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Aurora_Sunset
02-23-2016, 08:29 PM
I don't know what turns me on anymore and it's kinda creeping me out. Even in my most "sex is whatever" phases, I could at least masturbate to certain tropes. Now I try to imagine them during masturbation and... nothing. I try to fantasize about what I would want in a sexy partner - nothing. I try to think about the guys I've liked and enjoyed sex with in the past... neeeh. I'm lying there like "Jeezus, come on! I just want to be turned on!" I don't know what to do. :(
charlie61
02-23-2016, 09:50 PM
I don't know what turns me on anymore and it's kinda creeping me out. Even in my most "sex is whatever" phases, I could at least masturbate to certain tropes. Now I try to imagine them during masturbation and... nothing. I try to fantasize about what I would want in a sexy partner - nothing. I try to think about the guys I've liked and enjoyed sex with in the past... neeeh. I'm lying there like "Jeezus, come on! I just want to be turned on!" I don't know what to do. :(
I know you were just ranting, but here's a suggestion from my li'l asexual self. I'm actually returning to masturbation with no imagery. Instead, I close my eyes and focus on the sensations building within my body. In the past, I've been a very no-nonsense masturbator (think: get off as quickly as possible). But I've started experimenting with using my vibrator on the areas around my clit (on my lower stomach, for example, and my inner thighs, etc.). I've been trying some different things - pointing my toes, breath work (notice how different you feel when breathing in vs. breathing out during stimulation), etc. When I feel a sensation building / beginning that feels like it'll lead to orgasm, I focus on that sensation, breathe into it, and encourage it energetically instead of trying to focus on an image.
wednesday86
02-24-2016, 10:14 AM
I get kind of depressed when it's really sunny outside. When I lived in California, I went into a deep depression because it was SO BRIGHT all the damn time. I'm much happier when it's overcast, raining or snowing outside (like today) as long as I don't have to drive in it.
Glamourmilf
02-24-2016, 11:17 AM
I get kind of depressed when it's really sunny outside. When I lived in California, I went into a deep depression because it was SO BRIGHT all the damn time. I'm much happier when it's overcast, raining or snowing outside (like today) as long as I don't have to drive in it.
This. A MILLION times.:yes::yes::yes:
It was even worse when I lived in the California desert. Sunny 362 days of the year, and average temps..110 degrees. Disgusting.:hot:
Although, now with global warming, or whatever, all of California is way too hot.
I love blackout drapes. They are the greatest invention of all time!
ScarletKitten
02-24-2016, 08:57 PM
^^Oh man, I would love some California sun right now. I haven't seen the sun in days. I feel like I'm dying, lol. I take vitamin D pills, but I need that sunshine! I'm too much of a night owl though, and it's too cold here to go outside most of the time. And I wake up late, so it's a bad combo.
Anyway, I just deleted another post in another thread because I didn't want to feed into any potential shit storm. I feel like I have to constantly monitor myself on this site because of all the potential drama fests just waiting to be activated. *hiss* *scratch* *aggressive meow* No more cat fights for me.
KaraLynn
02-24-2016, 09:14 PM
People always compliment my curves but I'm actually really insecure about my body and don't like it. I wish I was tiny and toned.
KaraLynn
02-24-2016, 09:15 PM
^^Oh man, I would love some California sun right now. I haven't seen the sun in days. I feel like I'm dying, lol. I take vitamin D pills, but I need that sunshine! I'm too much of a night owl though, and it's too cold here to go outside most of the time. And I wake up late, so it's a bad combo.
Anyway, I just deleted another post in another thread because I didn't want to feed into any potential shit storm. I feel like I have to constantly monitor myself on this site because of all the potential drama fests just waiting to be activated. *hiss* *scratch* *aggressive meow* No more cat fights for me.
I've deleted posts out of threads on here for the same reason. Usually it's when I comment on something and don't read all the above comments to realize it's drama city and my comment ends up accidently being involved in it. This has happened to me on facebook too. I'm always just like, ahhh fuck.....not today....delete. lol
SimoneGray
02-25-2016, 12:07 AM
I'm supposed to be working but I'm watching TV instead. Ugh.
charlie61
02-25-2016, 12:14 AM
I just said fuck it and applied to an undergrad program I'm actually interested in, instead of the safe graduate degree path that was turning me off more and more the closer I got to it. I don't know where this new path will take me, but I know it looks more passion-inspiring than the other one I was throwing myself at. What the fuck, man. This whole life / career business is so damn stressful. Even right now, I can't tell if this is the 'right decision'. Ugh.
