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seashell
08-10-2016, 03:02 PM
I found myself in a dorky lovefest with a guy from Tinder. The same guy I was on a first date with when my ex-boyfriend was seated a few feet away.

We're both artists, but he's a professional technical 3D artist who does incredibly realistic work. I knew I was going to like him when he sent me this video of water dropping into a cup, where the water was created with computer programming to have the correct physics of an actual water droplet and to make accurate sound based on the way each droplet fell in the program. Physics and technology and art combined. Omgomgomg. Does anyone else think smart guys are so freaking hot? He does photography and I'm like YES tell me all about your camera's aperture and all the lenses you own.

He says he's looking for a relationship but I was pretty clear about wanting to take things slowly. We text constantly and we both were open about how much we like each other and how much fun we're having. I've never met anyone like him before... Definitely a nice distraction from my life problems lol

carmen_b
08-10-2016, 03:08 PM
^ Hot hot hot

miss.a.p1600
08-10-2016, 05:06 PM
I found myself in a dorky lovefest with a guy from Tinder. The same guy I was on a first date with when my ex-boyfriend was seated a few feet away.

We're both artists, but he's a professional technical 3D artist who does incredibly realistic work. I knew I was going to like him when he sent me this video of water dropping into a cup, where the water was created with computer programming to have the correct physics of an actual water droplet and to make accurate sound based on the way each droplet fell in the program. Physics and technology and art combined. Omgomgomg. Does anyone else think smart guys are so freaking hot? He does photography and I'm like YES tell me all about your camera's aperture and all the lenses you own.

He says he's looking for a relationship but I was pretty clear about wanting to take things slowly. We text constantly and we both were open about how much we like each other and how much fun we're having. I've never met anyone like him before... Definitely a nice distraction from my life problems lol

Yay! So far online dating success!

charlie61
08-10-2016, 11:56 PM
Omg. Many hot DILF's and potential sugar daddies in the airport. I'm horny and unsatisfied with the current state of affairs, financially and vaginally *sigh*

Omg, airports are basically porn for me. Hot older businessmen in suits. :drool:

xStacey
08-12-2016, 10:27 PM
Omg I saw such a hot couple today at the club, well the woman was really hot I did not notice the guy to be honest. I saw them from the back and she had really platinum blonde hair, probably hair extensions because no way anyone could have hair bleached that much and still healthy looking with a huge Chanel handbag, she was dressed all in black. I did not see her face but I could tell she was really good looking. The waitress said she looked too beautiful and another dancer said she saw her face and she's really pretty. I don't do couples but I wouldn't have minded doing them just so I could touch her lol I say that but I would have probably been too intimidated, she looked soooo good LOL.

I wonder if she's an escort with a client or a sugar baby with her sugar daddy... But at the same time the guy did not look like an old man so maybe he was her boyfriend ? But they wanted 3 hours and multiple girls, lol they're probably full of cash.

Edit : Ok just spoke to another girl who saw her face and said she's too beautiful to be true, but a fake beauty lol. My type :drool:

lynn2009
08-13-2016, 08:07 PM
I have an okcupid coffee date tomorrow and I am a little nervous! You guys I think I really like this one... I'm already trying to think of positive things I could say about work and school when he asks...

SimoneGray
08-14-2016, 08:32 AM
Ya'll are really making me want to try online dating again...but at the same time I despise men who are just in it for the sex.

miss.a.p1600
08-14-2016, 09:22 AM
^^^^me too. One of my worst fears.

Some of those guys are trying to get free easy access pussy but don't them access it for free or easily.

If you can, and you should, make them jump through hella hoops to get your pussy. I mean get him to give you his time, fancy dinners, gifts, cash, heck even a commitment before he even thinks about getting any.

SimoneGray
08-14-2016, 10:27 AM
I confess that the Olympics is making me miss competitive sports. I was a competitive swimmer and a rhythmic gymnast and I really miss the training actually...growing up I wasn't the super popular kid so spending time at my respective clubs working out on weekends and weekdays was actually perfect for me because I found kindred spirits and understanding friends...I should start swimming again and put myself through my paces.

