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ScarletKitten
02-13-2016, 10:29 AM
I quit my vanilla job. I'm so horrible. I just couldn't. I feel like such a loser, but I'm trying to not beat myself up. :(
Thankfully, I have 2 other possible ways to make money that I'm looking into right now.
Glamourmilf
02-13-2016, 10:48 AM
I quit my vanilla job. I'm so horrible. I just couldn't. I feel like such a loser, but I'm trying to not beat myself up. :(
Thankfully, I have 2 other possible ways to make money that I'm looking into right now.
I was kinda waiting for that after reading your posts. (Esp. The one about hating getting up early), which i can relate to.
Best of luck in your new adventures. I hope you will be much happier.:-*
MyRealNameIsWeird
02-13-2016, 01:35 PM
Today's confession: During a private, I watch t.v. as I'm fucking myself. The closed-caption is on and I read what's going on while moaning.
Lol! I do that too!! I keep my tv behind the cam, so they never know. I confess watching jewelry television (home shopping), makes me wet. Ha! Ha! Mine: my personal laptop is behind me on the bed and I play youtube and netflix stuff while I wait for a show. Couldn't do it while in a show, mind. I have attention span issues anyway, I've zoned out to my free chat feed and to posters on the wall whilst chatting in private before. I don't need any help going catatonic.
MyRealNameIsWeird
02-13-2016, 01:38 PM
I quit my vanilla job. I'm so horrible. I just couldn't. I feel like such a loser, but I'm trying to not beat myself up. :( Thankfully, I have 2 other possible ways to make money that I'm looking into right now. You're not a loser. In fact: congrats! If you need any extra pennies, join fiverr and expand your egg baskets in camming. We're always here to support you. PM me if you want any more detailed or confidential advice on freelance work.
baer45
02-13-2016, 01:47 PM
I should not have invited my friend to stay with me at mandarin oriental. My client is coming back tomorrow and the room smell like smoke.
Glamourmilf
02-14-2016, 12:24 AM
Mine: my personal laptop is behind me on the bed and I play youtube and netflix stuff while I wait for a show. Couldn't do it while in a show, mind. I have attention span issues anyway, I've zoned out to my free chat feed and to posters on the wall whilst chatting in private before. I don't need any help going catatonic.
Ive read this at least 5 times, and I can't picture where your computer is. You said it's behind you on the bed. But how do you watch Netflix, etc. IF its behind you?
Just asking because i would like to do this as well.
Thanks in advance.
MyRealNameIsWeird
02-14-2016, 06:10 AM
Ive read this at least 5 times, and I can't picture where your computer is. You said it's behind you on the bed. But how do you watch Netflix, etc. IF its behind you?
Just asking because i would like to do this as well.
Thanks in advance.
Haha, I explained it terribly. I stack a pillow behind my main laptop, which has the camera affixed to it, ie, behind "me". Then I put my second laptop behind the first and play shows. When I go to say hi to a custie, I just casually click off the video. It's so comfy and it looks like I'm watching the cam the whole time.
Cashmere Star
02-14-2016, 11:14 AM
I am 22, going to be 23 and I don't feel adult at all. At 23 you're a grown ass woman but jesus. Can't hold down a job, feeling fat and out of shape, no degree, not that particularly good at anything. Now I am thinking "oh god school is hard i hate homework" like a kid ugh. I was going to sugar while still young but still haven't gotten the balls to really go for it after that one incident where the guy I was supposed to meet used fake pictures on his profile and tried to solicit me for sex.
Glamourmilf
02-14-2016, 12:33 PM
Haha, I explained it terribly. I stack a pillow behind my main laptop, which has the camera affixed to it, ie, behind "me". Then I put my second laptop behind the first and play shows. When I go to say hi to a custie, I just casually click off the video. It's so comfy and it looks like I'm watching the cam the whole time.
Lol! Ok, got it. Yeah, that makes more sense. Thanks for explaining. So, its kinda like the thing i do, and keep the tv on BEHIND my cam? Gotcha.
SweetJulia
02-14-2016, 12:39 PM
I so hate getting up and getting irritated on days I had nothing to do.
Glamourmilf
02-14-2016, 07:08 PM
My friend's sugar daddy passed away recently. They were together for 35 years.
He left her...zip..nothing, nada.
She's calling me and is suicidal.
I confess that im enjoying her pain.
I've been friends with her for 30 yrs., and when i lost my corporate job, and didn't know where my next meal was coming from, she wouldn't loan me any money.
Matter of fact, she dropped me like a hot potato because she said i couldn't keep up with our extravagant lifestyle anymore.
Karma is a bitch.:)
She called me today, and BEGGED me to get her into camming and Dominatrix phone sex.
:frown::no_way::no::no::no:
Are You freakin kidding me?
