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baer45
07-18-2016, 03:52 PM
"The Brothers Grimsby" is so gross and a bit funny.

miss.a.p1600
07-18-2016, 03:56 PM
Ignoring the dude cause he was such an annoying needy douche I don't feel I owe him anything more.

I'm free at last!!!!! Now tonight I will enjoy my cheesecake in peace.


http://youtu.be/oTB46FJOF5w

miss.a.p1600
07-18-2016, 08:06 PM
Called him up and told him it wasn't a good idea to hang out anymore.

My stripperweb virtual friends were right. And It's over for good.

Now I see why people go ghost - doing a direct break up is hard. *sigh* but it had to be done.

If he is wise he will fade into oblivion and not get all vengeful and psycho.

xStacey
07-18-2016, 08:10 PM
Really stressed out and worried...

charlie61
07-18-2016, 08:18 PM
omg i hate boring people so much like jfc what have u even done with ur life

will i ever relate to anyone normal ever again

lynn2009
07-18-2016, 09:37 PM
Really stressed out and worried...

I hope things work out, whatever it is

xStacey
07-18-2016, 10:30 PM
Omg I was so stressed out, I am probably booking my flight tomorrow and leaving by Friday so I can consult on Monday through Wednesday. I've been talking to a plastic surgery junkie from another forum who said she's done 13 surgeries and luckily still looks natural, talked about the success of her third rhinoplasty but she never wanted to show any picture and I respected that since we didn't really know each other. I scheduled a consultation at the same clinic she went to with one of the head surgeons but I was hesitating. All the clinics in Korea look really nice compared to offices and websites we have in Canada, they invest so much money into decorating the place it looks like a five star hotel but some of them are really bad... I finally saw her picture omggggg she's smoking hot !!!!!! I think I am a little stressed out going to SK now...

I was so worried and asking her so many questions she joked and said she thinks I'm cray cray for worrying so much because my case is "simple" although I will need A LOT of procedures and probably rhino + alarplasty. I guess it might be simple for a doctor in South Korea but I know pretty much no one in Canada or the States would be able to operate on my nose from the pictures I saw...

baer45
07-19-2016, 10:45 AM
I haven't seen any clients in the past 6 days. It doesn't feel good with no income.

Selina M
07-19-2016, 01:32 PM
Does getting a straight job feel like medicine (something you don't really want to do/take, but you know it's good for you) or like poison (something you don't want to do/take because you know it's going to hurt you)?

Probably the former, and a lot of it depends on various things. Yesterday I met 2 friends for coffee and for 2.5 hours they bombarded me with advice. I appreciated it but it was also horrifying to hear "Don't buy alcohol at the grocery store within 5 miles" and "be careful how you dress going to the mall".
There is no other straight job I would really like to spend a year doing, nor that pays as well + full health insurance. It's unfortunate that it comes with so many restrictions.

Vyanka
07-20-2016, 01:12 AM
Omg. It feels great to have a young attractive guy spend money on you and a gentleman on top of that. Yes... win. I smell like him too. He smelled delicious and a smile that made me feel 18. Ahhhhhh... my ego thx u. I'm buzzed.

rareaspasia
07-20-2016, 01:14 AM
There's all sorts of tension with the management team at my day job. We're having a meeting tomorrow and I'm just hoping it doesn't turn into a cluster fuck and that we can actually address issues to help improve our business and support our employees instead of me having to listen to other people bicker over irrelevant shit. Everyone thinks I'm just so calm but what they don't realize is that I'm just really good at sneakily manipulating people into doing what I want and I'm also REALLY good at hiding my true feelings. Valuable stripper skills = valuable vanilla job skills. And I like these people but I'm tired of the petty nitpicking shit. Sometimes I daydream about going back to dancing full time but I need the benefits and stability. Plus I was miserable the last year I danced full time, and I really feel like I only have two or three more years left in me for dancing. Of course women can do well in their forties as dancers but my knees are telling me that I'm not one of them. I've also really been regretting not travel-dancing when wasn't tied down with a work schedule. I don't have very many regrets but that is definitely a big one.

