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Aniela
10-20-2015, 03:22 AM
Went on a minor stripper shopping spree ystrdy. My mission was shoes, but I am very picky abt what I dance in shoe-wise & will probably have to go online since no stores I've been to yet have what I want. But I ended up coming home w/ two new stripper dresses, sm clothing odds&ends, & a lovely wig since I intend to eventually start dancing again PT in my home town while keeping a FT straight job.
The bitch of it is, that I dropped abt $140 on stuff that I won't be able to use for at least another 3-4mo per dr's orders. So basically, spending $$$$ I really need to be saving on junk that, for the moment, is useless to me.
SweetJulia
10-20-2015, 03:59 AM
1-Hopefully not me lol.
2-Hell yes. And posted, when I was irritated enough. So now, I'm only allowed to save as a word document, print, and knock on my closet door, pretending to deliver it to them.
Have you ever written several paragraphs just completely trashing someone on this forum because they are so self-righteous and diluted and they posted something that really just pissed you off to no end!!! And all you had to do was press the "Post Quick Reply" to post it, but instead you pressed "Cancel" button just because you want to avoid the inevitable shit storm!!!
No? Nope, I never feel like that either, just checking.
SweetJulia
10-20-2015, 04:03 AM
I stepped on dog shit with barefoot on the grass while I was doing yoga in the park this morning. And i had an appointment this afternoon. He has a feet fetish.
The devil on my shoulder says charge extra for the skin treatment to prep for him lol.
SimoneGray
10-20-2015, 05:10 AM
I confess that I have been unbearably lazy over the past two days and I loathe myself for it. Time to get back to work.
baer45
10-20-2015, 10:04 AM
I fighting the urge to go to my ex-bfs apartment right now. Just show up unexpectedly.
Anything is better than returning to an abusive ex-bf. Anything. IMHO.
baer45
10-20-2015, 10:15 AM
The devil on my shoulder says charge extra for the skin treatment to prep for him lol.
Seriously, I had to walk across the park with barefoot to find a place to wash it off. But I didn't charge him extra.
Elektra Luxx
10-20-2015, 07:57 PM
Anything is better than returning to an abusive ex-bf. Anything. IMHO.
You are painfully direct. I had moment of weakness. That's all.
Proverbs 26:11 "Like a dog that returns to its vomit Is a fool who repeats his folly."
2 Peter 2:22 But it has happened to them according to the true proverb: “A dog returns to his own vomit,” and, “a sow, having washed, to her wallowing in the mire.”
SimoneGray
10-21-2015, 05:57 AM
I confess that I might be addicted to buying Pleasers now...
Aurora_Sunset
10-21-2015, 03:02 PM
I don't like Star Wars.
There. I said it.
I don't hate it and I'm not trying to shit all over the recent hype, but to me, it was basically like any other fantasy/sci-fi thing I've ever seen. I can see the general appeal, but it's just not my thing. So it honestly confuses me why I seem to be the only person on the planet who doesn't staunchly think that Star Wars falls outside of any other "nerd fandom" where some people love it but others just don't care. I've literally never met a person who doesn't love Star Wars and geek out over it, even if they don't like any other sci-fi stuff.
Glamourmilf
10-21-2015, 03:10 PM
I don't like Star Wars.
There. I said it.
?
I don't hate it and I'm not trying to shit all over the recent hype, but to me, it was basically like any other fantasy/sci-fi thing I've ever seen. I can see the general appeal, but it's just not my thing. So it honestly confuses me why I seem to be the only person on the planet who doesn't staunchly think
that Star Wars falls outside of any other "nerd fandom" where some people love it but others just don't care. I've literally never met a person who doesn't love Star Wars and geek out over it, even if they don't like any other sci-fi stuff.
Lol! I've never seen Star Wars. Have no interest in it.
Even though George Lucas is a friend of mine, I really don't get the appeal.
When I first met George and told him, he just chuckled, so I figured if its ok with him, the rest of the people I know can 'get over it'.
xStacey
10-22-2015, 01:57 PM
Lol my ex sent me a picture of his dick next to a water bottle, it's about the same size.
Elektra Luxx
10-22-2015, 02:13 PM
Lol my ex sent me a picture of his dick next to a water bottle, it's about the same size.