Go fuck yourself!:finger:
miss.a.p1600
02-14-2016, 10:21 PM
The kid just asked me "what's a male stripper?" :O
MyRealNameIsWeird
02-15-2016, 01:10 PM
Lol! Ok, got it. Yeah, that makes more sense. Thanks for explaining. So, its kinda like the thing i do, and keep the tv on BEHIND my cam? Gotcha. Hell, even set your cam up ON the TV. It really looks like you give a fuck what the guy is doing. Plus, you can swap onto a video of something sexier when he tries to C2C...
Vyanka
02-15-2016, 01:21 PM
Of all the shitheads i dealt with last week, I met this young guy (in his late 20s-early 30s?), acted like such a super gentleman, that it refreshed my soul after I dealt with a monster. His warm smile gave me the fuzzies. He tipped me on stage, then I went to him. Chatting with him was a pleasure. No hands on my ass. His arms on the chair the whole time, and compliments, with a generous tip. If every customer was like that, it'd be a dream. Shit, I wanna say that guy was BF material too. :-)~
♡♡♡♡♡♡((((((UNIVERSE - MORE like him, PLEASE)))))) ♡♡♡♡♡♡
charlie61
02-15-2016, 01:29 PM
Of all the shitheads i dealt with last week, I met this young guy (in his late 20s-early 30s?), acted like such a super gentleman, that it refreshed my soul after I dealt with a monster. His warm smile gave me the fuzzies. He tipped me on stage, then I went to him. Chatting with him was a pleasure. No hands on my ass. His arms on the chair the whole time, and compliments, with a generous tip. If every customer was like that, it'd be a dream. Shit, I wanna say that guy was BF material too. :-)~
♡♡♡♡♡♡((((((UNIVERSE - MORE like him, PLEASE)))))) ♡♡♡♡♡♡
Seriously. I think these guys were much more common in the 80s and 90s, which makes me dubious of any dancers from that era who try to convince 21st-century newbies to stay in this business until their 40s. Like, yeah, if those were the only customers we had to deal with and we could make $1k/night, staying in this industry forever would be a no-brainer!
lynn2009
02-15-2016, 03:43 PM
Xxxxxxx
SimoneGray
02-16-2016, 05:45 AM
So I was approached in the gym yesterday by a personal trainer who was so HAWT, like proper...my confession is that I seem to have lost my edge IRL. On cam I charm the pants off any guy but IRL? Nah. To be fair he was a bit condescending but still..ugh.
wednesday86
02-16-2016, 07:58 AM
I'm finishing up a series of erotic stories to push out onto kindle by the end of the week...I confess that I got a little turned on writing the last one. It was weird since I already knew what was going to happen but still got me hot and bothered writing the dialogue. I was ready to pounce on my S.O when he got home. Haha. Fingers crossed that that's a good sign! (Please buy my crappy books bored housewives on kindle!!!!)
miss.a.p1600
02-16-2016, 08:44 AM
So I was approached in the gym yesterday by a personal trainer who was so HAWT, like proper...my confession is that I seem to have lost my edge IRL. On cam I charm the pants off any guy but IRL? Nah. To be fair he was a bit condescending but still..ugh.
I worked out with a hot trainer in a small group a while back. He reminded me of an ex and was really sexy. And to make it worse one day he was like "ok ladies, open those thighs" :O it took everything I had not look crazy or even laugh out loud.
miss.a.p1600
02-16-2016, 07:59 PM
I wish my mom would let me give her a makeover. She has worn THE EXACT same hairstyle since early 80's. The same makeup and the same wardrobe. She is so scared to go to a salon to let professionals style her hair. I just wish she'd be more open-minded and release the mountains of fear so that she could possible change her same old look for something new, refreshing, and updated.
BadBitch
02-16-2016, 08:09 PM
I've been waking up at 1 in the afternoon.
DelishIrish
02-16-2016, 08:25 PM
I've been pulling all-nighters like it's the summer after high school.
Glamourmilf
02-16-2016, 08:28 PM
I've been waking up at 1 in the afternoon.
Lucky.
BadBitch
02-16-2016, 09:43 PM
Lucky.
I hate it. I'm in such a depression. It blows.
ScarletKitten
02-16-2016, 09:46 PM
^^Girl, I'm in the same boat. I have no motivation. It's hard to get out of bed. It's hard to do much of anything lately. :(
BadBitch
02-16-2016, 09:50 PM
^^Girl, I'm in the same boat. I have no motivation. It's hard to get out of bed. It's hard to do much of anything lately. :(
It's the worst. It started Sunday. I think I had a sense that this week was going to suck. I am at the point where this job is not fun right now. I'm so stressed. The struggling, haggling, begging, etc. is wearing me out.
whirlerz
02-16-2016, 10:27 PM
Well, I'm @ or pretty close to the point where I should have to 'give up the goods' to my newer, secondary sd..I don't mind so much, he's not unattractive just a bit draining mentally & I just wanna be compensated fairly..I know he's got $ cause I did some low key googling.
