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Aniela
09-06-2015, 08:56 AM
I confess I find myself developping a minor crush on a coworker. I feel bad abt it bc he has a gf, but that's probably what makes it the safest crush ever bc I can guarantee I wouldn't ever act on it. The gf thing, plus Îve got 11yrs on him & we work together (along w/ the gf & the gf's dad -- all of us centred in the same 15m of each other at work :eek: ). Those are all like my Top Ten reasons to leave it alone. But damn him for being so easy on the eyes, & me for being 14mo+ into this dry spell :banghead:
xStacey
09-06-2015, 09:50 AM
I have no problem tipping and I would consider myself a generous tipper but sometimes tipping at Starbucks bugs me b/c it's already so overpriced. Sometimes when I'm feeling stingy I give them my debit card even though I have cash on me just so I don't have to tip. I've never told anybody that before.
I'm a generous tipper when I go to the restaurant but I don't leave tips either when I go to Starbucks. I don't even understand why there's a tip jar at my university cafeteria when the coffee is self-serve and the cashier simply hands me an empty cup. Everybody expects a tip nowaday.
Elektra Luxx
09-06-2015, 11:54 AM
Going to in-laws later this afternoon. Not looking forward to it. I'm getting pissed off just thinking about it. I feel like making scene where I put my mother in-law her in place.
Aniela
09-06-2015, 01:03 PM
looking online at a modestly-priced (esp for my area) 1BR apt & feeling very hopeless bc I am not in a position right now to dance part-time & start making real progress toward getting my financials back together, debt sorted, etc.
Glamourmilf
09-06-2015, 02:09 PM
I watch Grace and Frankie on Netflix after work every week (over and over). It relaxes me.
I Like that show too. I binge watched the first season.
Wonder when the 2nd season starts, do You know?
SnuffleUffleGrass
09-06-2015, 04:57 PM
I had a really heavy lunch as a treat & now I feel gross. I think I'm too old to be eating like that.
jadey23
09-06-2015, 05:43 PM
@Aniela & Marie. Thank you.... I really can't handle uppers well so I don't really plan to engage. Just sucks seeing how things are turning out.
Aniela: I used to do that allllll the time, it was like my way of visualizing things that I wanted, even though I was in absolutely no position at the time. Good luck with whatever is preventing u from working @ the moment -- we all go thru slumps!!!! xoxo
jadey23
09-06-2015, 05:45 PM
@Aniela & Marie. Thank you.... I really can't handle uppers well so I don't really plan to engage. Just sucks seeing how things are turning out.
Aniela: I used to do that allllll the time, it was like my way of visualizing things that I wanted, even though I was in absolutely no position at the time. Good luck with whatever is preventing u from working @ the moment -- we all go thru slumps!!!! xoxo
Selina M
09-06-2015, 06:52 PM
I feel like a scrub.
My hair has gone 11 weeks without root touchups (and there's a big blonde section in front where it's noticeable), and the other blonde part is turning orange from lack of toning. My nails have 3 week old polish rubbing off and are all different lengths, some pointed, some square, some jagged edges. I've had no time for weeks to sit and do that stuff, or make appts to drive 40 mins to get it done. I wore civilian booty shorts under a skirt last night to work bc I've been out of work panties for several days and don't want to do laundry.
And instead of wanting to do laundry and shit, I want to go get all rocker chick sexy and go to some lame show of fiancé's friend downtown... even though I'd be wearing 70% dirty clothes. I guess that's punk rock though :P
charlie61
09-06-2015, 07:51 PM
I Like that show too. I binge watched the first season.
Wonder when the 2nd season starts, do You know?
http://www.hollywoodreporter.com/live-feed/netflix-renews-grace-frankie-second-798224
Glamourmilf
09-06-2015, 09:15 PM
http://www.hollywoodreporter.com/live-feed/netflix-renews-grace-frankie-second-798224
Yeah!!! Cant wait! Thanks for the heads up!
charlie61
09-06-2015, 10:12 PM
There's a newer girl at work who has a stage name that's super similar to mine, and I'm irked that the club let her have the name. It actually causes confusion during our shifts on a regular basis. Usually clubs force you to take a bottom-of-the-barrel name before they'd let you pick something that's close to another girl's name (that's a fucked-up sentence, but whatever). Ya feel me?
