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ScarletKitten
03-12-2016, 07:49 PM
Meanwhile last night I dreamed that a big section of a city was destroyed by a sandwich. Like I was watching aerial footage of the situation on the news and there was a huge sandwich sitting on and crushing a chunk of the city. ?

Holy shit, that's so weird. Maybe we should start a dream thread?

Glamourmilf
03-12-2016, 09:10 PM
Holy shit, that's so weird. Maybe we should start a dream thread?

I'd be down for that.
Speaking of dreams, i had a doozy the other night. Dreamt my sister took a gun out and protected us from an intruder.
She didn't look like my sis, but like Ashley Judd.
The next day i was visiting a lady's house that i just met the day before.....
She pulled out photos of her family. Her sister looked JUST like Ashley Judd. I didn't mention the dream i had because i thought she'd think i was a wack job.
All i said was that her sis looked like judd. She said that everyone always comments on that.
Weird because the lady i was visiting didn't look anything like her sis.
Dodododo..

MistressX
03-12-2016, 09:19 PM
I really hate our neighbor on my landlords property. He is fucking skeevy as fuck and he came over this morning to ask me if I would bring him somewhere in my hearse.. He is so fucking creepy and I dont like him! And he has some weird company/addict recovery program thing he is trying to make take off the ground. They are having a meeting next weekend and he wants me to have him "arrive in the hearse". What the hell does that have to do with addiction and recovery? The thing is, I'm just too nice and I feel like I cant say no. Motherfucker wanted my phone number and I didnt give it to him... At least I could say no to that. But seriously... I wish I wasnt so nice. I also dont want to cause a rift or tension between the people here. I'm afraid he will hurt my hearse-kids and that would just devastate me.

SweetJulia
03-13-2016, 01:12 AM
I'm turning 31 on Friday and, instead of being excited, I feel old. This lasted a few months when I turned 30, so hopefully, 31 won't be as rough .

wednesday86
03-13-2016, 11:48 AM
Holy shit, that's so weird. Maybe we should start a dream thread?

I'll start it...I had a crazy weird dream last night too. I always have insane dreams.

xStacey
03-13-2016, 01:29 PM
I can't stop thinking about how much money I am missing out on every time a regular texts me because they want to come visit. Another out-of-town regular who takes multi-hours and tips very well just texted me he's visiting on Tuesday and really wanted to see me, but I am so overwhelmed with school I had to decline... My other generous regular is coming back next week and wants to take me out to dinner but I can't find time... :( I told them I will be done by the end of April. It's nice though to receive so many text messages from guys begging to give you money.

SweetJulia
03-13-2016, 02:41 PM
I was gonna take the day off-first day I would have had off since last Sunday-but felt too guilty. Is that pathetic or what? Confession #2-I've been binge watching Married With Children.

wednesday86
03-13-2016, 08:32 PM
I confess I've really been struggling with being part of "the real world," and not relying on dancing whenever I want something. I have things I want to do and buy, and I'm impatient for the money...but building up a new business from scratch takes time. I brought up possibly dancing again 2 nights a week to my husband...and he was like "No you were completely miserable and depressed and we decided together that you're done." I know he's right...The thought of going back makes me sick but it's almost like an addiction...a quick fix.

baer45
03-13-2016, 09:00 PM
In 30 seconds, I am 30.

SweetJulia
03-13-2016, 09:41 PM
I really miss my cat that passed. By the time they figured out what she had, it was too late for surgery to do any good. I'm glad she's crossed over and not in pain. She lost use of her legs ans the paralysis got WORSE and WORSE. She went peacefully and medicated at home with lots of attention. I believe in an afterlife and know the only difference is she no longer has a physical body. I worked like an hour after she died cuz I had prebooked indie shows and it's been so hard to keep my composure at times. The last thing I care about is customers and their fucking boners when I lose an animal or person. It's just so trivial how much some of them spend on sex workers and then complain about being broke. Develop some social skills, go after someone who's not out of your league, etc.. Money doesn't make me feel any better, but I don't want to be sad and poor. Sorry for the long read, grieving sucks. Plus, it was a week or two ago right before my birthday and two years ago I had to put my grandfather on hospice on my birthday and until I got that call I was under the impression that his ortho rehab was going well but he died three days later. Oh, and I'm gonna be 31 and feel old as hell. I'm rethinking quitting smoking cuz it cheers me up when I get carded and cashiers guess me so much younger.

charlie61
03-13-2016, 09:44 PM
^Um, it's been like five years since I put one of my rescues down, and I can still cry about it at the drop of a hat. I *completely* understand.

