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Aurora_Sunset
01-13-2017, 08:05 AM
Agree that you are in the honeymoon phase and things should be feeling a lot better than they are.

Yeah, it seems that way, doesn't it. :/ It's really like 90% of the time that we spend time together, I love it. We get along. That's why we were such good friends for so long. But adding in the relationship part, and that other 10% started consisting of endless conversations that make me irritated and constantly feel like I'm already doing something wrong (not including the other night) just by being me and living my life. I know that's not his intention when he brings things up, but... But that's a different rant and issue, and if I want to talk about it, I'll start a thread.

After thinking through my actions, it seems fairly logical that a flirtatious fantasy that I know isn't going to get serious is far more exciting and tempting than the reality of a real relationship where I dread the real conversations. Not like I'm gonna do anything dramatically stupid about it all, I just had a moment. But you are right, here:


Agree that you are in the honeymoon phase and things should be feeling a lot better than they are

I basically had like 2 weeks of honeymoon phase before things got really real and I wasn't ready for that to be over and at a place of deep enough stability with things to suddenly not be in that phase anymore. I get that real conversations and issues are part of a relationship, but I needed more of that lighthearted phase before being tossed into the shit, and I didn't get that for whatever reason. We were (and are) wonderful friends, but I worry I made a mistake by trying to take it romantic. I guess that's something I'll have to figure out myself, soon, and stop threadjacking. Thanks for letting me get it out, ladies.

We had a rabbit like you
01-13-2017, 10:35 AM
I know most people are v-day grinches but whatever, I love it! Guess it's cause my mom loved the holiday so much so I grew up loving it the same way..I just look at it as celebrating love in general instead of the super cheesy couples-only trying-to-get-laid crap it can turn into.
This year I won't be healed enough for sex and won't be able to go out alone w my guy so I'm just gunna have a big valentines bash with everyone I love and decorate with lots of roses and balloons and lace and heart shaped treats and strawberries.

baer45
01-13-2017, 12:41 PM
I was supposed to be in a shooting competition yesterday. But I completely forgot about it and went to chill with my friends. The board members weren't happy about it since my club is at the bottom of the score board right now. They are very serious about the sport and I am not sure i want to do it every week.

DamnJolene
01-13-2017, 12:51 PM
A younger cousin of mine tried to commit suicide by hanging herself on a door. She was home alone. She had been arguing with her mom over something. When her mom got home and found her. She is on life support and has no brain activity. There are going to disconnect her from life support when her sister gets into town to say goodbye.

I didn't even know her that well and I can't stop crying.

That's disturbing. I am sorry about your loss.

Genoveve
01-13-2017, 07:33 PM
I know most people are v-day grinches but whatever, I love it! Guess it's cause my mom loved the holiday so much so I grew up loving it the same way..I just look at it as celebrating love in general instead of the super cheesy couples-only trying-to-get-laid crap it can turn into.
This year I won't be healed enough for sex and won't be able to go out alone w my guy so I'm just gunna have a big valentines bash with everyone I love and decorate with lots of roses and balloons and lace and heart shaped treats and strawberries.

I love it toooooooo, ever since I was a kid.

miss.a.p1600
01-14-2017, 04:17 PM
I had a dream I was lactating :O

ScarletKitten
01-15-2017, 02:55 AM
I just saw "Hidden Figures". My crush on Janelle Monae has grown now. Omg, that woman. Fuck. I love her so much, it hurts.

Aurora_Sunset
01-15-2017, 10:55 AM
I just booked a flight to Denver in about a month. I'm doing it under the pretense of visiting my sister who just moved there (and I am), but I'm going to spend a lot of my time there scoping out the schools and checking out apartments in and around the city. I'm not telling anyone that though.

chanzep
01-15-2017, 10:46 PM
I love Denver too, its beautiful. we were thinking of moving there, apartments are expensive there though, I remember that. love to go back there.

chanzep
01-15-2017, 10:47 PM
Im surprised how much I love the NFL lol, I love to perv at the players.

ScarletKitten
01-16-2017, 12:40 AM
I don't think I'm sexually attracted to men anymore. For real. I've been crushing on only women recently. Hmmmm......does this make me bisexual or straight-up lesbian?? I don't care about labels, but it has me wondering....

I think I'm bisexual.

seashell
01-16-2017, 02:55 AM
Going out with the guy from class again today. So it turns out he's a virgin who's never had a girlfriend. This hasn't really stopped me dating guys before... I've taken 3 guys' virginity... I mean, I like engineers and otherwise nerdy guys, and it often comes with the territory lol... but that makes me wonder if he could actually deal with a relationship. And it would be long distance for the next few months, since he works in Belgium and I'm traveling while my visa gets processed. Ugh. I guess nothing is perfect, though, so I'll just give it a chance and see where it goes.