Such a nitpicky little confession...
Prettyglitter
09-07-2015, 03:09 AM
I'm so burnt out! And i think I'm going to start ignoring texts.
lynn2009
09-07-2015, 11:41 AM
I've read Pride and Prejudice before on eBook but bought a hard copy yesterday because I loved it so much. I've started re-reading it (something I never do) and I can't believe how much I am geeking out over this book. I googled merch and I'm like omg I need a P&P throw pillow, mug, necklace. I need to get out more.
kaninchen
09-07-2015, 01:13 PM
This is probably the most confession-y confession I've ever posted in this thread: I spent the night at a guy's house and woke myself up by farting super loudly. I can't imagine that it didn't wake him up too! I'm mortified, but he still made me breakfast and wanted to hang out today. He's either a total gentleman, the world's soundest sleeper, or a fart fetishist.
KaraLynn
09-07-2015, 02:33 PM
There's a newer girl at work who has a stage name that's super similar to mine, and I'm irked that the club let her have the name. It actually causes confusion during our shifts on a regular basis. Usually clubs force you to take a bottom-of-the-barrel name before they'd let you pick something that's close to another girl's name (that's a fucked-up sentence, but whatever). Ya feel me?
Such a nitpicky little confession...
Yep. When I was still dancing by Kara I auditioned at a club that had a "Keira" and they made me pick something else. I figured that was standard. Most djs suck at enunciation so it would be a pain in the ass trying to figure out who the hell is supposed to be onstage.
whirlerz
09-07-2015, 03:34 PM
I confess I'm being a PIA to this guy online that keeps asking for pics.
wednesday86
09-07-2015, 06:17 PM
I'm thinking about going to work just so i don't have to be around my husband. God he's pissing me off today
DonaDiabla
09-07-2015, 06:31 PM
Developing my exit plan for my sex worker career now. However, I would like to work my ass off until then. My goals are get 10 sugar daddies, sell over 10,000 panties, create over 25 phone sex characters, make over 10 different Second Life escorts, start back camming, and produce over 100 Machinima videos each month. :) Wish me luck :)
Aurora_Sunset
09-07-2015, 06:38 PM
Stopped into my very first SC a couple nights ago for the first time since I quit 4 years ago, and talked to my old manager about coming back soon. I was only there to take a friend to the club. And even though I had been slightly toying with the idea of going back a couple nights a week, the biggest selling point was that they have new poles. Their poles used to be super thick, not real dance poles that were impossible to grip and dance on properly. Now they have spinning poles and I got insanely excited.
xStacey
09-07-2015, 07:56 PM
I hate the people in law school. Some of them are so obnoxious, spoiled and self-important. The students stress me out more than the workload itself. I talked to a couple of person who would talk about themselves the whole time without asking me a single question about myself. "I went to vacation in Europe this summer... My dad is a doctor... My family bought me a condo so I could go to college... I live in a very upscale neighbourhood... I have a cottage..." One girl has the habit of starting every sentence with the word "me". The atmosphere is so competitive with people thinking they're some kind of special unicorn, people arrive 30-45 mins in advance to class just so they could sit in the front. I hate having to leave my place so early but if I arrive 15 mins before class is supposed to start the only seats left are completely in the back -_-. I miss undergrad when I could arrive 5 mins before class starts and still sit in the front row.