:hug:

BarbieNYC
03-13-2016, 10:31 PM
I need to drop a friend but I'm not sure how to go about doing it. We went thru so much together at the beginning but the past couple of months the relationship has become one sided and i don't feel it's worth keeping.

We are on different time zones so communication has been getting a little harder and harder to do but when I miss a text or call from her when I'm asleep or at school I always make sure to text her back. She has drama with her roommates always threatening to kick her out and one night I missed a call about it. So the next morning I sent her a text saying I would call her after I dropped my mom off at surgery. And then the later that day I asked if she was ok. She didn't respond to me for a week.

when I texted her about being homeless and having to drop out of school I never even got a text message if I was okay or not. I even tried calling her the next day and in the end it was my ex who saved my ass because he bought my school book for me after she said she would Lend me the money (when I mentioned to her sometime earlier about being worried I couldn't afford my math book). Keep in mind that I bought her $100 winter boots because she needed them and I didn't care because she was my friend. But the fact she said she'd loan me the money for something I really needed when I bought her the boots without a second thought really bugs me.

So a couple of days after I sent her the text about being homeless she sends me a message saying she likes different types of men now. no mention of the homeless thing

It's not a big deal but I feel like with the little things adding up this is the straw that broke the camel's back. Now she's texting and calling me and not getting the hint I don't want to talk to her for now. I know I have to tell her I'm not in the mood to talk to her but she gets offended easily and is one of those who can dish it but not take it and I don't have the energy to await the mass of endless texts about how I'm in the wrong and blah blah blah

How would you guys word a short simple text that gets the point across?

SweetJulia
03-13-2016, 11:10 PM
Tell her you had an emergency and her not responding or even acknowledging it hurt your feelings because you've always been there for her.

JGB2009
03-14-2016, 12:47 AM
I usually work from 11pm till maybe 6am. Lately when I don't work I am awake and I hate it. With my dad being terminally ill......well lets just say my anxiety has been playing with me to much. My life feels so out of control....looking forward to better days ahead.

SweetJulia
03-14-2016, 04:07 AM
I usually work from 11pm till maybe 6am. Lately when I don't work I am awake and I hate it. With my dad being terminally ill......well lets just say my anxiety has been playing with me to much. My life feels so out of control....looking forward to better days ahead.

I'm really sorry to read that. Anxiety is like a full time job on top of other responsibilities and being hit with devastating hardships while trying to battle it is much harder for us than the average person. I said a prayer for you, hopefully someone you don't know in person doing that doesn't offend you in any way. I so hope you feel better.

wednesday86
03-14-2016, 06:43 AM
I don't wish anyone on facebook "happy birthday" unless I already knew it was their birthday without social media telling me. It just feels insincere to me. I also get annoyed when people wish me happy birthday on there who I haven't heard from in months or years, or people I barely know.

BambiCutie
03-14-2016, 06:50 AM
"Its not that I'm not happy that its your birthday..I just don't care." :-X With everything that goes on in life and the holidays that sneak up to rape your wallet, don't be upset should I forget to leave a comment. Had tons of FB friends who constantly had bd notifications and it was impossible to keep up with them all, then out of no where they ask where you been.

baer45
03-14-2016, 06:24 PM
I'm turning 31 on Friday and, instead of being excited, I feel old. This lasted a few months when I turned 30, so hopefully, 31 won't be as rough .
So are you Pisces too? :D

SnuffleUffleGrass
03-15-2016, 12:02 PM
I confess I gawked at the cops arresting someone down the street today. I normally don't do that but hey I live here, I was wondering what was going on.

Glamourmilf
03-15-2016, 02:05 PM
^^What was it?

