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Vyanka
08-11-2015, 04:43 PM
Yay. I can't wait to get my custom made extensions put in. Never had them in. Plus looking into getting my lips plumped a bit. Never done that either. I'm going to be more stripperfied. Can't wait to be a new sexay beetch. ;-P

michele11
08-11-2015, 06:04 PM
I'm SO travel hungry right now too! I've protected Sept 15 -30 and Oct 15-30 for a trip! I'm so proud of myself for protecting the dates.
( I have a tendency to accept projects and never keep my schedule open which has held me back from adventures the last year or two )
It will have to be a HUGE pay off to get on my calendar for one of my protected dates! I am leaning towards just keeping BOTH open! I'm thinking Thailand even though I know its rainy season.
It's TIME!

Yep time for me to quit being all about money and start traveling the world. if I don't you never know what could happen. So I better get to it because I want to go a bunch of places. I wanna see castles and history, culture.

Aniela
08-11-2015, 07:57 PM
Bought a cute new shirt the other day. I saw it was way too big for me but got it anyway, sat down today w/ my sewing box & took it in. Don't know when I'll get to wear it out since I practically live under a rock when I'm not working, but for right now I'm enjoying my new custom shirt so much that I don't want to take it off.

ImmoralAllure
08-11-2015, 08:52 PM
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xStacey
08-11-2015, 09:28 PM
I am so excited to return to school in two weeks and take some time off work after working tons over the summer and saving up quite a bit!

kaninchen
08-12-2015, 01:10 PM
I actually really like "Where Are Ü Now."

... I have never liked a Justin Bieber song before. Should I be embarrassed? It's just so sweet and catchy!

audrey_k
08-12-2015, 01:39 PM
I am seriously so pissed off right now. My boyfriend's parents divorced when he was young and his father remarried quickly, he's very wealthy/politically connected, he works very high up in government in foreign countries, and has never liked any of my boyfriend's girlfriends. We've been dating for over a year at this point and I've met his mother probably 30 times as we generally see her twice a month. I have never met his father, granted he lives far away but he's been into town several times and there's always some reason that I cannot attend the family event or he can't make time to see me and it's always utter bullshit. Either he doesn't think I'm good enough for my boyfriend and doesn't approve, or else he doesn't think anyone's good enough, or he's an asshole, or all three-- he's been in town for a month at this point and has seen my boyfriend about six or seven times, they went on a vacation together which I was not invited to, now he's organized some all evening event this Saturday and I can't come because there isn't room in the car for him (last time it was too last minute, but he had time to invite my boyfriend). Give me a fucking break, the last time he was here he couldn't use the car so he had a limo driving him all over London and wanted to be in Central London so he could be close to his meetings and stayed in a £1,000+ suite, he could easily find a way to get me there or we could take a train. The thing is at this point though after so many occasions of being told I can't come, I just think he's a fucking asshole and don't know if I could even be in the same room as him and be civil.

At this point it's not even him that bothers me though, it's my boyfriend. I just want to say to him YOU ARE SO FUCKING WEAK, your father has been blatantly snubbing me for a year now and god knows what he says about me when I'm not there because you refuse to answer my questions, and you do nothing! You're so terrified of him you'd rather fight with me over how I'm being unreasonable and don't understand how he is than confront him about his behaviour. Everytime his father invites him out and says no she can't come he has this stupid sheepish look on his face and always waits until I either confront him about it or it's like 15 minutes until the event, he doesn't even have the courage to be honest about it. If one of my parents was doing something that was upsetting him and it went on for this long and it could be solved as easily as making a coffee date I would have confronted them about it months ago. But he would prefer to argue with me and put the blame on me instead of looking at his father. I feel like he's spineless. And I honestly just wish he would admit that he doesn't like me and doesn't want to meet me instead of going along with these dumb excuses, it makes it so much worse.

On top of this we were invited to another wedding this weekend and RSVP, but then the groom texted my boyfriend and said sorry, we have limited space so you can come to the whole thing but she can only come to the restaurant after. I'm not some random girl he's bringing to your wedding, I LIVE with him and have for nine months now, and you invited me to the wedding, and now I have to figure out some way to get there on my own because you've decided you don't want me there?But does my boyfriend say anything? No of course not, I don't understand the way weddings are in England, this is a very common thing. Bullshit.