Cashmere Star
09-08-2015, 12:48 AM
I confess.. when I go to bed, I pray to the lord that he give me a big round bubble butt and a tiny waist. And that he makes my hair grow long and fast. :D
This is probably the most confession-y confession I've ever posted in this thread: I spent the night at a guy's house and woke myself up by farting super loudly. I can't imagine that it didn't wake him up too! I'm mortified, but he still made me breakfast and wanted to hang out today. He's either a total gentleman, the world's soundest sleeper, or a fart fetishist.
lol! it could just mean he's not a little boy. ;)
Aurora_Sunset
09-09-2015, 02:58 PM
I still automatically burst into laughter whenever someone asks if I'm married or have kids before realizing that they're serious... because that's actually a totally legitimate question for someone my age.... Oops
Cheyennedaisy
09-10-2015, 08:23 AM
I'm so stressed out I'm dry heaving every morning, I didn't get my contract resigned at the club I've been working at because I don't get along with the managers because I won't let guys grab me on stage, all the other clubs are super gross and cheap and girls sell dances by telling guys they can touch there nipples, I never thought I would be a broke stressed out stripper.
I want to travel and dance somewhere else but I have no idea where
SimoneGray
09-10-2015, 08:25 AM
I'm kinda attracted to one of my cam customers...and its a huge problem because he's my age, super awesomely cool and had we met in real life I would totally go on a date with him. Problem is, he's a guy on the internet and of course that means the chance for the crazy, creep factor is that much higher.
kortneykay
09-10-2015, 08:50 AM
I've been talking to this new guy off and on since May and we made out on the first date and OMG. I could've melted. We had dinner at his place, cuddled with a few make outs during the shows we were watching, but as I got up to leave we couldn't keep our tongues out of each other's throats. I was on the leg of the couch trying to inch towards the back door, lol. It was that passionate, "I don't want to leave but I have to before I end up fucking you on the first date" type of kissing. It's just that it's been over 7 years since i actually sat down and made out with someone so passionately. My ex had a short tongue and our whole relationship was toxic. This guy is everything my ex wasn't and is such an amazing, kind, caring, and generous person.
Somehow we made it into the laundry room as I parked across from his back door and I ended up on top of the washing machine, then spun up against the other wall with my hands pinned over my head, not once, but twice. I'm sure the neighbors heard it for sure but we just didn't give a shit. I just remember going in for one last kiss with my foot out of the door and grabbing his crotch. I have another date with him on Saturday and I'm planning on wearing a form fitting knit dress with no panties on. :D He's not getting the poom poom until we're official though but I have a feeling flashing him in the museum is going to drive him crazy. I just hope we can sit through the drive in movies without playing tonsil hockey the whole time. Nah, fuck it. Bring it!
xStacey
09-10-2015, 10:38 AM
First law exam tomorrow worth 100% and I am so stressed out. Not only it is only in the afternoon but AFTER a 3 hours class. I studied well, did all the readings and understand the material but I am really stressed out mostly because of the people in my class. Some people are so obsessive and hardcore, I spoke to a girl who listened to 30 hours of the class recording all over again, not only did the practice exam of the teacher but ALL the practice exams of that class from ALL the teachers of the faculty and I am stressed out that I didn't do it because I didn't think it would be a good use of my time. I am so nervous just thinking about it, I haven't had any pimples in almost a year since I finished my Accutane treatment but I've been having zits lately :ill:
wednesday86
09-10-2015, 04:08 PM
I can't admit this in public because it's so un-PC but I watched the stupid "Dear Fat People" video on youtube that a bunch of people are enraged about. I didn't think it was funny and the girl is lame but I kinda agree with her...especially when she talks about the fat people at the airport. That would piss me off too. Sorry not sorry
Genoveve
09-10-2015, 05:17 PM
^^I couldn't even finish it I think she needs a hug or something. I think it's so silly how she talks about how overweight people aren't respecting their bodies, I bet if I hung out with her for 24 hours I'd see her do multiple things that I'd consider to be really bad for her body. And when she lists off the health issues that being overweight causes like bad knees and diabetes.... she does know that those things happen to skinny people too right? My dad is diabetic and had his leg amputated and guess what, he is not overweight. And I like how she's like 'If you have a medical excuse this isn't aimed at you,' well you don't know the medical history of every overweight person you're judging so maybe stop judging?
