destructive when hypomanic, but I have gotten better at being honest with myself about when I am unwell. And tbh right now, I think I am currently so. So I am trying to do the big girl thing and put off my rhinoplasty until the spring rather than rushing into it, because I really like to dive into body modification and major decisions when I am "up." I will probably still do either lip injections or the implant, but nothing as permanent and major as my nose. Someone give me a fucking cookie for trying to be responsible. (Except the cookie needs to be really low in carbs because of my goddamn no-good pancreas.)

Prettyglitter
07-16-2015, 11:42 PM
^Yayyy, kitties.

I think one of the reasons I am so repelled at the thought of becoming a mother is because so many parents identify themselves primarily as "so-and-so's mom." Like, I'll ask women I work with about their hobbies, and they'll respond with something like, "Oh, my son plays baseball for his school, and my daughter wants to become a model." I try to listen politely, but it just freaks me out that they immediately tell me about their kids, as though they have nothing else in their lives. Being of the childfree persuasion makes living in the south difficult. Throw the irreligion and stripping in there, and I feel like any "friend" I make here would burn me at the stake if they knew more about me.
I feel your pain. And I think we're of the same city. :(

kaninchen
07-17-2015, 12:25 AM
This is more of a rumination than a confession...

But I wonder how many other strippers are drinking a glass of wine and slathering themselves with self-tanner right now like I am.

Vyanka
07-17-2015, 01:18 AM
I can totally relate. When my beloved Maltese died, I was shocked when friends would say..."Why are you so upset? It's just a dog. Just get another one." I couldn't believe how heartless they all were.
Then, when my Dad died on my birthday, some said "Well, he was really old, wasnt he?"
Since then, I have lost 3 more fur babies.....I keep it to myself. It hurts too much to have to deal with people and their callousness.

That's so harsh of them to say. Wow. Sorry for both your losses.

Our baby is half maltese. My favorite breed. ♡

Glamourmilf
07-17-2015, 01:54 AM
That's so harsh of them to say. Wow. Sorry for both your losses.

Our baby is half maltese. My favorite breed. ♡

Thank You. Maltese have my heart. Ive had 3 of them. My last dog was a papillon, who passed in november.

Vyanka
07-17-2015, 02:08 AM
Thank You. Maltese have my heart. Ive had 3 of them. My last dog was a papillon, who passed in november.

May he r.i.p. Sorry

Glamourmilf
07-17-2015, 02:57 AM
Thank You! That means a lot.:heartbeat:-*

BarbieNYC
07-17-2015, 07:55 AM
I have been hesitant to confess this for a while because it is a definite 1st world problem, but my mother uses her money to manipulate me. And it really mindfucks me and messes with me.

when people find out how well off my parents are they can't fathom why im not living at home off of their money or why I struggle. My dad has always been cheap and only splurges on himself, which I used to resent, but now I'm glad he did it because he cant make comments on my lifestyle and doesn't hold things over my head.

My mom on the other hand is the type who will be there for me and I am always so grateful for that. Until she starts throwing in my face the money she spent and uses it o guilt me into doing things for her and her way. I was trying my best this vegas trip to keep a brave face but sometimes I had some quiet breakdowns and she would throw a fit when I wanted to be alone for a little bit. She had a priest with her she was sponsoring and she acted so non Christian in front of him. I don't understand how she donates $$$$ to rhe catholic church and thinks she doesnt have to act in God's name because of it.

She also didn't comfort me when my dog died. I needed $1700 for vt bills and she insisted on paying $700 for the euthanasia and proceeded to blow a lot of money on this trip. Like in the thousands. My heart was so broken but she decided for me that my dog wasn't worth keeping alive. I couldn't say anything because it was her money but to see her drop $$$$$ on gambling, shopping, and all the fun things in life but not help me save my dog really hurts mt soul. She watched me calling everyone asking for a loan, setting up a gofundme, and she saw how desperate I was to save her.

It is just a motivation for me to work hard and make a lot of money so I never have to ask for anyone's help or be at anyone's mercy ever again.

HoolaTwister
07-17-2015, 09:41 AM
^^ Don't be hesitant, that is an actual problem. I'm sorry! :( In the end, this made you stronger, tougher and more independent. You won't need anyone else but yourself.

I confess I'm really going to spoil myself today. Really really spoil myself rotten!

Cashmere Star
07-17-2015, 10:00 AM
When my beloved Maltese died, I was shocked when friends would say..."Why are you so upset? It's just a dog. Just get another one." I couldn't believe how heartless they all were.


