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kaninchen
12-07-2015, 01:58 PM
I really wish I had what it takes to be a cam girl. I love creeping on their threads; they seem so cool. Would love to have another income stream from home... But I've tried and I just can't do it.
:c
I joined a few of the cam girl goal threads because we don't seem to have anything similar in the dancer section. I love how their threads are sooo active and updated like every five minutes. I really want to try camming and I don't know what's stopping me!
lynn2009
12-07-2015, 04:34 PM
I don't think I've ever drunk alone at home before buuuutttt tonight is the night.
22lligm
12-07-2015, 04:58 PM
I joined a few of the cam girl goal threads because we don't seem to have anything similar in the dancer section. I love how their threads are sooo active and updated like every five minutes. I really want to try camming and I don't know what's stopping me!
I noticed their side of the forum is always way more active than our sections! But I assumed it's because they're all on the computer more than us so that makes sense. I think we need some more threads like theirs though I always feel so motivated after creeping their threads haha.
I really wish I had what it takes to be a cam girl. I love creeping on their threads; they seem so cool. Would love to have another income stream from home... But I've tried and I just can't do it.
:c
Me too that job seems so ideal for me because I love staying at home and not physically interacting with anyone lol. But I just couldnt do it either I'm too scared of having my stuff out there online. I was trying to think of ways to not have my face shown.. like is there a fetish for naked girls in halloween masks or something? lol but then I've seen some of the stuff girls do on there and I just don't think I could do it.
Vyanka
12-07-2015, 05:36 PM
I third that^. I don't have the balls and patience to build up clientele. Although patience pays off.
Elektra Luxx
12-07-2015, 08:48 PM
I really wish I had what it takes to be a cam girl. I love creeping on their threads; they seem so cool. Would love to have another income stream from home... But I've tried and I just can't do it.
:c
Me too, but I know I couldn't do it. I wonder how many subscribers it takes to make a living as a "Youtuber"?
Glamourmilf
12-08-2015, 11:07 AM
I confess that I've become somewhat of a scaredy-cat.
I just moved to a town that's overrun with gangs and crime. I was told by everyone who lives here to never go out at night. I hear gun shots from my house almost every night, so I believe them. Can't even run errands during the day, without being harrased.
Anyhoo, I was out of town over the weekend in a place I used to live. A small desert town, populated by retirees.
I was in a 99 cents store, and when this chick got in my face and smiled, said hi hru? I got pissed. I thought.."leave me alone, im just shopping, and minding my business." I saw her again in the parking lot taking in carts..she worked there, and was just being nice.
Then I went to the grocery store to bring back food to my hotel.
I got freaked out by this black guy outside the entrance, who approached me for money when I walked in..i noticed that he didnt say anything to the old dude that walked in ahead of me.
I got so paranoid, particularly because it was getting dark outside, that I had the deli guy walk me out to my car. He said, "That guy? He's here selling candy."
Shit! It was right then that I realized how pathetic, and overly guarded I've become.
I decided right then, and there to cut it out! If i keep thinking like this, LOA will bring to me what I fear most.
When I got back home, I stopped at Walgreens, and sure enough, out popped a begger from the shadows. Nope, not today. No fear. I just kept walking and he didn't even approach me.
I believe in a higher power. If that higher power deems it that I get robbed, or murdered, so be it. I've had a long, and wonderful life. Im not going to live in fear, anymore!
NatalieCentro
12-08-2015, 11:51 AM
I confess that I get really skeeved out when I see someone sitting on the kitchen counter.:smiley_sh:spit:
I mean, your ass is on a surface that food is prepared on, for christ sake! And it's not even your house! Get some manners!
I see this on every T.V. show, every movie, and lots of commercials I watch lately.