I think there's 2 reasons it riles me up. For one I don't think that anyone who is overweight just doesn't give a fuck and lives like a pig, I've known people who ate better than me yet weighed a lot more and we've all known people who can and do eat anything and stay tiny. The second reason is that when someone is extremely overweight the chances are that they are using food to self medicate and I feel like who hasn't done unhealthy stuff for the sake of filling an emotional void? People end up doing unwise shit all the time for the sake of emotional issues, stuff like stay in shitty relationships or chronically overspend or drink too much or develop OCDs or develop an exercise addiction.....etc. People will feel pity for someone dealing with anorexia and then feel disgust for someone dealing with binge eating disorder, meanwhile they are both deeply rooted emotional issues that don't actually have to do with food.
Plus in general I don't judge extremely overweight people because I feel like I know how fucking hard it is to lose TEN pounds, can you imagine how hard it is to loose 50? 60? 100? 200? My friend was talking about how she was trying so hard to get her mom to lose weight, meanwhile this friend is always complaining to me about how she is 15lbs overweight. I was like 'You can't keep 15lbs off, maybe you shouldn't be appointing yourself as weightloss coach.'
And that's my rant brought to you by the hardcore decongestants that have been causing me to tweak.
lynn2009
09-10-2015, 05:26 PM
^^I couldn't even finish it I think she needs a hug or something. I think it's so silly how she talks about how overweight people aren't respecting their bodies, I bet if I hung out with her for 24 hours I'd see her do multiple things that I'd consider to be really bad for her body.
There's another thread from maybe a year or so ago with a fat people are lazy/ misunderstood debate but I have to emphasis this. Idk how many of the girls who commented in the other thread I'm thinking about are/were addicts, smokers, drinkers, whatever.
I hadn't heard about it but just watched three minutes. I think she has some points but they are expressed poorly.
22lligm
09-10-2015, 05:50 PM
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Aniela
09-10-2015, 07:15 PM
I blame this confession on having not gotten laid in so long … but I have yet another crush, this time on my coworker's friend. I have started going to my coworker's jiujitsu class a couple times a wk to watch. Won't be participating for sm time bc of injuries & a PTSD-ish mental state, but anyway … I thought I recognised one of the guys in the class but couldn't place him. Later talking to the instructor abt starting once my head & feet heal, & the instructor mentioned this guy by name & it clicked. If he is who I think he is, we went to high school together, & are only a yr or two apart, & oh my Lord has he grown up ::swoon:: guess I have found another reason to :lurk: there until I am able to participate :lovestruc
wednesday86
09-10-2015, 07:40 PM
I get what you're saying Genoveve. I guess I just have a low tolerance for addicts of any kind. Whether it's heroine or food. (Yes I know not all overweight people are food addicts but I'm sorry the morbidly obese HAVE to consume thousands and thousands of calories a day to remain that big. That's just basic math.) I think it's completely selfish and it irks me. Probably my own issue because I had addicts in my family who did nothing but cause trouble and heartache for everyone around them. I don't think addicts should get special treatment. I guess I'm just heartless like that. That's all I'm gonna say because I don't want to threadjack anymore. I just hope it didn't upset you.
Genoveve
09-10-2015, 07:48 PM
No you totes didn't upset me I meant to say 'btw I'm not ranting at you I'm ranting at that chick.' And you know, I don't know many addicts very well so maybe it's a lot easier for me to be Mother Theresa about it because I haven't been directly negatively impacted by someone else's addiction.
OliveJardin
09-10-2015, 10:28 PM
I hate the people in law school. Some of them are so obnoxious, spoiled and self-important. The students stress me out more than the workload itself. I talked to a couple of person who would talk about themselves the whole time without asking me a single question about myself.
^Ahhh, I don't miss this (especially dealing with it running on a few hours of sleep, after working the night before :( )! I used to want to put my index finger over their mouths and go shhhh...
I confess that I went on holiday and it was so nice to get up early, enjoy my days and go to bed before the sun came up! The nocturnal, stripper "lifestyle" is really getting to me atm-I'm sick of not having a life or arranging it around my sleeping schedule grrr.
