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baer45
05-02-2016, 08:59 AM
It was such a pretty day today. Me and the bf (just us) went on a day trip out of town. We ate in his SUV on the way, took a nature hike, sat by the water and did some fishing. In the SUV on the the way home I asked (in a playing around way)
Me: Are you seeing anyone else?
Him::Taken aback, confused look::
Me:: a look of "just asking silly willy"::
Him: Why?
Me: Just asking, we're just talking and I was just wondering.
Him: Are you asking because I said I don't want a commitment right now?
Me: Not at all. Just asking. (Me inside: OMG!!!)
Him: You need to relax and stop over thinking things. No, just you my dear.
You pull a 1911 at his head and say it mercilessly: You can beg me to marry you right now or I can send you to meet all my exes.
baer45
05-02-2016, 09:04 AM
I don't know about all of them. I do know that SM only gives you 35%. I thought long and hard about whether or not I should...decided maybe in the future. But right now, I'll be doing token based sites.
35%? Note to myself in another dimension in 2000: start a cam website and pay those poor girls 50%
Elektra Luxx
05-02-2016, 10:16 AM
You pull a 1911 at his head and say it mercilessly: You can beg me to marry you right now or I can send you to meet all my exes.
It was an innocent question. I was just trying to make conversation on the trip back. You know, fill in the time. There's is absolutely no rush, no pressure on my part.
baer45
05-02-2016, 11:58 AM
It was an innocent question. I was just trying to make conversation on the trip back. You know, fill in the time. There's is absolutely no rush, no pressure on my part.
were you driving at the time? :P
Elektra Luxx
05-02-2016, 02:55 PM
were you driving at the time? :P
No, he was driving. Why? I don't see your angle.
lynn2009
05-02-2016, 03:00 PM
No he was driving. Why? I don't see your angle.
I think she means he can't leave or avoid the question when you guys are in a car together.
carmen_b
05-02-2016, 03:02 PM
^ That's what I took it as. Risky discussion if in motion in a vehicle .
baer45
05-02-2016, 05:38 PM
^ that.
Melyssax
05-02-2016, 11:45 PM
I can't wait until the summer is over !! hopefully these next 3 months breeze on by
Elektra Luxx
05-03-2016, 04:58 AM
No he was driving. Why? I don't see your angle.
Oh. ::deep sigh:: that may explain my relationship problems in a nutshell.
xStacey
05-03-2016, 07:08 AM
I can't understand... Why do I do this to myself?
Glamourmilf
05-03-2016, 10:09 AM
I can't wait until the summer is over !! hopefully these next 3 months breeze on by
I feel the same way. Not only is summer slow on cam, but it's so freaking hot constantly. I feel cooped up, because it stays over a hundred degrees for 5 months straight. Yuck
AnoniCat
05-03-2016, 10:41 AM
My vanilla life has been so hectic I haven't "worked" in damn near a month. It's been nothing but school related and writing deadlines. I never really thought of sexwork as a stress relieving outlet, but I'm looking forward to getting back to work. Even my other hobbies don't look all that appealing, but then again they don't make me money either lol.
I also didn't realize how much I missed logging onto SW and hearing from you beautiful ladies until just now. I've been so sick of typing, the computer, the internet, statistics, hell even google that I've stayed away from it all when not working on school stuff.
kaninchen
05-03-2016, 11:11 AM
I'm kind of hoping I'll get my period today so I'll have an excuse to skip work tonight.
charlie61
05-03-2016, 05:08 PM
Pear-shaped women get along really well with me. It's just something odd I've noticed. They're really down-to-earth, cool, and they like me.
/revelationbroughttoyoubywhitezinfandel
charlie61
05-03-2016, 06:00 PM
I am seriously considering leaving my nine-year relationship.
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SimoneGray
05-03-2016, 06:05 PM
^^ hugs girl...I can't imagine what you must be feeling right now. Just lots of hugs.
