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miss.a.p1600
05-12-2016, 07:34 PM
I think I have a couple of fetishes and I wish I could start a site and see how much money I could make exploring them.
Glamourmilf
05-12-2016, 09:30 PM
Wow, I was downtown in my new city and saw the most beautiful tall white men in suits. You just don't see that living on an island ( or mine anyway ) . I made sure to drive slow and take full advantage of the mirrors for the most ogling factor.
I miss living in the city. The stupidity alone in this hick town, not to mention that everyone looks and acts like the dead people from the Thriller video...I'm over it.
Bring me the suits!!! Lol!
We had a rabbit like you
05-13-2016, 03:14 PM
Just found out I'm pregnant, the dreaded little plus sign on the pee stick! I'm about to get married and i feel like I SHOULD be excited but my mind is reeling and I'm feeling trapped right now like a cornered animal. Really need to get my mind straight
snakesandmonkeys
05-13-2016, 07:50 PM
I'm sure every woman that reads your post wants to give you a hug and would support any decision you come too. I know I do :)
Genoveve
05-13-2016, 10:40 PM
I have a gluttonous confession; so I made 2 chocolate cakes for my friend's bday party because we both prefer different types and it occurred to me that since, you know, there would be other people at the party, that I wouldn't be able to pig out on the one I like as much as I would like because I would be sharing it with others. So I made a third cake just to keep at home and eat myself. I'm literally sitting in bed right now with a fork and a whole cake on a plate and it is glorious. I think I might have to work something like "I love you as much as I love chocolate" into my future wedding vows.
BabyWillow
05-13-2016, 10:55 PM
I really don't like seeing dolled up and scantily dressed ladies on my Facebook feed thanks to my fiancé liking the picture. I don't care if it's petty, I don't like it and if he doesn't start considering my feelings I'm going to start not liking him. ��
I just posted this on my wall so only him and my closest girlfriends can see it because I'm a salty brat 44939
Vyanka
05-13-2016, 11:32 PM
I really don't like seeing dolled up and scantily dressed ladies on my Facebook feed thanks to my fiancé liking the picture. I don't care if it's petty, I don't like it and if he doesn't start considering my feelings I'm going to start not liking him. ��
I just posted this on my wall so only him and my closest girlfriends can see it because I'm a salty brat 44939
Start liking pictures of hot guys with ripped abs. ;)
SimoneGray
05-14-2016, 06:54 AM
I love court tv...its hilarious.
ScarletKitten
05-15-2016, 12:34 AM
I think I've come to the conclusion that all men are weak and pathetic. I'm going to just start dating women only.
carmen_b
05-15-2016, 09:02 AM
It's kind of lame of him ! :/
I really don't like seeing dolled up and scantily dressed ladies on my Facebook feed thanks to my fiancé liking the picture. I don't care if it's petty, I don't like it and if he doesn't start considering my feelings I'm going to start not liking him. ��
I just posted this on my wall so only him and my closest girlfriends can see it because I'm a salty brat 44939
carmen_b
05-15-2016, 09:15 AM
I would probably make some sort of deal with the devil if I could get my partner to stop resisting international travel ( to fully explain he supports my trips but I'm tired of being celibate and quasi - single on the road ). I want a month of travel out of the country , we can afford it , we have no obligations holding us ..,, just his weird resistance.
I'm not doing the " waiting " thing on international travel anymore. I'm going again late summer or fall and I guess whoever can get it together and show up can go ( including him ).
lynn2009
05-15-2016, 09:43 AM
I wish I could get into hookup culture. Sometimes I feel desperate for decent sex. But it's never going to happen I think stripping and the men I dated during burned me out so badly. No guys seem deserving at all anymore.
SnuffleUffleGrass
05-15-2016, 10:52 AM
I wish I could get into hookup culture. Sometimes I feel desperate for decent sex. But it's never going to happen I think stripping and the men I dated during burned me out so badly. No guys seem deserving at all anymore.