OliveJardin
09-10-2015, 10:50 PM
^^I couldn't even finish it I think she needs a hug or something. I think it's so silly how she talks about how overweight people aren't respecting their bodies, I bet if I hung out with her for 24 hours I'd see her do multiple things that I'd consider to be really bad for her body.
^Agreed!
This girl is like a poor man's Jenna Marbles. You can't hide "hate" under the guise of humor if you aren't funny *le sigh*. Of course obesity is a problem etc, but her video isn't exactly proactive or entertaining.
Prettyglitter
09-11-2015, 12:57 AM
Suddenly jealous of my friend's relationship. Weird because I mines about how badly I wanted to be single. But just comparing her relationship to my recent one, I feel like such a loser.
Selina M
09-11-2015, 01:46 AM
I lost my shit at work. I'm the first hardass to tell girls "there's no crying in stripping", but I had a bullshit night and coupled with being inherently unhappy otherwise, I just couldn't. I gave the door girl serious attitude and then when a bouncer asked if I was in a bad mood I blew up. YES I'm in a shitty mood do you not see the crowd in there? I'm walking with $30 after tipping you assholes $20 to hover over and make my customers nervous and moving my drinks out of my sight (rendering them undrinkable bc of my paranoia of being drugged.). He then started telling me how negative energy attracts negative energy and it was like ARE YOU KIDDING. They're guaranteed $20 from each girl, easy for you to say since you're not out actually hustling that money. I yelled at him that "energy doesn't affect the door count of guys or strippers" and slammed my car door on him.
And then I cried in the car, bc I hate having a shit night and support staff being like "that sucks, where's my tip?" Sometimes this industry makes me want to vomit and smack all the "stripping is empowering" girls upside the head.
Aniela
09-11-2015, 03:49 PM
I blocked all contacts w/ my brother & my sister today. She is a narcissistic cunt, as I've bitched abt previously, & he has narcissistic tendencies as well but is otherwise pretty much the opposite -- dumber than shit. I've met eggplants w/ more common sense. But I am completely done w/ both of them.
I am hating being at home so much lately. My parents have done a lot of good for me, I don't deny that, but there are sm things that I just can't forgive & my trust in them was pretty much completely, permanently destroyed esp after my little boy died. I have also bitched abt that previously so won't detail it here. I would almost kill to be in my own place, but I am anticipating the possibility of surgery for my feet & if it happens, I will be mostly immobile for 6-8wks bc I will be getting them both cut-on at once. That's the only reason I havén't made any plans to move out but I am trying to save $$$ to make that happen. In the meantime my anger & disgust w/ both them & myself feels like it's growing worse every day, & I am afraid either I will explode (proving yet again that I am *just* mentally ill ::eyeroll:: )or it will just eat me alive.
lynn2009
09-15-2015, 03:34 PM
Nothing makes me feel quite as inadequate as going through resumes with my manager for a new hire.
baer45
09-16-2015, 12:21 AM
I am on the trip with my client in Las Vegas right now. Yesterday I got bored and went gamble, I lost $530. I was upset and told my client. He took out a coin and flipped it: heads or tails? if you get it right you can have all your lost money back.
I guessed it wrong again.
:(
SimoneGray
09-16-2015, 01:51 AM
I'm starting to embrace sex and the idea thereof only now...I feel like such a late bloomer lol
simone87
09-16-2015, 10:59 AM
i'm planning on calling my old club today when they open and trying to get my job back..its been almost a year now, 10 or 11 months since i stripped and i feel like I'm gonna puke. I dont think they'll recognize me after this long, but i am pretty much shaking. i have to remind myself that i stripped for like 4 years, and i got this..i know what I'm doing but i feel like a newbie again! i never should have taken this long of a break
Aniela
09-16-2015, 05:28 PM
Sm of the posts I read on here … my first thought is 'WTF … how old are you, twelve?!'
baer45
09-16-2015, 05:51 PM
I won $150 today. and I have two days to get my lost money back or...
miss.a.p1600
09-16-2015, 06:06 PM
I loathe the guy who is the other parental unit for my child.
