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Velveteen.Rabbit
09-06-2016, 08:33 AM
I went on a hostel kick which made sense to do since travel dancing. So in one of the hostels, there were women who had gotten their children taken away. One had a baby with a wealthy guy and they had been together for several years beforehand. She was a stay at home mom. Well one day they fought and he kicked her out and now she's left with nothing. She has part time custody but no place to take the baby since she has no job. She has seen her baby, who is still breastfeeding, once in the past month.

The other girl, who met girl #1 when I did, got her son taken away because her ex transferred things into his name secretly and then told the judge she was a prostitute. No, she's a model and a very pretty one. But he used her clothed sexy photos to persuade the judge she was an oversexualized prostitute. She's not, because it she was an escort then she wouldn't be staying in a hostel, she'd be staying in a nicer hotel taking Incalls and be sleeping there.

Both were like oh we did everything right, girl #1 waited til 34 to have babies. So crazy. This is why I won't date rich guys because they have unlimited resources to fuck you over.

This is absolutely why a.) a high paying vanilla job is necessary, and b.) it's important to be very secretive about sexwork and modeling photos if you have kids. So scary.

carmen_b
09-06-2016, 12:12 PM
Amazing !!! :)
Love love love this.
I talked to my mom about the fact that I want to teach English in Europe, since we share an apartment and my leaving would affect her. She said she was okay with taking my cat, and with me leaving my belongings behind. I was worried she would try and talk me into staying... But she gave me the green light. I am so, so grateful to have her in my life.

My plan is to teach English and cam on the side for extra income, which should be great because the cost of living in Prague, where I want to teach, is very low. If I were to move out of this apartment and stay in the US, it would be much more expensive and I'd have to choose between teaching and sex work. Eastern Europe seems to have a different mentality than North America in that regard.

Plus I'm secretly hoping my family (okay, and ex-boyfriend) will be proud of me for using my degree.

And Prague has a CASTLE! A freaking castle! I just... the wanderlust has taken hold.

Glamourmilf
09-06-2016, 06:33 PM
I went on a hostel kick which made sense to do since travel dancing. So in one of the hostels, there were women who had gotten their children taken away. One had a baby with a wealthy guy and they had been together for several years beforehand. She was a stay at home mom. Well one day they fought and he kicked her out and now she's left with nothing. She has part time custody but no place to take the baby since she has no job. She has seen her baby, who is still breastfeeding, once in the past month.

The other girl, who met girl #1 when I did, got her son taken away because her ex transferred things into his name secretly and then told the judge she was a prostitute. No, she's a model and a very pretty one. But he used her clothed sexy photos to persuade the judge she was an oversexualized prostitute. She's not, because it she was an escort then she wouldn't be staying in a hostel, she'd be staying in a nicer hotel taking Incalls and be sleeping there.

Both were like oh we did everything right, girl #1 waited til 34 to have babies. So crazy. This is why I won't date rich guys because they have unlimited resources to fuck you over.

This is absolutely why a.) a high paying vanilla job is necessary, and b.) it's important to be very secretive about sexwork and modeling photos if you have kids. So scary.

Wow! Unfortunately, I've seen similar things happen to women friends and neighbors.
That is why you're statement about not dating rich guys resonates with me.

Velveteen.Rabbit
09-07-2016, 03:14 PM
Wow! Unfortunately, I've seen similar things happen to women friends and neighbors.
That is why you're statement about not dating rich guys resonates with me.

Yeah they went to some meeting that was required where they met other moms who openly admitted to being drug addicts, but those moms had gotten their kids back because the dad wasn't a rich guy with unlimited resources to fuck them over. So scary. It's like, unless you have a high paying stable vanilla job, you can't get your kids back unless the dad is working class or poor. The rights automatically default to him because he's the one that can afford a lawyer who can create any sort of negative case against you that could be semi-plausible even if it's not/never been true.

miss.a.p1600
09-10-2016, 08:40 AM
I have been on stripperweb for over 4 hours. Wtf?!

SexxiLexxi
09-10-2016, 09:17 AM
I dont know how we are going to pay rent next week. Or electric. Or internet. I'm *really* trying to stay positive but this is becoming more and more stressful.

whirlerz
09-10-2016, 10:28 AM
Aw. I'm sorry hon. Life is very difficult, I've been there. I'm ok now, but yea I have this as well still sometimes.
Sending you positive vibes, hope it gets much better for you soon. & Hugs too.