Genoveve
08-14-2016, 10:55 AM
It's always a little awkward when your friend bitches about her bf all the time and you happen to agree with his side more lol.

miss.a.p1600
08-14-2016, 11:59 AM
I would rather strip and get money from dudes that way than to waste time doing regular dating. I'm going to try a sugar dating site. Because Love alone is not enough to pay the bills.

lynn2009
08-14-2016, 12:04 PM
I'm going to try a sugar dating site.

Please be careful

miss.a.p1600
08-14-2016, 12:49 PM
Thanks girlie! I'm still undecided on whether I should continue to try to find a sugar daddy off a regular site or a site specific to sugar dating.

I'm mad at myself for going in with the mindset of hustling then allowing myself to get stuck with this guy who seemed like someone I could fall in love with but turned out to be an insecure bigot.

I guess I just gotta get back out there and try again.

Oh and ladies learn from my mistake - never let a man convince you to date only him and give up your options.

xStacey
08-15-2016, 12:31 AM
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miss.a.p1600
08-15-2016, 06:22 AM
^^^I can relate.

I'm not satisfied with this dude I'm dating either. I want him to give me money and gifts but the only thing he does is take me to decent/nice restaurants which is cool but not good enough lol! I can buy my own meals and any dude can do that. Then this hoe had the gall to tell me he just went and spent hundreds on some cosmetic procedures to look young. Wtf?!? Like he still look the same plus That's money he should have gave me.

Then he told me he pays for escorts and I lost my mind. Not about procuring escorts but he can give them cash then let them go about thier life but I gotta sit here countless hours and not see a dime.

I swear dudes have the money to spoil their women but the chose not to out of some irrational fear. The sh*t pisses me off. Like a man will walk into a strip club and spend hundreds on a stranger but I can't get a guy I've built rapport with over weeks to give me cash I want. Oh I gotta jump through hoops and f*ck his brains out several times for free before I see cash??? Uh no I'm completely turned off.

I could get money out of men at the club within minutes and I ain't even gotta f*ck or waste countless hours.

I hate regular dating with tight walleted men.

Idk. Two years is a long time. It is kind of messed up he was reserved about dating a stripper but a reformed stripper with a law degree is now so much better for him?!? You're still the same person.

crystalize
08-15-2016, 05:30 PM
I went on a trip with a friend and ended up paying for almost the whole trip, I spent more than I planned, looking back this kind of annoys me although I feel like I shouldn't be annoyed since I offered to pay.

Still... This man has his own company and like 300 employees so he's not poor, when I offered to pay for him he should have insisted to pay it himself. I like to be a generous person but I like the people around me to be generous too. I'm just a bit disappointed he let me do it when we both know who has the bigger business.

why did you offer? (but i get you, i have been too generous at times and then regretted it) what a douche for accepting!

crystalize
08-15-2016, 05:34 PM
I'm so over getting drunk/high at work, or in general. I even declined money last night to hang out with a customer to get high. Even though I made nothing at work, and have serious bills. I just wanted to go home and sleep and go to yoga in the morning. I'm so adulting right now.

lynn2009
08-15-2016, 08:00 PM
my super cute, ivy league, great in bed ex is back on okcupid Iwhich means he isn't staying with the fat girl forever and I am so relieved.

Aurora_Sunset
08-16-2016, 07:26 AM
No reason! Habit maybe, I don't know, I like to do it, but usually when people can they offer to do the same for me so it all evens out in the end. But with this guy no, I just ended up paying a lot more than he did.

I can relate to this. It does seem silly to get upset at people after I offered to pay for them, but some people just take that interaction to a weird place...