Yeah I quit doing one night stands when it wasn't fun anymore.
carmen_b
05-15-2016, 11:09 AM
^ I attempted some , but it was never interesting enough to even have sex with them. ;/
It's so boring to me without emotional backing. I could think of 100 things I'd rather do than give someone I barely know physical attention. Plus with the exposure to sex work ..... I can't shake the feeling that the guy is actually stealing from me ! The long and short of it is that this kind of thing is just NOT for me .
Genoveve
05-15-2016, 11:59 AM
I could think of 100 things I'd rather do than give someone I barely know physical attention.
Same. I wish I could be more promiscuous because I have a very high sex drive that's increasing with age but I just can't seem to do random hookups. I think the thing for me is that in order to want a guy to bang me/be attracted to him I have to highly respect him, and I rarely have that much respect for people.
lynn2009
05-15-2016, 06:47 PM
Kind of related confession, my brother is getting divorced after ~5 years and it potentially could get ugly. So I'm going to be as supportive as I can but now after after my sister was divorced after less than a year and now this maybe my mom can back off my own romantic issues.
Velveteen.Rabbit
05-16-2016, 03:19 PM
Kind of related confession, my brother is getting divorced after ~5 years and it potentially could get ugly. So I'm going to be as supportive as I can but now after after my sister was divorced after less than a year and now this maybe my mom can back off my own romantic issues.
Haaaa yeah that's why my mom told me not to ever get married lol. I'm waiting til I'm 37+ to ever get married. Old enough where it's embarrassing if I'm going out too much, and too old to not know specific interests and life goals. Who knows it I'll ever let myself get that far though lol
Aurora_Sunset
05-17-2016, 06:43 AM
I actually hate how non-emotional I am around people in my life, but I almost feel like it's because I'm a tiny, innocent-looking woman that I can't express emotions. People "complain" about how they can't read me or I never seem particularly upset or enthusiastic about anything, but in general, they seem to be comfortable around me regardless. Any time I've dared to express a bad day, I'm instantly treated like a fragile glass object that's about to break at worst, and had people shy away from an uncomfortable conversation at best. Then they either never bring it up again out of discomfort and go back to acting like I should be a robot, or else that's all they ever bring up and talk about anymore, making me feel like I can't have a human moment without being labeled inherently weak.
I have one guy friend who doesn't do this shit to me. When I brought up how much I appreciated it, he said "I think it's important to realize that everyone has bad moments where they're not as strong as they wish they were, but that doesn't change who you are or how I should relate to you. You're human. I know you well enough to know that you need to get things off your chest sometimes, but your periodic weakest moments don't define you." Like damn... why can't everyone understand that?
I honestly feel like one of the reasons I get so annoyed by other people's "neediness" is just because I feel like I'm not allowed to express my own. I'm actually pretty empathetic and understanding - it's just hard to access when I feel like I've pushed into being one of those people who's like "yeah, well, I had to suck it up - why don't you?"
BambiCutie
05-17-2016, 07:09 AM
Using ex's broken computer chair after giving him mine before things ended, been alternating between using a metal futon bed and sleeping on the couch. My lower back hasn't cracked this loud before in my life, feels like a giant thud against my pelvis.
lynn2009
05-17-2016, 08:42 AM
I honestly feel like one of the reasons I get so annoyed by other people's "neediness" is just because I feel like I'm not allowed to express my own. I'm actually pretty empathetic and understanding - it's just hard to access when I feel like I've pushed into being one of those people who's like "yeah, well, I had to suck it up - why don't you?"
Wow this is so like me
Glamourmilf
05-17-2016, 10:07 AM
I confess that when being an adult gets to be too much, I spend some time in the toy store, pretending I'm a kid again, who has a certain amount of her allowance to spend.
Since I need to get things for my cam shows anyway ( for the CEI, SPH, & Giantess sessions), it's fun to be a kid again.
Plus, there's so many cool and inventive toys now. Way, way more than when I was a kid.;D
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charlie61
05-17-2016, 02:01 PM
I confess that I have a piece of opaque tape covering up the built-in webcam on my laptop, because I'm paranoid. I never do stuff like that!
Genoveve
05-17-2016, 03:17 PM
I confess that when being an adult gets to be too much, I spend some time in the toy store, pretending I'm a kid again, who has a certain amount of her allowance to spend.
