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Likethis
07-27-2015, 11:23 AM
Whenever I wear my new glasses I feel like Clark Kent, as if I'm in disguise or something.
Well... just like Superman/Clark Kent I do have a couple secret identities and I do enjoy a skintight outfit every now and then.
SnuffleUffleGrass
07-27-2015, 03:39 PM
My temper and spoiled brat side get more outta hand the longer I'm a stripper.
I don't put up with any bs or do things I don't want to do, and anyone who dares argue either gets cussed out or cold shouldered. I go from zero to "You stupid motherfucker fix this shit right now" in an instant.
... I'm not sorry.
Everything seems to be much, much easier this way. I used to be such a nice girl, always a people pleaser, "let's help the world!", "money isn't everything!" and now I'm pretty sure I would sell a select few of my (equally mean) family members to be a corporate fat cat billionaire.
LOL this is me, after years of stripping and some horrible day jobs.
My mean ass confessions- I finally stumbled upon the site Hot Or Not & it cracked me up. One of my gross co-workers put her pic on there- it's funny b/c she looks awful in person (meth skin and ...just homely) but in pics online she gets her lighting correct & puts on makeup. It's like a night and day difference. Her personality is as bad as her looks, so I don't feel bad talking shit. Our manager voted her most likely to get pregnant out of wedlock. So yeah.
& My horrible ASSistant manager is leaving, finally. I hate this woman so much I literally would not piss on fire to put her out, or pull her out of a flaming car wreck. Thank you Universe for directing her dependapotamus ass away from me...
charlie61
07-27-2015, 03:46 PM
I just ordered my first set of extensions! Eeeee!!
charlie61
07-27-2015, 04:04 PM
Now I'm all freaked out - Bellami hair extensions have horrible reviews on makeupalley.com. Should I cancel my order??! :(
kaninchen
07-27-2015, 05:21 PM
This guy I'm seeing has to be secretly married or a violent racist or something. He's TOO awesome and I don't get it! The dick is fat, the sex is fantastic, he's smart, sweet, has a great job, and he made me macarons and crème brûlée. And he rubs my back when we hang out. So what's the catch?!
(Upon re-reading that, I noticed that a big dick is literally my first priority and ... I'm okay with that.)
tuesdaymarie
07-27-2015, 06:11 PM
I still have all this restless energy, and I am trying to channel it into positive things. I went through our clothes and have a freshly washed donation pile, cleaned the entire house, am painting the house starting on Thursday, went to two Lasik consultations today and am getting it done next week, read a book, edited some writing... But every time I slow down, I still just feel empty? It's like a psychological itch that cannot be scratched, and it is getting on my last fucking nerve.
xStacey
07-27-2015, 09:44 PM
Now I'm all freaked out - Bellami hair extensions have horrible reviews on makeupalley.com. Should I cancel my order??! :(
Which set did you order? I have the 160 gr and love the length and volume. Unfortunately, they're not very soft or silky, and get tangled easily. I prefer wearing them curled for this reason, they're not smooth enough for me to want to wear them straight... I buy 100% human remy hair (Goddess or Velvet brand) at an african beauty supply store, they're about $100-150 and much softer than the Bellami, but not as thick.
MyRealNameIsWeird
07-28-2015, 01:36 AM
This guy I'm seeing has to be secretly married or a violent racist or something. He's TOO awesome and I don't get it! The dick is fat, the sex is fantastic, he's smart, sweet, has a great job, and he made me macarons and crème brûlée. And he rubs my back when we hang out. So what's the catch?!
(Upon re-reading that, I noticed that a big dick is literally my first priority and ... I'm okay with that.)
I thought that and I wound up married. It's a trap!
Aniela
07-28-2015, 08:46 AM
I feel so tired & antisocial today. Not even physically tired, but just wanting to hibernate. Probably a combination of hormonal shit & knowing today's the final day of my miraculous four straight days off from work.