SweetJulia
03-15-2016, 02:08 PM
So are you Pisces too? :D
Yes, minus the whole loving the water thing. Nothing sounds less appealing then messing up my hair and make up while potentially drowning, since I can't swim. We're also supposed to be the most fetish friendly, so yay :)

xStacey
03-15-2016, 04:20 PM
I really want a nose job as soon as possible, I hate mine and I can't live with it anymore.

charlie61
03-15-2016, 04:28 PM
I really want a nose job as soon as possible, I hate mine and I can't live with it anymore.

I've never heard from anyone who regretted it (except for those who weren't careful about choosing a surgeon). It seems like literally everyone who gets one wishes only that they'd done it sooner.

AnoniCat
03-15-2016, 11:50 PM
I get social anxiety from time to time and I keep getting requests to go out on public dates. When I'm with a guy taller than me I feel more secure (I'm 5'7) but the last dinner date I had the guy was 5'5 and I was in 4 inch heels. I almost had a panic attack trying to make my way through the crowd at LA Live.

Glamourmilf
03-16-2016, 10:29 AM
I get social anxiety from time to time and I keep getting requests to go out on public dates. When I'm with a guy taller than me I feel more secure (I'm 5'7) but the last dinner date I had the guy was 5'5 and I was in 4 inch heels. I almost had a panic attack trying to make my way through the crowd at LA Live.

Just BEING at LALive would've given me an anxiety attack. As a matter of fact, i have anxiety just reading this, and picturing it.
Crowds freak me out.

xStacey
03-16-2016, 11:57 AM
I've been having a lot of existential questions lately...

Velveteen.Rabbit
03-16-2016, 02:40 PM
99% sure I'm only happy when my schedule is so packed that I have no extra time. Story of my life for 2016!

baer45
03-16-2016, 06:18 PM
I am not much a gamer but I enjoyed this video way...too much. LOL


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iqFN4FdSKWo

Glamourmilf
03-16-2016, 09:51 PM
I confess I wished I had taken the time to have my picture taken with Frank Sinatra Jr at his show in Vegas many years ago. Instead, my friend and I got up and walked out of his show, because he was too lazy to even stand up. He wasnt even performing on a main stage. Just in a lounge. He seemed bored and tired.
Sadly, he passed today. Now, he can finally...........
R.I.P.

SweetJulia
03-17-2016, 05:41 PM
I stupidly prebooked shows on my birthday tomorrow cuz I was half awake reading the requests.

Velveteen.Rabbit
03-17-2016, 09:25 PM
The happier, better looking, and more successful you become, the more bullies come out of the woodwork to bring you down just for living your happy little life. Not only overt bullies, but also covert bullies too that plant faux seeds in other people's heads with hopes they will bully you too. Bullies you don't interact with in any way that just find ways to creep into your life. Certain hive minds can be so creepy. I'm too smart for this lol

Velveteen.Rabbit
03-17-2016, 09:54 PM
My bb Shia is engaged! He's the only celeb I can get into. I'm always fascinated by his art projects and can't stop following them. It's kind of weird we live in a world where you still can't be yourself without getting bullied when you go against the grain. Any time someone doesn't understand something, like in the case of Shia, they call you mentally unstable and make fun of you for it. They did the same thing to Miley. Then guess what comes in style a couple years later? Everything that people were making of. I swear this is exactly how to predict trends. Every single time, go figure haha

tuesdaymarie
03-18-2016, 10:19 AM
I'm having a really bad time lately for some personal reasons, and I need to learn to take my own advice. Instead I'm just avoiding thinking about it and pouring myself into writing and exercise. I'm always my hottest when I'm stressed from lack of appetite and angsty workouts. Sigh. *goes back to pretending life is dandy*

SimoneGray
03-18-2016, 12:20 PM
I confess that I have finally gotten off the competition bus. I'm going to be a 20 something, enjoy my life, screw having pressure to do all of these amazing things etc. I will of course try to make good choices etc, but I'm going to do what makes me happy and what I need to do for me.

Genoveve
03-18-2016, 12:47 PM
^^The secret to a happy life.

Elektra Luxx
03-18-2016, 12:50 PM
Things are slow today at vanilla work and I'm bored. For as long as I can remember, first thing my mind goes to when I'm bored is sex. Right now, I'm sitting at my desk with my legs crossed trying to look busy, but I'm really trying to make myself cum by moving my legs together and contracting vaginal muscles. When I see my guy tonight, I'm going to ride him until my pussy is inside out. I really live in a constant state of horniness.