SimoneGray
02-25-2016, 12:19 AM
^^ Girl...story of my life right now. I want another degree but yea...its difficult to decide because I like knowing if the things I do now will stand me in good stead in the future.
tigershoes
02-25-2016, 01:05 AM
I get kind of depressed when it's really sunny outside. When I lived in California, I went into a deep depression because it was SO BRIGHT all the damn time. I'm much happier when it's overcast, raining or snowing outside (like today) as long as I don't have to drive in it.
I thought I was the only one who felt this way! Everyone is always going on about how beautiful the weather is, and I'm wishing for cold and rain. Though I think this past summer in California was too much for most people. It's also scary how much the climate has changed since I grew up here - we never used to have 75 degree days in February. Hard to enjoy when you're wondering about the drought and the future.
Glamourmilf
02-25-2016, 11:14 AM
^^Oh man, I would love some California sun right now. I haven't seen the sun in days. I feel like I'm dying, lol. I take vitamin D pills, but I need that sunshine! I'm too much of a night owl though, and it's too cold here to go outside most of the time. And I wake up late, so it's a bad combo.
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That sucks. Well, So Cal hasn't seen any significant rain in 6 years, so u could always move there.
Glamourmilf
02-25-2016, 11:19 AM
I thought I was the only one who felt this way! Everyone is always going on about how beautiful the weather is, and I'm wishing for cold and rain. Though I think this past summer in California was too much for most people. It's also scary how much the climate has changed since I grew up here - we never used to have 75 degree days in February. Hard to enjoy when you're wondering about the drought and the future.
I know, right? I miss the days when the weather was the most tepid, and beautiful. Last week it was 90 degrees at the beach.
Plus, what's up with these daily earthquakes?
Too bad. It used to be a magnificent state. Very sad.
wednesday86
02-25-2016, 01:26 PM
*Someone knocks on the door in the middle of the day*
Normal person:
Answers the door, or just ignores it.
Me:
Freaks out, has panic attack, calls husband, gets samurai sword ready to go Michonne on their ass because it's probably a murderer.
RaeRae
02-25-2016, 03:01 PM
^^^Last time I saw a firetruck with about 4-5 firemen, I got excited thinking I was going to see some hot DILF's jump out the truck and I would conveniently come up with some excuse to get 'rescued' but no. I was sadly disappointed, they were all old with balding hair and spare-tire stomachs, just not at all what I envisioned.
Feel free to send the chubby middle aged firemen my way! I don't know why, but I've really found myself into men with a bit of chub lately, especially if they still look like they have strong arms and shoulders underneath it. God, don't even get me started on lumberjacks. All that plaid, mmm!
xStacey
02-25-2016, 04:28 PM
I was walking home with a classmate and she asked me : "Did you read the faculty newspapers? Apparently a lot of people take dope to succeed, I think I will start doing that. Apparently the focus you get from it is crazy" ... And she was totally serious, I don't know what to think. It's cheating. And if to succeed in school you need to take drugs I don't even want to imagine in practice.
I always did very well without but this semester has been crazy, we'll see...
ScarletKitten
02-25-2016, 11:42 PM
I was walking home with a classmate and she asked me : "Did you read the faculty newspapers? Apparently a lot of people take dope to succeed, I think I will start doing that. Apparently the focus you get from it is crazy" ... And she was totally serious, I don't know what to think. It's cheating. And if to succeed in school you need to take drugs I don't even want to imagine in practice.
I always did very well without but this semester has been crazy, we'll see...
You just reminded me of this...
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Elektra Luxx
02-26-2016, 06:34 AM
^^^I use to have a script for generic Adderall. I have ADD and it makes a world of difference for concentration and focus. I take Vyvanse now.
lynn2009
02-26-2016, 06:42 AM
I was walking home with a classmate and she asked me : "Did you read the faculty newspapers? Apparently a lot of people take dope to succeed, I think I will start doing that. Apparently the focus you get from it is crazy" ... And she was totally serious, I don't know what to think. It's cheating. And if to succeed in school you need to take drugs I don't even want to imagine in practice.
I always did very well without but this semester has been crazy, we'll see...
Almost everyone I went to college with did this and I wish I had. I wish I knew how to get my hands on it now.
charlie61
02-27-2016, 03:46 AM
I confess that my partner is an addict.
We've been together for nearly ten years. He's my best friend. He is one of the most intelligent people I've ever met (and has a six-figure job to show for it). Even during the worst of times, we laugh together, and those times make us stronger as people and as a couple. We always work things out as a team and never yell or point fingers. He is the most loyal, caring, loving, interesting person I've ever met. His parents are two of the most incredible people I've ever had the privilege of knowing. I can't imagine being with anyone else.