I've also been daydreaming about having a tiny house on a large plot of land with neighbors so far away that I could walk around outside naked. I'd love to have a garden and a largely self-sufficient lifestyle. But that would never work with my stuff loving partner and our two asshole cats.

And I'm on the rag and so help me god I just want to go to Publix and buy ice cream and chips and oreos and all the food I don't normally eat, just load up an entire grocery cart, and then just chow down while watching documentaries about paranormal stuff for like, a week. With wine. Lots and lots of wine. Like they can just send me an entire barrel of Australian shiraz and I will poke a hole in it and just sip out of it with a bendy straw.

Also, it has now been over a month since I had sex because my partner has now been sick for over a month. That might be why I'm so pissy.

carmen_b
07-20-2016, 07:25 AM
Yeah !! He was SOOOO needy way too fast. Something was just off ! I think you've done yourself a huge favor !

Called him up and told him it wasn't a good idea to hang out anymore.

My stripperweb virtual friends were right. And It's over for good.

Now I see why people go ghost - doing a direct break up is hard. *sigh* but it had to be done.

If he is wise he will fade into oblivion and not get all vengeful and psycho.

xStacey
07-20-2016, 02:29 PM
Booked my flight to South Korea and hotel, leaving this Saturday to consult with a couple of clinics for rhinoplasty. So expensive this time of the year ugh... I still have so much to sort out before I can leave, I will start packing very last minute on Friday. I have never travelled this far in my life, really nervous!! Not sure I'll get it done the same week of my consult but it was so much more expensive than I thought, the flight alone was a little over $2000 and I wasn't able to find nice places to stay for a good price, the cheapest I found was $100 a night ugh.... Could have booked a nice vacation with that money or many pairs of Louboutin lol. I heard the food is cheap at least...

Guess I'll have to try enjoying Seoul and Gangnam during my week and a half there. I was thinking of hiding in the hotel and catching up on novels and GoT LOL but for the amount of money I paid... I think the flight was around $1200 during slow season, but I have school ugggghhh. But I heard Seoul is pretty fun like NYC and LA (never been), but cheaper.

xStacey
07-20-2016, 06:12 PM
I feel like such a creep googling "hottest female korean celebrities" at the library trying to find examples of sharp and refined but natural-looking noses that would suit an asian face, that is pretty close to my current structure so it wouldn't require destroying my nose to achieve lol

JenniferNorth
07-21-2016, 01:57 PM
I pretty much want to fly to China, and scoop up every cat and dog, and animal at those horrible Chinese circuses. OMFG. I hate all circuses, and I pretty much hate all people. #animalsforever

baer45
07-21-2016, 07:22 PM
God, please send a man to my life. I am not picky, just simply in line with these qualities:
good looks, intelligence, good health and not obese, well educated, good work ethic and job history, kindness, sense of humor, sensible about money, no alcohol, drugs or smoking habits, ability to cook and play a musical instrument, soft heart for animals, ability to express emotions, lack of jealousy or bad temper and ability to charm a woman as if they were trained by Don Juan.

miss.a.p1600
07-21-2016, 08:38 PM
Yeah !! He was SOOOO needy way too fast. Something was just off ! I think you've done yourself a huge favor !

Yes girl!

I think it was a trick to get me to sleep with him faster.

He was a covert racist, insensitive, demanding, controlling, undiagnosed bipolar, pessimistic, hypocritical, insecure, and cheap.

I definitely dodged a bullet and regret not ditching him sooner.

Well onto the next.

Thank you and everyone else who listened to me ranting and helped me come to my senses.

seashell
07-21-2016, 09:59 PM
I confess that I am way too interested in the new guy I started seeing.