Since I need to get things for my cam shows anyway ( for the CEI, SPH, & Giantess sessions), it's fun to be a kid again.
Plus, there's so many cool and inventive toys now. Way, way more than when I was a kid.;D
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I go into the Disney store every time I go to the mall even though I never buy anything.
Aurora_Sunset
05-17-2016, 10:55 PM
I'm legitimately super excited about something for the first time in forever, and have no one to share it with at that level. That depresses me more than anything else.
ScarletKitten
05-17-2016, 11:07 PM
^^What are you excited about? Share it with us! Unless it's too personal or something.
DonaDiabla
05-18-2016, 12:59 AM
This is embarrassing confession but it happened. So, I add this guy on my personal kik just to see what he had to say. He looked handsome but in that Sid Vicious way.He talked about buying a membership and he show me a video where he took off his shirt. His body was covered in Heroin and Syphilis sores :( He asked if I minded that he was a recovering drug addict with syphilis. Normally, I would not mind but his body was just covered in sores. I just could not watch him without feeling like it was a medical video. I had to decline him :(
Genoveve
05-19-2016, 03:36 PM
I'm so bummed for my one bff, she's been making so little money at the club for so long that it's finally gotten bad enough to where she's applying for regular(and menial) jobs. She would much rather be stripping and hates that she's being forced to leave it for a normal gig, and it frustrates me because I feel like there's plenty of things she could have done to increase the money she's been making at the club but she has always refused to change a thing.
Tbh though she's been barely scraping by for so long that it's probably the best that she try something else since she isn't willing to do anything to improve her stripping income, I hope her lifestyle improves too because it's honestly tricky being friends with people with different income levels. So often I have to catch myself from mentioning something I've done or something I've bought to her because I don't want to make her feel bad since she's struggling so bad, so many times I don't tell her about things I'm doing with other friends because I don't want her to feel like she's missing out. Maybe if she has some steady money coming in she'll finally have some financial breathing room.
Glamourmilf
05-19-2016, 07:34 PM
I go into the Disney store every time I go to the mall even though I never buy anything.
Lol! I do that too!
What's really funny is, when I'm at the checkout the person always comments on how cute my toy selection is, and asks how old my kids are.:rotfl::rotfl:. If they only knew.
Elektra Luxx
05-20-2016, 12:47 PM
My Grandpa can't tolerate the chemo therapy, the doctors are taking him off the meds and sending him home. The doctors told him if he stays on the chemo, he will die in a week. Yesterday evening we took him to the ER because he was having chest pains and vomiting. If he gets off the meds now, he can have a better quality of life at home with us caring for him. He doesn't have much time left.
My confession - I haven't been going to see as often as I used to because he was feeling better and I have preoccupied with living my life. I feel extremely guilty.
Aurora_Sunset
05-20-2016, 04:34 PM
I've told everyone that I'm mostly vegetarian (strictly pescetarian) for many years.
I'm not.
I actually break down sometimes and eat a burger, chicken sandwich, turkey sub, or grab a can of chili mac for the convenience and to satisfy cravings.
I do primarily try to eat vegetarian, and actually as vegan as possible, 90% of the time, so I don't feel bad about the occasional meat. I just prefer to limit it as much as possible. But people can't seem to grasp that concept. They can only respect a desire to not eat meat if they believe that you're strictly vegetarian. If I were to tell people that I am not opposed to occasionally eating meat, they would no longer respect my wishes to not eat at a steak house or partake in their super awesome chicken dish every time we ate together. To avoid offending or angering people, it's just easier to pretend I don't eat meat at all around others than to try to navigate "just not feeling like it" around people who will then get irritated and like "Well, if you will eat meat, why don't you just stop being a pain in the ass and eat it now?"
So I can only eat it in absolute secret, at home, alone. You're all the only ones who know now lol
miss.a.p1600
05-20-2016, 08:47 PM
His body was covered in Heroin and Syphilis sores :( He asked if I minded that he was a recovering drug addict with syphilis. Normally, I would not mind but his body was just covered in sores.