But I also can't imagine living with the stress of addiction forever. He was three years clean and relapsed this year, and has just now relapsed for a second time. I don't know what I'm going to do.
SimoneGray
02-27-2016, 04:42 AM
^^ wow girl...so sorry to hear that :( big big hugs to you. I lived with an addict for a while and found that the best thing to do was get to the why. After that, the what and the how become a lot clearer, but every situation is unique, so do what is best for both you and him. Once again, my heart goes out to you xx
SnuffleUffleGrass
02-27-2016, 10:53 AM
I confess that my partner is an addict.
We've been together for nearly ten years. He's my best friend. He is one of the most intelligent people I've ever met (and has a six-figure job to show for it). Even during the worst of times, we laugh together, and those times make us stronger as people and as a couple. We always work things out as a team and never yell or point fingers. He is the most loyal, caring, loving, interesting person I've ever met. His parents are two of the most incredible people I've ever had the privilege of knowing. I can't imagine being with anyone else.
But I also can't imagine living with the stress of addiction forever. He was three years clean and relapsed this year, and has just now relapsed for a second time. I don't know what I'm going to do.
Whoa that is stressful. Sorry to hear.
Vyanka
02-27-2016, 03:49 PM
That's rough, Charlie. Sorry to hear.
(((Sending you both positive vibes))).
DonaDiabla
02-28-2016, 03:07 AM
In Vanilla job news, I went for property manager position and it was in a bad part of Marin county. Plus, the apartment complex is very "ghetto". After my interviewer talked about this neighborhood, I just decline the offer because it was just bad. Sorry but I do not want to be know as a property manager for rundown apartment complex. This is the type of offer that could ruin a promising property manager career. I hope they give it to the next person who does not mind.
xStacey
02-28-2016, 04:28 AM
I've been sleeping with my ex, still couldn't get my mind off him after four years, best sex I ever had in my life was with him and he improved since we broke up omg.
xStacey
02-28-2016, 04:31 AM
You just reminded me of this...
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ScarletKitten
02-28-2016, 05:58 AM
I masturbated and came thinking about my musician friend. He was the best kisser I ever had in my life. God, I miss him. I confess I think he's the only man on earth I would ever marry. I won't even marry my bf of 9 years!
xStacey, why don't you get back together with him? Fuck, I would! :-* :heartbeat
Glamourmilf
02-28-2016, 11:56 AM
In Vanilla job news, I went for property manager position and it was in a bad part of Marin county. Plus, the apartment complex is very "ghetto". After my interviewer talked about this neighborhood, I just decline the offer because it was just bad. Sorry but I do not want to be know as a property manager for rundown apartment complex. This is the type of offer that could ruin a promising property manager career. I hope they give it to the next person who does not mind.
I always wonder about the people who take the job at those types of properties. I mean, the horrible stuff they must have to deal with on a daily basis. Plus, the dangeros commute in. And parking on the premises.
Like, why? The pay can't be any better. Or is it?
Selina M
02-28-2016, 12:02 PM
Charlie, if you want to talk about anything please PM me. I definitely know what that boat is like :/
miss.a.p1600
02-28-2016, 02:34 PM
I miss being in a romantic relationship.
Ive been celibate for years (after going through a string of horrible relationships) and just decided fuck it ill be happier on my own. But I know that the husband of my dreams, and my future mixed baby, is awaiting and I don't want to miss out.
And I definitely want a good lover. Pleasing myself is okay and gets the job done but would be nice to have a hot rich guy who loves me doing that for me. Must be a good lover. If the guy is not filthy rich, I will end a relationship if I can't get pleased sexually.
DonaDiabla
02-28-2016, 03:58 PM
Glamourmilf,
That is a great question. I think they might not mind being a property manager in a dangerous area. Or they are usually newbies starting their property manager careers and just want a place to start. However, the pay is usually not better in those areas :) I just did not want to be apart that type of situation.
I always wonder about the people who take the job at those types of properties. I mean, the horrible stuff they must have to deal with on a daily basis. Plus, the dangeros commute in. And parking on the premises.
Like, why? The pay can't be any better. Or is it?
xStacey
02-28-2016, 05:19 PM
I masturbated and came thinking about my musician friend. He was the best kisser I ever had in my life. God, I miss him. I confess I think he's the only man on earth I would ever marry. I won't even marry my bf of 9 years!
xStacey, why don't you get back together with him? Fuck, I would! :-* :heartbeat
He's a liar, a cheater and a fuck boy. He's a great friend but not a good boyfriend :(....