He's like a male version of myself. He writes, he plays music, he listens to the same bands that I love, and he is an INFJ. And by some freak coincidence, he is as obsessed with Disney's Robin Hood as I am, and we've both learned all the movie's guitar songs. OMGWTF. :D !!!

BUT he's broke, and I feel torn between wanting to ditch him for a rich guy (stupid... the rich guys I've dated were assholes) or be his full-on sugar mama.

whirlerz
07-21-2016, 10:08 PM
I feel shitty, like I need to care less about other people, that sounds mean but it's true. I'm too friendly & nice to the wrong people, I told the one front desk lady that this guy that she knows scared me cause he flipped out when I didn't say hi to him, & she's like Oh.

JenniferNorth
07-22-2016, 08:34 AM
^ Like "Oh? That's weird" or "Oh!" like she was shocked/concerned? People are so weird, I swear.

We had a rabbit like you
07-22-2016, 08:51 AM
My last real friend is moving to Florida.im happy she's getting away from her abusive bf, but it sucks she's leaving :/
The other "friends" turned out to be misogynist pathetic twats or dudes who just wanted to get in my "easy stripper pants" I guess.
I'm so starved for female friendship or support I swear. My husband is great but it's just not enough, I need outside friendships!
But then in the other hand I'm lazy, grumpy, introverted, painfully shy, and never take any intitiative in finding friends. Oh well. It really is probably my fault. When you were homeschooled and raised in a complete wilderness hick existence w no social connection it wears on your adult ability to find friends.

whirlerz
07-22-2016, 09:07 AM
My last real friend is moving to Florida.im happy she's getting away from her abusive bf, but it sucks she's leaving :/
The other "friends" turned out to be misogynist pathetic twats or dudes who just wanted to get in my "easy stripper pants" I guess.
I'm so starved for female friendship or support I swear. My husband is great but it's just not enough, I need outside friendships!
But then in the other hand I'm lazy, grumpy, introverted, painfully shy, and never take any intitiative in finding friends. Oh well. It really is probably my fault. When you were homeschooled and raised in a complete wilderness hick existence w no social connection it wears on your adult ability to find friends.

Aww, sorry. Don't feel bad, I was raised somewhat 'normal' (if there's such a thing) & I'm the same way..I've had too many issues w/people, lately not even friendships but barely acquaintences taking advantage of me, which's party my fault I know.

My coffeemaker sucks, & now it's past the return date so I have to 'contact mfg'::)::)
They make coffee here in the lobby, but after they clear out the 'continental breakfast'::) it takes a long while to put it out there.:(:(:(

Velveteen.Rabbit
07-22-2016, 11:25 AM
I'm moving in with my guy (he brought it up), like we are signing a lease together, but I'm too scared to tell my friends Bc I've only known him 2.5 months. I've only told 2 of them. I'm just going to do it and throw a housewarming party and they'll find out then lmao.

The only reason I'm totally on board with this is Bc he dated a friend of a friend (whom I've never met but I'm aware of who she is) for 3 years. And I have like 60 mutual Facebook friends in common with him. Everything checks out. So this is a risk I want to take.

Velveteen.Rabbit
07-22-2016, 11:31 AM
Aww, sorry. Don't feel bad, I was raised somewhat 'normal' (if there's such a thing) & I'm the same way..I've had too many issues w/people, lately not even friendships but barely acquaintences taking advantage of me, which's party my fault I know.

My coffeemaker sucks, & now it's past the return date so I have to 'contact mfg'::)::)
They make coffee here in the lobby, but after they clear out the 'continental breakfast'::) it takes a long while to put it out there.:(:(:(

It's so fucking traumatic lol. Like personality disorders to the max. Who can be okay with using someone and befriending them for a specific reason??? When I befriend people, it's because I want friendship, not to gain anything. You literally have to be at least a partial sociopath or narcissist to be okay with doing that.

whirlerz
07-22-2016, 11:37 AM
It's so fucking traumatic lol. Like personality disorders to the max. Who can be okay with using someone and befriending them for a specific reason??? When I befriend people, it's because I want friendship, not to gain anything. You literally have to be at least a partial sociopath or narcissist to be okay with doing that.