Get your dirty, stinky ass OFF that counter, you douchbag!
oh lol, second this one ^
I get twitchy with peeps putting grocery bags on the kitchen table... I know you set it down in the car, and possibly on the floor before opening the door to the house. God knows where it's been in the store. The kitchen table is sacred, get the dirty bag of food off it.
baer45
12-08-2015, 12:09 PM
I take so many pills daily : vitamin supplements & calcium, Fish oil, CoQ10... Sometimes I just feel like an old person.
xStacey
12-08-2015, 01:18 PM
I really let myself go during exams period, I allow myself to eat so much junk I normally never eat, general tao, chocolate for breakfast, gummy bears, Starbucks latte... and I don't exercise as often. I really have to make up for it during the winter break.
carmen_b
12-09-2015, 02:40 AM
I'm nearly caught myself saving this good looking freelancers website even though Ive already hired someone for the project he applied for. I felt like such an old prrvert, creeping his website. :/
I notice that I am LOVING the 1/4 inch-ish beards on men lately and he had one of those nice really clean looking beards.
NatalieCentro
12-09-2015, 04:58 AM
I confess that I've become somewhat of a scaredy-cat.
I just moved to a town that's overrun with gangs and crime. I was told by everyone who lives here to never go out at night. I hear gun shots from my house almost every night, so I believe them. Can't even run errands during the day, without being harrased.
Anyhoo, I was out of town over the weekend in a place I used to live. A small desert town, populated by retirees.
I was in a 99 cents store, and when this chick got in my face and smiled, said hi hru? I got pissed. I thought.."leave me alone, im just shopping, and minding my business." I saw her again in the parking lot taking in carts..she worked there, and was just being nice.
Then I went to the grocery store to bring back food to my hotel.
I got freaked out by this black guy outside the entrance, who approached me for money when I walked in..i noticed that he didnt say anything to the old dude that walked in ahead of me.
I got so paranoid, particularly because it was getting dark outside, that I had the deli guy walk me out to my car. He said, "That guy? He's here selling candy."
Shit! It was right then that I realized how pathetic, and overly guarded I've become.
I decided right then, and there to cut it out! If i keep thinking like this, LOA will bring to me what I fear most.
When I got back home, I stopped at Walgreens, and sure enough, out popped a begger from the shadows. Nope, not today. No fear. I just kept walking and he didn't even approach me.
I believe in a higher power. If that higher power deems it that I get robbed, or murdered, so be it. I've had a long, and wonderful life. Im not going to live in fear, anymore!
This is scary... why did you move there? If I were, you, I'd figure out a way to move asap.
Glamourmilf
12-09-2015, 10:28 AM
This is scary... why did you move there? If I were, you, I'd figure out a way to move asap.
I didnt know it was like this until I got here..The friend I'm subletting from didn't tell me.
I was in a horrible roommate situation, also.
I have already planned out where I want to move next.
Luckily, all of my furniture is still in storage.
I went to the supermarket yesterday, and got so scared, and depressed, that it put aside any doubt i had about whether to stay, or not.
I don't have a lease, so I can go as soon as I have the money saved.
kaninchen
12-09-2015, 01:41 PM
I totally want to get some sexy Santa-themed lingerie for work. OMG it's so dorky and dumb but I can't help it! I just know it'll make me laugh and put me in a cheerful mood.
carmen_b
12-09-2015, 02:02 PM
It may take some time !
I lightly stalked my first BF in this location via FB last night ( I'm sick so I have too much time on my hands and my computer in hand ) and it's been about 4.5 years ago. I met him when I first arrived. He didn't treat his wife well ( divorced a year before I met him ), didn't treat me well ( at the time he seemed to but really didn't offer fully what I want), and he's probably not treating his current gf well unless he's changed a lot. :/
Basically, I'm glad to be rid of him entirely ( my current partner is not just a step up but more like an entire ladder up !).
I'm sure you'll mentally come around to not caring too!
