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wednesday86
04-05-2016, 07:38 AM
One of my exes is six foot seven & has a dick that was "meh" to me even though it was huge. My current squeeze is a short guy with an average length/girth & he makes me come all the time. TL ; DR G-Spot, he's hitting it right. (I'm petite so this might have something to do with it as well.)

Same...My first husband was 6'4 and I don't remember him being any bigger than my husband now, who is only 5'5 on a good day. I come almost every time we have sex. Hands down the best lover I've ever had. My ex could never get me off. haha

I confess that I've been literally making myself sick worrying and stressing out about school stuff. The ONLY thing that makes me feel better is binge watching Roseanne on Netflix.

Elektra Luxx
04-05-2016, 01:33 PM
One of my exes is six foot seven & has a dick that was "meh" to me even though it was huge. My current squeeze is a short guy with an average length/girth & he makes me come all the time. TL ; DR G-Spot, he's hitting it right. (I'm petite so this might have something to do with it as well.)

LOL, the guy I'm seeing is about 6' 2" and he's little above average, but not huge. So when we're making love, he'll start thrusting hard and fast when he's cumming and when he's done he'll say something like "You okay?", "I didn't hurt you, did I?" And I say "Yes, babe, I may look like and act like you're killing me, but it just feels good".

SnuffleUffleGrass
04-05-2016, 04:06 PM
OK embarrassing confession- since late January I have been communicating with my ex (the guy I was with for 3 years recently & just left last fall.) I had to text him regarding my tax papers & he ended up wanting me to call when he started to figure out he was going to get laid off.

Due to another development (a cancer test that came back positive) he's been nicer and nicer- a couple days ago he encouraged me to come by to see him, & I was supposed to borrow something from him (cheaper than renting it.) Part of me thinks I'm being a "bro" by overlooking our traumatic breakup & part of me thinks I'm being stupid for spending more time & attention on him.

I'm just venting here because part of me feels bad for him. Life can be so cruel and stupid. I guess this is why I *am* wasting my time on being friendly with him, I don't want to be cruel. He did help me out when I was at a low point in life.

xStacey
04-06-2016, 05:39 PM
My eyes hurt. I cried too much over someone who isn't worthy of my tears, not just today or the last couple of days, or weeks, but for too many years. I am letting him go for real this time, and closing this chapter of my life once and for all.

Aurora_Sunset
04-06-2016, 06:31 PM
There's a part of me that wishes I could literally just take 6 months "off" of doing anything, hermit up in the middle of nowhere, and just do nothing all day but binge-watch all the tv series that I want to watch "some day" to get them caught up, done with, and out of the way.

Genoveve
04-06-2016, 06:48 PM
^^It's overrated. Please trust me. The grass is always greener, if you did it you would find it to be pretty anticlimactic pretty quickly. I ended up basically taking monthsssss off, I worked but it was extremely sporadically. And I pretty much did with that time what you are wanting to do.

Elektra Luxx
04-06-2016, 08:42 PM
I'm not hungry, but I'm craving a big, fat, greasy, sloppy, cheesy burger with fries and a chocolate shake. I lost 10 pounds last week because I was sick and now it's like my body telling me "You can't lose weight that fast, I was happy at 126 pounds".

Glamourmilf
04-06-2016, 10:39 PM
^^It's overrated. Please trust me. The grass is always greener, if you did it you would find it to be pretty anticlimactic pretty quickly. I ended up basically taking monthsssss off, I worked but it was extremely sporadically. And I pretty much did with that time what you are wanting to do.
Agreed. I can do it for like a day or 2, and then it gets boring and I get depressed.
The old lady that lives in the house does nothing But sit and veg in front of the tv from morning till night.
She's miserable and lonely. ( but everybody hates her, so she brought it upon herself).
She's my 'Touchstone' to what I NEVER want to become.
But, it sounds like a good cure for burnout, or the anxieties that come from just being an adult.

whirlerz
04-07-2016, 07:33 AM
Glam, I need to send my 'neighbor' over there, he loves to talk, & he can befriend your roomie..
Speaking of which, I kinda ignored him today (I said hi tho)..I actually like talking to him, he's interesting (has been to a lot of places) but damn he's negative & I don't need it right now.