What the fuck? Who the fuck actually says that? They're not trying to comfort you when they say that, they're saying it in a "You're stupid for being so serious over ____, it's not my problem and I don't want to hear about it" way. I would tell people if my pets and loved ones died, just so I discover people's true colors and cut them out. Oh my god. Some people...





when people find out how well off my parents are they can't fathom why im not living at home off of their money or why I struggle. My dad has always been cheap and only splurges on himself, which I used to resent, but now I'm glad he did it because he cant make comments on my lifestyle and doesn't hold things over my head.

...

omg me too. If you want to PM me to talk about it I am free to. I too have well-off parents whom people judge me for (particularly other family members) and our house was full of abuse and neglect towards animals. I don't want to talk about it out here but I understand. *hug* Wanting to not be under anyone's mercy is what prompted me into stripping.


btw Barbie I think it's good you broke up with your bf. If he really cared about you, he would've taken care of the dog you loved pronto. Imagine him pulling that same shit with you, or god forbid, your future kids. Keep your furry angel at heart and always remember so you can find a better guy.

wednesday86
07-17-2015, 11:32 AM
^^BarbieNYC My family is actually very well off as well...It annoys me when customers assume I grew up poor. One customer was bragging about his condos in Florida and my family owns condos and have their boats in a marina at a nicer beach in a wealthier neighborhood. I had to throw that in his face because he wasn't spending. They help me out here and there but when I dropped out of college and married my ex they quit supporting me....I mean I kinda see their point so I'm not mad about it.

SimoneGray
07-17-2015, 11:39 AM
I confess that I want a cat more than a boyfriend.

SnuffleUffleGrass
07-17-2015, 11:57 AM
You guys have been more supportive and comforting than my friends and family in real life. Everyone is acting like my dog didnt die traumatically.

Other than a half assed im sorry, no one's bothered to check on me. Had a supposed best friend hit me up to tell me how great her new club is and she completely forgot I told her my dog died earlier.

My mom is upset with me for not being too happy on our vegas trip.

I havent had time to grieve

I miss my baby so much. My heart aches.

Be happy you gave her a life full of love and caring.

Selina M
07-17-2015, 12:15 PM
I realllllllllllly need to go in but I have a headache (because I should have gotten up at 8:30 when I woke up, not went back to sleep until 11:45), and I want to leisurely shower and get a Frappuccino and maybe make SO take me out dancing tonight as part of his apology for being a selfish, compulsive, addict asshat lately (can you tell I'm annoyed).

And this means I probably will not be paying my car payment that was due 2 days ago, because it makes me nervous to let my savings drop under a certain amount. I guess it's not technically 'late' and a problem until 30 days anyway...

xStacey
07-17-2015, 02:07 PM
I confess I spent a little too much on lingerie during the Agent Provocateur summer sale.

Likethis
07-17-2015, 03:46 PM
I can relate to many of you, when my cat died it was so difficult, still is. She was about to turn 19, she died about one month before that, I had her since I was a child and loved her so much. I don't know if I'll ever get another animal.

SnuffleUffleGrass
07-17-2015, 05:21 PM
^^BarbieNYC My family is actually very well off as well...It annoys me when customers assume I grew up poor. One customer was bragging about his condos in Florida and my family owns condos and have their boats in a marina at a nicer beach in a wealthier neighborhood. I had to throw that in his face because he wasn't spending. They help me out here and there but when I dropped out of college and married my ex they quit supporting me....I mean I kinda see their point so I'm not mad about it.

I'm curious...how do customers act when you tell them that your family is well off? I had a friend who stripped whose dad is a multi-millionaire & her mother re-married pretty well. She never brought up her family at work for lots of reasons but anyone could tell she was well-bred (private schools, plastic surgery, table manners, etc.)

IMO she was so "stripper hot" I think her background would have chased away a lot of guys, made them feel too small.

I'm just wondering. I brag about my working class background b/c honestly I act like a cowtown person (lol.)

wednesday86
07-17-2015, 05:31 PM
I'm curious...how do customers act when you tell them that your family is well off? I had a friend who stripped whose dad is a multi-millionaire & her mother re-married pretty well. She never brought up her family at work for lots of reasons but anyone could tell she was well-bred (private schools, plastic surgery, table manners, etc.)

IMO she was so "stripper hot" I think her background would have chased away a lot of guys, made them feel too small.