I have to stop talking to my ex and stalking his Instagram and Facebook. It's been three years and I still can't get over him. This has to stop because it's not going anywhere beside hurting myself. Even during the time we stopped talking, I still checked his Facebook and Instagram daily, which made it even harder to forget him. I know this is creepy but I am so obsessed with him and I still have feelings for him. This really has to stop. He doesn't treat me well and all he does is hurt me but I can't get over him :(
carmen_b
12-09-2015, 02:12 PM
^ No Contact is a huge key! You can take the power BACK by not responding to anything he does since he didn't offer what you want. It will allow you to fully focus on figuring out what you want and how to get it.
carmen_b
12-09-2015, 02:13 PM
My cheap ass rendition of this is three large bows and a Santa hat ! :)
I totally want to get some sexy Santa-themed lingerie for work. OMG it's so dorky and dumb but I can't help it! I just know it'll make me laugh and put me in a cheerful mood.
wednesday86
12-09-2015, 02:34 PM
I think most people are so boring. I wish I didn't...I'd probably have more friends.
Selina M
12-09-2015, 03:07 PM
I really let myself go during exams period, I allow myself to eat so much junk I normally never eat, general tao, chocolate for breakfast, gummy bears, Starbucks latte... and I don't exercise as often. I really have to make up for it during the winter break.
Girl, me too. I was starting to be disgusted at the amount of $$ I spent on Sbux & fast food... I think we had pizza/McDonalds/Chipotle every night bc I was studying and bf was working. No time to go to the store or cook actual meals!
I am the worst Christmas shopper ever. I went through a whole mall and found nothing for anyone. Probably cause I don't buy dumb bullshit for people. I think of specific things beforehand so I end up not impulse buying things and it kinda takes the fun out of it.
ScarletKitten
12-09-2015, 05:05 PM
I had the best sex of my entire LIFE last night with my bf. His brother spent the night and slept in the living room, which is right next to our bedroom. We could hear him snoring as my bf fucked me to oblivion. I closed my eyes and imagined fucking his brother, then I imagined fucking Justin Trudeau too. I imagined them all gang-banging me and it was so good, I never realized sex could feel so amazing. Holy. Fuck.
I'm such a dirty fucking whore.
Glamourmilf
12-09-2015, 05:14 PM
I had the best sex of my entire LIFE last night with my bf. His brother spent the night and slept in the living room, which is right next to our bedroom. We could hear him snoring as my bf fucked me to oblivion. I closed my eyes and imagined fucking his brother, then I imagined fucking Justin Trudeau too. I imagined them all gang-banging me and it was so good, I never realized sex could feel so amazing. Holy. Fuck.
I'm such a dirty fucking whore.
That's hot! I was totally in lust with my brother-in-law too.(my 2nd husband's brother). I knew he felt the same way about me, because of the way he would smile at me, and hug me.
Stupid possessive husband never let me out of his site though. Too bad, since my brother-in-law lived across the street, it would have been so easy.
My husband was a horrible lay, and wanted sex 3 times per day. I got through it by fantasizing about my brother-in-law.
Goood times. Lol!
xStacey
12-09-2015, 08:55 PM
That's hot! I was totally in lust with my brother-in-law too.(my 2nd husband's brother). I knew he felt the same way about me, because of the way he would smile at me, and hug me.
Stupid possessive husband never let me out of his site though. Too bad, since my brother-in-law lived across the street, it would have been so easy.
My husband was a horrible lay, and wanted sex 3 times per day. I got through it by fantasizing about my brother-in-law.
Goood times. Lol!
Lol the guy I'm seeing moved with his brother after living alone for over 10 years, I don't really understand but his brother is so hot. It's weird sleeping over and having to put on a tee-shirt to go to the bathroom in the middle of the night.The sex has never been really great between us. Sometimes I just want show up in his brother's room naked in the middle of the night while the guy I'm seeing is sleeping.
I feel so bad just thinking about it.
Glamourmilf
12-09-2015, 10:16 PM
Lol the guy I'm seeing moved with his brother after living alone for over 10 years, I don't really understand but his brother is so hot. It's weird sleeping over and having to put on a tee-shirt to go to the bathroom in the middle of the night.The sex has never been really great between us. Sometimes I just want show up in his brother's room naked in the middle of the night while the guy I'm seeing is sleeping.