Should have saved myself the trouble, rubbed one out by myself, and then went to a sperm bank. Much less headache dealing with an egotistical cocksucker. f*ck!!!!!! I don't have the patience today.
baer45
09-16-2015, 11:17 PM
BIGGEST fucking mistake of my life!
I went on the scary ride on top of the Stratosphere Casino tonight. Although I was not on the front row, I was screaming my lungs out, peed my pants up there. I have done skydive before, this is scarier. I also believe this ride is scarier at night. Thank God I survived.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yaBnySaM38k
Selina M
09-17-2015, 08:51 PM
Heavyish post ahead:
I can't decide if I'm unhappy with my significant other or just depressed in general and trying to pin it on him.
For reals though, I never forgave him for making me postpone the wedding (even though I kind of wanted to; the fact that he necessitated it was not ok), and I'm apparently harboring a lot of resentment and feeling like he obviously is NOT madly in love with me if he would do that. Every female friend I've talked to reinforced the negative feelings, bc they all said "What a load of horseshit" to his reasoning.
Hence I started pushing him away to the point that we feel like roommates, while simultaneously being insecure and stupid. Girls from work were offering rides to/from work all the time without being asked, (and they all lived out of the way), swapping his shitty sections for primo sections at work, etc., so I figured they had crushes on him. One even gave me the fucking stink eye the other day when I came outside. Finally when one drove him home (after making him 'wait at her house while she got ready to go out, and then changed her mind about going out'... so he got home at 1 am... story made NO sense), I had a fit and said no more of those girls driving him anywhere. I'm half being a crazy possessive bitch, and half like "I don't give a shit, go live with your brother and leave me alone to do my thing".
I do not know how to fix any of this and I'm starting to think I don't even want to.
BUT I'd miss his dog. Technically according to the county, he's MY dog since I did the adoption paperwork. That would be super bitchy to take the dog though.
baer45
09-17-2015, 09:05 PM
Heavyish post ahead:
I can't decide if I'm unhappy with my significant other or just depressed in general and trying to pin it on him.
For reals though, I never forgave him for making me postpone the wedding (even though I kind of wanted to; the fact that he necessitated it was not ok), and I'm apparently harboring a lot of resentment and feeling like he obviously is NOT madly in love with me if he would do that. Every female friend I've talked to reinforced the negative feelings, bc they all said "What a load of horseshit" to his reasoning.
Hence I started pushing him away to the point that we feel like roommates, while simultaneously being insecure and stupid. Girls from work were offering rides to/from work all the time without being asked, (and they all lived out of the way), swapping his shitty sections for primo sections at work, etc., so I figured they had crushes on him. One even gave me the fucking stink eye the other day when I came outside. Finally when one drove him home (after making him 'wait at her house while she got ready to go out, and then changed her mind about going out'... so he got home at 1 am... story made NO sense), I had a fit and said no more of those girls driving him anywhere. I'm half being a crazy possessive bitch, and half like "I don't give a shit, go live with your brother and leave me alone to do my thing".
I do not know how to fix any of this and I'm starting to think I don't even want to.
BUT I'd miss his dog. Technically according to the county, he's MY dog since I did the adoption paperwork. That would be super bitchy to take the dog though.
It feels like lacking of real communication or you two aren't really a good match deep inside. I have been in similar situation before. It gets worse later, when finally two decided to sit down and talk about it. It almost felt like both of us were trying to talk ourselves out of the relationship. It's also sad at the end your gamer instinct kicked in and you just wanted to "protect" yourself. You can either possibly resolve it now or wait until it's too late.
Selina M
09-17-2015, 09:40 PM
^ I have been trying to bring it up and resolve it... twice this week I've said something about it, I explained what I said above and everything. He just gets sad and quiet, leave for a while, and then comes back and sadly tell me that i have no idea how much he loves me. That's not fixing anything though. I can't help but feel the damage is done and I'm not a forgiving person when you do something like, oh I dunno, cancel a wedding because you're being a scared pansy.
/threadjack