I didn't know they make water bottles that small. Oh....wait....you mean that his.....WOW!!! You lucky girl you.
Selina M
10-22-2015, 05:42 PM
I don't like Star Wars.
There. I said it.
I don't hate it and I'm not trying to shit all over the recent hype, but to me, it was basically like any other fantasy/sci-fi thing I've ever seen. I can see the general appeal, but it's just not my thing. So it honestly confuses me why I seem to be the only person on the planet who doesn't staunchly think that Star Wars falls outside of any other "nerd fandom" where some people love it but others just don't care. I've literally never met a person who doesn't love Star Wars and geek out over it, even if they don't like any other sci-fi stuff.
I enjoyed the movies but have only seen them once... fiancé is OBSESSED. Like, he gets into the whole 'deep meaning' of it and thinks Vader is all misunderstood etc etc. I just can't get into it to that level. I'm like "What? Why Star Wars? Why does some random movie on Sy-fy not get the same treatment?" Like I don't GET IT.
But he doesn't understand my Harry Potter dork-out-fests either.
And I buy him stuff because I find it hilarious to see a 29 year old man wearing a "Jedi in the streets, Sith in the sheets" shirt.
lynn2009
10-22-2015, 06:01 PM
I don't like Star Wars.
There. I said it.
I don't hate it and I'm not trying to shit all over the recent hype, but to me, it was basically like any other fantasy/sci-fi thing I've ever seen. I can see the general appeal, but it's just not my thing. So it honestly confuses me why I seem to be the only person on the planet who doesn't staunchly think that Star Wars falls outside of any other "nerd fandom" where some people love it but others just don't care. I've literally never met a person who doesn't love Star Wars and geek out over it, even if they don't like any other sci-fi stuff.
I've never seen it. I basically grew up under a rock.
Elektra Luxx
10-22-2015, 10:49 PM
I enjoyed the movies but have only seen them once... fiancé is OBSESSED. Like, he gets into the whole 'deep meaning' of it and thinks Vader is all misunderstood etc etc. I just can't get into it to that level. I'm like "What? Why Star Wars? Why does some random movie on Sy-fy not get the same treatment?" Like I don't GET IT.
But he doesn't understand my Harry Potter dork-out-fests either.
And I buy him stuff because I find it hilarious to see a 29 year old man wearing a "Jedi in the streets, Sith in the sheets" shirt.
I love Star Wars, like completely obsessed and I love, love, love the Harry Potter books. I've read them all and re-read books the first 4 books.
SimoneGray
10-23-2015, 08:40 AM
I slept with an old friend from high school that I recently regained contact with. And it was AWFUL. I didn't know it was possible to be that bad at sex. Fuck. Is this really what hook ups are like?
xStacey
10-23-2015, 12:23 PM
I've been feeling quite unhappy ever since I started law. I am not exactly sure why, but I keep wondering if I made the right choice, if I would make a good lawyer, if I will be able to secure a good and high-paying job. I am second-guessing myself, wondering if the sacrifices are worth it, if I really want to work 12-15 hours every day, 6 or 7 days a week for the rest of my life.
I worked so hard throughout my undergrad the past three years to be admitted to justify quitting now. I was sure this was what I wanted to do but not anymore. Even if I were to quit, I don't have any option B to fall back on. I don't see myself studying another subject and I don't have another career plan. I love sex work but I know I can't do this forever. All I know is right now I'm feeling miserable and I've been feeling shitty the last couple of months.
DonaDiabla
10-23-2015, 07:11 PM
xStacey,
Have you thought about being a paralegal specialist instead of a lawyer? I know it sounds like a step down but it is a way of being involved in law without too much stress. Currently, I am finishing up my paralegal program and I feel great about it. I am going to be a real estate paralegal as well. :) However, if being a lawyer is something that you want to do...then hang in there.
I've been feeling quite unhappy ever since I started law. I am not exactly sure why, but I keep wondering if I made the right choice, if I would make a good lawyer, if I will be able to secure a good and high-paying job. I am second-guessing myself, wondering if the sacrifices are worth it, if I really want to work 12-15 hours every day, 6 or 7 days a week for the rest of my life.
