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Glamourmilf
02-08-2016, 11:03 PM
My moon is in Capricorn. Trade ya!
Don't you mean: caprihorny? My best and strongest lovers were Capricorns. Yummy, delicious!
AlenaRoza
02-09-2016, 07:18 AM
I finally got around to going through gift cards from christmas, and sitting here calling the 800 numbers on the back to check how much money is on them, and I confess I'm getting angry about the amounts! lol. I feel really bad about it. I think I'm just in a terrible mood because I've been sick seriously every week since the new year. Right now my eye is swollen, it looks like I got punched, and this sinus infection won't go away. I kept getting up in the middle of the night to my annoying cat and when I went pee my bladder hurt a little. So sick and tired of being sick and tired. I'm so drained
miss.a.p1600
02-09-2016, 07:40 AM
I took a probiotic pill and a couple hours later, I had a bowel movement at least 7in long and 2in diameter. I can't believe something that large came out of me. But I'm glad my body cleaned itself out.
On a less TMI note I only have two pics on my online profile and this one guy who has been messaging me suggested I add more pics which I kinda think I really need to add more. I'm just frustrated because all of my good pics are from early 2000s when I was in a happier and more social period of life.
Made me realize I have not dressed up, gotten cute, and allowed myself to be photographed in a long time. The only pics I've had recently is of my annoying family members taking unauthorized paparazzi style pics where I'm looking like a frumpy soccer mom. Grrrrrrrr!!!!
I'm so tempted to post some classic pics because I look very much the same as I did a few years ago. Idk.
whirlerz
02-09-2016, 07:55 AM
All you gotta do, Ms P, is drink a little coffee, & eat a fresh grapefruit..this will clean you out, & keep you clean for @ least a day or so..I eat grapefruit @ least 3X's a wk..
& Yea, post some pics:)
I should post some too, not sure how they will come out w/the wifi & cam but we'll see. :)
absolutelyadorable
02-09-2016, 11:56 AM
Which probiotic did you take?
Aurora_Sunset
02-09-2016, 03:30 PM
Up until this week, I had no idea that pipe cleaners were called such because they are literally for cleaning tobacco pipes... I thought it was because they were shaped like pipes and you could bend them the way that pipes bend and zig zag inside plumbing...
ScarletKitten
02-09-2016, 03:58 PM
All I wanna do is get high by the beach...
...and drink margaritas, sing, play music, and run around naked while listening to the ocean waves and seagulls. Fuck this place, I miss warm weather and the beach. I'm not staying here long term. I guess the U.S. owns my soul after all, because I can't live in the North anymore. I got lost, you see. I was trying to run away from my life....but now I'm dreaming of being with my friend from way back.....I just want to be in a jazz band.....I know I sound manic right now. It's because I am. I just want to do crazy insane shit right now. I want to go back to San Antonio and marry my jazz friend and live happily ever after. *sigh*
BarbieNYC
02-09-2016, 09:09 PM
I've decided I'm going to go through with cutting my mom off.
I love her so much and she has sacrificed so much for me but I can't take it anymore. Her negativity is like a cancer and she is so bitter and angry about so much I don't want that in my life anymore.
She started crying in the middle of the restaurant playing the victim role like she does best. I never yelled at her was never rude the whole dinner, all I said was "I just want to see you once a week without having to hear about anything negative from the past" which started a tirade of her listing all the "horrible things" my father did to her and how I am brainwashed by him yadayada and how I'm a horrible child
I've tried so hard to put up with it but I can't take it anymore. I calmly told her she needs to see a therapist and as her child I am not her therapist. She then proceeded to tell me how She doesn't need therapy.
It hurts me so bad and I feel liklike a horrible child but I cannot live the rest of my life stomaching her poison or else I am going to end up lonely and miserable just like her.
Also she told me I am never going to drive my car again so now I am left carless in Los Angeles -_- but honestly I'm ready to give it up because I'm tired of her holding things over my head.
I told her unless she sees a therapist I am cutting off contact I can't do this anymore
miss.a.p1600
02-09-2016, 10:28 PM
^^^I can totally relate.....I hate to come off disrespectful to my family but I try to avoid them because they act annoying and crazy most of the time.