Also there is a small regional airline that seems to be trying to gain a foothold in my area. I would really like to further explore this opportunity, but when I look at the costs to get legal to fly again (getting medical cert. & training recurrent) … I just feel so overwhelmed. I didn't get the promotion I put in for at work so no $$ increase there; they are watching my clock-in/clock-out times like a hawk so no 'sneaking in' extra time on the clock; & I don't feel like I should be taking anymore financial help from others as I already owe significant debts. Wish my injuries were healed enough that I could go back to dancing 1-2x/wk. That extra $200-$400+/wk from a few shifts dancing is the only way I could feel comfortable covering recurrent costs + bills + debt repayments + savings.
Aniela
07-28-2015, 09:55 AM
Another thing -- I have been toying w/ the idea of sitting my boss down (not the asshole supervisor, but the Boss Lady above him) & telling her abt my stripping history. She & my asshole supervisor have both praised my sales skills but I just kinda duck around any following ??s bc I am afraid of losing my job. But I think sm improvements can be made in how our store is run, there are sm that definitely need to be made & I think they are totally possible but as I play w/ how to approach the subj, it seems like I can only 'talk around' that part of my history so much. I did a lot of 'talking around' during my interview but I could tell they were noticing that my answers were pretty vague i.e. 'Independent contractor sales jobs' I can keep dancing around the 'what other sales jobs' & 'where do you look for sales techniques' but I wish I could just simplify it by having the 'I was a stripper' convo.
lynn2009
07-28-2015, 03:23 PM
I am honestly considering sleeping in my car Saturday night. I've been taking a class all summer that only meets every other week on Sundays 8:30am-3:00pm. The last 5 weeks (the last 2 class meetings) I've worked night shift 9pm-2am, stayed w/ the guy I was seeing who thankfully lived 20-30min from both the club and my class building. But I don't think I'll be able to stay with him this weekend so I don't know what else to do. I live an hours drive from the club and walk ~45minutes from where I park my car and my apartment so that is just not going to work out at all. I have relatives who live close to the class building as well, like ~5 minutes but it's not like I can show up there at pushing 3am smelling like perfume and smoke!
charlie61
07-28-2015, 03:49 PM
I am honestly considering sleeping in my car Saturday night. I've been taking a class all summer that only meets every other week on Sundays 8:30am-3:00pm. The last 5 weeks (the last 2 class meetings) I've worked night shift 9pm-2am, stayed w/ the guy I was seeing who thankfully lived 20-30min from both the club and my class building. But I don't think I'll be able to stay with him this weekend so I don't know what else to do. I live an hours drive from the club and walk ~45minutes from where I park my car and my apartment so that is just not going to work out at all. I have relatives who live close to the class building as well, like ~5 minutes but it's not like I can show up there at pushing 3am smelling like perfume and smoke!
Get a cheap airbnb or motel overnight? Check airbnb and priceline.com?
lynn2009
07-28-2015, 03:57 PM
Get a cheap airbnb or motel overnight? Check airbnb and priceline.com?
Super 8 in that area is still like 80 bucks...I hadn't checked airbnb yet since I didn't think anyone would want to be bothered at 3am but I suppose it's worth checking. I could tell them I work at a bar in the area and just need a place to crash this one time, which is true since this is the last class meeting. Hopefully something will work out! Otherwise all I can think is begging to switch to the earlier shift which gets out at 10pm, then driving to my parents house even though it's a ~75 minute drive. Logistics are so painful sometimes. I might end up getting a motel room. Last weekend was awful but I have to remember other than that it's been decent.
charlie61
07-28-2015, 04:22 PM
Super 8 in that area is still like 80 bucks...I hadn't checked airbnb yet since I didn't think anyone would want to be bothered at 3am but I suppose it's worth checking. I could tell them I work at a bar in the area and just need a place to crash this one time, which is true since this is the last class meeting. Hopefully something will work out! Otherwise all I can think is begging to switch to the earlier shift which gets out at 10pm, then driving to my parents house even though it's a ~75 minute drive. Logistics are so painful sometimes. I might end up getting a motel room. Last weekend was awful but I have to remember other than that it's been decent.