So: the good news is, a lot of the prob child people (like 1/2) are gone from where I live..
Right now I went out to my car, there was a cop sitting in the pkg lot, a ways down. All of a sudden, he zooms down where I was, I just calmly got out of my car & went bk inside, he was writing a ticket I think for one of the old vans this place leaves sitting out (why they don't have a tow pl come & get, & they give some $ for junks, Idk)
They've had about 8 or so tickets, I know they don't pay 'em.
I'm sure he ran my shit too, big whoop.::)

miss.a.p1600
09-10-2016, 10:48 AM
I dont know how we are going to pay rent next week. Or electric. Or internet. I'm *really* trying to stay positive but this is becoming more and more stressful.

I feel ya. You can make payment arrangements for electricity and Internet. Rent - you'll have to just pay it late + whatever late fee. Just don't pay it too late cause they may file eviction papers.

SnuffleUffleGrass
09-10-2016, 11:50 AM
Yeah they went to some meeting that was required where they met other moms who openly admitted to being drug addicts, but those moms had gotten their kids back because the dad wasn't a rich guy with unlimited resources to fuck them over. So scary. It's like, unless you have a high paying stable vanilla job, you can't get your kids back unless the dad is working class or poor. The rights automatically default to him because he's the one that can afford a lawyer who can create any sort of negative case against you that could be semi-plausible even if it's not/never been true.

Years ago a guy I dated who had a rich family brought up marriage & kids too often for my liking. I'm pretty sure it was because he felt secure in bullying me out of custody if we had kids together....thank God afaik no one has had kid with him ever....he is too messed up.

seashell
09-10-2016, 05:12 PM
Last night at work, I helped this really hot Hispanic guy sign up for Tinder. He had no idea what it was when I asked him, so I explained how it works and he had me create a profile for him. ;D

Seriously, he was SO HOT... he was lean and tall, with a six pack on his front abs AND on his lower back. WTF. I had no idea back six packs existed D:

Glamourmilf
09-11-2016, 05:13 PM
Last night at work, I helped this really hot Hispanic guy sign up for Tinder. He had no idea what it was when I asked him, so I explained how it works and he had me create a profile for him. ;D

Seriously, he was SO HOT... he was lean and tall, with a six pack on his front abs AND on his lower back. WTF. I had no idea back six packs existed D:
I read your post 3 times, and still don't understand why You didn't jump him. lol! Was it because you met him at work? Or married?
Glam Confused.

SexxiLexxi
09-11-2016, 06:35 PM
I have a crazy addiction to guys with beards. Neat, clean beards...not that wild, all over the place shit. Been watching youtube videos of musicians that have beards. Totally obsessed.

seashell
09-12-2016, 12:15 AM
I read your post 3 times, and still don't understand why You didn't jump him. lol! Was it because you met him at work? Or married?
Glam Confused.

Haha, well there was a big language barrier. And he was kind of a weirdo. And yeah, I met him at work (the strip club), which is a boundary I try not to cross. But THAT BODY. :D

Adding on to that confession... I ended my night by dancing for a hilarious guy who I might have *considered* going home with. Tall, thin, nerdy, wore hipster glasses... we made some off-color jokes and he had me stop dancing because we were both laughing so hard. He still paid for the dance and gave me a nice tip.

I have such a weak spot for funny guys. If only the sexy Adonis from my last shift were better at telling jokes. XD

Velveteen.Rabbit
09-12-2016, 05:32 AM
Years ago a guy I dated who had a rich family brought up marriage & kids too often for my liking. I'm pretty sure it was because he felt secure in bullying me out of custody if we had kids together....thank God afaik no one has had kid with him ever....he is too messed up.

There's just no way I could ever have kids with a rich dude unless I was on the same playing field.
I couldn't go in knowing I'd lose custody and a court battle because I couldn't afford to pay a really good lawyer to fight for me.

Glamourmilf
09-12-2016, 08:25 AM
There's just no way I could ever have kids with a rich dude unless I was on the same playing field.
I couldn't go in knowing I'd lose custody and a court battle because I couldn't afford to pay a really good lawyer to fight for me.