Why is it the people who need therapy the most are the main ones adamantly against therapy? So odd.
Which probiotic did you take?
I took rephresh pro B for vaginal health .... i guess it could work for anal health too lol
BadBitch
02-10-2016, 03:10 AM
I've decided I'm going to go through with cutting my mom off.
I love her so much and she has sacrificed so much for me but I can't take it anymore. Her negativity is like a cancer and she is so bitter and angry about so much I don't want that in my life anymore.
She started crying in the middle of the restaurant playing the victim role like she does best. I never yelled at her was never rude the whole dinner, all I said was "I just want to see you once a week without having to hear about anything negative from the past" which started a tirade of her listing all the "horrible things" my father did to her and how I am brainwashed by him yadayada and how I'm a horrible child
I've tried so hard to put up with it but I can't take it anymore. I calmly told her she needs to see a therapist and as her child I am not her therapist. She then proceeded to tell me how She doesn't need therapy.
It hurts me so bad and I feel liklike a horrible child but I cannot live the rest of my life stomaching her poison or else I am going to end up lonely and miserable just like her.
Also she told me I am never going to drive my car again so now I am left carless in Los Angeles -_- but honestly I'm ready to give it up because I'm tired of her holding things over my head.
I told her unless she sees a therapist I am cutting off contact I can't do this anymore
I cut mine off a couple of months ago. Mine is a very evil woman. She's a narcissist and extremely toxic. You have to look out for you. It's tough to cut them out, but you're making the right decision by removing the negativity from your life. Hugs.
wednesday86
02-10-2016, 10:23 AM
Currently I'm very happy in my marriage and honestly it's the best it's ever been....but I still think Valentine's Day is fucking stupid and have no interest in celebrating it. I asked him to wait until the day after to get me anything because it would drive me crazy knowing that all the candy and stuff will be half off come Monday. I don't care about flowers or any of that other shit..I just want hershey kisses and turtles on clearance.
Elektra Luxx
02-10-2016, 12:32 PM
This guy in class has been giving me looks and I've been ignoring him. Yesterday after class, he asked me for my number.
I wanted to say "You don't know what your asking! Run away now while you still can! I'm relationship poison!!!"
He then said "I'm trying to get some people together for the group project."
And I'm like "Oh.....okay."
But what I'm thinking is "Really, is that all? You don't want to ask me out? What's wrong with me? You don't know me Jerkass!"
baer45
02-10-2016, 12:40 PM
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ScarletKitten
02-10-2016, 12:43 PM
Also she told me I am never going to drive my car again so now I am left carless in Los Angeles -_- but honestly I'm ready to give it up because I'm tired of her holding things over my head.
Wait....did she buy you that car? Or is that YOUR car that you paid for? She has NO right to do that. That is so fucked up of her to keep your car from you in order to control and manipulate you! That is just like my mother! There has to be some legal action you can take to get it back. I'm glad you're cutting her out of your life. You deserve only the best people in your life. I don't talk to my mom anymore either. So, you're not the only one. *hugs*
BarbieNYC
02-10-2016, 04:52 PM
^^ I bought the car myself but Stupidly trusted her and put it under her name to keep the insurance low (I bought it when I was 19). I then moved to New York and kept it in her garage and I've only been allowed to drive it a handful of times when I come visit. It's fine she can keep it it's more hassle than it's worth and honestly it's been so poorly maintained since I've been gone I don't even feel like taking it on anymore.
Thanks for all the support everyone. It helps to see others who have made that difficult decision. I think it's interesting to see how many of us have issues with our mothers when most people assume sex workers have daddy issues.
On to confessions
I am going to have to sneak working on the weekends while living at home. Never in a million years did I think I'd ever be in this situation but now that I don't have a car and school is starting I guess I'm gonna have to start all over. It's okay luckily my dad and stepmom are not nosy and let me do my own thing
SweetJulia
02-10-2016, 05:23 PM
Barbie who has the title? Cuz I'd transfer it into my name before cutting her off if I were you. YOU paid for it, how many grabby creeps did it take to pay for it? Don't let all that go to waste.