carmen_b
04-07-2016, 07:52 AM
Agreed! I find short get aways are great ( 2-5 days if you can afford it ). It's enough to feel refreshed but short enough to not get depressed / bored.
If you end up doing Weeks off , Id recommend organizing your projects / light volunteer work / or whatever you want to do so you feel like time was different than your normal routine but not " wasted ".
( I've taken time off that wasn't well executed and learned from it than boredom sets in quickly for me )


^^It's overrated. Please trust me. The grass is always greener, if you did it you would find it to be pretty anticlimactic pretty quickly. I ended up basically taking monthsssss off, I worked but it was extremely sporadically. And I pretty much did with that time what you are wanting to do.

whirlerz
04-07-2016, 09:01 AM
There's a part of me that wishes I could literally just take 6 months "off" of doing anything, hermit up in the middle of nowhere, and just do nothing all day but binge-watch all the tv series that I want to watch "some day" to get them caught up, done with, and out of the way.

This inspired me, thank you. I was going to race out to my storage today, I've plenty to do here, + I need to chill.

My confession: I just gave neighbor a cup of soup & crackers

Glamourmilf
04-07-2016, 10:11 AM
Glam, I need to send my 'neighbor' over there, he loves to talk, & he can befriend your roomie..
Speaking of which, I kinda ignored him today (I said hi tho)..I actually like talking to him, he's interesting (has been to a lot of places) but damn he's negative & I don't need it right now.

No, I need to send her over to him! Too many people are already living in this house. Yet ANOTHER bitch and her vicious dog just crashed here a couple of days ago!
But, your friend would end up hating her too, because her only joy in life is to make people miserable with her nitpicking.
Her son kicked her out..she got fired by a friend of mine for telling him he's going to hell for being gay, and for criticizing all his women clients.
Even her accountant hides when she goes there.

whirlerz
04-07-2016, 10:32 AM
Ah yeah, forgot about that, sorry! Lotsa room here! He'd prob run from her too, but maybe for the sake of building a fire under his ass?

Me: I'm kinda bored but having a chill day, I actually worked out a bit on the stair stepper w/the arm poles. :)

Velveteen.Rabbit
04-07-2016, 11:58 AM
I think I'm meant to be a cougar

ScarletKitten
04-07-2016, 05:39 PM
I confess that I've been literally making myself sick worrying and stressing out about school stuff. The ONLY thing that makes me feel better is binge watching Roseanne on Netflix.

I LOVE Roseanne!!! I wish she was my real-life mother. She is the epitome of the most amazing mother IMO. I love her IRL as a person too. She's a little nuts, but that's part of what makes her so endearing. Such a good show. <3 <3 <3

ScarletKitten
04-07-2016, 05:48 PM
My confession for the day: I cannot wait to leave my current partner for good. I straight-up cannot love him anymore. It's been 9 years, and I am done. I plan on moving back down South in May. I love Canada, but I cannot stay here, sadly.

Aurora_Sunset
04-07-2016, 07:07 PM
I've had my fair share of guy friends who liked me as more than a friend that I had to let down. And no matter how many people berated me with "Oh, but he's such a good guy!" I've never really had regrets. I know they're good guys, they're friends, they really care, and all that, but ultimately, I know that there was something in me that just wasn't attracted to them, and there was a reason for that, and there's no use obsessing about what I was "maybe missing out on" and I am solid with my decisions to say no.

But there is one guy... A guy who stopped being my friend and talking to me a little over a year ago so he could get over me and pursue a real girlfriend who wanted to be with him (which he has had for almost a year now). And whenever I think about him, I get super sad and almost regretful.

I REALLY miss him whenever I sit and think about him. I really truly considered him one of my best friends, and I get sad about him every time I think about "how many people do I have around here to call up and hang out with on a regular basis?" and I realize I'm missing him in that number now. And a part of me... doesn't necessarily regret not dating him when I had the chance, but I get mad at myself.

I KNOW that the timing of when he was after me and where I was at that point in my life in terms of letting in a real, serious relationship - the timing was horrible. It was all wrong. It's for the best that things turned out the way they did, because they would have been horrible and ended badly if I had just said "screw it, I should do it" and gone for it at the time. And obviously, it's good that he's moved on to be with someone who actually was in a place to want to be with him.