I am seriously fuming at him right now. Ugh.

xStacey
08-12-2015, 02:07 PM
The more I research on rhinoplasty the bigger my nose feels.

ava$
08-12-2015, 02:55 PM
I am so horny I am thinking of just talking to one of the guys at the gym and asking him out. Is that too desperate looking? :s The reason why I haven't done it is because I don't want to shit where I eat.

Just look hot when u go and approachable like without headphones on and they should come up to u. I personally hate talking to guys from the gym cuz theyv always ended up weird and didn't work out or something happened and then I don't like going when I know they'll be there.

lynn2009
08-12-2015, 02:55 PM
I actually really like "Where Are Ü Now."

... I have never liked a Justin Bieber song before. Should I be embarrassed? It's just so sweet and catchy!

I remember my senior year of college my roommate played 'Baby' for me, we both had to about we liked it. Then she told me he was like 16 and I felt like a perv!

SimoneGray
08-12-2015, 06:19 PM
I actually really like "Where Are Ü Now."

... I have never liked a Justin Bieber song before. Should I be embarrassed? It's just so sweet and catchy!

^^There's an awesome slow chill remix of the song, its awesome...heard it before the actual song and loved it.

My confession is that I am watching Bring It On. Totally being 13 again.

Cashmere Star
08-12-2015, 08:31 PM
fall semester coming... I am trying to come up with every fucking reason not to go back to community college... :(

i know i should but i don't want to. Just hate the pressure. Hate the people. maybe I am just tired ugh having to drag myself to class during menstrual cramps UGH

lynn2009
08-13-2015, 03:53 PM
I brought facebook back again. An old flame seems to be serious with someone and I almost unfriended him so I don't have to know when they get engaged but then I didn't because I'm a total wuss.

His most recent pictures are of the two of them strolling downtown together in the evening :(

LaurenAus
08-13-2015, 03:56 PM
I brought facebook back again. An old flame seems to be serious with someone and I almost unfriended him so I don't have to know when they get engaged but then I didn't because I'm a total wuss.

His most recent pictures are of the two of them strolling downtown together in the evening :(

Aside from focusing on school this is the exact reason why I deactivated facebook--to avoid seeing the guy I've cared about for years with another girl :/

Selina M
08-14-2015, 08:06 PM
I can feel myself growing out of college-age habits, into a grown ass woman that wants it to look like adults live in her house.
I now care that the kitchen is filthy and the carpet needs to be shampooed, and the bathrooms scrubbed... And you can bet your ass I'm going to spend the next hour doing that stuff. It's at the point where I feel like my life is not together unless my house is reasonably clean.

I feel like a grumpy housewife sometimes, but whatevs!

Genoveve
08-14-2015, 09:07 PM
^^Ever since I got more into feng shui and the overall idea of how how you live speaks about the rest of your life I am the same way. I actually even love cleaning and organizing now.

I confess that I have been buying some random stuff.... a scrub brush that's designed to look like a magic wand, a Turkish tea set(I don't drink tea), a Turkish coffee set, the same pair of palazzo pants 3 times in different colors, a pot strainer in the shape of a whale.... Someone needs to take my debit card from me during bed rest. I also got an indoor grill so I can make kebabs every night of the week. Every.Night. Oh and I'm thinking of having my ceiling light fixture replaced with a chandelier which will look very funny in my small bedroom but damn it I have always wanted one so I'm online searching for that.

Vyanka
08-14-2015, 10:36 PM
^^Ever since I got more into feng shui and the overall idea of how how you live speaks about the rest of your life I am the same way. I actually even love cleaning and organizing now.

I confess that I have been buying some random stuff.... a scrub brush that's designed to look like a magic wand, a Turkish tea set(I don't drink tea), a Turkish coffee set, the same pair of palazzo pants 3 times in different colors, a pot strainer in the shape of a whale.... Someone needs to take my debit card from me during bed rest. I also got an indoor grill so I can make kebabs every night of the week. Every.Night. Oh and I'm thinking of having my ceiling light fixture replaced with a chandelier which will look very funny in my small bedroom but damn it I have always wanted one so I'm online searching for that.

Restoration Hardware has some gorgeous chandeliers.

Selina M
08-14-2015, 11:44 PM
On another note, my friends are all "I graduated from PA school at 23!", "I'm 24 and just bought a house with my fiancé and his kid!", etc etc etc....

And I'm over here like "Why is my WoW item level not increasing goddammit... aw shit better paint my nails before I go work at the club tomorrow".

