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Austinrox
09-15-2010, 12:16 AM
we aren't "official" yet (he asked me to be his girlfriend, then took it back a month later, then stopped chatting for a few months, then chatting again).

I got stuck on one like this, but he never asked me to be his girlfriend. I don't feel bad that he didn't either. My conclusion was/is he is not ready to be in a healthy relationship with anyone because he can not have one with HIMSELF, so I know it was not me....Last time I seen him I told him this and he agreed with me :-\ I still hate the fact that I have a very hard time saying "no" to him (chemistry is STILL there three years now)....but for me to expect him to "change, settle, what have you" is not realistic...

malayataylor
09-15-2010, 05:23 AM
I am so sick of the "Other work" section of this site. People want to take shots at me because they see I am successful. I am so READY to leave sw but there is no way I'm leaving with all my posts still on the site. If the mods don't delete them like I have asked I will go through and delete them myself (Yes every single one of the information I have posted on that section). Obviously there are some ungrateful bitches on here and I am not going to entertain anymore of this bullshit. This is seriously time I am not getting paid for and time to get the fuck off of SW.

malayataylor
09-15-2010, 05:23 AM
Kisca, he sounds like a typical "white boy" who thinks he's better than anyone else. Hate those types of guys.


Did you just say this Kelly? I am lol'n so hard right now!

charlie61
09-15-2010, 07:46 AM
I am so sick of the "Other work" section of this site. People want to take shots at me because they see I am successful. I am so READY to leave sw but there is no way I'm leaving with all my posts still on the site. If the mods don't delete them like I have asked I will go through and delete them myself (Yes every single one of the information I have posted on that section). Obviously there are some ungrateful bitches on here and I am not going to entertain anymore of this bullshit. This is seriously time I am not getting paid for and time to get the fuck off of SW.

Aww. :'( I had no idea you felt this way. Have you contacted the supermod about this? I don't think we even have an individual mod for that section...

DirtyLittleSecret
09-15-2010, 10:50 AM
Confession:
I am actually literally really sad to see my fav people here on SW leave or go through this crap. I mean, i don't even know these people personally but i grew to trust them and they really helped me. So in a sense they became, in my little hermit mind, my e-family. This place has become a 2nd home and without them, i don't think i want to see what will happen. I want this all to just go away and go back to the way it was.

Kellydancer
09-15-2010, 10:59 AM
Did you just say this Kelly? I am lol'n so hard right now!

That's what we say around here to those types of guys. It's not insulting white males (because there are many good ones), but the whole mentality. Just for the record, this is the only group I've heard this about. I would never say that about any other race.

Kellydancer
09-15-2010, 11:02 AM
I got stuck on one like this, but he never asked me to be his girlfriend. I don't feel bad that he didn't either. My conclusion was/is he is not ready to be in a healthy relationship with anyone because he can not have one with HIMSELF, so I know it was not me....Last time I seen him I told him this and he agreed with me :-\ I still hate the fact that I have a very hard time saying "no" to him (chemistry is STILL there three years now)....but for me to expect him to "change, settle, what have you" is not realistic...

He told me he was ready, then he wasn't. I told him I wasn't ready to get serious either because of my job situation, but still thought we'd see each other more than we do. I'm hoping it changes if I move near him (I want to move by him because he lives near jobs and downtown Chicago).

charlie61
09-15-2010, 02:29 PM
Confession:
I am actually literally really sad to see my fav people here on SW leave or go through this crap. I mean, i don't even know these people personally but i grew to trust them and they really helped me. So in a sense they became, in my little hermit mind, my e-family. This place has become a 2nd home and without them, i don't think i want to see what will happen. I want this all to just go away and go back to the way it was.

That's how this entire industry works. Strippers come and go (to clubs and SW), and they will be replaced by new waves of strippers. It sucks sometimes, but that's how it goes.