I worked so hard throughout my undergrad the past three years to be admitted to justify quitting now. I was sure this was what I wanted to do but not anymore. Even if I were to quit, I don't have any option B to fall back on. I don't see myself studying another subject and I don't have another career plan. I love sex work but I know I can't do this forever. All I know is right now I'm feeling miserable and I've been feeling shitty the last couple of months.
amberlly
10-23-2015, 07:57 PM
I caught up with a friend. Got told they resent me because I have everything too easy. I get told that a lot.
It's really annoying coming from someone who supposedly knows me. I have plenty of issues. Life's not fair. But I don't constantly whinge to people. I just adapt and work around thr
Aniela
10-23-2015, 08:35 PM
I love everything abt my Greyhound, as I have bragged on her repeatedly here, but today found myself esp loving her keen hearing. It makes it so glouriously easy to spoil her rotten when no one is looking. :devil:
She spends most of the day hiding/chilling in my parents' room & my mother's home office is on the opposite side of the house, in the opposite corner. I love how I can be in the kitchen making a snack & just very quietly say my dog's name + 'Come get a cheese treat!' & she hears me & comes running. I'm getting this down to a science -- even when sm1 is in the living room we make it happen, & she has to pass thru the living room to reach the kitchen She's not the brightest candle in the chandelier, but she has figured out when Auntie Aniela is giving her 'stealth treats' & is totally quiet & well-behaved while eating them. :highfive: The perfect nibbles ninja. :heartbeat :ninja: :heartbeat
Prettyglitter
10-24-2015, 04:17 AM
Yes i do. He's doing it. I mean I don't really want him seeing other people and I don't want to see anyone else so i don't mind being exclusive but I'll just try not to marry this one for a few years lol. I honestly don't know what to do in this situation. I told him I'm not ready to say the L word yet...but what else can I say? "No stop liking me so much!" It seems like every time I tell him I want to take it slow it just eggs him on.
Be weary of people quick to settle down like that.
Prettyglitter
10-24-2015, 04:35 AM
Tmiiii
buttonpop
10-24-2015, 08:07 PM
sometimes i wish i wasn't beautiful so i could know right away that if someone was interested in me it was because of who i am.
thats the problem with being conventionally beautiful. you can have anybody you want, but that doesn't mean they're interested in you for the same reason you're interested in them. that is to say; sometimes i wonder if my beauty overshadows my personality and makes people less interested in knowing my soul.
Glamourmilf
10-24-2015, 10:57 PM
sometimes i wish i wasn't beautiful so i could know right away that if someone was interested in me it was because of who i am.
thats the problem with being conventionally beautiful. you can have anybody you want, but that doesn't mean they're interested in you for the same reason you're interested in them. that is to say; sometimes i wonder if my beauty overshadows my personality and makes people less interested in knowing my soul.
Same. Story of my life.
Legz541
10-26-2015, 01:11 AM
I've been putting off scheduling a gyno appointment for literally months now even tho I know something is wrong. I know this is terrible but I just hate the whole ordeal. I'll schedule it tomorrow, it's in writing so now I have to lol
Aniela
10-26-2015, 10:23 AM
I am playing w/ expenses numbers for finding (& keeping!) my own place. Looking at prospective rent + general expenses, min shift goals since I want to dance part time, & adding that all up w/ the min I typically expect to make per month from my straight job. I am purposely trying to stay conservative on earnings expectations & run slightly high on expense expectations, to hopefully end up w/ a bit of breathing room when it's all said & done. The numbers all look good, but I feel like they only look so good bc it's just theory at this point, & just the thought of actually taking steps toward committing to these numbers goals feels overwhelming.