I used to have a friend who was always poor so if I wanted to go out, I'd tell her "Don't worry about it, I've got you." And she would just go over the top - ordering the most expensive drinks, asking for food, wanting to stay for hours and hours. And if whoever offered to pay for her started acting hesitant about money when she was suggesting $15 drinks for the 3rd time that night... she'd start getting salty about "Well, you offered to pay! Don't offer to pay if you're gonna get weird and make it awkward when I start buying stuff that you said I could." Well... no.... Most people have the decency to realize, even when someone says they'll pay for you, you don't take it as carte blanche to start throwing their money around in the most high-rolling way possible.

miss.a.p1600
08-16-2016, 07:36 AM
I went on a trip with a friend and ended up paying for almost the whole trip, I spent more than I planned, looking back this kind of annoys me although I feel like I shouldn't be annoyed since I offered to pay.

Still... This man has his own company and like 300 employees so he's not poor, when I offered to pay for him he should have insisted to pay it himself. I like to be a generous person but I like the people around me to be generous too. I'm just a bit disappointed he let me do it when we both know who has the bigger business.

I think it's rude.

If he was a real friend he would have appreciated you made an offer but declined your offer.

Only thing I can think of was he wanted to keep things on a "friendly" / equal level. Like if he paid for both of you that something a date/boyfriend/husband or even family member would do. Also maybe he wanted you to feel equal and as capable of paying as he is. Or maybe he is just tired of always paying for everyone.

Idk. Still despite all the possible reasons otherwise if I were him I would pay for my close friend knowing I have greater means to do so. If paying for others bothered me I would only hang with rich people.

miss.a.p1600
08-16-2016, 09:35 AM
I'd rather read stripperweb than be on Facebook.

seashell
08-16-2016, 04:29 PM
Two different guys went down on me the past two days. Kinda feel like a giant slut. But... it was so worth it!

SexxiLexxi
08-16-2016, 05:06 PM
Have been thinking about being with a woman lately. It's been a long time. I've been with my s/o almost 6 years and it's been probably close to 8/9 years since being with a woman...I think I may have forgotten what it was like lol

lynn2009
08-16-2016, 05:22 PM
I don't know how to date anymore :'(:-[

DonaDiabla
08-17-2016, 08:47 AM
I confess that I enjoy writing two sweet romance novellas. I love researching and fleshing out the characters. Personally, I going to have them published under my cam persona's name. :)

chanzep
08-17-2016, 04:30 PM
A bad day at my vanilla job almost bothers me as much as a bad money night would at a club grr.

Velveteen.Rabbit
08-18-2016, 10:09 AM
I'm at my first out of state destination and in love with hostels. All the girls here are from Europe or South America. I don't understand why hostels get such a bad reputation sometimes. If you put a lock on your stuff or put stuff in an assigned locker, you're literally fine.

Now that I have my big implants, I've embarked on a strip trip tour before school starts. I'm at the first destination now. I like the idea of travel stripping and domme touring in my downtime between class. I thought I was over dancing, but not major destinations where it's actually good. I'm making a list of places I'd like to dance in.

I'm also addicted to being really active again. It feels really good to basically work out everyday. I've gotten back in shape really really fast.

We had a rabbit like you
08-19-2016, 10:08 AM
^for me it was that stupid eli Roth movie! Haha
I miss dancing sooo much. It was never like my whole identity or anything but I did love it and I miss the money and sexual power I felt. Sigh. I know I'm not supposed to admit that and only be in it for the money but it definitely fed a part of me in some way emotionally

lynn2009
08-20-2016, 12:01 AM
Starting tonight I'm going to call the towing company on people who park likes dicks.

seashell
08-20-2016, 04:02 PM
Starting tonight I'm going to call the towing company on people who park likes dicks.