Rockette
09-15-2010, 02:42 PM
I'm so sick of my mom "asking" me to buy her a new car. She's made some pretty poor financial decisions in her life, so she thinks it is the duty of her children to purchase her a new vehicle. She is a hotel manager and makes some decent cash, but constantly complains that she never has any. I opened her up an ETrade account yesterday with some stock options advice, but she never bit on it (only talking about playing with 100-200 dollars here) outside of the normal 401k.

I still never even got a thank you for taking them on vacation with me and paying for the whole bill (was a cruise). All my dad did was bitch about having to adhere to a damn time schedule too...

I'm glad I still talk to my parents, but at times I want to smack the two of them with a hammer.

_Avery_
09-16-2010, 12:42 AM
Delete.

carmen_b
09-16-2010, 08:15 PM
I can't beleive I'm doing this ! I'm having the hardest time keeping myself entertained and busy / productive when I'm not dancing. I ripped my best friend a new one for calling me whining about what to do with herself on her days off and now I'M that person . ;(
I used to plan / be into so many fun activities. I spent most of the day pouting . I know I'm not going to get cuddles and playtime with boy and I'm not happy about that ..... but also too lazy to throw makeup on and go out. I begin a little strip trip Monday, but you'd at least think I'd want to enjoy the weekend here instead of wasting it.

carmen_b
09-16-2010, 08:37 PM
I can't deal with J's work schedule! ;(
Mandatory overtime until 8:30.
I've never had dinner with the man till 9 or so other than the ONE weekend we shared off in 6 weeks. I guess that's just how life is but I have to admit I'm glad my dining sugar daddy reappeared so I at least will have something to do occassionally on weekday evenings.
I should probably date someone else too but I don't want to do that really. But ... I kind of need cuddles consistenly .... not just every other day. Damn it. Then again ... I can't really expect to find someone that has sunday / monday or tuesdays off ( the slow stripper days ) . How does everyone else deal with this ?

Rockette
09-16-2010, 08:44 PM
I can't deal with J's work schedule! ;(
Mandatory overtime until 8:30.
I've never had dinner with the man till 9 or so other than the ONE weekend we shared off in 6 weeks. I guess that's just how life is but I have to admit I'm glad my dining sugar daddy reappeared so I at least will have something to do occassionally on weekday evenings.
I should probably date someone else too but I don't want to do that really. But ... I kind of need cuddles consistenly .... not just every other day. Damn it. Then again ... I can't really expect to find someone that has sunday / monday or tuesdays off ( the slow stripper days ) . How does everyone else deal with this ?

Could get a dog. My parents have a samoyed, she's GREAT for cuddling, and always down for it! :D

http://fuzzywashe.com/yahoo_site_admin/assets/images/samoyed0013.8125111_large.jpg

_Avery_
09-16-2010, 09:16 PM
could get a dog. My parents have a samoyed, she's great for cuddling, and always down for it! :d

http://fuzzywashe.com/yahoo_site_admin/assets/images/samoyed0013.8125111_large.jpg


awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

carmen_b
09-16-2010, 10:52 PM
^ Man .... I love that dog ! So pretty ! I'm kind of scared to take care of another living thing ( other than my plants, some which are 11 years old so I AM capable ... just scared to have the responsibility of a dog ! ) . My ex and I had a yorkie and I loved that little guy so much. You've got me googling now though - so cute!

Jessie_tinydancer
09-17-2010, 12:43 AM
Im getting my drunk on at work tonight... cant wait. Bet I make a shit load too. In the best mood. Nothing can stop this bitch! Look out boys...your gonna need a padlock on that wallet.

Tasha_xoxo
09-17-2010, 02:16 AM
Im getting my drunk on at work tonight... cant wait. Bet I make a shit load too. In the best mood. Nothing can stop this bitch! Look out boys...your gonna need a padlock on that wallet.

thats the spirit!
you go girl,,lol.

Kisca
09-17-2010, 02:56 AM
My body is fucked.. Staying up till 6am.. cannot sleep at all for 2 weeks... not working this month - im suppose to have less stress... Sleeping A LOT than 11hrs in the afternoon after classes.. Having bad tummy aches for the past week. I am freaked out. Maybe its cause im off the pill recently?