Glamourmilf
02-28-2016, 06:56 PM
Glamourmilf,
That is a great question. I think they might not mind being a property manager in a dangerous area. Or they are usually newbies starting their property manager careers and just want a place to start. However, the pay is usually not better in those areas :) I just did not want to be apart that type of situation.
Newbie sounds about right.
BarbieNYC
02-28-2016, 07:19 PM
My dad told me I can't stay with him anymore because in his words I am disrupting his schedule.
I'm speechless don't even know what to say. now I need to find somewhere to live in LA and find a club with no car and $150 to my name. I feel so hopeless and dead inside.
And I'm dropping out of school. So much for moving back home to move forward in life
whirlerz
02-28-2016, 10:12 PM
Tomorrow is my big day w/the newer sd..I now have a sore throat/bronchial infection, thanks to him insisting I swim w/him, then he likes to run around food shopping..I've been resting a lot,& haven' seen him for over a wk but still ugh. He keeps his place like a damn refrigerator, I'm bringing a long sweater, & he's buying me a throw to wrap around when I'm laying down, & I'm wearing my hat too, which he hates.
I'm bringing him a little 'gift' which he thinks is something sexy but it's a nice calendar lmao.
DelishIrish
02-28-2016, 10:33 PM
BarbieNYC, I also live at home and I'm so sorry to hear this. I wish you all the best in finding a new place soon... Reading some of your other posts, it sounds like he never supported you in school, smh. Try to keep your head up. I can't imagine how hard shit is in LA... midwest lady here. Sending good vibes your way and sorry he's doing this to you =(
I confess that after being out of the conventional world for 30 months, I might try to return to a vanilla part time job, and I'm just feeling really depressed about life & my future in general.
22lligm
02-28-2016, 11:19 PM
I'm lonely.
SweetJulia
02-28-2016, 11:21 PM
My confession: I feel guilty for not working for two days.
Barbie- That's so shitty, I'm really sorry. Please find a cheap room for rent or hotel asap. No offense, but your dad sounds like such a jerk. I know rent is really expensive out there. Do you think if you work doubles it'll make up for the housing costs? Also, I'd wait til the absolute last minute to drop classes. Hopefully they're flexible on attendance and near public transportation? Cuz you've already paid at least part of tuition and studied and everything. So sorry you're going through this :(
miss.a.p1600
02-28-2016, 11:33 PM
My dad told me I can't stay with him anymore because in his words I am disrupting his schedule.
I'm speechless don't even know what to say. now I need to find somewhere to live in LA and find a club with no car and $150 to my name. I feel so hopeless and dead inside.
And I'm dropping out of school. So much for moving back home to move forward in life
Sorry to hear. that sucks your dad is acting selfish. Are you able to put a hold on the school and then come back in a few months or are you leaving school for good? He better hope he don't end up in a nursing home asking for family visits because if I were you i'd be like 'sorry, you're interrupting my schedule'
My confession is 2 guys messaged me today! One offered to fly to see me and the other offered to do a play date. Well I could definitely use some genuine male affection.
BabyWillow
02-29-2016, 12:42 AM
I'm always silently talking shit and judging people in my mind. I seriously think of the meanest things about people I know nothing about. /:O I don't know where these thoughts come from because once I start talking, all the mean things I was thinking just kind of vanish. I wish I could stop because it's constant negativity in my head all day. :-\
SimoneGray
02-29-2016, 01:22 AM
I confess I'm watching The Only Way Is Essex and actually enjoying it...LOL.
wednesday86
02-29-2016, 08:07 AM
I'm always silently talking shit and judging people in my mind. I seriously think of the meanest things about people I know nothing about. /:O I don't know where these thoughts come from because once I start talking, all the mean things I was thinking just kind of vanish. I wish I could stop because it's constant negativity in my head all day. :-\
I tend to get pissy and judgmental when I'm bored. If I find a creative outlet every day I'm fine.
I confess I'm a cranky bitch this morning though. I couldn't sleep last night and my kid woke me up at 6. I turn into a different person when I'm tired; the meanest bitch on the planet. My husband texted me "good morning I love you," and I straight up rolled my eyes and was just like "yeah whatever. leave me alone."
Aurora_Sunset
02-29-2016, 03:19 PM
I'm skipping pole class tonight because I haven't done laundry in so long that all of my booty shorts smell really bad. I would be embarrassed to wear them in public.
Also, I have had this thought since I woke up at 7am today and I just didn't bother to do laundry.
miss.a.p1600
02-29-2016, 03:27 PM
^^^^ well if they smell bad then a good washing is probably best however if you're ever in pinch I promise febreeze spray for fabrics will get even the worst odors smelling like a field of roses.