Aurora_Sunset
02-10-2016, 05:26 PM
There is always trash of some sort sitting in my apartment. Every day I have to at least throw out a newspaper and bag of dirty cat litter. I probably fill up my trash can every 3 days. Plus boxes from delivery/takeout that don't fit in the trash, show up about once a week. But I do not take out the trash every day, or even every other day. The dumpster is so damn far from me, I just don't want to. So the newspapers pile up, I end up putting the bag of cat litter either out on my balcony or sitting behind my TV (cuz I'm classy like that - no visible cat poop here!), boxes by the trash can, and the trash can on the verge of overflowing. When I finally bring myself to take out a load, I can't even carry it all, so the second load sits there until maybe the next day when more trash has piled on top of it.
I'm really disgusting.
Glamourmilf
02-10-2016, 07:59 PM
There is always trash of some sort sitting in my apartment. Every day I have to at least throw out a newspaper and bag of dirty cat litter. I probably fill up my trash can every 3 days. Plus boxes from delivery/takeout that don't fit in the trash, show up about once a week. But I do not take out the trash every day, or even every other day. The dumpster is so damn far from me, I just don't want to. So the newspapers pile up, I end up putting the bag of cat litter either out on my balcony or sitting behind my TV (cuz I'm classy like that - no visible cat poop here!), boxes by the trash can, and the trash can on the verge of overflowing. When I finally bring myself to take out a load, I can't even carry it all, so the second load sits there until maybe the next day when more trash has piled on top of it.
I'm really disgusting.
When I started reading your post, I thought You meant 'trash', like trashy people are always hanging around your apt. lol!
I was going to commiserate with you, because trashy criminals that have just been released from prison are what I have to deal with around my place. Good Times!
Gia2608
02-10-2016, 08:28 PM
Thanks for all the support everyone. It helps to see others who have made that difficult decision. I think it's interesting to see how many of us have issues with our mothers when most people assume sex workers have daddy issues.
On to confessions
Oh-M-G! I have said this at work before. When a custie thinks he sooo damn clever with his "that's not your real name"/ "you must have kids"/ doesn't believe I have an education bullshit. "You know, you are wrong. All strippers are not druggie, single Moms with Daddy issues. Some of us have Mommy issues!"
Confession today- One of my "real world" friends apparently met a girl I used to dance with and they somehow realized they both knew me. I am so worried that the girl will tell him some crazy shit. She is a druggie and the last time I saw her we had a bad falling out. I really don't want people that I know in my professional world knowing I used to dance ( I don't give a shit who else knows but not people from my vanilla business). So worried!
BadBitch
02-10-2016, 10:16 PM
^^ I bought the car myself but Stupidly trusted her and put it under her name to keep the insurance low (I bought it when I was 19). I then moved to New York and kept it in her garage and I've only been allowed to drive it a handful of times when I come visit. It's fine she can keep it it's more hassle than it's worth and honestly it's been so poorly maintained since I've been gone I don't even feel like taking it on anymore.
Thanks for all the support everyone. It helps to see others who have made that difficult decision. I think it's interesting to see how many of us have issues with our mothers when most people assume sex workers have daddy issues.
On to confessions
I am going to have to sneak working on the weekends while living at home. Never in a million years did I think I'd ever be in this situation but now that I don't have a car and school is starting I guess I'm gonna have to start all over. It's okay luckily my dad and stepmom are not nosy and let me do my own thing
It's her way of continuing to have a hold over you. It's a classic narcissistic move. Try and build yourself up to where you can just walk away from her and not feel guilty.
Genoveve
02-10-2016, 10:40 PM
Yeah tbh BarbieNYC IMO it doesn't matter if the car is top-of-the-line or a junker, if it's yours and she won't let you have it she's a car thief. A family member that deliberately abuses my property is not real family.
whirlerz
02-11-2016, 02:25 PM
I have. friend, shes in a bad sitch, w someone & Im worried af..