Other than that I wanna choke/smack/murder my ex whom i live with. He is such a lazy fuck. i cant wait to see who he ends up with -- Secertly i think he's gay. You know how girls talk non stop and giggle.. well he does that over msn w/ his close guy friend.. wakes up to the computer and before bed.. Thats TRUE love... Hahah I wonder who takes it up

hot4ablackchick
09-17-2010, 02:01 PM
Looking for a new place to live....the cops out here are too fucking much.
Just got pulled over again, have ANOTHER ticket...driving on a revoked license.
Being the only car on the road at 2:00AM is the only reason I got pulled over.
Plates weren't ran, said I was going "a little fast"...because it was 35 and then it changes to 25 down a hill....fucking bs....I've had it with this fucking state and all the harassment!
I'm fucking done.

Hmmmm......I've been pulled over 4 times in the past two months. I also drive far to work and I have to go through very small "country" towns too. It really does suck.

_Avery_
09-17-2010, 02:46 PM
Im getting my drunk on at work tonight... cant wait. Bet I make a shit load too. In the best mood. Nothing can stop this bitch! Look out boys...your gonna need a padlock on that wallet.

lmao, I love this!
That's my attitude tonight too.
I'm actually excited tonight. Gonna party it up, gonna be with cool ass chicks, gonna look hot as possible, and gonna make some big bucks!

kaiarose
09-17-2010, 03:05 PM
Im getting my drunk on at work tonight... cant wait. Bet I make a shit load too. In the best mood. Nothing can stop this bitch! Look out boys...your gonna need a padlock on that wallet.


*gasp* you're going to drink at work??! Omg, that is so like unacceptable :P Us strippers should be above all that and should only dance stone cold sober dontcha know??!

DirtyLittleSecret
09-17-2010, 03:33 PM
.... My anxiety and fear that i'm not "good enough" is stopping me from camming. I spent all this time reading, motivating myself, getting set up to a site and ready..... i just can't push past the wall to press start. I beat myself up looking at other cam girls, trying to see where i would "stand" and its making my "perfectionist" side flair up. I get chocked up and i just end up not bothering. I wish i could just not think and do it! :worried:
I know i'm not ugly and i can charm the pants literally off any man when i want to. Why can't i do this? I'm as openly sexual as they come, i hang around guys all the time! This should be easy for me!:banghead:

whirlerz
09-17-2010, 03:58 PM
.... My anxiety and fear that i'm not "good enough" is stopping me from camming. I spent all this time reading, motivating myself, getting set up to a site and ready..... i just can't push past the wall to press start. I beat myself up looking at other cam girls, trying to see where i would "stand" and its making my "perfectionist" side flair up. I get chocked up and i just end up not bothering. I wish i could just not think and do it! :worried:
I know i'm not ugly and i can charm the pants literally off any man when i want to. Why can't i do this? I'm as openly sexual as they come, i hang around guys all the time! This should be easy for me!:banghead:

Yess^!!! I'm right w/you! I'm signed up on a few sites, keep procrastinating, & I even got a message from a prospective custie asking when I'm on. I so need the $ too.

KaylaM
09-17-2010, 04:01 PM
If you need the money so bad .... why hesistate and not do it. That means you don't really need the money :)

charlie61
09-17-2010, 04:10 PM
.... My anxiety and fear that i'm not "good enough" is stopping me from camming. I spent all this time reading, motivating myself, getting set up to a site and ready..... i just can't push past the wall to press start. I beat myself up looking at other cam girls, trying to see where i would "stand" and its making my "perfectionist" side flair up. I get chocked up and i just end up not bothering. I wish i could just not think and do it! :worried:
I know i'm not ugly and i can charm the pants literally off any man when i want to. Why can't i do this? I'm as openly sexual as they come, i hang around guys all the time! This should be easy for me!:banghead:

Have you told your hubby about this yet? I thought that's the reason why you hadn't started?