Ugh at my vanilla job, this big ass truck always parks in front of the mailbox in the middle of 2 parking spaces. And that's on a good day... sometimes they park so that 4 entire parking spaces are unusable. And it's in front of a freaking MAILBOX... like DUDE we need access to that! lol

miss.a.p1600
08-23-2016, 05:44 PM
First of all what that Ryan Lochte dude was dumb and reckless but you know what I can look past that cause he is fine as f*ck. Omg I would ride him from sundown to sunrise. [email protected] he looks good and has a nice body?!? And he did an interview saying he ain't got a girlfriend and has an active Tinder profile. Yasss!!!

whirlerz
08-23-2016, 05:49 PM
I know y'all tired of hearing about this:
I would love, to rent the room above the person who's above me, that their kid stomps around..
I would get the heaviest pr of boots/shoes & stomp around all nite. Fuck, that floor would be my trampoline! Oh, I'd also drop random heavy shit on the floor.
Thank you.

miss.a.p1600
08-23-2016, 05:52 PM
^^^^same here. I hate community living especially when you can see and hear the neighbors all the [email protected] time. I thought to myself it would be nice to be wealthy right now and rent the units near mine so I wouldn't have to see or hear these f*ckers. But then again if I were wealthy right now I would be living in another place somewhere with acres and no neighbors for miles.

whirlerz
08-23-2016, 06:26 PM
Oh, & I was looking @ hotels, I mean now most of 'em are thru the roof, cause of upcoming Labor Day..I also popped briefly on Airbnb, & I saw this place I stayed @..it was a 60's silver camper, small AF w/a rock hard 1/4" mattress, in a driveway, w/barely any water. You flush the toliet by a leaver, then you have to pour water down. They're on a well system, & forget washing your hands or anything else. They allow you to use their guest bathroom in the house w/shower,(only during the day tho) but I just went to the health club.
& they charge 50.00 a day now? Oh, & it leaks too.
Ugh, I'll stay here

Velveteen.Rabbit
08-24-2016, 12:20 PM
My life has been insane and on the brink of not knowing what's around the corner for like the last 8 weeks now lol. The funny thing is that I don't hate it. It's going to be like this for another couple weeks til I'm settled in school again.

On some level, I'm addicted to change, newness, and the excitement that comes with firsts. But on the other hand, I know that's not practical to have all the time unless you commit to an eternal Peter Pan lifestyle. I don't know what else can fill the newness void? Babies? I have enough hobbies already. Weekend trips? Like can someone fill me in? I feel like everything will eventually become stale and mundane. What's the secret? Drugs? Lmao

I'm kind of excited for fall. It's my favorite season. It's always so calm with asense of mystery lurking around every corner.

seashell
08-24-2016, 01:01 PM
I'm about to start an engineering degree, and I am beyond ecstatic. This is the first time in my life where I feel ready and committed to go to school, and the degree is my own choice, not something that my friends or family pushed me to do (teaching).

I quit my full-time vanilla job on Monday, because it went from a low-paying yet low-stress/easy position, to me being the only person remaining who knew how to run the HR department. WTF? Plus, there was no way I could fit college into my schedule while working 50+ hours a week with dancing and the vanilla job.

I live with my family, and haven't told them about quitting... eep. I honestly might just say I switched to part-time, and work dayshifts at the club, lol.

DonaDiabla
08-25-2016, 03:28 AM
The thing that I hate about being a pso that many dispatch companies do not really like findom and sugar baby fetish./:O Nor do they like having you create different type of characters such as punks or goths. I remember one dispatch company did not allow for me to create this punk character because the owner did not like the whole punk/goth/ emo look. Many of them really enjoy the whole all American type . How creatively dull for someone like me.Well,I am glad that I have platforms and direct dial now ;D

buttonpop
08-25-2016, 06:30 PM
last week i went out with this male model whos the only guy i've found attractive in the last 4 months. he ended up having a ton of red flags including serious unmedicated mental illnesses and a history of cheating, which he told me on the first date as if it was no big deal. I told him I couldn't date him (due to his lack of mental stability) but if he waited 2 weeks for my test results to come back i would maybe consider a FWB thing because holy shit, this guy was so sexy and nobody else has been able to turn me on all damn summer.