I feel behind, and I confess it's giving me a case of Schadenfreude every time one of them hits a setback.

audrey_k
08-15-2015, 01:09 PM
To make me feel better about my boyfriend's asshole father and the fact that I'm spending this weekend alone I went on a major shopping spree today (when I'm supposed to be saving, but oh well...)

My boyfriend's father has now decided that he wants to meet me before he flies out this weekend. My boyfriend keeps saying "he's asking about you, it was his idea" but I know that's bullshit. I'm glad he finally stood up to him but I'm really not glad looking forward to spending the evening with this person. He's been here for weeks and he can't find anytime to meet besides the Wednesday evening before he leaves. When I come home from work I'm exhausted and just want to turn my brain off and watch TV or have a relaxed conversation with my boyfriend. The last thing I want to do is make the long ass commute home only to have to take another 45 minute journey to sit across from someone and be quizzed and looked down on while trying to convince them that I'm not an idiot and worth my boyfriend's time (for someone who's obsessed with the professional accomplishments of their sons girlfriends I seriously cannot conte pens how their wife-- who is equally obsessed-- has NO degree and NO job history). But I can't cancel this dinner without looking really petty and rude. I almost wish I hadn't thrown such a fit over being excluded for the umpteenth time because I would rather just skip this whole thing.

I didn't realize until this whole thing began how spoiled I've been with my ex boyfriends parents. Some of them were weird and some of them were annoying, but I'll take weird and annoying over snobby any day.

lynn2009
08-15-2015, 04:11 PM
Currently on my phone but I have my vanilla work laptop with me right now to use Microsoft word for my final. I almost used my work computer to visit stripperweb :-[:O

4everresolutions
08-15-2015, 06:04 PM
On another note, my friends are all "I graduated from PA school at 23!", "I'm 24 and just bought a house with my fiancé and his kid!", etc etc etc....

And I'm over here like "Why is my WoW item level not increasing goddammit... aw shit better paint my nails before I go work at the club tomorrow".

I feel behind, and I confess it's giving me a case of Schadenfreude every time one of them hits a setback.

Not to sound nasty, but at 24 they're rushing their lives. 90% of that shit will crumble in the next few years, in one way or another. Trust.

My girlfriends were buying houses at 22 and rushing towards a masters degree....and now they're in foreclosure, going through midlife crisis and terribly unhappy.

Seriously, I'm so glad I just did my own thing and had faith in myself in my early 20's. I'm so much happier than most people my age, and not any ''further behind".

I confess - I woke up this morning and played Sims4 for 5 hours watching Netflix, naked in bed. I go on vacation in 2 days. I had sushi for dinner last night and breakfast this morning. And I didn't even have to use my AK. Today was a good day.

Elektra Luxx
08-15-2015, 07:49 PM
My sister is in town visiting and her fiance is in Houston visiting his family. So yesterday, my sister invites me to go out drinking with her and her friends. They are known for their extreme parties and legendary drinking. My bf is pissed because I stayed out all night and I never checked in. I had about 20 texts and phone messages from him. What!! Where did this come from? Since when am I expected to check the in? I tell him we were just partying and he's like "well you could have checked in". So he's pissed at me, I mean really pissed at me. I'm not used to this from him, he's usually very easy going so this is kind of scaring me.

carmen_b
08-15-2015, 09:17 PM
I like the sound of your set up!
^^Ever since I got more into feng shui and the overall idea of how how you live speaks about the rest of your life I am the same way. I actually even love cleaning and organizing now.

I confess that I have been buying some random stuff.... a scrub brush that's designed to look like a magic wand, a Turkish tea set(I don't drink tea), a Turkish coffee set, the same pair of palazzo pants 3 times in different colors, a pot strainer in the shape of a whale.... Someone needs to take my debit card from me during bed rest. I also got an indoor grill so I can make kebabs every night of the week. Every.Night. Oh and I'm thinking of having my ceiling light fixture replaced with a chandelier which will look very funny in my small bedroom but damn it I have always wanted one so I'm online searching for that.

SimoneGray
08-15-2015, 09:46 PM
Not to sound nasty, but at 24 they're rushing their lives. 90% of that shit will crumble in the next few years, in one way or another. Trust.

My girlfriends were buying houses at 22 and rushing towards a masters degree....and now they're in foreclosure, going through midlife crisis and terribly unhappy.

Seriously, I'm so glad I just did my own thing and had faith in myself in my early 20's. I'm so much happier than most people my age, and not any ''further behind". .