SexxiLexxi
05-03-2016, 07:48 PM
I brought a cute little Batman nighty. Amd foundation, blending brush, and eyeliner.
Hubby doesn't know that I spent $40 ... yet.
(P.S. We have a bit over $1,000 saved for moving andthe $40 was from my vanilla business so yea. Lol Im a bit of an adult sometimes.)
22lligm
05-04-2016, 04:31 PM
This is so depressing and a feel sorry for myself post but.. my birthday is Sunday and I'm sad I have no one to hangout with for it :( At home I would always go to my dads and have dinner with my family and always end up going out with my friends so this year I'm going to do absolutely nothing lol. So depressing. That guy I was talking to was going to take me out to dinner but now I'm not talking to him anymore thats not happening.
Blah.
whirlerz
05-04-2016, 05:03 PM
This is so depressing and a feel sorry for myself post but.. my birthday is Sunday and I'm sad I have no one to hangout with for it :( At home I would always go to my dads and have dinner with my family and always end up going out with my friends so this year I'm going to do absolutely nothing lol. So depressing. That guy I was talking to was going to take me out to dinner but now I'm not talking to him anymore thats not happening.
Blah.
Aww, sorry! I can relate, my B day is the 21st, which I hate b/c it's so close to Memorial Day (please, nothing against the Vets tho) & I don't have much to do either! I sure as hell don't wanna hang out w/my guy either.
22lligm
05-04-2016, 07:38 PM
Aww, sorry! I can relate, my B day is the 21st, which I hate b/c it's so close to Memorial Day (please, nothing against the Vets tho) & I don't have much to do either! I sure as hell don't wanna hang out w/my guy either.
Aw well I guess we're in the same boat then. Happy early birthday to us! *hugs*
thatgingercamgirl
05-04-2016, 08:32 PM
I left a six-year relationship last year, and the farther it gets in my mental rear view mirror the more I have started to reflect on how many of my relationships have revolved around the ego of my ex, and just how unequal and unhealthy my relationships have been. It's really strengthening my resolve to not get into another relationship until I'm sure that that will never happen again. I'm done feeding into other people's egos, so very done.
ScarletKitten
05-05-2016, 12:02 AM
I confess that I love you all. I have so much love, and it may seem odd or cheesy to some of ya'll, but I really mean it. I feel a real kinship with my sisters here. Keep on rockin', my sexy females!! <3 <3 <3
Vyanka
05-05-2016, 02:11 AM
I confess that I love you all. I have so much love, and it may seem odd or cheesy to some of ya'll, but I really mean it. I feel a real kinship with my sisters here. Keep on rockin', my sexy females!! <3 <3 <3
"Where have you been?
Cause I never see you out
Are you hiding from me, yeah?
Somewhere in the crowd" -
:P
ScarletKitten
05-05-2016, 09:00 AM
^^ I love that song! Oh man, that brings back good strip club memories, damn! I moved back down South and didn't have internet access for a while. But I'm here now..... :-*
lynn2009
05-05-2016, 08:31 PM
I used to be super judgmental about people who drove to short places but now it is pathetic the extent I will spend 10+ minutes laboriously parallel parking rather than using the lot, going back and forth, turning the car off seeing that I am still a foot away from the curb and going back to adjust it. Ugh.
Melyssax
05-05-2016, 09:45 PM
I really need a vacation!!!!!!!!!! I would love to go out of town somewhere.
lynn2009
05-07-2016, 03:47 PM
I wanted a new credit card for people with excellent credit so I applied and got approved for one but now I have buyers remorse because there's a 75 dollar fee. Ugh. I feel myself slipping into worse habits now that I am earning more as my debts go down, so bad.
baer45
05-07-2016, 04:07 PM
I wanted a new credit card for people with excellent credit so I applied and got approved for one but now I have buyers remorse because there's a 75 dollar fee. Ugh. I feel myself slipping into worse habits now that I am earning more as my debts go down, so bad.