Yep, big time!^
You really gotta be so aware of ppl these days, they can really F' you over. :(

xStacey
07-22-2016, 04:18 PM
Ugh I am so stressed out, really not sure if it's a good idea anymore but it's a little too last minute to cancel everything, and I know I'll always have doubts and question myself if I do not go consult with the doctors... But I am really scared and not sure if I will go through with my rhinoplasty this time, most people get it done the same week they consult since the flight + hotel is so expensive but others say it's always a good idea to consult as many surgeons as you could since the consultation is free in Korea even with the head surgeons, then fly back home, research some more before making a decision...

I also called my previous surgeon's office, the one who did my BA to ask if he could take care of my follow-up once I'm back in case there's any complication and I am willing to pay the fees but he refused to do follow-up of another surgeon's work. Really adds to the stress and I am thinking maybe it's not necessary.. :(

I could have booked a nice vacation with that amount of money... But I really need some distance from home, school, work, home, and it'll be a nice change of scenery... If I don't get through with the surgery I'll be back in a week and a half and I guess I can take one week off somewhere sunny before school starts... I can't believe it's so soon already :(

miss.a.p1600
07-22-2016, 04:28 PM
Saw this woman in the grocery store with the biggest a$$ and hips and in my head I was like .... [email protected]@@@@mn!!! And if I'm staring I know hella horny men are staring. Bet she got a lot of numbers that day.

seashell
07-23-2016, 04:11 PM
Another confession... the guy I was seeing is HORRIBLE in bed. Just really bad. Like we were having sex for the first time, he kissed me/went down on me and was very romantic, and then he just body-slammed me with his overweight self for 20 minutes.

On the bright side, he had a smaller penis than the last guy I dated who sent me to the hospital because of excessive vaginal bleeding. So that's... a plus? >_>

Also, do you ever get that feeling that guys you date are acting like customers? The last couple guys I dated both complimented me and made me feel beautiful, but... I dunno, I can't shake the feeling that it's insincere because I've heard it so much in the club. Or even if it's not insincere, I just feel grossed out. Especially when they ask me sexual questions, want to friend me on snapchat, etc. Bleh...

whirlerz
07-23-2016, 04:55 PM
Also, do you ever get that feeling that guys you date are acting like customers? The last couple guys I dated both complimented me and made me feel beautiful, but... I dunno, I can't shake the feeling that it's insincere because I've heard it so much in the club. Or even if it's not insincere, I just feel grossed out. Especially when they ask me sexual questions, want to friend me on snapchat, etc. Bleh...

Yep. All the time, & I'm barely in the biz..

So. My latest fucking S/A adventure::). I went all the fuck way downtown (not far but the traffice, & a balmly/humid 100 w/heat index, not to mention I had to leave the air off cause I didn't get gas in time..I went by the wrong exit & had to turn around
I text him I'l be late, the lady doorperson in the parking garage/bld reception (it's for the ppl that rent/own there too) was so nice, she help me find this place, it was like a 6+ bl walk tho:(
I had a cute dress on despite the heat, & this fuck shows up in blk jeans/t shirt & cap, w/not a lot of teeth? No looker either. Mind you, this neighborhood rentals go for around 2k-ish (I actually saw some signs as I was walking:O this was for a 2nd fl walk up too)
I had a salad, as all they had there were salads, quiche & eggs./:O
The freaking gate @ the pkg garage would NOT budge, despite I already paid online & it scan my phone>:(
I made it back not too bad of traffice slow tho, went to church, had a dress to return & I got another, more flattering one.
I do feel old n' ugly now.
NEVER.Going.downtonw w/o in$centive. Pig.

miss.a.p1600
07-23-2016, 06:43 PM
Also, do you ever get that feeling that guys you date are acting like customers?