But then the "why the fuck can't you just be normal?" part of my brain kicks in and recognizes that he really was a good guy, we got along so well, and I knew he really cared about me, and everything in my primal instincts is like "What the fuck is wrong with you? You turned down what any normal woman would be dying for? Just cuz you weren't "ready" you pussy?"

So like... I don't REGRET that we didn't get together cuz it would have been a disaster... but I get mad at myself for not being in a place where I was ready for that cuz it doesn't sound so bad now and I want him back in my life.

xStacey
04-07-2016, 07:24 PM
My confession for the day: I cannot wait to leave my current partner for good. I straight-up cannot love him anymore. It's been 9 years, and I am done. I plan on moving back down South in May. I love Canada, but I cannot stay here, sadly.

:( already

xStacey
04-07-2016, 07:30 PM
I've had my fair share of guy friends who liked me as more than a friend that I had to let down. And no matter how many people berated me with "Oh, but he's such a good guy!" I've never really had regrets. I know they're good guys, they're friends, they really care, and all that, but ultimately, I know that there was something in me that just wasn't attracted to them, and there was a reason for that, and there's no use obsessing about what I was "maybe missing out on" and I am solid with my decisions to say no.

But there is one guy... A guy who stopped being my friend and talking to me a little over a year ago so he could get over me and pursue a real girlfriend who wanted to be with him (which he has had for almost a year now). And whenever I think about him, I get super sad and almost regretful.

I REALLY miss him whenever I sit and think about him. I really truly considered him one of my best friends, and I get sad about him every time I think about "how many people do I have around here to call up and hang out with on a regular basis?" and I realize I'm missing him in that number now. And a part of me... doesn't necessarily regret not dating him when I had the chance, but I get mad at myself.

I KNOW that the timing of when he was after me and where I was at that point in my life in terms of letting in a real, serious relationship - the timing was horrible. It was all wrong. It's for the best that things turned out the way they did, because they would have been horrible and ended badly if I had just said "screw it, I should do it" and gone for it at the time. And obviously, it's good that he's moved on to be with someone who actually was in a place to want to be with him.

But then the "why the fuck can't you just be normal?" part of my brain kicks in and recognizes that he really was a good guy, we got along so well, and I knew he really cared about me, and everything in my primal instincts is like "What the fuck is wrong with you? You turned down what any normal woman would be dying for? Just cuz you weren't "ready" you pussy?"

So like... I don't REGRET that we didn't get together cuz it would have been a disaster... but I get mad at myself for not being in a place where I was ready for that cuz it doesn't sound so bad now and I want him back in my life.

:hug:

I feel awful, but I wish the man I loved for over three years will think of me one day and feel this way about me... But it's a totally different situation and I am sure you did not treat him the way my ex treated me. lol

Genoveve
04-07-2016, 07:36 PM
But then the "why the fuck can't you just be normal?" part of my brain kicks in and recognizes that he really was a good guy, we got along so well, and I knew he really cared about me, and everything in my primal instincts is like "What the fuck is wrong with you? You turned down what any normal woman would be dying for? Just cuz you weren't "ready" you pussy?"

So like... I don't REGRET that we didn't get together cuz it would have been a disaster... but I get mad at myself for not being in a place where I was ready for that cuz it doesn't sound so bad now and I want him back in my life.

I believe that if you're not sure if you should be with someone then it's a definite no. However things do change because people are always evolving(or devolving lol), maybe he wasn't right for the person you were then but he's right for the person you are now. If you really genuinely want to try and give things a go with him I would reach out, unless he's still very seriously dating someone. But if you're feeling regretful because you turned down someone that most of society would have deemed a great catch, don't be. Who cares what other people think? What's going on in your heart is your only concern. A lot of people find themselves in a lot of shitty situations because they settle with what society tells them they should be happy with, and in all areas, not just love.

My last ex was an amazing guy all around and what pretty much everyone would consider to be an amazing catch, and he really was. He will make someone very happy one day, I have nothing but great things to say about him. But I wasn't in love so I broke it off. A lot of people probably would think that I was crazy to do it but I'm the one who has to live with my life and my decisions so who cares. Plus you don't do the other person any favors by having to convince yourself to be with them, people deserve to be with people that really, genuinely want to be with them.