DirtyLittleSecret
09-17-2010, 04:27 PM
Have you told your hubby about this yet? I thought that's the reason why you hadn't started?

I believe i said this before, he doesn't mind it one bit cause its onhercam, a no pink site. So its not him stopping me one bit.... its myself. A self conscious wall. Basically not having confidence in myself and fear i will fail.

And Kayla, i don't need the money so naturally i'm in no real hurry or "fight" to get the green. I've a very comfortably living SAHM who just loves the voyeuristic thrill i guess. The money is merely side money for myself and daughter. There are other reasons why i want to do it but i prefer not to go there. No offense to anyone of course. I know a lot of you make your living from this and i in no means mean to step on anyone's toes.

KaylaM
09-17-2010, 04:29 PM
I believe i said this before, he doesn't mind it one bit cause its onhercam, a no pink site. So its not him stopping me one bit.... its myself. A self conscious wall. Basically not having confidence in myself and fear i will fail.

And Kayla, i don't need the money so naturally i'm in no real hurry or "fight" to get the green. I've a very comfortably living SAHM who just loves the voyeuristic thrill i guess. The money is merely side money for myself and daughter. There are other reasons why i want to do it but i prefer not to go there. No offense to anyone of course. I know a lot of you make your living from this and i in no means mean to step on anyone's toes.

My comment was directed to whirelz hun :)

jennsweet
09-17-2010, 06:39 PM
.... My anxiety and fear that i'm not "good enough" is stopping me from camming. I spent all this time reading, motivating myself, getting set up to a site and ready..... i just can't push past the wall to press start. I beat myself up looking at other cam girls, trying to see where i would "stand" and its making my "perfectionist" side flair up. I get chocked up and i just end up not bothering. I wish i could just not think and do it! :worried:
I know i'm not ugly and i can charm the pants literally off any man when i want to. Why can't i do this? I'm as openly sexual as they come, i hang around guys all the time! This should be easy for me!:banghead:

im the same way with doing movies... bf supports it, yet i can't do it. the extra cash would be great. i'd feel SOOO judged, and i can't seem to pull the trigger. I know that i'd be great, easy job, good money, fun and all that.... but i've been thinking that for the last 2 years!

Jessie_tinydancer
09-17-2010, 08:10 PM
Drained those fuckers wallets. But they took a bit of my soul. Hate it when that happens. Fuck! My only revenge is to repeat today. Sorry to the blues who read this but I really really hate men. I wish I was a dominatrix and I could beat the shit out of them.

Tasha_xoxo
09-17-2010, 10:09 PM
im sittin here with a huge piece of chocolate fudge cake,,
and a large glass of milk,,
fatty?

noelle
09-17-2010, 10:49 PM
My confession tonight: I love my husband to death but every once in awhile I really don't mind a night where he gives me head, goes out with his friends, and leaves me to my alonetime with my cat and my internets... I never get any time alone!}:D

carmen_b
09-17-2010, 11:14 PM
I went to a group outing and met V the mega hottie . 6'5" , tan , dark hair , beard, blue eyes. He was eyeing me. I did the right thing and went to meet J. He was tired and didn't come over ( I'm allergic to his cat , I can't stay there). I kind of regret it leaving to go find J when the outing was down to just 4 of us and Mr. 6'5'' was hinting that he was looking for something else to do that evening.
I don't even know if J and I are exclusive. Im thinking I should have gone for a coctail with V.

_Avery_
09-17-2010, 11:28 PM
Delete.

Harleigh HellKat
09-18-2010, 06:56 AM
Sooooo I just found out this guy I used to see from time to time moved back to my hometown. The interesting part is... he's super into fetish and I had no clue!!! :D Hmmmmm.... hehehe.

carmen_b
09-18-2010, 09:43 AM
^ how did you find out he was ? Does he know you dance ?

pixierocksonthepole
09-18-2010, 10:13 AM
Today is one of those days, I just want to punch my mom in the fucking face for being such a psycho.