She's not in my area @ all, Im so concerned, haven't heard from her & dont know what to do :(
Selina M
02-11-2016, 07:22 PM
I go between all zen and "give it to the universe", and completely obsessing/analyzing/crying.
I feel like I'm going crazy.
I am also about to eat chocolate cake and a margarita for dinner. Because fuck you, my heart is broken.
MistressX
02-11-2016, 07:42 PM
I miss listening to The Chameleons on cam. But since it's my ex bf's band, its kind of hard to hear his voice. Even after 4 years
stormi
02-11-2016, 07:43 PM
I just paid rent a week ago and now I'm too broke to go out of state to a family's funeral. I'm going to be turning tricks while my family is grieving. I wish I knew they were going to pass away when they did.
charlie61
02-11-2016, 08:54 PM
I go between all zen and "give it to the universe", and completely obsessing/analyzing/crying.
I feel like I'm going crazy.
I am also about to eat chocolate cake and a margarita for dinner. Because fuck you, my heart is broken.
Right there with you, girl. Just got the letter that I didn't get into grad school despite having a 4.0 and glowing letters of recommendation. This new year can go fuck itself.
BadBitch
02-11-2016, 09:04 PM
I go between all zen and "give it to the universe", and completely obsessing/analyzing/crying.
I feel like I'm going crazy.
I am also about to eat chocolate cake and a margarita for dinner. Because fuck you, my heart is broken.
I'm right there with you. Hugs.
miss.a.p1600
02-11-2016, 10:56 PM
This guy in class has been giving me looks and I've been ignoring him. Yesterday after class, he asked me for my number.
I wanted to say "You don't know what your asking! Run away now while you still can! I'm relationship poison!!!"
He then said "I'm trying to get some people together for the group project."
And I'm like "Oh.....okay."
But what I'm thinking is "Really, is that all? You don't want to ask me out? What's wrong with me? You don't know me Jerkass!"
Lol! I know the feeling.
I had a mega crush on a former manger. I know - not a good idea however I secretly hoped he'd make a move. Then one day he called me in the office and was like "I have your number right?". My heart started jumping, I got excited, and my hand was shaking as I was writing my number for him. Then this fool was like "yeah I'm trying to get some girls to come in for the Monday (read dead as fuck aka no money) shift. I wanted to snatch my number back and be like "sorry something suddenly came up!". My insta-lust fizzled out shortly after that.
Aurora_Sunset
02-12-2016, 12:21 AM
Right there with you, girl. Just got the letter that I didn't get into grad school despite having a 4.0 and glowing letters of recommendation. This new year can go fuck itself.
I'm sorry, charlie. When you were talking about it, I never had a doubt that you'd get into grad school cuz you seem so smart and organized. I'm sure you'll go on to do great things and get in where you need to get in, in the near future. Sorry this didn't pan out the way you wanted right now. *hugs*
Glamourmilf
02-12-2016, 09:32 AM
My friend's sugar daddy passed away recently. They were together for 35 years.
He left her...zip..nothing, nada.
She's calling me and is suicidal.
I confess that im enjoying her pain.
I've been friends with her for 30 yrs., and when i lost my corporate job, and didn't know where my next meal was coming from, she wouldn't loan me any money.
Matter of fact, she dropped me like a hot potato because she said i couldn't keep up with our extravagant lifestyle anymore.
Karma is a bitch.:)
whirlerz
02-12-2016, 10:14 AM
Wow, cautionary tale..
OMG, this dude last nite, lol, where do I start
wednesday86
02-12-2016, 10:27 AM
So after a lot of soul searching and conversations with my husband, I decided to stop doing any kind of 'sex work' (no camming, stripping or clips) and just stick with ebay, etsy finish my books, etc.
Then I get on ebay and see some girls selling sexy pictures of themselves and their feet, their used shoes and socks for foot fetishists and I'm like "hmmmm....!" haha
I'm so tempted but also don't want to deal with talking to perverts...so...I don't know....
miss.a.p1600
02-12-2016, 10:37 AM
^^^^sweet! 2016 - new year, new chapter.