Elektra Luxx
04-07-2016, 07:42 PM
I've had my fair share of guy friends who liked me as more than a friend that I had to let down. And no matter how many people berated me with "Oh, but he's such a good guy!" I've never really had regrets. I know they're good guys, they're friends, they really care, and all that, but ultimately, I know that there was something in me that just wasn't attracted to them, and there was a reason for that, and there's no use obsessing about what I was "maybe missing out on" and I am solid with my decisions to say no.

But there is one guy... A guy who stopped being my friend and talking to me a little over a year ago so he could get over me and pursue a real girlfriend who wanted to be with him (which he has had for almost a year now). And whenever I think about him, I get super sad and almost regretful.

I REALLY miss him whenever I sit and think about him. I really truly considered him one of my best friends, and I get sad about him every time I think about "how many people do I have around here to call up and hang out with on a regular basis?" and I realize I'm missing him in that number now. And a part of me... doesn't necessarily regret not dating him when I had the chance, but I get mad at myself.

I KNOW that the timing of when he was after me and where I was at that point in my life in terms of letting in a real, serious relationship - the timing was horrible. It was all wrong. It's for the best that things turned out the way they did, because they would have been horrible and ended badly if I had just said "screw it, I should do it" and gone for it at the time. And obviously, it's good that he's moved on to be with someone who actually was in a place to want to be with him.

But then the "why the fuck can't you just be normal?" part of my brain kicks in and recognizes that he really was a good guy, we got along so well, and I knew he really cared about me, and everything in my primal instincts is like "What the fuck is wrong with you? You turned down what any normal woman would be dying for? Just cuz you weren't "ready" you pussy?"

So like... I don't REGRET that we didn't get together cuz it would have been a disaster... but I get mad at myself for not being in a place where I was ready for that cuz it doesn't sound so bad now and I want him back in my life.

::heavy deep cleansing sigh:: Sending hugs. A bowl of chocolate ice cream may be needed to take edge off. (Leave the container, screw the diet)

Glamourmilf
04-07-2016, 10:09 PM
I think I'm meant to be a cougar

Welcome Darling. The club for cougars and their cubs is a grand place to be.:D

ScarletKitten
04-07-2016, 11:08 PM
I believe that if you're not sure if you should be with someone then it's a definite no. However things do change because people are always evolving(or devolving lol), maybe he wasn't right for the person you were then but he's right for the person you are now. If you really genuinely want to try and give things a go with him I would reach out, unless he's still very seriously dating someone. But if you're feeling regretful because you turned down someone that most of society would have deemed a great catch, don't be. Who cares what other people think? What's going on in your heart is your only concern. A lot of people find themselves in a lot of shitty situations because they settle with what society tells them they should be happy with, and in all areas, not just love.

My last ex was an amazing guy all around and what pretty much everyone would consider to be an amazing catch, and he really was. He will make someone very happy one day, I have nothing but great things to say about him. But I wasn't in love so I broke it off. A lot of people probably would think that I was crazy to do it but I'm the one who has to live with my life and my decisions so who cares. Plus you don't do the other person any favors by having to convince yourself to be with them, people deserve to be with people that really, genuinely want to be with them.

Girl, PREACH. For the past 2-3 years I've had to convince myself that I love this guy I'm living with now. I stayed with him out of habit and because I didn't want to hurt him. LAME. I'm sorry but I love myself way too much for that shit anymore. I'm like Samantha Jones. "I love you, but I love me more." How can I stay with someone I'm not madly, deeply in love with? Or at least passionate about on a soul level.

Genoveve, everything you say is gold. Thank you.

ScarletKitten
04-07-2016, 11:09 PM
I've had my fair share of guy friends who liked me as more than a friend that I had to let down. And no matter how many people berated me with "Oh, but he's such a good guy!" I've never really had regrets. I know they're good guys, they're friends, they really care, and all that, but ultimately, I know that there was something in me that just wasn't attracted to them, and there was a reason for that, and there's no use obsessing about what I was "maybe missing out on" and I am solid with my decisions to say no.