then out of nowhere he texts me a bunch of crazy gibberish including "i'm not saying youre an object to me, but thanks for the two blue round ones" or some bullshit. I texted him back saying he just blew his chance and to delete my number. he begged me for forgiveness, said he was just trying to get a reaction out of me and didn't mean it. i didn't reply. he actually showed up at my front door last night trying to apologize, freaked me the hell out, i dont know just how unstable this guy is. I told him to leave and he did, I really hope he doesn't come back. I was actually a little afraid for my safety. I pushed a bookcase against the door and slept with a knife, probably unnecessary but I can be a little paranoid when it comes to men reacting badly to rejection.

ugh seriously. why couldn't he just keep a lid on the crazy for one more week so I could fuck him and get my sexual frustration out. the first guy i've found remotely attractive in ages.

the fact that i find no men attractive anymore, except for male models, is making question my sexuality.

miss.a.p1600
08-25-2016, 08:39 PM
^^^he probably thought he could win you back but went overboard.

I can relate. I have so much compassion for people even those with mental illness but could I really be with someone with mental illness??? The dude I was dating told me he was depressed and taking medicine for it but I think with great certainty that he is bipolar. I even told him dude you're bipolar! Why are people okay with being depressed but in denial about being bipolar like it is like the kiss of death?

Struggling with my decisions. At what point is their behavior them or the illness?

I hate feeling this way.

lynn2009
08-25-2016, 08:40 PM
I have so much compassion for people even those with mental illness but could I really be with someone with mental illness??? Struggling with my decisions.

I hate feeling this way.

no one's ever been able to deal with me and I don't blame them

buttonpop
08-26-2016, 12:15 AM
at this point in my life i dont trust myself enough to date someone with mental illnesses that are being poorly managed or not managed at all. but not because i can't deal, because secretly, i love the drama. I have a hero complex and try to "save" broken men.

Aurora_Sunset
08-26-2016, 06:24 AM
There's a part of me that wants to switch dentists because a year ago, I felt so awkward and caught off guard when he asked if I was a student/what I did for a living (I don't know why - it's not like I haven't lied about this question a hundred times), that I flipped out and made up some completely ridiculous bullshit about what I was "in school" for. And he always remembers when he sees me!

Now that I'm actually in school for something else entirely, I hate keeping up the stupid lie. I don't know why it bugs me so much. I only have to talk about it for 30 seconds twice (or three times) a year. No big deal. It's not really worth it to freak out and go elsewhere... I'm awkward.

carmen_b
08-26-2016, 01:57 PM
Silly jealousy issues arising here over a guy I've crushed from afar having a girlfriend.

( I'm in a monogamous relationship so it's not like I want to leave it on a chance )
I am kind of fascinated with how eco friendly and committed to self improvement he is . I guess I will use him as Eco inspiration.

I think part of it is that he works remotely like me so I concocted a few fantasies of us working 20 hours a week in different international cities. I'm fully aware this is less about him and more about wanting that lifestyle.

Vyanka
08-26-2016, 04:18 PM
last week i went out with this male model whos the only guy i've found attractive in the last 4 months. he ended up having a ton of red flags including serious unmedicated mental illnesses and a history of cheating, which he told me on the first date as if it was no big deal. I told him I couldn't date him (due to his lack of mental stability) but if he waited 2 weeks for my test results to come back i would maybe consider a FWB thing because holy shit, this guy was so sexy and nobody else has been able to turn me on all damn summer.

then out of nowhere he texts me a bunch of crazy gibberish including "i'm not saying youre an object to me, but thanks for the two blue round ones" or some bullshit. I texted him back saying he just blew his chance and to delete my number. he begged me for forgiveness, said he was just trying to get a reaction out of me and didn't mean it. i didn't reply. he actually showed up at my front door last night trying to apologize, freaked me the hell out, i dont know just how unstable this guy is. I told him to leave and he did, I really hope he doesn't come back. I was actually a little afraid for my safety. I pushed a bookcase against the door and slept with a knife, probably unnecessary but I can be a little paranoid when it comes to men reacting badly to rejection.

ugh seriously. why couldn't he just keep a lid on the crazy for one more week so I could fuck him and get my sexual frustration out. the first guy i've found remotely attractive in ages.

the fact that i find no men attractive anymore, except for male models, is making question my sexuality.