My confession is I saw this kind of hot and fuckable dude in target with his girlfriend and secretly wished it was me. Well.....maybe not, cause he was walking in front of her and I think he had a wondering eye. I like my dudes to walk 3 paces behind me or right beside me.
baer45
02-12-2016, 11:23 AM
Right there with you, girl. Just got the letter that I didn't get into grad school despite having a 4.0 and glowing letters of recommendation. This new year can go fuck itself.
Wa~~~t? Sorry, that sucks so much. What school is that? Harvard?
baer45
02-12-2016, 11:30 AM
I am having a hollywood golden age episode lately. Been playing movies from 30-60th for the past two days, non-stop. People talk so fast before, do you think they are smarter? I believe I read it somewhere, at same age, people in the past are smarter. We are all dumbasses.
Watching "funny face" right now. :)
MyRealNameIsWeird
02-12-2016, 02:12 PM
I feel a bit confused about the anti-guy vibe a lot of other girls my age give. I know they have their valid reasons and everyone is different, and I understand how frustrating some friends/custies/bfs/relatives/creeps get, but it's so prevalent it freaks me out. My entire life men have by far been the nicer, more generous, more helpful and gentler of the sexes towards me. However much I hate individual males and some men's actions, I can't help but love men for what they are, just as I love women for what we are. But most of the time I feel very alone in that love.
charlie61
02-12-2016, 03:58 PM
Wa~~~t? Sorry, that sucks so much. What school is that? Harvard?
Dude. It's a fucking state school. Nothing special. I have no idea what happened. I sent them an email asking me how I can "improve my candidacy," so hopefully they'll clue me in. Like, did I just totally fuck up the personal statement? I spent weeks writing it - something I normally would've procrastinated until the last second.
I'm still in a state of complete shock.
miss.a.p1600
02-12-2016, 04:34 PM
Right there with you, girl. Just got the letter that I didn't get into grad school despite having a 4.0 and glowing letters of recommendation. This new year can go fuck itself.
How many did you apply to? Sadly Grad school is harder to get into than undergrad so best to apply to as many as possible. And even more sad is money talks. Say goodbye to scholarships and grants - Most grad students are paying out of pocket, getting loans, or working off their debt by assisting with research and whatnot. But I'm sure you know this so get your pocketbook (or your significant others wallet lol) ready.
Also grad school is no guarantee of any job or successful career. So depending on your career field you could totally get out on your own, network, and create a career as good or better if you didn't have the grad degree.
But it sounds important to you, so keep going and I hope it works out how you want.
charlie61
02-12-2016, 05:09 PM
So, I got my answer.
It turns out that the average accepted applicant's experience in the field is 2.5 YEARS of full-time work. This is for a two-year Master's program, not a PhD.
What the fuck? So, to get into this state school, I have to work full-time for 2+ years in the field that I want to study? Where the fuck is the logic in that?! I did a one-year, part-time internship and thought I was going above and beyond (not to mention my 4.0 and awesome letters of rec).
I'm so fucking done right now.
baer45
02-12-2016, 06:04 PM
So, I got my answer.
It turns out that the average accepted applicant's experience in the field is 2.5 YEARS of full-time work. This is for a two-year Master's program, not a PhD.
What the fuck? So, to get into this state school, I have to work full-time for 2+ years in the field that I want to study? Where the fuck is the logic in that?! I did a one-year, part-time internship and thought I was going above and beyond (not to mention my 4.0 and awesome letters of rec).
I'm so fucking done right now.
Wow, that does sound odd. Does your studying area require any kind of specialty? In some rare cases I can see the logic. In those cases, the company pays the grad-school expenses. after all, no one will quit the job after 2.5 years just for school in this economy.
No matter what, this is going to mess up your plan for sure. Sorry, let us know if you need to pick up our brains for anything.
charlie61
02-12-2016, 06:09 PM
Wow, that does sound odd. Does your studying area require any kind of specialty? In some rare cases I can see the logic. In those cases, the company pays the grad-school expenses. after all, no one will quit the job after 2.5 years just for school in this economy.