Harleigh HellKat
09-18-2010, 10:56 AM
I added him on facebook under my modeling profile since I don't have a personal one yet. He found me on fetlife. :D It's just good to know kinksters in the area.

whirlerz
09-18-2010, 11:21 AM
Dislike judgemental people that don't know me, making comments about things they know nothing about..jumping to mistaken conclusions.

charlie61
09-18-2010, 02:53 PM
Drained those fuckers wallets. But they took a bit of my soul. Hate it when that happens. Fuck!

This is how I feel after I come home. My SO literally describes it exactly as you did. It feels like a little piece of me gets taken away every time I work.

Jessie_tinydancer
09-19-2010, 12:52 AM
^ I think we both said this before??? You're the other SWer that absorbs people's energy??? Its like I can feel bad people and they take my goodness. I only have to walk past someone on the street and I know if they are good or bad. But it really effects me.

charlie61
09-19-2010, 09:16 AM
^ I think we both said this before??? You're the other SWer that absorbs people's energy??? Its like I can feel bad people and they take my goodness. I only have to walk past someone on the street and I know if they are good or bad. But it really effects me.

YES. Exactly. I can get depressed just by going to the effing grocery store sometimes. Traffic, people not making eye contact with each other, frantic consumerism, straight up bad energy....yeah. I feel it all. And like you, I can read people's energy instantly. I'm very very very rarely wrong.

Glamgirl
09-19-2010, 09:22 AM
I have a date on wednesday and im dreading it. Ive never met the guy, my friend set it up through her friend and he just doesnt look like my type at all!!! We have txted a little and he seems ok just not physically my type!

DirtyLittleSecret
09-19-2010, 10:26 AM
...Confession
I'm jealous of the my fellow mommies who have more then one kid. Like my daughter's age (3) and a newborn. I would love to have another one, but we're not "there" yet (financially). I love my daughter to bits of course, but i would love to do it all over again. Damn you baby fever!

BeckieFox
09-19-2010, 11:37 AM
I think I went a bit overboard with the cheat day.
And now I feel so sick! Damn my junk food cravings![/quote]


Haha! Sounds like an average monday for me... :P

_Avery_
09-19-2010, 11:49 AM
...Confession
I'm jealous of the my fellow mommies who have more then one kid. Like my daughter's age (3) and a newborn. I would love to have another one, but we're not "there" yet (financially). I love my daughter to bits of course, but i would love to do it all over again. Damn you baby fever!


I get that too sometimes! Especially after watching shows like Teen Mom..lol
I really do want my son to have a sibling, someone to grow up with, but I really hate being pregnant. Especially since we're finally on our feet and doing okay financially. The last time I got pregnant, everything went to shit. That sounds awful, but that's when the economy went bad, I couldn't dance, my husband's hours got cut....lost our house....ugh...it sucked.
I have a fear of that happening again if I was to get pregnant.

Firewall
09-19-2010, 12:06 PM
I confess that I've been having an AMAZING time hanging out with a bouncer I work with. (So far) he's everything I've wanted and more, and the best part is I'm still pacing myself because I know I'm not ready for another committement this soon. *squee*!

Kisca
09-20-2010, 03:04 AM
I bit the crap of out my lip since I cannot sleep// hopefully it wont turn into a cranker sore// sleeping pills arent working and.. ughh fuck im really irrated. I really gotta go see a doctor tomorrow.

whirlerz
09-20-2010, 08:37 AM
If you need the money so bad .... why hesistate and not do it. That means you don't really need the money :)

There's other factors involved that I haven't mentioned about doing it. So, no, wrong!;)

KaylaM
09-20-2010, 08:39 AM
There's other factors involved that I haven't mentioned about doing it. So, no, wrong!;)

:( you didn't have to yell at me.

whirlerz
09-20-2010, 11:43 AM
No yelling, just use big letters when I don't have my glasses, thanks!