Thank you for saying this actually...made me feel a ton better about myself. I'm currently 24 (21 in camland forever lol) and I feel so unaccomplished so often because all my friends are either opening up businesses, buying new cars, getting engaged etc, basically having those massive milestones and I consider eating healthy and being of sound mind an achievement but I still rent my apartment and have the same car I had in college. Thank you though, what you said really helped put stuff in perspective for me :)

I confess I wish the novel I was working on would write itself sometimes. I get super weighed down in the mundane little details.

Cashmere Star
08-16-2015, 01:42 AM
Thank you 4everresolutions and SimoneGray. I am 22 and I am looking through the facebooks of my classmates back home. They have degrees from private universities, getting jobs, having boyfriends/girlfriends, but I am here single, broke, still relying on dad, need 3 more years to get my engineering degree, not in school at the moment.. I am really ashamed of myself to be honest. :( But at the same time I am doing things that others haven't.. and everyone has their lives to live.

MyRealNameIsWeird
08-16-2015, 04:21 AM
I have a bit of the opposite issue to Selina, Simone and Rose. All my friends and relatives my age (big family, it's the culture) are taking it slow, ditching their original degrees to start over somewhere new every year, traveling during study weeks or work weeks, avoiding long term relationships, talking about how they will never have kids, want to buy a flat, trying 50 different jobs, spending every penny before their next paycheck etc.

And here I am dropped out of uni, studying online, running three jobs from home, married, renting and planning my first kid at camgirl age 19, actual age 21. To be honest, I don't feel like I'm rushing things, but so many people have been cut out of my life because they wanted to bring me down. Trying to shit stir between me and my then boyfriend, telling us lies about each other, bullying me for dropping university, for saving my money instead of going with them abroad, insisting I don't want children and will regret it... It was awful. Now they're gone and mysteriously my life is far better.

Just saying, whatever side of the fence you're on, other people in your life, especially those on the other side, will shame you, pester you, show off and try and bring you down. There will always be people who are actually happier or facebook-happier than you. There will always be jealous shit-stirrers or folks who think their way of life is the only way that works. You have to do what feels right to you. And if the running commentary gets too bad, say bye-bye whilst you still don't hate them. Because you will begin to hate them.

charlie61
08-16-2015, 04:41 AM
Now we have a thread for all of this bizness. We no longer have to pretend we're confessing things when we're really just talking about random shit!

https://www.stripperweb.com/forum/showthread.php?202692-The-Random-Thoughts-Thread

Cashmere Star
08-16-2015, 01:02 PM
Just saying, whatever side of the fence you're on, other people in your life, especially those on the other side, will shame you, pester you, show off and try and bring you down. There will always be people who are actually happier or facebook-happier than you. There will always be jealous shit-stirrers or folks who think their way of life is the only way that works. You have to do what feels right to you. And if the running commentary gets too bad, say bye-bye whilst you still don't hate them. Because you will begin to hate them.

People bitch, judge, and complain no matter what you do, don't they? :p

Selina M
08-16-2015, 02:33 PM
Now we have a thread for all of this bizness. We no longer have to pretend we're confessing things when we're really just talking about random shit!


Hey now, I was confessing something :D

And now I confess that I stayed out last night until 3 am with high school friends, and STILL didn't wanna go home, simply to spite my fiancé. I was even considering going back to the club until they closed at 4, or to a 24 hr coffee place, just to not show up until it was as late as possible. I was also not exactly flirting with other guys, but definitely doing things that he would not have liked (i.e., letting them carry me around). That is super immature but I don't care, I feel like a housewife with a stereotypical lazy husband lately, and if he doesn't like it, he can change his behavior.

Where is my copy of Why Men Love Bitches...

carmen_b
08-16-2015, 02:53 PM
^ I would look up Gottman relationship strategies. I felt like ( both of us ) were getting too complacent as a couple and his teachings were incredible! Particularly " positivity training " for couples. You can google it ! It was a large factor in my relationship energy shift a few months ago. Without this shift I know I would have left already even though on the surface nothing major was wrong. I don't want an " average " romantic life and some of these trainings have helped us a lot.
( it does take major effort and time - just a warning )

Your strategy to " lean back " and not be in his face is one of the most effective though as long as he isn't paranoid haha!

kaninchen
08-16-2015, 03:17 PM
I really need a new bag for work. The one I have now smells like corn tortillas and bubblegum. OMG I'm so gross! It's stuff like this that makes me amazed that I can make a living off of being sexy.