He doesn't know about my job. Honestly, I'm hoping to quit before it ever comes up. Being long-distance for now might be very helpful.

DonaDiabla
01-16-2017, 08:14 AM
This year, I would have been in this industry for 14 years and I am pretty proud of that. In fact, I really enjoy my work because it is so fun. Although, I must confess that I feel that my camming shows are lacking. Personally, I would love to be more on creative with them and put on pretty daring shows. However, I would have to upgrade everything to complete my dream cam shows. :)

buttonpop
01-17-2017, 07:55 PM
I had a dream I was lactating :O

i was curious about wet nurses and went down a google rabbit hole and discovered that you can make yourself lactate by using suction on your nipples over time (like using a breast pump regularly).

i was a little freaked out.

Glamourmilf
01-18-2017, 07:23 AM
i was curious about wet nurses and went down a google rabbit hole and discovered that you can make yourself lactate by using suction on your nipples over time (like using a breast pump regularly).

i was a little freaked out.
Really? I love it!
Guys on cam ask for lactation shows all the time.
I'm going to try this , and report back.

WendiStarr
01-18-2017, 09:54 AM
You can also lactate from being on birth control pills. It is a side effect that I have experienced before. My period had mysteriously disappeared for 3 months while I birth control(I wasn't sexually active, It was to try to reduce the heavy, painful periods I always have)and I was lactating, despite not having had lactated or breastfed in 2 years. It freaked me out at first but a lot of cam customers liked it. Just buy a breast pump and use it every 2 hours or so for a couple months. You can also drink mother's milk tea. Be careful though. The problem that I had next is that it wouldn't dry up for another year.

SnuffleUffleGrass
01-18-2017, 03:35 PM
This is a funny/cringey confession but I now realize after researching webcamming that a guy I dated was a porn addict/ addictive user of cam girls. It's kind of funny because in real life he was super cheap and rude. I think buying cam shows made him feel better about his many shortcomings because he was, um, homely & not good at being social.

I've let go of my anger towards him (he is a dick) & I'm happy he put some money in girl's pockets. It's the least he was good for ha ha

Elektra Luxx
01-18-2017, 05:43 PM
You can also lactate from being on birth control pills. It is a side effect that I have experienced before. My period had mysteriously disappeared for 3 months while I birth control(I wasn't sexually active, It was to try to reduce the heavy, painful periods I always have)and I was lactating, despite not having had lactated or breastfed in 2 years. It freaked me out at first but a lot of cam customers liked it. Just buy a breast pump and use it every 2 hours or so for a couple months. You can also drink mother's milk tea. Be careful though. The problem that I had next is that it wouldn't dry up for another year.

I know its a thing, but have never been asked by client, boyfriend if I am lactating. It strikes me as kind of weird.

To put things into perspective, l've been asked by a client if I'm from zeta reticuli. I don't know if that is thing, but that strikes me as less weird.

buttonpop
01-18-2017, 05:55 PM
a lactation fetish seems very... Freudian to me. but to each their own.

Elektra Luxx
01-18-2017, 08:55 PM
I know its a thing, but have never been asked by client, boyfriend if I am lactating. It strikes me as kind of weird.

To put things into perspective, l've been asked by a client if I'm from zeta reticuli. I don't know if that is thing, but that strikes me as less weird.


a lactation fetish seems very... Freudian to me. but to each their own.

I didn't mean to offend, to each their own.

SnuffleUffleGrass
01-18-2017, 09:07 PM
Lactation fetish is big. I blame hentai anime

miss.a.p1600
01-18-2017, 09:47 PM
Just downloaded female domination and polyamory books.

baer45
01-18-2017, 09:54 PM
lactating... what???

JGB2009
01-19-2017, 03:39 PM
LOL I used to do lactation cam shows. That was 4 years ago though. Didn't do it long cause I was not producing enough milk.

SnuffleUffleGrass
01-19-2017, 03:42 PM
LOL I used to do lactation cam shows. That was 4 years ago though. Didn't do it long cause I was not producing enough milk.

Would you be willing to share more about it? Just curious.

charlie61
01-19-2017, 04:10 PM
Start a new thread on the topic, boobears! :-*

SnuffleUffleGrass
01-19-2017, 04:22 PM
Start a new thread on the topic, boobears! :-*

ok lol

PrincessfromHell
01-19-2017, 04:42 PM
This is a funny/cringey confession but I now realize after researching webcamming that a guy I dated was a porn addict/ addictive user of cam girls. It's kind of funny because in real life he was super cheap and rude. I think buying cam shows made him feel better about his many shortcomings because he was, um, homely & not good at being social.