Unfortunately yes. Last guy I dated had the gall to pull his d*ck out while we were on FaceTime. It reminded me of the pervs in the club who think its okay to pull their d*ck out. I was so turned off. Like whats wrong with dudes? If I wanted to see your d*ck I would have asked hey show me your d*ck. Why would you think thats okay? Gross!

And he didn't have a pretty penis. It was ugly. Like dude put ya clothes on.

baer45
07-23-2016, 09:30 PM
Everytime when I open a bag of chips, i say to myself: Do not finish it, do not finish it! ...challenge accepted.

Selina M
07-24-2016, 01:43 AM
I have not eaten all day except ⅓ of the sampler my regular ordered at work... so, a bunch of fried mushrooms & zucchini. There is literally nothing to eat in the house either.

Drove to the 24 hr Subway... Then I remembered how the last 2 Saturday nights I've gone to either Subway or the grocery store, and felt like people were looking at me like "Aw how sad this is her Saturday night"...

Now I'm eating stale ginger snaps.

pinklemonade0
07-24-2016, 01:59 AM
I haven't been looking after myself. All of my routine is out.

miss.a.p1600
07-24-2016, 08:20 AM
Everytime when I open a bag of chips, i say to myself: Do not finish it, do not finish it! ...challenge accepted.

Remember that Pringles commercial? Their slogan used to be "once you pop, you can't stop". I'm not sure what their slogan is now but that damn commercial totally hypnotized me and when I'd get my hands in a can of Pringles I'd end up eating the whole thing in one setting. It had to have been like 5 servings lol.

baer45
07-24-2016, 08:47 AM
Remember that Pringles commercial? Their slogan used to be "once you pop, you can't stop". I'm not sure what their slogan is now but that damn commercial totally hypnotized me and when I'd get my hands in a can of Pringles I'd end up eating the whole thing in one setting. It had to have been like 5 servings lol.

"once you pop, you can't stop." It tells the story of my relationship with chips.

carmen_b
07-24-2016, 10:45 AM
I'm considering leaving my ( otherwise very good ) 5 year relationship again to travel. I have been meaning to schedule with a therapist to run through things. I'm just finding myself MAD that I'm the only one who ever researches destinations out of the country ( in his defense, he came up with an idea to see the leaves on the East Coast in Sept. which is at least something ).
I sometimes wonder if I'm totally crazy considering this. My dream life currently looks like spending about 4 months a year outside the USA and about 8 months a year in the USA ( such as doing month long trips every few months ) or even 6 months outside and 6 months inside. I worked SO hard in the last year to create my income stream that can be done from a computer ( I changed my business drastically so I can run it without physically being there ).
I feel like this is THE TIME for us to seize this before he ends up with long term work where he needs to be in one place (he can do video editing from the road to generate cash).

I would settle for just ONE 2-4 week trip where I wasn't DRAGGING someone. After 5 years together , you'd think we could leave the country together one time without it being a huge issue.

carmen_b
07-24-2016, 10:54 AM
This for me too. I need to get with it. :(
I haven't been looking after myself. All of my routine is out.

miss.a.p1600
07-24-2016, 11:04 AM
Ok so I've been doing some research on where to find a sugar daddy and discovered whole foods is one place - duh! Should have known.

I get here and suddenly I realize i forgot to shave my legs and I have on gym short (I'm totally not dressed right - I'm headed to the gym) that plus dude glimpse at my legs and going to think I'm Sasquatch or something. Please don't look at my legs! Agh!

Well I also discover they serve breakfast! I was pissed cause I stop at McDonald's first then these hoes claim they only take cash and is that alright. No it's not alright cause I'm hungry and all I have is my card. Well I leave and go to whole foods and find out they have a dude making omlettes and this sh*t is gooooood! Plus they are playing live music.

Spotted a few dudes who looked like they had money but many are with their matronly looking wives.