That movie "Liar Liar" comes to mind when I read this.
Same scenario , but luckily she had Jim Carey to represent her.
Sadly, real life isn't like this, and the wealthy man usually wins custody.

MistressX
09-12-2016, 10:21 AM
Due to a situation regarding an old business partner of mine (I made a thread about it in camming connection), I have been editing and reposting old videos I did about 4 or 5 years ago. I was going out with a dude at the time from england (long ass story). I confess I've been feeling a little down and hurt still from the whole thing that happened to our relationship. Seeing those videos again makes me sad, even though I know he's a douchenozzle that cheated on me and treated me like shit after the honeymoon phase was over. Once upon a time I loved him very, very deeply and we had so many adventures together. I will never forget the experiences we had. It was almost like I lived on a different planet then. It's been so many years and I have never fully gotten over it. I've accepted that I probably never will. *le sigh*

whirlerz
09-12-2016, 01:19 PM
I believe you can get over almost anything, I would exclude something like a sudden death of a loved one, & things similar.

Today I went to the bank 3 x's..due in no small part to this order I placed thru a seller's site (like ebay but not them) & it hasn't even been charged to my card yet? Waiting, & tomorrow or so I'll have to contact the site, or put a note up for them, but then if I do the latter everyone will see it that goes to her page no priv mssging. So Idk yet, but irritating af.
I was also considering 2 other auto w/draws, so I finally made it right on the last trip.
Then, on the last trip bk, I see a long time ex driving in the next land! I mean this's one of the rare, select few world class champs in bed.
I ALMOST caught up to him, but naw, too many world class flaws/probs too, so nah. Tired of shitty, half-ass ppl, no matter the pluses.

Glamourmilf
09-12-2016, 10:02 PM
I believe you can get over almost anything, I would exclude something like a sudden death of a loved one, & things similar.

Today I went to the bank 3 x's..due in no small part to this order I placed thru a seller's site (like ebay but not them) & it hasn't even been charged to my card yet? Waiting, & tomorrow or so I'll have to contact the site, or put a note up for them, but then if I do the latter everyone will see it that goes to her page no priv mssging. So Idk yet, but irritating af.
I was also considering 2 other auto w/draws, so I finally made it right on the last trip.
Then, on the last trip bk, I see a long time ex driving in the next land! I mean this's one of the rare, select few world class champs in bed.
I ALMOST caught up to him, but naw, too many world class flaws/probs too, so nah. Tired of shitty, half-ass ppl, no matter the pluses.

Revisiting, revising, reviewing the past .
This Mercury In Retrograde is kicking my ass!
Don't really know why. Isn't it in Virgo? I don't have any association with Virgo. Hmm.

SexxiLexxi
09-13-2016, 07:48 AM
The SD/SB relationships have always fascinated me. I'd never do it because, well, quite frankly I don't want to be forced to have sex in exchange for money with a stranger (NOT saying anything is wrong with that by no means by the way). I, personally, would feel weird. Though if I could get away with it without the sex part, I would totally be down to keep some man or even woman company!

absolutelyadorable
09-13-2016, 08:09 AM
Then, on the last trip bk, I see a long time ex driving in the next land! I mean this's one of the rare, select few world class champs in bed.
I ALMOST caught up to him, but naw, too many world class flaws/probs too, so nah. Tired of shitty, half-ass ppl, no matter the pluses.

DON'T DO EEEEEEEEET lmao. You made the right decision there girly.

whirlerz
09-13-2016, 09:22 AM
Yea, no dodged that bullet..