You can get the entire place to yourself on airbnb, too - just check that search condition on their site. You probably knew that already, but I couldn't tell based on your response if you did or not! :)
/threadjack
charlie61
07-28-2015, 04:27 PM
I confess that I judge people hardcore when they say that they go to strip clubs...even if they only go a couple of times a year. I find it to be an incredible turnoff for friendships and even casual acquaintances. People 'confess' to going because they think it makes them cool and edgy. But once they tell me that, I can't help but picture them as the kind of customer I know they'd be (the standoffish female who doesn't tip and criticizes all of the dancers, the quiet guy in the group who never buys dances and doesn't have the confidence to go up to the tip rail alone, etc.).
I know I need to relax about it, but it's an immediate reaction for me. I go from being interested in someone to 100% disinterested in an instant!
Cashmere Star
07-28-2015, 09:19 PM
My real dad is pretty much like a shitty sugar daddy for me, he makes me beg him for money and then tries to make me do stuff for it like hang out with my mean cousin (who is only hanging out with me so she can check on me and report back to dad), send him my bank statements so he can see where all the money goes (I fake it or dont send at all), and call him so he can ask me about my ex boyfriend (dad doesn't know I already broke up with him). It feels so degrading, yet I don't have the confidence to completely cut him off, survive on my own, and be untraceable at the same time. I take portions of the money dad gives me and I secretly stash it up while trying to live off what I make on my own. I make money dancing but I don't want to have to "rely" on dancing because I don't want to end up doing something desperate. :(
I want a sugar daddy while I am still young. Can't wait for my photoshoot photos to come so I can use them.
xStacey
07-28-2015, 09:52 PM
There's a regular I've known for over a year who seems to be sugar daddy material. He visits SC very often, many girls know him and I learned he had a lot of sugar babies. He's friend with the previous manager of a club where I used to work who's notorious for only hanging out with rich men. He always brought her gifts, $3000 LV bags, Louboutins, diamond jewelry for over 10 years already...!! He always asks me out to dinner every single time he comes see me, I wonder if I should give it a try.
I am on the fence after how disastrous my first date with the millionaire CEO turned out LOL. I lack practice. I really appreciate my regular but I'm not as attracted to him as I was to the CEO and he's nowhere as good looking, which should facilitate things. He's very gentle and soft, never invited me to his place but only to dinner. Girls I spoke to said he won't expect to date or have sex for free because he's very familiar with those types of arrangements, he only likes younger women and knows he has to pay if he wants to be with one so he's used to spending money. One girl I'm friendly with reassured me he's not the type who will get me a cheap gift if I go out with him and he won't pressure for sex. Maybe I'll accept to go get dinner with him once I recover from my last experience lol.
carmen_b
07-28-2015, 10:01 PM
I came out of the mountains and back into this city I used to live in! It's so weird. It's changed a lot in 4 years. I still have a few friends left but I feel LOST in this place I was in for years!
Edit : not lost anymore! Found old places plus some new ones!
Selina M
07-29-2015, 01:34 AM
Stacey, just give it a shot. You get better at that stuff with practice :)
Mine: I want to eat all the food we just bought. I already ate a bunch of the flaming hot Cheetos... now eating Riesins... and want more Cheetos... but I'm afraid it'll irritate my intestines :(
lynn2009
07-29-2015, 09:16 AM
Just got my breakup email
Genoveve
07-29-2015, 10:25 AM
I just ordered a glow-in-the-dark toilet seat.
I was also just at Planned Parenthood and when they asked if I wanted lube or condoms I said 'No but can I have some latex gloves?(for cleaning the house)' and they said no. So as soon as I was alone in the room I took some and stuffed them in my purse. I told my one friend and she said she does the exact same thing every time lol.
tuesdaymarie
07-29-2015, 11:19 AM
I really bit off more than I can be fucked enough to chew with this house painting thing. I enlisted the assistance of my boyfriend's mother, and it went from painting two rooms to the whole house. I just want to light it all on fire and change my identity. Damn hypomanic me and her delusions of limitlessness.