22lligm
07-24-2016, 11:17 AM
I met a guy at work and thought he was really hot so I gave him my number. I went out with him Friday night and he is totally not attractive at all wtf. He has a nice job and drives a nice car but.. His face is not cute to me and his body is weird. Like no muscles and a little belly. He's also 13 years older than me but acts like he's my age. All insecure and trying too hard to be 'cool' or something. Like shouldn't you be sure of yourself by that age? He's almost 40. He also keeps calling me babe which is BEYOND annoying to me. He wanted to take me to get my nails done yesterday but I just ignored him and pretended I fell asleep.

Then I met another guy who said he played for a certain baseball team but I couldn't find him on the roster and he hasn't been in any games cause he's 'injured' right now. And then I wanted him to add me on Instagram (so I could stalk a little) and then all of a sudden I stop hearing from him and he isn't trying to hangout anymore. Like what are you hiding..? Weirdo.

Why is every guy I'm meeting so lame and weird.

xStacey
07-24-2016, 11:24 AM
I am really stressed out... I am in Korea and not sure I made the right decision. I'm all alone in a foreign country, a lot of people don't speak English, I'm a little scared. A lot can go wrong, I am not sure if I am ready in case things go wrong... And I am scared I wouldn't be able to recognize myself, missing my old-self, not being able to get used to my new face, regretting because it's not exactly what I wanted, even if the surgery goes well and the result is satisfactory... :(

I have three consultations tomorrow... We'll see how it goes but it's so scary because it's in the middle of the face. I'm less scared about body surgeries...

Elektra Luxx
07-24-2016, 12:52 PM
I am really stressed out... I am in Korea and not sure I made the right decision. I'm all alone in a foreign country, a lot of people don't speak English, I'm a little scared. A lot can go wrong, I am not sure if I am ready in case things go wrong... And I am scared I wouldn't be able to recognize myself, missing my old-self, not being able to get used to my new face, regretting because it's not exactly what I wanted, even if the surgery goes well and the result is satisfactory... :(

I have three consultations tomorrow... We'll see how it goes but it's so scary because it's in the middle of the face. I'm less scared about body surgeries...

Relax, you're beautiful, smart, confident woman. Get into your strong, hot, ultra confident persona, you got this. Go a to an upscale hotel, that's going to be a safe place. Go to a high visibility spot in the hotel bar, adopt a relax, bored pose and order a drink. Before you know it you will have guys buying you drinks. Keep posting to let us know how it goes, we are there with you. And post picture of the cool things you're seeing. Have fun.

lynn2009
07-24-2016, 02:27 PM
Two Fridays ago on the 15th I got a giant bag of reeses cups at CVS and every night this last week all I ate for dinner was that candy with or without a beer. I ran out yesterday.

charlie61
07-24-2016, 08:54 PM
I am really stressed out... I am in Korea and not sure I made the right decision. I'm all alone in a foreign country, a lot of people don't speak English, I'm a little scared. A lot can go wrong, I am not sure if I am ready in case things go wrong... And I am scared I wouldn't be able to recognize myself, missing my old-self, not being able to get used to my new face, regretting because it's not exactly what I wanted, even if the surgery goes well and the result is satisfactory... :(

I have three consultations tomorrow... We'll see how it goes but it's so scary because it's in the middle of the face. I'm less scared about body surgeries...

Go with your gut. There's a difference between "this is new" scared and "this is wrong" scared. Just stay in touch with that little voice inside yourself! Give it a megaphone if need be. :)

alibby
07-24-2016, 09:23 PM
Why is it that when I finally get comfortable in my sexuality I can't find what I want? Well I've never really had what I wanted looking back, but now that I'm more aware of myself it's like ugh. And I hate dating apps of any kind, too many people coming at you at once, too hard to build any kind of connection imo, plus you never know who's on the opposite side of the screen. Why can't I just happen to one day run into the girl of my dreams lol. Femme probs :/