So last night, actually early this morn, I had this weird violent dream.
I was in a hotel (not this one it felt like?) & it wassuper busy, I was walking thru the lobby, some girl behind me was super close, trying to push me outta the way, I turned & said something (not nasty tho) to her, & she took & dragged me in the pool, her in it too, trying to push my head under but I struggled & got away.
I went to the lobby, they have a light 'breakfast' but it was over, I just wanted to micro my egg sandwich.
I went to get some water from the dispenser, when I'm done I turn & this kid standing there waiting & giving me the evil eye?::)
A couple groups of woman & kids were there, the problem people that have been here, a lot of them have left, but I could feel the hostility big time>:(m
No men were around, (out hustlin' lol) but I've caught a few staring, reeeallly staring (I dress very modestly)
I mean, I think most of the housekeeping staff's gone/quit, I saw the maintenance guy cleaning rooms, the mgr told me that about 1/2 the fams were asked to leave, (1 guy was screaming @ the mgr/clerk the other day) but anyway, super fuckin' creepy:O:

@Glam, the retrograd affects everyone, pretty much, we got another eclipse I believe, moon's almost ful:O

Glamourmilf
09-13-2016, 09:44 AM
^^Oh? Uh oh, spaghettios. :O

Aurora_Sunset
09-13-2016, 10:13 AM
I feel super insecure in my grad classes.

I think I'm literally one of two people in the program who doesn't have any experience in the working world with nonprofits. Which isn't required, and it's not as though I've never dealt with anything having to do with these organizations because I volunteer a lot, but all these terms and concepts - everyone already seems to know them and can apply them to their 5-10 years already working with an organization/several organizations. I try to join online discussions for the classes, and everyone else's posts is tying back the readings to their personal experience with these concepts. Or every time someone else asks a question in class, it starts with "Well, in my organization, we do things this way, so how would you apply this concept to blablahblah personal story?" And I'm just sitting over here trying to remember what certain terms mean and trying to grasp how the structure of this entire world works.

There are times I try to tell myself it's a good thing. 1) It's easier to learn and get a fresh perspective on things when you're a clean slate. Sometimes I think it's stifling their growth for these people to always be looking at things through the lens of thinking they already know everything. So I should see it as a positive to be learning things without the bias. And 2) That whole saying about how if you're the smartest person in the room, you're in the wrong room. Obviously, I should be somewhere where I'm actively learning things because I'm not already comfortable with them - otherwise, what would be the point?

But I hate sitting there, mentally grappling with the concepts, and then other people are throwing things into the conversation that clearly come from beyond a place on the subject matter than I even understand right then, and I feel so small and stupid. I can't contribute to classroom discussions because I'm always two steps behind in even remembering the terms for what we're talking about, and my online discussion contributions are stupidly simple questions for clarification next to everyone else's paragraphs-long analysis of law cases. I don't like talking to my classmates because they go on and on about shit I have no idea about and look at me funny if all I can say is that I've volunteered with an organization for 2 years, but don't actually know anything about their development process because that's not my job as a volunteer...

I'm not used to looking like the stupid, lazy student. I feel like everyone's looking at me like "Why are you here?" I thought going back to school would be fun and I'd make new friends and start being more social, but I get anxiety every time I even have to physically show up to class and try my best to stay invisible cuz I just feel woefully out of place.

seashell
09-13-2016, 11:50 AM
I feel super insecure in my grad classes.

I think I'm literally one of two people in the program who doesn't have any experience in the working world with nonprofits. Which isn't required, and it's not as though I've never dealt with anything having to do with these organizations because I volunteer a lot, but all these terms and concepts - everyone already seems to know them and can apply them to their 5-10 years already working with an organization/several organizations. I try to join online discussions for the classes, and everyone else's posts is tying back the readings to their personal experience with these concepts. Or every time someone else asks a question in class, it starts with "Well, in my organization, we do things this way, so how would you apply this concept to blablahblah personal story?" And I'm just sitting over here trying to remember what certain terms mean and trying to grasp how the structure of this entire world works.

There are times I try to tell myself it's a good thing. 1) It's easier to learn and get a fresh perspective on things when you're a clean slate. Sometimes I think it's stifling their growth for these people to always be looking at things through the lens of thinking they already know everything. So I should see it as a positive to be learning things without the bias. And 2) That whole saying about how if you're the smartest person in the room, you're in the wrong room. Obviously, I should be somewhere where I'm actively learning things because I'm not already comfortable with them - otherwise, what would be the point?

But I hate sitting there, mentally grappling with the concepts, and then other people are throwing things into the conversation that clearly come from beyond a place on the subject matter than I even understand right then, and I feel so small and stupid. I can't contribute to classroom discussions because I'm always two steps behind in even remembering the terms for what we're talking about, and my online discussion contributions are stupidly simple questions for clarification next to everyone else's paragraphs-long analysis of law cases. I don't like talking to my classmates because they go on and on about shit I have no idea about and look at me funny if all I can say is that I've volunteered with an organization for 2 years, but don't actually know anything about their development process because that's not my job as a volunteer...