Aurora_Sunset
02-16-2016, 10:57 PM
I absolutely despise getting older.
SimoneGray
02-17-2016, 05:11 AM
I confess that I have spent WAY too much this February on frivolous shit. I know sometimes its good to spoil oneself but nah, gotta derail this spending train.
xStacey
02-17-2016, 08:45 AM
I confess that I've been showering once every two or three days during exams ever since I started law. I am thinking maybe this is the right moment to try out dry shampoo for the first time.
Glamourmilf
02-17-2016, 11:19 AM
I hate it. I'm in such a depression. It blows.
Im sorry to hear about that.
charlie61
02-17-2016, 02:13 PM
I confess that I've been showering once every two or three days during exams ever since I started law. I am thinking maybe this is the right moment to try out dry shampoo for the first time.
You can use arrow root or cornstarch for much cheaper, and without fragrance. Sprinkle it onto your roots in areas that look greasy, wait a couple of minutes, then massage and scritch the powder into your scalp (I do it with my hair flipped over to give it more volume). Works very well and won't irritate your scalp!
SimoneGray
02-17-2016, 05:43 PM
I confess that sometimes I limit my potential to have a great life because doing big things is really intimidating...for instance I put off getting a drivers license til I was 21 because I was afraid of going to the DMV when I was 19 to apply for a learners because I was so much older than the 16yr olds getting theirs.
Another example...I need to renew my passport...guess who is putting that off because dealing with it intimidates me? Yuuuup. This woman. This grown ass woman who has been living independent of any support for the last 4 years is afraid of getting a simple and very necessary thing done.
I really wish I wasn't so afraid of people in bureaucratic positions of power. I mean its not like I'm a criminal or anything so my proceeding will invariably go smoothly, but I'm so deathly afraid that they won't and I need to get past that mental block.
Glamourmilf
02-17-2016, 06:12 PM
I confess that the drive-thru Starbucks is addicting. The staff is so nice, and always give me extra...well, everything!:yummy::thumbsup:
DonaDiabla
02-17-2016, 07:49 PM
I confess that I enjoy looking for vanilla work. I already do freelance vanilla writing projects but it is not enough. I can not wait to start going in for vanilla jobs interviews for commercial real estate and paralegal positions.
carmen_b
02-17-2016, 07:56 PM
Simone: I have the same blocks with the paperwork / government offices thing! Sometimes I just PUSH THROUGH ! Sometimes I even pay people to help me. With the passport specifically .... I think there are offices you can pay to do the entire process for you!
I have such a long list of BS like this myself to do ( renewing my license / paying tickets before I leave the state ) . You aren't the only one for sure !
I'm an avid traveler too and there are even places I haven't gone because they require a visa / more paperwork than other places and I'm embarrassed that something so small could hold me back. It's something I'm working on.
QueenBitch
02-18-2016, 11:28 AM
I got approved for disability (worst depression I've had so far) and I'm getting help with all my late bills. I can't even explain how relieved I am... I'm still a long way from home, but now I'm getting the time to heal and there's money coming in every month until I'm ready to work again. which will be a vanilla job :) I just can't do it anymore. my mental health suffers too much and I don't WANT to do it anymore. I don't want to give these guys my time and attention. I don't want to provide a service for some name on a screen. I just hated every single person that enters my room. I just can't.
I'm going to celebrate it even. I've been telling myself that once I'm out for good I can get my favorite bottle of champagne :) heck I'll even be happy with sparkling wine. I'm just thankful that there's a way for me to take care of myself without being evicted lol...
I have so much respect for all you ladies who keep on keeping on, for real. I will never have that kind of patience or resilience. keep draining those wallets!
charlie61
02-18-2016, 12:10 PM
I got approved for disability (worst depression I've had so far) and I'm getting help with all my late bills. I can't even explain how relieved I am... I'm still a long way from home, but now I'm getting the time to heal and there's money coming in every month until I'm ready to work again. which will be a vanilla job :) I just can't do it anymore. my mental health suffers too much and I don't WANT to do it anymore. I don't want to give these guys my time and attention. I don't want to provide a service for some name on a screen. I just hated every single person that enters my room. I just can't.
I'm going to celebrate it even. I've been telling myself that once I'm out for good I can get my favorite bottle of champagne :) heck I'll even be happy with sparkling wine. I'm just thankful that there's a way for me to take care of myself without being evicted lol...
I have so much respect for all you ladies who keep on keeping on, for real. I will never have that kind of patience or resilience. keep draining those wallets!
Well, I hope you know that you are ALWAYS welcome on SW. There's zero shame in retiring, no matter the reason. I hope you'll keep contributing - when I was retired, it was healthy for me to feel a part of the community even though I wasn't working in the industry. It helped me heal to post about my experiences and help other members!