I love the act of sex. A man, in between my legs and thrusting hard. His heavy breathing and sounds he makes. How his cock feels inside me when he's about to cum, his body goes tense, his heavy sigh and then his release. The hot, wet feeling inside me and feeling the full weight of his body on me as he relaxes.

Yes, I'm really bored.

meme88
03-19-2016, 04:53 PM
ohhhh a confession thread... well today I was super depressed about rent and the realization that I might be in a hotel next week.... then I randomly thought.... damn I wish I had a good sugar daddy that could just get me over the hump... thats when it hit me that I have a list full of guys who got cut off for even having the audacity to think that my goodies could be bought.... so yeah smh... I text an old guy who I knew would be extremely generous... hadn't talked to him in months, and of coarse he was ecstatic. I haven't traded sex for money in over a decade and I told myself that under no circumstances would I ever cross that road again... so feeling a little guilty now, but I'm sure I'll be feeling much better when I have that money in hand.

MistressX
03-19-2016, 07:22 PM
I confess that I got very very upset today because I found out my baby Dusty has a rusted roof so bad shes going to need a completely reworked and fabricated METAL roof and it is going to cost me a fortune. And then I also found out my new hearse has valve lifter noise, some kind of bearing noise (alternator or water pump I'm not sure yet) AND its leaking from the top of the water pump. As if more could go wrong after Barnabus started spewing oil the other day from places unknown???? And Jimmy doesnt pass smog and his body is basically falling apart and so so so many other problems with them all.. Today was really awful and I got really overwhelmed and started feeling really guilty that I couldn't care for them all because I'm fuckin LAZY and don't work on cam as much as I know I should. Like I do maybe like 12 hours a week now... I am constantly just doing the minimum and my babies are suffering for it and I am a horrible hearse mom because I am letting them rot and get worse. I suck! I suck at life!!!

SimoneGray
03-19-2016, 08:23 PM
I confess that even though I'm no longer bed-bound sick, I wanna use it as an excuse not to work today.

ScarletKitten
03-19-2016, 11:03 PM
Lately I've been having motivation problems. I feel like I'm living in an eternal winter. It's still cold as tits outside, and my body is like, "Noooo....we're still in hibernation mode." And I'm like, "No, bitch! You gotta make yourself go to the club!"

Arrrrrrggggghhhhhh.......

Where is that money pics thread? I gotta get my motivation levels up and running again!

AnoniCat
03-20-2016, 01:42 AM
I just spent 20 minutes on dollforum.com trying to will myself not to judge as I read about how some guy had to send his doll in for hip surgery after just 1 year. But don't worry, he's had the doll now for 4 years and she's doing great....

The psychologist in me is intrigued by the relationships these guys form with their dolls. But then I stumbled on the thread where they thought it cool and sexy to take photos of the dolls sitting on the toilet, like from the movie Eyes Wide Shut....

"There is absolutely nothing wrong with loving your doll. They ask nothing from you yet they give you everything in return. I freely admit that I am deeply in love with my beautiful Jenny and can think of nothing nicer than to spoil and pamper her. She is always in my thoughts. I must say that your Julia looks gorgeous, an absolute darling. She deserves all the love you can give her."

I feel dirty. And I can't wipe the, "Omg, you're freaking me out" look off my face.

baer45
03-20-2016, 09:01 AM
checked on dollforum.com, i want my 30 seconds back.

wednesday86
03-20-2016, 03:14 PM
I just spent 20 minutes on dollforum.com trying to will myself not to judge as I read about how some guy had to send his doll in for hip surgery after just 1 year. But don't worry, he's had the doll now for 4 years and she's doing great....

The psychologist in me is intrigued by the relationships these guys form with their dolls. But then I stumbled on the thread where they thought it cool and sexy to take photos of the dolls sitting on the toilet, like from the movie Eyes Wide Shut....

"There is absolutely nothing wrong with loving your doll. They ask nothing from you yet they give you everything in return. I freely admit that I am deeply in love with my beautiful Jenny and can think of nothing nicer than to spoil and pamper her. She is always in my thoughts. I must say that your Julia looks gorgeous, an absolute darling. She deserves all the love you can give her."