KaraLynn
10-26-2015, 12:34 PM
I love everything abt my Greyhound, as I have bragged on her repeatedly here, but today found myself esp loving her keen hearing. It makes it so glouriously easy to spoil her rotten when no one is looking. :devil:
She spends most of the day hiding/chilling in my parents' room & my mother's home office is on the opposite side of the house, in the opposite corner. I love how I can be in the kitchen making a snack & just very quietly say my dog's name + 'Come get a cheese treat!' & she hears me & comes running. I'm getting this down to a science -- even when sm1 is in the living room we make it happen, & she has to pass thru the living room to reach the kitchen She's not the brightest candle in the chandelier, but she has figured out when Auntie Aniela is giving her 'stealth treats' & is totally quiet & well-behaved while eating them. :highfive: The perfect nibbles ninja. :heartbeat :ninja: :heartbeat
I have a greyhound too. She's awesome :)
SimoneGray
10-26-2015, 12:37 PM
I had a pedicure today and it was awesome, then I bought champagne and chocolate covered strawberries for me. First time in years I've properly spoilt myself. I confess though that it does make me feel a little bit like a sad, lonely loser.
Aniela
10-26-2015, 01:38 PM
I had a pedicure today and it was awesome, then I bought champagne and chocolate covered strawberries for me. First time in years I've properly spoilt myself. I confess though that it does make me feel a little bit like a sad, lonely loser.
Kinda like, 'I'm doing this for me bc I don't have anyone else to do it for me?' I know the feeling :hug: On the plus side, more for you!
lynn2009
10-26-2015, 06:07 PM
The guy I was seeing over the summer, he is one the most PC person I've ever met, except when it came to sex work. So there were a few times when he said something rude about sex work and also money things in general and I brushed it off because he really is a nice guy and I'm sure didn't know better. Anyway we aren't talking anymore and Idk why but some things he said are really bothering me today. One weekend over the summer I was house sitting for my aunt and uncle and I told him via gchat how nice it was to have a big, pretty air-conditioned house to myself and he said something like "yeah...your apartment...is not ideal", which, I mean, seriously? Why say that? Like, thanks I know I live in a small, shitty apartment that is still 1/3 of my vanilla take home pay, thanks for reminding me, stupid dick.
baer45
10-27-2015, 09:13 AM
PC is all bull.
charlie61
10-27-2015, 01:57 PM
I was on a four-hour flight yesterday (I don't like flying), and I entertained myself by hustling the man sitting next to me. Free wine and snacks, anyone?
baer45
10-27-2015, 09:24 PM
I am not a fan of star wars. But this is too cute.
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Tsepmet1
10-28-2015, 10:03 AM
I SAW MY NEW THERAPIST TODAY ABOUT MY BIPOLAR DISORDER AND SHE IS SEX-WORKER FRIENDLY.
OMGOMGOMGOMG
I CAN TALK ABOUT WHAT IS ACTUALLY GOING ON IN MY LIFE WITHOUT HIDING ANYTHING.
I'm ecstatic. So fucking ecstatic.
Edit: If you are near Tampa, I can refer you to her. I know how hard it is to find a therapist that doesn't judge us for our work. :) Just PM me.
SimoneGray
10-28-2015, 03:44 PM
^^ that is amazing!! So happy for you :)
A hot guy invited me to his house on Saturday for a BBQ. He did say other people would be there. Sadly its my friends birthday that day so I had to bail. I confess though that I kinda wish I could get out of her birthday. Her and I hang super often and like, I haven't had any hot guy time in ages, plus this guy is interesting and really nice actually and seemed a bit put out that I had to cancel on him. However, sisters before misters I guess. Still secretly wish I could go to that instead. I am a horrible person for thinking this way.
22lligm
10-28-2015, 06:10 PM
I move to TX from CA tomorrow and I'm really nervous & stressed out a little bit. I guess I underestimated how big of a move this is and didn't really prepare as much as I should have. I'm a little bummed I'm gonna ruin my Halloween by moving since I won't have all my furniture yet and I was really looking forward to snuggling up on my future couch watching scary movies :( I'll just be going to work all night instead since I won't have anything else to do lol. I think I'll just celebrate Halloween all November when my apartment is all put together and THEN I can watch all the scary movies I want and put pumpkins everywhere. Also, I met a guy last week and we hungout all weekend and I am a little bummed now I'm leaving. Talk about bad timing. But luckily he has his shit together and loves to travel so he already told me he is down to fly out there and visit me. It's funny because I have been strictly into black guys for the past few years and all of a sudden I'm really attracted to this huge tatted up country white guy. Idk what happened haha. But anyway I really really REALLY hope this move ends up going smoothly and I'm happy out there.