:hug:
QueenBitch
02-18-2016, 12:53 PM
Well, I hope you know that you are ALWAYS welcome on SW. There's zero shame in retiring, no matter the reason. I hope you'll keep contributing - when I was retired, it was healthy for me to feel a part of the community even though I wasn't working in the industry. It helped me heal to post about my experiences and help other members!
:hug:
oh I'm really glad to hear that, I wasn't sure if I'd be sort of an intruder if I kept posting haha :) thank you! this community really kept me from going nuts many, MANY times and without all the helpful posts on here I couldn't have done it as well as I did when I was still healthy enough. so, thank you, all of you :heartbeat
wednesday86
02-18-2016, 02:53 PM
I got approved for disability (worst depression I've had so far) and I'm getting help with all my late bills. I can't even explain how relieved I am... I'm still a long way from home, but now I'm getting the time to heal and there's money coming in every month until I'm ready to work again. which will be a vanilla job :) I just can't do it anymore. my mental health suffers too much and I don't WANT to do it anymore. I don't want to give these guys my time and attention. I don't want to provide a service for some name on a screen. I just hated every single person that enters my room. I just can't.
I'm going to celebrate it even. I've been telling myself that once I'm out for good I can get my favorite bottle of champagne :) heck I'll even be happy with sparkling wine. I'm just thankful that there's a way for me to take care of myself without being evicted lol...
I have so much respect for all you ladies who keep on keeping on, for real. I will never have that kind of patience or resilience. keep draining those wallets!
Oh man, I can relate to this so hard. That's exactly how I felt when I finally quit dancing. Luckily my husband stepped in before depression and anxiety got out of control. I'm thankful every day to have more choices now and that I can leave stripping behind...Sometimes I wish I could still *want* to do it, and I'm proud of all the girls on here still making bank. When you're done, you're done though.
simone87
02-18-2016, 03:41 PM
Something about "humans of New York" really disturbs me. Now that it's gained so much popularity it seems exploitative and insincere, like its not real or honest anymore. It also feels like it's just fodder for white yuppies to read on their iPhones and comment and congratulate themselves for being so empathetic and feeling, just feels contrived. Can't put my finger on it.
charlie61
02-18-2016, 05:44 PM
Something about "humans of New York" really disturbs me. Now that it's gained so much popularity it seems exploitative and insincere, like its not real or honest anymore. It also feels like it's just fodder for white yuppies to read on their iPhones and comment and congratulate themselves for being so empathetic and feeling, just feels contrived. Can't put my finger on it.
I agree. I think any time someone tries to "do good," it requires a bit of exploitation and humiliation. Like, to make an emotional PSA about rape to encourage donations, some people have to be used to 'get' their stories and expose them on a massive level. It's the nature of asking for help. And on that macro scale, the original intent can be easily distorted by consumers. Something that began as good can warp into something that's exploitative.
SweetJulia
02-18-2016, 05:49 PM
I got the best cam for camming ever made as a present and legit had an orgasm when it got delivered.
Glamourmilf
02-18-2016, 07:19 PM
I got the best cam for camming ever made as a present and legit had an orgasm when it got delivered.
Wow! That's awesome! Which model did they buy for you?
DonaDiabla
02-18-2016, 07:26 PM
I am disgusted that a baby Franciscana dolphin died after being pass around by people and then they took selfies :( Again, why hurt animals in this way?
SweetJulia
02-18-2016, 09:57 PM
Wow! That's awesome! Which model did they buy for you?
C920 I'm scared to touch it lol.
whirlerz
02-18-2016, 10:24 PM
I am disgusted that a baby Franciscana dolphin died after being pass around by people and then they took selfies :( Again, why hurt animals in this way?
Ugh! Awful..there's a site, http://thepetitionsite.com tou can make a petition for stuff like this, too late for that poor animal, but foe others in the future..
There's so many good causes on rhere, human rights, environment, animals, etc,
I'm so nervous bout meeting w my new sd tomorrow
Aurora_Sunset
02-18-2016, 11:05 PM
I am way too attracted to paramedics.
Glamourmilf
02-19-2016, 12:31 PM
C920 I'm scared to touch it lol.
Lol! I can relate. I bought my first C920 last year, and feel the same way.
I've been using an older model cam that my landlord gave me, that he bought and never used.
I kinda like it better, because it's lighter and i can move it around easier.
*Ive dropped my C920 a few times, because the cord gets caught under my laptop, and goes flying off.
wednesday86
02-19-2016, 01:27 PM
I normally think of myself as a skeptic when it comes to ghosts and the paranormal, but I confess...I watched this episode of Ghost Adventures on Netflix last night that scared me so bad I was afraid to go to the bathroom by myself. Lol!