I'm just wondering. I brag about my working class background b/c honestly I act like a cowtown person (lol.)

I went to private school too! I hated it though...I usually don't bring it up or get that personal. That guy was just pissing me off because he was bragging about how much money he apparently had and wasn't spending. I think I'm PMSing. He did apologize for wasting my time and bought me a drink so meh...

DonaDiabla
07-17-2015, 05:35 PM
I am so sorry that your pitbull died :( She sounded so sweet :( I hope you are doing well.





My little pitbull passed away today from cancer. :'(

My boyfriend took her to put her to sleep. The doctors said there was no way of saving her and even with the low chance of saving her with surgery, her life expectancy after was only going to be for a couple more months

My heart is so broken. I am on the other end of the us and I couldn't say bye to her. My poor little angel. I have been bawling my eyes out and I can't even be mad at my bf for not taking her to the vet sooner because there was really nothing they coud do. At least she is not suffering anymore. Rest in peace little one. I love you with all my heart and I will see you in heaven one day.

Vyanka
07-17-2015, 08:48 PM
After a lot of soul searching, and as of today... I just turned Vegan.

DonaDiabla
07-17-2015, 09:57 PM
Well, I filmed 50 machinima clips for my clips4sale store and I am pooped out :) LOL!!

xStacey
07-18-2015, 02:11 AM
Went out clubbing last night for the first time in 2-3 years and picked up a cute blonde college student in engineering. Damn the sex was good, just what I needed. Poor guy, he wanted me to stay over and cuddle :(.

The sex with the guy I've been seeing for almost 18 months is so boring, I never wanted to have sex and barely thought about sex anymore, my libido has never been this low, I thought the problem was me, but nope.

Vyanka
07-18-2015, 08:34 AM
Went out clubbing last night for the first time in 2-3 years and picked up a cute blonde college student in engineering. Damn the sex was good, just what I needed. Poor guy, he wanted me to stay over and cuddle :(.

The sex with the guy I've been seeing for almost 18 months is so boring, I never wanted to have sex and barely thought about sex anymore, my libido has never been this low, I thought the problem was me, but nope.

Ditch the bad sex guy.

miss.a.p1600
07-18-2015, 09:17 AM
Was dancing on stage then I notice the manager peeping me out while walking by. I wanted to smile and kick up the performance a few notches just for him but I didn't want my insta-lust to make me look obviously thirsty!

Danni
07-18-2015, 10:05 AM
Todays confessions....

I wish I would have never become a stripper. Wish I would have settled down, gotten married and had a family at a younger age. I did a lot of crazy things, traveled a lot, blown more money than I care to admit... but I would trade it all. I wish at least I would have saved some money. I guess maybe it's the "grass is always greener" syndrome. I always thought I would have time. And when my ex and I broke up 2 years ago that broke my heart. I thought we would be together forever. Now I'm alone and back dancing after years of thinking I had hung up my heels for good.

wednesday86
07-18-2015, 11:02 AM
I make excuses on the excuses thread and go to work at the last minute anyway....almost every time.

whirlerz
07-18-2015, 11:10 AM
I need not to get so attached to other ppl's pets..this lady just now got a lilttle weird about me asking..
I just miss my (deceased) bb, & I don't want to get another, they allow 'em here but my sitch's unstable atm

Last nite, when I stumble on the steps, some(one/thing) grabbed my arm, but there was no one there. This's happened twice before, once when I had my stroke

One more: taking some time off here, going to view the board but not log in.

Cashmere Star
07-18-2015, 11:42 AM
Went out clubbing last night for the first time in 2-3 years and picked up a cute blonde college student in engineering. Damn the sex was good, just what I needed. Poor guy, he wanted me to stay over and cuddle :(.

The sex with the guy I've been seeing for almost 18 months is so boring, I never wanted to have sex and barely thought about sex anymore, my libido has never been this low, I thought the problem was me, but nope.

When the sex is bad it's usually the guy IME, even when the girl says she has low libido. Girls usually blame themselves "its not you its me" because they don't want to hurt the guy's feelings (whether he deserves to be called out or not), or because they want an excuse not to have sex with said shitty guy. Give your time and pussy to a guy who actually deserves it.

carmen_b
07-18-2015, 01:19 PM
^ YES. I believe it can be a body / soul signal that it's time to move forward even if on paper the guy seems great.

carmen_b
07-18-2015, 01:21 PM
My day job is sending me to a remote area and then I'm going to hide in the mountains for awhile starting next week. I'm SO NOSTALGIC for this little strip club I worked at when I first got serious about dancing and its so close to where I'll be! I have dreams of working a day for old times sake .
Maybe I'll be satisfied on my little hide out / nature excursion or maybe I'll go check it out.