SweetJulia
10-28-2015, 10:38 PM
@ above, fwiw, whenever I've had a major life even around a holiday, it turned out really well.
SweetJulia
10-28-2015, 10:43 PM
I've been getting hit on by the same, barely legal guys at the gas station for the last three days.
22lligm
10-29-2015, 08:14 AM
@ above, fwiw, whenever I've had a major life even around a holiday, it turned out really well.
Thank you that definitely makes me feel better
Glamourmilf
10-29-2015, 09:25 AM
Also, I met a guy last week and we hungout all weekend and I am a little bummed now I'm leaving. Talk about bad timing. But luckily he has his shit together and loves to travel so he already told me he is down to fly out there and visit me. It's funny because I have been strictly into black guys for the past few years and all of a sudden I'm really attracted to this huge tatted up country white guy. Idk what happened haha. But anyway I really really REALLY hope this move ends up going smoothly and I'm happy out there.[/QUOTE]
I feel it's the right move, and I'm sure You will be much happier in TX.
Loling about being into black guys, and then meeting the tatted up guy.
Same thing happened to me when I moved out of L.A. to the country.
Gotta love it.
Yeehaw!
lynn2009
10-30-2015, 05:28 PM
I love how it's Friday night and everyone is dressed up for the weekend Halloween and I just walked to the drug store alone in sweatpants to buy tampons.
SimoneGray
10-30-2015, 06:00 PM
I really don't want to do anything for Halloween. The holiday is kinda stupid. There. I said it.
Glamourmilf
10-30-2015, 06:20 PM
Just found out that the neighborhood kids come to my house trick or treating on Halloween.
Can't wait to answer the door in my sluttiest costume! :boobies: I'll be wearing it on cam all day anyway. Lol!
That should keep any nosy females away from me as long as I live here.:rotfl:
Lock up your husbands bitches!!!: Or i will fuck them!! smiley_ma
Selina M
10-30-2015, 09:10 PM
Um so... I wanted to see The Addams Family musical when it was at the big university theatre last year. And I found out yesterday it's now being done at a smaller theatre downtown. And then I went to buy tix, saw the cast, and my ex is in it. And I want to see it even more now.
I'm really not sure why. It's either a case of me being incredibly bored with everything else and like "Muahah let's stir up some shit, see if he still carries a torch", or it's a case of wanting him to see me all blonde & stripper makeup, badass new car, "fuck you my life is super awesome and you're still a loser".
DonaDiabla
10-31-2015, 06:18 AM
I will work a double shift this Halloween. I already have tons of chocolate for this Halloween :)
lynn2009
10-31-2015, 02:32 PM
watching the lame strip club scenes in himym is enough to make me really miss working at one
xStacey
10-31-2015, 07:22 PM
I miss work. I miss the attention, looking hot, wearing sexy lingerie and being showered with money. I don't dress up, put on make-up or do my hair much outside of work, if I did I know I'd get male attention but I don't see the point of putting on nice clothes, high heels and expensive make-up to impress civilians or classmates. I never thought I'd miss sex work this much.
buttonpop
11-01-2015, 05:13 PM
I confess that I think I am falling for the girl I met in my French class. You know when you're falling for someone and you literally see their face in a new way that is more beautiful than you saw it before? This is happening to me.
We kissed the other day and she slept in my bed and I barely slept the whole night just savoring the experience.
Things are pretty up in the air with what will continue to happen between us. I dont want to push her into something she's not ready for, and i'm willing to go slow, I just hope that she stays in my life in some capacity because i find her fascinating.
Meanwhile, I can't stop thinking about her. I haven't felt this way about someone in at least 2 years, since I fell for my last long term boyfriend. since then I've barely felt strongly about anyone (very unusual coming from a girl who could fall in love with a toothbrush) and I was starting to think I might never feel that way about someone again. guess not :)
baer45
11-01-2015, 06:55 PM
A friend of mine asked me to travel with her to India. I was like, hell no. There are Japan, China, South Korea, Singapore, hongkong, taiwan in Asia I would consider to visit. The other places are as dangerous as amazon to me. Just go watch movie "no escape" and "the art of killing" if you disagree with me.
whirlerz
11-01-2015, 06:59 PM
Never seen those, but off to you tube to check 'em out!