rareaspasia
07-24-2016, 10:00 PM
Sometimes I wonder what it's like to be one of those chicks that don't worry about how they look. Like don't own makeup, use the same soap on their face that they use on their ass, don't care or even notice if they gain ten pounds, don't work out or watch what they eat, don't use lotion, never color their hair... those chicks that just roll out of bed and go. Aside from the fact that my appearance is a significant factor in how I pay my bills, I consider caring for my physical appearance to be a form of self love. I also feel fortunate to have been born with the looks that are considered "pretty" by current society's standards (although I don't necessarily agree with those standards all the time) and feel an obligation to "keep it up" if that makes sense. I also consider it a form of respect to my partner to maintain my looks, since he does the same for me, although we both readily admit that we are both vain and more concerned about how we look than most people... part of the reason we work as a couple. But like I said, I wonder what it's like to spend next to no time on your looks. I spend a lot of time working out, planning and cooking healthy meals, and using assorted facial and body care products, and sometimes I'm like, why do I do this? Really, deep down, is this how I want to spend precious hours of my life? Does this make me a superficial person? But I'm not going to stop because I don't want to look in the mirror and be unhappy about what I see.

On a completely different note, I'm seriously contemplating going to some workshops that involve mediumship and being an intuitive. Maybe I'm crazy but I had another wacky experience where I suddenly had this feeling of extreme concern about my coworker and had a feeling that it concerned a woman she was closely related to and then came in and found out that she was taking a leave of absence to go home because her mother had been diagnosed with terminal lung cancer. This sort of thing has happened quite a few times since I was a kid. I've also had some other weird things happen lately and I just want to talk to other people who won't think I'm nuts. And honestly, it would be nice if they could tell me how to make it quit happening because it's really fucking freaky.

miss.a.p1600
07-24-2016, 10:42 PM
I want to log back into match and try again to attract a better dude. Only downside is I know that last c*cksucker I dated will be trolling on private mode. I think I'm going to try a sugar site/app too. My mother suggested millionairematch.com however I don't know if she realizes that's a sugar dating site.....or maybe she does :O

Elektra Luxx
07-25-2016, 09:52 AM
Only downside is I know that last c*cksucker I dated will be trolling on private mode.

Why is c*cksucker an insult and p*ssylicker is not an insult?

"Only downside is I know that last p*ssylicker I dated will be trolling on private mode." And everybody be like "hey miss.a.p1600, you wouldn't happen to have that guy's number.....so I can avoid him of course?

Elektra Luxx
07-25-2016, 10:03 AM
Go with your gut. There's a difference between "this is new" scared and "this is wrong" scared. Just stay in touch with that little voice inside yourself! Give it a megaphone if need be. :)

Wow, I really love this!!! That is a profound statement to me. Because your "id" or your "ego" (not sure of the terms) just recognizes fear, but your "super ego" or consciousness has to define what kind of fear it is and if you are in real danger. I struggle with this all the time.

charlie61
07-25-2016, 10:50 AM
Why is c*cksucker an insult and p*ssylicker is not an insult?

"Only downside is I know that last p*ssylicker I dated will be trolling on private mode." And everybody be like "hey miss.a.p1600, you wouldn't happen to have that guy's number.....so I can avoid him of course?

It's a misogynistic term - basically, a way of calling a man a woman (because women are lowly cocksuckers). To call a man anything that puts him in a women's position is an insult. Suck a dick, cocksucker, etc.

miss.a.p1600
07-25-2016, 11:05 AM
My bad. it probably is some type of weird insult. I'll have to phase it out just give me a moment.

For the record I personally do suck c*cks so I'm not trying to insult ladies or men whO like sucking c*cks.....just that guy.

I'm assuming if he were a p*ssy licker he might be good at it (so it would be a compliment to call him that) but if he were a d*ck sucker he'd be horrible at it so therefore he is horrible.

Sometimes I write before I filter or think. Sorry.