wednesday86
08-16-2015, 08:57 PM
This weekend I was reminded why I don't have many girlfriends other than the other strippers I hang out with at work. Went to a party at my husband's friend's house and tried introducing myself to his gf (since she never approached me even though we brought them some (expensive) alcohol..some hostess.) I'm thanking her for her "hospitality" telling her how beautiful her (really HIS) house is...She was cold, standoffish, wouldn't say two words to me, looked at me like "why is this bitch talking to me?" and after I excused myself she went back to her flock of hens who also never talked to me; just stared at me suspiciously and talked amongst themselves. They stayed in one part of the house, while I hung out with my husband and the men as usual. Why do girls hate me ? I guess nothing has changed since 3rd grade.

charlie61
08-16-2015, 09:07 PM
I'm going to keep putting this link in this thread until we have enough people contributing to make it equally active:

https://www.stripperweb.com/forum/sh...houghts-Thread

Prettyglitter
08-17-2015, 09:18 AM
I confess that I'm procrastinating this break up. It's hard to break up with someone you love and live with. :( why can't we be friends

absolutelyadorable
08-17-2015, 09:40 AM
Just saying, whatever side of the fence you're on, other people in your life, especially those on the other side, will shame you, pester you, show off and try and bring you down. There will always be people who are actually happier or facebook-happier than you. There will always be jealous shit-stirrers or folks who think their way of life is the only way that works. You have to do what feels right to you. And if the running commentary gets too bad, say bye-bye whilst you still don't hate them. Because you will begin to hate them.

I really needed to hear that today.......actually I needed to hear that last week. :/
After being verbally attacked for my lifestyle and my mindset, it's exhausting and DISCOURAGING. I tend to let people's inane comments get to me, but you make a very valid point when you say they're "facebook-happier than you."

Elektra Luxx
08-17-2015, 10:29 AM
Why do girls hate me ? I guess nothing has changed since 3rd grade.

Same here. Been dealing with that all my life. Then the wives and gf's complain about later as to why I insist on talking to their guys. Just being nice to me for a change!

Elektra Luxx
08-17-2015, 11:06 AM
My sister is in town visiting and her fiance is in Houston visiting his family. So yesterday, my sister invites me to go out drinking with her and her friends. They are known for their extreme parties and legendary drinking. My bf is pissed because I stayed out all night and I never checked in. I had about 20 texts and phone messages from him. What!! Where did this come from? Since when am I expected to check the in? I tell him we were just partying and he's like "well you could have checked in". So he's pissed at me, I mean really pissed at me. I'm not used to this from him, he's usually very easy going so this is kind of scaring me.

So I tell my sisters what's going on with the bf and they're are like "Fuck Him!, you're not married and even if you were married he knows who you were with. He just trying to control you. You have to tell him things are going to change or it's over." So I go over to his apartment armed to the teeth with all this verbiage from my sisters and I'm ready for a showdown. I knock hard on his door, he answers with a very serious look, no smile, no fear and says "I'm glad you're here, we need to talk, sit down on the couch". We sit down on the couch and he says "I can't do this anymore." I crack, everything my sisters said goes out the window and start crying, blubbering, sobbing. Anyway, we talked it out. He thinks I'm easily influenced by people, especially my older sister and he was worried that I overindulge and do something I would regret. Everything is okay now.

My sisters are very in your face you can't tell me what to do in their relationships. Me, I have my moments, but I'm not as assertive.

Aurora_Sunset
08-17-2015, 02:11 PM
I think I'm slipping into a depression. Not the sad kind - but the "I just don't really feel stuff" kind. I'm already waking up super early, which I never do, and not getting back to sleep but not feeling one way or the other about it, and not feeling a desire to eat even though I can tell I'm physically hungry. :-\

Elektra Luxx
08-17-2015, 05:59 PM
Sometimes I think I made a pact with the devil when I so willingly traded my loneliness and independence for companionship.

MyButter
08-17-2015, 07:49 PM
I can't decide whether my postman is just super friendly or if he's flirting with me.

Daniellaa
08-18-2015, 07:22 AM
I don't really know how to hang out with girls unless were drunk and partying if im just supposed to hang out casually with girls I don't really know what to do I just seem shy and im always paranoid that anything I say or do they will somehow use against me. Girls always hate on me so much I have a hard time trusting them. I wish I had more girl friends though.

carmen_b
08-18-2015, 12:26 PM
Me too!!! My life is so different now that I'm more " normal " and I get bored sometimes !!
Sometimes I think I made a pact with the devil when I so willingly traded my loneliness and independence for companionship.

carmen_b
08-18-2015, 12:27 PM
Are you out as a sex worker ? I was heavily closeted which helped ! It was helpful in the initial phases anyway and then a ton of stress needing to lie to close friends , ugh.
I don't really know how to hang out with girls unless were drunk and partying if im just supposed to hang out casually with girls I don't really know what to do I just seem shy and im always paranoid that anything I say or do they will somehow use against me. Girls always hate on me so much I have a hard time trusting them. I wish I had more girl friends though.