audrey_k
07-29-2015, 01:00 PM
^sometime they'll just leave the keys for you so you can check in whenever you want. You could always check in earlier during the day and then go to work.
kaninchen
07-29-2015, 03:49 PM
I confess that I judge people hardcore when they say that they go to strip clubs...even if they only go a couple of times a year. I find it to be an incredible turnoff for friendships and even casual acquaintances. People 'confess' to going because they think it makes them cool and edgy. But once they tell me that, I can't help but picture them as the kind of customer I know they'd be (the standoffish female who doesn't tip and criticizes all of the dancers, the quiet guy in the group who never buys dances and doesn't have the confidence to go up to the tip rail alone, etc.).
I know I need to relax about it, but it's an immediate reaction for me. I go from being interested in someone to 100% disinterested in an instant!
Same. On the flip side, I've been pretty open about work with the guys I've been dating, and a lot of them have told me in this kind of embarrassed tone, "I've never actually been to a strip club. I guess I'm not really that cool," or whatever. It's like they think they're admitting they speak fluent Sindarin.
I always tell them, "But that's GOOD!" yet they don't seem to believe me. Nothing would make me say bye faster than a guy who was like, "You work at XYZ?! I love that place!" Ugh.
SimoneGray
07-29-2015, 07:35 PM
I confess that I have been terrible about working the last few days but its been so damn cold...definitely need to get better heating.
Genoveve
07-30-2015, 05:05 PM
^^I am lately completely lacking a work ethic.
I also have noticed a bad habit of mine; I feel like I need something new in order to want to work. Like if I order a new outfit for work I get excited about it and then don't like and have zero excitement about the all the outfits I already have and I will not want to work until I have the new one. Like wtf is that. Or say if I have an appointment to get filler, I will get excited about it and unenthusiastic over my current state and won't want to work till I have the filler, which makes no sense since the filler differences are so subtle that I don't think the webcam even picks them up. Or like how I'm getting my boobs redone, now I feel totally unenthusiastic about the current ones and don't want to work till the new ones are in. Is all this because I need to feel attractive in order to be enthusiastic about working and these are things that make me feel attractive? It's so annoying. I need to become more robotic about work.
I also confess that I have been watching a British show about people with OCD cleaning issues and I found it totally inspiring and have been cleaning like a lunatic(well to my standards, the people on that show would probably still think I'm a pig).
Aurora_Sunset
07-30-2015, 07:31 PM
I'm not hungry but I just want to snack. I've eaten totally healthy the last 2 days but super bloaty. And I know it's cuz my period is coming. So I'm just giving in and gorging myself on cheese and pickles which is what I always crave when I'm PMSing - and box wine. Cuz fuck it, I'm not even gonna pretend that a bottle will do it right now.
MyButter
07-30-2015, 08:31 PM
I confess I am considering going the homeopathic route with my thyroid medication primarily because I am too damn lazy to get off my ass and go get blood work done.
Cashmere Star
07-30-2015, 09:50 PM
Same. On the flip side, I've been pretty open about work with the guys I've been dating, and a lot of them have told me in this kind of embarrassed tone, "I've never actually been to a strip club. I guess I'm not really that cool," or whatever. It's like they think they're admitting they speak fluent Sindarin.
I always tell them, "But that's GOOD!" yet they don't seem to believe me. Nothing would make me say bye faster than a guy who was like, "You work at XYZ?! I love that place!" Ugh.
I never understood why they think they'd impress girls by saying
"YEAH I AM ROLLING IN BITCHES"
"I GO TO STRIP CLUBS"
"I GET DRUNK A LOT"
"I SLEPT WITH 50 GIRLS"
can't they understand that what they think can impress their guy friends usually does the opposite with girls?
ScarletKitten
07-30-2015, 10:14 PM
98% of the time I feel like I'm from another planet.
lynn2009
07-31-2015, 08:06 AM
Post breakup my mom just texted me 'I love you and so does your dad!', which like, thanks mom. I love my parents too but I am not quite that much of a delicate flower.