What the ........ ?!? Heroin is one hell of a drug. I can't believe he couldn't wait till his syphillis was healed (unless it went untreated and it's beyond curable).
My confession is I try to avoid married dudes like the plague in real life because I don't feel like being in the middle of ball and chain drama however I get confused because some of them have open relationships. And there is a guy who is extra nice, his wife is nowhere to be found (I guess she works a lot), and I'd totally do him if he were single.
He's not even hot but he's a decent looking middle aged DILF and he seems good with kids and knows how to fix things. I seriously think his wife needs to give him some head, some P*$$y, or something cause my stripper senses are telling me he's in a sex starved marriage. I could be wrong and he's just really really nice so if that's the case she should not work so much so she can keep her man in check.
I try to ignore him but he has interesting conversation and don't want to be flat out rude. All I know is when his wife does take a day off work and we all end up in the same event .... Awkward. Guess I'll have to ignore him for real that day.
DonaDiabla
05-20-2016, 09:02 PM
Girl, let me just say that his form of Syphilis is totally incurable. Those sores were just opened and infected :(
What the ........ ?!? Heroin is one hell of a drug. I can't believe he couldn't wait till his syphillis was healed (unless it went untreated and it's beyond curable).
My confession is I try to avoid married dudes like the plague in real life because I don't feel like being in the middle of ball and chain drama however I get confused because some of them have open relationships. And there is a guy who is extra nice, his wife is nowhere to be found (I guess she works a lot), and I'd totally do him if he were single.
He's not even hot but he's a decent looking middle aged DILF and he seems good with kids and knows how to fix things. I seriously think his wife needs to give him some head, some P*$$y, or something cause my stripper senses are telling me he's in a sex starved marriage. I could be wrong and he's just really really nice so if that's the case she should not work so much so she can keep her man in check.
I try to ignore him but he has interesting conversation and don't want to be flat out rude. All I know is when his wife does take a day off work and we all end up in the same event .... Awkward. Guess I'll have to ignore him for real that day.
Elektra Luxx
05-20-2016, 09:58 PM
I confess that I have a piece of opaque tape covering up the built-in webcam on my laptop, because I'm paranoid. I never do stuff like that!
I have a little square piece of a post it note over my laptop camera. Like you probably know already, if you have the right software and a little imagination you can take over any computer. It's that easy. Being a little paranoid keeps you safe.
charlie61
05-20-2016, 10:40 PM
Sometimes I think that sex work is addicting in the same way that an abusive relationship can be addicting. The severe highs and lows...the intense excitement followed by intense disappointment, the competition for attention... I dunno.
Glamourmilf
05-21-2016, 08:10 AM
I chipped a back tooth ( molar) last week, and the sharp edges cut my tongue open.
Stupid dentist didn't file it down right, and it Still had edges that are slicing my tongue open.
I was in so much pain last night that I grabbed my nail file, and filed down the tooth myself.
No more tongue scraping. No more pain.
*I've never had a chipped tooth before, so I'm passing on this information in case it happens to anyone else.
It's a temp fix
Oh, and so is dental wax to cover it until the next dental visit.
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kaninchen
05-21-2016, 04:34 PM
I've told everyone that I'm mostly vegetarian (strictly pescetarian) for many years.
I'm not.
I actually break down sometimes and eat a burger, chicken sandwich, turkey sub, or grab a can of chili mac for the convenience and to satisfy cravings.
I do primarily try to eat vegetarian, and actually as vegan as possible, 90% of the time, so I don't feel bad about the occasional meat. I just prefer to limit it as much as possible. But people can't seem to grasp that concept. They can only respect a desire to not eat meat if they believe that you're strictly vegetarian. If I were to tell people that I am not opposed to occasionally eating meat, they would no longer respect my wishes to not eat at a steak house or partake in their super awesome chicken dish every time we ate together. To avoid offending or angering people, it's just easier to pretend I don't eat meat at all around others than to try to navigate "just not feeling like it" around people who will then get irritated and like "Well, if you will eat meat, why don't you just stop being a pain in the ass and eat it now?"