I feel so bad just thinking about it.
There's something so gratifying about sneaky sex. Don't know if it's the forbidden part, but, ...count me in!
I remember when I was in my early 20's, I was dating this really rich kid from Bev Hills. He was so sweet, but a total drunk.
So, a complete fail in bed. One night when he was passed out in my bed, I was letting his best friend out of my apt. when....
We started making out, and went back inside my apt., and got it on in my kitchen. It was sooo hot! He had been flirting the entire night while we were all out, so I figured, since his friend couldn't satisfy me, why not?
He and I continued to date, but once the drunk bf found out, and broke up with me I stopped seeing him. It wasn't forbidden anymore, so I completely lost interest.
I guess that must be why camming is so fun...All those naughty men sneaking around and getting off while paying me to strip, and satisfy their carnal desires.
43545
SimoneGray
12-09-2015, 10:21 PM
LOL I used to get through sex with my ex BF by imagining he was someone else too. I also hate how attraction works...its like one always seems to fall for the brother or the best friend and its so fucked how that works.
Elektra Luxx
12-09-2015, 11:00 PM
Just like every year, I never know what to get my mom and dad for Christmas. TBH, I really don't like the holidays. I really like Thanksgiving because of the yummy food and yes the family too, but the then Christmas races at you. The overt message of the season is "Peace on Earth, Goodwill to all blah blah blah"!!! But the covert message is "So how much are you going to spend on gifts this year? You have to decorate your home, you have to send Christmas cards, you have to attend the company Christmas party alone again, you have to answer stupid questions about your relationship status again, you have to put up with clumsy, awkward, transparent come on's by drunk ass junior partners you don't really like. To me it's just very stressful.
Elektra Luxx
12-09-2015, 11:19 PM
I thought I was at the point where I can recognized when I guy is trying to blow sunshine up my ass, but sadly this is not the case. Newsflash -brainy, geeks can be users too.
lol1337a
12-10-2015, 03:02 AM
I'm dealing with mental illness. It made me think I would be fired for literally no reason tonight. Yay pre and post panic attack thoughts!
QueenBitch
12-10-2015, 12:10 PM
I hate my boyfriend's dog with a passion. this is the first animal I've ever truly hated and I feel bad for even thinking it because I hardly ever dislike an animal. I have cats and they're my babies. I've had pets my entire life, cats, dogs, horses, reptiles,... but THIS FUCKING DOG I SWEAR TO FUCKING GOD.
ok so this dog's first owner took him to the shelter because he bit a small child in the face. there were at least 2 other owners before my bf got him and the dog was abused, which was very obvious because he'd flinch as soon as you lift your hand. but he was sweet and just seemed like he had to adjust.
ya, no. the dog is hopeless. if it was my dog I would've had him euthanized as soon as I found out he bit a child. I've never euthanized a pet before and I never even thought of it, my pet or someone else's. but this dog can't be fixed. he's bitten my bf multiple times but they were shallow wounds so he doesn't see how serious the problem is. his judgment is terribly clouded. you can't take the dog anywhere because it wants to kill every other dog it sees. this is not abnormal, many dogs do it because their owners suck and they haven't socialized them with other pets. I trained an american stafford that was actually my ex's but he didn't spend time with the dog. that breed has such a bad rep for being aggressive in general, but he NEVER even snapped at anyone, even when my ex would beat him (yeah he was a great human being *puking*). he lunged at other dogs but quickly improved and it wasn't that bad, I could still handle him.
now this fucking dog, man, this fucking dog goes insane when he sees another dog. I can barely hold him back. he will bite if you get in his way. last time I walked him (I avoid it at all costs - we don't live together so yeah) the fucker zigzagged between my legs so I'd fall and he could maul the dog across the street. I nearly tripped three times.
when he sees a child, he gets all weird. he carries himself completely different and acts really scary. I can't put my finger on what it is he's doing that's so frightening, it's just like the entire atmosphere changes, like suddenly this is another dog.