I am sad about the guy but to be honest I didn't really think we'd be together forever. It's just nice to feel wanted and have someone around and pretend it's a real relationship.
Genoveve
07-31-2015, 05:47 PM
I just have to write this out somewhere, every time I tell someone about it they think I'm nuts. I swear something is happening over at my friend's house in regards to her cats..... Lately I've been noticing that her cats were really fat and I was like 'Dude whatever you started feeding them, stop it,' and she would be like 'They're not fat!' But recently, I've realized that when I look at them they're not actually fat but that they look structurally bigger. Like their bone structure and their heads look huge, and these are cats she's had for years so they should not be growing. Plus there has been this stray black cat she kept seeing around that was so big it freaked her out, she said she'd never seen anything like it and he has a weird super long tail. She got him to come up to her today so she was sending me pics of him and his head and even tongue are huge! Like wtf is going on over there?? She has a ravine behind her house that's for water run-off and all of the cats hang out in it, so is the area totally polluted or something?
I called my mom expressing concern over my friend's suddenly huge cat heads and she was dying laughing LOL. She said maybe they just look huge to me now because I have a smaller cat but I doubt it because my other friend has cats and they still look completely normal to me.
Aniela
07-31-2015, 05:51 PM
^^^^ Is it possible your friend's fear of this ginormous feral cat has led her to infuse her own cats' food w/ steroids? Seriously. I don't think you're nuts (altho I do think the way you described the situation is chuckle-worthy). 'Steroids!' was really my first thought.
Genoveve
07-31-2015, 06:25 PM
That friend actually just called me and I expressed my concerns again and she said that she does notice how her one cat's jaw looks significantly larger lately. She also says that there is a stray she sees sometimes that's so diseased-looking it looks like a zombie and she said it has an unusually large head. WTF. She also said that the mice her cats hunt seem to be quite large and that they're not rats. She said that her area used to be all tomato fields that were treated with DDT so she is wondering if it's that doing something?? This is no longer a confession but a full-blown mystery. :detective
Glamourmilf
08-01-2015, 09:04 AM
I confess that I want to live in this tiny town where my friend now lives,(and hates it:O)
I'm staying at her place while she's out of town, and I can really see myself being here.:)
Aurora_Sunset
08-01-2015, 01:28 PM
A friend finally convinced me last night to sign up for HuluPlus because they have a lot more good TV on there than Netflix. She was right, and now I never want to leave my couch.
SnuffleUffleGrass
08-01-2015, 01:41 PM
My real dad is pretty much like a shitty sugar daddy for me, he makes me beg him for money and then tries to make me do stuff for it like hang out with my mean cousin (who is only hanging out with me so she can check on me and report back to dad), send him my bank statements so he can see where all the money goes (I fake it or dont send at all), and call him so he can ask me about my ex boyfriend (dad doesn't know I already broke up with him). It feels so degrading, yet I don't have the confidence to completely cut him off, survive on my own, and be untraceable at the same time. I take portions of the money dad gives me and I secretly stash it up while trying to live off what I make on my own. I make money dancing but I don't want to have to "rely" on dancing because I don't want to end up doing something desperate. :(
I want a sugar daddy while I am still young. Can't wait for my photoshoot photos to come so I can use them.
Honestly having a sugar daddy is not a picnic. It's been discussed a lot in "Other Work"- a lot of wanna be SDs are at the least pathetic & in the worst creepy and dangerous. A real "needle in a haystack" situation...
tuesdaymarie
08-01-2015, 02:25 PM
A friend finally convinced me last night to sign up for HuluPlus because they have a lot more good TV on there than Netflix. She was right, and now I never want to leave my couch.
I have been considering this because they have the streaming rights to South Park now. I am afraid I'll end up right there next to you though. I'll be like that one woman whose body was found fused to her couch.
I confess that I really miss the immediate gratification that came with a good night of stripping. I am a huge control freak and love to manage my money. While my salaried position comes with satisfying, stable paycheck, it would be awesome to have that, plus cash once or twice a week. I am thinking more and more that I am going to go back to the club starting in September. I know my boyfriend is not going to be stoked, but while I love and want to marry him, I am a happier person when I have a lot of independence, and I know that stripping again will allow me to meet financial goals that are important to me--retirement, investing, a bigger emergency fund. Hopefully this decision won't cause issues between us, but I believe it is what is right for me.