But there is one guy... A guy who stopped being my friend and talking to me a little over a year ago so he could get over me and pursue a real girlfriend who wanted to be with him (which he has had for almost a year now). And whenever I think about him, I get super sad and almost regretful.

I REALLY miss him whenever I sit and think about him. I really truly considered him one of my best friends, and I get sad about him every time I think about "how many people do I have around here to call up and hang out with on a regular basis?" and I realize I'm missing him in that number now. And a part of me... doesn't necessarily regret not dating him when I had the chance, but I get mad at myself.

I KNOW that the timing of when he was after me and where I was at that point in my life in terms of letting in a real, serious relationship - the timing was horrible. It was all wrong. It's for the best that things turned out the way they did, because they would have been horrible and ended badly if I had just said "screw it, I should do it" and gone for it at the time. And obviously, it's good that he's moved on to be with someone who actually was in a place to want to be with him.

But then the "why the fuck can't you just be normal?" part of my brain kicks in and recognizes that he really was a good guy, we got along so well, and I knew he really cared about me, and everything in my primal instincts is like "What the fuck is wrong with you? You turned down what any normal woman would be dying for? Just cuz you weren't "ready" you pussy?"

So like... I don't REGRET that we didn't get together cuz it would have been a disaster... but I get mad at myself for not being in a place where I was ready for that cuz it doesn't sound so bad now and I want him back in my life.

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Aurora_Sunset
04-08-2016, 06:11 AM
Thanks girls! I really didn't mean to threadjack!

whirlerz
04-08-2016, 08:54 AM
Aw we wuvs U, Aurora!

Omg, Homo phallis posted about PUA, in blue sec, lmaio

baer45
04-08-2016, 09:13 AM
I'm the one who has to live with my life and my decisions so who cares. Plus you don't do the other person any favors by having to convince yourself to be with them, people deserve to be with people that really, genuinely want to be with them.

Very reasonable statement right there!

baer45
04-08-2016, 09:16 AM
::heavy deep cleansing sigh:: Sending hugs. A bowl of chocolate ice cream may be needed to take edge off. (Leave the container, screw the diet)

Note to myself, if I take Elektra's food/snacks away, I can mind control her.

SweetJulia
04-09-2016, 07:39 AM
I knew we were gonna get a blizzard, no one believed me. A neighbor thought it was just gonna be a few snowflakes and ended up in a ditch. I love how everyone who makes fun of me for not wanting to drive in bad weather has been in accidents cuz they tried to. I feel bad for them, but you'd think they'd be more understanding after something like that.

SnuffleUffleGrass
04-09-2016, 07:41 AM
I knew we were gonna get a blizzard, no one believed me. A neighbor thought it was just gonna be a few snowflakes and ended up in a ditch. I love how everyone who makes fun of me for not wanting to drive in bad weather has been in accidents cuz they tried to. I feel bad for them, but you'd think they'd be more understanding after something like that.

LOL yeah Nature is squirting out a couple snowstorms pretty late too. Soo sick of it.

Velveteen.Rabbit
04-09-2016, 10:12 AM
Welcome Darling. The club for cougars and their cubs is a grand place to be.:D

Yeah like, I don't see myself at 50 with a 50-60 year old. I see myself with a 27-37 year old LOL. My exes had always told me I would end up being a cougar and was like fuck noooo! But now I see it. I don't think I'm quite ready for cougaring now since I'm only pushing 30, but I know for sure in the future it's probably headed that way!

xStacey
04-09-2016, 11:07 AM
I am really thinking about booking a week of vacation somewhere alone, after my last final exam to clear my head.

Glamourmilf
04-09-2016, 11:19 AM
Yeah like, I don't see myself at 50 with a 50-60 year old. I see myself with a 27-37 year old LOL. My exes had always told me I would end up being a cougar and was like fuck noooo! But now I see it. I don't think I'm quite ready for cougaring now since I'm only pushing 30, but I know for sure in the future it's probably headed that way!

I agree. I'm over 40, and when people question me as to why I prefer younger guys, I say, " I liked 20 year old guys when I was 20, and I LOVE them now!" Everyone gets a good laugh at that.