I've let go of my anger towards him (he is a dick) & I'm happy he put some money in girl's pockets. It's the least he was good for ha ha

The guy I dated was a friquent escorts client (and while we were together ofc)...he was 2 pump chump 5 mins (if I am lucky) guy. It was the worst sex life ever, one position, no oral (when I was trying to make some changes he was giving me these O___OOOOO looks), basically boring af 1 time/day 5 mins. I have high sex drive, this was killing me! I ditched him but stayed long enough because he did some serious white knighting from the start and plus I was young and naive. When I found out I was like...O_o escorts?! like why? all of them charge for an hour at least....he did spend good cash on me though, cant complain.

buttonpop
01-19-2017, 05:17 PM
I confess that I have cried 4 times today.... all of them about Obama.

I am PMSing which makes me super sappy.

I didn't even vote for the guy (i turned 18 before his second term and i voted for a write-in because i disagreed with his drone wars) but you got to admit he was a very presidential president. He had integrity, class, decency and was a moral person. I remember crying at his inauguration with pride and hope that our country elected a black president. He was an incredible role model for kids everywhere. That kind of positive representation of black role models is extremely important on kids psychological development. He also did a lot for LGBTQ people which I believe will be his strongest legacy.


We are certainly living through an interesting period of history. I'm tearing up again! Thanks Obama and goodbye!

DamnJolene
01-19-2017, 05:23 PM
Dude does not understand how lucky he is... he's less than 24, and he does hardly anything on a daily basis (unless youtube and facebook counts), he complains about how hard life is... and he's making 45K a year (no kids).... just a fat unattractive guy (he thinks he is hot too). You can't make me feel sorry. Complains, complains, if I got a penny for everytime he complained, I would be vacationing in the Bahamas.

And he's complaining about paying his own laundry... like don't talk to me!

I told him people are making 13-14K on minimum wage... fat guy said, "That's because they're uneducated and inexperienced"... dude, you're uneducated and inexperienced, you just played the right cards without realizing it!

SnuffleUffleGrass
01-19-2017, 05:56 PM
Petty laughs confession- my ex-managers at a regular job had a "convenience" baby & married. The dad is a great guy but the mom is a super bitch. I just saw the baby (now toddler) on Facebook & the poor kid has like a perma-stoner facial expression (think Jim Brewer the comedian, as a little kid.) Funny because the dad is a pot smoker.

So grateful this kid will probably never hear all the drama of how mom & dad got together, or why. lol Just hope she grows out of the Dave Matthews face.

seashell
01-19-2017, 06:05 PM
I almost fell asleep surrounded by sex toys and with StripperWeb open on my laptop.

Aurora_Sunset
01-19-2017, 08:39 PM
Start a new thread on the topic, boobears! :-*

When I first read this, I thought it said "boobers" cuz the discussion was about lactating and I laughed really hard. I laughed harder when I realized I was wrong.

Glamourmilf
01-20-2017, 04:27 AM
I swear, the BEST part of living alone, is that I once again ( after 2 years of horrible roommates), get to talk to myself out loud.
God, I missed these talks, so much. Lol!
47149

DamnJolene
01-21-2017, 12:21 PM
Talking to yourself... is so underrated. It's needed, I talk to myself all the time (as long as no one is near 20 feet, or I'm in my room!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Seee

I'll make the exclamation point my Gawd,and if he esn't I'lll make thy delete button mi only answer.

seashell
01-21-2017, 12:36 PM
Talking to yourself... is so underrated. It's needed, I talk to myself all the time (as long as no one is near 20 feet, or I'm in my room!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Seee

I'll make the exclamation point my Gawd,and if he esn't I'lll make thy delete button mi only answer.

Haha, I talk to myself, as well. Apparently it helps to organize your thoughts and solve problems. :)

seashell
01-21-2017, 05:04 PM
I feel somewhat lost in life, right now. I'm in a strange situation as a teacher/sex worker. I know the two are not compatible, but here I am, broke and camming and interviewing for teaching jobs abroad. Once I get a job, I hope to either quit or fly far under the radar with only Skype shows/phone sex. But I feel like such a fraud, as well as a spoiled brat, since I came to another country with barely any savings and am scraping by on men's generosity. I've been going to nice dinners/places on dates and with some of my more well-off friends. I'm having the time of my life, but I should really still be living with my mom and working a shitty teaching job in my hometown. My sense of identity is so fucking confused at this point. My friends see me as a teacher with a master's degree who's fairly boring and doesn't drink, but then I go home and cam in full glam mode and do weird fetish shit that I hope never sees the light of day.