when he's told off he pees in the house while staring at my bf. he will NOT stop until everything is covered in piss, even when he JUST went outside. I swear he holds some of it in case he feels like protesting. then when he's done he braces himself and gets in position to bite. so then he bites or tries to. he's actually instigating the whole thing.
my boyfriend now has medical issues because of the daily stress this asshole causes. every time the dog fucks up (every day) he swears he's going to get rid of him, but then he calms down and says he'd feel too guilty.
this has been going on for MONTHS. like... 8 or 9 months or something. the dog only gets worse. I told my bf to have him evaluated by a dog trainer and see what he says. in my opinion there is no hope. I don't see this dog ever getting better. he's 2 years and 6 months old. I just fucking hope that he takes it to a trainer/therapist and they confirm my suspicions because this dog is a serious hazard to everyone. I told my bf, "are you going to wait until he seriously injures someone or someone's pet again? do you really want to have that on your conscience? what if he attacks another child and it's disfigured for the rest of its life? can you live with that?".
the bf took him to the vet and he has no medical condition that causes this aggressive behavior.
I probably sound like a terrible person but in my opinion, a dog that bites a child should be put down. of course you can never leave a dog alone with a young kid and they can certainly provoke it, but judging from everything I've seen this dog do, especially when there's children around, I'm 99% sure this wasn't the case.
I swear this is the dog from hell. if you think American Staffords are difficult dogs, you're more than welcome to meet my bf's dog. warning: you probably won't ever want to own a dog yourself.
baer45
12-10-2015, 01:27 PM
Time to call Cesar Millan!
QueenBitch
12-10-2015, 03:50 PM
I so hope he will see a dog therapist soon. I find him incredibly dangerous and want someone to assess him before he bites again. I'm not gonna nag my boyfriend to get rid of the dog because he will resent me for it, but SOMETHING has to be done about it. I wish it would just disappear or something lol
lynn2009
12-10-2015, 07:45 PM
I really need to get work done but of course my brain is like...no, you should lay in bed obsessing over old gchats and text messages and remembering days when you pretend there was a shot at happiness in there somewhere.
SimoneGray
12-10-2015, 10:34 PM
I just wanna stay in bed and watch Nashville and not work. Meh.
Gia2608
12-10-2015, 10:59 PM
I have been binge watching the L word for 4 days now. I also, really need to work!
absolutelyadorable
12-11-2015, 07:50 AM
Must be something in the water.......for the past 2 weeks I've been a lazy blob. Kinda glad to see I'm not the only one playing hooky from work though!
Glamourmilf
12-11-2015, 02:33 PM
I think most people are so boring.
I agree. Plus, most, if not all of the people I know over 40, only talk about the negative things happening in their lives. Over 50, 60, and up...they talk about health problems, recent surgeries, medications they are on, etc.:wheelchai
I can count on 1 hand those that don't.
I LOVE being around youth, because they are usually so uplifting. Like, life hasn't beaten them down yet, or something.:hyper:
QueenBitch
12-11-2015, 02:37 PM
I agree. Plus, most, if not all of the people I know over 40, only talk about the negative things happening in their lives. Over 50, 60, and up...they talk about health problems, recent surgeries, medications they are on, etc.:wheelchai
I can count on 1 hand those that don't.
I LOVE being around youth, because they are usually so uplifting. Like, life hasn't beaten them down yet, or something.:hyper:
I hang out with a lot of younger people too, most people my age are getting married and having kids and I just can't relate.
Glamourmilf
12-11-2015, 02:53 PM
I hang out with a lot of younger people too, most people my age are getting married and having kids and I just can't relate.
Oh, yeah, that too. I don't have kids, and those people annoy me too.lol!
kaninchen
12-11-2015, 03:35 PM
How those pictures of Daniel Holtzclaw crying make me feel:
https://media.giphy.com/media/Ic97mPViHEG5O/giphy.gif
It just makes me really happy to see at least a little justice being served.
wednesday86
12-11-2015, 05:05 PM
I rock back and forth when I'm sleepy/really focused on something. I didn't realize it was weird until my husband pointed it out.