SweetJulia
04-09-2016, 12:08 PM
Add me to the club, too! My confession: I usually go into camming on Saturday with a goal of five dollars. This is on the rare occasions I even work them. I made twenty times that and am calling it a day. The later it gets, the slower it gets. It's like the opposite of stripping.

Vyanka
04-09-2016, 01:24 PM
Yeah like, I don't see myself at 50 with a 50-60 year old. I see myself with a 27-37 year old LOL. My exes had always told me I would end up being a cougar and was like fuck noooo! But now I see it. I don't think I'm quite ready for cougaring now since I'm only pushing 30, but I know for sure in the future it's probably headed that way!


I agree. I'm over 40, and when people question me as to why I prefer younger guys, I say, " I liked 20 year old guys when I was 20, and I LOVE them now!" Everyone gets a good laugh at that.

Youngins keep you looking and feeling young too. :D Plus being worshipped by a younger guy made me feel like Queen Da'Shit. Lol

charlie61
04-09-2016, 03:11 PM
I have this paranoia that I've gotten "stupider" in the last year or two.

I think the truth is that a mixture of traumatic living (my partner's health, my career crisis, switching apartments every 6-12 months) and unhealthy coping mechanisms (watching too much Netflix) are the true culprits. I'm sure that as my life calms down, my brain will function more efficiently.

whirlerz
04-09-2016, 06:32 PM
Yep! ^ I can relate, Charlie..

Now. I'm browsing on S/A, some guy complemented me which's nice, but what really made me happy is I see this weirdo I was with, he's on there (the most recently active ones are @ the top..
Ahahahaha! He's not doing so great on there, cause he's a JACK ASS. Thank you.

seashell
04-09-2016, 08:12 PM
I have this paranoia that I've gotten "stupider" in the last year or two.

I think the truth is that a mixture of traumatic living (my partner's health, my career crisis, switching apartments every 6-12 months) and unhealthy coping mechanisms (watching too much Netflix) are the true culprits. I'm sure that as my life calms down, my brain will function more efficiently.
I've felt the same way during rough times. It's definitely a symptom of stress. You can only handle so much, so your brain gets forgetful.

seashell
04-09-2016, 08:25 PM
Am thinking that jumping into dating, just 2 months out of a 5 year relationship, was a bad idea. The new guy I'm seeing is flirting with me via text message, and I have nooo idea how to deal with it. I've basically been clawing out my eyeballs and going "Stop! Make it stooop..." for the past 10 minutes.

Well, at least he's nice. It's been a long time since I've had "nice."

Aurora_Sunset
04-10-2016, 12:05 PM
I'm having one of those random days where I feel like ditching my plans to move and keep doing sex work, and instead just settle down here, get a regular job, start dating again, and just start being a normal person my age.

xStacey
04-10-2016, 04:07 PM
I am really disappointed... I had a best friend, I've known him since high school. But as we aged, we became more and more distant. He was always in relationships, he always dated bitches who didn't like me, especially his last (and current) girlfriend. We would talk and see each other less whenever he was in relationships. But he's been with the same girl for a couple of years now, I stopped making efforts to see him, because he was always unavailable or he would bring his girlfriend. I tried being friendly with her but she would ignore me and only talk to her boyfriend as if I didn't exist, in mandarin (I don't speak mandarin). He did not contact me at all to ask how I've been doing the last few months and I've been so busy with school...

Today I wanted to talk to him and I searched for him on Facebook and realized we're not friends anymore. He deleted me from his friends list. I am really shocked. I am not a big fan of social media, so I don't know when that happened. I still can't believe this. Nothing happened, we did not fight, he just deleted me and we were close friends since we were 14 years old?... I wonder if it's because of his girlfriend who doesn't like me... I remember trying to add her when I just opened a Facebook account in September and she just ignored my friend request so I cancelled it lol.

Genoveve
04-10-2016, 05:01 PM
I confess that I wish I could be one of those girls that I always see on instagram who go to the gym looking like total hoochies. I would love to be able to wear nothing but one of my sexy sportsbras and some leggings and go workout like that but I don't like attention. It's a bummer because I have SO many sexy sportsbras that I love but they always have to remain hidden under shirts, I feel like it's a waste.

baer45
04-10-2016, 06:12 PM
I'm having one of those random days where I feel like ditching my plans to move and keep doing sex work, and instead just settle down here, get a regular job, start dating again, and just start being a normal person my age.