There's a guy I really want to make my boyfriend, and I'm just telling myself that it's okay if he doesn't know about camming yet, or ever, because this part of my life is only temporary, it doesn't define me. But I've been in and out of sex work for nearly a decade, so is that true?

/rant

ScarletKitten
01-26-2017, 04:43 PM
I haven't been wanting to go to work lately. BLAH. I am forcing myself to go in tomorrow night though.

buttonpop
01-27-2017, 11:42 AM
I have to end things with this guy I was casually seeing. The sex just wasnt good and even though he's gorgeous i can't bring myself to even kiss him, he repulses me, i keep cancelling on him, god i feel so bad.

I hate breaking up with people so so much.

I wish I could find a FWB who's good in bed so I can stop dating. I'm bored of it. I would only want to date someone I'm in love with, dating feels so forced and pointless otherwise, and I tend to either fall in love on first sight or fall for my friends. I never fall in love with people i'm casually dating.

seashell
01-27-2017, 12:02 PM
My litmus test lately for dating has been, "Would a man do it?"

charlie61
01-28-2017, 10:44 AM
I'm terrible about answering PMs.

Aurora_Sunset
01-28-2017, 12:53 PM
Seasonal depression is kicking my ass right now. Which it always does this time of year, but this is the first time in years that I've actually had things to do other than just ride it out. And I can't muster the energy to do them. I already feel like crap and am just sitting on the couch, eating and watching stupid shows, which is what I would usually do, but I have a massive list of shit I need to get done this weekend and knowing that I'm not doing it is just making me more anxious and feeling more shitty.

As I felt it creeping up the last couple weeks, I've tried to stay away from alcohol, exercise every day, and play motivational speeches on my ipod to and from work. It worked a little bit, but now I just want to rest... but I can't... I've spent all week with that feeling like I'm on the verge of crying, but I don't actually have a reason to cry. Yesterday, when I accidentally didn't have the money that I thought I did to pay for something, I almost teared up in the front of the cashier. Massive overreaction. Maybe if I watched a sad movie and let it out, I'd feel better. But thus begins again the cycle of not doing what I'm supposed to be doing so I feel worse.

My bf asked me a week ago if I was having seasonal affect because it's apparently been hitting him hard too. I said kinda but it wasn't that bad. Now it's bad. I don't want to see him and tell him - I don't want to see anyone right now. It's not like anyone could do anything about it, and I hate being seen as needing to be taken care of or something. It would just make me feel worse.

whirlerz
01-28-2017, 01:55 PM
Fuck this shit already.

victoriavein
01-28-2017, 07:05 PM
Confession: seeing people who have instagram-perfect lives get tagged in pictures and you see they've actually gained a lot of weight since high school makes me feel just a little bit better about myself. Yep I'm petty

seashell
01-29-2017, 02:25 AM
Confession: seeing people who have instagram-perfect lives get tagged in pictures and you see they've actually gained a lot of weight since high school makes me feel just a little bit better about myself. Yep I'm petty

Yes!! I'm petty, too. :biggrin:

miss.a.p1600
01-29-2017, 01:32 PM
I feel bad but I wish I could ditch 97% of my friends and family, move to a remote tropical location, and quietly make shit tons of money.

I feel restricted by my past.

whirlerz
01-29-2017, 04:40 PM
I'm real upset, Idk where to put this: a lady where I'm staying @ is pissed off @ someone, & wants to turn them in to a certain agency.
I think it's REALLY SHITTY.
I can't really say anything.

SexxiLexxi
01-29-2017, 04:57 PM
I'm so horrible at time management. This is something I wish I could be better at!

22lligm
01-29-2017, 09:11 PM
I feel bad but I wish I could ditch 97% of my friends and family, move to a remote tropical location, and quietly make shit tons of money.

I feel restricted by my past.

I feel like this is my life lol except my remote tropical location is my apartment. I guess it's good since I have nothing else to do but work and make money.. but sometimes it gets really really lonely.


& on that note my confession right now is I complain about being lonely and have a pity party for myself but at the same time I bail if anyone invites me anywhere. I met a guy the other day and he wanted to take me out last night but I lied and said I was working when really I was just on my couch doing nothing. Then two girls from work invited me on a work trip with them and I'm flaking on that too. Idk why I'm like this lol just super antisocial.

ScarletKitten
01-29-2017, 10:59 PM
I love Ashley Judd, and her speech was so fucking badass. :heartbeat I don't care what the haters say.