Does it come with promotion bonous points when you spend couple thousand dollars with it?
SimoneGray
05-08-2016, 03:32 PM
I confess that I wish I could do the bold, filled in brows trend...but I cannot, I just end up looking like Frida Kahlo and not in a cool artsy way either.
Genoveve
05-08-2016, 04:20 PM
^^I tend to think that thick brows only look good on girls who were actually born with thick brows.
I used to be super judgmental about people who drove to short places but now it is pathetic the extent I will spend 10+ minutes laboriously parallel parking rather than using the lot, going back and forth, turning the car off seeing that I am still a foot away from the curb and going back to adjust it. Ugh.
I used to live a couple short blocks from a CVS and I would still drive to it all the time. I have no excuses.
lynn2009
05-08-2016, 05:19 PM
Does it come with promotion bonous points when you spend couple thousand dollars with it?
Yes 350 which I know I'll get plus very good cash back. But it's still a waste when I didn't need it and year to year the regular cash back isn't going to do much more than just cover the fee. It would be better for a large family (6% back on groceries).
kaninchen
05-09-2016, 10:12 AM
I'm wearing a rainbow leopard print work bikini top under my gym clothes today because I can't find any of my sports bras.
ScarletKitten
05-09-2016, 10:56 AM
^^I bet you look hot as sin in that rainbow leopard print top! :-*
My confession is that I went to church with my mother last night for Mother's Day. (I know, I know, shocker!) And the preacher was so handsome, that I started getting wicked thoughts of corrupting him sexually. He is married and a good Christian man, but damn, if I could have some fun with him with my slutty, sinful ways.....praise Jesus. mwhahahaha! }:D
charlie61
05-09-2016, 11:07 AM
I'm working on cursing less. Even though cursing is fun, I feel like it makes me less intelligent (it takes more mental effort to come up with expressions that don't involve bad words), and I know cursing makes me *sound* less intelligent. Whenever I come across someone who uses a lot of curse words, they sound so crass and uneducated to me (I realize that's a social bias, but I'm being honest). They think they sound so cool and young, but...no.
I don't want to sound like that. Time to grow up a little.
kaninchen
05-09-2016, 12:25 PM
My second confession for today is that I'm very disorganized and it's embarrassing, frankly. I expected to receive my diploma in the mail months ago and I've been wondering why I haven't received it yet. Of course, instead of proactively doing anything to figure out where it is, I've just been waiting... and waiting... and waiting for it to arrive.
Well, today I received a bill from my university instead. It turns out there was a fee I had to pay for the diploma to be processed, but I never thought to check my student billing account after I paid my final tuition. I can't believe some stupid $30 fee that took me literally two minutes to pay has been the issue this whole time.
Genius, kaninchen. :graduate:
Velveteen.Rabbit
05-09-2016, 01:16 PM
I confess that I wish I could do the bold, filled in brows trend...but I cannot, I just end up looking like Frida Kahlo and not in a cool artsy way either.
Same. I've considered doing a hair transfer LOL. Dark, thick, bold brows are so pretty. My natural hair is almost black but somehow my brows are blonde and sparse. Genetics lol
baer45
05-09-2016, 04:49 PM
Yes 350 which I know I'll get plus very good cash back. But it's still a waste when I didn't need it and year to year the regular cash back isn't going to do much more than just cover the fee. It would be better for a large family (6% back on groceries).
I just applied Chase Sapphire Preferred Credit Card two days ago. It has promotion 50k Bonus Points ($625 towards travel) w/ $4000 Spent in First 3 Months of Account Opening. It's perfect for traveling. First year free of annual fee ($95). Just like you, I don't spend too much on groceries but I do like use points to travel.
lynn2009
05-09-2016, 06:10 PM
I don't know why I always let myself get expectant of and then disappointed by the married guy.