Sooner or later, one day we all will do that. It's only a matter of time. At least that's how i feel.

Elektra Luxx
04-10-2016, 07:24 PM
I asked my younger sister to moved in with me because I found myself freaking out when I was alone. I started hearing things and seeing things in the shadows and I couldn't sleep. My sister and her bf have the run of the place, but I don't care. Though, tonight I'm by myself. My sister and her bf are at the coast and my bf (he not really my bf, but it is easier to say than "the guy I've been seeing") is spending time with his family. So I asked my little brother to spend the night. Whew! I never had a problem before. My overall anxiety is really escalating.

wednesday86
04-11-2016, 07:14 AM
This traveler girl I follow on instagram is in India apparently taking photos of the "beautiful people" (eye roll) but whenever she posts a picture of a dirty looking Indian man I just think "Stinky groper...Stinky groper pervert...He looks like he stinks." Thanks Stripping...

carmen_b
04-11-2016, 09:33 AM
^ If it's any consolation , I've found Indian guys to be cheap and creepy in my day job too. Stereotypes definitely started somewhere and continue on .....
It's sad but we actually can guess ( with 90% accuracy ) who might be a pain in the ass as a client.
We usually try to avoid them or if we found out we have one , we always stress the Value they are getting for xyz or even throw in a Freebie as a way to proactively avoid the " I didn't get enough for my money !" whining they are known for.

baer45
04-11-2016, 10:27 AM
I asked my younger sister to moved in with me because I found myself freaking out when I was alone. I started hearing things and seeing things in the shadows and I couldn't sleep. My sister and her bf have the run of the place, but I don't care. Though, tonight I'm by myself. My sister and her bf are at the coast and my bf (he not really my bf, but it is easier to say than "the guy I've been seeing") is spending time with his family. So I asked my little brother to spend the night. Whew! I never had a problem before. My overall anxiety is really escalating.

I don't know I have the same problem like you have. BUT I like to have my TV on in the living room (pretty much 24/7). It usually plays friends all night when I sleep. That gives me comfort. :)
Plus, I have all the "lifeline" stuff in my bedroom. You know, Benelli M1 shotgun, lazer equiped .357 mag revovler...etc. yeah, I am a badass crazy bitch. I feel safe.

Elektra Luxx
04-11-2016, 11:00 AM
I don't know I have the same problem like you have. BUT I like to have my TV on in the living room (pretty much 24/7). It usually plays friends all night when I sleep. That gives me comfort. :)
Plus, I have all the "lifeline" stuff in my bedroom. You know, Benelli M1 shotgun, lazer equiped .357 mag revovler...etc. yeah, I am a badass crazy bitch. I feel safe.

I'm not so much afraid of someone breaking in and hurting me although that is a concern. It's more about being alone with myself, my thoughts and my impulses. I've tried to hurt myself in the past and I've been committed to a mental health facility twice. I don't trust myself completely when I'm feeling this way. I begin to having trouble distinguishing fantasy from reallity. My sister get rid of sharp objects, I only have meds for the week, I have an appointment with my therapist and my psychiatrist to adjust my meds. I'm at work right now and I'm okay because people are around and my mind is occupied.

baer45
04-11-2016, 12:37 PM
I'm not so much afraid of someone breaking in and hurting me although that is a concern. It's more about being alone with myself, my thoughts and my impulses. I've tried to hurt myself in the past and I've been committed to a mental health facility twice. I don't trust myself completely when I'm feeling this way. I begin to having trouble distinguishing fantasy from reallity. My sister get rid of sharp objects, I only have meds for the week, I have an appointment with my therapist and my psychiatrist to adjust my meds. I'm at work right now and I'm okay because people are around and my mind is occupied.

Damn girl ! I hope some professional specialists can help you.

xStacey
04-11-2016, 01:14 PM
I really wonder who the surgeon of some of those Instagram celebrities are... There's one girl in my area, I saw her pictures from 7 years ago and she clearly got a nose job, but it looks so natural, she went from pretty to super gorgeous. I want a nose job so bad.