I'm not used to looking like the stupid, lazy student. I feel like everyone's looking at me like "Why are you here?" I thought going back to school would be fun and I'd make new friends and start being more social, but I get anxiety every time I even have to physically show up to class and try my best to stay invisible cuz I just feel woefully out of place.

Everyone has to start somewhere, and they put you in the program for a reason. I think you should embrace it and feel good about yourself for doing your program sooner than these other people. You'll be going into your field with much more knowledge, more fully prepared.

Hope it goes well for you! :)

SnuffleUffleGrass
09-13-2016, 01:21 PM
A happy confession- I discovered from reading another dancer's blog that we had pretty much the same bad reaction to a particular club...She's way hotter than me so I have come to see that the club is equally awful to all girls no matter where they fall on the ten scale, it really wasn't just me lol.

We had a rabbit like you
09-13-2016, 05:05 PM
I keep having these dreams that I can't go work at my club so I'm like "fuck it. I'll go to the church/library/equally inappropriate place and make my money!" And the people there are so confused and it's wicked awkward.
I have a very active dream life where stripping is concerned, like I have a "dream club" that I go to when I sleep and it always looks the same and has a diner in it.
I miss dancing so much. Can't wait til le Bebe is born so I can jump back on that pole. I've lost ALL my anti depressant weight and I'm rarin to go!

miss.a.p1600
09-14-2016, 11:39 AM
I sought out the advice of a psychic.

Omg this guy was very insightful about the situation with that dude I rant about. A weight has been lifted off my shoulders.

I'm going to quit ranting, for now at least lol and just enjoy life and do me.

And thanks to the ladies that helped me out.

lynn2009
09-14-2016, 04:31 PM
I feel super insecure in my grad classes.

I think I'm literally one of two people in the program who doesn't have any experience in the working world with nonprofits.

My program is the same way! I don't know exact numbers but it's got to be 80% or more of my fellow students are already in this field and taking classes for a promotion rather than to change fields all together. And most of them are managers. I only really notice it when we are doing class intros at the beginning of each semester and then occasionally throughout the semester depending on the class and topics that come up. Even for me it is annoying and I can imagine it really being rough if my classes were really discussion focused. I'm sure your profs remember and keep it in mind though.

rareaspasia
09-15-2016, 08:32 AM
I keep daydreaming about cutting off my almost waist length blonde hair. It's such a pain and it's so hot. I miss how easy shorter hair is. But it makes me so much money that I won't until I quit dancing.

miss.a.p1600
09-15-2016, 09:53 AM
Went to Walmart and instead of old senior citizens greeting they had some police officers who were fine as f*ck!!!! One black one, looked like Jason Derulo, and one white one, I don't know who he looked like but just ..... [email protected]@@@mn. Muscles on point!!! Omg!!! I wanted to slick create some damsel in distress scene and have them come to my rescue.

And why I have to be dressed in yoga pants and top?!?

Gotta get new wardrobe and dress on point - yes even in Walmart lol!

SimoneGray
09-15-2016, 11:58 PM
I keep daydreaming about cutting off my almost waist length blonde hair. It's such a pain and it's so hot. I miss how easy shorter hair is. But it makes me so much money that I won't until I quit dancing.

Girl you and me both. I would love to have a short, edgy hairstyle but my almost waist length, great condition hair makes me money camming and guys just love it. And I do realise that having colourful hair that doesn't look badly done is a rarity so I should keep it, but, I want a lob. I think I need to go wig shopping soon haha.

rareaspasia
09-16-2016, 06:54 AM
Girl you and me both. I would love to have a short, edgy hairstyle but my almost waist length, great condition hair makes me money camming and guys just love it. And I do realise that having colourful hair that doesn't look badly done is a rarity so I should keep it, but, I want a lob. I think I need to go wig shopping soon haha.