So I can only eat it in absolute secret, at home, alone. You're all the only ones who know now lol
You're not alone! I've been vegetarian for 12 years, but I do the same thing as you. It's mostly that I'm anemic and non-heme iron does nothing for my fatigue or orthostatic hypotension. I feel so embarrassed about it because like, I would strongly prefer to never consume meat, but since I "slip up" sometimes it must be because I'm lazy and weak, you know? I'm more guilty and secretive about the occasional steak or turkey sandwich than I am about actually bad mistakes I've made in my life.
It's just so weird that meat-eating is seen as a fundamental cornerstone of the American diet. And if you don't want to eat it, you have to have Serious Convictions for it, otherwise you're just a picky weirdo.
SnuffleUffleGrass
05-21-2016, 04:40 PM
I was texting my ex D. today & he made me sad without trying to....I keep wondering if he's just doomed to die alone.
Also I get the weird feeling that in his family they all seem to get big doses of Karma for the bad things they do. I'm just glad our futures are not linked anymore.
xStacey
05-21-2016, 07:36 PM
I need to escape from reality for a little while... I feel so unhappy...
charlie61
05-21-2016, 07:58 PM
I need to escape from reality for a little while... I feel so unhappy...
I feel you, girl.
As someone who has been through hell a few times, I've learned to trust that things have a way of turning around (especially if you keep fighting for yourself). The summit could be five minutes away or five weeks away or five years away, but if you don't keep slogging along, you'll never get there. Strong people aren't born, they're made.
xStacey
05-21-2016, 08:02 PM
Separate confession:
I am really proud I successfully completed my first year of law and am on the dean's list. I am grateful for the opportunities that will be open to me. But I dream of escorting and travelling the world for a couple of years...
But that might have something to do with escaping reality.
ScarletKitten
05-22-2016, 01:47 AM
^^I was just fantasizing tonight about escaping by traveling & stripping my way all over the USA to every major city. I soooo wanna do a cross-country strip trip, bouncing from one cheap motel to the next, doing crazy drugs, partying, and making tons of cash. Sounds so fun, but then reality comes crashing back down on me. Not to say it's impossible, but I have no car, and that makes it difficult. I could always rent a car though and just go for it. lol
SnuffleUffleGrass
05-22-2016, 09:45 AM
^^I was just fantasizing tonight about escaping by traveling & stripping my way all over the USA to every major city. I soooo wanna do a cross-country strip trip, bouncing from one cheap motel to the next, doing crazy drugs, partying, and making tons of cash. Sounds so fun, but then reality comes crashing back down on me. Not to say it's impossible, but I have no car, and that makes it difficult. I could always rent a car though and just go for it. lol
I live this lifestyle. It has its moments but ultimately leaves you feeling like the song by Bob Seger "Turn The Page."
The worst moment I can recall from roadtripping.... it was sleeping alone in my car by a Wyoming highway on Easter. I had an uneaten dinner with me in a to-go box (& the waitress said something slightly bitchy to me when I boxed up my food. I think she could tell I was a dancer.) I didn't cry but that that was a moment of desolation that will stick with me forever. Basically if you can't handle feeling alone & being totally independent, don't try road stripping trips. Too hard & stressful.
baer45
05-22-2016, 10:43 AM
I live this lifestyle. It has its moments but ultimately leaves you feeling like the song by Bob Seger "Turn The Page."
The worst moment I can recall from roadtripping it was sleeping alone in my car by a Wyoming highway on Easter. I had an uneaten dinner with me in a to-go box (& the waitress said something slightly bitchy to me when I boxed up my food. I think she could tell I was a dancer.) I didn't cry but that that was moment of desolation that will stick with me forever. Basically if you can't handle feeling alone & being totally independent, don't try road stripping trips. Too hard & stressful.
I agree with whatever she said. My worst moment was on Christmas eve, My mom called me and asked where I was. I honestly didn't know the answer. I didn't cry on the phone. I just told her I was having fun with my new friends. Yes, Mr. cold pizza and Miss duffle bag.
SimoneGray
05-22-2016, 03:48 PM
Sometimes I wish I was a trust fund baby...I would respect the money, I just sometimes dream of a life with no need to generate lots of income, just me doing what I love doing. I know some people marry for that but I wouldn't want that either.