Is this normal?!
Glamourmilf
12-11-2015, 06:44 PM
I rock back and forth when I'm sleepy/really focused on something. I didn't realize it was weird until my husband pointed it out.
Is this normal?!
I do this too, so it's super normal. Lol!
When Im really overwhelmed, yet have tasks to do, I also count each movement I make...It helps me stay focused, when all I really want to do is stop and lay down.
Do u do this too?
Aurora_Sunset
12-12-2015, 08:36 AM
^^ I also do that when I'm focusing on something intently. It's not like a full-on rocking, but I catch myself moving subtly. I've never had anyone else comment on it though.
wednesday86
12-12-2015, 08:57 AM
I do this too, so it's super normal. Lol!
When Im really overwhelmed, yet have tasks to do, I also count each movement I make...It helps me stay focused, when all I really want to do is stop and lay down.
Do u do this too?
No I don't count them..I usually don't even realize I'm doing it. I read somewhere that people who have or-are prone to-mental disorders do this more. I suffered from pretty bad anxiety and depression in the past so maybe that has something to do with it. Glad to know i'm not the only one!
Glamourmilf
12-12-2015, 11:15 AM
No I don't count them..I usually don't even realize I'm doing it. I read somewhere that people who have or-are prone to-mental disorders do this more. I suffered from pretty bad anxiety and depression in the past so maybe that has something to do with it. Glad to know i'm not the only one!
Yeah, I can believe it. I have social anxiety, so what You said makes sense.
Cashmere Star
12-13-2015, 02:12 PM
I am printing out a book to send to some guy. I am a little scared that it'll look like shit. lol what am I doing with my life
SimoneGray
12-13-2015, 04:31 PM
I made the mistake of looking at Facebook again. I feel like a failure. I feel so much like I was "going somewhere" in and just after college and now I feel like I'm wasting my talents due to chronic burnout and just doing nothing while everyone around me is succeeding.
Glamourmilf
12-13-2015, 07:45 PM
I confess that I really dont know where I belong. I mean, where I would feel the most comfortable living.
It should be easier now that I work online, and could live anywhere, but it's not. I feel so lost.
Anyone else ever gone through this?
Glamourmilf
12-13-2015, 11:01 PM
Yea.^
I confess that even though initially I was pissed off about leaving, I'm glad to be gtfo here tomorrow. Fuck this pl & its mgr
Yeah, I read ur post. I hope we both find peace with our living situation.:crossfing
Im out here today in the town I was CERTAIN I wanted to move back to. But Im just not feeling it.:-\
Aurora14
12-14-2015, 01:15 AM
I've been having a really bad rough patch with my husband. Like the worst we have ever had in the 7 years we have been together. So, I started dating one of my customers. I told my husband and he started to get his act together, but it may be too late. He accepted whats going on and lets me have one day a week to be with the other guy as long as I keep the 'lives' separate and come home and handle family life. I know things between the other guy and I are a kind of fantasy because I won't let him be fully involved with me. Since my husband and I are trying to work things out he can't come to my place and I won't let him meet my kids. He knows my family life will take first place and doesn't expect it to change. I know I shouldn't be having an affair, but I honestly think I would have packed up the kids and left him if I didn't do it.
I'm really enjoying him though. He is 15 years older than me, but suuuuuper hot. I'm having the kind of sex that I haven't had in years. We have been cooking for each other and binge watching Arrested Development. I've actually been happy and not miserable, even when I'm at home. He understands the situation and isn't expecting anything serious to result, but wouldn't object if it did happen. He wants to have fun and companionship. I really hope I don't get too attached to him.
Cashmere Star
12-14-2015, 03:14 AM
$1000 racked up on my credit card. Jesus I spend a lot...
xStacey
12-14-2015, 06:10 AM
Life is hard at times... :/
wednesday86
12-14-2015, 09:07 AM
I think I'm gonna give camming another shot...At this point I'd rather stick things in my butt for less $ than walk back into the club.