I did wigs when I was growing my hair out but it's just not practical for me as a dancer, it's just too hot. :(

Elektra Luxx
09-16-2016, 07:26 PM
My sister is due in late October and I'm about to buy a baby car seat from Amazon. I can't wait for her to have the baby. I love love love babies! ;D

Glamourmilf
09-16-2016, 09:58 PM
Went to Walmart and instead of old senior citizens greeting they had some police officers who were fine as f*ck!!!! One black one, looked like Jason Derulo, and one white one, I don't know who he looked like but just ..... [email protected]@@@mn. Muscles on point!!! Omg!!! I wanted to slick create some damsel in distress scene and have them come to my rescue.

And why I have to be dressed in yoga pants and top?!?

Gotta get new wardrobe and dress on point - yes even in Walmart lol!

The guards are hot at my local Walmart too. I always look away when they stop me to look at my receipt. I dress to not be noticed when I go there, so. ..damn!

Legz541
09-17-2016, 12:50 AM
I'm 29 and try to date men 30 and over. Just a personal preference. Well last weekend I end up with my tongue in the mouth of a 22 year old. Then it gets worse...at the after party I found out he's actually only 20, it's his friend that was 22! Turns out he had a fake to get into bars. I just feel so weird about this, like icky. I haven't messed around with someone 20 since I was 17 lol. At least I didn't have sex with him I guess.

seashell
09-17-2016, 03:52 AM
I hate myself for feeling this way, but I get jealous of every single ex-boyfriend as soon as I find out they're with another girl. I should probably stop using facebook. When I see photos of their new relationships, I just get this stupid unnecessary pang of sadness. Ugh... Is this a thing people feel? Maybe I'll just stay single for life. Lol

Vyanka
09-17-2016, 03:59 AM
I hate myself for feeling this way, but I get jealous of every single ex-boyfriend as soon as I find out they're with another girl. I should probably stop using facebook. When I see photos of their new relationships, I just get this stupid unnecessary pang of sadness. Ugh... Is this a thing people feel? Maybe I'll just stay single for life. Lol

I look at my ex's sometimes, out of curiosity to see if he has settled down yet or not. I'm nosey like that. Can't help it and I know I shouldn't. Last chic I saw, I just felt bad for her. Actually, any chic who winds up with his cheating ass. I don't feel jealousy at all, or an attraction to him anymore so I guess it's all good.

miss.a.p1600
09-17-2016, 06:09 AM
I hate myself for feeling this way, but I get jealous of every single ex-boyfriend as soon as I find out they're with another girl. I should probably stop using facebook. When I see photos of their new relationships, I just get this stupid unnecessary pang of sadness. Ugh... Is this a thing people feel? Maybe I'll just stay single for life. Lol

Yeah I block every single one of my exes. Hell nowadays I don't even add dudes on Facebook. They just use it as a tool to slick spy on you and creep on your profile. It irks me when people try to analyze you based off you fb profile like oooh she post a pic in a bikini she must be an attention whore or ooooh she post a pic hugging a dude she must be a slutty girl or ooooh she has a new bag every week she must be high maintenance. Just annoyed and over Facebook, Instagram, etc.

I saw the kids parental unit on Instagram and I swiftly blocked his ass. I saw his ex on Facebook and I blocked her creepy ass. I stay blocking people. That's pretty much the only thing I do like is the ability to completely block and erase in cyberspace the people who are annoying and creepy in real life

I want my feed to be filled with people I want to see. I don't want to know about or see those losers lol.

SimoneGray
09-17-2016, 07:04 AM
I confess that the electrician who was at my house earlier fixing my stuff is probably the coolest person I've met in a long time. I dunno why but I feel this profound lack of interesting people in my life right now.

SnuffleUffleGrass
09-17-2016, 07:05 AM
I look at my ex's sometimes, out of curiosity to see if he has settled down yet or not. I'm nosey like that. Can't help it and I know I shouldn't. Last chic I saw, I just felt bad for her. Actually, any chic who winds up with his cheating ass. I don't feel jealousy at all, or an attraction to him anymore so I guess it's all good.

I've Facebook crawled on my craziest ex. I actually feel sorry for for his wife but I can tell she's spending his money at a rapid pace so maybe she caught on to his shit & is getting her end of the deal...LOL

We had a rabbit like you
09-17-2016, 08:59 AM
Type A, super super cautious boring rule-conscious types annoy the fuck out of me. My best friend is one. Won't lay down to take a nap cause she has to "watch her son"...her son is fucking 9 years old!!! Has to debate for hours and hours over every minor decision and won't dare take any chances on stupid rules. I can't. Love her but it's sooooo frustrating to me.