I feel dirty. And I can't wipe the, "Omg, you're freaking me out" look off my face.

I watched a documentary about love dolls (I wish I could remember what it's called!) Basically it seemed a lot of the buyers are guys who have serious problems connecting with women/are afraid of real women, may be on the autism spectrum, or old widowers who want someone/something to cuddle up with at night. I also wonder if they have a form of objectophilia.

ScarletKitten
03-20-2016, 03:48 PM
^^Have you seen that movie "Lars and the Real Girl"? lol. Disturbing and quite sad actually.

DonaDiabla
03-20-2016, 06:21 PM
Oh AnoniCat, the dollforum.com is just gross in many ways. They even have a nasty thread about how sex workers are bad for their sex dolls. But not as gross as the Satin forum.com because they show cum on Barbie dolls' faces. One guy confessed that he went into a toys store because he lost his ability to jack off to real women. He was searching for Barbies. Many of these relationships with their dolls are based on rejection,misogyny and vanity. Many of them are mad because girls who are super hot likes 9s and 10s rejected them. They get mad at strippers, escorts, cam models, and even psos for wanting to get paid. Remember a doll will never rejected them and they are always a perfect 10. Well, that is my two cents :)



I just spent 20 minutes on dollforum.com trying to will myself not to judge as I read about how some guy had to send his doll in for hip surgery after just 1 year. But don't worry, he's had the doll now for 4 years and she's doing great....

The psychologist in me is intrigued by the relationships these guys form with their dolls. But then I stumbled on the thread where they thought it cool and sexy to take photos of the dolls sitting on the toilet, like from the movie Eyes Wide Shut....

"There is absolutely nothing wrong with loving your doll. They ask nothing from you yet they give you everything in return. I freely admit that I am deeply in love with my beautiful Jenny and can think of nothing nicer than to spoil and pamper her. She is always in my thoughts. I must say that your Julia looks gorgeous, an absolute darling. She deserves all the love you can give her."

I feel dirty. And I can't wipe the, "Omg, you're freaking me out" look off my face.

charlie61
03-20-2016, 06:26 PM
Start a thread on it, luvs!

baer45
03-20-2016, 07:30 PM
I received a 20 dollar bill on which someone wrote "I sucked a cock for this!" . I have pretty mixed feeling about this.

MistressX
03-20-2016, 08:28 PM
I watched a documentary about love dolls (I wish I could remember what it's called!) Basically it seemed a lot of the buyers are guys who have serious problems connecting with women/are afraid of real women, may be on the autism spectrum, or old widowers who want someone/something to cuddle up with at night. I also wonder if they have a form of objectophilia.

I get that objectophilia stuff though. I mean its a bit creepy with the dolls but I am sorta like that with my hearses. And thats why its basically all I talk about.. I realised this one day while watching My Strange Addiction (which I actually hate how they portray people sometimes) and this dude was on there with his car "Chase". He described how he feels about chase and how their relationship is. Then he told his dad! I was watching that and it totally clicked with me.. He talked about how he had sexual relations with chase and stuff like that..

Which brings me to my ultimate "confession" so far on this thread. I have had sex with two of my hearses (Jimmy and Dusty). As if you guys didnt think I was weird enough XD

xStacey
03-20-2016, 08:46 PM
My ex with whom I have a love/hate relationship, really made me suffer but also brought a lot in my life.... wants me to hurt him in bed. I've always preferred being dominated but he keeps trying to convince me to slap him and be aggressive with him, saying I might even enjoy taking out some frustration on him lol. I've never done that before and he has such a pretty face :( I need some inspiration.

charlie61
03-20-2016, 08:52 PM
My ex with whom I have a love/hate relationship, really made me suffer but also brought a lot in my life.... wants me to hurt him in bed. I've always preferred being dominated but he keeps trying to convince me to slap him and be aggressive with him, saying I might even enjoy taking out some frustration on him lol. I've never done that before and he has such a pretty face :( I need some inspiration.

Channel it into respect and pride for his strength. Like, because he's such a strong, manly man, he can take what you're delivering. Oh yeah? Not enough for you? You want more? My man takes it good. Fuck yeah. You take what I give you. That's right!