I think that's my problem too! Ugh. I can't help it... I'm fkn shallow when it comes to a man's looks. Last week I saw a young guy who I wanted to have a baby with. Omg. If I was stable enough, I think I would've gotten pregnant on purpose. Ok, maybe not... but nice to fantasize. He literally had a perfect face.

Elektra Luxx
08-26-2016, 08:56 PM
Like you say,


no one's ever been able to deal with me and I don't blame them

I'm always the mentally unbalanced one in a relationship.

Gia2608
08-26-2016, 09:11 PM
There's a part of me that wants to switch dentists because a year ago, I felt so awkward and caught off guard when he asked if I was a student/what I did for a living (I don't know why - it's not like I haven't lied about this question a hundred times), ... I'm awkward.

He probably doesn't remember, he probably put a note in the file (what a stripper move) so he would be able to offer a personal touch everytime he sees you. But this is totally something I would do!!



I am watching Mad Men and it was from an earlier season when the Drapers were still together- and I am thinking if people were more prudish back then or now? I would saw they were but they had 7 kids per family so I am not sure... this episode is about something completely different and my prevo-mind wants to know how married people used to do it back in grandma's day!!:O:O:O

seashell
08-27-2016, 07:22 AM
Like you say,



I'm always the mentally unbalanced one in a relationship.

Same! I'm beginning to think I'm not meant to be in a relationship, because I'm stable while single but batshit crazy in relationships. >_>

buttonpop
08-27-2016, 08:28 AM
Holy shit. That model guy showed up at my house AGAIN. I went out with friends the other night and he was there in the group, looking mopey all night. He tried to talk to me and I said "look you already apologized and I already accepted your apology but there are no second chances so lets just leave it there please". Then super early this morning he knocks on my door, waking me up and freaking me out with a bunch of roses. I didn't answer the door.

I know he is just trying to apologize but this guy clearly doesn't understand the word no, or boundaries. I'm kinda starting to freak out. I know he has a history of violence and throwing fits. I dont know how this is going to escalate. He has only ever shown up at my house to apologize and be "nice" so i dont want to escalate the situation by threatening a restraining order or something. I want to de-escalate the situation and make him forget about me and move on. if you have any experience at this, please give me some advice. so far I've been ignoring him because I think he feeds on drama.

i keep having nightmares about being attacked and assaulted and i dont know if they're premonitions or symptoms of my anxiety.

miss.a.p1600
08-27-2016, 12:22 PM
^^^turn on the sprinkler system! Lol!!!

He's thinking with persistence he will win you back. Just continue to ignore him and he'll eventually get a clue. Carry a weapon or have police on speed dial, just in case.

seashell
08-27-2016, 01:19 PM
Holy shit. That model guy showed up at my house AGAIN. I went out with friends the other night and he was there in the group, looking mopey all night. He tried to talk to me and I said "look you already apologized and I already accepted your apology but there are no second chances so lets just leave it there please". Then super early this morning he knocks on my door, waking me up and freaking me out with a bunch of roses. I didn't answer the door.

I know he is just trying to apologize but this guy clearly doesn't understand the word no, or boundaries. I'm kinda starting to freak out. I know he has a history of violence and throwing fits. I dont know how this is going to escalate. He has only ever shown up at my house to apologize and be "nice" so i dont want to escalate the situation by threatening a restraining order or something. I want to de-escalate the situation and make him forget about me and move on. if you have any experience at this, please give me some advice. so far I've been ignoring him because I think he feeds on drama.

i keep having nightmares about being attacked and assaulted and i dont know if they're premonitions or symptoms of my anxiety.

Ignoring is usually the best thing, especially since you said he feeds on drama. He should get bored eventually and move on. If you keep talking to him, you're feeding the fire.

Keep records of how he has contacted you/shown up at your place, in case you ever do need a restraining order. You might want to get some kind of security alarm for your place, if you don't already have one (or just buy the alarm sign/window stickers on ebay, lol).