Genoveve
05-09-2016, 07:53 PM
I'm working on cursing less. Even though cursing is fun, I feel like it makes me less intelligent (it takes more mental effort to come up with expressions that don't involve bad words), and I know cursing makes me *sound* less intelligent. Whenever I come across someone who uses a lot of curse words, they sound so crass and uneducated to me (I realize that's a social bias, but I'm being honest). They think they sound so cool and young, but...no.
I don't want to sound like that. Time to grow up a little.
You're stronger than I am. I curse a lot, like a LOT, and I've gone through a few phases over the years of trying to clean it up so I wouldn't sound so crass, but eventually I was like 'Everyone in my family curses like sailors, all of my friends curse like sailors, any guy that I'm going to be with is going to curse like a sailor......fuck it. I'm a curser.' I embrace it now, and I am actually crass as fuck so why should I try to pretend otherwise LOL. I do get exactly what you mean though because as much as I curse and as okay as I am with it, I feel like it's bad manners to do it in front of people you aren't really familiar with, especially if it's a guy doing it around random women. I mean cursing IS generally considered to be rude so I try not to expose the general public to my potty mouth.
whirlerz
05-10-2016, 01:55 PM
I'm doing an 8 session focus group this & next week..there's a guy there I kinda like, I think he may like me (we're going into day 3 tomorrow). Kinda thinking about asking him out for coffee or something?
22lligm
05-10-2016, 02:01 PM
Ahh this may be a bad idea but I'm starting to text my manager who I have a little crush on lol. I've NEVER done this at any of the clubs I've worked at over the years and these things could get messy but whatever. Idk why all of sudden he's texting me and wanting to hangout but I'm okay with it lol ;D
carmen_b
05-10-2016, 04:50 PM
Bail !
Or at least charge him. :)
I don't know why I always let myself get expectant of and then disappointed by the married guy.
thatgingercamgirl
05-10-2016, 11:28 PM
I wish I had learned to accept the bisexual side of myself much sooner in my life...it's weird how fundamentalist religious programming can stay with you for years and you don't even realize it.
CocoaCaramelBBW
05-10-2016, 11:50 PM
I've been contemplating leaving my husband.He's been great and everything. Family and friends love him. But my loner ways are creeping back in,have been since late last year,way before I even started adult work.after 10 yrs together,5 yrs married in the fall, I don't think i want to be attached to anyone anymore.But i'm also a little afraid of starting over. wtf.
xStacey
05-12-2016, 12:41 PM
I'm so heartbroken...
Aurora_Sunset
05-12-2016, 01:00 PM
There's a small part of me that is grateful that I've either alienated every guy friend who worshiped me and was attractive, but I didn't like "in that way," or otherwise the only ones still around are far too unattractive for me to even try to pretend that I'm ok with it - because I've honestly hit this weird point where I might be willing to give in to having a guy around who worships me and isn't gross to look at, even if I'm not actually into them, just to get the pressure of dating off my back and out of my head. But I also promised myself I would never be with someone just because of societal pressure, so I'm glad I have no real options for that right now.
Also, I checked out my ex's facebook today, and even though we haven't spoken since the breakup (3 years ago), and it's absolutely none of my business, it kinda makes my day to see that his shady ex (who was always a huge issue in our relationship) posts to his facebook constantly, and he likes and responds to everyone else's posts except hers which sit totally ignored. We may not have been a match romantically anymore for other reasons, but still, screw her...
BabyWillow
05-12-2016, 05:45 PM
I should have spent the day unpacking, not rolling over in my bed and having a mini heart attack every half hour. oops
carmen_b
05-12-2016, 06:07 PM
Wow, I was downtown in my new city and saw the most beautiful tall white men in suits. You just don't see that living on an island ( or where I was anyway ) . I made sure to drive slow and take full advantage of the mirrors for the most ogling factor.
Destinyfulfilled
05-12-2016, 06:17 PM
I am the strongest woman i know. After all that i went through with the narcissists in my life, its a miracle that im still standing tall. How i have not broken, God knows.