Glamourmilf
09-17-2016, 10:01 AM
I'm 29 and try to date men 30 and over. Just a personal preference. Well last weekend I end up with my tongue in the mouth of a 22 year old. Then it gets worse...at the after party I found out he's actually only 20, it's his friend that was 22! Turns out he had a fake to get into bars. I just feel so weird about this, like icky. I haven't messed around with someone 20 since I was 17 lol. At least I didn't have sex with him I guess.


#LuckyGirl

charlie61
09-17-2016, 04:28 PM
Half of the guys who comment in the picture thread are like, "Thanks for the pic, post MORE!" Like, are you fucking kidding me? These goddesses posted free pictures of themselves for your viewing pleasure, and you're already asking for more?! Be thankful you got anything at all. Ugh.

Genoveve
09-17-2016, 05:18 PM
^^That is annoying. On instagram I will have random dudes making pic requests sometimes and I'm like "Well how much are you paying?"

whirlerz
09-17-2016, 05:47 PM
I can't wait to go on my date tonight, this guy's really nice, & drives a Porche, we'll see. He already sent me a really nice gift card & flowers

Glamourmilf
09-17-2016, 06:29 PM
I can't wait to go on my date tonight, this guy's really nice, & drives a Porche, we'll see. He already sent me a really nice gift card & flowers

A lot SD Whirl?
Best of luck. Make sure to report back.

lilylilylily
09-17-2016, 07:49 PM
Whirlers, he sounds great, Wishing you good luck too.

lilylilylily
09-17-2016, 07:56 PM
Ugh, I went out for drinks after work with a customer. I never do that but it was my birthday last wk and never really celebrated and just didn't feel like being alone last night. I had a lot of fun but he's not my type he's really nice but I know I don't wanna see him otc again. Not ready to grt involved with anyone especially a customer. He's texted me like 10 x already and told me he wants to see me again tonight cuz he has a gift for me. Creeped me out. He also knows where i live cuz he drove me home. So I texted him saying my ex wants me back and I'm going back to him.

SexxiLexxi
09-17-2016, 10:48 PM
I haven't been on cam in 3 or 4 days now because I have been drowning in sadness. I don't even know why. Hubby really has no idea either. It makes it even more difficult because I feel so alone in this battle. I don't want to get on cam & have a depression breakdown...that would be embarrassing to say the least.

Selina M
09-18-2016, 12:12 AM
Heavy depressing confession (tomorrow I may pretend I never wrote this... I feel like I share a lot on this board & I feel ridiculous sometimes):

I think I have the "Complex" form of PTSD, where it's numerous incidents over time and then one tipping point thing. I have ¾ of the symptoms. I've been abandoned without notice by all 3 of my female best friends (for minor things they sat on for ages and then randomly used as a reason to end the friendship abruptly), & 2 exes (and they spent most of the relationships being emotionally abusive in various ways). I think the break my SO and I took this year was the snapping point, especially because he was behaving really similar to those exes right before.

I seem to have triggers. For example, if SO comes in late (after 3 am, which is for some reason the 'too late' point), I often go into a panicky fog; I either internalize it into multi-day low grade anxiety, or start a fight. Everything positive he's done in the last week is totally forgotten; I ignore the fact that he's texted me several times while out, or that he has been incredibly late to everything as long as I've known him; no, he is obviously plotting to leave or trying to avoid me, because it's 3:44 am.

If one of my friends doesn't text back, the voice in the back of my head says "you must have said something, she doesn't want to be friends anymore" & then I treat that friend with kid gloves. That goes on until they reassure me somehow they're not going anywhere.

I don't think my insurance covers any therapy & I'm not in a position right now to pay $125/week out of pocket. I also feel really stupid, because I always felt PTSD was for soldiers & whatnot, & I don't want to 'belittle' it. But I need to fix this. I've started drinking at home, and had to start taking Ativan every few days when the anxiety got ridiculous. I don't want this to get out of control or do any long-term damage to my relationships.