Legz541
05-22-2016, 06:01 PM
I have severe resting bitch face...and absolutely could care less! A few people have mentioned it like it's an issue I should work on. Um no, zero fucks given lol.
xStacey
05-22-2016, 08:59 PM
I want to close my accounts on social media and probably will soon. I am not very active on them but everytime I check them out from time to time, I feel really insecure and uncomfortable. I find myself envying the lives of strangers I don't even know, how their lives seem so perfect, they always look flawless, their families are rich, they barely have to work, spend their time travelling in beautiful countries, partying with celebrities... I don't want those negative feelings of jealousy and envy. I want to work on myself and focusing on my life to make it the way I want it to be.
SimoneGray
05-23-2016, 04:02 AM
I want to close my accounts on social media and probably will soon. I am not very active on them but everytime I check them out from time to time, I feel really insecure and uncomfortable. I find myself envying the lives of strangers I don't even know, how their lives seem so perfect, they always look flawless, their families are rich, they barely have to work, spend their time travelling in beautiful countries, partying with celebrities... I don't want those negative feelings of jealousy and envy. I want to work on myself and focusing on my life to make it the way I want it to be.
I went through a similar thing last year...I was on social media way too much and had a personal crisis of sorts because I felt like all my friends/contacts were GOING PLACES and I was going nowhere very slowly and painfully. Then, I met up with some of them. Its amazing what you find out when you actually talk to people. Some that had fancy jobs with "bells and whistles" were self medicating on anxiety meds because even though the pay was great, the work environment was toxic. Those that had taken fancy holidays had come back broke, like baked beans and toast and broke. Those that had new cars also had the debt that comes with it. Some that seemed to have these amazing jobs in entertainment, rubbing shoulders with celebs etc were actually not getting paid enough to make rent.
Not everyone was having a bad time, but what that taught me was to take everything on social media with a pinch of salt. In my experience, the people who feel the most need to put every detail of their lives up and "curate" themselves are often the ones who have the most shit going on behind the scenes. Don't let them worry you, just take a breath and do you. Chances are wherever you're at is a lot better than most people around you.
miss.a.p1600
05-23-2016, 06:12 AM
I want to close my accounts on social media and probably will soon. I am not very active on them but everytime I check them out from time to time, I feel really insecure and uncomfortable. I find myself envying the lives of strangers I don't even know, how their lives seem so perfect, they always look flawless, their families are rich, they barely have to work, spend their time travelling in beautiful countries, partying with celebrities... I don't want those negative feelings of jealousy and envy. I want to work on myself and focusing on my life to make it the way I want it to be.
I'm sure 95% what you see on social media is an illusion. Anyone can portray a life in pictures and video that is not their current reality. I cut down my friends list from 3,000 and only have about 300 now so I see less gratuitous bragging but when I do see it I take it with a grain of salt knowing that a lot of what you see on there is not real.
I believe there have been studies on how social media can foster those exact feelings and how what was intended to help you stay connected with friends and family and make you feel good nurturing these relationships can actually have the opposite effect and make you feel negative feelings when you see your Facebook friends showing off and we naturally compare ourselves to others and start to wonder why our lives aren't like our friends.
miss.a.p1600
05-23-2016, 07:27 AM
I have severe resting bitch face...and absolutely could care less! A few people have mentioned it like it's an issue I should work on. Um no, zero fucks given lol.
Exactly. The worst is when people tell you to smile. Like no b*tch, if I walked around with a
[email protected] smile on my face all day not only am I deepening the nasolabial folds but I would look crazy af.
Genoveve
05-23-2016, 12:21 PM
^^That is my biggest pet peeve.
I felt like all my friends/contacts were GOING PLACES and I was going nowhere very slowly and painfully. Then, I met up with some of them. Its amazing what you find out when you actually talk to people.
In my experience, the people who feel the most need to put every detail of their lives up and "curate" themselves are often the ones who have the most shit going on behind the scenes.
Exxxxxxactly. People just like to front on social media to feel better about themselves and their situations.