No matter what, this is going to mess up your plan for sure. Sorry, let us know if you need to pick up our brains for anything.
Good thought, but no, this is one of the most versatile degrees out there. Competition for school is exceedingly high right now, since the education system isn't expanding quickly enough. It's the same issue with the job market - employers can be as picky as they want to be and will still have 20+ overqualified candidates vying for a single position. I understand it from both the school's position and from mine, but it fucking sucks.
Thank you so much for the support, you guys. I'll end my own threadjack here! :grouphug:
BadBitch
02-12-2016, 07:15 PM
Today's confession: During a private, I watch t.v. as I'm fucking myself. The closed-caption is on and I read what's going on while moaning.
Glamourmilf
02-12-2016, 08:52 PM
Today's confession: During a private, I watch t.v. as I'm fucking myself. The closed-caption is on and I read what's going on while moaning.
Lol! I do that too!! I keep my tv behind the cam, so they never know. I confess watching jewelry television (home shopping), makes me wet. Ha! Ha!
whirlerz
02-12-2016, 08:57 PM
Lol^! Multi taskers!
Me:
Well, I'm letting Mr 'maybe' sd wait a few b/4 I answer his text
Also, in all seriousness, I am quite worried about a friend that's w/a shitty partner..haven't heard from her in several days, I mssg'd someone on social media.
Trying to stay positive on it.
Glamourmilf
02-12-2016, 09:12 PM
Lol^! Multi taskers!
Me:
Well, I'm letting Mr 'maybe' sd wait a few b/4 I answer his text
Also, in all seriousness, I am quite worried about a friend that's w/a shitty partner..haven't heard from her in several days, I mssg'd someone on social media.
Trying to stay positive on it.
Wow, still no word from her? Hope she's o.k. #Prayers
BadBitch
02-12-2016, 09:28 PM
Lol! I do that too!! I keep my tv behind the cam, so they never know. I confess watching jewelry television (home shopping), makes me wet. Ha! Ha!
Yep. My tv is behind the cam. I was watching the news tonight as I was fucking myself moaning, "Oh yes, Eddie. Harder. Faster". Hahaha!!!
BadBitch
02-12-2016, 09:29 PM
Lol^! Multi taskers!
Me:
Well, I'm letting Mr 'maybe' sd wait a few b/4 I answer his text
Also, in all seriousness, I am quite worried about a friend that's w/a shitty partner..haven't heard from her in several days, I mssg'd someone on social media.
Trying to stay positive on it.
Wow. Keep us posted!!
Glamourmilf
02-12-2016, 09:57 PM
Yep. My tv is behind the cam. I was watching the news tonight as I was fucking myself moaning, "Oh yes, Eddie. Harder. Faster". Hahaha!!!
Too funny! I've been watching something and accidentally say the name i hear on the tv. Woops!
My clients think it hilarious, because they think i just see lots of custies on cam, and that i just get confused.
Although, that happens more times than i care to mention too.
whirlerz
02-12-2016, 10:19 PM
Wow. Keep us posted!!
Ok, thanks, & please, positive thoughts & prayers.
miss.a.p1600
02-12-2016, 10:34 PM
Today's confession: During a private, I watch t.v. as I'm fucking myself. The closed-caption is on and I read what's going on while moaning.
Lol! What the ..... ?!? That's some serious multitasking right there.
I confess. This guy I used to date over a decade ago has been hitting me up recently. I feel odd about it. He was the first wealthy and kind of famous guy I dated. I loved the attention and quality of life I got when I was with him. But it came with a price. He was a womanizer and didn't give me the relationship I wanted and it made it hard for me to know what a healthy relationship should be.
Well he end up getting in trouble with the law and I didn't hear from him for a long time. He reappeared years later all reformed and shit. And he apologized for not treating me how a woman should be treated.
I don't know if he thinks we can pick up where we left off but if he didn't appreciate me then I can't give second chances like that. Plus I don't think he has anywhere near the finances of what he used to.
I thought about just having him as a pen pal but I don't know if I can do that - for free.
*sigh*