MyRealNameIsWeird
08-01-2015, 02:32 PM
I am a member of FetLife and I can't go there any more because of how many guys are basically the same creepy freeloaders from camming. I loved the community, but that insight really turned me off it.
DonaDiabla
08-01-2015, 03:04 PM
I confess that I would love for all of my phone sex characters to get sugar daddies :)
amberlly
08-01-2015, 05:51 PM
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SimoneGray
08-02-2015, 02:48 AM
I confess that for the first time ever camming career wise I am going to listen to my gut and do what feels right for me. I feel stuck in a rut because for the last two years I have been doing what I thought was right by external standards but now its time to make me happy. I am going to do what I want to do and what my gut has been telling me to do for ages and see how it goes. There is no reason I now realise, that all the parts of my life should not fit together nicely and be what I want them to be.
amberlly
08-02-2015, 04:45 AM
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wednesday86
08-02-2015, 11:28 AM
My husband has not started working since he moved here. He's a stay home dad and I absolutely love it!...He gets up in the morning with the baby, makes me coffee and food when I wake up, does most of the cooking/cleaning, grocery shopping and drives me everywhere (I hate driving.) I'm teaching him how to ebay so he can make a little pocket money for himself and pay his credit card bill. He's mentioned looking for a job but honestly I don't even want him to work outside the house. I never thought I would like this set up as I tend to be a little traditional, but this "role reversal" is really working for us.
lynn2009
08-02-2015, 06:44 PM
I ended up taking off both nights off this weekend and while it was nice to sleep (7 whole hours in a row), it reminded me that I have absolutely no social life at all.
wednesday86
08-03-2015, 12:39 AM
I hate facebook and everything about it. When I want to internet socialize I come here or battle.net on the WoW forums...I haven't even updated my facebook status in months. It's just garbage now.
SimoneGray
08-03-2015, 03:23 AM
I confess that it feels so damn good to finally be doing things the way I want to do them and intuitively believe I should do them :). Also started to eat healthy again today. Going to ease myself back into the swing of things with that as well and not be all crazy and go extreme like I tend to do.
xStacey
08-03-2015, 10:06 AM
My new trainer is amazing and it pisses me off that she refuses tips because I think she should charge way more than her current rates. She has so much experience, her training programs are out of this world and always consist of new exercises, not just the standard squat, deadllift, bicep curls but many variations of the classic exercises. My previous trainer wasn't half as good, never prepared the training programs in advance, she would improvise on spot and make little drawings instead of printing the program with nice images like my current trainer does. I always pay with a larger bill, the extra is intended to be a tip, my previous trainer didn't know and would say sorry I don't have any change I'll give it to you the next time I see you, of course she never did. With my current trainer whenever I tell her to keep the change she always insists on giving me back :(... And she always gives me a cute pink folder with every new program, never saw that before with other trainers, that alone is worth a tip!
whirlerz
08-03-2015, 03:28 PM
I'm going to an acupuncturist soon :).
lynn2009
08-03-2015, 03:53 PM
My new trainer is amazing and it pisses me off that she refuses tips because I think she should charge way more than her current rates. She has so much experience, her training programs are out of this world and always consist of new exercises, not just the standard squat, deadllift, bicep curls but many variations of the classic exercises. My previous trainer wasn't half as good, never prepared the training programs in advance, she would improvise on spot and make little drawings instead of printing the program with nice images like my current trainer does. I always pay with a larger bill, the extra is intended to be a tip, my previous trainer didn't know and would say sorry I don't have any change I'll give it to you the next time I see you, of course she never did. With my current trainer whenever I tell her to keep the change she always insists on giving me back :(... And she always gives me a cute pink folder with every new program, never saw that before with other trainers, that alone is worth a tip!
if she won't take tips, write her a good review somewhere