Cashmere Star
07-18-2015, 02:09 PM
Often times I can't be happy for others. The only people I am happy for are my friends and other sex workers. I am a jack of all trades, but I am not the best at anything. I feel so untalented. I want to cry but I can't. :(

I don't know if I'll be going to community college this coming fall semester. Due to how I was raised, my first reaction is I should, but I don't even want to go. It makes me bitter, being surrounded by all these assholes who are further ahead in my major (something science) than me, getting graded, having to listen to authority... I've been out of school since last fall. Instead I want to strip, travel to the woods, date rich guys who will treat me as I save money, and finish my art stuff. I want to become a scientist and start my own company in the future, but right now I am obsessed with my art. But I am not even good at art, not even my friends know I do art, and I have no family. I feel so unloved and unworthy! I am 22, I have no degree yet while my friends from highschool are coming out with degrees and internships from private universities. And they don't talk to me anymore.

I am still working on my art project, it's my baby at the moment and I plan on pitching it to others by the end of this year. But I just feel very sad and alone. *fetal position*

kaninchen
07-18-2015, 02:50 PM
Often times I can't be happy for others. The only people I am happy for are my friends and other sex workers. I am a jack of all trades, but I am not the best at anything. I feel so untalented. I want to cry but I can't. :(

I don't know if I'll be going to community college this coming fall semester. Due to how I was raised, my first reaction is I should, but I don't even want to go. It makes me bitter, being surrounded by all these assholes who are further ahead in my major (something science) than me, getting graded, having to listen to authority... I've been out of school since last fall. Instead I want to strip, travel to the woods, date rich guys who will treat me as I save money, and finish my art stuff. I want to become a scientist and start my own company in the future, but right now I am obsessed with my art. But I am not even good at art, not even my friends know I do art, and I have no family. I feel so unloved and unworthy! I am 22, I have no degree yet while my friends from highschool are coming out with degrees and internships from private universities. And they don't talk to me anymore.

I am still working on my art project, it's my baby at the moment and I plan on pitching it to others by the end of this year. But I just feel very sad and alone. *fetal position*

Focus on your art! Do you! It's clearly what you really want, which is the most important thing. Plus, do you know how many scientists followed the traditional high school - university - internship - job path? Like, all of them. You can always get your degree when you're ready, and in the meantime your unique experiences will give you a valuable perspective.

Also, you know, the only way to get good at art is to actually make art. Keep doing your own thing!

Genoveve
07-18-2015, 06:10 PM
I confess that I'm considering buying a $700 cat tree. The only way I could do that and not feel guilty was like if I had a day where I was working solely to make the money for it, a special cat tree marathon shift. It has aliens on it.....I just can't get over it. :alien::alien::alien:

ETA I don't think I'm going to buy it. If it was under $400 I would but $700 is too crazy and that's not even counting taxes and S&H.

charlie61
07-18-2015, 06:31 PM
I confess that I'm considering buying a $700 cat tree. The only way I could do that and not feel guilty was like if I had a day where I was working solely to make the money for it, a special cat tree marathon shift. It has aliens on it.....I just can't get over it. :alien::alien::alien:

ETA I don't think I'm going to buy it. If it was under $400 I would but $700 is too crazy and that's not even counting taxes and S&H.

Link! I must see this!

kaninchen
07-18-2015, 06:43 PM
^ Seconded!

Genoveve
07-18-2015, 07:01 PM
http://www.catsplay.com/roswell-perch That's the one that stole my heart but they have a few alien ones: http://www.catsplay.com/index.php?route=product/search&filter_name=roswell

I actually bet my handyman could make it, but I would have to figure out how to do the faces.

charlie61
07-18-2015, 07:05 PM
http://www.catsplay.com/roswell-perch That's the one that stole my heart but they have a few alien ones: http://www.catsplay.com/index.php?route=product/search&filter_name=roswell

I actually bet my handyman could make it, but I would have to figure out how to do the faces.

Omg, it's tiny! That's way overpriced. They're charging that much just because it's unique. Great call on not buying it!!

wednesday86
07-18-2015, 07:14 PM
Omg, it's tiny! That's way overpriced. They're charging that much just because it's unique. Great call on not buying it!!

Agreed..It's cute, but not $700 cute.