SamanthaSugar
08-18-2015, 01:28 PM
It's only 1:00 in the afternoon and I've had a big chocolate & banana protein shake, bagel with loads of cream cheese and 12 ice cream Bon Bons. Now I'm all jacked up from the sugar and feel like crap! I'm really not in the mood to cam now. I'm only at $5.00 for the week and I could give a fuck! I hate my life at the moment! Oh yeah I even blew off my Crossfit class. Come to think about it I think the reason I'm having such a crappy day is that I had some really fucked up dreams about my ex, he was cheating on me and ignoring me and it was all so vivid. I'm still thinking about that dream. It's bothering me so much is b/c I miss him so much, I think about him everyday, everyone I date I compare them to him. I feel that since I left a piece of me has died. I think I'm suffering from low grade depression if that's such a thing. I go on with my life, people think I'm happy and I should be happy I'm making good $ my business is starting to take off, I have great friends, a nice place to live but deep down I feel nothing just feel numb! And no I'm not PMSing. Ok I'm done, thanks for listening.

Elektra Luxx
08-18-2015, 01:33 PM
Me too!!! My life is so different now that I'm more " normal " and I get bored sometimes !!

Exactly. Being normal is like a wooden cross to me sometimes. I've got someone that loves me, worships me, wants to protect me, wants to take care of me, wants to do anything for me. That's all a woman is suppose want from life, right? I was ready to give the best thing that's happened to me in a long time. But, for some reason I miss the rush you get from the excitement, the hustle, the money and the danger. It's like the best drug the world and it's like the worst drug too. When your in it you're happy and miserable at the same time and when you're away from it you're happy and miserable for the opposite reasons. I feel like I'm being dragged kicking and screaming to the normal side and when I get there I realized "Oh, this isn't so bad", but then I start to get bored and all the feelings come flooding back again. Someone that has never experienced it can't understand.

And scene.

Sorry for the melodramatic tone of this post, but it seems fitting some how.

MyRealNameIsWeird
08-18-2015, 01:35 PM
I really needed to hear that today.......actually I needed to hear that last week. :/
After being verbally attacked for my lifestyle and my mindset, it's exhausting and DISCOURAGING. I tend to let people's inane comments get to me, but you make a very valid point when you say they're "facebook-happier than you."

Don't let them get to you. You are a GODDESS, a blessing to yourself and, when it comes down to it, you are the only thing you will always have. Don't take yourself for granted just because some other fucker takes you for granted. Chances are they're deeply unhappy with themselves and want some company for their misery.

MyRealNameIsWeird
08-18-2015, 01:38 PM
I think I'm slipping into a depression. Not the sad kind - but the "I just don't really feel stuff" kind. I'm already waking up super early, which I never do, and not getting back to sleep but not feeling one way or the other about it, and not feeling a desire to eat even though I can tell I'm physically hungry. :-\

That type of depression is associated with GABA (the hormone that helps you have REM sleep) malfunction and can cause your hippocampus to shrink and impacts your health (because you aren't getting REM sleep). Try taking a mild sleeping pill every night (edit: even something simple and herbal like valerian root can help you), getting up at a set time, eating something as soon as you wake up, working on staying awake through the day until a set bedtime. Repeat until you feel rested and a bit happier.

wednesday86
08-18-2015, 07:39 PM
sometimes I miss being blonde....i felt a little more "girly" and a little more glamorous. or something...but i'm not putting my hair through that again.

Cashmere Star
08-19-2015, 01:05 AM
I can't decide whether my postman is just super friendly or if he's flirting with me.

Well, is he cute? :D


sometimes I miss being blonde....i felt a little more "girly" and a little more glamorous. or something...but i'm not putting my hair through that again.

Lol not to tempt you but if you ever give in, give Olaplex a shot when you lighten your hair again. It helps with the hair quality a lot :)

MyButter
08-19-2015, 08:40 AM
Lol, I wish he was, Rosemead!

I tried to watch Aladdin yesterday, and it was so depressing. Robin Williams' passing still makes me so sad:(