My confession is whenever I browse the stripper web and the kid comes looking over my shoulder I have to hide it and close the browser. Now the kid is like "are you on that secret website?" lol!
Aurora_Sunset
02-29-2016, 04:56 PM
I feel like I'm always going to be a step behind in life. I was a late bloomer. I didn't like boys or get into makeup until the end of high school/beginning of college. I didn't really feel like partying all that much until college was over. I didn't even appreciate learning all that much until a few years out of college and I had matured and devloped more of an understanding of why I would learn something. I spent years not having money to keep up with people's vacations and nights out, and now I have money as they're all transitioning into some "We're scaling back our lifestyle/saving for a house" phase. I just always feel like I'm hitting the "steps" and milestones of life - but several years after everyone else, when everyone my age has moved onto something else. It's like I'll never even catch up, let alone get ahead in any way. My whole life seems like such wasted space with me trying to do things when I'm "supposed to" but not inspired to, not getting anything out of it or dropping it, and then a few years later wanting to go back to that point now that I actually want to be there - but I can't so I just scramble trying to throw some adult shit together to make up for what I missed the boat on.
I don't know if any of that makes sense.
SnuffleUffleGrass
02-29-2016, 05:58 PM
I feel like I'm always going to be a step behind in life. I was a late bloomer. I didn't like boys or get into makeup until the end of high school/beginning of college. I didn't really feel like partying all that much until college was over. I didn't even appreciate learning all that much until a few years out of college and I had matured and devloped more of an understanding of why I would learn something. I spent years not having money to keep up with people's vacations and nights out, and now I have money as they're all transitioning into some "We're scaling back our lifestyle/saving for a house" phase. I just always feel like I'm hitting the "steps" and milestones of life - but several years after everyone else, when everyone my age has moved onto something else. It's like I'll never even catch up, let alone get ahead in any way. My whole life seems like such wasted space with me trying to do things when I'm "supposed to" but not inspired to, not getting anything out of it or dropping it, and then a few years later wanting to go back to that point now that I actually want to be there - but I can't so I just scramble trying to throw some adult shit together to make up for what I missed the boat on.
I don't know if any of that makes sense.
It does. I can relate.
My confession- I'll be trying to conceive this year. The father has leukemia so we decided it was the absolutely right time.
lynn2009
02-29-2016, 06:02 PM
I have a midterm on Thursday and I should really be freaking out more. I am doing well in the class so far but I really need to *continue* to do well since I sucked majorly as an undergrad but I've been studying for two weeks now and I think I'm as prepared as I'm going to get. I really just need it to be over.
Elektra Luxx
02-29-2016, 09:43 PM
I feel like I'm always going to be a step behind in life. I was a late bloomer. I didn't like boys or get into makeup until the end of high school/beginning of college. I didn't really feel like partying all that much until college was over. I didn't even appreciate learning all that much until a few years out of college and I had matured and devloped more of an understanding of why I would learn something. I spent years not having money to keep up with people's vacations and nights out, and now I have money as they're all transitioning into some "We're scaling back our lifestyle/saving for a house" phase. I just always feel like I'm hitting the "steps" and milestones of life - but several years after everyone else, when everyone my age has moved onto something else. It's like I'll never even catch up, let alone get ahead in any way. My whole life seems like such wasted space with me trying to do things when I'm "supposed to" but not inspired to, not getting anything out of it or dropping it, and then a few years later wanting to go back to that point now that I actually want to be there - but I can't so I just scramble trying to throw some adult shit together to make up for what I missed the boat on.
I don't know if any of that makes sense.
Scoot over this boat is getting full.
My therapist says a person shouldn't compare themselves to other persons life. It gives a false sense of the progress of your life. Compared to this person, "Hey I'm doing good!", but compared to someone else not so good. It's a nature, nurture, education, life experiences thing, way too many variables to consider. After years of therapy, I've had a breakthrough. I now have a real understanding of why it's not productive to compare yourself to other people, but I still do.
miss.a.p1600
03-01-2016, 07:59 AM
I wish I could land on the bachelorette show and have guys lining up to be with me, going off to these tropical destinations, and get married at the end.
I am now watching the bachelor but I am confused ...... What exactly is the fantasy suite? If they go to fantasy suite does this mean they're definitely getting laid?
SweetJulia
03-01-2016, 12:21 PM
I wish I could land on the bachelorette show and have guys lining up to be with me, going off to these tropical destinations, and get married at the end.
I am now watching the bachelor but I am confused ...... What exactly is the fantasy suite? If they go to fantasy suite does this mean they're definitely getting laid?
Yep, pretty sure they can't call it a fuck the star suite though- it's be way funnier if they did though.